Chapter 6 5

Slowly take a step forward with your right foot. I tried my best to stabilize my body, and finally I didn't fall. Then try to maintain your balance and move your left foot.In order to stabilize the center of gravity, I carefully slid my left foot, and after shaking a few times, I finally moved my left foot next to my right foot. Move your right foot forward again.If you succeed, you will break the record and walk ten steps by yourself without supporting the wall.I can walk. Slowly, slowly let the right foot slide out. Suddenly, the toes were hooked by the wool of the carpet, and the center of gravity was a little unstable, and the ankle turned slightly, which finally caused the whole body to lose balance, and the head shook sharply from side to side.I quickly reached out to hold the wall, but it was too late.My body collapsed onto the table next to me.As soon as he came back to his senses, he fell to the floor together with the building blocks on the table.

After all, the record could not be refreshed.I was about to get up again, but I heard the teacher's footsteps. Run, what were you doing just now? The teacher opened the door without knocking, as she always did.The teacher saw me fall on the floor and rushed over. Did you fall off your chair? No, I'm just practicing walking.Sorry to bother you. Practice walking?The teacher helped me up, and at the same time asked me suspiciously.Why practice walking? I didn't mean anything else, I just thought that if I could walk, I wouldn't have to trouble the teacher and Mr. Xiaoliang.

I replied that way, but I regretted it in my heart.Maybe I'm lying to the teacher. You don't have to think so much.The teacher picked up the building blocks scattered on the floor and said to me.I really hate to say it but your body can't walk at all.Just being able to stand up and move his hands is already a miracle. But I obviously walked ten steps just now, and I didn't hold on to the wall. Run is very serious.But I'm afraid it will add too much burden to the body, which is not good. I feel a little sad.I worked so hard, but the teacher said it was impossible, which is really sad.

You be honest, why do you suddenly want to start practicing walking?The teacher repeated the question he had just asked me. Because I don't want to cause trouble for the teacher and Mr. Xiaoliang Then please stop practicing immediately.The teacher interrupted me forcefully.I'd be even more sorry if it hurt your body.Carrying you downstairs and helping you push the wheelchair is not a trouble at all, but I like it.So I hope you don't practice walking anymore. knew. That's all I can answer.Never say anything against the teacher. Time to sleep.What music do you want to play?

I wanted to be quiet, but because I was scolded by the teacher just now, I felt a little embarrassed, so I asked the teacher to help me slow down the piano music. After the teacher turned off the lights and walked out of the room, I couldn't help feeling sad in the dark. The teacher was not happy. It must be because practicing walking will greatly reduce my physical ability, so he said those harsh words to me.In that case, what am I?Am I living just to be a ghost? I suddenly remembered your smile. Then I remembered the happy time we had spent together in the white room. So I got up quietly, and started to practice walking while leaning on the wall again.I feel that if you don't practice quickly, you will gradually move away from me.

For the first time I had that many words in a white room. The souls that entered that room were almost all paranoid souls.Either weeping or rage, or total madness. I stared at those souls, but I deliberately held my breath, trying not to get involved with them, so I almost never talked to the souls that entered the room.Because I don't want to talk to them. But you are different. Do you know what state you were in?I asked you so that day. You narrowed your cat-like slender eyes, smiled and said: Of course I know.Taped to the wall of the building, looking down at the street below. You must be very lonely, right?

Well, although I want to go home, I don't feel lonely. When I heard your answer, I thought I had heard it wrong at first. There must be no joy in watching people pass by in a dirty alley, right? From above, you can clearly see all kinds of things happening below.Some people love each other, some people hate each other, some cheat, some are gentle, some are cunning, some cry bitterly, some are angry in a strange way, and it's not boring to watch.You said that with a dreamy look on your face, and it sounded like you wanted to go back to the wall of the building.Not only that street, but the same situation must be everywhere in the world.When I think about it this way, I feel that this world is also quite interesting.

As you spoke, Yigulu lay down on the floor. I must have been puzzled then.Because you suddenly turned to me and added, speaking to a child: Xiaorun, you probably don't quite understand it yet, do you? I feel embarrassed because I seem to be completely seen through by you when I first met you. Thinking this way, I also find it inconceivable that I must have been enlightened at that time. then refers to When I was killed.Ow, it hurts!I really thought I was going to die. You laughed out loud as you spoke, as if you thought your words were funny. On the way to the scene of the incident, I heard Mr. Xiaoliang describe how you were killed, so when you brought up this topic, a scene that I had never seen before unexpectedly appeared in my mind.

