Chapter 7 Chapter Six

The effect of quinine caused Leo to vomit severely, and he spent most of the time fighting against the strong nausea, or he was completely overwhelmed by the nausea and vomited in a mess.Other times they are so weak they can't even lift a finger.Instead of leaving, she cleaned him up of the vomit that even disgusted him with heroic composure. How can you bear it?once he asked. I've seen more horrific situations, and that's all she said. When the taste on his tongue was too much for him, she made a solution of mint and thyme to gargle for him.She fed him honey water to replenish nutrients, brushed his teeth and changed his clothes.

Why are you so nice to me?Another time he asked, too tired to open his eyes.She massaged his hands with ointment. The journey from Gilgit to Chitra was very dangerous. His hands were scraped by ropes and then cut by rocks. Her soft and warm hands melted the sweet wax ointment. , stroking his knuckles, calluses and crevices. You are sick and I am a doctor. Even though he knew she would say that, he still hoped that her care was not a doctor's duty to a patient. One month before the annulment of the marriage, because he wanted to find the calculation formula that he had discarded in a moment of irritability, he went to look for the trash can in the study, only to find a crumpled letter.It was a letter of thanks. A young woman and her fetus were dying. Thanks to Benny's successful caesarean section, she saved her life. She wrote to express her gratitude to Benny.That letter was the most touching prose work he had ever read.

He never doubted that Beni's medical skills were top-notch.He never doubted her devotion to medicine.He had also always understood that her concern was not with the sick but with the disease, that she was driven not by pity but by competitiveness, that she wanted to defeat the deadliest factor in nature. However, that afternoon, when he stood and read the letter, the thick, clumsy, almost childish handwriting slowly burned his heart.He finally saw through that his wife's indifference was not due to arrogance, but outright ruthlessness.Because only a person who is sensitive to human physical and mental contact can despise heartfelt gratitude so much, and even discard it.

I'm sorry, he said. You should really apologize.Her thumb circled, kneading the back of his hand and palm, even extending to two inches above the wrist.He hoped she would never stop.What on earth are you thinking?Did you hide your condition from the doctor? I'm not apologizing for that. Let me have you one more time.Let me love you well.Let me also give you the same joy that I get from you, that magical and amazing joy. I know why you apologize.She let go of his hand.Don't mention that again. The day after the malarial attack several mule carts came from the Lowari Pass. The place where Leo and Bernie landed on the first day of their journey, and where they stayed these days, happened to be the point where the trail left the Chitra River and entered the mountains.Since the Chitra Valley roads are mostly impassable during winter, trade is concentrated in the warmer months.

Beni poked her head out of Leo's tent, and after confirming that the visitors were just a group of business travelers, she returned to the tent.Imran and his son serve tea to businessmen.After a group of men chatted for a while, the merchant set off north, presumably to go to the market in Chitra. Tell Imran to come in, Leo said. She looked at him in astonishment.She thought he was asleep.What's more, he had already met Imran before, and they discussed the supplies and how Leo should pay the coolie's daily wages.do you need somethingLet me get it for you. no thanks.I wondered what news those travelers brought, his eyes still closed.

She finds Imran and takes him back to the tent. Any news from Swat?Leo asked straight away. They are not from Swat but from Dir.There is a legend in Dir that a great ascetic went to the Upper Swat Valley.He will work miracles and surely drive the British away.The guide shook his head.It's always these miracle scammers who are causing trouble. Leo nodded, thanked the guide and let him go out. How did you know about Swat?Bernie asked in surprise.What language did they speak just now? Pashto.I can't understand it, but Swat's pronunciation is the same. Most of Chitra's inhabitants are of the Hau tribe and speak the Hho language.South of Chitra, however, the inhabitants of the northwest frontier are mostly Pashtun, also known as Pathan.

