Chapter 5 Chapter 5 The Face of the Night

When the phone rang in the afternoon in the office, Kaname Kanai had just finished processing a batch of cumbersome documents. What should I do next? Kanei stretched his waist, and then extended his sight through the window to the distance.The sun is shining outside, and the wind is beginning to carry the breath of spring.After finishing this series of relaxation movements, Jin Jing will habitually reach out and pick up the telephone receiver on the table. Hello!Hello! Hello!Is this Mr. Kanai?A slightly hoarse female voice. Well, I'm Kanai. It's me, have you forgotten?I am Zhengzi.

Hearing someone say this suddenly, Jin Jing couldn't think of who the other party was for a while.Masako on the other end of the phone seemed to be smiling. Excuse me, who is your son?Jinjing faltered. If it was a computer, it would definitely be able to immediately search for the information about the other party in the memory. Kanai could think of computers in his mind, because the document he was dealing with just now was a report on computers. No, neither does the computer. If you search for a positon in the computer, the computer will immediately list all the positons in memory one by one, so that it is still impossible to judge which positon the other party is.

This slightly hoarse-voiced Zhengzi was neither a child nor an old man.She just said: Have you forgotten?It seems that it is not someone I see often, but a woman I knew before, a woman I don't see often.Sneaking on the other end of the phone, well, it seems that it has something to do with adjectives like charming.The above analysis and selection can only be done by the human brain. You can't remember, I'm confinement.The woman gave another commonly used alias. Ah, this reminds me of it. Yuezi's real name is Zhengzi. If you told me that you are a confinement child from the beginning, I would be able to react right away.

Sorry to call you at your busiest time. It's okay, I'm not busy. I suddenly remembered you, so I looked in the phone book and found your company's phone number. Jin Jing looked around the situation, and then asked in a low voice: How are you doing recently?Are you married and have kids? Yes. how many kids? two. Is it a daughter? A daughter, a son. Very nice, how old are you? My daughter is in fourth grade and my son is in second grade. The last time Jinjing saw Yuezi was in a shopping mall in Shinjuku. At that time, Yuezi was carrying a shopping bag, her body was a little fat, and she said that she was going to give birth to her second child.That was seven or eight years ago.

What about your children?Yuezi asked on the phone. There is only one child in my family, who just entered kindergarten last year. daughter? Um. Very cute. Hehe, I don't like children very much. But it's different for your own children. That's not necessarily the case. While chatting aimlessly, Kanai thought: What can she do with me? Women rarely make useless calls to men, at least Kanai thinks so. It’s not about selling insurance, talking about marriage, or borrowing money. Even if there is no specific matter but just to kill time, when a woman calls a man, it is at least to express some feelings in her heart. For no reason, a woman calls a man The telephone is a reflection of this psychology.

Some time ago, my sister passed away. Yeah?How old are you? Forty-seven years old. Oh, not too old. My sister was buried in Pingchuan Cemetery. ah, is it? As the conversation deepened, memories and a strange feeling were gradually awakened in Jin Jing's heart. As soon as I entered the gate of the cemetery, I suddenly thought: When did I come here before. It was a long time ago. Jinjing once invited Yuezi to go to the Hirakawa Cemetery to visit the grave, where Jinjing's parents were buried.It is not an honorable thing to take the women in the wine field to sweep the grave, nor is it that Jinjing has this hobby.The underground parents may think that what their son brings is the future daughter-in-law, and at that time Jin Jing himself may have such an idea to some extent.

The cemetery of your father's hall is near the entrance of the cemetery, and my sister's is at the innermost, which is a long way to go. The Pingchuan Cemetery seems to get wider and wider as you go inside. However, I miss that time very much, so I found your phone number. Where do you live now? I live in Sangenjaya. Very nice real estate. Not my house, it's a run-down apartment. Do you come to the city center often? From this month, I entrusted my child to the care of my neighbor's aunt, and went to the teahouse classroom in Kanda in the urban area to attend classes twice a week.

