Chapter 16 Chapter 15 Reunion in Ancient Temple

Nine years have passed. The seventh month of the lunar calendar in Beijing is here again, and the Tianhe River, which is directly south and north, has changed its direction again, and the weather is getting colder again. July 1st is the beginning of autumn.The Beginning of Autumn is the prelude to the Ghost Festival.Ghost Festival always brings a chill atmosphere.Every family has to provide burdens and deal with the dead.Caishikou, which has the most chilling relationship with the dead, is even more eye-catching. It is cloudy today in Liqiu.The streets of Caishikou, like most streets in Beijing, have not yet been paved with slate.Although it was 1926 and the Manchu Qing Dynasty had been overthrown for 15 years, Caishikou was still the same as it was in the Qing Dynasty.The floating soil on the street is like an incense burner on a sunny day, and when a gust of wind blows, the sky becomes dark; on a rainy day, it’s like a sauce jar, and you have to struggle to pull it out when you step on it.

Bad roads are one thing, everyone has to go.for their present and future.But there is an old man who is not like this. He is walking for the past. For fifteen years, every time he came to Beijing, he would come to Caishikou alone, looking at the floating soil on the street, looking at the old medicine store in Xihe Niantang, feeling sad and thoughtful.The dirt he stepped on was supposed to be the place where he was sentenced to death.And in front of the old medicine shop in Xihe Niantang, it is also the place where the beheader sits behind the long table and executes criminals with a vermilion pen.However, by chance, he narrowly escaped death and escaped the catastrophe. Except for the old house in Xihe Niantang and his own pair of old eyes, all the physical witnesses of the year have been reduced to mud.The Queen Mother of the West has turned into mud, the supervisors and officials have turned into mud, and the six gentlemen have turned into mud. The entire conservatism and improvement, regression and progress, despair and hope, laziness and hard work have all turned into mud.The rest is just the old man, walking alone on the T-junction, facing the old drugstore in the midst of parting life and death, old hatred and new sorrow, and witnessing three lives on the soil.

This time he came to Beijing and Caishikou, and he was already sixty-nine years old.The current situation in China has fallen into new chaos. The old generals in the north have changed their generals, and the new warlords in the south have pledged to go to the north. And this time, the Soviets are openly providing machine guns, cannons, money, and consultants. The menacing, a new catastrophe in China Or several new catastrophes are just around the corner.As for himself, his days are numbered, and he is not liked by others, so he hides outside the territory.Also had to plan for it early.When he came to Beijing this time, he felt different from the past. Every time he came in the past, he had the mentality of coming back next time, but this time he didn't.He felt that he had come to an end with Beijing. This time, he came here not for a temporary stay, a short stay, or nostalgia, but a farewell, a farewell before a farewell.At Caishikou, he bid farewell to the martyrs of 28 years ago, to the me who was sentenced to death 28 years ago, and to his past self.

Leaving Caishikou, he went to the south entrance of Xuanwumenwai Street, and walked into the northern half of the hutong in the north-south direction. On the west side of the southern end of the hutong, a low-lying house appeared. It was the Liuyang Guild Hall where Tan Sitong lived for many years.Mang Cang Cang Zhai in the guild hall, thirty years ago, was the place where they discussed reform and reform. How many days, nights, and late nights, he, Tan Sitong and other comrades with lofty ideals designed the blueprint for the new China here.Thirty years have passed so quickly, the old Mangcangzhai house is still there, but the owner has gone and the guests are old, except for the cobwebs and ashes, it is dead silent.The only one active was the old servant of the care club, after receiving the reward from the strange old gentleman, he introduced him from room to room.The old servant said with a half-knowledge that thirty years ago, this was the place where big shots lived.He struggled to count down the people the master of Mangcang Cangzhai associates with, and a Mr. Kang appeared in his mouth.He never dreamed that Mr. Kang was standing beside him with tears in his eyes.

The plaque of Mangcangzhai is still there, but the door couplet next to it is mottled and unclear, but he clearly remembers the original text on the door couplet.At that time, Tan Sitong wrote that the family has no stones, and the man is full of vigor. After reading it, he felt that the tone was too loud, and he asked Tan Sitong to change it a little more obscurely. Have something to say.He greatly appreciated it, thinking that the reform was restrained.Now, thirty years have passed, and Tan Sitong has gone away with great vigor, and it is himself who sees Ermengmeng.Goodbye, Mangcang Cangzhai; goodbye, resurrection.Here is the dust of their early years, the joy and sorrow of those who saved the country, and the moments before Tan Sitong's arrest.In the journey against heaven and earth, life is a passer-by, only the old house still lives with the owner, but the owner himself sleeps thousands of miles away, in the green grass, silent and speechless, and people have something to say.

