Chapter 13 Thirteen

Kang Ken lifted the curtain: It was almost dawn, and we talked all night. Yes, please finish the last paragraph in one breath, I said, I am very concerned about Miss Bi Naifu, how is she?What happened to her mother?Later, there was a love affair between Naifu and you, didn't it? Kang Ken nodded, and continued: Nai Fu has finished high school and is working as a teacher in the elementary school attached to a Christian middle school.She couldn't afford to go to college, and she had to support a family whose father had cut them off financially for years.Mrs. Bi looked very old and weak, but she was very comforted to have such a hardworking and filial little daughter.She told me over and over:

In the past few years, thanks to our little Fuzi, although she was so naughty and mischievous when she was young, she is really a good girl when she grows up. Nai Fu already knew about Professor Bi, and she said angrily: Victory, Dad still hasn't come back to Tianjin, I can also guess that he must have done something to sorry mother.Sure enough, a few days ago, the newspaper published the news about my dad, and he changed his name, but my mother said with certainty that the photo published in the newspaper was definitely him.Da Deng said in the newspaper that he flew to Peiping with his wife from Shanghai, and that he was a famous professor of sociology. Hmph, I don’t know how he studies sociology?If everyone committed bigamy like him, abandoned their wives, and ignored their wives and daughters, it would be no wonder that society would not be in chaos!

You didn't go to Peiping to find your father?I asked. No, Nai Fu said, the newspaper said that he returned to Shanghai after delivering two lectures in two universities.I was determined to go and teach that woman and my ruthless father a lesson; my mother stopped me, she was a wonderful woman, she said let them go, scolding can't make a man change his mind Looking back, as for that woman, she may have been deceived, and she is also to blame. Of course, Mom was very sad and cried for several nights. Aunt Bi's heart is so kind that she still has pity on that woman. I said, the woman your father begged for is a Communist Party!

ah!Nai Fu called out, then I have to find a way to go to Shanghai to find my father, he can ask for any filthy woman, but I can't watch him ask for a Communist Party.This is for his own good, he will be killed by the Communist Party! There is no cure for a terminally ill person, and I said sadly, yes, I forgot to ask you, did you receive a letter from Kunming that I sent you four years ago? received.Coincidentally, the Pacific War broke out the next day, and before I had time to reply, the post office announced that there would be no mail between Tianjin and Yunnan. I told the mother and daughter Naifu about Professor Bi's situation in detail, and finally I said:

Now your father will not stop falling into the embrace of the CCP.For this kind of person, the Communist Party will praise him for a day if he has the value of using it for a day; Let's stop talking about Professor Bi.I suggested we should talk about something fun or go outside.Naifu reminded me that I should first go to Tonglou Cemetery to see Naixin's tomb. We put a large bouquet of flowers there, bowed our heads together and prayed for a long time.Nai Fu cried, and I cried too. We go to dinner together and drink coffee afterwards.We told each other about our respective lives since we broke up six years ago.We seem to have more to say.

I stayed in Tianjin for three days, then rushed back to the defense line.For three days, I met Nai Fu every day. I once prevented myself from staying by Naifu's side, because every time I saw her, I couldn't help but think of Naixin, and I couldn't help but feel pain in my heart; but only being with Naifu can bring me a little peace from this trauma Because with her, I can still see the shadow of Naixin, find the charm of Naixin, hear the voice of Naixin, and see the smile of Naixin Our troops left Shanhaiguan, and after several tough battles, they recovered Jinzhou and Liaoyang.Then, we stationed in Shenyang.After Shenyang was conquered, amidst the warm celebrations and carnivals, our officers and soldiers began to be proud, underestimate the enemy, and seek pleasure

Most of the officers have small bungalows and married young and beautiful wives.Those who are not married, linger in the dance hall and bar every day.Some senior military officers do business with businessmen.Sometimes, I can't help but think that going on like this will affect the morale of the army; but I quickly forgive them, they have suffered for too long, they should also be a little more comfortable, compared to the domineering and luxurious luxury of some other receiving officials , isn't it still a big deal? We were ordered to continue the march.In the Battle of Gongzhuling, I was wounded.I was sent to Shenyang for treatment.After the operation, the body is a little weak.At this time, in order to let me continue to recuperate, my superiors transferred me to work in the army's office in Beiping.

