Chapter 56 5. Writing autobiography and presenting treasures

I think writing an autobiography is a prelude to a trial.Since there is going to be a trial, it means that life and death are not yet a foregone conclusion, and I will strive for a way to survive on this. I have already made plans to deal with the trial.On the day we first arrived in Harbin, we got out of the car and hadn’t entered the cell when my nephew, Xiao Gu, approached me and whispered in my ear: Asking questions, it’s still the same way in the Soviet Union!I nodded slightly. The so-called set of sayings in the Soviet Union is to conceal my defection to the enemy and describe myself as a completely kind and innocent person who loves the country and the people.I understand that the current situation is different from that in the Soviet Union. I must fabricate it more closely, and there must be no loopholes.

What Xiao Gu said that day was on behalf of his nephews and his attendant Da Li who lived with him.Those few words showed that they were already prepared, and at the same time they also showed that their loyalty to me was the same as before.But if there are no loopholes, loyalty alone is not enough, I think it is necessary to ask again.In particular, I want to ask Da Li, because he is the actual witness of how I got from Tianjin to Northeast China in the most critical part of my autobiography.Before I slipped away from Jingyuan, he prepared the luggage and clothes for me in advance, and after I got into the trunk of the car, he covered the trunk for me.Once these things are leaked out, no one will believe the story of Doihara's powerful kidnapping.

This matter can only be done during the break time, using the legal opportunity for me and my family to meet.At this time, the situation was somewhat different from before. Some younger prisoners began to do odd jobs, such as fetching water, delivering meals, and helping in the kitchen.Except for Rong Yuan who died at this time and Dr. Huang who often rested due to rheumatoid arthritis, the rest of my family participated in this kind of service labor.During my rest time, it is not easy to see them all, either one is helping the kitchen, or the other is delivering boiled water.However, there is also an advantage, which is that they move more freely and can send messages to find someone for me.I took advantage of this convenience to let Xiao Rui find Da Li for me quietly.

Da Li came and approached me obediently, as if he was waiting for orders.I lowered my voice and asked him: Do you remember moving from Tianjin? Are you talking about outside the customs?It's something I packed, right? If the solicitor asks me how I got from Tianjin, you just say you don’t know anything.You pack your things after I leave, you know? After leaving? That's right, after you left, you followed Hu Siyuan's order and drove my clothes to Lushun. Da Li nodded, expressing his understanding, and left quietly. The next day, Xiaorui told me in the yard that Dali asked him to report that last night he had a chat with the staff member Jia Ke, who told him that when I was in Northeast China, I was very kind to my subordinates and never beat or cursed anyone. .He also said that when I was in Lushun, the door was locked all day long, and no Japanese were seen.After hearing this, I felt that Da Li had gone too far, why did he mention Lushun?I asked Xiaorui to tell him: Don't talk too much, if you ask about Lushun's situation, you don't know anything.

I'm very satisfied with Dae Lee's loyalty.I have grasped the important issues, and I have given separate instructions to my nephews, and then I started to write my autobiography.In this autobiography, I wrote about my family background, how the Empress Dowager made me emperor, how I spent my childhood in the Forbidden City, how I had to hide in the Japanese legation at all, how I lived in Tianjin Lived a life indifferent to the world, and then followed the kidnapping and unfortunate Changchun years written according to outside legends.Remember I ended up like this at the end: I saw the people suffering like this, and I couldn't do anything about it, so I felt very sad and angry.I hope

The Chinese army can fight over, and I also hope that the international community will change so that the Northeast can be rescued.this hope, It was finally realized in 1945. After repeated scrutiny and revisions, this autobiography was finally written in Gong Kai and sent up.From this text, I believe anyone can see that I am a very repentant person. After sending out my autobiography, I thought, just this text is not enough, I must find a way to convince the government of my honesty and progress.How to do it?Rely on Da Li and they brag for me?This is obviously not enough, the most important thing is that I must have actual results.

When I think of my grades, I can't help feeling a little discouraged.Since returning to China, even if the section on the train does not count, the section in Fushun does not count, but since I arrived in Harbin and participated in the duty in the cell, even I am not satisfied with the results, let alone All right. It turned out that since the prisoners listened to the speeches of the head and director of the public security organ, each of them was trying to prove that he had awakened, and they all regarded the so-called enlightenment as a means of survival.Looking back now, I find it ridiculous that people thought things were so simple at the time: it seemed that as long as the fraud was done well, the government could be fooled.When I have such delusions, what makes me most sad is that I am inferior to others in every way.