Hey, do you want to open a teahouse? I won't do it right away, I think it would be boring if I don't find something to do, and my husband's income is not high, so I have to work hard to make money to lighten his burden. If you need help at that time, please let me know, and I will treat you to lunch when I have time. Is this convenient? No problem, just call me in the morning and nine times out of ten I'll be free. Okay, then I'll contact you later, I'm sorry to disturb you when you're so busy. With a bang, the phone was hung up. Hanging up the phone suddenly during the conversation without saying goodbye is a habit of confinement, not because she is angry.

How old is she this year? Putting down the receiver of the phone, Kanai thought. Subtract four years from Jinjing's own age to get Yuezi's age, which should be over thirty-five years old. A thin face, a small and delicate nose, and fair skin are the characteristics of Yuezi.This feature should still be preserved now.The expression of her eyes is very charming, perhaps because of a slight short-sightedness. However, is Yuezi still as beautiful as before? If she is a real beauty, she will still maintain a beautiful demeanor at the age of thirty-five.If you are an educated woman, you will be more charming at this age.

Yuezi's beauty depends on her youth to a greater extent. She has given birth to two children and may have changed a lot now. It is unrealistic to expect her to be as beautiful as before. She said her sister died. Jinjing also met her older sister once, and Yuezi said that she only had such an older sister. The current confinement should be about the same age as her sister at that time. The age gap between the two sisters is so large, there must be something inside. There are still too many things Jin Jing doesn't understand about confinement.Kanai couldn't react immediately when Masako's real name was mentioned

