It's this disgusting day again, after dinner, I sat in the chair in front of the window dully, looking at the dense drizzle outside the window.On the wires hanging from the eaves, there is a string of water drops, crystal clear and transparent, like a pearl necklace.On the banana tree next to the fence, water droplets are rolling down from the broad leaves, one drop after another, rolling down on the muddy ground monotonously and continuously.Outside the wall, a street lamp stood tall in the drizzle, radiating its dim light indifferently, so lonely and proud, as if the world's affairs had nothing to do with it.Well, what does the world have to do with it?I sighed and stood up from my chair, anyway, it's time for me to go about my business.

Yiping, haven't you gone yet? Ma ran out of the kitchen. She had just washed the dishes, her hands were still wet, and the blue apron with white trim was still tied around her waist. I'm going.I said helplessly, looking for my umbrella in the corner of the house. When you get there, don't fight with them. Tell your dad that the rent can't be delayed any longer. We've already owed it for two months. I know, no matter what method I use, I just want the money!I said, still looking for my umbrella. Your umbrella is in the closet.Mom said, took out my umbrella from the closet, handed it to me, looked up at the sky again, and said in a low voice: Come back earlier, if you get the money, come back by tricycle!It's going to rain heavily.

I took the umbrella, got off the tatami, sat on the floor of the entrance, and put on my pair of rain or shine shoes.In fact, I don’t have a second pair of leather shoes. This pair of leather shoes was bought by my mother when I graduated from high school last year. I have been wearing them for a year and a half. How many times have the shoes been palmed, how many times have the threads been sewn, every time I bring it to the old man, he will always look at it, then shake his head and say: Is it still the same pair?It's almost time to fix it.Now, the uppers and soles of this pair of shoes are unraveled again. When I walk on a rainy day, all the muddy water runs in, and there is a gurgling sound every time I take a step, but I am too embarrassed to lift it to look for it. That old man.Fortunately, the house over there is made of terrazzo, so I don't need to take off my shoes, and I don't have to worry about whether my muddy feet can see people.

Mom sent me to the gate, held the door, stood in the rain, and watched me walk away.I walked a few steps, and my mother called from behind: Yiping!When I turned around, Mom said in a low voice: Don't lose your temper with them! I nodded and continued to walk forward for a while. Looking back, Mom was still standing there, her thin and small body looked so timid and lonely, and the street lamps dyed her pale face pale yellow.I waved to her, and she turned around and disappeared into the door.I watched the door close, then turned my head again, turned up the collar of my coat, shrank slightly in the cold wind, held the umbrella handle tightly, and walked forward.

The road from home to the other side is not far, but not too close. It takes about half an hour to walk, because there is no bus on this road, so I walk every time on foot.Luckily I only have to go once a month.Of course, this refers to when things go well. If things don’t go well and you don’t get money on the day you go, you may have to go two or three times. The weather is very cold, and the wind is as sharp as a knife when it hits the face. Although this Heping East Road is an asphalt road, the muddy water got into the shoes after walking a short distance. At the same time, another stream of muddy water got in again.The cold air spread from the soles of the feet to the heart, as if the whole person was immersed in cold water.

A car was speeding past me, and there happened to be a big pothole in the road, which splashed a lot of mud spots. Before I jumped away, all the mud spots had landed on the one I specially put on. Okay, that green dress is on.I brushed my hair with my hand. It was raining heavily, and there was a small hole in the umbrella. No matter how I turned the handle, the rain either leaked from the hole into my neck, or dripped on my cheeks.The wind rolled up the corner of my skirt, and the rain gradually soaked it, so it began to quietly stick to my leg, along my calf, and send water into my shoes.

I bit my lip and began to calculate the amount I should ask the man I called my father to ask for money. Eight hundred yuan for living expenses, one thousand yuan for rent, and a total of one thousand and eight hundred. I might as well ask him for a few hundred more. As the cost of our mother and daughter's winter clothes, it seems that my pair of shoes can't last this rainy season anymore. I turned a corner, walked along Xinsheng South Road to the intersection of Xinyi Road, turned another corner, and stopped in front of the two red-painted gates.The door was newly painted and smelled of paint. There was a small lamp on each side of the door, which made the golden sign of Lu Yu on the door more eye-catching.I reached out and pressed the electric bell, and took a hard look at the word Lu Yu, Lu Yu!This is the home of a person surnamed Lu!This is Lu Zhenhua's home!So, should I belong to this door?Or does it belong to the people outside this door?