☆☆☆☆☆☆ On a cloudy day, he turned to the south entrance of Xizhuan Hutong and walked into Fayuan Temple along the vermilion mottled wall. Forty years ago, when he first came to Beijing, he lived in Mishi Hutong outside Xuanwumen, and fell in love with this ancient temple nearby.There is the Daxiong Hall behind the Tianwang Hall in the temple, and in front of the wide platform, there are steps, and six stone tablets are arranged on the left and right, which is magnificent.He likes to look at the inscriptions and tortoises in front of the old stele, trace back from the ancient monuments, and forget everything about the present.There are actually two kinds of past, one is our own past, and the other is the past of the ancients.Although my past is only a few decades old, but because it is too personal and close, it will bring people sadness, confusion and pain.From Caishikou to Mangcangzhai, the pain is too close to make people uncomfortable; but the past of the ancients is not like this, it brings people nostalgic nostalgia, desolate beauty, and a fascinating happiness. will fit.The feelings of nostalgia for the past are much more mellow than nostalgia for the present.In the intersection of the past and the present, it will also make people feel boundless and vicissitudes, but that kind of emotion is detached, not stagnant in the self and the ego, and appears vast and magnificent.But Huaijin couldn't keep up.The wise think about the past, the benevolent think about the present, and those who cultivate both benevolence and wisdom do not reject any of them. However, after thinking about the present, it is beneficial to remember the past, which can sublimate people's sadness, melancholy, and pain, and have a more philosophical understanding of the joys and sorrows of life. .Don't you see, Yuhuan and Feiyan are all dust.Precisely because the ending is from the present to the past, and from the past to nothing, so using part of one's life to nostalgia for the past is not reducing but adding more.Your own life decreases, but once you connect with the ancients, your life becomes longer and becomes a part of eternity.Even if you turn to dust, you are as dusty as the ancients, and you are not so alone, nor are your dead friends.You are a part of them, and they are a part of the people with lofty ideals since ancient times.At that time, you will no longer be sad, melancholy, and painful for their martyrdom, just like in Fayuan Temple, you will not be sad, melancholy, and painful for Xie Fangde who died here, and you will not talk to Xie Fang He has to fight against the enemy and make his enemy his enemy.The emotion you have is just a kind of admiration, a kind of clear, clear, simple and unsloppy admiration.The vastness and vicissitudes after sublimation expand your vision and extend your time distance. On the one hand, you become far-sighted, and on the other hand, you can see the ancients. It is a new realm. The strange thing is that you can only Alone, seeking it alone in the ancient temple, and that ancient temple, to him; only Fayuan Temple.

☆☆☆☆☆☆ Mr. Kang came to Fayuan Temple to look at the ancient stele again.The voice came from behind. Kang Youwei turned around and saw a middle-aged man smiling at him. The middle-aged man is of medium build, with parted hair, but a little messy, round face, wearing round tortoiseshell glasses, small eyes, but very energetic, a little hooked nose, on thin lips, With a row of beards.The chin is shaved, so it can be seen that the hair is a bit messy, not because of the slovenly appearance, but because of the celebrities.He was wearing an old brown suit and polished black leather shoes, neat and tidy, like a very decent professor.

Kang Youwei reached out his hand and shook hands with the middle-aged man.Curiously asked: Do you know my surname is Kang? Mr. Kang is famous all over the world, of course he knows.The middle-aged man smiled and said, very friendly. Your husband met me?Can you recognize me?Kang Youwei asked.You said just now that I came to Fayuan Temple to look at the ancient stele again.You seem to have seen me come? The middle-aged man smiled with a little mystery in his smile.He lowered his head, then raised it again.Two divine eyes looked Kang Youwei up and down.Say slowly: Of course I recognize Mr. Kang, I have seen too many photos in the newspapers.What's more, I met Mr. Kang, but that was a long, long time ago, and Mr. Kang probably doesn't remember.

how long ago? Mr. Kang would be shocked if you calculate it, nearly forty years ago.To be precise, it was thirty-eight years ago. Kang Youwei opened his eyes and asked curiously: Is it possible?Seeing that your husband is only forty or fifty years old.You were only in your teens nearly forty years ago, did you meet me when you were in your teens?Where did you see it? right here in Beijing. Where in Beijing? Right here in Beijing.The middle-aged man pointed his finger to the ground, in the Fayuan Temple in Beijing.Just in front of this stele. Kang Youwei was shocked.He grabbed the middle-aged man's hand and looked at it carefully.Who are you

I am a young apprentice of Monk She, the head monk of Fayuan Temple! Kang Youwei was stunned.Surprised, he stared at the other party carefully.Suddenly, he rushed forward and hugged the middle-aged man: Ah, I remember you!I remember you, you are the little brother who fled from Henan and was placed at the gate of the temple by his brother! The middle-aged man no longer pretended to be mysterious. He hugged Kang Youwei, his eyes wet.After hugging for a while, the two hugged each other's waists, their upper bodies leaned back, looking at each other.The middle-aged man shook his head appreciatively: Mr. Kang has a strong memory, his real name is well-deserved, and Mr. Kang has a really good memory!A young monk nearly forty years ago, you remember.

