Chapter 16 [Volume Four Showa Thirteen Years Twenty Seven Years Old]

【Second Section】 May 3rd. Ten p.m.We were ordered to return to the squadron and head towards Xinzhuang Village.It was a dimly lit night, and there was a quiet wind blowing in the wheat field. Compared with the fierce gunfire during the day, how peaceful this moment was!It seems that everything has fallen into a deep sleep. In this quiet world, it is unimaginable that there will be a murderous person waiting for an opportunity to play with the murderer. Stillness and movement, isn't this just a dreamlike change?It is unimaginable that this peace and silence is actually a battlefield for bloodthirsty demons to jump beams.The warm wind gently blows the ears of wheat, and until two hours ago, the sound of earth-shattering shells was still ringing non-stop.Like the last breath of a man who returns to the light, fades away and returns suddenly to silence, like a dream, like a lie, but, oh, oh, never thought of the peace and silence of the night of the third of May, It should be a night of regret and regret that I will never forget!

We were walking on a somewhat low-lying, almost dry riverbed.There is a road along the hollow.Where the concave land turns right, the road extends towards Xinzhuang Village. We arrived at Xinzhuang quietly and quickly.Xinzhuang is located about 1,500 meters away from the brigade headquarters.There are also towering trees in the village. Almost the whole squadron was at the front of the village, and our detachment became a reserve, staying in a deep natural ditch.The ditch is a dry ditch.It is said that during the day the squadron wiped out the enemy soldiers who were going to retake Xinzhuang, and captured two enemy machine guns.The soldiers told me that they defeated the enemy just like the Fifth Squadron was beaten back then, and avenged the Fifth Squadron.

I left the team members behind and followed the squadron leader to scout the position. Almost all the people in the squadron were located in front of the village.Behind the village, there was only one detachment where I had been ordered to guard.When the squadron leader and I were checking the sentry, the enemy bullets whizzed over the village and landed in the dark wheat field.We lay down and discussed the security deployment. East, the enemy is in front of the village.This is the back of the village, the enemy is unlikely to come!The squadron leader said in a low voice.He went on to say: This road is the road you came from just now, leading to the brigade headquarters.Sentinel fortifications must be built on the right, front, and left sides of the road!Be alert in three directions!

yes!I see! Ten minutes later, I explained the security area to the team members. The enemy is in front of the village, here is the rear.Seventy meters to the right, a unit sent by the first team was on guard, and sixty to seventy meters to the left, the Xinchuan unit sent by the second team was there.We must stand guard in the middle ground, where we are. This road is the road we came from just now, leading to the headquarters of the brigade.The squadron leader ordered us to take this road as the center and guard the right, front and left sides. The vast rear of such a large village is guarded by so little manpower?"I feel horrible here," Noguchi muttered.He is a worker at the Kawasaki Shipyard. He has a bad stomach because of gluttony.He is a reserve soldier.

Whenever someone had to stay in the rear, he was often the first to stay, with little desire to go to the front.Even if they went to the front line, they would only do some work to monitor the coolies.His backpack was always stuffed with trophies, snacks and cigarettes.During the Battle of Nanjing, he hurt his stomach because he ate too much rice cakes and red bean porridge, so he was left behind, but he didn't seem to think it was disgraceful at all. He is a little clever, especially in terms of machinery. Once he wants to dig a trench that involves his own safety, he will dig it seriously and beautifully, which is admirable.

He said it was terrifying, but everyone felt the same way.Battles that cost a great deal of sacrifice are repeated every day.In this battle of Taierzhuang, the enemy's large army was larger than ours, and they kept attacking day and night. It was really a particularly nervous and restless battle. Noguchi and Takiguchi are on the side of the road, guarding the right!After I finished speaking, I indicated the location on the side of the road. Noguchi and Takiguchi put down their backpacks. I ordered: Take out the round shovel and dig the trench! After graduating from Sonobe Middle School, Takiguchi entered Tohoku University in Sendai from Kanazawa Fourth High School. He is an intellectual.He was a college student who enlisted as an active duty soldier after his military service grace period expired.He is twenty-seven years old, a thin man who walks with short steps.In my opinion, he is not a very brave man.I have a good relationship with him, and considering that he is still in college, I don't want to ruin him even if it happens, so I try to arrange him in a safe position.This time, put him in the last position.But the marvelous and ironic thing about fate finally came to me clearly two hours later, in the form of the most memorable and saddest lamentation, before my eyes.Is fate something that people have to bear immediately after they are born?What exactly is fate?Is it philosophical?No matter what happens, it is fate, people use this saying to seek insight.Everyone on the battlefield has become a fatalist.On the battlefield, sometimes what could have been avoided turned out to be unavoidable, and sometimes the opposite happened.The possible becomes impossible, and the impossible becomes possible.In this unpredictable mystery, we all feel the existence of fate inexplicably.

I ordered Kumano and Shimoban to serve as guards on the left, and myself, Tanaka, and Takehashi to serve as guards ahead.It was the enemy position that Noguchi first discovered.The land in this area is soft sandy soil to guard against Yangyi from the depression. We arrived here after nightfall, so we couldn't know the exact terrain. The night was dark, and an eerie silence enveloped us like death. Our nerves are strained by the endless attacks of the enemy over the past few days. As we went on and on, we carefully pricked up our ears to the breeze over the wheat fields, the footsteps of the dogs, the barking of the dogs, and every other sound.

The three of us at the front dug a trench big enough for us to stand.The others hadn't finished digging yet, so the three of us each stood guard for ten minutes. Let Tanaka stand guard in the trench first, while Zhuqiao and I hunched over and smoked in the trench.We had to smoke secretly, keeping the flame of the cigarettes in our hands so that it wouldn't leak out.This smoke is really fragrant. In the darkness and silence, the sound of digging trenches was faintly heard. Suddenly, intense gunshots and noises sounded in the dark distance.It seems that the brigade headquarters was attacked at night.

Tracer bullets arced in the night, bullets shattered the silence, and noises and shouts echoed everywhere. But after about 20 minutes, he returned to the original silent dark world again. I don't know if it's because the place where Noguchi and Kumano dug the fortification is so hard that they can't finish it.I took out the compressed biscuit and chewed it. Who is that?Suddenly Noguchi's voice came.Startled, I looked up.Noguchi shouted again: Who is that?who?I asked: Noguchi, what's going on? There is someone under the big tree in front of the road!Noguchi answered and questioned: Who is it?who?No reply.shot!I ordered Noguchi.

Noguchi fired three shots in a row. stop shooting!After I shouted, I scouted the situation. We concentrate, mobilizing our ears and eyes to focus on the front. There was no sound at all.There was a piece of weeds in front of my position, and I couldn't see the front, so I climbed out. I am the team leader, and I must find out whether the suspect is an enemy soldier or something else, and I must deal with it properly. I stooped slightly and moved forward quietly, holding a bayonet-mounted gun tightly in my hand, ready to assassinate the enemy at any time. There is a depression next to the weeds on the left side of the road, so I use the depression to move forward quietly.