I am quite nostalgic for my life in the army, and I seem to be unwilling to leave; but there is also a force in the pass that makes me gladly go to the road. Passing Tianjin, I got off the car and went home to stay for a day.I met Nai Fu, who was still teaching.We made an appointment that I would visit her in Tianjin every few days, or she would visit me in Peiping. In Peiping, my job was considered leisurely, and there was a lot of socializing among colleagues and friends. I learned to smoke, drink, play mahjong, poker, and dance.But I haven't played the game so badly yet.However, this way of life of mine has already aroused Naifu's criticism.

Is the old man going to teach me a lesson again?I often say that to her. How dare I teach anyone a lesson?She said, Brother Kang, I really care about you, admire you, and respect you too much.This is the truth.Since childhood, you have been an admirable good man and a great hero in my heart, so I don't want you to be a little bit reproachable! Her words moved me very much.I try to decline entertainment from my friends.Sometimes, I feel lonely, especially when Naifu is not by my side. I don't forget carnations for a day.Sometimes I get drunk on purpose, just to anesthetize myself and make myself forget about carnations.Naifu wanted me to live a regular life; the more regular I was, the more I would think of Naixin when I was sober.

When my friends found out that Nai Fu and I were often together, they would make fun of us and regard us as lovers.I have repeatedly explained to others that Nai Fu is my younger sister; however, I gradually feel that I am in love with Nai Fu. I've loved her for years, it's brother and sister love.Now, a new ingredient has been injected into that love. I often think that I shouldn't love Naifu as much as I loved Naixin, because that is a kind of infidelity to Naixin, even though Naixin is dead.I don't have the intention of keeping festivals for Naixin for the rest of my life; however, I love Naixin so much that I really don't want to love any other girl except Naixin.When I was in college, there were enthusiastic female classmates who expressed their affection for me. On the India-Myanmar battlefield, there were kind-hearted female nurses who showed their love to me. I avoided them coldly. I've had a lot of gorgeous girls, and I'm still not interested in dating them.Naifu was the only exception.She is my childhood friend, and she is Naixin's younger sister; moreover, her face, look, smile, and every move are so similar to Naixin.

One weekend night, I suddenly remembered that it was Naixin’s birthday. I felt sad and sad in my heart. I faltered and lost my mind and walked along the Qiangzi River in the old British Concession in Tianjin. That was when Naixin and I were children. The road that Xin must pass every day to go to school and leave school I came home late at night, and Naifu was waiting for me. I was in a trance for a while, and I almost thought it was Naixin sitting there. Nai Fu noticed my strangeness and comforted me gently.All of a sudden, I hugged her and kissed her passionately. I wanted to say a bunch of words to thank her, but I couldn't, but I unconsciously yelled several times: Naixin, Naixin, Naixin Nai Fu did not refuse my kiss, she became as tame as a lamb; however, I found that she was crying, and she murmured: Brother Kang, I am Nai Fu, I am Nai Fu I know, I know, as I continued to kiss her, I said in a low voice, You are Naifu, you are the old scumbag Nai Fu nodded, a smile appeared on the corner of her mouth, but new tears fell from her eye sockets Afterwards, Nai Fu wrote to me, explaining to me her feelings at that moment: She said she knew that I loved her, but she never expected that I would express my love to her so passionately.She was surprised and relieved; however, she immediately felt sour and confused again because she thought that what I really love is carnations, and maybe I love her so much only when I mistake her for carnations. However, she is a little She didn't think there was anything wrong with what I did. She said that I should miss Naixin all the time, and she herself misses Naixin all the time, so she didn't know whether she should accept the love I gave Naixin to her.And so, in a delicate, unbelievably complicated mood, she began to cry. I don't know how I should treat Nai Fu, I only know that I love her day by day. Nai Fu is still young, so she should continue to study, and I am capable enough to help her go to college and help her support her mother; so, under my firm advice, Nai Fu was admitted to a national university in Beiping.In this way, we can gather together in Beiping every day. University life brought Nai Fu great joy, but