Chapter 10 chapter Ten

In the early morning, Peiyin slept very restlessly and unsteadily. She kept dreaming, and the faces of her mother, father, brother, and doctor appeared alternately in front of her. She seemed to be back six years ago. Dr. Zhong was studying with them It's not about surgery. My mother objected, and my father couldn't come up with an idea. Only she agreed, because she knew that her younger brother would be eaten away by cancer cells and die without surgery. There is still a glimmer of hope for surgery.She agreed, agreed that her brother didn't wake up from the operating table, and her mother hated her to death. She turned over, the weather was so hot, and their house couldn't afford air-conditioning, and she felt sweaty all over.She touched her forehead with her hand, turned the pillow over, and went back to sleep.She was dreaming again, and Zhao Zigeng, Xianxian, Songchao, Virgin, and Weizhi shook their heads in distress, trying to get rid of these figures.I will pick you up at noon.Zhao Zigeng said.No, I have an appointment at noon.she says.What about the noon date?Song Chao didn't come, a half-mature child who couldn't remember the promise he had made.Zhao Zigeng slammed into the car door, it was really loud, what was it ringing?She was startled and woke up only to hear the phone beside the bed beeping wildly.The phone is for my mother. The doctor has warned her that there is such a patient in the family who may be in danger at any time. She needs a phone and the numbers of all hospitals, emergency services, and lifelines.She grabbed the phone receiver and looked at her watch subconsciously. It was ten past five in the morning. Which daredevil is this?

Hello?She asked sleepily: "Which one?" Peiyin, is that you?Such a young voice, so familiar.She was taken aback and really woke up.Song Chao?she asked.Yes, it's me.There was something special in Songchao's voice, a kind of disturbing frustration and annoyance, what happened to him? What's wrong?Is there a problem?she asked. can you come outThere was a hint of pleading in his tone. now?yes now.He said: I am right in front of your house, I made the call from the public phone booth at the entrance of the alley!Are you at my door?She asked in astonishment, in disbelief.Do you know what time it is?I know, at 5:10 in the morning, I just drove back to Taipei overnight from Fulong.Furlong?What are you talking about?

Please come out!He begged.Come out and I'll tell you everything.The payphone is only for three minutes, and I don't have a second coin. OK, I'll come out.She hung up the phone. Lifting off the quilt, she got up, went to the bathroom to freshen up, and changed into a light yellow short-sleeved dress with coffee trim.On the bare arm, there was indeed a scar left by the wound. Although the stitches had been removed long ago, the needle holes of the stitches were still clear, and the redness had not completely disappeared. She looked at the arm, and the scar looked like a centipede. Since Chao missed the appointment at noon that day and didn't pick her up to change her dressing, she hadn't seen him for two weeks.

Quietly through the small courtyard and out of the gate, she saw Songchao at a glance, standing under the electric pole opposite her house. Beside him, there was a brand new Automobile. He was leaning on the car with his hands in his hands. Holding it to her chest, she stared obsessively at the door of her room.She closed the door and walked towards him. Where is the car from?she asked.Very surprised, very puzzled. mine.he said, opening the door.It was a joint venture between the elder sister and the second sister who gave it to me.He murmured in the car: Come in, let's talk in the car, okay?

She obediently got into the car, and immediately, a strong smell of perfume lingered in her nostrils. She didn't use perfume herself, and she never could tell the smell and brand of perfume.However, the smell of this perfume is so familiar, it definitely does not belong to the sisters of the Yu family. Although the two sisters of the Yu family came from wealthy families, neither of them has the habit of using perfume.She took a deep breath and knew why the perfume smelled so familiar.Virgin Lin!She should have guessed.She hadn't seen him since the day she introduced Virgin to him.She turned her head slightly and watched him sit in the driver's seat, his face was troubled and sad, why?Virgin was torturing him, playing tricks on him!She was giving him a hard time, cat and mouse game!Peiyin bit her lip, deliberately did not speak, turned her head and looked out of the car window, it was already dawn, and the misty white mist was slowly dissipating, today would be a sunny day, she thought vaguely.He didn't speak, and suddenly started the car.

Hey, she was stunned.Where are you going? I just want to find a place with few people, he said, frowning slightly.Don't worry, I won't delay your class. I will definitely send you to the school gate before eight o'clock. She looked at him.The summer vacation just ended last Saturday.she says.I no longer need to go to class.oh!He responded and looked at her uneasily.I think, I have neglected a lot of things, made a lot of mistakes, I missed the appointment, is your wound healed? alright.She looks ahead.As long as treatment and time, any wound will be healed!He looks at her arm.But it leaves a scar, doesn't it?