Kanai, it's meeting time. A man passed by Kanei's desk, waving a black folder in his hand to remind him of a meeting. By the way, there is a meeting at four o'clock. Um, ok, coming right up.Is it meeting room B? right. Kanei got up from the desk with the required documents. It was a boring meeting, and there was no topic for Jinjing to speak. After the necessary echo, Jinjing decided to think about confinement. Human memory is really interesting. In Jinjing's mind, the memory of confinement is organized into a report, which records various information about confinement: physical characteristics, education, likes and dislikes, clothes often worn, nail color, smiling face, Like to eat barbecue, do not like to eat ramen All kinds of information were recorded in categories, and then some comments were written shallowly in the comprehensive evaluation column.The reason why it is written shallowly is because there is still the possibility of revision in the future.Yuezi's mind is above average in the crowd, he is not very well-educated, he is a good person with a good personality, and he has the spirit of hard work when he grows up in a poor environment.I'm a little restless in terms of relationships, because I'm a good person, and I don't like to refuse a man's invitation.However, she is absolutely dedicated to her husband.Although she is a good woman and a good wife, Kanai thinks that she is not suitable for him. First of all, the way of thinking is quite different, and the environment in which they grew up is also different. If they live together, there must be places where they cannot communicate.Out of physiological needs, it is good to be the object of extramarital affairs. There is another item, the profit and loss calculation sheet, and the deficit means debt. In Jinjing's mind, the deficit is shallowly filled in Yuezi's profit and loss calculation sheet.Although Jinjing also spent money for confinement back then, it was all justified, and in good conscience, he only spent a small amount of money.In fact, half of their former relationship was considered friendship. However, whenever he thinks of confinement, Kanai always thinks: I still owe people. Thinking this way is a matter of people's hearts and sincerity as a person, although Yuezi didn't feel it. Still, there's no need to worry too much. Between a man and a woman, there are somewhat ambiguous and deceptive elements.Especially when people are young, desires, ambitions, those unexplained things occupy people's hearts.People always grow up in the process of continuous trial, continuous making mistakes and continuous correction of mistakes. Yuezi also made good use of me. Maybe Kanai isn't the only one who feels indebted. The economy has been in a recession recently. Under such an economic situation, I think Plan B is more effective and feasible. The section chief was talking endlessly, but the time passed faster if he was distracted. Memories can hardly reflect the passage of time. It's hard to explain this feeling to others.Although there are all kinds of memories of confinement in my mind, they are all contents that are browsed from the whole and briefly summarized. In other words, the conclusive things are more eye-catching.When people recall, it should be said that they have an overall grasp of what happened in the past. For example, if a boy has a very pure love for a girl, he will wait for the girl to appear on the way from school, even if the girl only talks to her, he will be very satisfied.If he learns that a girl already has a boyfriend, he will immediately feel hatred for the girl: what? !She turned out to be such a person!This is mostly due to immaturity and jealousy.Suppose the girl changes her mind later and gets back with this boy. After a year or two of this kind of love relationship, maybe they will find that there is something inappropriate in each other's personality, and they will break up with each other without any regrets. Because memory tends to succinctly record the conclusion of the entire past event, the impression of the girlfriend at the time of the breakup will be particularly prominent in the memory.In the memory report, it is generally recorded in thick pen: that woman is very annoying, you can't marry such a woman.The heartbeat and excitement when I saw that girl, the scene of waiting anxiously for my sweetheart on the way home from school, and even the desire to spend my whole life with this girl are not false, but these are covered by the conclusion in my memory. From the conclusion, Those are false feelings. When I was dating Yuezi, it was the period when I was unlucky. At that time, my life was in the process of groping for nothing. It's only been three or four years since I dated Yuezi, but Jinjing's feelings for Yuezi have changed during this period. Sometimes Jinjing thinks: She is the waitress in the bar, why don't I further deepen the relationship and fall in love with her?After falling in love with Yuezi with such thoughts, sometimes I would think: She is a waitress who graduated from a rural middle school, so she is suitable to be teased. When I feel inferior, I think again: I am nothing special.It's just that I have studied in a prestigious university, and I'm just a beggar who came out of that university.There is nothing wrong with this woman with a good personality, beautiful looks, and a sexy body.Living an ordinary life with this woman may not necessarily be a fulfilling life. For a few years after graduating from college, Kanai was indeed abandoned by Lady Luck.Due to the early death of his parents and no one to help him, his employment was very difficult and he has been working as a temporary worker.The work is either hard or boring, and the pay is low.At that time, Jinjing became more and more inferior, and also experienced the most painful loss of love. He even began to be discouraged. Is my life like this? At that time, every time I saw the confinement child, my mood would be much calmer. Am I going to live with this woman? To be