It's not that you have a good memory, but that you left me with a deep, deep impression! Kang Youwei took the middle-aged man's hands with both hands: What was your name at that time? Purity.My name is Pujing. Yep!Your name is Pujing, your name is Pujing! Pujing is my name as a young monk. My original surname is Li, and my name is Li Shili. Li Shili?Li Shili is that you?Kang Youwei was surprised again. He pointed at the chest of the middle-aged man, aren't you a famous professor of Peking University? Li Shili nodded with a smile. The professor is a slob, but his name may not be. you are too polite.Kang Youwei said, everyone knows that there is a great scholar in modern China who is engaged in new knowledge-only theory.What a coincidence, what a coincidence, to meet again after a long absence, and to meet again in the old place 40 years ago! "Mozi" says that the scenery does not move, and "Zhuangzi" says that the shadow of a flying bird never moves.They all abstract the projection of the past and condense it in the original place. The representation form has left, but the shadow has not left.Forty years later, Mr. Kang and I have reappeared here, and we have provided an inseparable evidence for the ancient books. Kang Youwei patted Li Shili on the shoulder and said with a smile: You are right.This is inseparable!It is a pity that I am old and Master She is no longer here.If Master She lived to this day, he would be in his eighties, right? Exactly eighty years old.And it happens to be today, today is Master She's 80th birthday! What a coincidence, what a coincidence!All the coincidences are gathered together today!Master She's 80th birthday, there must be a commemorative ceremony in the temple, right? An auditorium was set up, and everyone saluted.In the past few days, I came from school and lived in the temple. First, I came to help take care of it, and second, I went to clean up for a few days to think about some problems.It happened that Mr. Kang came to the temple, and it was really a fate to meet him from thousands of miles away. It's really a fate to meet thousands of miles away.The purpose of my trip from Qingdao to Beijing this time is also to see old friends.On August 5th the day before yesterday, an old friend Yuan Lizhun Hanlin invited me to dinner. I think back to August 5th 28 years ago, which happened to be the day when I escaped and boarded a ship during the Reform Movement of 1898. When the ship arrived in Shanghai, two British warships came to rescue me. Kang Youwei, but no one knows Kang Youwei.It happened that Yuan Lizhun was on board, and with his advice, I was able to escape from death.Yuan Lizhun and I have not seen each other for nearly 30 years. This time when we reunited, the great painter Pu Ru was present and drew a picture of the rescue of the British ship on the spot, and I also inscribed it.At that time, everyone said that seeing an old friend whom we hadn't seen for nearly 30 years was really worth celebrating. Unexpectedly, after only one day, we saw you, an old friend whom we hadn't seen for nearly 40 years.We should celebrate too.How about it?When I got to the auditorium, I first bowed to Master She, and if I was honored, we went to a small restaurant nearby. It is my honor to be honored by Mr. Kang.But today there are vegetarian seats in the temple, so let's eat in the temple.It's almost noon now, let's salute with Mr. Kang first! The auditorium is located in an unexpected place, the last scripture pavilion on the temple.The reason is that Master She said before his death that he did not read enough, and hoped to be with books after his death.In order to fulfill his last wish, the people in the temple enshrined him in the Sutra Pavilion.In front of the pavilion, there is a century-old ginkgo tree with rubbing branches, covering half of the courtyard.There are two Xifu Begonias in front of the steps, which are more than two hundred years old.When the great poet Gong Dingyu was sorting out old things one day, he found a bag of petals that had fallen from these two crabapple trees. He was so emotional that he wrote: There is no basis for people and nature, and they are kept alive by Nong. Like a dream like smoke, the flowers bloom on the branches for another ten years. Ten years and thousands of miles, the phoenix mark is raining colorfully. Don't blame him for pity him, his background is still like a fallen flower. Sixty years after the death of this talented great poet, Master She's life experience is still like a fallen flower returning to the ancient temple; twenty-six years after his death, his young apprentice and Kang Youwei, who had a close relationship, came side by side to meet him saluted. ☆☆☆☆☆☆ The dining room is still the same as before, and the square red lacquer table is still simple and clean.Xie Fangde's desperate poem is still hanging on the wall.Judging from the scorched paper and ink color, it is impossible to determine its age.Back then Master She said that it was written by a monk in the temple a hundred years ago, but adding forty years to it now does not matter to it.This temple is full of