also great resentment. She told me that she could not understand the arrogance of left-leaning professors and students and the laissez-faire policy of the school authorities.Speaking of it, this is really the strangest thing. The front is fighting the Communist Party, but the rear is supporting the Communist Party. Gradually, I discovered a fact: the Communist Party keeps talking about materialism, but it is concentrating on fighting us with idealism Silently busy rushing to set up bookstores and publishing houses, and use literature and art as a mediator to sow seeds and take root in various universities and middle schools.Our government is superstitious about force, and I am exactly the same. I hate the literary tricks played by the Communist Party from the bottom of my heart; but I firmly believe that our planes, artillery, and tanks will soon destroy them all. Nai Fu told me that many left-leaning literary and art writers who were blindly worshiped by young people often went to their schools to visit, give speeches, or hold symposiums and recitals. She changed her look and started performing in groups of college students. That kind of new thing that sings, dances and dances is actually more attractive to young people than the boring long speeches of our military and political officials.Nai Fu said so, how can it go on like this? Ask those bumpkins to perform Yangko!I said, see if they can twist our planes or cannons? Brother Kang, you are a military strategist, and you should know how to attack the heart; sooner or later, the Communist Party will use literature and art to destroy our morale, and then the aircraft and artillery will be useless. How could it be so serious?I refute Naifu, did you not see that after taking Changchun, the troops attacked Xiaofengman, Dehui, and Nong'an with a smashing momentum, and attacked all the way to the bank of the Songhua River? Force can only destroy the Communist Party for a while, and ideological warfare can completely wipe out the Communist Party, and literature and art are the most important force in the ideological warfare. But the Communist Party came to the school to hold a poetry reading or live newspaper drama, and the students turned their heads to fight against the government. Fighting against hunger was simply an expanded reenactment of the tragedy of my sister being coaxed by the Communist Party. Tell them to rebel against their conscience with a full stomach!I pulled up Naifu, we should celebrate the national army's great victory in the Northeast, go out to eat something good, watch a play, or dance, listen to music! Ai Naifu sighed, okay, I'll go with you.However, I have to tell you two words: People have no long-term worries, but they must have near-term worries. Facing Nai Fu who was like a serious teacher, I couldn't help laughing out loud. What are you laughing at?Brother Kang! Laugh at you for being so sanctimonious.Thinking of the way you used to run around with two braids, how can you not make people laugh when you compare it with now?It's really three days away from Shibai, which is impressive! Don't laugh, Nai Fu still has a serious face, I have to tell you a few words, the ancients said that people are born in sorrow and die in peace; Will die of sorrow in the future. I am not so pessimistic, old man. Brother Kang, I am not pessimistic.I just think you all underestimate the Communist Party too much.Not all of them are like Zhao Chongdong's evil deeds and tricks; they have more and greater ambitions and strategies, they are more cruel and insidious, but they have more beautiful lies and more charming disguises.The Communist Party is not just a bunch of bumpkins and mobs, they also have talents and are willing to use their brains, so they have a lot of tricks, and they are well-organized internally and pervasive externally. Drive others to cheer for them, or even charge to work for them. Many originally pure and kind-hearted students in our school are deceived, fooled and confused in this way, without knowing that it is a microcosm of the spread and expansion of the Communist Party across the country.I can see clearly with cold eyes.Furthermore, the Communist Party, the most powerful hand, has firmly grasped literature and art, trying to defeat our spiritual front first. How can we not wake up?Therefore, the old man also invented a language: To eliminate it, you must not underestimate it! Nai Fu's words are really thought-provoking.I admire her: Your speech, my lord, can be said to be like throwing gold and stones! Later, when I met you, I didn't expect that you and Nai Fu's arguments would be so similar. fourteen That year, Kang Ken and I met in Nanjing, I remember it very clearly.He