Chapter 3 Chapter two

Even if they rode at a leisurely pace, it would take only four or five days for Jinhua to reach Fuyang, but they traveled for more than ten days. The reason is that Jin Lu is too curious to run into Fuyang. For something a little newer, or a more spectacular scenery, he has to stop and take a closer look and have a good time. Thus, Man'er soon discovered several things. Jin Lu is indeed the only child of a wealthy family, look at the silver bills he threw into his arms in a hurry to run away, you can tell, God, it's more than thirty thousand taels! Fortunately, he doesn't have the extravagant and willful temper of the kids from rich families. He may be a little naive, but he is never arrogant.

Occasionally let him sleep in the wild, and he can drool sleepily; or let him gnaw dry steamed buns, and he also gnaws happily; bumped on the back of a horse for three or two days, he actually acts as if nothing happened just now. He got on the horse and immediately got off again; moreover, he promised to listen to her, no matter what she said, he would not say a word. But well!He is really good at using his big innocent eyes, as long as he stares at her for a moment, and the long eyelashes flutter a few more times, she can't help but completely surrender! wow, so beautiful!Miss Liu, let's stop and take a closer look, shall we?

Not good! Huh?What the hell?It's strange, Miss Liu, let's go over there! No way! There is a temple fair!Miss Liu, can we do it? no!no!No way! What a shame! But even so, she just couldn't deny that she liked him. Because of Miss Liu, I bought some jackets and trousers for you, come and wear them quickly to see if they fit! Seeing Jin Lu happily holding a large bag of clothes and barging into her room without even knocking on the door, Man'er was shocked because she had just changed her clothes. Good luck, luckily it wasn't when she was half dressed, otherwise she would have to kill this reckless idiot with her own hands!

Come on, didn't I already tell you that if I have a replacement, why waste money buying more?But had she just forgotten to lock the door? Because I will be hot!Jin Lu pointed innocently at the new robe on his body.Look, I went to buy clothes for myself, but I thought again, I will be hot, of course you will be hot too!So I will help you buy two thinner ones by the way! It's hotter, but Forget it, since I bought them all, I have no choice but to wear them, but let me warn you first, if you want to buy clothes in the future, just buy your own clothes, don't buy them for me again!

Well!Jin Lu responded as if he was aggrieved.If you don't buy it, don't buy it! It's not that I like to talk about you, Man'er couldn't help putting on her sister's posture again.You always spend money recklessly like this, even if your family is very rich, it's your father's hard earned money!Unless you know how to make money, you have no right to spend money. Hasn't anyone told you that? there has never been!Jin Lu returned quickly and decisively. Man'er was stunned, then frowned, what he said was true, rich people make friends who are also rich, why would they say such things to you?But she glanced sideways.If I tell you that my family is poor, will you not want to be friends with me anymore?

why? Eh?Ask her back? Is there even a question?Because most rich people look down on poor people! Do you know? Of course not! Then why do I have to? Man'er suffocated.I didn't say you would definitely!So that's why I'm asking you! Jin Lu shrugged, walked around and sat down on the chair by the wall. When I make friends, I make people's hearts, not money, nor my family background, and it doesn't matter whether they are Manchu, Han, or Mongolian. As long as they are not fake or three-way people, there is nothing to choose. Yeah?He doesn't give money, he doesn't give his background, and

No distinction between Manchus, Hans, and Mongols? Then you lick your dry lips all over.When I'm a friend? That was natural, and Jin Lu had a pure smile on his face again.Don't you? Whether I am Manchurian or Han Chinese? As long as you are human, you will be fine. This year's summer is just as sultry, sticky and humid as in previous years, but at this moment, Man'er feels as if there is a cool breeze blowing through her heart, and her whole body feels very comfortable, her nose is also sore, as if it is blocked by something. , making her sniff uncomfortably. She has a large family and a large number of so-called friends, but no one really thinks of her as one of them. In fact, she is neither of them, and she can't even blame them.