She was even more surprised.So how do you know that Swat's news will affect us?Maybe they were just talking about crops. They repeat the word Faki, which means fakir, and they mention Sika a few times, because that word, in whatever language, means the Government of India, so I wanted to at least inquire. She nods.The Northwest frontier is not peaceful.There had been fierce conflicts in Chitra in 1995. The question of the Maharaja's succession to the throne has always caused conflicts, but that time was particularly serious. A series of factional struggles broke out, and the British fortress that was ordered to resolve the disputes was besieged instead.

In June this year, a British State Councilor and his entourage were attacked in broad daylight in the Tozzy Valley.The incident took place several hundred kilometers southwest of Peshawar, in the wild Waziristan mountains where foreign powers are never welcome.Due to the distance, neither Bei Ni nor Mr. Bai felt worried, but the accident made them realize that the peace in front of them might collapse at any time. Bernie took the map out of Leo's saddlebag and spread it out on her lap.Their routes are marked in red.Dir can be reached as soon as you pass the Lowery Pass.Although it is difficult to judge the distance with a map, roughly 18 to 24 kilometers out of Dir, you will encounter the Panzhikola River.The rest of the journey follows the river, and after arriving at a village marked Sado, they leave the river and turn southeast towards Chadara on the banks of the Swat River.

The Swat River is the most important river in the region, and the Swat Valley is the most densely populated center along its banks.The Swat valley turned roughly southeast at Chadara, and their journey had to go directly south, so they would leave the Swat valley as soon as they had crossed the river. How far is Swat Valley from here?Two hundred and forty kilometers? almost.We are going to cross the river in the lower Swat valley.The Upper Swat Valley is further upstream, past the Amandala Pass. She folded it and put it back in her saddle bag.No need to worry yet. What's more, in the border area, religious people have always been strongly opposed to foreign powers.It is not new for priests to instigate conflicts. Most of them can only arouse some optimism among believers, but have no other effect.The wandering priest in the upper Swat Valley is probably just talking but not practicing, and there should not be many people who follow him, but it is just exaggerated and exaggerated.

She understands the feelings of the local people who want to break free from British rule, and somewhat sympathizes with them.After all, the British also regarded Podicia, the queen of ancient Britain who had the courage to stand up to the Roman army, as a national hero.But she doesn't think that this priest alone can complete the great cause of independence. Can you get something to eat?she asked Leo. He shook his head, turning blue when he heard the word eat. Then rest more, she said. He closed his eyes.She sat on the stool by the bed and watched him.After a while, he seemed to be asleep, so she touched his cheek secretly.Seeing his emaciated appearance made her very distressed, but she couldn't help but want to see him, couldn't help but yearn for him.

Her thumbs brushed lightly over the tips of his lashes.The index finger and middle finger clamped his ears, feeling the coolness and softness there, and his fever subsided after taking the first dose of quinine.Her little finger came along the way to the pulse in his throat and gently pressed it, feeling the rhythm of his blood flow. She had just noticed that his heart was beating too fast, and she had already grabbed his hand and pulled it to her lips.She pulled it back hastily, but his lips still imprinted on her palm. Long after he actually fell asleep, the brand was still hot. On the fifth day after the onset of malaria, Leo awoke from a light sleep in the afternoon.Although quinine has severe side effects, its efficacy is very good.He is still weak, but all symptoms have disappeared and he is recovering well. She was sitting on a stool next to her camp bed, holding a half-eaten cookie.That hand rested on a dark green wool skirt, paired with a white and green striped top that buttoned all the way to the chin. Her chin was lovely, perfect in fact, and he had kissed it hopelessly and tirelessly before when she would not let him kiss it.Her chin, her jaw, along the contours there, kissing the delicate creases of her ears.But soon, even these places were listed as forbidden areas.She then asked not to undo her braids because it was too much trouble combing the tangled hair in the morning and she had to be at the hospital on time. Today she parted her hair back in the middle, smooth as glass and shiny as lacquer.She bends to the left to reach the water jug ​​lying on the