The door opened, and the servant Alan who opened the door had two golden front teeth protruding from her lips, and a pair of protruding goldfish eyes.Holding a flowered parasol, she lowered her head, obviously not very welcome to my visitor on a rainy night. Looking at my wet clothes, she closed the door and said something to say: It's raining heavily!Miss didn't come by car? nonsense!When did I come by car?I frowned and asked: Is the master at home? exist!Alan nodded and walked inside. I walked along the concrete road in the middle of the yard. The yard is quite large. Flowers are planted on both sides of the cement road. There are camellias and Taiwan’s special hibiscus flowers. still appear clear.A faint scent of flowers came over.I took a deep breath, it's sweet-scented osmanthus!The sweet-scented osmanthus blooms in Taiwan for a long time. My mother likes osmanthus the most, but there are only a few cannas in our house.

Walking outside the glass door, I wiped my shoes on the insoles, put away the umbrella, put it under the eaves outside the glass door, opened the door and walked in.A gust of heat blowing over my face makes my whole body feel crisp, a lovely fire is burning in the living room, and the whole room is as warm as spring.The radio was turned on loudly, and it was playing American hits, the rough music with a kind of wild enthusiasm, shouting and calling. Mengping, my half-sister, Aunt Xue and Dad’s youngest daughter is reclining on the sofa next to the radio. She is wearing a bright red pullover and a pair of tight and thin jeans, making her plump figure even more attractive Attention.A silver-gray short coat was casually draped over her shoulders, and her short, messy hair fell fluffy over her ears and forehead.A standard Taimei attire, but very beautiful, she is like her mother, and full of temptation like her mother.Those big eyes and long eyelashes are all reprints of Aunt Xue, but the straight nose looks like Dad.She is reclining comfortably on the sofa, her feet are also curled up on the sofa, but she is beating time with her toes, two red satin embroidered slippers, one is on the armrest of the sofa, the other is on the radio above.She was chewing gum in her mouth, with an American movie magazine on her lap, shaking her head and listening to the music.Seeing me, she casually nodded to me, and shouted to the inside with a raised voice:

Mom, Yiping is here!I sat down on one of the divans, carefully pulling my wet skirt out of the way of the upholstery, and hiding my wet feet behind the chair.A kind of subtle vanity and self-esteem made me unwilling to let Mengping and the others see my embarrassment.But she didn't seem to care about me, she just listened intently to the music on the radio. I tidied up my hair, only to find that my ten-year-old little brother, Erjie, was staying in the corner like a ghost, leaning on a brand new Lanling bicycle with one foot on the pedal, Holding the handlebar with one hand, he looked at me coldly.His pair of small, sneaky eyes carefully looked at me from head to toe, and of course my miserable feet would not escape his sight.Then, he raised his eyes and stared at my face, as if there was something in my face that particularly interested him.He didn't greet me, and I didn't bother to talk to him.