Only Jin Lu, a stranger, a boy younger than her, never asked about her personal affairs, because no matter what kind of person she was, he didn't mind, as long as she was a human being, he would sincerely accept her as a human being. His friend, so innocent and straightforward, how could she not like him, how could she not be grateful to him? Is there anything else you want to see and do in this city? What's the fun here?Jin Lu said with a snort.It was only a few streets that were a little busier after calling back and forth, so I bought clothes and came back. Then we'll hit the road after lunch, shall we?

Uh, don't you want to buy another pair of embroidered shoes? Jin Lu! Okay, okay, don't buy it! He's such a good-natured and funny guy! However, being with him can really make people feel at ease, making her almost forget about the test she is about to face, and if she can't survive that test, his existence will be a great need and comfort. Do you want to go directly to Hangzhou?Before entering the gate of Fuyang County, Man'er suddenly stopped and asked. As soon as he turned his eyes, he noticed Man'er's nervousness, and his two small hands twisted so that the rein was almost torn off, but Jin Lu still didn't ask any more questions, and only said happily with a bright smile: No, I plan to go Guanshan went to see the first floor of Chunjiang, and then came back to the city to rest for a night in the evening.

Man'er was visibly relieved, and at the same time offered her services with uncharacteristic eagerness. Okay, then I'll take you to the inn to book a room first, and you can go directly to rest when you come back in the evening. So, with the sound of hoofbeats, two horses rushed into the city gate one after another. At this moment, just before noon, there was no shadow in the sun. Also a little helpless, just like Man'er's heart, sour, astringent, bitter, and helpless. The winter in my hometown is still as cold and solemn as ever! Grandpa, I'm back. What are you doing back here?

I, I, I am here to tell you that I am now a member of Shuangdaotang! Yeah?How long? two years. Why can't you officially join after so long? Because you can't find a guarantor?Because no one dares to protect you?Because you are Grandpa! Oh, let's go!Although I don't hate you, I really don't want people to know that you are back home again. You should understand that you are a disgrace to this family! But, grandpa, I you go! grandpa Don't make me hate you, Man'er. Then I'm leaving. Let's go, Man'er! Grandpa? ! Don't come back again. Jin Lu returned to the inn earlier than scheduled, but Man'er was already waiting for him at the door of his room. Turning around the corridor and passing through the small gate of the west courtyard, Jin Lu saw at a glance that in the small courtyard, Man'er was leaning against the cypress tree, holding herself tightly with her arms, as if it was winter now, and the weather was too cold for her to bear it. It seemed that the helplessness on his face added to his loneliness, he looked like a lost child who couldn't find a home. But when she saw Jin Lu, she immediately returned to her usual appearance, and even became more happy to the point of exaggeration. You are finally back, I thought you changed your mind and went directly to Hangzhou! Just as Jin Lu was about to say something, she grabbed his arm and dragged him out of the west courtyard. Come, come, come, I am a landlord, so naturally I should treat you well, but hey hey, sorry, my purse is gone, so I still have to pay for it, anyway, you have a lot of money, right? That night, Man'er, who never drank, made an exception and poured glass after glass desperately into her stomach, and babbled non-stop, until she was so drunk that she almost drowned in the flagon, and then Jin Lu took her back to the inn. , and opened another room for her, but she complained that she didn't want to sleep, and even broke into his room saying that she wanted to chat. where!You must be wondering why I don't go home and sleep, right? Jin Lu just opened his mouth, but Man'er rushed to ask and answer himself first. hey-hey!I knew it, tell you the truth!Because my grandfather didn't welcome me back, in fact, he told me not to go back. Falling down on the chair in a drunken state, Man'er poured himself a cup of tea, then pointed the cup at him. You must also be wondering why? She drank more than half of the dry tea in one gulp and poured it on her body, but she continued without waiting for Jin Lu to answer. All right!Since you are the first person who really regards me as a friend, I will tell you. Trying to straighten her sitting posture, Man'er