She suddenly laughed, and felt that their conversation was like a philosopher talking about argots, all with a little pun.He drove the car in the direction of the inner lake, and parked beside a small stream. The place has not been fully developed yet, with green mountains and green waters, and a little primitive flavor.There seems to be a temple in the mountain, the sound of bells and chimes and Sanskrit singing can be heard faintly.She rolled down the window glass, and she could almost smell some sandalwood, which diluted the perfume in the car a lot.What are you looking for me for?she asked.

I think I made an unforgivable mistake.He said sternly. oh?At noon yesterday, Virgin came to see me.He bit his lip, with a hint of shame in his eyes.You know, these days, Virgin comes to see me a lot, sometimes calls the company, sometimes just comes to my house.We used to have dinner together, or go to nightclubs to dance, and she danced first rate, from the most difficult tango to disco, she knew everything.Um.She answered.Yes, she's lively, competent, and gregarious I suppose, you're having a good time these days? For a while.He said frankly: like drunk, like smoking marijuana, suddenly he was so groggy and forgot many things, such as my date with you, I didn't blame you for taking you to change your medicine.She said quietly: Besides, I also guessed what was going on.She stared at him deeply, feeling some faint pain in her heart.She had waited for that date, and for that date she had turned down another one.However, the pain was not serious. As soon as Virgin appeared, she already had a premonition. She never thought she could catch a man, and she was never ready to catch Song Chao.Her faint pain was quite subtle, and her self-esteem was hurt far more than her feelings, or it was just vanity.You don't have to be sorry to me, Song Chao, she said sincerely: I told you earlier that you are like my younger brother, as long as you are happy, as long as you are satisfied, I will bless you.

Are you serious?He stared into her eyes. Of course it is true!He was silent for a moment, and then, he leaned back on the cushion, closed his eyes, and let out a long sigh.His face was haggard and desolate. What's wrong?She was puzzled.You are so weird today! I hope you scold me, scold me hard.He gritted his teeth and said: I hope you will be jealous, jealous to a mess.I hope you slap me and punch me hundreds of times instead of blessing me quietly like this. She smiled faintly.I'm not a child anymore, Songchao.She said: "Also, there's nothing wrong with you enjoying your youth.Do you know where I come from?he asks.

Furlong.She interfaced: You already told me.I just don't understand, it takes about four hours to drive from Fulong back to Taipei.four hours?So you've been driving since one o'clock in the middle of the night? Not bad at all.We went swimming in Fulong, and it was getting dark. She said it was too dangerous to drive at night, and advised me to stay overnight in Fulong.We rented a cottage, I didn't know there was only one room in the villa, I was going to help her rent another one, and she said she was afraid of ghosts so, so oh, I don't know if I'm being fair, because, actually , she also rejected me and advised me to keep it and I didn't listen to her.I hoped to be silent all night, but I failed.Afterwards, I fell asleep for a while. When I woke up, it was about twelve o'clock in the middle of the night. I opened my eyes and suddenly saw her smiling. How should I say it?A triumphant laugh.She is asleep, but laughs in her sleep.I sat up and looked at her.At that moment, I felt like a basin of cold water poured from my head.I suddenly understood one thing, like an inexperienced Lu man, I was caught by others in a daze.I asked myself, is this done out of love?I heard tens of thousands of voices shouting in my head: No!no!no!Especially, when I sat there looking at her, I was almost disgusted.It's boring for me to say that, isn't it?A man, before he gets a woman, finds her charming and tempting, but after he gets it, he hates her!But, I have to confess, I do hate it, and I feel like I've been tricked all the way through!It's not fair to say that, who taught me to fall for it?My deeper dislike is for myself.For so many years, I have kept a foolish purity, partly because I was timid, almost shy.However, the main reason is that I have a stubborn belief that the soul and the body must be one.And last night, I wrecked everything.I was angry, annoyed, filled with guilt and hated myself for touching her.So, I woke her up and ordered her to get dressed. Even at night, I drove back to Taipei and sent her home first.Then, I will come to you.