floor.He caught a glimpse of the whiteness and was shocked again. Her hair will turn gray, all because of you. At least that's what Carrie claims. Do you believe what Carrie said? Their eyes meet.Heat ran through his body.He had penetrated deeply into her before, and she hadn't resisted. She turned her head away suddenly.I've brought your lunch, she said.Mutton consommé with chicken steamed rice.Saihan also made special desserts for you that are suitable for the sick. He sits up to eat.She knew exactly what he needed.The five-day quinine course ended yesterday, and his stomach was flattened. She looked at him, and he felt her gaze, as if it had weight and tactility.As soon as he looked up, her eyes looked away, but eventually returned to him.No matter facing him directly or turning her face away, she always secretly looked at him, only once at a time. You have a logo on the sole of your boot, and it was a long time before she spoke again.Made in Berlin. Once upon a time, he was extremely picky about his appearance.Good quality is not enough.Every piece of clothing he owned had to be a work of art, or at least flawless workmanship.But after his marriage was annulled, he was less than half as concerned with his clothes.When he was in Berlin and needed new boots, instead of writing to a bootmaker in London to order them, he bought a ready-made pair on the spot, which he had never thought of before. what are you doing in berlinShe served him another bowl of soup. He took the soup bowl.Thanks.I lecture at the university there. She added more steamed rice.Carrie said you were in Munich.She said you plan to buy a winery in Bavaria to retire to. I was only twenty-five years old at the time, and it was too early to hide in a place as old and conservative as Bavaria. She also said that you changed your mind and went to the United States, intending to raise cattle on a ranch in Wyoming. It is not uncommon for the youngest son in the family to behave like this.However, I went to America to corrupt local youth, and I teach at Princeton University in New Jersey on the east coast, thousands of kilometers away from Wyoming. She cleared her throat.I also went to Germany for advanced surgical training at the University of Breslau.The same is true in the United States, where I teach at the Penn State Women's Medical College. I know. After the annulment he moved to Cambridge.He has always loved Cambridge and has always hoped to become the Lucasian Professor of Mathematics at Cambridge University. (Annotation: Lucasian Chair of Math.matics is an honorary position at the University of Cambridge, England, awarded to researchers related to mathematics and physics. It was officially recognized by King Charles II in 1664, and Stephen in 1979 and 2009. Hawking.) This post once belonged to the distinguished Sir Isaac Newton.The current professor has been in office for nearly fifty years.The timing is very favorable for Leo, whose talents are widely admired by all quarters, and he is likely to be appointed as his successor. But in the fall he went to Berlin instead.A year later settled in Princeton.Came to India after three semesters. Facts have proved that even if the marriage is annulled, it is still not enough to remove his concern for her.She is wandering alone in a strange country, no one is worried.Does anyone care that she moves farther and farther away from her hometown every time she migrates?God bless, in case something happens, her family is thousands of miles away, is this really okay? He can't bear to be so concerned about himself, especially since she doesn't care about him at all.But he doesn't care.Many universities invited him to teach, and every time he chose to go to her country to serve, so that if she needed help, at least she would not have to ask for help from the other side of the ocean. You think I'm in Leh, that's why I took Gilgit's hot air balloon job? He took a sip of water, then nodded.Their eyes met. You are the bright moon in my life; your joys and sorrows control my heart. This sentence may be exaggerated, but it is not false. After lunch, they discussed the itinerary briefly.He hoped to be on the road the next day, but she insisted that he must rest for at least two days after the quinine treatment was over, and she coldly warned him of the consequences of not following the doctor's advice. To help him while away the afternoon, she fetched the magazines he had gotten during his overnight stay at Chitra Fortress, and told her that she was going for a walk, and that he was strictly forbidden to engage in any activity other than reading magazines in bed. Take Imran with you, he said. She showed a puzzled expression for a moment, as if she had forgotten that in the area where she lived, women rarely left the house, and it was even more impossible to go out without the company of a man.The Chitra region is particularly conservative