hooked her index finger at Jin Lu, and only after Jin Lu approached, she whispered: You said there are so many beauties in Suzhou and Hangzhou, that's right, my mother was one of the four beauties in Hangzhou. One, maybe you don't believe it, because I'm not as beautiful as her. She pointed at her face, probably because I look more like my father!she murmured, then shook her head. In short, my mother is really beautiful, with a dignified temperament and knowledgeable knowledge. Even though my grandfather has three sons, only my mother is the proudest in his heart!She nodded vigorously to show her authenticity, and almost bleed on the porcelain cup, but fortunately, Jin Lu removed the porcelain cup in time. Even though he was reluctant to part with it, when my mother was eighteen years old, my grandfather still chose out of thousands of choices for her a rich man who was worthy to match my mother.But just one month before getting married, my mother brought her maid to Tongjun Mountain to burn incense and fulfill her wish. She hehe, I say her!She was so lucky that she ran into seven Manchus who didn't know how to be polite, and she suddenly had a bright smile on her face.Gang raped my mother and her maid! Jin Lu's round and big eyes blinked twice in surprise. He shrugged his shoulders with his chin in his hand, taking it for granted!Grandpa was shocked and tried his best to hide this matter, but he couldn't. In fact, everyone in Fuyang County knew about it, because my mother was crazy, but that maid was not crazy. An unstoppable mouth; the funniest thing is that my mother is pregnant with the iron evidence of her sin, that is, Man'er points to her nose.I! Jin Lu's eyebrows furrowed suddenly. Do you understand now?Man'er was still smiling.That's why I'm called Man'er, because my father is Manchu; that's why my grandfather doesn't welcome me, because I'm a disgrace to the Liu family; that's why no one wants to accept me, because I'm neither completely Han nor completely Manchu ;The Manchus do not accept me, because I do not know who my father is; the Han people do not accept me, because my father is a Manchu, you say She suddenly grabbed Jin Lu's skirt and pulled it forward, eye to eye and nose to nose with her. What exactly do I have to do to get them to accept me as one of theirs?I don't care about my father because he shouldn't be my father and I shouldn't be Manchurian.It was my grandfather who brought me up, so I only hope that my grandfather can accept me, and that the Han people can accept me.But no matter how hard I try, it's all in vain. When I first reached Ji, my mother committed suicide, and my grandfather kicked me out of Liu's house without hesitation! The five fingers loosened again in a flash, the smile disappeared, and Maner's brows and eyes were blank. Am I a Manchu or a Han Chinese? But just for a moment, she suddenly showed a strong smile again. But it doesn't matter, I have no strengths at all, just a thick skin and strong perseverance. No matter how people mock me behind the scenes, I can pretend that I didn't hear it; thing.In short, I will work harder and harder, and one day I will succeed! success?Finally, Jin Lu finally had a chance to speak. Yes, Twin Swords Hall.Man'er nodded her head triumphantly.You should know, right?Shuangdaotang is an organization for the Han people to oppose the Qing Dynasty and restore the Ming Dynasty, so as long as the Shuangdaotang accepts me to officially enter the hall, it means that they recognize that I am a Han Chinese; since all the organizations that oppose the Qing Dynasty and Fuming have accepted me, I am no longer the Liu family It’s a shame, when I return to Fuyang City, my grandfather will definitely welcome me with a smile, and no one will laugh at me for being a bastard. No more words, Jin Lu just looked at her quietly. Um!It is indeed much more comfortable to say it, well, I can go back to my room and go to sleep!After finishing speaking, she got up staggeringly, took two steps to the side, and fell asleep on his bed with a bang. After Jin Lu frowned and stared at her for a long time, he began to take off her shoes and cover her with a quilt, hesitated for a while, and then stretched out his hand hesitantly to caress her drunken cheeks, but he withdrew his hand after a moment, Frowning, shaking his head, then resolutely turned and left to sleep in the next room. However, before dawn in the morning, he woke up vigilantly. After listening for a while, he put on his clothes and got up to leave the room. He quietly followed a figure out of the inn, crossed the city wall, and came to a secluded forest lake. He stopped