honest, Kanai really had such an idea at the time. If you live with Yuezi, you will definitely use the word affirmation is appropriate, and you will definitely betray Yuezi.Soon, the woman who left Jinjing came back, and she was Jinjing's current wife. The reason why Jinjing felt that he was short of confinement was because of this series of psychological activities. Well then, here we go. Suddenly, the voice of the section chief announcing the end of the meeting was heard.Kanai heard almost nothing for the second half of the meeting. Jin Jing returned to his desk and found a note on the desk: Your wife called you.Jin Jing called home, but no one answered. My wife said that I went back to Dasen's natal family today, and she must have told me when she called: I won't be coming back today, so you can go out for dinner. Jin Jing's mind switched from the memory of confinement to the memory of his wife. Kanai's wife, Mihoko, is a woman with many accessories. There were some conflicts before getting married, but now, it should be said that I am a good partner. People's desires are unlimited and we should be content.For Kanai, it was an incredible experience for him to give up on Mihoko and then become his wife.They have been married for six years, and although the relationship between husband and wife is not as close as that of a newlywed, Mihoko's character and appearance are exactly the kind that suits Kanai. In addition, Mihoko cooks well, is in good health, and still has some work on her pen. Mihoko handles the New Year's cards during the Chinese New Year and the thank-you letters when receiving gifts all by herself.These advantages were not discovered by Kanai before marriage, and it is precisely because of these that she is said to be a woman with many accessories.Other women cannot do this. Generally, after marriage, the wife's good impression on her husband can only decrease rather than increase. After working overtime for an hour, Kanai left the company. How about walking around Shinjuku before heading home? Although the wife is not annoying, there is a sense of liberation when the wife is not at home at night. For some reason, the tram is extremely crowded today. During the time on the tram, Kanai usually spends his time reading, but he rarely reads novels. He mostly reads practical books on economics and popular books on natural science. The pamphlet in his pocket today is a book introducing the life and habits of a dragonfly, and he will finish reading with only two or three pages left. Although it is a popular science book, the content is very interesting.Before this dragonfly mates, the male must give the female a gift of food.The female decides whether to mate with the male based on the gift.The larger the gift from the male, the longer the mating time for the female, and vice versa.The female copulates with the male while eating food. If the copulation is over and there is food left, the male will snatch the food back.Then take the leftovers that have been bitten in a mess and go to find other females. It seems that there are female dragonflies who are willing to eat leftovers and mate with males. The change of mentality before and after mating does not only exist in dragonflies. After reading the book, Kanai read the various advertisements on the tram again, and then developed various associations.Fantasy can lead people into an illusory world, so that they forget the pain of being crowded in the carriage, which is also one of the life wisdoms of office workers. Some men say: After making love, if a woman falls asleep quietly beside you and shows a cute look, it means her love is sincere. The reason Jin Jing always remembers this sentence is because he agrees with it very much. For confinement, Jinjing always has a faint regret. How do I feel about Mihoko? Regarding my wife's memory, I haven't formed a complete report in my mind. Although I have recorded various information, I am still in the process of entering it.It's too early to calculate the balance of payments. When was the first time you slept with confinement? Suddenly a sudden brake, the tram stopped and arrived at Ochanomizu Station, but the car had to go back a few meters after driving a little.It seems that the skills of today's drivers are not very good. It's really dangerous during this rush hour. More than ten years ago, Jinjing was not doing well in that year, and his small income was only enough to rent a room the size of four and a half mats and cover daily expenses.And he couldn't see hope, Jinjing felt that the sky above his head was always cloudy, and he didn't know how long the cloudy sky would last.For Kanai at the time, the so-called happy things were that he could find an empty pinball table with no one in the pinball room he frequented; the increase in overtime pay; the fit of the suit purchased by monthly payment; the addition of a star to his favorite professional baseball team Thinking about it now, none of this was a big deal, but at the time it made Kanai very satisfied.No matter how you think about it, these should not be things that a man should stick to. There was always a gray air floating around, but the thing that made Kanai most disheartened was probably the breakdown of his relationship with Mihoko.Love is like sailing against the current, if you don't advance, you will retreat. Unknowingly, Mihoko made the decision to break up. At the end of that year, Jin Jing sat alone in the room and hugged his knees. At that time, he really wanted to shout: I am very lonely! The sky was exceptionally clear on the 30th day of the twelfth lunar month, and the company did not have to go to work, but Jinjing's mood did not improve a little because of this. Why don't you visit your parents' graves, anyway, I haven't been there once this year. There is a woman in Jinjing's heart that he cares about. She is a hostess in a hotel in Shinjuku, and she has a charming appearance.One day two months ago, Jin Jing passed by the door of that hotel, and happened to see the