in this regard.By the way, of course. After confirming that she was far away, he got up and got out of bed and walked out of the tent, and sent two coolies to set up a folding table and bring a folding chair.He still wears the simple white cotton kurta, the tunic and trousers common here, which he uses as pajamas.However, as long as he can get out of the tent without help, he feels more normal. The air here has the unique clarity of the mountains, making the shapes of the mountains and fields more vivid and the colors more eye-catching.The color of the paddy field is not just a green line, but a green full of desire, yearning for sunlight and moisture.Hills, too, are not just big chunks of rock, but the ribs of valleys, protecting precious fertile soil from the harsh climate. With the setting sun shining on his face and the breeze blowing through his hair, he sat down and opened his notebook. After the annulment of the marriage, he was unable to produce a paper with an original argument for two full years.He taught and reviewed papers for mathematicians who had academic correspondence, yet his own mind was completely blank.Even when he started working on new hypotheses again, he could only produce timid theories derived from old papers. He finally understood that wunderkind cannot be taken for granted.He used to be a lover of joy and glory, always climbing mountains and crossing hot deserts, writing his early dissertations in quick strokes between adventure trips.He realized that he might never regain that ease and grace.The lesson taught him the humility he felt almost as he did when his marriage failed. An hour later, he put away his notebook and took out the chessboard he used for the journey, which he also got at Chitra Fortress.He played against himself, and it was conceivable that the result would be a draw.He rearranged the chess pieces. White king, black king, then white bishop, this is a classic opening called the King's Gambit.In the previous game he refused to give a pawn.But this game he accepted, and moved the black king to capture the white king. He propped one elbow on the table, resting his chin between his thumb and forefinger, wondering what to do next. Forgot the doctor's orders so quickly?The sun had already set behind the mountain, but he could still see Benny's rosy cheeks after exercising.No, don't stand up. Sitting is no harder than lying down, he argues, and gestures to the coolie next to him to move a chair for her to sit on. Alas, you better beat yourself up quick.I asked Saihan to have dinner early.You also need to rest more. It's hard to beat yourself up. oh?Well, it's up to me to beat you, she said, sitting down with ease. Although he didn't mean to laugh, he couldn't help laughing. What, you think you are invincible in chess?she asked. He spread his hands.It's not that he thinks he's great, but he hasn't lost since he was eleven years old. Since you think you are strong, then I will go white. Bai Zi went first; it was the smallest advantage she could ask for.Usually, if someone wants to play chess with him, he has to agree to give up the most important pieces.She continued the game he started, choosing to move the white knight.Wang Yima gambits. He similarly moves the knight.I didn't know you could play chess. She moves the fort.You probably don't know many things about me. He moves the knight one step forward.Then you should tell me, otherwise how would I know? The four pawns are lined up and occupied separately. 4, f4, g4, h4, her knight leaps over.His knights join the fray.Her knight came back and ate his pawn.He ate her pawn. You're not going to tell me anything, are you? I don't know what you don't know. They fought and fought in the center of the chessboard, and her chess skills far exceeded his expectations.His knights penetrated into the enemy camp and devoured her strongholds. I know a lot, for example, my godfather Sir Rob went to see you the night we petitioned the church to annul the marriage.he went on.I guess, in order to persuade you to give up your mind, he should have offered a very generous offer.But I don't know what conditions he offered. She killed the knight and queen to his door in one breath.He promised to expand the hospital and donate land and equipment to the medical school. Without opening his mouth, he just ate her bishop with the king.Even with such a great temptation, and rejecting this great gift from the Jiahui hospital and school, she must feel extremely guilty in her heart, but even so, she still chose to leave him. She adjusted the position of the knight.It's your turn. He narrowed his eyes.Her knight position is very favorable, and can eat his king or queen in one shot.Why is he so careless?He can only choose to defend the king.He retreats. After she ate him.Your godfather is actually your biological father, right? He looked up from the chessboard.Her eyes