Chapter 62 7. Instantaneism

To be honest, Jiu Mu himself has experienced this experience several times, and he is no longer surprised by it. It can be said that he still has the courage to challenge knowing the final result.But this time it was the same again, following the rhythm of the subject and following the trend, but still feeling a little afraid of himself who was caught in it.If this situation continues, one day, with the woman's will, she will wander in the happy world, and finally be brought into the abyss of death. Rinko, who was fully satisfied at this moment, whispered to Hisaki who had changed from bravery to calmness, and was immediately shrouded in new anxiety:

feel good!I really want to die like this Only mature women have the privilege of dreaming of dying at the pinnacle of pleasure, and it is almost impossible for men to taste that pleasure.Even if there is occasionally, it is limited to when some kind of perverted pleasure has been tried. Normal men can hardly get so deeply involved in sex. Jiu Mu has always thought so, and it is the same at this moment, but sometimes he suddenly feels that sex and death are so close, and sometimes they are almost linked together. For example, after combining with a woman to get instant orgasmic pleasure, or even if there is no such condition, after masturbation or ejaculation, it is always accompanied by indescribable burnout, as if the soul has been sucked out.

In the past, it was simply concluded that it was the climax, but maybe that was the first act leading to death. When I was young, I vaguely thought about why such a brave thing would be discouraged, shrink and turn into silence when it climaxed?Sometimes he will be anxious about this and constantly motivate himself, but the sense of physical atrophy and spiritual decline is indeed very close to the concept of spiritual death. Perhaps, the sense of exhaustion that comes after the climax is a natural order of implying that love connects to death.Recognizing this and looking at the natural world, we will find that almost all males die at the same time as the orgasm, or die soon after wandering in the state of life and death.Although the time from climax to death varies with different creatures, the shadow of death can not get rid of it.Compared with women dreaming of death in dizziness and joy, men are shrouded in the shadow of death in depression and exhaustion. There is such a big difference between the two!

Is this the difference between infinite and finite sex, or is it the difference between a woman who bears the burden of giving birth to a new life, and a man who completes the task of sowing seeds through mating? Jiu Mu was deep in thought and remained silent, Rinko's slightly hot body approached him again and whispered: I feel so terrible! You've said it before too. Rinko nodded affirmatively: But, it’s different this time, I really feel like I’m going to die just like that naturally? Yes, that feeling is that nothing matters, it would be best if he just died like this.I'm not afraid of death at all, I just think it's scary to be like that

Rinko contradicts herself a little bit, but it is certain that she was tempted to death at the climax. I'm in trouble now that you're dead! But I think it's enough, it's enough for now.After Rinko finished speaking, she said in a singing voice: Don't you think so?I am the happiest right now, the best moment of my life right now. Hisaki couldn't understand for a while, Rinko continued: right!I love you so much, I feel you from the depths of my body, and knowing this, it doesn't matter if I die. But you are only thirty-eight years old! So the current age is just right, and it is enough to live here.

Rinko used to be very concerned about age, saying that thirty-eight is already old, and it doesn't matter if she dies. From the perspective of Jiu Mu, who is over fifty years old, she is still very young, and her life should have just begun.Perhaps the person involved had other emotions, Jiu Mu thought so, so he said that being old also has its advantages, Rinko shook his head resolutely: Someone said so, but my limit is here, and no matter how much I live, it will only go downhill. But it's not just about looks. Having said that, a woman will still feel sad when she gets old, and no matter how hard she tries, she will gradually be unable to hide it.But I can barely hide it now, and I am already approaching the limit of age.

It's not that serious! Of course I don’t want to think that way, but I have to look in the mirror every day. Every time I look in the mirror, I will find another wrinkle around my eyes, sagging skin, and it’s not easy to put on makeup. Especially I don't want to tell the people I like. Didn't you say that? I hate to say it, but I want you to know that this is the best time for me. Hisaki looked back at her, Rinko still slightly bared her chest and said: It seems strange to say this kind of thing by myself, but I really feel the most beautiful now, thanks to you, my hair and skin are shiny, and my breasts are still firm

Indeed, Rinko's skin has become whiter, smoother and softer, and she is as coquettish as a woman in her twenties. It all changed when I was with you. Hisaki couldn't help but put his hands on her plump breasts, and Rinko whispered as if waiting for him to do so: So, I don't want you to forget! Rinko seems to have hit the nail on the head, but feels a bit contradictory. She said that she is the most beautiful now and the best time in her life, so it doesn't matter if she dies.He also said that the wrinkles increased every day and the skin began to sag, so I hope to let him see her at her most beautiful appearance at the moment, don't forget.

Say that now is the best, and then immediately deny it. If you think that now is the best and most beautiful, shouldn't you think about how to keep it? Why are you so attached to the present?Kuki asked. Linzi's tone was so lazy: I don't have any special thoughts, it's just a momentary feeling! The three words Setsuna emerged in Jiuki's mind. I think so too For me, the present is very important. If the present moment is not good, it will be useless to be good in the future. Isn’t life like this? maybe!I didn't expect you to care so much about the feeling of the moment.

That is also because of you. Yeah? Really, after I met you, my body also changed to what it is now. Really as long as it's good now? yes!Like making love is about burning out all your energy for just one moment, so only the now matters, only the now is everything. Is Rinko's instantism the result of deepening love pleasure?Hisaki was thinking about it, and Rinko whispered again: Abandoning the present and talking about what will happen tomorrow or next year, maybe nothing can be done, and I don't want to regret that kind of thing. Hearing Rinko's words, Hisaki remembered Mizuguchi's words again.

If you analyze it according to Rinko's momentary doctrine that only matters now, what is Mizuguchi's way of life dedicated to work? After Hisaki briefly explained Mizuguchi's condition, I went to see him, and he said he regretted not playing more. I know that feeling very well.Rinko gently pressed her face against Jiumu's chest, what about you?Do you regret it? Is not likely to Great, Rinko rubbed his forehead lightly on his chest, we don't regret it. certainly. Just say it!Most important now. Hisaki nodded, thinking of his age.