waitress coming up from the underground steps. The waitress was on her first day of work, and Jin Jing became the first guest to ask her to accompany her for a drink. It's an honor to meet a nice guy like you on my first day at work. I'm glad too. After a short period of contact, the relationship between the two has developed very well.After Yuezi got off work, Jin Jing invited her to have supper several times.I know that she likes to eat meat and doesn't like to eat ramen.Also sent her home and got her phone number.After attending the company's year-end party, Jinjing came to the hotel where Yuezi worked again. I can't go home for the New Year this year, and it seems that I will spend a lonely first month.Yuezi said, what does she mean? Well, then I'll invite her to try it. So Jinjing called Yuezi's home and invited her to visit the grave together. Well, I happen to have nothing to do.Yuezi readily agreed. Is it necessary to visit the grave at the end of the year? No, it's just that I haven't scanned it once this year. If I don't go again, I won't have a chance this year. Are both parents dead? Well, my father died two years ago and my mother seven years ago. Then your wife will be happy. Are these questions all women have on their minds? It was sunny and sunny that afternoon, not like winter.Pingchuan Mausoleum is located in the suburbs, and the environment is very good like a park.At the end of the year, there were very few grave-sweepers, and the wide lawn in the cemetery seemed to be specially prepared for the two of them.The wind gently blew Yuezi's skirt, and she ran around holding Jinjing's wrist like a child.Tired, the two of them lay down on the lawn to rest for a while, and the winter sun poured down on their bodies, making them very warm and comfortable. The sun is SUN, the moon is MOON Kanai said a verse that children recite when they learn English, but it seems that Yuezi doesn't understand English. There are so many tombstones here. Well, this is the tomb of Yuriko Miyamoto. who? An ancient celebrity. The two of them played in the cemetery until the sun went down, and then they walked out. Jinjing felt much better. How about coming over to our house for a sit down? I can't do it today, I have an appointment to meet my sister What about tomorrow? convenient?Tomorrow is New Year's Eve. I'm alone anyway. ok, i'll go. Kanai bought a map and told Yuezi the location of her home and the bus route. It seems things are getting interesting. What should I do if my relationship with Mihoko turns around?It's better to be cautious about confinement. In the early morning of the next day, Jin Jing went out to make purchases in time for the store to open for business. It was a treat for a man, so he had to be well-prepared. Well, ready to go. At three o'clock in the afternoon, he went to the bathhouse to take a bath. Jin Jing didn't lock the door when he went out, but it was locked when he came back.When she knocked on the door, it was Yuezi who came out to open the door. I'm going to take a shower too. The bathhouse is very close, right there. Dinner was only bacon, salted duck eggs, and canned food, but Yuezi was extremely excited, and the intoxication of beer narrowed the distance between the two of them. After the red and white song meeting, the two warmed their feet by the kang stove while watching TV. I really didn't expect to be able to celebrate the New Year like this. Really, like a dream. The woman brought her shoulders closer, and her lips were not far away. How about developing it further? Although there were still concerns, they had already given up, and couldn't care less. The two hugged each other tightly, their lips touched their lips, and then lay down. In the room where the lights were turned off, only the gas stove was still burning red, and the light from the stove dyed his fair skin orange. Yuezi is slender and slender, but has a pair of plump and straight breasts. The firm buttocks feel very good to the touch. The curve of the thigh is just right to stimulate the man's sight. The moist and warm private parts can melt everything. The silent body exploded with intense joy at a certain moment, and beads of sweat ooze from the orange-red skin. Sweet intoxication flows in the body and consciousness. Can we really go further? Anxiety crept into Jin Jing's heart again. Jin Jing didn't take into account the anxiety in his heart, and then kept the relationship with Yuezi.He doesn't know what Yuezi is looking forward to, and visiting the hotel where Yuezi lives once a week has become a compulsory course for Jinjing, which is the best Jinjing can do with a low salary. Occasionally, Yuezi would suddenly visit Jinjing's house. what do you think of me Haven't decided yet, but it's fine as it is. Up to now, Jinjing still can't guess Yuezi's psychology at that time. In short, she seems to be just playing casually, and only regards herself as a casual boyfriend.Still, somewhere in Kanai's mind was expecting her to say: Let's live together.However, while looking forward to this, he is also full of anxiety about the future, and Kanai has been deceiving his own heart.He hasn't given up on the other woman. Although he is full of disappointment with Mihoko, Kanai still has fantasies about her in his heart. When holding confinement, Jin Jing would think: This woman is nice. However, after being separated from Yuezi, when he was alone, he would change his mind again: Marriage is a major event in life, it is better to find a woman who is easier to communicate and compromise. If Mihoko gave Kanai a smile, he would throw himself into Mihoko's arms without hesitation.And choosing confinement can only be regarded as a compromise, and this compromise will bring misfortune to both parties. Is that true? Kanai is often confused by this question.In fact, the answer is not so sure. There are many people in this world who make such compromises and live happily.Besides, no matter how good Mihoko is, if she doesn't like herself, it doesn't help. Maybe