were dark green, like the background color of a glacier, and her skin was as white as snow falling from a lake. Yes, he said, very few people knew about it.Having said that, for the fifth son, few people would care about his life experience.Do you mind? I don't mind too much.And you? I was bothered when I first found out, but not anymore. when did you know Her eyes were fixed on the board, but he could tell she was curious.It's strange that she feels this way, because it's so normal.In normal times, that's what it should be when a man and a woman play against each other, talking about themselves and the people and things they care about. When I was fourteen, my mother told me. Is it too early? To know this kind of thing, there should be no so-called right age. can you accept? Not very.Just thinking about my mother having an affair with another man made me so ashamed.When she immediately said that the affair was still going on, I wanted to die on the spot.My father's passion was all about the study of mathematics.I always thought her feelings were just as desireless, like plants, or like Shakespeare's tragedies.I didn't expect her feelings to be, my God, so violent and unrestrained. Her lips twitched.Does your father know? Know.I defended him, but my mother assured me that the three of them were very good friends and that nothing would change if I learned the truth.It made me feel even more miserably fooled, because I was the only one who didn't know. She finally looked up at him with an almost smile on her face.and after? It was pretty magical afterwards.When I came home that summer, nothing had really changed.My father was very happy to see me.We spent hours shut in our study every day, poring over the latest papers, arguing the inadequacies of Euclidean geometry, and putting together our own theories to lay the groundwork for new ways of doing geometry. Afterwards, Leo finally summoned up the courage to ask the count if he didn't mind that there was a child who was not his own flesh and blood.The Count just smiled.You just need to remember that you are my most beloved child. Later, on the Norwegian fjords, Leo relayed what the count had said, when he was no longer angry with the godfather.Sir Robert sighed wistfully. He was a practical man, and this was the closest he could get to being sentimental.He said: I envy Earl Weiden very much, because in the eyes of the world, you are his son, not mine. In the end, he grew closer to both Sir Robb and his father because of how much they cared and cherished each other.In fact, he was so close to his father. When Mai Xiu made a mistake at a young age and was cut off by the earl, and Will was kicked out of the house because he stood up for Mai Xiu, Leo still believed that the earl's punishment was not too severe. Bernie sighed.He already knew, but still loves you the same. His bishop avenged the queen by eating her knights.Is that why you don't talk to your father?Because he doesn't love you enough? She didn't move a single muscle, but he felt a tremor deep inside her.Her answer was to pick up the queen and annihilate his knights. He ate her queen.After his queen was taken, he aggressively attacked her king.She pursued him equally fearlessly. She made his king with the queen.Be careful. He hastily moved the king to a safe place.Beware of what? She threatens his bishop.Almost lost. He ate her queen.you? No, it's you.Her queen spans the entire board.You are dead, General. He couldn't react for a while.He worked hard to study the chessboard in front of him, but he was still like a middle school student who was forced to learn calculus, puzzled.Then he realized with astonishment that he had indeed been checkmate, that his king had been caught in a trap with nowhere to escape, and that he hadn't even been aware of the trap. Her lips twitched again, and she stood up.I went to inform Saihan that dinner could be served anytime after it was ready. He watched her go.Why haven't we played chess before?he muttered to himself. He was actually asking about heaven, earth and rivers, not her.But she stopped and turned around, and for a moment, the purple shadow of the mountains perfectly reflected her profile.A strand of hair fluttered around her lips.Then she walked on without giving him any answers. Who taught you how to play chess?he asked later, eating apricot pudding.This dessert is exactly the English way, just add some rose water and cardamom.Before, he had been busy eating and had no time to speak. After recovering from a serious illness, his appetite was so good that he ate several servings in one go. Carrie's mother, she said. Daylight has faded.The oil lamp cast a brassy glow on her cheeks and hair.He wasn't shocked every time he saw her gray hair anymore, but he'd never get used to it, the destruction of perfection. Tao Tao?Carrie's mother, Aijifei's second wife, passed away during