Chapter 19 19. The moment of disconnection

Everything is sorted out.There is nothing more to pack. Beforehand, Onogi told the manager of the apartment that he would vacate the room. Where are you going? It seems that the manager also read the news in the newspaper and squinted at Onogi. Leaving Tokyo for a while. Onogi thanked him, completed the formalities, and paid the rent owed in the past.Now, everything is taken care of.Yesterday, he also sent a letter of resignation to prosecutor Ishii. In fact, the letter of resignation should be handed in by Onogi himself, and by the way, I would like to thank Prosecutor Ishii for his care.But Onogi thought that under the current circumstances, it would be better to avoid meeting Prosecutor Ishii.

Along with the letter of resignation, Onogi also wrote a long letter.In the letter, he expressed his apology to all the staff of the local prosecutors for being implicated unusually because of him. With everything in order, Onogi felt his old life come to an end.It seems that this is a long experience, and once the incident is over, it seems to be very short. It was a rather unusual experience, an exciting time in Onogi's life that he experienced for the first time. However, now that everything is gone and never returns, he seems to feel that he is exactly the same as before when he came and went without any worries.This state seems to be a continuation of the old self, and the unusual experience is like some kind of abnormal hallucination.

The substance of things, once lost forever, is indistinguishable from nothing.The so-called sense of reality refers to the present at any time, otherwise, it can only be limited to the moment of transition from the present to the future.The entity itself exists only in the present.Once it is a thing of the past, it becomes an elusive phantom. The new reality that Onogi faces will begin from the moment everything is sorted out.However, this reality of Onogi has lost the bridge to the future. After finishing everything in this way, his whole body fell into an incredible emptiness.In this emptiness, all kinds of things that happened in the past are buried as memories.No matter what it is, it is all incoherent fragments, and it is impossible to sort out the clues.

However, the past of life is originally composed of incoherent fragments.The hopes that have been hoped for, the efforts that have been made in the past, are but glassy shards at the end of these days. Only the faces of those seniors and colleagues in the local prosecutor's office emerged uncontrollably.Onogi felt really sorry for these people.The social criticisms, of course, pointed to Onogi, but more of them pointed to the overall concept of prosecutors. Amidst the criticisms, Onogi's name disappeared, leaving only the concept of prosecutors, only this concept It became the target of public criticism amidst the impeachment.

Although full of apology, Onogi has no regrets.Because this is the path I chose. Last night, he slept soundly, and all the thoughts that disturbed him were eliminated by Onogi in the instant he sent out the letter of resignation.Laizi, only Laizi made him feel the only fulfillment.Just having this is enough. Hope for nothing else.Even life is the same. ten o'clock Onogi walked out of the apartment with only his suitcase.He entrusted all the rest of the luggage to the manager. Are you leaving?The manager is an old lady, she sent Onogi to the door. I have troubled you for a long time.Onoki bowed his head in greeting.

Mr. Onogi, the old lady said, when you come to Tokyo again, you will still come to my place, right? The old lady tried her best to show a happy face to Onogi. Be sure to come.Onoki walked out the door.Before reaching the road, there are long-accustomed sights everywhere. A child is playing by the side of the road.Although he had never spoken to him before, the child looked very amiable. The child squatted on the side of the road and was playing with mud.When he passed by, his small movements, miraculously and peacefully, left a deep impression on Onogi's eyes. A middle-aged woman in an apron came across.The face of this woman, and the face of the man who was reprimanding the child at home, unconsciously left vivid memories in one aspect of Onogi's life.All of this is clearly in my eyes at this moment.

Yoshiko, go do something.Such a voice came from my ear.A housewife in an apron is telling her children to run an errand. These sounds also remain in Onogi's hearing with a wonderful freshness. Onogi came to the road facing the street and hailed a taxi: go to Tokyo Station. He looked at his watch, it was twenty past ten.Arrive at Tokyo Station, more than enough time. The car started to run, and the scenery of the past flew past. However, in Onogi's mind, these common sights have long since missed him.He has nothing to do with the pedestrians on the road. It can also be said that the entire human race has nothing to do with Onogi.There is only one person in his heart, and that person is Lai Zi.