and hid himself behind a juniper tree. After watching the figure standing by the lake for a while, he suddenly fell to his knees and wept loudly. That's not my fault, why blame me?Why?It's not that I want to rape my mother, it's not that I want to run into my mother's belly, and it's not that I drive my mother crazy. It's unreasonable for grandpa to hate me!Since you hate me so much, why did you let me be born?Even if abortion pills can't kill me, they can strangle me right after birth!Why should I survive?Why? Why are you not allowed to bind my feet?Because I don't deserve it?Because I only deserve to have big feet that represent the mark of baseness?Why no one thinks for me, everything is not my fault! So what if my father is full?I have no idea who he is!Why is everyone avoiding me?Do you want to guard me like a thief?My mother is Han!Why can't everyone treat me as a Han Chinese?I also want to be loved by others, why do everyone only look at me with that contemptuous look?Why?Why?What am I doing wrong?why treat me like this?Why?So unfair, so unfair In the dark forest, the figure was crying out of grief, screaming hoarsely, and beating the ground with his fists as if venting his anger, while Jin Lu also silently watched her cry, watched her cry , Watching her beating the ground, even he didn't know it showed a faint pity in his eyes The night passed, and the sun rose again. When I saw Jin Lu again, Man'er was a little embarrassed, a little nervous, and a little embarrassed because her eyes and hands were red and swollen. Her hands could be hidden behind her back, but her eyes could not. Where to hide? Dig it out and hide it in your pocket? Uneasy squinting at Jin Lu, uh, did I make a fool of myself when I was drunk last night?she asked cautiously. No no!Jin Luha opened his eyes and spoke nonsense with a more innocent smile than usual.Don't worry, you start to doze off when you're drunk, so I'll send you back to your room to sleep! Really?Man'er breathed a sigh of relief.Then I didn't say anything nonsense, did I? No, no, not even dream talk!Jin Lu shook his head like a drum. Great, seeing Jin Lu staring at her eyes, she hurriedly said: Uh, my eyes get red and swollen when I drink alcohol, so Jin Lu nodded.I know, I know, and so does my mother.Not only the eyes will be red and swollen, but also the hands. Yeah?Man'er smiled uncomfortably.So are you going to Hangzhou? I blinked my big eyes twice, I was going to go to Hangzhou, but Jin Lu said slowly.I'm a little worried!I have had you all this way, so I can be safe and sound, but if I am alone Before he could finish speaking, Man'er smiled overjoyedly, and slapped Jin Lu on the shoulder. Oh, I should have said it earlier!She winked triumphantly.Do you want me to accompany you?No problem, big sister will definitely take good care of you!He said it nicely, but in his heart he knelt down and kowtowed to thank you for three hundred rounds. God bless, if you don't follow him, until Ye Danfeng takes the initiative to contact her, someone who is penniless will feel ashamed and join the beggar gang! Can I go anywhere? OK!OK!OK!Go anywhere!Ah, by the way, I can also help you choose a wife!Now, tell me, what kind of girl do you like? What kind of girl do you like? Well, the kind who is superficially aggressive, but actually likes to hide and cry secretly. Huh? When you come to Hangzhou, if you don’t visit the West Lake, you don’t have been to Hangzhou; if you come to the West Lake, if you don’t try the West Lake Vinegar Fish, you haven’t been to the West Lake. Therefore, when he came to Hangzhou, Jin Lu's first words were that we should eat fish. No bamboo makes people vulgar, no meat makes people thin. If you want to eat West Lake vinegar fish, you can’t stop eating Dongpo meat and Songsao’s fish soup, and then have a big cup of fragrant Longjing, while enjoying the lively, mellow and extremely beautiful scenery of West Lake, it is really a great enjoyment in life . However, this is not important, the important thing is Which lady do you like?They are all beautiful! The four seasons of the West Lake are distinct, spring flowers, autumn moon, summer, rain, winter and snow have their own characteristics. The change of day and night endows the West Lake with various brilliance and changes in clouds and mist, making it more charming. Therefore, in the West Lake, from spring to winter, no matter whether you are half dead hot , It was still freezing cold, and there were people admiring the scenery day and night, especially those rich ladies, who were all dressed up in purple and red, and brought their maidservants and servants to swing around