was amazed at the time that my life had undergone a drastic change. I got rid of the Youth League and government officials, and started writing for a living.I once told Kang Ken: In fact, I liked literature since I was a child, and I also dreamed of becoming a writer when I grew up; a series of national humiliations made me determined to join the ranks of patriotic resistance against Japan, and since then I have no time to study literature and learn writing.I once told Kang Ken that the personal experience of these years has made me more and more aware of the powerful influence of literature and art.I even analyzed to him that literature and art will be tens of thousands of times more powerful in the ideological war than tangible force against the Communist Party; however, that time, he did not tell me that there is a Miss Bi Naifu who agrees with me. Kang Ken stretched his waist, and continued without any tiredness on his face: During that meeting, I almost told you about the relationship between Naifu and me. Let’s just say, it didn’t take as long as today for me to tell you that I was on a business trip to Nanjing for an urgent business, and I could only stay for one day before I had to rush back to Peiping. Besides, I could see that time that you didn't want to talk more about the past, and you didn't want to talk more about the Youth League. Not long after you came back from the National Congress of the Lushan Youth League, you told me that the central government approved the Hebei branch of the Youth League to be grade C because the number of members in Hebei is smaller than that of other provinces.You were deeply stimulated by this. You said that you couldn't bear it at the time, and you once ran to the speech platform of the conference and shouted impassionedly: If the Yanzhao men of the Youth League were in the enemy's rear, in the guerrilla zone, and on the front line during the Anti-Japanese War, Counting the number killed by the Japanese, by the traitors, and by the Communist Party, the results of the Hebei Branch will still be listed in the first class!You once said loudly that the blood of those members and comrades who died bravely and martyred for the country cannot be shed in vain!However, you immediately said that those young people were born and died, fighting fiercely against the Japanese, traitors, and the Communist Party, and they never thought of asking the central government for any praise; they died in battle, and they felt at ease In addition, you told me that it is really unexpected that our party and our regiment, after overthrowing the Japanese warlords, have forgotten a more sinister common enemy, the Communist Party, which needs everyone to unite sincerely to defeat it, and spend a lot of scheming and time , strength, hit each other, rub against each other.The party and the regiment fight each other, and the factions within the party fight each other.Even the Communist Party ridicules us as an expert in internal fighting, and an outsider in fighting outside, you say you can’t stand the tragedy of beating a relative and breaking your spine, so you decide to quit the political party stage. Being a literary and artistic writer is not giving up responsibility, but switching to a pen Anti-communist, anti-all outdated, corrupt, dark, evil and you firmly believe: the pen is better than the gun, the pen is better than the sword Then, you enthusiastically analyzed that the Communist Party’s planned and organized literature and art work does not respect writers and literature and art, but uses writers and artists as tools to deceive and confuse young people and the general public; Talking about theory with a straight face, chanting slogans with a straight face, posting slogans in a proper manner, holding tired and bombing meetings, and writing long and large articles, this is impossible to fight against the Communist Party. You also said that you have read a book about crossing a river written by the Communist Party. It just described the Eighth Route Army crossing a river without fighting, and it was written as a thick piece of reportage; The enemy suffered heavy sacrifices, but they were rarely disseminated in the form of novels, poems, dramas, and arts.The Communist Party believes that a lie told a hundred times is the truth.You also gave the most authentic example of the early days of the Anti-Japanese War. It was the honeymoon period of the cooperation between the Kuomintang and the Communist Party. Everyone lived in peace, and it happened that the Japanese army did not invade. The Hebei Plain was temporarily peaceful. Military and political personnel are singing the united front everywhere, inviolable.At that time, the