There are jujube trees and some dead wood at about 25 meters.The suspicious ones are there. There were no weeds there, and I could see clearly, so I leaned against a fallen tree, set up my gun, lay down on the ground, and searched hard in the dark.Still no enemy. So I leaned over to the road to check.About five meters ahead of the road, there was a black shadow squatting on the edge of the wheat field on the right.I couldn't tell if it was a person or a big rock, or something else, just staring.At this time, Takiguchi asked in a low voice: Where are you, Lao Dong?Where?came to my left. It's Takiguchi, hey, look, that black figure on the opposite side is not an enemy soldier, right? Where?where?Takiguchi asked nonchalantly.I leaned forward and pulled him close to me. Well, it was like the enemy Etakiguchi whispered. Takiguchi, you don't have a gun.Let me interrogate, if you are the enemy, you should retreat quickly!Did you hear me?After I whispered this to him, I shouted: Who is it?who?No reply at all. who?I yelled again, and the black shadow suddenly moved and said something.What he said was exactly the same as what we encountered and heard familiarly during the night raid in Bakumeng (place name, here is the transliteration.) in northern China.I immediately realized that this was the enemy, Takiguchi withdrew quickly!I shouted the order and fired at the shadow. Takiguchi quickly dodges and retreats. one shot.two shots.The shadow disappeared into the wheat field.I have an intuition that there must be a large army behind this enemy, and this person is a scout or something. I felt that it was very dangerous, and I should go back to the position to resist, so I ran across the long depression next to the weeds, and shouted: There are enemies!Shoot the road ahead!I ran while shouting repeatedly.When I rushed to my position, Tanaka stood up in a panic, preparing to rush out of the trench. Ahead of the road!shooting!I yelled at Tanaka, and kept shooting from the position to the dark place ahead.Tanaka hurriedly fired at nowhere. The road ahead is this way!I yelled at Tanaka again.In order to indicate the direction of shooting, I fired again and again.Tanaka was completely panicked.I was shooting fiercely near the jujube tree, when Noguchi's voice suddenly came from behind: Where is Takiguchi?What about Takiguchi?I felt very strange, thinking that Takiguchi should have returned to the position before me, what's going on?Then he asked Noguchi who was looking for it: What's going on?The answer was that Takiguchi was not there. Huh!What about Takiguchi?what happened?I shouted in surprise: Takiguchi!Takiguchi!No reply.I searched the road and found a dark figure lying on the road behind our position.I ran over in surprise and took a look: ah!It's Takiguchi! Takiguchi!Takiguchi!I yelled desperately and grabbed him tightly.I stared fixedly at Takiguchi's face.Takiguchi leaned weakly against my arm, groaning in agony before dying.In the darkness, black blood could also be seen flowing from his head and flowing on the ground.Grief pricks my heart. how so!how so!Takiguchi!Takiguchi!I cried and hugged him tightly. At this moment, I felt that it was Tanaka who fired in panic. I gently put down Takiguchi, ran to Tanaka's side, grabbed his arms suddenly, and slapped him with all my strength without saying a word.Tanaka trembled, and argued: You blame me, but how can you figure it out!What he meant was that who knows who fired the bullet.I didn't say it was your bullet that killed him, but my hand that slapped him did. I asked myself, what's the use of asking Tanaka to find out the truth now?So she went back to Takiguchi again, hugged him tightly and cried and cried, what a tragedy! I forgot myself, I forgot my enemies, I forgot everything, and I just cried loudly because of this grief, sorrow, and misery, and kept shouting: O Takiguchi!Takiguchi!Takiguchi moaned in pain in my arms, struggling to hold his last breath for twenty-seven years. ah!Dear Takiguchi!And his death was haunted by demons. Humming, heavy and extremely painful hell groans came from his mouth, and purple-black blood flowed viscously.All my body and mind were taken away by intense grief, and I hugged him as if I had a fever, calling his name. Just at Takiguchi who was still full of energy just now! His hand holding the pen and holding the gun trembled slightly.ah!It's all over! Hot tears and inseparable feelings welled up in my heart. water!water!Hearing Kumano's voice, I suddenly remembered it!He hurried to get the water bottle and dripped water into Takiguchi's groaning mouth.However, the water just overflowed ineffectively.It made me sadder and sadder. Seeing me immersed in lamentation and crying, Kumano greeted and said: It doesn't help that you are so sad.Had to report to the squadron leader and the medics.He advised me.Yes!I changed my mind and said: Kumano-kun, run to the headquarters for me! Kumano ran away, and soon the squadron leader and Sergeant Araki ran over. Takiguchi, hold on!The squadron leader ran up to me.The health guards