Chapter 35 Chapter Thirty-Four

After the Collinses had gone, Elizabeth read all the letters she had received from Jane since her arrival in Kent, and read them carefully, one by one, as if deliberately trying to make enemies with Darcy to the end.There was no real complaint in the letter, neither the past nor the present.She is quiet by nature and kind-hearted, so her writing style never has some dark colors, and her joyful mood is always vivid on the paper, but now, I have read all her letters, and even read the lines in every letter of hers. , I can't find such a happy tone.Elizabeth only felt that every sentence in the letter revealed uneasiness, because she read it carefully this time, but last time she read it sloppily, so she didn't notice this kind of place.Mr. Darcy's shameless boast that inflicting suffering was one of his trades made her feel her sister's suffering all the more acutely.She could take some consolation at last in the thought that Darcy was leaving Rosings the day after tomorrow, and still more in the fact that, in less than a fortnight, she would be with Jane again, and could use all the power of her affections to help her. Get back on your feet.

The thought of Darcy's departure from Kent could not help remembering that his cousin was going with him; but Fitzwilliam had made it clear that he had no intentions of his own, and so, though he was quite likable, she did not. As for not being happy for him.She was thinking of this when she heard the doorbell ring, and she thought it was Fitzwilliam, and her heart skipped a beat, for he had been late one night, and this time he might have come to greet her on purpose.But she knew at once that she had guessed wrong, and Mr. Darcy entered the room unexpectedly, and she felt another emotion.Immediately he hurriedly asked her if she was well, and said that he had come specially to hear the good news of her recovery.She brushed him off politely.He sat for a few minutes, then got up and paced up and down the room.Elizabeth was very surprised, but said nothing.After a few minutes' silence, he approached her with an air of excitement and said:

I really can't survive.How can this work.My emotions couldn't be suppressed either.Allow me to tell you how much I admire and love you. Elizabeth was indescribably amazed.She stared, blushed, suspicious, and kept silent.Looking at the situation, he thought she was urging him to continue talking, so he immediately confessed all the good feelings he had for her now and in the past.He spoke very eloquently, besides pouring out his love, he also spoke out all kinds of other feelings.On the one hand, he expressed his deep affection with thousands of words, but on the other hand, he said a lot of arrogant and rude words.He felt that she came from a humble background, and felt that he was accommodating her, and all kinds of obstacles in the family often made his opinions and wishes incompatible. Although he confided so passionately, although it seemed that he acted cautiously this time, it might not be possible. make his marriage proposal popular.

In spite of her deep-rooted dislike of him, she could not remain indifferent to the kindness of such a man; and though her will was not wavered for a moment, she at first felt that he would suffer, and so She was quite disturbed, but his later words aroused her resentment, and her pity turned into anger completely.However, she tried to calm herself down so that she could give him an answer patiently when he had finished speaking.Finally, he told her that his love for her was so strong that, despite his efforts, he could not overcome it, and he expressed his hope to her that she would accept his proposal of marriage.She saw at once that when he said these words, he obviously thought that she would give him a satisfactory answer without question.Although he said in his mouth that he was afraid and anxious, but on his expression he looked safe.This only irritated her still more; and when he had finished speaking, she blushed and said:

When encountering such things, the usual way is this: People have shown you kindness and kindness, and even if you cannot repay them in return, you have to express your gratitude, and I have to express my gratitude to you now.Unfortunately I don't feel that way.I never cared about your flattery, not to mention that you flattered me very reluctantly.I never wanted to cause anyone pain, and if I did, it was by no means, and I hope that will be over soon.You told me that in the past you were concerned about various aspects, so you were not able to show me your affection for me. Now, after my explanation, you must be able to restrain this affection easily.

Mr. Darcy, who was reclining on the mantelpiece, fixed his eyes on her, seemed mixed with anger and surprise at what she said.His face was livid with anger, and the troubles in his heart could be seen from every part of his facial features.He tried to look calm, and waited until he thought he had, before speaking.This moment of silence pained Elizabeth very much.At last Darcy managed to hold his breath and said: I am honored to have such an answer from you!Maybe I can ask you why I should be so rudely rejected?But that doesn't matter either. I can also ask, she replied, why do you clearly mean to offend me and insult me, but you want to say something just to like me, against your own will, against your own reason, and even Against your own character?If I am really rude, is that not enough of a reason for my lack of manners?But I have other worries.You also know that I have, even if I have no dislike for you, even if I have no grudge against you, even if I have a good impression of you, then please think about it, one ruins the happiness of my dearest sister, even forever How could the man who ruined her happiness move my heart to love him?