You go to work without telling your parents, it is a job to drink with men to make money.I heard that the one who stabbed you was one of the many guests, right?The customer met you in the store and wanted to further monopolize you, but you didn't want to, so he was dizzy (this is what Mr. Xiaoliang said), and when you walked out of the store after work, he suddenly attacked. It is said that he used a knife You were stabbed eight times in the chest and abdomen. I didn't know how many times I was stabbed, I found that I was detached from my body and there was a thread connecting my head, as if being pulled.You got up and sat on your knees, carefully holding down the hem of the dress.That action is so cute.I really thought I was going to die like this.Stop joking, why kill me!I really thought so at the time.

Did you like the person who hurt you? not at all!At first I thought he was nice, but since he was entangled so desperately, I didn't even want to see him, I just hoped that he would stay away from me.But for that person to become like this, I'm somewhat responsible. You looked at your toes, and your expression suddenly became serious. I understand that things between men and women are very troublesome if they are constantly being cut and straightened out. I directly apply what the teacher said last time.You stare at me with wide eyes. Xiaorun will also teach others.A bit arrogant!

sorry.I quickly bowed my head and apologized. You smiled heartily and patted my arm at the same time.I feel the place warming slightly. However, it is really unbelievable that when I left my body, I could watch myself being killed from a height.The man straddled me and kept stabbing me with a knife.His expression seemed to be crying.Looking at it, looking at it, I feel that he is very pitiful. I don't know why? Do you think it would have been better for him if he had known earlier? That's not it, that's not the case.How should I put it? In my eyes, the person controlled by his own mind is like a naive child.I can't tell, but I feel like a mother looking at a silly child. I can't understand your words at all.How can we have mercy on those who hurt us?I really can't understand this feeling.Maybe it's because I'm not mature enough. After having this feeling, I feel that I seem to have a very thorough understanding of the things in the world.There are no happy people in this world.Everyone is fooled by their own ideas.Obviously, I hope to become happier in my heart, but I choose a lifestyle that is farther and farther away from true happiness.Of course I do too. true happiness? That's right, true happiness. At this moment, the teacher's voice sounded from above. Run, you're home.Please do as usual. You stare at the silvery ceiling in surprise. Who was that voice just now? is my teacher.It appears that it is time for you to return to your own body. To be honest, I still want to hear more from you. You must know what true happiness is, right?I wish you could tell me. But suddenly the huge pincers came in through the ceiling.You scream when you see it. The pincers circled the room like a hungry animal trying to find food.For some reason, when I saw you looking at it with timid eyes, I felt an inexplicable pain in my heart. Your beautiful head is about to be gripped by those giant pincers and forcefully pulled out of the room.If possible, I really don't want to see this scene. But I can't give up my job.So I'm going to push your body from behind as usual. Don't worry at all, just be patient.I can only comfort you like this. but you You seemed to understand the whole situation in just a few seconds, and you clapped your hands and grinned at me: I see.I'm going to be clipped back into my body by that scissors thing, right? As soon as you have finished speaking, you rush yourself to the pincers, with a graceful and light movement. It's comfortable here, and I'd love to stay a little longer, but I also have my own place to be, right?Xiaorun, we will meet again. You grab the pliers with one hand, hang below, and wave goodbye to me with the other. The pincers rise silently, and your figure disappears from the ceiling after a while. You are truly one of a kind.He was so cheerful in the white room, and then disappeared without a care. This is unprecedented. And since your soul disappeared, I feel so lonely in this room. When the piano CD was about to finish, the teacher walked to my room again.After I found out, I hurried back to bed and pretended to be asleep. The teacher didn't talk to me, but took off his clothes silently, and combined with me lightly. There is one thing that the teacher must never know. For some reason, this is the first time I hate this behavior so much.I feel very miserable, and even have the urge to cry. When bonding with the teacher, I always think of your words. What exactly is true happiness? Will that befall me too? I wish I could hear it from you.I still look forward to it until now.