At that time, everyone tried their best to express themselves from the three aspects of study, duty and life, trying to win the trust of the party.In our group, the one with the best academic performance is our group leader Lao Wang.He was originally a major general in the military law of the Puppet Manchukuo. He had studied law and politics in Beiping for several years. He had a relatively high level of education and understood new theoretical terms relatively quickly.The other three generals were like me at first, they couldn't even tell what was subjective and objective, but they made progress faster than me.During the discussion, they can all say the same thing.The most terrible thing is that after learning the topic of what is feudal society, each person has to write a learning experience (or learning summary), expressing his understanding and feelings on this issue in his own words.During the discussion, I can also talk briefly, as much as I know, but it is not so easy to write my experience.To be honest, at this time I didn’t feel any need for study. For me, study did not solve any cognitive problems, but instead made me afraid of the explanation of feudal society in the book.For example, the feudal emperor is the head of the landlord and the biggest landlord. These words seem to be a judgment on me.If I were the biggest landlord, then not only should I be punished from the perspective of treason and defection to the enemy, but also from the perspective of land reform, wouldn’t I have no way out?I was in such a state of anxiety that I could barely write a single word.After I reluctantly settled down and copied this experience, I read what others wrote and felt that my academic performance would never satisfy the faculty.

After arriving in Harbin, I automatically joined the duty, which is the only place where I can prove my progress.Here, no one announced that I was sick, and I also found that there are flush toilets in the corners of every room here, and there is no such problem as toilets.The day job is just to pick up and deliver the three meals, boiled water and mopping the floor from outside. I no longer feel afraid, and when it is my turn, I start to do it.For the first time in my life, I was serving someone, and something went wrong. When serving the food, I almost spilled a bowl of vegetable soup on the person's head.Therefore, whenever it is my turn in the future, someone will always help me automatically.Half of them had good intentions, and half of them were unwilling to take the risk of being overwhelmed with vegetable soup.

The situation in life cannot be compared with others.My clothes are still untidy, and my clothes are still washed and sewn by Xiaorui.Ever since the superintendent pointed out my sloppiness in public, I have always felt mixed feelings of shame and resentment.I have tried to practice taking care of myself and doing my own laundry, but when I got covered in water and still couldn't subdue the soap and washboard, my heart was full of resentment; and when I stood in the yard waiting for Xiaorui, others I felt ashamed again when my eyes turned to the laundry and socks in my hands. Shortly after handing in my autobiography, I suddenly made up my mind to try again.I feel that no matter how difficult this matter is, I have to do it. Otherwise, the party will see me as worthless, so how can they trust me?At the cost of sweating profusely, I washed a white shirt.After drying, the white shirt turned into a floral shirt, like the ink painting of Bada Shanren.I stared blankly at it for a while, Xiaorui came over, pulled the ink painting off the clothesline, put it in his arms and said quietly: This is not something the superiors do, let Rui do it.