Mr. Darcy's countenance changed greatly at these words; but the excitement of emotion was but a moment gone, and he listened to her go on, without wanting to interrupt. I have every reason to feel bad for you.Your treatment of that matter was utterly ruthless and inexcusable, whatever your motives.Speaking of the separation between the two of them, even if it was not caused by you alone, it was also caused by you. You dare not deny this, and you cannot deny it.You have caused the man to be accused by everyone of being chaotic, and the woman to be ridiculed as extravagant and dreamy, and you have caused them both to suffer a lot.

When she said this, she saw that he had no sign of remorse at all, which really made her very angry.He even smiled with feigned disbelief. Can you deny that you have done this?she asked again. He pretended to be calm and replied: I don't want to deny it.I did try my best to break up the relationship between my friend and your sister; I don't deny that I was very proud of my achievement that time.I did more for him than I did for myself. Elizabeth listened to his elegant adjustment words, and on the surface she was unwilling to show that she was paying attention.Of course she understood the intention of these words, but they could no longer appease her anger.

However, I hate you more than this one thing, she continued, I hated you very early and had a prejudice against you.I understood your character when I heard what Mr. Wickham said some months ago.What else can you say about this?Let's see how you defend yourself, and say that this matter is also whimsical to protect your friends?How will you turn right and wrong and deceive the world? When Mr. Darcy heard this, his face became more severe, and his voice was not as calm as before. He said: "You really care about that gentleman's affairs very much." Anyone who knows his misfortune, who can not care about him?

His misadventures!Darcy repeated it contemptuously.Yes, he is indeed very unfortunate. It's all your fault, cried Elizabeth.It is not too poor that you have made him so poor.You know all the benefits that are designated for him, but you refuse to give them to him.He is young and strong and should be independent, but you have deprived him of this right.You did all these things, but when people mention his misfortune, you still despise and laugh at him. This is what you think of me!Darcy, shouting loudly, walked across the room.That's what you thought of me!Thank you for explaining so well.In this way, I am really guilty!However, he stopped, turned around and said to her: I just blamed me for honestly telling the reasons for my repeated mistakes and hesitation before, so I hurt your self-esteem, otherwise you might not be accountable. Compared with these places where I offended you.If I play tricks, hide my inner conflicts, flatter you, and convince you that I have unconditional and pure love for you, intellectually, intellectually, and in every way, then, You might not have these harsh scoldings.Unfortunately, no matter what kind of pretense, I hate it.I am not ashamed of the concerns I just mentioned.These concerns are natural and valid.Do you expect me to rejoice over your humble relatives?Don't you think that if I climbed up to these relatives whose social status is far inferior to mine, I would congratulate myself instead?

Elizabeth grew more and more angry, but she managed to say the following words as calmly as possible: Besides, if you had been more polite, Mr. Darcy, I might feel sorry for my refusal, and you are mistaken if you think that this confession to me will do anything else to me. He was startled at this, but said nothing, and she went on: You tried everything, but you could not move my heart to accept your proposal. He looked surprised again, and he looked at her with pain and wonder.She went on: From the first time I met you, almost from the moment I met you, your behavior made me feel that you are arrogant, selfish, and look down on others. The reason why I am dissatisfied with you is that Here, there have been many things in the future that made me hate you; I haven't known you for a month, and I feel that a person like you, even if all the men in the world are dead, I would not marry you. You have said enough, madam, I fully understand your feelings, and now I can only be ashamed of my own scruples.Forgive me for taking you so long, and allow me to wish you health and happiness with the utmost sincerity. After saying these few words, he hurried out of the room.After a while, Elizabeth heard him open the door and go away.She was very confused.She didn't know how to support herself, and she was so weak that she sat there crying for half an hour.She recalled the scene just now, and the more she thought about it, the more strange she felt.Mr. Darcy should propose to her, he should have been in love with her for months!to love her so much as to marry her, however many faults she had, and it was by these faults that her own sister was prevented from marrying his friend, which affected him at least as much. It's an incredible thing!It is enough masturbation that a person can win such passionate admiration from others without knowing it.But his arrogance, his abominable arrogance, his shameless confession of how he had ruined Jane's good, and though he could not justify it when he confessed, it was his self-righteousness which was inexcusable, With the indifference with which he referred to Mr. Wickham, he had no intention of denying the cruelty which had been done to Wickham. The thought of these things, even if for a moment she had been touched by pity for his love. Heart, at this time even the slightest pity is completely offset. In this way she thought and thought, and it was not until she heard Lady Catelyn's carriage that she realized that she could not see Charlotte in such a state, and hurried back to her room.