He is Aunt Xue's youngest son, and his father gave birth to him when he was fifty-eight years old, so there is a full seven-year difference between him and Mengping.Also because he was the son of his father when he was old, he was especially favored.However, he is really not a lovable child. I remember my father once boasting: "My Lu Zhenhua's children must be beautiful!" This sentence is true. The brothers and sisters in my memory, no matter which mother they were born to, are all really beautiful.Take mom for example.She only had two children, me and my older sister Xinping.Xinping was born surprisingly beautiful, and by the age of fifteen or sixteen she had swept the entire city of Nanjing by storm.When she was young, she was very much loved by her father. My father often called her my little beauty, and took her to the big banquet and took her to ride a horse.Every time, in Dad's carriage, she was wearing a big straw hat, and Dad was holding a horsewhip, passing by on the main road in Nanjing, always attracting all the passers-by to stop and stare.However, she did not live long, and died of lung disease at the age of seventeen.After her death, I heard that there was a young military officer who went to her grave every day to offer a bouquet of flowers, until we left Nanjing, the officer did not stop offering flowers.This is a very romantic story, I remember being very moved by this story when I was young.I have always imagined that when I die, such a young officer will come to present flowers for me.When Xinping died, I was only ten years old.Later, although many people stroked my head and said to my mother: You see, the longer Yiping grows, the more she looks like her sister, another beautiful fetus. However, I deeply understand that there is no way for me to compare with Xinping.Xinping's beauty is not limited to her appearance, she has a serene demeanor and is gentle and tactful to others, she is definitely not as hot-tempered as I am.In my memory, Xinping should be considered the most beautiful among the sisters. This refers to the brothers and sisters I know, because no one can know how many women my father has had.Therefore, I am afraid that even he himself does not know how many children he has.Apart from Xinping, Ruoping, Nianping, Youping, and Aiping who stayed in the mainland are also famous beauties. Among the brothers, the fifth brother Erkang should be the most beautiful. Now in the United States, I heard that he has married a blonde wife and have three children. As for Aunt Xue's four children, the eldest, Erhao, although not as good as Erkang, is almost the same.The second one, Ruping, is four years older than me. She is twenty-four years old this year. Although she is not beautiful, she is passable.Seventeen-year-old Mengping is also recognized as a little beauty, but she is a little wild.As for my little brother Erjie?I really don't know how to describe him well?He wasn't ugly, it was just a natural unpleasantness.The eyes are small, with puffy eyelids and gloomy vision.The middle and chin are very short, making the face appear particularly short.The lips were well formed, but he often liked to press his tongue against his upper lip, as if he was missing two front teeth and had to use his tongue to cover it up.Coupled with his abnormally white skin, he looks like a little old man with third-stage lung disease, but his energy is very strong.In this family, relying on his parents' favor, he has always been a bully. On the radio, a song ends, followed by an announcer's voice.He reported the title of a song in English, and then reported a series of names of people who asked to sing, such as Mr. ×× at ×× Street ×× No. ×× to Miss ×× and so on.Mengping leaned her head on the back of the chair and listened carefully.Erjie was in his corner, glanced at his sister with great interest, then rolled his eyes quietly, and began to ring the bell on the bicycle, pedaling desperately, Let the wheels make a rattling sound.Mengping threw the magazine to the ground in a fright, and shouted to Erjie loudly: You troublemaker, push the car to the back and make noise again, be careful I will beat you!Erjie stuck out his tongue to his sister, rang the car bell nonchalantly and said: you dare!Boyfriend didn't order a song for you, so you lost your temper with me!Pooh!shameless!If you dare to touch me, I'll tell Dad to go! You ring the bell again to see if I dare to hit you!Mengping cried and said, looking at her younger brother in protest, she picked up the magazine from the ground, rolled