His words were very pleasant to my ears, and I thought to myself as I walked, yes, I didn't do this, and I couldn't do it well.However, if I don't do this, what can I do to express myself to the institute?I had to find something I could do, and do it well. I was thinking hard, and suddenly the comments of a few people next to me caught my attention. These are the ones in the house of my fifth brother-in-law, Lao Wanna.They were talking about people from all walks of life donating airplanes and cannons to support the volunteers.According to regulations at that time, people in different cells were not allowed to talk to each other, but listening to other people's conversations was not prohibited.Among those people was a former puppet Minister of Manchukuo named Zhang, who lived with me in Fushun. He had a son who refused to live with him in Puppet Manchuria since he was a child. He opposed his traitor father and didn’t even want his money. .He now estimates that this son must have participated in the War to Resist US Aggression and Aid Korea.Whenever he mentions his son, he always expresses uneasiness, and it is the same now. If the government has not confiscated my property, I will donate all of it to the War to Resist US Aggression and Aid Korea.Since my son doesn't want it, I have no choice but to do so. Someone laughed and said: Isn't this a joke!Our property should have been confiscated. then what should we do?Lao Zhang said with a sad face, maybe my child is working hard in North Korea! You are thinking too much and without reason.Another said, do you think the sons and daughters of traitors can join the army? This sentence was obviously not to the taste of others, so they stopped talking for a while, but Lao Zhang still thought of his idea: The property we carry with us is not confiscated by the government, it is kept on behalf of us.I'll donate it, okay? How much is that?Someone laughed at him again, except for the emperor and the prime minister, no one's things are worth much! This sentence reminded me.Yes, I still have a lot of jewelry, which no one can compete with me.Not to mention the ones hidden at the bottom of the box, but the one exposed outside is also very valuable.Among them, the set of treasures used by Emperor Qianlong when he was the Supreme Emperor is a priceless treasure.These are three seals carved with Tianhuang stone, connected by three Tianhuang stone chains, and the carving is extremely exquisite.I didn't want to use the treasure hidden at the bottom of the box, so I decided to take out these three seals to prove my awareness. Make a decision and do it quickly.I remember once, when the personnel of the prison announced the news that the Volunteers had won the fifth battle on the post, I don’t know which prisoner immediately asked the cadres to go to North Korea to participate in the war after hearing the news. Someone immediately took a notebook and wrote an application.Of course, the Solicitor did not accept it.Later, I couldn't help thinking with a little jealousy: These people have shown their awareness, but they can't actually take any risks. They really have a lot of minds.I remembered that incident and decided not to lag behind others this time, not to let them do it first, it would appear that I followed suit.It just so happened that the person in charge of the government came to make an inspection that day, and I saw through the railing that the person was the one who told me not to be nervous in Shenyang.According to the situation accompanied by the director, I concluded that he must be the director's superior, although he did not wear a military uniform.I think it would be more effective to offer my tribute to such a person.When he visited our cell, I bowed deeply to him and said: Please Mr. Chief, I have something that I want to dedicate to the People's Government I took out Qianlong's Tianhuang stone seal and gave it to him, but he didn't take it, just nodded: Are you Puyi?Okay, you can talk to the office about this matter. He asked a few more words and walked away.I thought he would be less indifferent if he had seen what was mine and known its value.I had no choice but to find the office to do this.I wrote a letter, together with the set of lithographs, and handed it to the watchman and asked him to forward it to the director. After this set of Tianhuang Stone Seal was sent out, it was like a stone sinking into the sea, and there was no news for many days.I couldn't help but wonder, did the guards hide secretly? I have made an old habit of believing what I doubt.That night, other people played chess and poker, but I was alone thinking about Tian Huang Shiyin's whereabouts. I was absolutely sure that he had been embezzled.I considered whether to ask the director directly.At this time, the short and sturdy Watchman Liu passed by outside and stopped. Why don't you play?he asks. I won't.I answer.This is the truth. You learn it, and you will learn it in 100 percent. I can't learn it.This is also true. Where are the words!I don't believe there are people who can't learn to play poker.Wait a minute, he said enthusiastically, I have turned over the class to teach you. After a while, he really came with a deck of cards.He sat down outside the railing, shuffling the cards with great interest.My set of Tianhuang stone seals was given to him.I lost all the good impression I had of him.My mood at that time is still uncomfortable when I think about it now, but it was full of disgust. I don't believe that I can't learn this, Warden Liu dealt the cards and said, besides, what can I do if I don't know how to play?In the future, you will be a new person and live a new life. If you don’t know how to play, how will you live! I thought to myself: You really know how to say, you really look like it! Pu Yi is not stupid, the tall Lao Wang also came over, with a small cigarette pouch in his mouth, and said with a smile.This is the watchman who retrieved Shenyang cigarettes for Rongyuan in Fushun. He is very addicted to cigarettes and never leaves his cigarette pouch, which is only one shovel long.He went to the spittoon and knocked out the ashes, and started filling a new bag, saying: Puyi is not stupid, as long as he learns, he can learn everything. He lit a cigarette.Someone next door said to him: Mr. Wang, your cigarettes are very fragrant! Why, maybe your cigarettes are gone again?He took a step to look at the next door.I don't know who smiled and said: I smoke too unplanned.Watchman Wang smiled, took off the small cigarette purse, and threw it over: "Okay, take a paper roll to enjoy yourself." Whenever a prisoner smoked all the prescribed cigarettes, guard Wang would always untie his cigarette pouch to make people enjoy rolling cigarettes.This kind of behavior made me very puzzled, but now I have an explanation: you are all liars!I don't believe what you say! In fact, it is not others but myself who wants to deceive others, and it is myself who makes others unbelievable.Not long after, the director said to me in the yard: I have seen all your letter and Tian Huangshi's seal.The things you sent out in the Soviet Union are now here with us.However, for the people, what is more valuable is the human being, the reformed human being.