Onogi imagined that Lai Zi was waiting for him in the waiting room of Tokyo Station.It was too early to know who would arrive first. This date was agreed upon with Lai Zi when we met last time.It is also impossible to say who first made the suggestion at that time, anyway, it came to the current conclusion.Lai Zi once apologized to Onogi, saying it was his fault.However, Lai Zi is Onogi's only hope to survive. Onogi was tired of everything in the world.In order to simply survive, he doesn't want to be bothered by other things.But complicated things are bound to be added one after another.

In order to live, it has to be like this.That's exactly what's annoying.All in all, all make people feel disheartened. Sitting in the taxi, Onogi felt that he had lost weight.He himself is like a pile of transparent glass. When Onogi arrived at the entrance of the waiting room, as expected, the clock only pointed to ten forty. Onogi went straight into the waiting room.There are many people sitting in it.Onogi quickly scanned for a week, but Lai Zi was nowhere to be seen.Sure enough, he still took the lead. The appointed time is eleven o'clock.Twenty minutes more.Onogi sat down in an empty seat.

He took the newspaper out of his pocket and read it.The type refused to enter the eyes.No matter how important the news is, it has nothing to do with Onogi.This does not refer to his own distance from newspaper news.In a word, the benchmark of everything is different from the current Onogi. Next to Onogi was a young couple who said they were going to Osaka, and they were talking with each other with a map.On the other side is an old man with his little grandson.Both sides are always talking. In the waiting room, people come and go frequently.Some people sat for a long time, as if they suddenly thought of something, they stood up lazily and walked outside; some people came in from the outside, eager to find a seat.Among the sitting crowd, some looked at ease, while others looked exhausted.However, everyone in the waiting room was overwhelmed by the rush before departure.