it into a roll and pinched it in her hand, as if she was about to throw it over to beat Erjie. Erjie rolled his eyes again, raised his head high, and licked his nose with his tongue contentedly, but unfortunately his tongue was too short, and it was always circling on his lips.On the one hand, he pressed the car bell desperately, the bell was loud and crisp, with a bit of provocation. Mengping jumped up, held up the roll of magazine, and shouted: "Press it again!"You press again! Pressed, so what?A series of bells jingled and rolled out, and a smug smile appeared on Erjie's raised face. With a snap, the roll of pictorial flew towards Erjie's head, and landed on the tip of Erjie's nose in an unbiased manner.The ringing stopped abruptly, and Erjie rushed towards his sister, grabbed Mengping's sweater, bumped his head against Mengping's stomach desperately, and at the same time opened his voice, crying loudly Get up: Dad!mom!See Mengping hit me!Wow!Wow!Wow! The cries were so loud that the drums, trumpets, and singing on the radio were drowned out.If Aunt Xue didn't run out of the room in time, I really don't know if the house would be knocked down by his voice.Aunt Xue ran towards their siblings, grabbed Erjie, slapped Mengping in the face, and cursed: Are you ashamed to not let him go and fight with him as your older sister?You are seven years older than him!Bully him again and watch out for your dad to clean you up! What's so great about being seven years younger?You are all looking forward to him, buy him this today, buy him another tomorrow, I haven't bought the nylon petticoat I want until today, he already has a car!A petticoat cost only three or four hundred yuan, and his car cost more than four thousand yuan!Mengping put her hands on her hips and yelled bitterly. shut up!What do you call poor?I owe it to your father to beat me up! Aunt Xue scolded loudly, Mengping angrily kicked the small tea table next to the sofa, then sat down on the sofa, and vented her anger by doubling the volume of the radio. Immediately, the whole room was filled with Wild singing.Aunt Xue embraced Er Jie, touched his head with her hand, and said comfortingly: Where did you hit?Doesn't hurt? Erjie cried out in pain and sobbed uncontrollably, but there was not a single tear in his eyes.Aunt Xue turned around, seemed to have just discovered me, and said with a look of surprise: When did you come?How is your mother? good.I gritted my teeth secretly, feeling uneasy. Aunt Xue pulled Erjie, sat down on the sofa, and kept rubbing Erjie's head. Although Erjie's beating was not on his head, he didn't seem to have any intention of correcting this, and let his mother rub it. While sobbing non-stop, she quietly peeped indoors with those tearless eyes. Is dad home?I couldn't help asking, I really wanted to finish things quickly and go back to our humble little house. There was no luxurious equipment, no fire, no sofa, but I could breathe freely there.Mom must have been waiting for me. Since I had a conflict with Aunt Xue because I couldn’t get money last summer, every time I come here, Mom has to sweat.Poor mother, I have to endure as much as I can even for her sake. Zhenhua!Yiping is here!Aunt Xue didn't answer me, but called out to the house behind. Her age should be about the same as her mother, maybe forty-six or seven, but she doesn't look old at all. If she stands with her mother, people will definitely think that her mother is ten or twenty years older than her. In fact, her eldest son Erhao is five years older than me!Her skin is fair and delicate, although she is old, she is still not wrinkled or dry at all.She is very good at dressing herself up, and she always paints her face red and white, but she doesn't look too much. In addition, she has a pair of watery eyes that look forward to spring, and she has a special charm. This charm is many. You can't find it in young people.She was long and slender, but plump and well-proportioned, neither fat like middle-aged women nor skinny like Ma.Of course, she has been living a good life, not crying every day like her mother. Pa came out of the inner room, wearing a camel's hair robe and a little woolen cap, and smoking an ancient pipe from his day.He frowned and gave me a cold look with serious eyes.Although I don't like him, I still have to stand up and call him Dad respectfully.He waved his hand at me impatiently, as if he saw that my respectful attitude was not sincere, and asked me to avoid this nonsense.I was quite unhappy in my heart, and sat back