twice, admiring the scenery, uh-huh!By the way, let people reward. Jin Lu rested his chin lazily, looked at the ladies at other tables in the restaurant, then turned his eyes to the girls outside the window sills and sills wandering around the West Lake like headless flies, and finally looked at Man'er Go shrug. There's none?That Let's take a walk! Huh?But Man'er looked at the dishes on the table.It's a waste to eat these! Jin Lu couldn't help sighing.It's really an abacus head, won't it be unpalatable if you can't finish it? Nonsense, where am I stingy?It's called frugality, you know?Before he knew it, Man'er put on the big sister's airs again.You young masters from rich families are like this. If you can’t finish eating, you shouldn’t be asking so much in the first place!Just the money for this table of food and drink is enough for a poor family to spend for a year, you know?tell you to You really love to talk back and forth! Oops, how dare you say I'm long-winded!Man'er is on fire.I am teaching you!If you change someone, who cares about you!Anyway, it’s your family’s money that was wasted, and one day you’ll be poor and panicked, it’s no wonder who’s willing to give you a steamed bun! poverty?Jin Lu looked down at himself.It's not that I haven't had a time of rags and lazards. Huh?Really?Why? Jin Lu smiled mischievously and said nothing. The eyeballs rolled around, and there was a sudden sound.I know, you must have sneaked out to play again sometime, and in the end all the money was stolen, so you went home in rags and misery, right? Jin Lu still didn't answer, "Look, that guy is obviously a gentleman, but he was dressed so frivolously, and he even changed the subject.I thought After only one glance, Man'er said flatly: That's a girl, a big girl disguised as a man. Chunzhen's big eyes suddenly became swollen and opened wider.Eh?Is it Xibei?How do you know? Because I have also dressed like that, but I am not as fancy as her dress. Huh?Really?Well, it's the first time I've seen it! Look at you happy, do you like that kind of girl? The eyes staring at the other end were pulled back immediately. Where do I have a fart?This is new to me, just pay more attention. Right!My head is shaking!Man'er murmured.If I hadn't known someone from the capital city before, and had asked him for advice, sometimes I really couldn't understand what you were talking about. I can't understand Chaozhou dialect either!Jin Lu giggled.So I use guesswork. What if I guess wrong? No matter what, he couldn't understand what I said anyway.Jin Lu winked funny.This trick works best when you encounter a robbery, sorry, I don't understand what you are talking about?Then I'm going crazy! Man'er couldn't help laughing.Nonsense, if you really want to run into a robbery, it's so easy to let you run away. Don't lie to you, I'm really huh?In the middle of speaking, his face suddenly changed slightly, and he turned sideways to avoid Hupantou's sight range. Man'er was slightly taken aback, and hurriedly looked over to the lakeside to see what happened to make him change his face!Isn't it just a lot of people going back and forth, no one is fighting, no one is singing or juggling. What's wrong? Seeing a half-familiar face, Jin Lu stuck out his tongue.I haven't found a wife yet!I don't want him to make me run around for my life. But Man'er hesitated.It's almost Chinese New Year, don't you really want to go back? not going back!Jin Lu said decisively.Unless I find a wife. What if you can't find it here in Hangzhou? Then go to Suzhou! Can't find it in Suzhou? Continue to look south. What if I can't find it? Then I will become a monk and become a monk! what are you doing here sixteen brother, me You escaped marriage? You are so brave! Brother Sixteen, please don't make such a face, okay?It's really scary! Then what do you want from me?How dare I do such a thing as escape from marriage, I'm already very polite to put on such a face. You can't say that!Brother Sixteen, you didn't want it, Huang Ama threw it to me!Then I don't want it either!That Mongolian princess is so fierce!It's no wonder I don't run!What's more, it's you who they want! Nonsense, she has never met me before, how could she appoint me? She said that she wanted the one with the best kung fu among all the elder brothers of the emperor! You are the best at having fun, it's you! Of course huh?No, Brother Sixteen, they are talking about martial arts! You just tell her that you are the best?In any case, if Huang Ama wants you to marry, you will marry, and you are not allowed to pick and choose. Since Brother Sixteen said so, why did Brother Sixteen not want it himself?Brother