are here. Squadron leader, he is already dead.The health guard said straightly. No way, yes, no more.Takiguchi was hit in the head! No way, the words came to my mind and spread. East!The calm voice of the squadron leader shook my eardrums. have! What's the situation? yes!I gave a detailed report on the situation until Takiguchi was hit, but I mixed the biggest lie in this report, intending to hide the most important content and muddle through. No, this sentence broke my heart again, I burst into tears, and my sense of responsibility whipped me violently. If the enemy was in the front, then Takiguchi was shot on the way back, and the bullet should have been shot forward from behind, but in fact it passed from the side.So where did the bullet come from?Hearing the accusation-like voice of the squadron leader, I was extremely depressed.If I tell the truth here now, what will happen to Tanaka? Everything is the responsibility of my team leader.I said desperately: When the bullet came to check with you, the squadron leader, there was a bullet flying over there. Similarly, after that, there were also bullets flying over, so I think it was hit by that bullet.I'm exhausted for telling this lie Squadron leader, I'm sorry, I'm sorry.Everything is my fault, sorry!After I lied, I burst into tears. Sanitary, bring Takiguchi to the squadron headquarters immediately!After the squadron leader gave the order, he fell silent.The painful silence continued.Mr. Morisaki Cho is here. You said you didn't know Takiguchi was shot?The squadron leader's voice beat my heart mercilessly. yes!As soon as I spotted the enemy, I immediately told Takiguchi to retreat, and I retreated while shooting, so I thought that Takiguchi who retreated first must have returned to his position. Then how do you know that Takiguchi was shot? Noguchi in the rear position: Where's Takiguchi?I felt strange that Takiguchi was not there, I thought it was strange, I asked him to come back first, looking around, I found Takiguchi moaning on the road. Where is Takiguchi's position? over there.The same position as Noguchi, the last one. What did you order? The squadron leader's stern questioning mercilessly whipped my heart full of frustration and self-blame. Shoot the road ahead! Did you shoot after you got into position? Yes, six shots were fired. Did you shoot at the enemy's position you found? That's right.Towards the jujube tree over there. Shoot down the road, is that the right order?You think about it! yes! The squadron leader seemed to feel that Takiguchi's death was an abnormal death.Morisaki Caochang looked at Takiguchi's wound and shouted: "The wound is huge, and the bullets are very close!" Ah, I can't hide it anymore.I feel endless blame. Oops, he was shot in the foot too!Cao Chang's loud voice shocked me, as if he was beating me up.foot?I can't help but look back.It was unexpected.Whose gun hit it?I was completely overwhelmed by a feeling of helplessness. Was it wrong to order to shoot down the road?I felt such a deep sense of guilt that I even wanted to die in apology.How to meet the squadron leader, how to meet Takiguchi's parents!Infinite laments and self-blame tormented me. Takiguchi!I was a stupid squad leader, so the command was wrong, which led to your death.How can I apologize to you?sorry!sorry!I repent in my heart. East!The squadron leader suddenly called my name. Send a sentry to the jujube tree in front of the weeds.There are weeds blocking the view, it is very dangerous and six people are not enough.Okay, let me add a Czech machine gun captured during the day, and, Dong, why is Takiguchi called Takiguchi? Mitsuo Takiguchi. What!The squadron leader was surprised, he said. Is it Mitsuo Takiguchi?Is it!I thought it was the squadron leader who lowered his voice, he seemed very surprised, and lowered his tone as if he had something to say. I thought it was he who then whispered to himself. East!What a pity he was killed!He sighed deeply. To be honest, although I can't tell others, I don't want Mitsuo Takiguchi to die. I was just talking about whether to take this kid, because this kid is still a college student at school!But Guangfu said let me go to the expedition, so he brought his parents and entrusted him repeatedly, and finally died.｜The squadron leader said to me with great regret. I'm really sorry, sorry! Oh, no way.said the squadron leader. Strengthen vigilance!The squadron leader left after adding this sentence. After listening to the squadron leader's words, my heart full of sorrow was more deeply immersed in tears.I ordered Tanaka to stand guard under the jujube tree. Bamboo Bridge, please dig a trench for sentries. The two left the trench and walked away.I was alone in the trenches, brooding.Is my order to shoot down the road inappropriate?For the person on the left side of the road, the right side of the road and the extension of the road are all in front of the road. For the people in positions A and B, both A and B are in front of the road. Therefore, Noguchi in position B fired in the direction of A, and