helplessly and resentfully. Dad frowned even tighter, and turned around and shouted at Mengping: Turn off the radio!Mengping twisted her waist, pursed her lips, and reluctantly turned off the radio, and the room became much quieter immediately.Dad sat down beside Aunt Xue, looked at Erjie and said: What happened again? Did you have a fight with Mengping?Aunt Xue said that Erjie took the opportunity to double his sobs.Dad didn't speak, but glanced at Mengping gloomyly. Mengping pursed her lips, lowered her eyes timidly, and muttered in a low voice: So proud of buying a new car! Dad glanced at Mengping again, and Mengping tucked her head under the collar of her coat and fell silent.Dad turned his head to face me, his eyes were sharp and cold, the muscles on his face were tense, and there was no smile at all, as if a judge was asking a question: How about it?Is your mother in better health? Thank you for remembering her!I think.But he had to answer softly: It's still the same, and I often have headaches. If you are sick, it is better to be cured.Dad said, understatement. The cure is good, where is the money?In order to get 800 yuan a month for living expenses, I have already begged so lowly.I remained silent and didn't speak. Dad took down the pipe and tapped the ash in the ash tray on the coffee table. Aunt Xue took the pipe immediately, opened the jar of tobacco leaves, carefully filled the shredded tobacco, lit it with a lighter, and smoked it by herself. Suck and hand it to Dad.Dad took it over, took two deep breaths, leaned back on the sofa as if quite satisfied, and narrowed his eyes slightly. At this moment, he looked almost gentle and kind, with his two lips very low. His eyebrows stretched.The stern and somewhat cold light disappeared from his eyes.I am lucky that I was not bad when I came here, or that I can achieve my goal, besides living expenses and rent, I can get an extra sum! A little white poodle, Beibei, ran into the living room from behind, wagging its short, hairy tail furiously.Following behind it is its young mistress Ruping. Ruping is the eldest daughter of Aunt Xue, four years older than me, a shy girl with no personality, compared with her younger sister Mengping, she is very pale, she is not as beautiful as Mengping, let alone as lively as Mengping , Many times, she appears weak and incompetent, she never dares to talk to strangers, if she is forced to talk, she will say a lot of inappropriate words. And she never dresses herself as if whatever clothes come her way is out of order.And she is simply an idiot when it comes to the color matching of clothes.Take the present as an example, her upper body is a light green padded jacket, while her lower body is a pair of eggplant purple suit pants.There is a colorful scarf around her neck, and when she suddenly appears, she really looks like a Huadan in a Beijing opera! However, no matter how shy and incompetent Ruping is, she is the only person in this family that I don't hate, because she has a little kindness that Aunt Xue and the others lack.Plus, she's the only person in the family who isn't hostile or dismissive of me.Seeing me, she smiled at me, and looked at Dad a little timidly, as if Dad would scold her. Then she said softly: Ah, you are all here!He smiled at me again and said, "I didn't know you were here. I slept in the back. It's so cold. Yiping, do you still wear skirts?"I can't do it, it's too cold.She sat down beside me, yawned lazily, her hand just pressed on my wet skirt, and immediately cried out in amazement: Your skirt is wet, go inside and change mine ! No!I'm going back!I said. Bebe came over wagging her tail and rubbed her head against my leg. I touched her and she immediately put her two front paws on my knees. Her hair was so long that her eyes were dark. covered by fur.It looked at me from the middle of its fur with those pair of black eyes. I brushed off the fur in front of its eyes and looked at those black eyes rolling around. How I longed to have such a cute puppy! Beibei, come here!Aunt Xue yelled, and the puppy immediately jumped off my lap and walked to Aunt Xue.Aunt Xue stroked its fur with her hands, and said in a low voice, as if unintentionally: Look!I just took a shower and got covered in mud again! I glanced at Aunt Xue, feeling a sense of contempt in my heart. This woman can only use such obvious but not profound sentences to ridicule me. In fact, she hurt me far more than the superficiality she exposed. few.She was just the most shallow and meanest kind of woman, and I didn't