Sixteen is twenty-six years old, so he should have married Fujin eight hundred years ago, right? Ha, I knew Brother Sixteen had nothing to say. Then what are you doing here? Suzhou and Hangzhou are so beautiful!Sixteen brothers. Do you think Huang Ama will let you marry a Han girl? There are not a lot of men and women in the Empress Ama's harem. That is Huang Ama, you are not qualified to compete with Huang Ama. Then it's a big deal for Huang Ama to deprive me of my clan status and become a commoner! All right!Since you have this determination, it's up to you. Thank you, thank you Brother Sixteen!Brother sixteen, you won't I have business to do, and I don't have the energy to meddle in your business! The grace of heaven is mighty, Brother Sixteen, the grace of heaven is mighty! But remember, you have to go back before the Chinese New Year. Yes, yes, I will definitely go back to Beijing a few years ago. Also, no matter where you are, if you meet me, you have to pretend not to know each other, you know? Why, Brother Sixteen, did Huang Ama send you to do something again? You don't have to worry about it, just take care of yourself! Well, don't worry about it! Remember, we don't know each other. Remember, Brother Sixteen. Man'er, who was packing her bags, was startled again by the slamming of the door. Miss Liu, let's go, let's go!Let's go Huh?It's early in the morning, what are you packing? I said Young Master Jin Lu, next time, please knock on the door first, okay?This is not Bada Hutong, you can enter any room you want!Man'er finished speaking angrily, then lowered her head and continued to tie the bundle.Aren't you afraid of being seen by acquaintances?Of course you have to leave immediately! Forget it!Jin Lu smiled and shook his index finger.I see the guy is out of town, so we can get on with our fun. Play?Man'er raised her eyebrows.Are you here to play, or to find a wife? Jin Lu opened the corners of his mouth and smiled.They have them all, they have them all, and they have to find a wife and have fun. Flying up with two eyes, this guy is really lucky!Man'er murmured. where?Jin Lu protested loudly.I am also very hard!I have to go out to find a wife by myself, how pitiful I am! Pitiful? ! Full of laughter and laughter, he watched him really put on a resentful woman's face to show her, and then blinked, and he opened that bright red and alluring cherry mouth again. Let's go, let's go, let's go early, I'm starving to death! She wants to rub him to death! Uh, think about it again, she is also very hungry, it's better to rub him first and then rub him to death. Afterwards, they stayed in Hangzhou for a long time before Jin Lu solemnly announced that there was no daughter-in-law he liked in Hangzhou, so he wanted to move to Suzhou to find a beautiful woman. Where did you learn your martial arts?During the meal, as if chatting, Jin Lu asked this question. At this moment, they have just come to an unnamed town at the foot of Pingshan Mountain on the border between Jiangsu and Zhejiang. It is a very ordinary town, nothing special or attractive. There is a small, disgustingly old diner. martial arts?His eyes flashed brightly suddenly, and a look of pride immediately appeared on Man'er's delicate face, which seemed a bit abrupt and funny.Hey hey hey!How, my martial arts is not bad, right?Let me tell you, I learned it very hard! Ever since she left Jinhua, she always thought that she would run into robbers soon, because Jin Lu was always so big that he would reveal not only his wealth, but also his gold, silver, and jewels. Anyway, he exposed everything he could!Unexpectedly, it was not until the day they left Hangzhou that they unfortunately ran into a large number of robbers who were not long-sighted. It seemed that all the robbers who were supposed to come had agreed to appear together at that time. Moreover, they Not only to rob money, but also to rob sex. At that time, she immediately displayed her martial arts, which she was quite proud of, but it took a lot of hard work to beat that group of robbers to the ground, because not only did she have to be distracted from protecting Jin Lu, but the number of robbers on the other side was also very high. It's too much. but Don't you also learn martial arts?she asked suspiciously. Don't be stupid, how can I know martial arts?Jin Lu laughed out loud.My play skills are top-notch, do you want to try it? That's true, although she always suspected that someone was helping her secretly, because every time she saw that she was about to be unable to avoid the opponent's attack, as if there was a god to help, her knife would swing over and cut down the