antiquities, one hundred and forty years old, how old is it?Years are only meaningful to life. Once materialized, Peng Shang will live the same life, and the competition between everyone is no longer how long they exist.It's whether it exists or not.A picture hanging there symbolizes its existence; Begonias exist in whirling business; Buddhist scriptures exist in candlelight and incense; ancient monuments exist in wind and rain; and the two oldest lotus petal-shaped The base of the bluestone pillar has existed in the eyes of thousands of years.All the buildings in the Jianminzhong Temple era have disappeared, only these two stone foundations are left, which makes people imagine the past.From their huge size and exquisite carvings, people imagine the prosperity of the ancient temples. After thousands of years, only two stone foundations are left, and they pay homage to their overall non-existence from their individual existence. Today, Master She no longer exists personally, but if he is dead, he is real. In the dining room, he has always been the topic of conversation between his young apprentice and Kang Youwei. Kang Youwei asked: How did Master She die?I only vaguely heard that he died in the Gengzi Boxing Transformation, and that he died in the temple gate, but I don't know anything else.Brother Shili, you must be clear. Li Shili nodded.After pondering for a while, he opened his mouth to speak: My master's death was very strange. To this day, I still can't get the whole picture, but it is connected and outlined. I remember that when Mr. Kang met my master thirty-eight years ago, he was forty-one years old, and he had been a monk for eleven years at that time.He became a monk at the age of thirty.He never mentioned anything before the age of 30. When I asked him, he was a little sad and just said: One day you will know the history of my life before the age of 30.Master usually cultivated deeply and was always calm and gentle, but when asked about his past, he frowned and refused to say, that calm and gentleness seemed to be greatly disturbed.Later, I thought, Master must have received a big stimulus when he was young, so he could see through the world and become a monk.That big stimulus must have been very big, so even though he has been a monk for more than ten years, he still feels uneasy when he mentions it.That big stimulus was directly related to his death.It wasn't until after Master's death that I got the complete truth.After learning about it, I was very emotional. Remember the time Mr. Kang and my master ate at this table thirty-eight years ago?During meals, my master only gave eggs to Mr. Kang and me, and he didn't eat them himself.When I asked him why, he said that he was a monk who ate a whole fast, so he didn't even eat eggs.At that time, I interrupted and said that I was a monk like Master, and I had better not eat eggs.But Master said that I was still young and needed nutrition, so I should eat eggs.He also said that I was too young at that time to be considered a formal monk.I asked when would I do the calculation, and Master said that you don't have to do the calculation.I asked why, and Master said it was because you don't have to live in the temple for a long time.At that time, I became nervous and asked if Master might not want me one day.Master said, no, of course not.The master said that he just felt that the purpose of being a monk is to save the world. There are many ways to save the world. Living in a temple is not necessarily a good way, at least not the only way.At that time, I was sixteen years old. Ten years later, Master asked me to go out to do an important thing, and I left the temple. Mr. Kang must be very strange about something important.It turns out that although my master is a descendant of the righteous She family, he has been fond of activities since he was a child, likes to make friends with people in the world, and hang out outside.After he became a monk, he told people that he had been living in Beijing, which was a taboo. In fact, he left Beijing at the age of fifteen, went to the south, and joined the southern uprising camp of the Taiping Heavenly Kingdom.Because he had studied some books when he was a child and was proficient in writing and ink, he was spotted by the long-haired thief and became Shi Da's little teacher in the opening ceremony.There was internal strife in the Taiping Heavenly Heaven, and Shi Dakai left, and he followed him all the time.Later, when I arrived in Sichuan, I was poor at sunset.Shi Dakai was captured, he returned to Beijing in exile, and later became a monk in Fayuan Temple. I really didn't expect Master She to be a long-haired thief and have such a close relationship with Shi Dakai.Kang Youwei interjected. What was even more unexpected was that he had a life-and-death relationship with Shi Dakai's only surviving daughter, but it was said that when the officers and soldiers called, he refused to save Miss Shi, so that he was looked down upon by Da Dao Wang Wu and the others. Later, he bravely rescued Wang Wu, and was hacked to death by Boxer mobs on the stone steps of Fayuan