speak. Dad was sitting on the sofa, smoking his pipe leisurely, and the smoke was constantly blowing out from his big nostrils. His nose was straight and straight, and it was placed in the middle of his face.Pa was said to have been very beautiful when he was young, but now his face had grown longer and his eyebrows and hair were gray, but that still didn't diminish his majesty.His skin is dark brown. Back then in the Northeast, there were not many people with his skin color. Therefore, this skin color became his symbol, and most people called him Black Panther Lu Zhenhua.At that time, he was an incomparable figure, a great warlord, and mentioning the Black Panther Lu Zhenhua would make many people famous and frightened. However, now that Black Panther is old and his former prestige and power are gone, he can only sit on the sofa and smoke a pipe.However, his complexion is still dark brown. Old age has not changed his complexion, nor has he changed his violent and irritable temper. I often think that if he is allowed to fight again now, he may be the same as when he was young. Brave and fierce. He was sitting on the sofa, facing me and Ruping, I subconsciously felt that he was secretly looking at me, as if he was looking for something in me.I'm a little uneasy because I'm thinking about how to ask him for money, which is the only reason I'm here. Dad, I finally spoke.Mom asked me to ask, is this month's money available?And the rent, which we already owe for two months. Dad looked at me through his narrowed eyes, his two low and thick eyebrows frowned slightly, and a cold smile flashed across his mouth, as if he was laughing at something.However, in just a split second, the smile disappeared. Before I could finish speaking, he turned around and said to Aunt Xue: "Xueqin, is their money ready?"Then, he turned his head to look at me again, his eyes widened, and he stared sharply at my face and said: I think, if it wasn't for the money, you probably wouldn't have come here, would you? I bit my lip and looked at Dad silently, feeling very angry in my heart. What does he want?Besides money, what else is left in my relationship with him?Of course, I wouldn't come unless it was to get money, and no one would welcome me, and this situation, could it be that I caused it?Why did he ask me this sentence?What right does he have to ask me this sentence?Aunt Xue pursed her lips, looked at me with a half-smile, and said to Ruping: Ruping, go get the 800 yuan in my drawer! Ruping stood up and went inside to get the money.I was surprised, eight hundred yuan!This is far from what we need! Oh, Dad, I hurriedly said: We owe two months of rent, we can't delay any longer, and we also need to make some winter clothes, the weather is getting colder every day, and the lunar year is almost over, mom only A velvet robe made a few years ago, my nose is red from the cold every day, and I am also in urgent need of making some more clothes. If Dad is not too difficult, it is best to give us more!I spoke in one breath, blushing at the tone of my own begging. How much do you want?Dad asked with narrowed eyes. Two thousand five hundred!I have the courage to say, in fact, I have never asked so much from my father in one breath. Yiping, you probably have a boyfriend, right?Aunt Xue suddenly interjected, still pursing the corners of her mouth and smiling slightly. I froze for a moment, unable to understand what she meant. She smiled softly and said: Once you have a boyfriend, you will fall in love with beauty, like Ruping, who wears that ragged padded jacket all year round and never says she wants to make another one.Originally, it is not easy to add a piece of clothes these days, and those who are in charge of the house have the hardships of being in charge.It's not like your mother here, you have only one daughter, and you have so much money, you can dress up as you like, there are four children here!Ruping is a bit older, so she has to eat a little bit, so she has no clothes to wear. Fortunately, she doesn't have a boyfriend, and she doesn't care. Our Ruping is such a good-tempered person. I looked at her silently for a while, and I deeply understood that for a person who is not worthy of your scolding, it is best not to scold him lightly.Sometimes eyes are more piercing than words.Sure enough, she flinched under my gaze, and that smile quickly disappeared, replaced by a layer of angry red tide.Seeing that the desired effect had been achieved, I turned my gaze back to look at Dad, who had a cold and unhappy expression