childbirth. According to the inscription on the tombstone, she should be Mrs. Tao Emma.However, the Ye family brothers always call her Tao Tao. She looked up in astonishment.do you remember herYou were three years old when she died. I remember her funeral.It was one of my craziest memories, all in black and all four brothers crying. That was also his earliest memory of Beini, a clear and profound memory in the mist of time.She was the only child who didn't cry, and even he was crying from panic. That's all you remember about her? He couldn't tell if her tone was relief or disappointment. I only remember this, but my brothers remember a lot.They told me about the masquerade she gave for the children.They were all dressed up as Knights of the Round Table, except me.I am the Holy Grail in the cradle. As the youngest of five brothers, he was often the target of pranks by his older brothers when he was young. I remember the dance, she said. Her tone changed, she was no longer so distant and indifferent.Her expression also turned gentle, and more melancholy.He had never seen her melancholy. what do you remember She thought about it.A white velvet dress, a peaked hat, and a belt with many bells sewn into it.I probably pretended to be a princess. Did the Knights of the Round Table court you? Yes, but that's because I hand out candy and gifts.The corners of her mouth twitched slightly.The warriors of the round table surrounded me and refused to leave. That was before he had any memory, and he didn't know her yet, so it felt so strange to hear her talking like this.Actually, the fact that she recalled her childhood was strange enough.When she was a child, she felt much older than him, as if she was an adult when she was born, at least she never experienced the clumsiness and weakness of childhood. She poked at the pudding.What do they remember about Tao Tao?she asked almost impatiently. Her picnic will be so much fun.However, the one they remember most is obviously tragic.Will fell into the stream, so he stripped off his wet clothes and ran naked.He appears to have been beaten for it afterwards. It was my sixth birthday, she said.Not tragic at all.Your mother did almost choke to death on the chicken when Will ran out naked, but everyone else was laughing.Will was quickly escorted off the scene, and we spent the afternoon playing games. He felt as if he were in a dusty, cobweb-tangled attic, opening cratered and dilapidated boxes only to find them filled with dazzling jewels. What else did they tell you about that time?She really couldn't wait.Her tone reminded him of his former self, and he always asked her obliquely: Is Carrie's sister still cutting people's stomachs open? There is another story.When he announced his engagement, his older brothers kept teasing him about it, almost too much to count.Matthew and Charlie sent telegrams from Paris and faraway Gilgit respectively, with almost the same content: God, when she was playing the Virgin Mary, you were Jesus lying in a manger. Tao Tao held the Christmas play for the first time, he said. Well, I'm more impressed with the last one.She rented a camel from nowhere.It didn't quite get used to the feed Ma Yi fed it, and as a result, it spread all over the church, and the stench made several ladies pass out.Do you remember? do not remember.He personally has no memory of Tao Tao. That's what is called tragic.My father was very angry at her for doing that.But after the two of us were scolded and cried, we laughed until we were in tears, she said. He looked at her in surprise.When they were husband and wife before, even though they lived under the same roof, she never mentioned Tao Tao.He originally thought she was not close to Tao Tao, which was a reasonable guess because she was estranged from her current stepmother, and she was blunt and did not shed tears at Tao Tao's funeral. A teardrop rolled down her cheek.He was petrified, not knowing that she would cry too. She seemed equally taken aback.Feel sorry.She hurriedly picked up the napkin.sorry.I don't know what's wrong with me. He presents his handkerchief.She nodded awkwardly.But her tears didn't stop.He sat there for a long minute, then stood up, trying to give her some privacy, only to go around the table and pull her to her feet. He'd hugged her before, too, not long after they were married.Her stiff, unresponsive attitude made him stop trying.He took a deep breath and pulled her into his arms. She froze.He instinctively wanted to back away, but his hands hugged her even tighter. It's okay, he whispered in her ear.it does not matter.You can cry.God makes perfect people sometimes, and of course you should be heartbroken. I'm not crying, she said, her voice muffled.I never cry. Yeah, I know, he said.It doesn't matter, you can cry or not cry if you want. As if he had given her the permission she needed, the silent tears turned into quivering sobs.In