opponent , and she just ran over with the knife to get some light. To be honest, she herself felt very baffled. But at that time, Jin Lu Mingming was squatting aside with his head in his arms and trembling in horror, he almost peed out of fright, no matter how he thought about it, it was impossible for him to help! Well, maybe her martial arts has already reached the highest state where the knife can move freely, but she doesn't know it or know it. Thinking of this, she couldn't help but feel even more proud. That's true, a rich young master like you naturally wouldn't think of doing such a hard job of learning martial arts, but when I was eight years old, I went to the martial arts hall and begged them to accept me as a disciple so that I could kill all the people Avenge my mother!Uh, anyway, I just want to learn martial arts, but they won't accept me because they don't accept full people as apprentices.Well!Because they don't accept female apprentices. He told too many lies, so he quickly sipped his tea to hide his slightly embarrassed expression. In fact, my grandfather and uncle both know martial arts, but they are unwilling to teach me, because I am, uh, a girl, and this is true, because the Liu family's martial arts are only passed on to their sons and not their daughters.But I didn't expect that even the martial arts school would not accept me.But it doesn't matter, they won't accept me, won't I learn by myself? She glanced triumphantly.My grandfather and his martial arts are very secretive, so I can’t peek at them, so I went to the martial arts hall to watch them practice martial arts every day. Until I was twelve years old, I knew a little bit, but it was very superficial. That's all.Then, perhaps out of sympathy for me, the senior brother Cao who was four years older than me in the martial arts gym secretly began to teach me martial arts. Speaking of this, her eyes gradually showed a strange splendor, but she didn't know it. Brother Cao is very kind to me, really good, he not only taught me all the martial arts he knew, but also often comforted me when I was wronged.When I was with Yan, there was a sweet smile on his lips.He also told me he likes me and of course I like him too Hearing this, Jin Lu's big black and white eyes suddenly flashed a shadow of prey. So before I got kicked out of the house.Uh, when I was independent from home, I was the first to think of looking for him, but he said that he couldn't marry her because she was a Manchurian.Said he already had a fiancée.The sweet smile faded away. However, after a while, she suddenly raised a strong smile again.Fortunately, however, my affection for him had not yet reached the point of needing him, so I quickly forgot about him. Yeah? After the third watch that night, the night was deep, but Jin Lu was still sitting quietly in the dark, as if waiting for something.Suddenly, he quietly got up and left the room again, and followed a figure to the woods of Pingshan Mountain. In the daytime, the lush green forest with strange peaks looked eerie and terrifying under the thick shadow. Hiding behind the boulder, Jin Lu still silently watched the figure crying and screaming in the forest, and kicked and kicked at a certain unlucky big tree to vent his anger. I don't know why that big tree provoked her? Bastard Cao Yuqi, since he has no intention of marrying me, why does he treat me so well?If you really like me, why should you care about other people's gossip?I really thought you were the only one who didn't care who my father was or how I was born, just who I was! But you disappointed me so much, even if I don't like you to the point of not marrying you, but you are my only friend!Do you know how disappointed I was when you betrayed me?I thought it was really impossible to find any friend who treated me sincerely in my life! I don't understand, I really don't understand, it's obviously not my fault, why do you want to blame all the faults on me? I also want someone who can treat me sincerely. He doesn’t care if I’m Han, Manchu or other messed up people. He only cares about me. I don't care if he is a Manchu, a Han or some other mess, I will treat him sincerely, willing to live and die for him, but Am I not worthy?Am I really unworthy of such a person?It's not fair, it's so unfair Such angry, sad and helpless cries became more and more shrill in the cold wind and night snow, Jin Lu's body moved slightly, as if he wanted to show up, but stopped at the last moment. He continued to listen in silence. No one likes me, no one cares about me, no one loves me, no one is even willing to accept me, why am I still living in this world