Secretary-General of the Hebei Provincial Party Committee of the Kuomintang was a typical figure who traveled to the battlefield every day, went deep into the people, served the country as a scholar, and was also an outstanding writer. Newspapers and periodicals, the news and long reports of the Eighth Route Army of Dadeng's recent victories in the Hebei area and heavy losses to the Japanese army, Mr. Secretary Zhang was very surprised because there was no war in that area at that time.He asked Zhu De, Zhu De patted him on the shoulder, and said with a smile in Sichuan accent, baby!This is propaganda!This is the CCP's resistance to Japan!This is what the Secretary-General told you personally in Taihang Mountains. (Note) (Note: This is a real story, and the secretary-general is Mr. Wu Yanhuan, the writer.) Tell me again, all the military salaries paid by the government to the Eighth Route Army stayed in Chongqing to run bookstores, newspapers, magazines, and publishing houses, but the cultural supporters told their troops that the government discriminated against them and refused to pay them. pay to create hatred In the end, you sighed and said: literature and art are food, if the people are not allowed to eat the poisonous food of the Communist Party, we have to provide good food.People, especially young people, can't have an empty stomach, it's time for us to wake up That night, you talked eloquently. I remember when I left, I once said to you: Listening to what you say is better than reading ten years of books. The situation in the Northeast War has turned against us, and the CCP has repeatedly used military mediation to gain respite and receive a large number of Soviet and Russian weapons and equipment.And Beiping has gradually become a hotbed of communist spies. They infiltrate, lurk, and spread in every class and corner, and incite leftists to pretend to be democratic and free people, and openly slander and attack the government, especially those who have eaten sugar-coated poison. The young students who are the bread and butter of literature and art, under the North China Federation of Students manipulated by the communist spies, almost lost all reason. Naifu told me several times in a row: I was very sad when I saw many policemen and gendarmes standing guard in Beiping City.Alas, Peking has fallen Peking's spiritual armament has been disarmed, the police and army are useless I'm still willing to believe that this is a temporary anomaly that will go away once the war ahead of us improves. At the end of the winter of 1935, the Shen Chong incident occurred, and students from various universities immediately united to go on strike and protest.How can it not be outrageous that one's own compatriots and sisters were raped by American soldiers?To be honest, I was furious when I heard that.Unexpectedly, Nai Fu suddenly said to me one day: Brother Kang, I thought about it calmly for a long time, and I wondered if this was a play directed by the Communist Party behind the scenes? I shook my head: The Communist Party is the biggest liar and rumormonger; for this reason, we must be absolutely sincere and faithful, and we must not say a word of speculation without solid evidence.We are victims of snake bites, and we are particularly sensitive, suspicious, and vigilant.However, this time, I thought that no matter how cruel, despicable, and vicious the Communist Party is, it would not use such obscene tricks to treat a girl well. The Communist Party is an atheist, but they zealously regard their leaders as gods, so they can do all kinds of crazy things.Nai Fu said, Brother Kang, don't I wholeheartedly sympathize with weak girls who are humiliated for no reason?But want to collude with the enemy and betray the country?However, the more I think about it, the more I can't solve this mystery. It happened after midnight in the severe cold, and the Dongdan military training ground has long since disappeared.Shen Chong lived in the west city, why was he passing by alone at that moment?Is it a coincidence that American soldiers also appeared at that time and place?However, I doubt it subjectively, and I am even willing to boldly conclude that this matter has something to do with the Communist Party. I hope it is not, because it is too ugly. The Shen Chong incident evolved into a large-scale anti-American movement, and the local Democratic League and the CCP's royal literati took the lead in clamoring.If a large number of new songs can't be driven away, the US military is unwilling to avenge their compatriots, so get out and come out together.Comics, woodcuts, and dramas all come to help.Many writers, artists, musicians, and dramatists joined the Anti-Uprising Works