It's almost eleven o'clock. Onogi couldn't help feeling nervous.He tossed the newspaper away and fixed his eyes on the entrance.At the entrance on the opposite side, there was a flood of people, coming and going constantly.Everyone is in a hurry. Onogi's eyes were completely focused on every woman who appeared at the entrance.He felt so excited that his chest ached a little. It's eleven o'clock! Lai Zi has always been punctual for appointments.Especially in this case, Onogi even thought that Lai Zi would come here in advance.Lai Zi is about to appear in front of you!Lai Zi's figure appeared in Onogi's hallucination. She walked in from the entrance and was looking for Onogi. Lai Zi finally did not show up. It was ten past eleven.Onogi couldn't sit still. Could it be that there was an accident? He immediately thought of the tense scene in the traffic on the road.Lai Zi Even if there is no accident, the car may be delayed for some reason.He naturally thought of this. In order to calm his beating heart, Onogi bent down to read the newspaper again. None of the typefaces jumped into his eyes.The newspaper is just a large blur, like a piece of white paper with patterns. This state also made him unbearable, so he stopped watching it immediately. Another reason was that he was worried that it would delay the early discovery of Lai Zi. Onogi looked at his watch, it was half past eleven.He became more restless and couldn't sit still.So, he got up and left his seat. It's free here! A young woman came over and occupied the site where Onoki had evacuated. Onogi came to the exit of the waiting room.Many people are flowing outside.He cast his gaze over people's shoulders and into the distance.The entrance space is reflected in a square shape by bright sunlight.Under the sun are the roofs of rows of cars.In the distance is the Marunouchi Building.However, among the figures coming in from that bright space, none of them had a figure like Lai Zi. Onoki stood there stiffly. When is it time to arrive at Atami? A woman's voice drifted past his ears. What should I buy as a gift? Decide there. Another male and female voice passed. Can I buy a ticket? Another voice passed. All kinds of voices formed a noisy chorus in Onogi's ears, and then flowed through.These noises gradually disappeared from Xiao Yemu's ears, no matter what he said, he couldn't hear them anymore. The hour hand has pointed to twelve o'clock.People's voices and footsteps stopped responding in Onogi's mind.In Onogi's eyes, the crowd in the field of vision also became a meaningless and terrifying group. Lai Zi!Onogi kept shouting in his heart.A thin layer of sweat oozed from his forehead, his fingers were numb, and the suitcase he was carrying was about to fall off. What's the matter?What is the matter with her?A terrible thought flashed through Onogi's mind, but he immediately realized that it was impossible. Onogi stood there with weakness in his feet and weak knees, as if he was about to collapse. He took a step, and his legs couldn't listen to him.There was only one place vacant on the long chair.Onogi sat there, breathing hard as if he had a fever. How many minutes is the train to Osaka?A young woman nearby asked the man. There is still a while!the man replied. Yes, there is still a while.Yes, that is impossible!Lai Zi encountered some obstacles, she must be extremely anxious.Onogi comforted himself like this.He made up his mind to wait!Even if it's two hours, three hours, wait until she arrives. However, immediately another feeling of uneasiness welled up in my heart. This anxiety seemed extraordinarily empty. Onoki's face turned pale. He tried to suppress the uneasiness.Due to the use of strength in this area, his face became paler and paler.Onogi was wrestling with something invisible.This is a battle against despair, just like a person falling from a cliff wants to grab the vegetation on the mountainside, and Onogi is pinning his hopes on the possibility at this moment.However, he understood that there was not much hope for this. Onogi heard something in his ears.It was the sound of myself falling, having lost contact with Raiko Lai Zi boarded the train from Shinjuku Station. There is still a while to go.The specific time is ten twenty. Lai Zi sat in a corner of the carriage, staring blankly out of the window.The scenery outside was seen when she and Onogi went to S Hot Spring.Looking out from the carriage, the location of the building, the pedestrians on the road, and the salespersons in the small shop in front of the station, almost all have not changed. In that instant, the image of Onogi who was waiting for him at Tokyo Station appeared in Lai Zi's mind. Onogi's serious face seemed to be vivid in his memory, and he seemed to be watching his arrival from the waiting room wholeheartedly. Lai Zi folded his hands on his knees, suppressing himself who might get up from this seat and leave.She hoped that the train would leave soon.But on the other hand, she felt that it was better not to run the train.Because in this way, during the stop of the train, there is still a chance to jump onto the platform and rush to Onogi. Lai Zi is wrestling with this distress, struggling with the temptation to get out of the car. It's still a long time before driving.She felt that in this minute and second, it seemed that an arrow was piercing her heart.As time went by, more and more arrows pierced my heart. Lai Zi felt that he was becoming bruised all over.Outside the car window is the platform, and it is beckoning to itself.Lai Zi pressed her feet hard to the floor of the car.Never go down!Everything will be destroyed in one go.Onogi's life would be wiped out in an instant. This date was not Lai Zi's request, but Onogi's first proposal.Death