Temple.He endured humiliation for thirty years, and finally proved his great personality with actions. very impressive!Kang Youwei praised it, but it is a pity that Master She is old and dead, otherwise, he might have walked the same path as you. Yeah?Li Shili was skeptical. I think if my master is willing to come out, the path he will take may be Mr. Kang. After all, he is of the same age as Mr. Kang. Are you not of the same age as us? To tell the truth from Mr. Kang, I am not in the same era as you. You have trapped yourself in the old era, but I am more able to create a new era.For example, I participated in the revolution. During the Revolution of 1911, I was working in Wuchang.However, after the Revolution of 1911, it was found that China was still not doing well, and the revolution was not thorough.To save China, there is only one new revolution.The new revolution is the revolution of the Communist Party.You, Mr. Kang, are one of your own. In front of you, I don’t have to hide it, but please hide it for me. I participated in this kind of revolution five years ago. At that time, I was forty-nine years old. I am a bit too old, but Li Dazhao said that I participated in the Revolution of 1911, and now I am participating in the Communist Revolution. This kind of transformation and progress is of exemplary significance, so I am welcome to join.I am now doing underground work in the north. On the surface, I am a professor at Peking University, but in my heart I am a revolutionary party.However, whether it is teaching or revolution, it is a job that throws oneself outside, and it is a kind of karma.After a long time in the world, I would go to the temple to meditate for a few hours. Every time I go back to the temple, it's like going home, back to my own world, back to my world with my master.I like Fayuan Temple, and I like to live a clean life in the temple. I just hope that I can spend my whole life here and never go outside again.However, within a few hours of cleansing, an outside force sucked me out, and an inside force pushed me out.That power came from the enlightenment of Buddhism, the urging from my master, and the cry from my heart, which made me condemn myself and told me not to come to Fayuan Temple to escape.Fayuan Temple is not a refuge. Fayuan Temple is an outpost, a blockhouse, and an arsenal.Although I like to be Yang Renshan so much and promote Buddhism, I will never be able to just be a person in the temple. Without my own participation, how can it be enough to promote Buddhism?Sometimes, participation is the best promotion. If I don't go to hell, who will go to hell?Propagating ten sentences outside of hell is worse than taking one step into hell.Twenty-eight years ago, Mr. Tan was the greatest forerunner of this kind of Buddhist doctrine. He died to take the road of improvement, but with his head in a different place, he instructed us that this road will not work, and we must take the road of revolution.Fifteen years ago, I participated in the Revolution of 1911; in the past five years, I have participated in the revolution of the Communist Party.From the first revolution to the second revolution, I participated from the age of thirty-nine to fifty-four. As a revolutionary party, I am a bit old, but I can't stop. thing done.I hope that I can succeed in the second revolution as soon as possible. After the revolution is successful, I will return to the temple and fulfill my wish to die in Fayuan Temple.However, seeing the situation in the country like this, I think my hopes may be too extravagant.Maybe one day, I won't be able to come back forever, if I can come back alive, then I can live in the temple like Yuan Dushi, and my wish has been fulfilled. After listening to Li Shili's words, Kang Youwei fell into deep thought.He stood up, walked to the window, looked at the lilac in the yard, and thought nothing of it.After a while, he turned around and looked directly at Li Shili: It has been almost thirty years since the Reform Movement of 1898.Thirty years ago, what I did was not your popular revolution, but improvement.But in the eyes of the Empress Dowager and others, it was not much different from revolution.The revolution was what our generation called rebellion.Rebellion is nothing more than beheading.But we didn't rebel, and we didn't kill our heads.Later, when Tan Sitong and the others died, you all believed that reform was a dead end, and that only revolution could succeed.I'm old and I can't see it anymore.What I have seen is that neither improvement nor revolution will work.But I still believe in improvement. Although the basis of improvement, the foundation cultivated by the Qing Dynasty in 268 years, has been destroyed to pieces, the reckless method of saving the country is still very suspicious, at least the price is Miserable, we can't afford it.Moreover, the people's beliefs and beliefs, and the people's values ​​are not forged overnight.It took two hundred and sixty-eight years for the Qing Dynasty to build the world before it reached such a scale. Do you want to build a paradise in just a dozen or a few decades?I really