Tanaka in position A fired in the direction of B. If this order is inappropriate, what should be the order?At night, the terrain is unfamiliar, and no one knows what will be there, whether there are jujube trees, not to mention that this is a highly tense night.Should I say: Enemies on the road?But that doesn't work, because it will mistake our own people who have withdrawn from the road as enemies.But the words "enemy far away on the road" are quite different.All in all, the soldiers on the battlefield, especially Tanaka and Noguchi, already knew that Takiguchi and I had left the battlefield, shouldn't they make a careful judgment?Shouldn't Noguchi shoot after confirming that it's not Takiguchi?Shouldn't Tanaka judge where the road ahead points? I can't think of a very precise call to action in this case.Takehashi-kun said that Takiguchi was knocked down at the same time that Tanaka-kun shot.Shimoban said that it was not clear whether it was Tanaka or Noguchi who shot, because Noguchi also shot.So maybe Noguchi suddenly remembered and asked himself: Where is Takiguchi?What about Takiguchi?I didn't know about Noguchi's shooting until Shimoban told me.Takiguchi was hit about three meters away from his position, Noguchi's position.Noguchi must have hit the foot, and Tanaka the head. But all the crimes will be borne by me!I'm the squad leader.Am I overly nervous and panicking?Isn't there a more appropriate way to deal with it? The sound of trenches being dug from the side of the jujube tree came indistinctly.I crouched down at the bottom of the trench and lightly lit a cigarette.He looked at his watch by the light of the cigarette.The time is 1:10 am, 1:10 am on May 4th.Unforgettable May 4th at 1:10 am. Should I quietly withdraw to the position after discovering the enemy, report the situation to the team members, and then indicate the direction of shooting, and carry out practical and accurate combat? However, we are tasked with being scouts and outposts.The enemy is right in front of you, how can there be such ample time!When the outpost soldiers learn of the enemy's attack, they should shout from their positions: Attention!One hundred meters!Running back and forth, that's how I was educated during active duty. This time I just shouted: There are enemies!Shoot the road ahead!edge back. When I found an enemy, I also had a premonition that there was a large army of enemies lurking behind him.Because even if he is just a scout, he will not be alone; if it is a surprise attack, he will not be alone, and I also suspect that it may be the enemy who attacked the headquarters of the brigade in the middle of the night last night. The enemy at fifteen meters away cannot be treated calmly.If the enemy is determined to rush over, the distance of twenty-five meters will only take a few seconds. Moreover, there is always a wariness about grenades lurking in each of our minds. So far we have always had to worry about dealing with the enemy's grenades.Enemies have a large number of grenades and use them frequently. At that moment, the grenade was also in my mind. Throw in a few grenades, and it's all over. After all, I still can't imagine having enough time. We were under fire day and night, confronting the stubborn enemy and confronting the stubborn enemy only a thousand meters away.In my mind, which tenses every nerve, I have to listen to the whisper of the breeze, I have to watch the bark of the dog, and I have to be extremely tense and alert to any sound, any sign, or any slight change. Attention, the whole body of five feet and five inches turned into a nerve is such a me. After finding an approaching enemy in the dark, I need to retreat quietly and then report to my comrades. Can this be done? Am I taking the right steps? Is it only the pointing method to shoot the target that is wrong? After that, the enemy soldiers fell silent and did not come to attack.Could it be that the enemy is really just one person? If so, my instincts are wrong.Am I too timid? But if, as I expected, there was an ambush and we were attacked after that, I would be quite right. Either the enemy was an army, but he gave up attacking and retreated because he thought we had a large number of people; or he was really only one person, and did not attack after that. Whether the measures I have taken are right or wrong will depend on my judgment as to whether the enemy is an army or a person. I think about it, think about it carefully The bamboo bridge that creaked and dug the trench is back. Old Dong! What's up? Maybe something big will happen, Tanaka-kun Tanaka-kun? Maybe suicide. What!I was in shock. Mr. Tanaka trembled all over, and said to himself: Suicide, but now is not the time.Now is the time when troops are needed, even if there is one more person.How about forget it now?How to do it?He was trembling anyway, berating himself. Sure enough!I was heartbroken and deeply afraid of karma. Now if Tanaka commits suicide, then I will really have no face to see the squadron leader.I also have to follow them and go to apologize. I