Chapter 59 4. Colleagues are dying

Jiu Mu didn't tell Rinko about his wife's signing of the divorce certificate, but the feeling of procrastinating for a day is very similar to the feeling that a criminal who is about to be executed is waiting to be executed at any time.However, in this state, I feel restless and my work will be affected. Sometimes I really want to just sign and make a deal. It's not good for a big man to be forced to divorce, but he is always so attached and has an ambiguous attitude.He said this to himself, but when he took out the divorce certificate, he felt that it would be okay to delay it for another day.

Contrary to this mood swing, real life has actually changed somewhat.The two had a tryst in Shibuya's room and spent the night. Before, they had to think about the reason for sleeping out. They always felt that they were doing something sinful, but now they have become indifferent, and even have the feeling of risking everything. Anyway, what are you afraid of if you are going to get a divorce! Of course, with the increase in the number of nights out, Hisaki's underwear, socks, shirts, ties and other intimate clothing have gradually moved from home to Shibuya. The same is true for Rinko. The number of changes of clothes gradually increased, and they needed a place to store them, so they bought a new wardrobe, and even added home appliances such as washing machines, microwave ovens, and ovens.

When he got off work, Hisaki's feet involuntarily walked towards Shibuya, and found that he was already in the room belonging to the two of them. Rinko hadn't come yet, sitting alone in the room where the furniture was increasing day by day, feeling a certain sense of comfort, but also a certain sadness that couldn't be dispelled, he muttered unconsciously: what will happen next He felt a little dazed and uneasy about the unforeseeable future, and passed some days in this mood of self-defeating and resignation. After mid-March, Jiu Mu's state of anxiety remained unchanged.

Although this has something to do with his ambiguous attitude of not being able to decide on a divorce, but at the same time, it is also influenced by the unique melancholy sky scenery in spring, and it may also be stimulated by visiting Mizuguchi. Jiu Mu went to see Mizuguchi in mid-March, and the calendar records the day when Momo started to smile.It was the day when the peach blossoms began to laugh and dance in the spring breeze, but red and white plums were still blooming at the gate of the hospital where Shuikou lived. Hisaki arrived at the hospital at three o'clock in the afternoon according to the time appointed by Mrs. Mizuguchi. She was already waiting in the corridor and immediately led him to the next reception room for a conversation.

Jiu Mu had already said that she would visit Mizuguchi, but she kept saying that she hoped to wait a while, so she waited until today. The operation is finally over, and people feel refreshed. Mrs. Mizuguchi explained the reasons for declining his visit, but her expression was gloomy. Jiu Mu had an ominous premonition, and asked about the symptoms carefully. He heard that he had undergone lung cancer resection, but the lesion had already metastasized, and the doctor said that there was only half a year left at most. Does he know it himself? I didn't tell him, I just said that the bad part had been cut off and it was fine.

Mrs. Mizuguchi brought Hisaki to the reception room first, just to spread a word before he met Mizuguchi. please. Hisaki nodded and walked into the ward, Mizuguchi's spirit seemed to be better than he imagined. Long time no see, welcome! Shuikou's smiling face is almost the same as before except for a pale and yellow complexion. I wanted to come earlier, but I heard that you were going to have an operation, so I came now. well!This is really miserable, but it's all right, don't worry! Mizuguchi asked Hisaki to sit closer. Looks very energetic! The surgery alone was fine, but the anticancer drugs made me lose my appetite at all.But I'll be out of the hospital next month or so.

Jiu Mu remembered what Mrs. Mizuguchi said that the disease had been transferred and Mizuguchi only had half a year to live, but he immediately pretended to be okay and said: Come back soon!If you're not here, Malone's company is in trouble too! This is nothing, the company will not be unable to continue because of the absence of one or two people.Mizuguchi was unexpectedly sober when speaking, but then changed the subject: disease is really an incredible thing, and it always appears when people are depressed. Is it the end of last year? I also talked to you at that time. To be honest, I was really discouraged at that time. I felt that everything about myself was denied. Even when I was depressed, my body also felt that something was wrong. When I went to the hospital, it was cancer.

It happened suddenly when Mizuguchi transferred from the position of director of the head office to the subsidiary company, and was officially promoted to the president of the subsidiary company after the New Year. I think I got this disease because I was released outside. How can it be?There will be no such thing! But there was nothing unusual before that. If so, is the enthusiasm and tension for work inhibiting the spread of cancer cells? Like how nice you are, looking in good spirits.Mizuguchi looked up at Hisaki meaningfully: I really should play my life like you, just live willfully and recklessly.

In time, no problem. I'm afraid it won't work if it becomes like this!People will always die of old age, and they must do what they want to do when they can. Taking a closer look, Shuikou's slightly wrinkled eyes were slightly seeping with tears. After the 30-minute visit was over, Jiu Mu walked out of the ward, feeling as if he was being urged by something, his thoughts were chaotic and agitated. I feel urged by something, because I have witnessed the fact that someone my age has cancer and death is approaching.Of course, it's not like he hasn't encountered someone younger than himself dying in the past, but Mizuguchi has known him for a long time and is a good friend who has been talking with him since joining the company, so the impact is particularly great.

When he thought again that he had reached this age and was no longer young, he felt driven by indescribable things.Also, what made him feel inexplicably excited was that he realized what Mizuguchi said that people must do what they want to do when they can do it. After Mizuguchi died, he really regretted his previous way of life. In the eyes of others, it was an indomitable and fulfilling life, but he himself still had helpless emotions swirling in his heart.Regardless of whether it is about work or love with women, it is regrettable. Even if a person's life looks turbulent, looking back at the past at the end, it may be unexpectedly mediocre.In this sense, it seems that there will be regrets no matter how you live, but you still don’t want to feel the regret of failure or what you really did when you die.

Hisaki once again recalled the tears in Mizuguchi's eyes when he said he regretted it. I don't want to end my life with regret like he did.The moment Hisaki thought this, Rinko's face appeared in his mind. At this moment, the love affair with Rinko is Hisaki's greatest and only survival value.Some people may say what it is like to be so passionate about a woman, but work and love are both important things worth dedicating to a human being.And now, I am also devoting all my energy to live in the great cause of monopolizing and loving a woman.Thinking of it this way, thoughts naturally surged in his body, and his heart had already rushed to the room where Rinko was waiting for him.