seems to be the best way.This death is also beautiful in Lai Zi's mind. All eliminations are good. Lai Zi fully understands Onogi's intentions.Thirteen minutes before their agreed departure time. Onogi's nature is like this. Under such circumstances, he will definitely wait for him at Tokyo Station, even if it is two or three hours.Lai Zi wished he could fly to Onogi who was looking forward to him right away.Whenever thinking of his restless scene, Lai Zi wanted to jump off the train. The train Lai Zi was on was still nine minutes away from departure, and this was her last consolation.The consolation is nothing else but the possibility of rushing to Onogi.However, time doesn't care about people, it runs forward accurately. The possibilities are getting smaller and smaller.Its limits will eventually reach the realm of the impossible.Lai Zi gritted his teeth and insisted on fixing himself on the chair. The bell rang.Slowly, step by step, the train began to move the platform back. Ah, it's over!Lai Zi thought so in his heart.Just like the scenery in front of you, everything flows backwards and backwards.I will no longer stand in these scenes, and I will no longer stay in these scenes. Please eat one!Suddenly, voices came from beside him.A middle-aged woman with a little girl sitting next to her handed an apple to Lai Zi. Thanks.Lai Zi bowed his head in thanks and took the apple in his hand.Sitting in front of her mother was a little girl about seven years old, holding an apple in her hand, staring intently at Lai Zi's face. The child's clear eyes seemed to be firmly attracted by Lai Zi's beauty. where are you goingThe woman next to him asked with a smile on his face. To Fujiyoshida city.Lai Zi told the destination station of the ticket he bought. Oh, the middle-aged woman smiled with wrinkles on her nose, that area seems to be doing well recently!It's a real nuisance to be crowded all summer long.However, if you go now, there will be fewer people, and the water of Lake Kawaguchi looks so beautiful. The woman told Lai Zi that she was from Kofu City. The train picked up speed.Tokyo is leaving fast.She was getting further and further away from Onogi.Onogi's figure appeared in front of Laizi's eyes. She seemed to see clearly that Onogi was anxiously walking out of the waiting room for a while, and then went back again.However, at the moment they are completely isolated.It was right to leave quietly without telling Onogi. Lai Zi made this determination last night.At that time, she thought about telegraphing or sending an express letter to Onogi immediately, but she felt that it would be better not to do so.If it does, it risks weakening Lai Zi's own resolve. The weather is pretty good. The woman next to her probably had a good impression of Lai Zi and kept talking to her.Indeed, the scenery outside the car window has turned into a bright green color. Lai Zi gradually grew tired of what the woman said.When I first talked with her, I planned to use this to cover up my inner feelings, but now I gradually lost my patience. Lai Zi wanted to sit alone for a while, still locking himself in solitude, thinking about various problems. Lai Zi's answer gradually became impatient.Perhaps because she already felt this, the woman next to her stopped talking to her. Passing through the tunnel, the train gallops through the mountains.On the left side of the train, there used to be a corner of the lake shining, but it quickly disappeared behind the foot of the mountain. For a period of time thereafter, the train kept passing through the mountains and valleys.Lai Zi was always paying attention to the watch on his wrist.Nearly two hours have passed since the agreed meeting time with Onogi.Every time she looked at the hands of the watch, Onogi's movements appeared in her eyes.Lai Zi knew in his heart that he was probably still waiting there. Onogi is worried at the moment, and soon he will know Lai Zi's breach of trust.Lai Zi felt like a thousand arrows piercing his heart. Time is passing, and Onogi is waiting anxiously. The two are connected together, tightly strangling Laizi's heart. Otsuki Station has arrived.The train slowly came to a stop on the platform. Lai Zi stood up. goodbye.Lai Zi thought of the little girl and said goodbye to her.The little girl stared at Lai Zi with wide eyes again. Lai Zi got off the train.While walking on the platform, the upbound train bound for Tokyo staggered into the station.Because it is a single-track track, it will miss the train here.As soon as the train that Lai Zi was on left, the upward train to be avoided started.Take the up train, you can reach Tokyo, and you can reach Onogi.It only takes two hours.Moreover, she seemed to have a feeling that if she took that up train and arrived at Tokyo Station, Onogi might still be waiting for her in the waiting room. Lai Zi ran towards the exit without looking back. There is a bus to Kawaguchiko in front of the station.Students riding in a group are getting off that bus in droves. From here, you can go straight to the Fuji Five Lakes [Note: Refers to the five lakes at the northern foot of Mount Fuji, namely Lake Yamanaka, Lake Kawaguchi, Lake West, Lake Jingji and Lake Motosu. ], above the foot of the mountain is a dense forest.It is said that if you walk into that forest, even people you know very well will not be able to find your way out if you make a slight mistake. Onogi's words echoed in Laizi's ears again.That was what Onogi told himself when the train stopped at Otsuki Station on the way to S Onsen.However, there was no trace of Lin Hai in the scene in front of the station.In front of you is an ordinary rural scenery.There is only a pale road in front of Lai Zi, which may go straight to the edge of the forest.