considered that Tanaka could not be left there alone, so I ordered the board to change the whistle. While I was explaining the reason to Shimoban and Kumano, a gunshot sounded ahead. Did it work?I was shocked and palpitated. Get off the board, hurry up!hurry up!I urged. Finally, Tanaka, who staggered like a demon possessed and immersed in severe self-blame, returned to me who was heartbroken.Seeing him alive and well despite his stagger, a soft relief surged in my heart. Takebashi-kun, you are a snack!I handed Tanaka over to Takehashi, and went to investigate. Pass through the short weeds and come under the jujube tree.The lower board stands there.In front of my eyes, the darkness spreads endlessly, only a path of self-confession is vaguely discernible.This place is twenty-five meters away from the position, which seems a little too far away. Get off the board, how do you feel?I asked in a low voice. Feeling a little dangerous, Is it?Move the sentry point down!I think it's too dangerous to set up a sentinel here. I took the lower board and retreated about ten meters, halfway on the weed road. Get off the board, dig a kneeling and shooting trench, and serve as a guard in this trench! I'll cut down the weeds so we can keep an eye out. The soldiers on the lower board hurriedly dug trenches.I went to Noguchi to borrow a Navy knife.That was the position where Takiguchi had been about an hour and a half ago, and it was now guarded by Private Iyakura from the 1st Division armed with captured Czech machine guns.When Noguchi was fumbling for the knife in his backpack, he suddenly heard an interrogation from the lower board: Who is it?who?who! here we go again?I opened my eyes wide.Then, two shots pierced the darkness. The lower plate is located in front of the position.I thought, I can't repeat Takiguchi's mistakes, so I immediately ordered: get off the board, retreat quickly! The lower board ran quickly and withdrew. How about it? Can't be careless.The enemy kept entangled. When I was digging the trench, the soil from the round shovel got on the gun. I wanted to dust off the soil on the gun. When I suddenly looked up, I found a guy who was touching me, only about two feet away from me. up.If I know a little later, maybe I will let him kill me!It's really chilling! What happened to the enemy soldier after you shot? Hide across the road, here!It was in the wheat field over there.Definitely still there. It has been more than an hour and a half since the Takiguchi incident. We opened fire and made a fuss for a while, but the enemy did not seem to retreat, and was still stubbornly approaching.If there was only one enemy, he wouldn't have taken such a bold move!It's troops!It must be a single enemy soldier with a military background staring at a distance of ten meters from the lower board. It took the enemy soldier more than an hour to slowly approach us. The situation is serious.good! Shoot the target!Wheat fields ahead!shot!I ordered the barn machine gunner with the Czech machine gun. Machine guns fired like a gust of fire at the wheat fields immersed in deathly silence.When I looked carefully, I found that the bullets hit the road two or three meters away, and then ricocheted into the wheat field. The impact point is too close!Adjust the distance! The machine gunner immediately raised the muzzle and corrected the bullet point.The Czech light machine gun swept across the wheat field. stop shooting!The original deathly silence was restored. What do you think?I think the enemy in front is very stubborn, and it seems to be a large force of considerable size. It is difficult for the seven of us to hold it.So I'd like to ask for reinforcements. I'm asking for the opinions of the team members. I think so.Seven people couldn't completely defend the rear of this big village.Maybe the enemy is about to attack.Call for reinforcements!The lower board replied. Do you see it that way too?I feel the urgency of the situation.Hello!Kumano-kun!You report these situations to the squadron leader and ask for reinforcements! I ordered that to Kumano, but Kumano didn't want to move. Is there anyone else who can go? No one wants to go.From here to the squadron headquarters in front of the village, you have to pass through a dark and silent road.Moreover, the towering tree must pass under the tree.Without a friendly army, it was indeed a terrible journey.At this time, even if a person stays in a very dangerous place, as long as he has a companion, he will not want to leave there.Now that we have been exposed to the enemy and constantly threatened, the way to the squadron headquarters may be somewhat dangerous, but it is much safer than here, but the team members may feel that it is more dangerous to go alone, so no one is willing to undertake this task. Then I will go there.Get off the board!You act as the team leader.If you are attacked by the enemy, don't stay here, retreat while fighting!Everyone, throw away your backpacks and everything else!So everyone bury the backpack at the bottom of the trench first, and then come to