can't believe it!I'm afraid that it will end up being created, that tens of millions of heads will fall to the ground, and people's hearts will be dead. At that time, it will be too late to regret it. I can understand what Mr. Kang said.Li Shili said slowly, but what choice do we have?Our situation is like when I was fleeing in my hometown when I was a child. We have to pursue, adopt, and work hard for anything that can satisfy our hunger and thirst.We dare not say that the doctrines we believe in today will definitely work; but we clearly know that yesterday's methods will definitely not work.So we have to give it a try. How can Kang Youwei interrupt him on important national affairs?Try out trouble, who is responsible? We are responsible.Just like twenty-eight years ago, you were in charge.Didn't you also try it back then? We tried, but we failed, and only our own blood was shed.The people are calm.But you, what you shed is the blood of the people.does it worth? Bloodshed is inevitable, whether it's worth it or not depends on that perspective.Even if you only shed your own blood, the blood of a man of lofty ideals is still blood.Looking at it now, it is doubtful whether it was worthwhile for you to try it twenty-eight years ago.In fact, if you try it, you will be completely wrong on the major premise.You think that if you persuade Emperor Guangxu, you will be able to do the right thing if you win the king. In fact, even if Emperor Guangxu wants to reform, so what?In such a large group, he is the only one who is enlightened, so what can a person do?Don't forget, they are a big group, a big group that relies on the inequality of oppressing others and protecting their own privileges to coexist and benefit from each other.The entire big group cannot be changed, and one person's consciousness, in the end, is just a tragedy.A person leads a large group to do bad things, and the bad things are beneficial to the large group, although they are unjust, he will get support; however, a person leads a large group to do good things, and the good deeds are harmful to the large group, although they are in line with justice, he will get support. be opposed to.The Empress Dowager represents the former who leads the big group to do bad things, and Emperor Guangxu represents the latter who leads the big group to do good things. As a result, Emperor Guangxu will find that he cannot represent the big group in the end, and the big group freezes there. , he only represents himself!Want to be an idealist?OK, but idealism is made by the lowly, not the high.People at the top can only continue to collude and take the lead in conspiring for the self-interest of large groups. If they don’t do this, they want to go up to the next level. In the end, they will find that no one goes upstairs with you, and when you want to go downstairs, the ladder is stolen. You, Mr. Kang, are proficient in economics and history, but you have not noticed that our Chinese political system is the most inflexible political system. Chinese politics has a background, that is, the ruling group. It is not just an individual but a group that is in power. This group There are also characteristics. The characteristics may be family members, eunuchs, scholar-bureaucrats, or Manchurians. No matter what kind, they are all groups, not just individuals.The consciousness of any one or two people in the group is useless if it is just an individual, not even the leader of the group, unless the whole group changes color, but how easy is it for the whole group to change color?Vested interests and conservative ideas have long blocked this possibility. Your Mr. Kang’s method doesn’t work. The problem lies in your ignorance of the group characteristics in Chinese politics and the group characteristics of the Manchurians. You have committed the old problem of Wang Anshi, a Chinese reform politician, thinking that as long as the above persuaded the emperor One person, the following is beneficial to all the people, and he can reform.You are taking the problem too simply.It is unimaginable that you want to skip the middle group that is below the emperor and above the people and want to achieve a peaceful transformation.Peaceful transformation cannot be achieved immediately by one or two enlightened individuals. You have to change the group first, but the group will not shed tears when it sees the coffin, so talking about reform is simply impossible. Wang Anshi's reform, the above said that the emperor alone was moved, and the bottom was beneficial to all the people. However, the literati group in the court opposed him. The minister Wen Yanbo said a word to the emperor. Wen Yanbo said that the emperor, you are ruling the world with the literati, not with the people. world.These words hit the nail on the head.If you want to reform, if you want to leapfrog, you will not succeed.Even the top officials support your reforms, but the lower levels can't get through, and it won't work.The best example is the Manchurian Emperor Daoguang who wanted to ban opium.Daoguang was not a bad emperor, he was frugal, his court clothes were torn