Committee one after another.If you don't participate, you have to accept an unpatriotic label.Members of the Anti-Riot Propaganda Team blocked pedestrians from soliciting donations along the street. If they did not donate, they would be charged with unpatriotic charges on the spot.It’s a reprint of the anti-Japanese slogan, come here, but with a different line: patriotic, come here! Just after the new year, the Military Adjustment Department officially closed its doors in Beiping.Before leaving, an American friend told me something I had never heard before: You have been asking me why the Americans came to mediate the war between the National Army and the Communist Army?This is the policy of the U.S. government, and we are here to implement it; however, I can now tell you one of the main reasons for it: The Chinese Communist War of Resistance written by American writer Stein, the report on China’s Red Areas written by Foreman, and the book Edinstein China's Unfinished Revolution, Bai Xiude's China's Thunder, these few literary books for the CCP's propaganda, greatly influenced the public opinion in the United States and distorted the policies of the United States.Don't underestimate these few small literature and art books. Now, we admit that mediation failed, and it's okay, we finally realized the total lack of faith of the Chinese Communist Party.The writers who wrote those books mentioned above only saw some false appearances and capitalized them. In fact, they were also deceived, and their pens made more Americans deceived. He added a few words: Although President Lincoln I said that you can deceive a few people for a while, but you cannot deceive the majority forever. However, the short-term result of these few people being deceived is enough to cause great harm to the Chinese people; it may take many, many years before the majority understands. I won't be cheated anymore, but the price I paid was too high Immediately afterwards, the students from Peking and exiled students from Northeast China jointly staged the July 5th Incident. Not only did they go on strike, but they also destroyed the Senate, and the communist spies hidden among the students opened fire first, killing the policemen and young army officers maintaining law and order. That's when I realized that the situation had become extremely serious. At this time, our troops were ordered to deploy to the Xubeng battlefield. In a hurry, I left Peiping and flew to Nanjing. Before leaving, I was planning to propose to Nai Fu.I finally did not speak.I have decided to ask to return to the front line. A person who is going to the battlefield immediately is not suitable to propose to any girl. The day before the flight, I went to church with Nai Fu.In the past two years, Nai Fu and I have developed the habit of going to church.On weekdays, Nai Fu diligently reads the Bible, often telling me Bible stories and golden verses in the book, just like a Sunday school teacher, who also urges me to read the Bible and helps me study the Bible, just like a little pastor.After the meeting that day, Naifu asked me to accompany her to continue praying alone for half an hour.She cried, I cried, and the pastor weeping accompanied us.After stepping out of the chapel, my mood became very calm, and Naifu told me that she was the same.I am convinced that we will see each other soon and be together forever. Soon after arriving in Nanjing, I was allowed to go back to the front line.In the battlefield, I could still communicate with Nai Fu at first.The letter that excites me the most is that Nai Fu told me that the criminal court in Peking had arrested an important spy named Zhao Damo, who turned out to be Zhao Chongdong’s pseudonym. He could not deny that Peiping was being violently besieged by the communist army, and Zhao Chongdong had been shot according to law.This letter also caused me great anxiety. What would Naifu do if Beiping fell?I sent two letters in succession, urging Naifu to come to Nanjing, and enclosing the money, begging Naifu to bring her mother and my parents out with me no matter what. Nai Fu sent me a letter saying that she was trying to go south with the three elderly people, but the situation in Beiping is very dangerous. If she can’t leave in advance, she will try to escape the Iron Curtain. If she can’t escape the Iron Curtain, she will definitely act as a An Anti-Communist Fighter Behind Enemy Lines This was the last letter I received from Naifu. Within two days, our troops were surrounded by the communist army.I can no longer communicate with Naifu.Immediately afterwards, it was learned from Telecom that Peiping had fallen. Relying on airdrops, we struggled to continue the battle for a