get it after the enemies have been beaten back! Did you hear me?It's all up to you!I'm gone, there are only six people left! After I finished speaking, I ran to the squadron headquarters.Drilled through the dark bushes, passed the earth wall, crossed the square, there was no danger on the road, and arrived at the headquarters safely.The squadron leader fell asleep in a house that was about to collapse.I state all the circumstances and call for reinforcements. Murashita is here, go and tell him to take the Takema unit with you!The squadron leader said to me in the darkness. yes!I saluted in the dark and turned back out the door.A sentry stood outside the door. Hello!Where is the village captain? in that house.What happened?Takiguchi died about two hours later. The sentry pointed me to the room where the squad leader stayed and told me about Takiguchi's death. That's right, Takiguchi is dead!But he still lived for two hours!I prayed in my heart, holding the gun tightly in my right hand, and walked towards the captain's house. Sentinels stood there, too. Is the captain there? Fell asleep in fear, under the bed. in bed? under the bed!At first, he said that we had to be on the bed to fall asleep, and asked us to find a bed, move in, and fall asleep warmly, but after hearing Takiguchi being hit, he quickly crawled under the bed and fell asleep.The soldiers slept on the ground, and they all said they wanted that bed, and felt it was a pity. Maybe the bed is easy to be shot? Maybe. I sneered and entered the room. Captain, please lend me the bamboo unit!I also told the squadron leader. I finished speaking to the squad leader under the bed and reported the dangerous situation. Is it!I let them go for reinforcements.When Takiguchi was attacked, I also wanted to go, but because I hurt my eyes at the 250 heights, I couldn't see clearly at night, so I didn't go.Send reinforcements immediately! The captain sat down on the bed, and excused himself for not even going to Takiguchi's deathbed.I sneered at him inwardly. I went back. I went out angrily.Six lonely comrades in arms are waiting for me to go back.I quickened my pace. On the side of the silent village, comrades are guarding with high tension.safe and sound.I am relieved. I'm off to call for reinforcements.Be there soon! After I conveyed it to everyone, I wanted to scold the squad leader for his nasty appearance.Since Second Lieutenant Murashita was assigned to our third team, he ate and lived with my first team, and was very close to the members of our first team.And he has a good relationship with Takiguchi, and they often talk to each other.But in the end, all the other cadres of the squadron came, but the second lieutenant Murashita, who was the team leader, did not come. The squad leader, who pretended to be deaf and dumb to the death of his own squad, was so afraid of coming here!After hearing the news of Takiguchi's death, I wanted to spit on him for being able to get under the bed.Although I am not used to fighting yet, I should maintain the restraint of the squad leader! The true value of a person is reflected in extraordinary moments. The captain nestled under the bed and fell asleep in fear.After I finished speaking, I entered the trench where Tanaka and Takehashi were. Takehashi-kun, are you hungry?Eat compressed biscuits! After I finished speaking, I took out a bag of compressed biscuits from the backpack at the bottom of the trench.Tanaka to my right was silent. The sound of gnawing biscuits interspersed in the trenches.A slight tremor spread to my right arm.I stared at the ground.The tremors continued. It was Tanaka who was trembling! Was he listening to Takiguchi's groans and curses? Is he trembling with fear of the greatest wrong, and weeping with the bitterness of self-reproach?In this lonely dark trench! I felt that Tanaka was trembling out of self-blame, but I didn't say a word to ease his uneasiness or comfort his state of mind. Instead, I deliberately kept silent, with a bit of hatred in my heart: Although Tanaka blamed himself, It can be regarded as praying for Takiguchi's blessings. Five minutes, ten minutes, the time passed bit by bit, and Tanaka's trembling was still coming from his right arm.The unbearable passage of time! As soon as the sun rises over the wheat fields, there will be a stormy battle, and now the night of the earth lies in a cold sleep.I said in my heart: Tanaka just blame himself!My wicked heart showed no sympathy for his wailing in the pit of pain.My silent oppression tormented his heart.He lost his sense of superiority, self-confidence and reserve, and fell into embarrassment and self-blame. Tanaka trembled and trembled, like a dead man who couldn't even cry, pain, and sigh, a man who couldn't think, couldn't speak, and trembled numbly with fear, a seriously ill old man. The cold night air crept silently into the trenches.I reached into the zip cookie bag again. The sound of Gaba Gaba gnawing biscuits sounded again.My heart seemed to be saved by the sound of crackers being chewed, somewhat brightened. I