and had to be repaired, and he would not replace them with new ones, he was not even allowed to sing operas, and all flashy things were forbidden.Opium smoke is harmful to the Chinese people. Everyone knows that when Daoguang wanted to ban smoking, even the top officials had nothing to say.In the early years of Daoguang, the import of opium was less than 6,000 boxes. In the past ten years, the import has exceeded 7 times, more than 40,000 boxes. Why?Chinese officials and businessmen are profitable and cover up and down.No matter how majestic your emperor is, he can't carry out the New Deal. According to you, how do you explain Russia?Wasn’t Russia in the era of Peter the Great also led by high-ranking people?But the Russians succeeded.Kang Youwei was not convinced. True, but Peter the Great was in a completely different situation than Emperor Guangxu.Although Peter the Great was also enthroned at a young age, he only encountered the seven-year regent of his half-sister who was 15 years older than him, instead of the 47-year dictatorship of his aunt who was 36 years older than Emperor Guangxu. .This is incomparable.Anyway, to sum it up in one sentence; China is the most difficult nation to reform, and even great heroes can't do anything to carry out reforms in China.Therefore, for the sake of China, never take the road of reform. Reform will not work this way. We must use thunderbolt means to revolutionize and remind the Chinese people: When a regime is rotten from the root, it cannot talk about reform. When it's time to change, it's too late.Just like a person who is willing to do good things only when he is forced to do nothing, but at that time, nine times out of ten, it is too late.We don't believe that this kind of regime will improve, we want revolution!Only revolution can solve all problems! According to what you said about the revolution so miraculously and so comprehensively, Kang Youwei said it calmly, so, according to what you said, what you have done to us in the past has been wiped out? Nor is it.You are our forerunners.Without you, there would be us.The end point of reform failure is actually the starting point of revolution success.You have proved that improvement does not work.How lucky and what a merit to be able to use the deaths of a few people to prove that a road to major national affairs is impracticable!Perhaps one day, tens of millions of our heads will fall to prove that this road is not feasible. At that time, we are really ashamed of you, the people, and China. On the other hand, Li Shili went on to say that his finger pointing at Kang Youwei is a special meaning that you personally showed us.Because of your brilliance and longevity, Mr. Kang, in the past thirty years, although you have been left behind by us and thought you are outdated, you have been ahead of us after all. You are our prophet, the first prophet of China in the twentieth century, It's a pity that after 30 years, the times are running faster than you, and the prophet has become a defender, but you are still a mirror. From you, we can see ourselves clearly.Your misfortune is that you were born too early at a bad time; your happiness is that you live a long and healthy life and live to this day.Judging from the timing of your birth and your birth too early, you were born in China, but you met the Queen Mother's group not too early or too late. When people talked about the crimes of the Queen Mother and her group, they all made a mistake, that is, they only talked about what they did after they came to power, not what they couldn't do after they came to power but stopped others from doing it.I think their group is reactionary, incompetent, and imbecile in nature, and there is really nothing brilliant about what they did by themselves, so from this point of view, there is nothing to say; From the point of view of not allowing others to come out but stopping others from doing it, I think it is more worthwhile to study the losses to China caused by them blocking the way.That is to say, it is not necessary to look at it from the front, but to look at it from the negative side; instead of looking at what has been done, it is better to look at it from the hypothetical.Looking at it this way, people will be surprised to find that the fundamental problem is not how much they have done for China, but how much they have stopped others, blocked their way, and prevented others from doing. Another crime committed by the Empress Dowager’s group is that in addition to delaying the time for China’s modernization, they also dismantled the filth, causing others to spend a lot of blood, sweat and time to clean up the site and remove it when they were in power and after they were in power. To make amends, to go over and over again, to ratify, to scrub, to clean up, to repay debts, to vindicate grievances, falsehoods and mistakes.That is to say, the residual symptoms and sequelae of their disaster to the country are very serious. To put it crudely, you have to wipe their ass for what they have done.They are stumbling blocks first, and then make things easier for them. They are