She watched him and listened to this frank conversation, so frank it made her blush.She looked out of the window and scratched the windowpane lightly with her fingers. She asked: Why did you tell me this? Because you said I was immature. Well.She answered vaguely. you are right.He watched her closely, troubled and frustrated.I can't stand a little test, I can't stand a little temptation, I'm just a child.Pei Yin said her name lightly: Forgive me! She blushed.Sitting there, she didn't move, just looked at the stream outside the window and listened to the murmur of the running water.I don't know how long time passed, and then, she turned around and looked at him.The flush on her face subsided, and her eyes were sincere and gentle.Song Chao, she said softly and calmly: You are still just a child, an innocent child.What's the meaning?He was puzzled. You tell me this, you ask me to forgive you, what do you take me for? You know he stammered: You already knew.I don't say love to you all the time!She interrupted him quickly.Otherwise, you will be as upset as you were when you made a mistake last night for a long, long time. He stared at her dumbfounded. Listen to me, Songchao.She looked directly at him.You don't love me. My love refers to the narrow sense of love between a man and a woman. You respect me more than you love me, right?You will tell me what happened last night, you know, in your subconscious, who am I?I am like a priest, and you are like a Catholic. Catholics confess in front of priests in order to alleviate their guilt.This is definitely not love! Peiyin!He yelled irritably: you Let me finish.She cut him off.Song Chao, let me tell you, I have loved and been loved, no matter how short that love is and how unbearable the test of time is, at that time, we all loved very sincerely and purely.Love is not only about admiration for the other party, but also attachment, pity, appreciation, caring and even possessiveness, as well as the lingering feeling of not seeing each other for a day, like three autumns.Do you have such complicated feelings for me? He was stunned for a long while, and then reluctantly said: How do you know no?If there is, you will not be attracted to Virgin!She sighed and said: If there is, you will no longer be able to accommodate others in your eyes!If you had, you wouldn't miss me for two weeks or even forget about our date! You know, I was temporarily confused by his hasty explanation.I am already asking for your forgiveness I totally forgive you!She opened her eyes wide and said: I said this not to blame you, but to explain to you what love is.Song Chao, you are too simple, too naive, and too kind.You haven't loved at all, so you can't understand what love is at all.You think you love me, but in fact, your feelings for me are mixed with your love for Songping, Songheng and Songrui, and I am fresher than them.I am not your sister.In other words, I am a character who is similar to a sister, but more than a sister, a mixture of friendship and family affection. If you think about it carefully, you can figure it out.In the process of growing up, we all have some secrets. We don't want to tell our parents, we don't want to tell our sisters, but we would rather tell a good friend.I am a good friend of yours.Beyond the feelings of the opposite sex, we are neutral friends. He lowered his head and looked at the steering wheel in front of him. He fiddled with his fingers on the steering wheel and fell into some kind of deep thought.He was thinking about her words, chewing her words, and the more he thought about them, the more reasonable he felt.After a long while, he took a deep breath, pulled himself together, and said softly: In other words, you have never had a little, a little, a little bit of affection for me?Her face suddenly flushed red again. No.Her frank whispers.Once, I really fell for you. His eyes lit up.when?he asked. Forget it, she shook her head.Forget it.Even at that time, I only thought you were a pure and warm child, and I was afraid of hurting your emotions far more than the love between men and women.Anyway, I screwed it up, didn't I?He suddenly lost. No.That's good for us, sympathy is not love.She stared at him and patted his knee caringly, completely like a kind big sister.Songchao, listen to me!Um.Stay away from Virgin!She said sincerely: I am afraid What are you afraid of?Afraid you'd be one of her fish, she's been fishing.You are a big, fat, easy fish.He was silent.Don't be so downcast, she smiled and looked at him encouragingly: I bet, one day you will meet a girl who really makes you fall in love, at that time, you will understand what love is.At that time, you will appreciate what I said to you today.Really, Song Chao, this day will come sooner or later! He bit his lip, still silent. She looked at her watch, the time passed so quickly, it was already half past nine.She was startled suddenly, her father must have thought she was missing!She hurriedly patted Song Chao and said hurriedly: Please please, send me back!Otherwise, my dad will think that I eloped with you, and then I won't be able to wash it off. He sighed and started the motor. On the way home, the two of them were very silent. He peeked at her, but she had an open and upright face, and a calm and peaceful face.She was right!he thinks.Although he admired her, admired her, and even worshiped her, it was not love.Suddenly, he felt that he had transformed during the night and the morning, he was struggling to shed the young shell, and he was about to develop into an adult insect.He looked at her again, she was so deep and noble!He thought of Virgin, Virgin is a stunner, but Peiyin is like a saint!If Virgin is attributed to flesh, Peiyin is