Chapter 97 Chapter Twelve

1. The way of death Autumn comes to the streets one step earlier than the season. On Ginza Street, where Jiumu is at the moment, there are more wine-red and brown-colored clothing in autumn in the windows of women's clothing stores, and more pedestrians on the road are wearing clothing in colors that match the autumn scenery. The season has indeed shifted to autumn. Although the sun is bright, it is not strong. Now after five o'clock in the afternoon, with the breeze blowing, the western sky has already seen twilight. One dusk in this autumn, Jiu Mu walked into the coffee shop and asked for a cup of hot coffee.

The cafe is located on the second floor, overlooking the street view of Ginza through the glass windows.It's off-duty time, and among the conservative suit group of office workers who have finished their day's work, the young pink-collar workers are dotted with colorful colors. While gazing at the Ginza streetscape at dusk, the waitress suddenly came out from behind, and Hisaki turned his head hastily. Keeping you waiting. The waitress in white and pink uniform kowtowed gently and served the coffee. For some reason, Jiu Mu lowered his eyes as if he had done something bad, and after she walked away, he let out a sigh of relief.

Hisaki sat on a double seat by the window, and there were two tables of guests in a group of four and a group of two, and the cafe was very empty.It was just after five o'clock, and there were still few guests who made an appointment to meet here.The reason why Jiu Mu cared about the waitress and the guests next to him was because he had important things hidden in his pocket. He got it from a research institute in Iidabashi this afternoon. Jiu Mu thought that he would go there because he made an appointment with Rinko to die together. How can the two of them embrace each other and die?

For the past half month, Hisaki and Rinko have been thinking about this question. After reading the results of various mystery novels and medical books, I found that this is the only way for two people to die together. They didn't come to that conclusion until two days ago. Deciding to go on a death journey with Rinko, Hisaki felt as if he had crossed another wall. Although death is terrible, it may be the starting point of a new journey. If all creatures in this world must embark on this journey one day, he hopes to start in the most beautiful form with the person he loves the most.

Rinko said that it is not terrible for the two to die in a tight embrace, and it is at the moment of sexual climax and ecstasy.Although neither of them had the experience of death, it might not be so scary to die when the whole body is comfortable and the skin of each other is tightly bonded. After making a death covenant with Rinko, the fear of death in Jiu Mu's heart quickly disappeared, replaced by a gradually eager desire for death. To die contented in the splendor and intensity is a blessed act only allowed between two people who love each other to death. There are not many people in this world who can satisfy this desire for happiness. They should be the love elites specially selected among the couples who are so rare that only one pair appears in one hundred thousand or even millions of people.

When it comes to martyrdom in the past, the general impression is that because of the woman you love, you get caught with other people's money, or you are distressed that your love has disappeared, etc., and you are forced to the end of the road. But it is no longer the feudal Edo period in which Chimatsu and Saihe lived.Gone are the days when the disparity between the rich and the poor was so great that weeping for poverty and debts, being bound by status, righteousness, reason and affection, and having no choice but to die. At this moment, Hisaki seemed to understand Abe's mood when he was arrested by the police with the penis of his beloved man and was still smiling. It should be the same as the mood when Akiko, who decided to die with Takero Arishima, went to work as usual the day before her death and left everyone. the same.

People only see the traces of death, and think that the deceased is crazy and miserable, but that is only the appearance, in fact, the person concerned is in a far-off blissful state. No matter what the living people say, the person involved finally converted to the religion of love, and set off for the resting world of death when he was extremely happy. Constantly thinking and admonishing myself in this way, the fear of death gradually faded away, and instead I wanted to die with all my heart.Once the decision to die was made, however, several difficult issues remained to be resolved. At the very least, it is not easy for two physically healthy people to voluntarily give up their innate will to survive and cut off their lives. Although it is not so contrary to common sense ethics, it is a perverse behavior that violates life ethics.

Especially what Rinko and Jiumu are asking for now is a rather selfish and extravagant death. If it's just two people who died together, there are still a few examples in the past.For example, hang yourself together like Takero Arishima and Akiko, or jump off a cliff together, or sleep in a room full of gas. As far as the meaning of dying together is concerned, it is not difficult to do it, but what Rinko wants is a way for the two to hug each other tightly and never separate. Of course, men and women who want to die for love hope that they will not be separated after death, but when the bodies are found, almost all of them have been scattered.Even if you jumped off the cliff with a rope tied around your waist and holding hands, the rope would be broken and the body would be torn apart when found.Even if you sleep in a room full of gas, you will end up separating from your body, which may cause a fire, trouble your neighbors, and burn you to a blackened mass.

It is too much and a luxury for living people to hope that the way they die and even the shape after death are as they wish. However, the death Rinko wanted now was even more extravagant and capricious than that. She wanted to die in a state of tightly embracing and intercourse. Is it possible to die in this state? If it is possible, Jiu Mu also hopes so. He wants to fulfill Rinko's wish, but is there such a way in reality? He considered it again and again, and decided to go to his old friend today. Even so, there is nothing weirder and weirder than thinking about how to die. In the past, Jiumu had corresponding thoughts and plans about life, which were nothing more than positive thoughts on how to live.

Now he has made a 180-degree turn. Instead, he is thinking about how to die, and it is not to deal with the ensuing death countermeasures, but to personally sever life. There are countless books on the meaning of life and how to live, but almost none on the meaning and methods of suicide. In this state, daring to achieve death requires several times the energy and concentration of actively seeking to survive. Jiu Mu once again felt the difficulty of dying, and began to understand the helplessness of the suicide who chose to hang himself into the sea and jump into the river, etc., which is not a beautiful form of death in the eyes of others.

Perhaps the person who chooses to die does not know exactly what to do until the last moment, and can only prioritize practical and painless ways of dying. Maybe they have never thought deeply about the way of death in the past, and when they want to put it into practice, all they think about is jumping off a cliff or building. In comparison, hanging is a very delicate method of death, and the will to die calmly is indispensable.Gas suicide also requires a lot of work, and poison is not easy to get, and the effect is not clear. Jiu Mu has no objection to dying with Rinko, but he still can't determine the way of death.