hateful, and what they don’t do is actually more than what they do.They are a stubborn stumbling block that keeps others from moving forward when they themselves do not advance.You just happened to be a witness to this situation, and until today, you have clearly proved to people how hateful the stubborn stumbling block regime is! Your misfortune is that you have been inseparable from this dead old woman all your life.You and her are like a coin, each of you has one side. When she is up, you will be on the ground. When she is up, you will be down. When she is lucky, you will be unlucky. You are born to be the complete opposite of her. But they were forged together by fate, inseparable.If the analogy of being cast on the same coin is correct, then you and her are exactly two sides of the same body, representing your era. If there is no side of her, this coin cannot be used as a dollar in the market.Yes, although the dollar is not usable in the market, it has become a variant, which is even more valuable in museums and antique shops.But that kind of value is only the value of museums and antique shops, the value of history, not the value of reality or practical value. Kang Youwei was startled suddenly, looked at Li Shili blankly, and listened attentively to Li Shili's continuation. You were forged together by destiny, that is to say, although you are opposite, you have prosperity and decline, but you belong to the same era, symbolize the same era, and constitute the same era, and now her side is gone, your side , represents only a generation, not a continuation; it is just an end, not a beginning. This may be karma, you have such a vicious enemy blocking you, she is authoritarian, she is vicious, she has high means, she has the support of a small group, her luck is as good as it is, she has a long life, and she is only 23 years older than you , to cover you for a lifetime, so that your side of the coin will always face down.You spent your whole youth fighting her, but you never succeeded.It’s so easy, after so many years of suffering, she died, but your youth is gone, you are old, there are talented people coming out from generation to generation, and the times are passing faster than you. You are the last prophet in the nineteenth century that has come to an end, but When the twentieth century comes, you become a living antique. 你命運註定要為時代殉難，你超不過你的時代；譚嗣同精神和身體都早為時代殉難了，你身體活下來，但你的精神卻早已同譚嗣同一塊坐化死去，只是你自己不知道。 康有為茫然不語，想了很久，只說了六個字： 那麼，梁啟超呢？ 梁啟超不同。梁啟超不算是先知，他不代表時代，但他離先知最近，所以他能老是花樣翻新：他十六歲前是神童式的小學究，碰到你，大夢初醒，搖身一變變成維新派，然後是保皇派，然後跟你分開，擁護民國，變成共和派，比革命黨還革命黨。他整天求新求變、絕不頑固、有服善之勇，他的口號是不惜與今日之我與昨日之我戰，一點都不難為情。尤其在你和張勳復辟那段日子裏，他公然當仁不讓於師，罵你是大言不慚之書生，這種氣魄，真是直追孔子呢！基本上，梁啟超和你不同，嚴格說來，他和西太后不屬於同一個時代，而你，你卻跟西太后同一個時代。他從那個時代變出來，你卻陷在那個時代。我無法說這是宿命，但這真像是一種孽緣，就好像我們中國神話裏愚公移山故事，愚公想移這座山，是一種偉大的精神；但他生命裏正好碰到這座擋住他的大山，則是一種孽緣。我說你和西太后同一個時代，她就像那座擋在愚公眼前的大山，終生在你眼前攔路。你的整個青春都浪費在開路找路上面，這是你的大不幸。如果沒有這條攔路虎、這塊絆腳石，你們的青春與才幹一開始就可以用來為中國建國，不會浪費。 你的不幸也許是跟他們相見恨早，所以你的青春就在搶灘時消磨掉了，像是接力賽跑，你跑起步的人，就不可能跑到終點，你只能跑四分之一，就交棒出場。你生來就不是看到最後勝利的人。 戊戌政變本質是不可能成功的，這一點那邊西太后知道、榮祿知道、袁世凱知道，這邊譚嗣同知道、王五知道，但只有光緒和你不知道。所以理論上，除非奇蹟，政變一定失敗，政變失敗，你一定死，最後光緒知道了，逼你出京，你本人九死一生，在你本人生死上出了奇蹟，你沒死，但並非說明你不該死，所以你的生命，早已在六君子濺血時候一起結束。你命中註定要在接力跑中跑的是那一段、那第一段，而不是以後的第二段、第三段、第四段。所以，事實上你沒死，但在感覺上和理論上，你早已是古人。人們看到你，是看到歷史，你並不比戲台上的你更真，報上說南邊演戊戌政變的戲，你也去看了，看到台上的自己，你康先生淚灑戲院。其實，戲台上的你，才是真的你；而真的你，卻已經變成了活古董。康先生啊，我是你的小兄弟，我們古剎結緣，近四十年後又再續前緣於古剎，今天以後，可能勞燕分飛，此生相會，恐已無多，我一定要講出我心裏的真話，來給你康先生做歷史定位。佛門裏說：有情來下種，因地果還生，無情亦無種，無性亦無生。如今四十年前的因與地，生下今天我們重逢的果，讓我們最後以無情道別，也算是一種古今罕見的因緣。也許多年以後，康先生和我都歸骨於法源之寺，那時候，我們再來相會，也應了譚嗣同直到化泥方是聚的指點，康先生說是嗎？ 康有為面容悲戚，無奈地點了點頭。他走出法源寺的時候，譚嗣同的舊句，一直在他嘴邊： 柳花夙有何冤業， 萍末相遭乃爾奇。 Until the mud is gathered, It's only a matter of falling into the water now. 在人世的滄桑中，他與大半的同志墮水成離了，近四十年後，還在今天補上當年的小普淨！普淨今天的一席話，使他突然頓悟到：他的一生，總是與時代相錯，不是早於時代，就是遲於時代。在三十年前，人們說他是洪水猛獸；在三十年後，人們說他是今之古人。其實，在他內心深處，他不同意他已遲於時代。他深信他的救國方法，我們試驗失敗了，流的只是我們自己的血。人民是草木不驚的。但是，他們呢？他們要千萬人頭落地，落地以後，還不知要多少年的全國陸沉魚爛之慘，才能有個眉目。當然，他是看不到了，看不到，倒也是幸運。中國三十年前在舊一代的禍國者手裏，三十年後在新一代的禍國者手裏，現在又有新一代的革命者出來救國，救國者要打倒禍國者，像普淨這種人，他們的真誠、他們的熱情、他們的努力、他們的勇於犧牲，都是令人敬佩的、都是沒問題的。問題是誰能把握住未來的發展，會如其所願？設計未來是容易的，從設計角度看，他不相信時代跑得比他快。他現在還是先知，他寫的《大同書》，二十萬字之多，是對世界未來最詳盡的設計。他十九世紀在中國搞變法，卻在二十一世紀為世界畫藍圖，這才是先知。先知的眼光就是要遠，在人們只關心朝廷的時候，他關心到中國；在人們只關心中國的時候，他又關心到世界。他總是朝前去了，可是人們還回首朝背後指點他，他覺得好孤立。現在的人們只知道欣賞過去的他；只有未來的人們，才能追懷現在的他。那時候，他早已不在人世了。這就是先知的下場，他只有未來，卻只能活在現在。在這次來菜市口、莽蒼蒼齋、法源寺以前，他先到廣東義園，憑弔了袁崇煥的墓，憑弔有明袁大將軍，表達他對當年到北京救國而犧牲的廣東前輩的敬意。他登上廣渠門，面朝北，左右望著。廣渠門左邊是袁崇煥的墓地，廣渠門右邊就是袁崇煥為保護北京皇帝、人民而血戰的舊沙場。誰能想到，當年拼命在沙場上保護皇帝、人民的人，卻在八個月後，被皇帝下令千刀萬剮而死。而在執行千刀萬剮之時，人民誤以為他是賣國賊，爭著跑上前去咬他的肉，甚至出錢買他的肉來咬！只不過一牆之隔，卻隔掉了多少人間的情義與是非！記得佘法師說過：袁督師的不幸是，他生前死後正好碰上明清兩個朝代，明朝說他是清朝的，清朝說他是明朝的。個人在群體鬥爭的夾縫中，為群體犧牲了還不說，竟還犧牲得不明不白。如今，輪到他康有為自己了，他也正好碰上清朝，清朝說他太前進，民國又說他太落伍，在夾縫中，他也為群體犧牲得不明不白。清朝時候說他太前進，他承認；可是民國到來說他太落伍，他卻不服氣。原因只是他過去做先知帶路，帶得與人們距離近，大家跟得上；可是，現在他做先知帶路，卻帶得與人們距離遠了，大家跟不上了，跟不上卻還誤以為他落伍，這不是他的悲哀，這是追隨者的悲哀。自戊戌以來，他亡命十六年、歷經三十一國、行路六十萬里，全中國讀萬卷書又行萬里路的，他是唯一的一個。他深信他的見解是深思熟慮的、是無人可及的。可是，他見解日新、人卻日老，沒人再聽他的了，普淨是他最後一個聽眾，也是最好的，但普淨不是追隨者。最後，康有為走在落日前面，連追隨他的自己身影，也不在自己背後了。 ☆☆☆☆☆☆ 普淨送他到了門口，站在法源寺門前，他轉過身，面朝著寂靜的古剎，朱紅的大門半開著，正襯出人的莊嚴和廟的莊嚴。再見了，普淨；再見了，法源寺。他有一點哽咽，但還是說完了內心的自語：你們曾看到我青年的夢幻、中年的夢碎，卻未必看到我老年的夢境，我老了、我走了、我不會再來了。 轉過身來，他沒有回頭，但卻揮手告別。普淨眼眶濕了，靜靜地看著他遠去的背影。康先生老了，他走得那麼慢。普淨突然若有所悟，可是，在最後這段路裏，他還是走在我前面。