his arms, she felt so slender, thinner than before, almost frail.He stroked her back and kissed her hair, just like comforting a niece injured in a fall.After a while, she nestled loosely against him, her body unexpectedly submissive and soft, the sobs fading into hiccup-like gasps. There's something I haven't told you, he said.Once when we were husband and wife, I went to visit an old friend of my mother's.It just so happened that her younger sister also came to visit that day. It was a coincidence that her younger sister and Tao Tao were classmates in the women's finishing school.After knowing that you are my wife, she asked me to tell you that in Tao Tao's heart, you are the most wonderful child in the world. They were still married at the time, but her bedroom door was bolted.He was not at all in the mood to pass on the compliment.In fact, he felt sorry for Taotao, thinking she had been cheated, because Benny hardly remembered her. She looked up.real? That's what Mrs. Ge said, word for word.After leaving this mountain area, I will send a telegram asking her to find Tao Tao's letter and forward it to you. She lowered her head again.You don't have to worry about me so much. He let her go.It's nothing. She stood there for a long time.Then she leaned in and kissed his cheek, pecking lightly, barely touching his skin.Thank you.Good night. Good night, he said to the dark place where the light could not reach, and the sound of her footsteps gradually faded behind him. Before Taotao married in, Bernie's memory was hazy and gray, save for the cavernous dark rooms of Pinewood Manor.Her mother has been infertile for many years after marriage, and the child she finally gave birth to is a daughter, so she is very disappointed.When Bei Ni was less than two years old, she died of acute pneumonia.Her father found it more convenient for a widower to live in the city, but believed that children should grow up in the country, so he was away from her most of the time. After Tao Tao came, her world instantly bloomed with brilliance.Everyone said that they hit it off, and the new Mrs. Ai, who was in her twenties, was lively and immediately became friends with her shy and introverted four-year-old stepdaughter.From that moment on, during the last short three years of Tao Tao's life, they were inseparable. They traveled all over the village and the surrounding hills, collecting leaves, petals and fruits, and helping Tao Tao record the local flower ecology.They host picnics, children's parties, and scavenger hunts.When the weather is not suitable for going out for a walk or riding a horse, they stay at home and drink hot sparkling apple juice, play chess, or take out the encyclopedia and browse at will, filling their heads with obscure knowledge. She and Tao Tao had planned so many activities to celebrate the birth of the baby.But Tao Tao passed away due to dystocia.Tao Tao, who is always smiling, lively and cheerful, and Tao Tao, who is always full of energy, curiosity and kindness, just left. The world is destroyed. Three months after Tao Tao was buried, Beini's nanny also passed away.Six months after Taotao's death, Benny's father made another reunion.However, after the engagement and before the marriage, misfortune befell the third Mrs. Ai.Her two sons from a previous marriage, Bernie's stepbrothers, had polio and tuberculosis. Immediately after the wedding, she came to the manor, arranged for a tutor to educate her stepdaughter and supervised the wet nurse and new nurse employed by the steward.After that, she went back and forth between the nursing home in Germany and the hospital in London, and Bernie didn't see her for five years. The tutor she hired was named Bo, and she was more suitable for six or seven bad boys with criminal tendencies than two little orphans.Ms. Bai's discipline is very strict, and she is meticulous about order and discipline.She later married the vicar of the parish, and brought her autocratic style to bear in managing parish affairs. The successor's tutor is surnamed Lu, and he is a cute and confused old man, who is much easier to get along with than Miss Bai.Benny's father, stepmother and two stepbrothers who were still seriously ill also came to live in the country for part of that year.The family was finally reunited. Facing the sudden addition of a large family, Jiali is like a fish in water.But it was too late for Bernie.At that time she had firmly closed herself.Human beings, including herself, do not arouse her any interest at all. In her eyes, human beings are nothing more than living machines. The degree of complexity is breathtaking. The human body is a miracle. wonderful system.In the end, she left home without looking back, devoted herself to studying medicine, and ignored the rest, and practiced medicine with cold and ruthless concentration. Forget that she ever longed for joy, companionship, and love.