on his face. May I?I asked. You seem to think it's very convenient for me to put up twenty-five hundred dollars.said Pa, looking up at me. I don't think so, but if you can buy Erjie a brand new Lanling bicycle, it shouldn't be too difficult to give us 2,500 yuan! The words slipped out of my mouth without thinking. Immediately, I knew that I had made a big mistake. Dad's brows were terribly frowned. From his ferocious and sharp eyes, I knew that I would definitely not get it today. It's that money. I think I have a right to my money.Dad said coldly: You are not qualified to accuse me yet.I can buy things for whoever I want, and no one can interfere with me!A smile appeared on Aunt Xue's white face again, and Er Jie also forgot to continue his sobbing. Oh, Dad, I swallowed hard, trying to make up for the mistakes I made: we can no longer not pay the rent, if we can't pay this month, we will be evicted, Dad, you can't let us have no place to live, can you? ? My money is very tight this month and I don't have any extra money. You can give 800 yuan to your mother first, and the rest will come before the Chinese New Year!said Pa, exhaling a thick puff of smoke. We can't wait for the new year!I was a little anxious, and a fire was burning rapidly in my heart.Unless my mother and I tighten our belts and don't eat! Anyway, Dad said sternly, his thick black eyebrows were knit together and pressed down on his eyes, showing a vicious look.I don't have any extra money now, only 800 yuan, you should save it, mother and daughter, how much money can you spend?What do you want so much money for? Aunt Xue suddenly laughed, squinted at me and said: Doesn't your mother have a lot of jewelry there?Is it going to be kept as a dowry for you?Over the years, your mother has saved some money for you, right?Your mother has always lived a life, unlike me, who has to sell things to make ends meet every day! I stared at Aunt Xue fiercely, I was surprised that Dad couldn't see her ignorance and greed!I barely suppressed my boiling emotions and bad temper, and just said coldly: I am not as lucky as Ping and Mengping. Come here to embarrass Dad! Oh, what a mouth!Aunt Xue said, still smiling: No wonder your mother asked you to get the money!To put it so pitifully, if your father has no money to give you, it seems that your father is abusing you! Ruping came out from the back room, handed a stack of banknotes to Aunt Xue, and sat beside me. I didn't hate her at first, but now I feel an indescribable disgust towards her, especially Seeing the sapphire ring on her hand, reflecting the lights and reflecting purple rays, how gorgeous and rich it is!And I'm struggling for a few hundred dollars in rent. Aunt Xue handed the money to Dad, and said with a half-smile: Zhenhua, give it to her, it looks like she doesn't want it! Do you want it or not?Dad asked impatiently, with a hint of threat. Dad, can't you give me more?At the very least, give me another thousand yuan to pay the rent, okay?I endured the anger in my stomach, and tried my best to say tactfully, I understand that I must get the money to go home today, and there are a hundred items waiting for the money at home. Let me tell you, Dad said with a tense face, "It's useless to say any more, just take the 800 yuan if you want, and forget it if you don't want it, I don't have time to soak mushrooms with you!" Dad, I swallowed my tears and tried my best to restrain myself. Without paying the rent, we have no place to live. You are my father, so I am here to extend my hand to you! Father?Dad raised his voice and said, "Father is not your creditor either!"Even debt collectors can't be unreasonable like you!Can it be done like a magic trick without money?Eight hundred yuan, do you want it?Don't just get out early!I don't have time to listen to your chatter!You are born with this trivial temper like your mother, it is simply annoying! I stood up suddenly from the sofa, blood poured into my head, and the anger I had accumulated for a long time burst out in an instant, and I looked fiercely at the man in front of me, the man I called my father!Reason has left me, and I can no longer restrain my tongue: I am not here to beg for food from you!It is your responsibility to raise me. If you hadn't used your power to force your mother to marry me when you were in Harbin, then there wouldn't be the two of us who hate you.If you don't give birth to me, it will be a kind of luck for you and me! My voice was unexpectedly high, and the words poured out of my mouth uncontrollably like