confinement is more suitable for me. Jinjing's thoughts are inclined to confinement again. On a warm evening in early spring, Kanai was waiting for confinement to leave work at a cafe in Shinjuku, where they agreed to meet. I want to invite Yuezi to my house tonight.After the passion, I will confess to her in an unaffected tone: let's live together. At this moment, the door of the cafe opened, Yuezi walked in, and she brought another woman. My sister came too. The woman Tsukiko called her older sister nodded and saluted Kanai. Ah, hello! Yuezi's older sister was older than Kanai imagined, and obviously older than her actual age. Ugly wrinkles had appeared on her cheeks and around the corners of her eyes.The elder sister stared at Jin Jing with a probing eye, only a satisfied smile appeared on the corner of her mouth.Her teeth are very black, and her nose is small, smaller than that of a confinement child, like the nasal bones on a skeleton. Then I'll go first. My sister quickly bid farewell and left, as if the matter had been dealt with. Let's go for a barbecue. Jinjing couldn't remember what restaurant the two of them went to, the only thing he remembered was that Yuezi went to Jinjing's house that night, and they had sex again, and that was the last time they had sex. Not long after that, Kanai moved to the jewelry manufacturing company where he is currently working. Starting with this, good luck gradually came to Kanai.It seems that for a man, what kind of work he is engaged in is of great significance.The best-selling of the new lamps has enabled Jinjing, who is engaged in command work on the front line, to win the trust of everyone and gradually build up his self-confidence. Mihoko didn't know what had changed, but she suddenly changed her attitude and smiled at Kanai.Although there was a period of turmoil between the two, Kanai liked Mihoko very much after all, so the relationship between the two recovered very quickly.It was as if the twists and turns had never happened. A year later, they got married, and they lived smoothly and steadily until today. On those days, Jin Jing would occasionally go to Yuezi's hotel, but the relationship between the two of them was nothing more than that. I am married. Hearing this, Yuezi's gaze stayed in the air in a daze, as if searching for an answer to Jinjing's words in the air. That's fine, and I think it will be. She didn't say a word of regret. Two days later after receiving Yuezi's call, Yuezi came to visit in person. Are you free during lunch break today? Yes, do you know the address of our company? Yeah. I know. The downstairs guard called to say that someone was looking for Jin Jing, and he stood up and left his seat. What has become of her? Jin Jing imagined Yuezi's current appearance in his heart.Jinjing stepped out of the elevator and recognized Yuezi's back. Before Yuezi turned around, Jinjing felt a strong sense of anticipation. Hello! Tsukiko turned around and greeted with a slightly hoarse voice at the same time, she was much younger than Kanai predicted. long time no see. Yes, you don't seem to have changed much, but I can't, I'm about to become an old woman. What can I say, you are still so young.What to eat?Is barbecue okay?I treat you. Anything will do, but meat is best. Through a brief conversation, Jin Jing felt that Yuezi still had some changes in terms of appearance and voice. In the restaurant, they briefed each other on the current situation. After drinking a bottle of beer, a blush began to float on Yuezi's cheeks, her heart gradually opened up, and she began to talk more without worries. I want to see if you are living happily now. Is it just for this reason that she came to see Jinjing?have no idea. Why?Why? I don't know that you found a good wife either. See what you said. She must be better than me, it's written all over your face. For a moment, Jinjing seemed to have glimpsed Yuezi's heart, saw her thoughts, and heard her voice. It turned out that Yuezi really wanted to live with Jin Jing, but she saw that Jin Jing's wish was not from the bottom of her heart, so she never expressed her thoughts, but she and Jin Jing were not just playing around That night, if I said: Let's live together. Yuezi will definitely accept it. But can the lives of the two be happy afterwards?No matter how you think about it, this is not a good thing for Yuezi. Anyway, I abandoned confinement. This is closer to the truth. Judging from the results, the relationship with Yuezi was only out of temporary confusion, no matter how serious it was at the time. You said two days ago that your sister passed away, right? Um. You only have this one sister, right? The face of Tsukiko Kanai imagined in the elevator was the face of Tsukiko's sister that he saw in the cafe that night.He thinks that confinement should be similar to her sister's appearance at that time. What an uneducated face that woman has, with greed in the corner of her mouth.Freckles appeared on the skin, which may be the reason for the dim lighting of the cafe. Anyway, Kanai didn't have a good impression of Tsukiko's older sister.The two sisters should be very similar, but the elder sister showed the ugly part of her heart on the surface, and Yuezi must have something similar hidden in her heart. Let's give up the idea of ​​living with confinement. It should be said that Jinjing's conclusion has a lot to do with seeing Yuezi's sister. Did your sister die of a sudden illness?Very suddenly. Um. From now on, you will be very lonely, and your only sister will be gone. It's just a sister, and the relationship between us is not very good. Yuezi picked up the coffee cup and continued: She never did me any good. Yeah? Kanai also took a sip of coffee, felt the coffee flow down his throat, then took out a cigarette and lit it, saying: That's not necessarily the case.You should be very happy now, right? Yuezi's expression froze for a moment, and he didn't understand the deep meaning of Jinjing's words. well enough.Yuezi nodded slightly, and smiled subtly.