period of time, and finally, because the sacrifices were too heavy, we had to start breaking out.Many officers and soldiers died in battle and were captured; I survived and made it to Nanjing. Later, when I came to Taiwan via Shanghai, I could no longer get any news about Nai Fu.Fortunately, I have a large photo of Nai Fu in Nanjing. When I left in a hurry, I didn’t take anything out, only that photo was always with me. Not long ago, one of my relatives and elders escaped from the Iron Curtain. He is a devout Christian. He told me that he had met Naifu once: that sister Bi completely dedicated herself to work for the Lord and for the brothers. The work of the sisters is very touching.It’s just that everyone is very anxious about her safety. The Communist Party is persecuting the church, and preachers and believers have been detained and imprisoned.I still remember what Sister Naifu said to me. She said: To spread the gospel is to spread anti-Communist ideas.So Sister Naifu is in a more dangerous situation than others.We must pray earnestly for her Apart from praying, I really don’t know what else to do for Naifu and the suffering compatriots across the Strait However, I firmly believe that all the adversities and sufferings will train Naifu into stronger, wiser and braver Christian soldiers and anti-communist fighters. fifteen Kang Ken finished telling the story about him and the Bi family sisters. Night is gone.Its daybreak. I couldn't speak for a long time.I don't know what to say.Finally, I exclaimed excitedly: Brother Kang Ken, let me write your true story into a novel. This is really a great movement in the great era, great storm and great turmoil No, can't!Kang Ken immediately waved to me. Afraid my writing skills are too bad, huh?I said. No, Kang Ken said, Naifu is still on the Iron Curtain, and is fighting the devil for faith.But we can’t write her out, even if we give her a false name, the Communist Party is so cunning and sinister, they will definitely search for Nai Fu based on the clues of the characters and plot in the book.The newspapers and books we publish here, the Communist Party has to buy them back in Hong Kong and read them. I accepted Kang Ken's advice. However, what he told me that night left a deep impression on me and a great shock.After I arrived in southern Taiwan, for more than ten days in a row, I dreamed of the Bi family sisters, Mrs. Bi, Zhao Chongdong, Peng Ailian, Professor Bi, the Japanese military police Noguchi, the translator with the mustache, and the tall translator from the Northeast. Never met me; yet, I am sure it was them and them that I saw in my dreams! I repeatedly impulsively wanted to write this story first, regardless of Kang Ken's objections. Thinking about it again, absolutely can't do this. Back then, I wanted Kang Ken to keep the matter of joining the Youth League of the Three People's Principles firmly a secret. I never thought that it would have such a serious impact on the love between Kang Ken and Naixin.Now, how can I influence him and Naifu any more?I should show Kang Ken's spirit of keeping secrets and bury the material of such a moving novel in my heart. sixteen In the south, I have been receiving letters from Kang Ken. Once, he attached a Hong Kong newspaper clipping, which contained information about Bi Naifu’s father, an active member of the Democratic League, who once served as an official in the CCP’s red dynasty, and is now being liquidated and fought. Photo of the hat parade.Then, Kang Ken sent me some newspaper clippings one after another, which reported that several professors, writers, and cultural figures who had desperately shouted for the CCP, pledged their allegiance, and made great contributions also ended up in the same fate as Bi Naifu’s father. The CCP threw its hat , has always been generous. At the beginning, he gave this group of people the high hat of progress and revolution, and now he is not stingy to change them into the sharp hat of reactionary, gangster, rightist, and poisonous weed. Half a year later, I suddenly received a telegram from a friend in Taipei that Kang Ken was critically ill, please come north as soon as possible. I hurried to Taipei. Kang Ken has been sent to the hospital.He was sleeping on a hospital bed, unconscious. The doctor told me that Kang Ken did not know what kind of severe stimulation he had suffered, and if the situation worsened, he might become insane. None of the friends knew Kang Ken's illness, let alone guessed what fatal blow he had suffered. Some of Kang Ken’s church friends, pastors, and missionaries came to pray for him.The doctors tried their best to treat him. Kang Ken finally did not die. When I repeatedly asked him about his