pouring water. Even I was surprised that I had the guts to contradict my father. Contradictory people. Dad's back straightened, he took off the pipe from his mouth, put the money in his hand on the small coffee table, his sharp eyes seemed to burst into flames, and stared closely at my face.These eyes remind me of his nickname Black Panther Lu Zhenhua.Yes, this is a leopard, the eyes of a leopard, the expression of a leopard!His two thick eyebrows were knotted between his brows, his lips were tightly closed, and his breathing came out heavily from his big nostrils. For a while, he stared at me without speaking.His withered but still strong hand clenched the armrest of the sofa, with blue veins protruding from the back of his hand. I knew that I had aroused his temper. Based on my experience, I knew what would happen. I Offended a vicious leopard! What do you mean?Dad looked at me and asked, his voice low and powerful. I felt that Ruping was gently pulling the corner of my clothes, implying that I should find a way to turn things around.I saw Mengping curled up nervously on the sofa, staring at me in surprise.I flinched a little, and my dad yelled at me again in an astonishingly loud voice: explain!What do you mean? I was startled, and suddenly saw Aunt Xue leaning on the sofa, with her nasty smile still on her face, and Erjie leaning on her arms with his mouth open.Anger ruled me again, I forgot my fear, I forgot that the person in front of me was a warlord who killed people like a child's play, I forgot my mother's exhortations before I left, and I forgot everything!I just felt that I was rushing out with words full of venting, I raised my head, and shouted desperately: I don't mean anything, I just cast the wrong baby and became Lu Zhenhua's daughter!If I had been reborn in another family, I wouldn't have reached out to my father to beg for a bite of food like I do now!Even the animals know how to take care of their children, but to me having a father is tantamount to not having a father!Dad, where is your humanity?Even if you don't have feelings for me, Mom was always loved by you and you got it by doing everything possible, so you don't have any feelings for me now Pa got up from the sofa and the pipe slid off him to the floor.He stared at my face tightly, a pair of leopard-like eyes burned with a cruel light, his face was terribly distorted due to anger, the veins on his forehead couldn't stop beating, he took a step towards me walked over step by step. who are you?How dare you speak to me like this?Dad yelled: I lived to be sixty-eight years old, and no one has ever dared to teach me a lesson!Erjie, go get me a rope! I instinctively took a step back, but the sofa chair blocked me, so I had to stand there.Erjie was so excited that his eyeballs protruded from his sockets, and he immediately went to find the rope as fast as an arrow.I don't know what dad is going to do with me, tie me up or strangle me?I began to feel a bit of fear. Ruping sitting on the sofa was trembling all over, shaking the sofa and chairs, which affected my courage, but anger made me unable to use my thoughts, and time did not allow I escaped.Erjie quickly ran out with a thick rope. Dad took the rope and approached me. Seeing him walking over holding the rope, I said angrily: you can't touch me!You have no right to touch me!這許多年來，你等於已經把我和媽驅逐出你的家庭了，你從沒有盡過做父親的責任，你也沒有權利管教我 Yeah?爸從齒縫中說，把繩子在他手上繞了三四圈，然後舉得高高的，嚷著說：看我能不能碰你！ 一面嚷著，他的繩子對著我的頭揮了下來，如萍慌忙跳了起來，躲到她妹妹夢萍那兒去了。我本能的一歪身子，這一鞭正好抽在我背上，由於我穿著短大衣，這一鞭並沒有打痛我，但我心中的怒潮卻淹沒了一切，我高聲的，盡我的力量大聲嚷了起來：你是個魔鬼！一個沒有人性的魔鬼！你可以打我，因為我沒有反抗能力，但我會記住的，我要報復你！You will regret this!你會受到天譴！會受到報應 你報復吧！我今天就打死你！ 爸說，他的鞭子下得又狠又急，像雨點一樣落在我的頭上和身上，我左右的閃避抵不過爸的迅速，有好幾鞭子抽在我的臉上，由於痛，更由於憤怒，眼淚湧出我的眼眶，我拚命的叫罵，自己都不知道在罵些什麼。終於，爸打夠了，住了手，把繩子丟在地下，冷冷的望著我說： 不教訓你一下，你永遠不知道誰是你的父親！ 我拂了拂散亂的頭髮，抬起頭來，直望著爸說： 我有父親嗎？我還不如沒有父親！ 爸坐進了沙發，從地上拾起了他掉下去的煙斗，深深的看了我一眼。他的憤怒顯然已經過去了。從茶几上拿起了那八百塊錢，他遞給我，用近乎平靜的聲調說： 先把這八百塊錢拿回去，明天晚上再來拿一千五去繳房租和做衣服！怎麼，他竟然慷慨起來了？如果我理智一點，或者骨頭軟一點，用一頓打來換兩千三百元也不錯，但我生來是倔強任性的！我接過了錢，望著爸和雪姨，雪姨還在笑，笑得那麼怡然自得！我昂了一下頭，朗聲說： 從今天起，我不再是陸振華的女兒！我望著爸，冷笑著說：你錯了，兩千三百元換不掉仇恨，我再也不要你們陸家的錢了！我輕視你，輕視你們每一個人！不過，我要報復的！現在，把你們這個臭錢拿回去！說著，我舉起手裡的鈔票，用力對著雪姨那張笑臉上扔過去。 當這些鈔票在雪姨臉上散開來落在地下時，我是那麼高興，我終於把她那一臉的笑摔掉了！我回轉了身子，不再望他們一眼，就衝出了玻璃門。在院子裡，我一頭撞到了剛從外面回來的爾豪身上，我猛力的推開了他，就跑到大門外面去了。 當我置身在門外的大雨中，才發現我在狂怒之中，竟忘記把雨傘帶出來，為了避免再走進那個大門，我不願回去拿。靠在牆上，我想到等我帶錢回去的媽媽，和她那一句親切而淒涼的話：如果拿到了錢，就坐三輪車回來吧！我的鼻子一陣酸，眼淚就不受限制的滾了下來。 於是，我聽到門裡面爾豪在問：怎麼回事？我剛剛碰到依萍，她像一隻野獸一樣衝出去！ 管她呢！她本來就是隻野獸嘛！是雪姨尖銳而憤怒的聲音，接著又在大叫著：阿蘭！alan!拿拖把來拖地！每次她來都泥狗似的弄得一地泥！ 我站在那兩扇紅門前面，鄭重的對自己立下了一個誓言： 從今以後，我要不擇手段，報復這棟房子裡的每一個人！翻起了外套的領子，我在大雨中向家裡走去，雨水濕透了我的衣服和頭髮。