bent down and lit a cigarette, and in an instant, the trench was lit up. Tanaka's shoes and calves were trembling. Tanaka-kun!I couldn't help pressing his leg with my right hand, and greeted him quietly. Poor Tanaka.This is a battlefield, accidentally injuring one's own people, wrong shots, and unexpected things are common.Tanaka is not to blame.Tanaka is very pitiful, I changed my mind. Tanaka-kun, don't you eat compressed biscuits?Are you hungry?eat it! Oh his voice limply died away. How about something to eat? O feeble voice full of sorrow. I handed him the cookie bag.His dazed and weak hands trembled to grab the biscuits, but the palms of his hands only kept shaking randomly in the biscuit bag, and he couldn't grab a single biscuit. His hands that lost their grip could only move the biscuits slightly. Old Dong!Came his timid voice. What's up?Mr. Tanaka. Only trembling was felt, and there was no sound other than that.Silence lasted for a few seconds. Old Dong!Like a child pleading after being scolded, his timid voice came from the darkness. Don't worry, Tanaka-kun!I replied to the voice in the darkness. Old Dong!Again that hellish groan, pleading cowardly voice echoed in the trenches. I can fully deduce what he wants to say.He wanted to beg: Please don't say that I killed you, okay? Tanaka-kun!I shouted vigorously in an encouraging tone, there is nothing to worry about. Whether it was your bullet, or whose bullet it was, is unclear.These are commonplace on the battlefield.No matter what happens, even if my mouth is bad, I will never tell anyone, so please rest assured.The squadron leader doesn't know anything.I didn't say anything.Trust me, take it easy! Hearing what I said, Tanaka's trembling hand held mine tightly in the darkness.My hands are almost sore. sorry!Thanks!The voice is not high, but it is full of trust, gratitude and joy. Just don't think about anything, cheer up and eat compressed biscuits!After I finished speaking, I couldn't help but feel happy, and smoked a cigarette with gusto. The long night finally escaped to the west.On the tip of the ear of the wide wheat field to the east, the sun shone golden, and the earth breathed and came to life.As if waking up from a nightmare, we let go of our hearts, opened our arms to the rising sun, breathed deeply, and yawned loudly for the joy of this life. The sun completely illuminated the earth, and even the bottom of the trench was lit up.We dug our packs out of the dirt and left the trench.The tips of the ears of wheat were wet with dew, and the cool and clear morning breeze blew. It was a completely peaceful and quiet morning with no gunfire.It's hard to imagine that this is a battlefield for killing.The jujube tree dragged a long shadow standing alone.It seemed like nothing happened last night. I recalled what happened last night and got up to survey the terrain.路上，看見朝陽照射下的一攤黑乎乎的血，這是瀧口的血。昨晚的慘景再次清晰地浮現在眼前。村下小隊長來了。他是因為我請求增援，才無可奈何地從床底下爬出來，把竹間分隊帶了來的。 East!敵人在哪裡來著？ 我不大高興，指著前面說了聲在那邊樹下，便沒再多言。我不想跟他說什麼。這是瀧口的血。我說完這句，便帶著隊員回總部了。 中隊長命令我將攏口火葬，又補充說： 只是火葬時要想辦法不能冒煙，因為煙是敵人炮擊的目標。 我被這苛刻的要求難住了。本需很多木材，要燒幾個小時的，可不讓冒煙，真是件困難的事。不過我還是想盡量做到，便到處物色火葬的場所。 我選定了某戶大宅子的裡院。宅外圍著高高的磚牆。我們在圍牆邊挖了長方形的壕溝，溝底墊上桌子、衣櫥、椅子等傢俱以及拆房子得來的柱子等等，讓瀧口穿著軍裝躺在上面。 我凝視著沈口安息的臉龐，合掌為他禱告。不斷湧出的淚水打濕了我的雙頰，悲哀湧上來，直堵得我心慌。 戰友們在屍體上舖上稻草，又高高地堆了些樹枝。 我拿著一束稻草，用來點火的一束稻草。 那麼長的時間裡，一直老東氨、瀧口氨這樣叫來叫去的戰友！ 同甘共苦的戰友！ 啊，直到昨天為止，共同跨越了死亡之線的戰友！ 無常的人生！ 我被強烈的感情衝擊著，放聲大哭，一邊哭一邊點著了稻草。 燃成一片灰燼的瀧口啊！ 火紅彤彤地燃燒起來。火苗從稻草到木頭、從木頭到木頭移動著，將我最親愛的戰友包圍了。 我只是莫名地悲傷。 下午撿起屍骨，裝進田中做的盒子裡，將另一片屍骨埋在他戰死的地方，又削了一段高三尺左右的圓木頭，用鉛筆寫上我完全能推知他想說的話。他是想哀求：請你千萬別說出去是我殺的好嗎？ 田中君！我用鼓勵的口氣用力喊道，沒什麼可擔心的。 是因你的子彈而死，還是因誰的子彈而死都不清楚。這些都是戰場的常事。無論發生什麼事，就是嘴爛了我也絕對不會對任何人說的，所以請你放心。中隊長什麼都不知道。I didn't say anything.相信我，放心吧！ 聽我這麼一說，田中一直恐懼顫抖的手在黑暗中緊緊握住了我的手。我的手都快給攥疼了。 sorry!Thanks!聲音不高，卻充滿了信賴、感謝和喜悅。 就什麼也別想了，打起精神，吃壓縮餅乾吧！我說完，心情不由得歡快起來，有滋有味地抽起了煙。 漫長的夜晚終於逃往西邊了。東邊寬闊麥田的穗尖上，太陽金光閃閃，大地呼吸著甦醒過來。我們像從噩夢中醒來一般放下心來，向著朝陽張開雙臂，振臂深深地呼吸，為這生的喜悅大聲打著呵欠。 太陽徹底照亮了大地，連壕底也亮起來了。我們從土裡挖出背包，離開了戰壕。麥穗尖被露水打濕了，清冷澄淨的晨風吹過。 沒有槍炮聲，完全是個和平寧靜的早晨。很難想像這裡是殺戮的戰場。棗樹拖著長長的影子孑然挺立著。似乎昨天晚上什麼也沒發生過。 我回憶起昨晚的事，起身去調查地形。路上，看見朝陽照射下的一攤黑乎乎的血。這是瀧口的血。昨晚的慘景再次清晰地浮現在眼前。村下小隊長來了。他是因為我請求增援，才無可奈何地從床底下爬出來，把竹間分隊帶了來的。 East!敵人在哪裡來著？ 我不大高興，指著前面說了聲在那邊樹下，便沒再多言。我不想跟他說什麼。這是瀧口的血。我說完這句，便帶著隊員回總部了。 中隊長命令我將瀧口火葬，又補充說： 只是火葬時要想辦法不能冒煙，因為煙是敵人炮擊的目標。 我被這苛刻的要求難住了。本需很多木材，要燒幾個小時的，可不讓冒煙，真是件困難的事。不過我還是想盡量做到，便到處物色火葬的場所。 我選定了某戶大宅子的裡院。宅外圍著高高的磚牆。我們在圍牆邊挖了長方形的壕溝，溝底墊上桌子、衣櫥、椅子等傢俱以及拆房子得來的柱子等等，讓瀧口穿著軍裝躺在上面。 我凝視著瀧口安息的臉龐，合掌為他禱告。不斷湧出的淚水打濕了我的雙頰，悲哀湧上來，直堵得我心慌。 戰友們在屍體上舖上稻草，又高高地堆了些樹枝。 我拿著一束稻草，用來點火的一束稻草。 那麼長的時間裡，一直老東氨、瀧口氨這樣叫來叫去的戰友！ 同甘共苦的戰友！ 啊，直到昨天為止，共同跨越了死亡之線的戰友！ 無常的人生！ 我被強烈的感情衝擊著，放聲大哭，一邊哭一邊點著了稻草。 燃成一片灰燼的瀧口啊！ 火紅彤彤地燃燒起來。火苗從稻草到木頭、從木頭到木頭移動著，將我最親愛的戰友包圍了。 我只是莫名地悲傷。 下午撿起屍骨，裝進田中做的盒子裡，將另一片屍骨埋在他戰死的地方，又削了一段高三尺左右的圓木頭，用鉛筆寫上故瀧口光夫之英靈安眠此處，豎做墓標。 部隊在這裡轉入防禦狀態，我們得在村莊周圍挖戰壕，修築工事。 敵人的迫擊炮彈依舊咆哮著鑽進麥田。 敵兵發現了火葬瀧口的煙火，發射了幾枚炮彈過來，但沒有任何傷亡。 我們拚命地挖著戰壕。我們三小隊被安排在昨晚我分隊所在的村莊後方。 晚上，又出現了一名意外的死者。陣地前有一口井，一名士兵入夜後去打水，結果陣地上擔任警戒的戰友高度警惕，誤以為他是敵人，開槍把他打死了。第二天我去打水，見井邊被血染得通紅，木桶倒在地上，浸染著血。井位於陣地前僅三米左右處，就在瀧口被射的緊旁邊。二分隊最右側的士兵在那裡警戒，他說：不知怎麼總覺得那裡是個非常可怕的地方，似乎感覺到有漆黑冰冷的東西纏繞著自己，十分陰森恐怖。黑乎乎的夜晚，在戰壕裡站著不動，便會有一種難以言傳的可惡冷漠的恐怖感襲來，我再也受不了了，像給幽靈追趕著似的逃了過來。 被不可思議的命運聯繫起來的非命之死持續了兩天之後，再也沒人在那個戰壕裡站崗了。 