illness, he took out a newspaper published by the CCP in Hong Kong. My God, it was unambiguous. It published a piece of news that Bi Naifu was arrested by the Guangzhou Public Security Bureau of the CCP. At the same time, an American An old pastor of British nationality and a female missionary of British nationality. The three of them were charged with spying under the cover of the church. Bi Naifu, have a kind!Kang Ken said in admiration that she didn't change her surname when she was sitting, and she didn't change her name when she was going I don't know how to comfort Kang Ken.I also felt dizzy, and my head and heart felt strange and severe pain. I lowered my head, clenched my teeth, and held back the tears swirling in my eyes, not daring to look at Kang Ken. You can write this novel now, Kang Ken suddenly held my hand tightly.Because Nai Fu can't survive, maybe she has been dead for many days I can't speak.I seem to have forgotten my plan to write this novel at one time. Really, you can write now.Kang Ken said, you should write.I beg you to write.Write it out to testify to human history. I shake my head. how?Why do you refuse to write? This ending is too tragic, I can't bear to write In this era of unprecedented suffering, how many comedies are there in the world for you to write? I shook my head again. It doesn't matter if I don't write it, the ending is too tragic. After speaking, Kang Ken burst into tears like a child. I hug him.I have shed a lot of tears with him. Kang Ken was discharged from the hospital.I moved into his house again.Last time he protected me, this time I protected him. He suffers from insomnia almost every night.It is unavoidable to ask me to sit with him and pass the long nights one by one. During the day, I walk with him, do soft exercises with him, read the Bible and Oasis of the Desert with him, go to the hospital with him, visit friends with him, go to church with pastors and missionaries, and go to church with him on Sundays. Sunday worship.His spirits seemed to be gradually improving. He told me that he decided to resign from his current position and he has chosen two paths for himself: one is to go to the front line of Jinmen or Matsu to fight again, and the other is to enter a seminary and become a lifelong missionary. One night a month later, I accompanied Kang Ken to a family worship at a friend's house. The head of that family reported that today he specially invited an old American pastor who had just been expelled from the mainland by the Communist Party, arrived in Hong Kong, and then transferred to Taiwan to meet with you. Tomorrow the old pastor will start preaching in the church. . After the old American pastor told how he was persecuted by the CCP in the Iron Curtain and was imprisoned for a while, he then gave a series of wonderful testimonies about the grace that God bestowed on him and some devout believers .Finally he said: The most amazing thing is that when a British sister and I were deported from the mainland and arrived in Hong Kong ten days later, another Chinese sister who was imprisoned also arrived in Hong Kong It turned out that one of her fellow escorts was a Christian. He not only released her, but also took her to smuggle from Shenzhen to Kowloon.This is enough to show that it will never be possible for the CCP to eradicate belief in God in the mainland because God is love.History has already told us that for love, Christians have the courage to fight, dedicate themselves, and be martyred; Christians can never be killed, and the more they kill, the more they will be killed.There will also be more and more underground churches in mainland China.That Chinese sister is one of the leaders of the underground church who is highly gifted and loving.When she was a little girl, I baptized her in Tianjin. I knew she was an anti-communist, but I would agree to take her from Tianjin to Hankou and then to Guangzhou, and let her live with us all the time. In a church because I know her actions are in the will of God I interrupted the pastor and stood up suddenly: May I ask you, is the name of that Chinese sister Bi Naifu? Exactly!The priest replied, do you know her? It was Mr. Kang who knew her.I said. At this time, Kang Ken beside me suddenly fell to the ground. I thought he was fainting; no, it wasn't.原來他跪倒在地下開始出聲祈禱，感恩！ 在座的人士們紛紛相繼跪下來，跟康懇一齊禱告。牧師也跪了下來。 最後一個跪下來的是我。 我從不是無神論者，我深信宇宙有大主宰；只是，多年來一直沒有決心受浸歸主。這個場面太令人感動。當他們祈禱了很久，同聲歌唱讚美詩的時候，我終於再也忍不住地，跪了下來。 seventeen 康懇一夜未眠。當然，我奉陪在側。 那位美國牧師已經把乃馥的香港通訊處告訴了康懇，並且告訴了他許多有關乃馥的事。 天快破曉的時候，康懇拿出紙來，開始給乃馥寫信。他看我也拿出了紙和筆，驚奇地問： how?你也給乃馥寫信？ 我不慌不忙地在紙上寫了兩個大字長夜，然後告訴他： 我是開始寫這篇小說，題目已經想好了。你看這題目好不好？你和乃馥個人的長夜已經過去，我們整個國家民族的長夜還沒有。且讓你、乃馥、我，跟所有的中華兒女，以更虔敬的奉獻、更堅貞的奮鬥，迎接黎明。 中華民國四十四年初稿．四十八年修訂 臺北中和鄉曦園