Chapter 87 6. Longing for freedom

Dinner was a la carte, Rinko ordered salad and consommé as starter, and French fried red trout as main course.Hisaki ordered tuna, soup and lamb chops grilled with herbs. They drank another glass of champagne and switched to red wine, Rinko's cheeks flushed slightly. Would have liked to ask them to prepare a birthday cake but don't think you would enjoy eating at this place! Jiu Mu couldn't bear this kind of limelight in public. At this age, it is tiring to blow out fifty-five candles in one go! But you are young, not old at all. Do you mean that? Jiu Mu lowered his voice, and Rinko shrank his neck in disgust, of course, but your mind is much more flexible than those of Ojisan.

Thanks to you. You were like this when I first met you, much younger than Mr. Uigawa, and fun Rinko was indeed praising him, but she couldn't be happy when she was said to be young. I interviewed an eighty-eight-year-old industrialist before. At that time, he lamented that he was getting older, and only his heart was still young. I feel troubled. Now I seem to understand his feelings at that time. Is it bad to stay young forever? It’s not that it’s impossible, but it’s the pain of being young in mood but aging in body. In comparison, it may be easier to feel more relaxed as you age.

Then it becomes a person with nothing to do. In fact, I am doing nothing in the company right now.Kuki said with a little shame. That's their nonsense, not your problem, and it doesn't matter if you have a status in the company or not. Although Rinko encouraged him, the shadow of unsatisfactory work still cast on Jiumu.Of course, Jiu Mu didn't want to worry about it, but the slowly emerging feeling of desperation may not disappear soon. The melancholy of the instant visit was also forgotten while drinking red wine, and the two regained their appetite. Jiu Mu felt that the red trout ordered by Linzi was delicious, so he shared some to taste, and put some of his own lamb chops on Linzi's plate.It's great for two people to eat a lot.

However, it's not good to be with just one person. Of course, it only feels good to be with you. Men and women sharing food is evidence of a physical relationship.In this restaurant, some people might see them like this, but Jiu Mu made no secret of it at the moment. After getting to know Rinko, even taking the train to Kamakura, she would be concerned about the sight of her surroundings, but now she no longer has this concern, and has a feeling of indifference to being seen as soon as she is seen. Having been friends with Linzi for more than a year, his courage has also grown, but more importantly, after the two rented a house, Jiumu's heart has changed significantly.

Now it's useless to care about other people's eyes. It's better to use the rest of your life to do what you want to do. If it doesn't work, it doesn't matter if you die. This kind of strong will, which is more determined than open-minded, germinated in his heart. As long as people change their values, they can survive no matter what.As long as we slightly change the angle of looking at the problem, the things that were considered important in the past will no longer be so precious, and the boring things will appear to be important instead. I'm thinking about whether it's time to quit my job.

Thinking about it, I can't help but blurt out what I usually think in my mind.Looking at Rinko's inexplicable expression, Hisaki explained: After resigning, I am completely free, and maybe my mind will change. how to change? I always feel that as long as I am in the company, I will not get real freedom. It's hard for Rinko to understand Jiu Mu's feelings of wanting to resign. Of course, it's hard for people who haven't experienced the life of an office worker to imagine. In fact, Jiu Mu himself just said that he wanted to resign, but there was no clear reason.If I can barely say it, I feel a certain indifferent fatigue.

Anyone who has been an office worker for thirty years will have a corresponding sense of exhaustion, especially his recent alienation from his colleagues has added to that feeling. If you want to resign, you can resign.Although Rinko didn't understand, she still expressed her understanding: It's just that I hope you don't get old for no reason, and that you will always be so energetic. I know. You should have confidence!I can survive alone I'm not confident, I just feel that I should do something for myself In the past, editorial work was always done behind the scenes, and I just sorted out other people's writing reports behind the scenes, and I never went to the front of the scene.

I know that feeling. Rinko did live in the shadow of her husband in the past. Maybe a little arrogant, but I don't like to go on like this. It's not arrogant! It may be that the color of the red wine in the transparent glass is similar to the color of blood. Looking at it, courage naturally emerges in the body. Let's do something big together! vigorous yes!Something that surprises everyone and impresses us all. He noticed that Rinko was also looking at the red wine in the glass, her eyes sparkling. Both of them were full of courage, and it was a little past nine o'clock when they finished drinking the red wine.

After eating dessert, I left the table. When I walked out of the service counter, the light rain had stopped. Let's walk together! It was about twenty minutes away from the hotel to the villa, Jiu Mu nodded and walked side by side with Rinko holding an umbrella. The night air after the rain brushed over Rinzi's cheeks that were hot after drinking, and she felt very comfortable. The asphalt road under the street lamp was dark and wet, and there was still a thick layer of clouds in the night sky, and the stars and the moon could not be seen. Crossing the square in front of the hotel, walking on the road lined with larch trees, Rinko quietly took his arm.

It was ten o'clock at night, and it was not yet midsummer, so the surroundings were quiet, and there were dim lights in the dense bushes. Some people like the tranquility before the summer vacation and come to the villa early, right? Hisaki looked at the lights everywhere, and hugged Rinko even tighter. He won't meet anyone again at this time, even if he does, he doesn't care. The crisp footsteps of the two walking on the asphalt road after the rain were completely absorbed by the night sky.Soon, I saw a break in the larch along the road, and a small path extended to the left. There should be a villa in front of it, but I only saw a street lamp in the distance.