purely spiritual. The car turned into Peiyin's alley. Suddenly, Peiyin reached out and grabbed him nervously. parking!she called.He hurriedly stopped the car and asked in confusion: What's the matter?She looked straight ahead, and he followed her gaze, so he saw at a glance that a well-polished Mercedes was parked in front of her house.His first thought was that something happened to her family, maybe her mother fell ill again, and the car came to take her to the hospital.However, I have never heard that the ambulance in that hospital uses Mercedes-Benz!While he was wondering, she had already opened the car door and got out of the car.He was worried, so he parked the car on the side of the road and followed her out of the car.When he got to her door, he saw the driver in the car, wearing a white uniform, why?Did any royal relatives come to her house?The gate was open, Pei Yin only nodded hurriedly with Lao Liu, and walked directly into the small courtyard, her heart was beating wildly, and she didn't know why she was so nervous and excited.As soon as she stepped into the small courtyard, she immediately saw that her father was standing in the small courtyard, talking to someone. The man had long hair hanging down his shoulders, and was wearing a white gauze dress as thin as cicada's wings. , as bright as the sun shining, as white as white clouds coming out of Xiu That's slender!Uncle Han is speaking softly, his voice is clear and pleasant.You must tell Mr. Han that I have been here!I will send more and more flowers! Only then did Peiyin see that the small courtyard was full of flowers, including amaryllis, hydrangea, amaranth, amaranthus, elixir, bougainvillea, dragon spit beads, envoys, and Wood roses and countless pots of marigolds!Colorful, colorful, filled the entire small courtyard.And Xianxian was dressed in white, standing in the group of flowers, like a flower fairy! slender!She couldn't help shouting. Xianxian looked back suddenly, her eyes were shining with brilliance, her fair face was shrouded in joy, her skin was as smooth as satin, translucent in the sun, she was as beautiful as a crystal glass sculpture. Oh, Teacher Han!She ran over with small steps, and immediately held Peiyin's hand enthusiastically. She shook her, held her tightly, laughed and shouted: I really thank you, thank you, thank you, a hundred thanks, a thousand thanks !Why don't you come to my house to play?Although you don't need to teach me, you are still my good teacher!You don't know how much I miss you, not just me, grandma misses you too, Mama Wu misses you too, our whole family misses you!My dad asked me to send you some flowers, especially those marigolds!oh!She answered, her heart was in a mess, she looked at Hua, then at Xianxian.Xianxian moved a pot of marigolds, and then a pot of yellow flowers that grow upwards in a spike shape. She put the two pots of yellow flowers side by side, raised her head and smiled at Pei Yin, that smile was like a warm spring sun. And cheerful. This pot of yellow flowers is called snapdragon. It's strange, isn't it?The name of the flower is grass?My father found a book, which said that every flower has a meaning. He asked me to tell you that the meaning of snapdragon is arrogance, and the meaning of marigold is very bad, which represents parting, so he asked me not to send marigolds. for you.But, later, he said, you can send it, put the marigold and the snapdragon together, and the sum is one sentence: Farewell, arrogance!I didn't understand what he meant, so I asked him, and he said: He is apologizing to you!He also said, if you accept these two potted flowers, you will accept his apology, so please stop blaming him!She spoke in one breath, Lin Lin Ran, Lang Lang Ran, her voice was as light as birdsong on treetops.I don't know how my dad offended you, but you know my dad!That's how he was. She laughed and stuck out her tongue gently.Well, that's a little arrogant, a little unreasonable, but his heart is very good.He never apologized to anyone!Teacher Han, don't be angry! She was stunned, she was really stunned.She looked down at the two pots of snapdragon and marigold, and then looked up at Xianxian.She was dazed and confused, and her heart suddenly seemed to be stuffed into a tangled mess.Farewell, arrogance!what does he mean?Oh, he has seen through her, he has read her inner resistance to his sense of superiority.Apologize?Will he apologize to people too?No, pride is a stubborn germ, and he still couldn't completely give up his pride, so he sent Xianxian here.Xianxian still grabbed her wrist, her thin white gauze dress was fluttering in the breeze, her long black and jet-black hair was pouring down like water, between her brows and under the eyes, filled with the beauty of her childhood. Unseen joy, but also a faint timidity and shyness.Seeing that Peiyin was hesitant to speak, she became a little anxious. She shook her lightly, rubbed her lightly, called her lightly, snuggled up to her softly, and said again and again: Don't be angry, Teacher Han.You've got those two pots of flowers, haven't you?You got it!My father said, as long as I send it, you will definitely accept it!Why?Because she elongated her voice, smiled quietly, and exclaimed in satisfaction: You are so kind-hearted!You are so so so so like me!You are so so so unwilling to touch me with nails! Peiyin was dumbfounded, she couldn't say a word in front of this pure angelic face.Behind her, watching silently all the time, with a kind of shocking novelty and brand-new surprise, Song Chao had circled around them at some point, staring at Xianxian, he was also dumbfounded watching and listening, and in their conversation In the meantime, if you realize something.