中隊長對我們說： 中隊失去了兩名本來不必死的人。分隊長要抓住分隊士兵，好好進行指導！ 我從中隊長那裡受此訓告後，回到分隊宿舍，對隊員們作了傳達。 這是戰場上常有的事。田中信口說道，彷彿真是件理所當然的事情。 我本期待著他深刻的自責、反省和謝罪的謙恭，聽了這反抗式的、似乎想將自己的行動正當化的卑鄙言辭，不禁啞口無言，不勝憤懣。原來，那天晚上田中在陰暗的戰壕裡顫慄，並非純粹源於自責的恐懼，而是當自己的過失暴露時對叱責和懲罰的恐懼。 牢牢地緊握著我的手，誠懇地說：對不起！Thanks!那完全出自不純真的功利之心。田中的思想始終不是以責任感為中心而是以功利心為中心的。莫不是他故意在用戰場上常有的事這句話，來救助自己被自責折磨著的心？要真這樣，田中倒也有些令人同情了。 我緊盯著他，像是要摸透他的內心。 他慌慌張張地把米放進鍋裡，動作裡似乎有一種莫名的驚慌。 在我們當宿舍住的房前廣場上，有敵兵挖的深防空壕。 我分隊白天就在那個戰壕裡睡覺。敵方炮兵一俟天明，便不停息地四處發炮，連我們都覺得驚奇。他們哪怕只發現一個士兵，也要開炮，就像開槍似的。有一天，軍醫大尉從大隊總部過來，興高采烈地騎在馬上，從麥田穿過。這個軍醫相當膽小大家都說，萬一他哪天會死，那肯定是全大隊人都送命的日子。最後一個可憐巴巴死掉的怕就是他了。 軍醫拍著馬屁股，策馬奔到我們所在的村莊附近。這時，迫擊炮彈帶著可怕的唆唆聲飛了過來。軍醫大吃一驚，慌忙拽緊馬鬃。他是想趕緊逃走。馬仰天長嘯，飛奔而去。但炮彈比馬更快，光的一聲爆炸了，暴土揚塵。轉眼間，只剩下馬獨自在麥田裡奔跑，軍醫落馬了。我們一邊揚聲大笑，一邊叫道：可能負傷了，快叫軍醫！ 如今對我來說，晝與夜的意思得調個個兒。晝是夜，夜則是晝。 我們白天在安全的防空壕裡呼呼大睡，晚上瞪著血紅的雙眼在戰壕裡警戒。 或許敵兵也採取了和我們相同的生活方式，白天只是不斷地進行炮擊。敵人的迫擊炮彈飛向萬里無雲的五月青空，落下後耕耘著小麥地。雖然只相隔了一千米，敵我雙方卻沒有再推進，而是互相以炮彈的狂吠進行著對話。 每個黎明的來臨對我們來說都是漫長的，叫人迫不及待。 夜是神經質的，黑暗而淒慘。 太陽落到西邊的小麥地的時候，我們吃完晚飯，鑽入了戰壕。在我們閒聊時，暮色已完全籠罩了戰壕，沉默而緊張的氣氛將一直延續到拂曉。迄今為止我們還沒學過怎樣防禦，也沒有這方面的經歷。現在我們卻不得不體驗著防禦，懂得了防禦在精神上比任何艱難的進攻更辛苦，它正日復一日地損耗著我們的神經。在黑暗的夜晚，哪怕是一絲微風，我們也不敢放鬆注意力和判斷力；即使是隱隱約約的陰影，也不敢疏忽大意。我們的神經一直被迫處於連續的緊張狀態，耳朵、眼睛和感覺也不能有片刻的休息，對看不見的敵人始終保持著警戒。任何變化，哪怕只是一丁點兒細微的變化，都會牽動我們的全部神經。那種感覺就像犯了滔天大罪的人，不管他走在街上，還是乘火車，無論在哪裡，不知何時就會被警察抓住的那種不安時時向他襲來，他不得不常常持續地繃緊神經，戰戰兢兢地穿過大街。 隨著時間的推移，我們都變得更加神經質。 雖然支那士兵經常只是進行著防禦戰，但是卻真能堅持，叫我們不得不敬佩。 經過漫長的黑夜，天亮了。在冷冷的空氣中旭日閃閃爍爍地露出臉來，我們便用一種想朝它叩拜的心情感謝它，彼此交換著安心的微笑。旭日從來沒有像現在這樣叫我們激動過，旭日它已具有了一種特殊的含義。當晨霧瀰漫大地的時候，我們燒好全天要吃的飯，一邊津津有味地抽著煙一邊吃早飯。早、中、晚的菜沒有區別，都是粉末狀的豆醬。 不久敵人的炮兵就要對我們進行早晨的問候了。ah! Good morning.拚命地發射無用炮彈，耕耕小麥地吧。我們一邊說一邊鑽進了防空壕。 日子就這樣一天天過去，火柴用完了，於是開始使用起當地人用的打火石。這種打火石是在斧頭狀的皮袋子底部鑲上鐵片，袋子裡裝有黑石頭，皮袋子的形狀和日本裝碎煙絲的草袋一樣。 夜晚待在戰壕裡吸煙的時候，用火柴的話就會發出亮光，如用打火石又會發出丁丁噹噹的聲音，所以我們想出了一個辦法。那是當過農民的熊野想出的好主意，他把破布搓成繩子，然後點燃繩子的末端，布繩上燃燒著的火種直到繩子燒完才會熄滅。 我們在戰壕裡懸掛著三四根這樣的火繩用來點煙。長長的火繩上那螢火般的火種一直保持到天亮。 雨夜實在是很淒慘的，我們淋著雨，腳浸泡在壕底的泥水裡，還得挖個橫向的洞穴來保護火繩，使它不被雨水打滅。火繩不僅僅是點香煙的火，在黑暗而緊張的夜裡，那螢火般的微光，是黑夜裡僅有的光亮，是我們心中的明燈。 我們絲毫沒有顧及農民的辛苦，割掉了戰壕前面遼闊的、一直延伸到遠方的小麥，使我們的視野更加開闊。 防禦的那些日子從黎明到日暮，又從日暮到黎明，我們的神經被迫承受著難以忍受的焦躁不安的折磨，已經無法再忍耐下去了。不管進攻是多麼地困難，我們都渴望進攻。在這次戰鬥中我們的部隊至今為止只是一味地在敵人的大部隊之間不斷地前進。就像劈波斬浪前行的船那樣，我們剛推進到一處，敵人立即從背後再次佔領。到目前為止我們付出了極大的犧牲。 轉入防禦大約一週後的某一天下午，部隊下達了命令，要我們聯隊明天早晨迅速撤離此地，轉戰到別處去。 我們即將放棄這塊陣地，再次把它奉送給敵人，我們不知道又要去哪裡。迄今為止，我們費盡心血、付出了極大的犧牲才得到的這塊陣地，又要拱手送給敵人，無論如何都是令人遺憾的。我們不得不提出這樣的疑問：迄今為止的犧牲到底是為了什麼？說到底難道我們是要逃跑嗎？我們非常憤慨。聽聯隊總部的通訊兵說，這次轉移的決定是經過了激烈的爭論才定下來的。因為他是通訊兵，所以通過電話機聽到了聯隊總部和大隊長之間的爭論。 最初，聯隊的副官少佐通過電話向各個大隊長傳達了聯隊長的轉移命令，但各個大隊長固執己見沒有服從。他們說這樣做很對不住犧牲了的親密的部下，他們就白死了。於是這回聯隊長接過了電話，即便如此，大隊長們仍然含糊其辭，還是主張打到底。聯隊長引用了歐洲大戰德軍的例子，說這不是退卻，而是轉移。儘管如此，大隊長們仍然不聽命令，急得聯隊長大發脾氣，最後，甚至提出了行使命令權問題，聯隊長說：我是聯隊的最高長官，天皇陛下委以我命令權，如果你們不聽我的命令，我只有辭職，別無他法。轉移才好不容易被決定下來。聽說這場爭論從早晨八點爭到下午四點。 就連我們普通士兵，也對這次只能看作是退卻的轉移心有不滿。 轉移的時候，我拔出了瀧口光夫的墓牌，燒燬了它。What is the reason?因為我們轉移的同時敵人也許會來把墓牌踩得稀巴爛。 次日凌晨三點，我們在這無人的村莊裡噴射毒瓦斯，也朝井裡投下瓦斯，隱密地開始了行動。 第三大隊留在馬山附近進行警戒。那天我們到達峰縣，城外有一架墜落的日本飛機，恐怕是被敵人擊落的吧。在峰縣有幾門口徑二十四厘米的攻城炮，重炮部隊的士兵們正忙著做出發的準備，聽說他們就是用這些攻城炮攻下了吳淞口炮台的。那是一種要用兩輛牽引車牽引的大傢伙。戰車和重炮朝著台兒莊方向激流般湧去。 一旦來到這樣的後方基地，便能切實地感受到戰場緊張慌亂的氣氛。 我們乘上了火車，火車朝著我們來時的鐵路線逆向折回。 它將開往何處？關於作戰，我們士兵完全是盲目的，只是被動地被運送到某個地方去戰鬥而已。火車呼哧呼哧地加速前進，不知為何我們感到趕得很急。麥田像綠色的大江一樣朝我們身後奔流而去，楊柳和它嫩綠的新芽也一起向我們身後飛馳而去。火車氣哼哼地怒罵著劃過一望無際的大地。湛藍的天空沒有一片雲彩，火熱的太陽射出耀眼的光芒。已經是初夏了。 無論下面等待我們的是怎樣的戰鬥，怎樣的痛苦、行軍和饑餓，我們只要愉快地度過眼前這短暫的安樂時光就心滿意足了。 士兵們在吃苦的時候，一邊說啊，太辛苦了，苦得要死，一邊想著悠閒舒適地躺著時的美好時光；饑餓的時候，一邊說著肚子餓得不得了，一邊想像著美餐一頓後，滿肚子佳餚美饌的情形。如果很熱，就做正在喝冰啤酒的美夢；如果很冷，就想像一下溫暖的春天的太陽。而高興的時候，又唱起歌、聊起天，天真爛漫。 他們直率地表現著喜怒哀樂，毫不掩飾。此時此刻正是士兵們的生命。也許下一個瞬間他們就會喋血而亡。 士兵，可以說是孩子。 即使明天中彈犧牲，今天也要盡情地享受這寶貴的時光。 我們唱歌、談笑、喧鬧。 這列滿載著歌聲的列車，踹著大地，到達了濟寧。 May 10th. 濟寧的居民們也因為害怕戰禍而逃往別處，一個也不剩。 我們決定今晚在這裡住一夜，明晨出發。數日後，說是我們福知山聯隊的新兵將要到達，我最親愛的弟弟重一也在其中。 哥哥在中部支那前線，弟弟馬上又要來到前線，兄弟三人都上了前線。聽說弟弟是在第三中隊，如果合併到我們部隊的話，我和弟弟就會在同一個中隊裡並肩作戰。多麼想早點見到弟弟，可又聽說似乎新兵們只不過是作為守備部隊來參與行動。 我們的進攻開始了。 全面進攻徐州！ 北國的五月是炎熱的夏季。灼人的太陽在天空射出耀眼的光芒。連塊石頭都沒有的土路從一望無際的小麥田中穿過。伴隨著汗水、塵埃、疲勞的行軍又開始了。 第三十旅團進攻魚台。第十九旅團進攻魚台前方四里的地方。北上的部隊是第九師團、第十三師團、第三師團。第十五師團正從新鄉方面南下，這個方向敵人很多，進展不大。第十師團、第五師團從台兒莊方面進行攻擊。 敵方將領是李宗仁，盤踞在徐州，以日軍久攻不克而引以為豪。有情報說張自忠的一個團正在北上馳援。 我部迅速地進入隴海線，試圖切斷敵人的退路。 薄薄的夏裝立刻被汗水浸透了，濕漉漉的夏裝上又沾滿塵土，像安倍川薄餅一樣變成了黃色。汗珠順著鋼盔的遮陽布一滴一滴流到脖頸裡。沉重的背包沾滿了塵土在背上跳動。塵土把臉弄得像塗上了劣質油彩一般，給人腫脹起來的感覺，只有眼睛黑乎乎地閃著光。汗水流淌，不停地在塵土化過妝的臉上留下蚯蚓般的痕跡。我們上氣不接下氣地呼吸著塵土，以致叫人感到我們的肺恐怕到了粉塵充塞的地步。全身都沾滿了汗水與塵土混合的泥團。行軍開始後不久，大家全都沉默起來。 無論多麼愛說話的人也都沉默起來，大家像是被放在切菜板上的鯽魚似的張著嘴行走著。一過四十分鐘便一個勁兒地看手錶，還有四分鐘、三分鐘，已經只剩下兩分鐘了，度日如年地盼望著休息。最後五分鐘實在太艱辛了，別人在前面走著你只好跟著。 休息這個命令是多麼令人激動啊，一到休息時間大家一齊倒在地上，把背包當起了枕頭。 我們晝夜兼程。如果有敵人就避開他們，一門心思向隴海線前進。 流汗使我們感到口渴，如果有水就咕嘟咕嘟地大喝一氣，因此我患了嚴重的腹瀉病我像是患了痢疾似的，不停地大便。一天之中不得不三四十次地脫下褲子方便。這種情況已超出了腸炎的程度，或許就是痢疾吧。無論何時行軍都是苦的。 我們來到了據說是從前黃河流淌經過的舊河床。那是在夜晚，眼前是一片遼闊的沙地。星星在天空閃爍，烈風夾雜著沙粒向我們撲來。風沙使我們的雙腳越來越沉重，使我們更加疲憊。 部隊在星光下莊嚴肅穆地前進。五月十八日，臨近拂曉的時分，部隊終於在一個村莊大休息。這是離碭山兩里左右的地方。隴海線就在前方兩里之處。終於到了進攻碭山的緊要關頭。 我們匆匆忙忙地燒了飯，做再次出發的準備。天大亮了，我到井邊去打水，水壺裡裝滿了水，正要回去的時候，看見兩三個士兵忍不住地竊笑著從附近人家走了出來。 這笑好像有什麼含義，我問道：喂！What's the matter? 太美妙的場面他們一邊笑著說，一邊從我的面前走過去。 我明白了那兒有什麼。士兵們這樣的笑容只有在某種特殊的場合，才會在他們的臉上浮現出來。 或許這些傢伙剛幹完了事出來吧，我這樣想著，一邊毫無理由地感覺到幾分甜蜜而慵懶的溫馨，一邊走過去要看個究竟。穿過寬闊的庭院，到最裡面的房屋前，發現沉重的厚木門關得嚴嚴實實的。但是，能隱約聽見從裡面傳來的笑聲和說話聲。我靜悄悄地打開未上閂的房門，走了進去又把門關好，儼然很秘密似的。 在頂裡頭的那間房裡有個老太婆抱著小孩，顯出一副驚恐萬狀的樣子。她把臉深深地埋下去，像是不願看可怕的東西。在右邊的房間裡兩個士兵正站在那裡吸著煙，臉上流露出一副很喜悅的神情。在他們的面前確有美妙的場面。 一張大床上三個姑娘張開大腿坐著。中間的姑娘長得很美。她們沒有穿褲子，不！是被強迫脫下了褲子。在這三人之中，既有因感到羞恥而想改正坐姿的女子，也有完全按命令行事的女子。她們全都恐懼得在打顫。 雖然奇異，但這是前線到處可見的場面。士兵一旦發現年輕的女子就必定會像這樣弄來看看。而好色