Chapter 42 Chapter 6 Thomasy had a dispute with her cousin and he wrote a letter

At this moment, Yeobright was in Hualuo Village, fully expecting that Eustacia would return to him.Although Clem had lived in the old house for more than a week, the furniture hadn't been completely moved until that day.He has been busy tidying up the house, sweeping the leaves from the paths in the yard, cutting off the dead branches of the flowers in the flower garden, and nailing the climbing vines blown down by the autumn wind to the walls.These jobs did not give him much pleasure, but they gave him a temporary relief from his despair.Not only that, but he did it with the conviction that he would preserve intact all that had been passed down from his mother to him.

As he worked, he kept looking forward to Eustacia's return.In order to be sure, he had a message board nailed to the gate of the Eldworth house, stating in white where he had moved, so that Eustacia would know where to find it. he.When a leaf fluttered down to the ground, he would turn his head, thinking it was her footsteps.The sound of a bird rummaging for worms in the loose soil of a flower-bed sounds to him like her hand on the latch of a gate; All sorts of soft and strange sounds that came at random in dead leaves and other crevices where gnats, earthworms, and other small insects were hidden, would make him think that it was Eustacia's voice, and she stood up. Outside, whisper your wish to restore the old.

To this day, he has insisted on not asking her to come back.At the same time, his sharp condemnation of her had lessened the deep sting he felt for his mother's death, and had awakened some old affection in him for the woman who had taken his mother's place.Harsh feelings produced harsh actions, which in turn suppressed the then harsh feelings.The more he reflected, the softer he became.Although he also asked himself whether he had given her enough time, whether his behavior should not have been so abrupt on that gloomy morning, it was not right for him to think his wife was innocent in this depressed state of mind. possible.

Now that the first anger had abated, it occurred to him that there was no frivolous friendship between her and Wildoff, since there was nothing dishonorable in her manner.Once he admits this, he stops insisting that her actions towards his own mother were completely heartless. By the evening of November 5th he was thinking of Eustacia more and more.All day long, the sweet words they had once uttered to each other echoed in his head like the murmur of the waves from the shore miles away.Yes, he said, she might have spoken of her own accord and told me all about Wilderf's treatment of her earlier.

Instead of staying at home that night, he decided to go and see Thomasy and her husband.If he had the opportunity, he would have hinted to them the reasons for Eustacia's parting from him, but he would not have mentioned the fact that there was a third person in the house when his mother turned away from him.If it turned out that Wildeff was innocent, there was no doubt that Wildeff would speak publicly about it.If Wildeff had indeed been there with some illicit purpose in going there, he, being a quick man, might have said something which would reveal the extent of Eustacia's involvement in the matter.

But when he got to his cousin's house, he found Thomasy alone at home, and Wildford was on his way to Misty Heights to see the bonfire that Charlie had inadvertently lit.As usual, Thomasy was very happy to see Clem, and took him to see the sleeping baby, carefully blocking the candlelight with his hand so that it did not shine into the baby's eyes. Thomasy, did you hear that Eustacia is not living with me now?he asked after they sat down. No.Thomasy said in surprise. Didn't you hear that I've left Eldworth? No.I never heard anything about Eldworth except what you told me about it.What happened?

Clem sent him to see Susan in an uneasy voice.The boy of Nasatch told her all that he had heard there, and all that he had thus castigated against Eustacia, and made such a ruthless act of resolution.But he restrained himself from mentioning Wildoff's being with her. Really, I have no idea!Thomasy murmured in a tone of astonishment.terrible!What made her Oh, Eustacia!You got mad at her after knowing these things?Are you less cruel?Could it be that she is really as bad as she looks? Could a man's actions against his mother's enemies be called too cruel? I'm afraid so. Fine, then I admit he is that.But what to do now?

Make it up again, if a dispute of this magnitude can be made up.I wish you hadn't told me about this.But do your best to make up.After all, if you both want to reconcile, there will be a way. I don't know if we both really want it that way, said Clem, and if she does, won't she send me a message by now? It seems that you wish to reconcile, but you have not sent a letter to her. True; but I tossed and turned whether I should have done so, after such a violent conflict.Look at me now, Thomasy, you've lost your mind about everything I've done; how deep I've gotten in these days.Oh, how shameful it is to shut my mother out like this!Could I forget it, even agree to see her again?

Maybe she didn't know that this matter would have such serious consequences, maybe she didn't want to shut her aunt out at all. She said she didn't want to do it.But here's the thing, she shut her out. Believe she regretted it, send someone to call her. What if she doesn't want to come back? That would show her habit of treating people with hostility, and it would prove her guilt.But I don't want to think so for a moment. I'll just do it.I shall wait another day or two, certainly not more; and if she does not send for me by then, I shall certainly write to her.I expected to see Wildeff here tonight.Is he out?

Thomasy blushed slightly.No, she said, he was just out for a walk. Why doesn't he take you with him?The weather is perfect tonight.You need fresh air as much as he does. Oh, I don't want to go anywhere; besides, there's my little baby. Yeah, not bad.Well, I've been wondering if I should talk to your husband about this too.Climb said solemnly. I think, if it were me, it would not be possible, she quickly replied, it would be no good to do so. Her cousin looked at her face.Doubtless Thomasy had no idea what her husband had to do with the tragedy of that afternoon; but it seemed from her countenance that she was concealing some suspicion, or thinking of Wildeff and Uss. Tasiya's previous ambiguous relationship.

However, Clem couldn't see anything from it, so he got up to say goodbye, with more doubts in his heart than when he came. Will you write to her in a day or two?said the young woman sincerely.I sincerely hope this horrific separation ends here. I will, Clem said, I'm not at all happy about it. He left her and climbed up the hill leading to Hualuo Village.Before going to bed, he sat down and wrote the following letter: My dear Eustacia, I must obey my heart and not ask the finer advice of my reason.will you come back to meCome back, everything in the past will never be mentioned again.I am too harsh; but, oh, Eustacia, this is so hard!You don't know, you never know, what a price you have cost me for those angry words I spat at you.For all that an honest man could promise you, I promise you now, and you will never suffer any more for that.We made those vows to each other, Eustacia, and I think we'd better try to keep them for the rest of our lives.Come back to me, then, even if you want to scold me severely.I have thought of the pains in your heart when we parted that morning; I know they are pains from the bottom of your heart, and these are the worst pains you should suffer.Our love must continue.Two hearts like ours should not let us have any other feelings except that we should be connected with each other.At first, I couldn't ask you to come back, Eustacia, because I couldn't convince myself that the man you were with was not your lover.However, if you will come back and explain to me these phenomena, which seem to be quite puzzling, I have no doubt that you will show me how frank you are.Why didn't you come earlier?Do you think I won't listen to anything you have to say?Of course not, just think of our kisses and our vows in the summer moonlight.Come back, you will be warmly welcomed.I will think of you no longer with prejudice against you. All I want is to do you justice.Your husband as always. Clem He put the letter on the desk and said, all right, I did what I needed to do.If she doesn't come back by to-morrow evening, I'll have this letter delivered to her. Meanwhile, in the house he had left, Thomasy sat sighing uneasily.Though she suspected that Wildeff had not ended his affection for Eustacia after his marriage, on this evening, out of devotion to her husband, she concealed it entirely.But she had no way of knowing the hard truth; though Clem was a cousin she really liked, there was someone who was closer to her. After a while, Wildef came back from Misty Hill, Thomasy said, Damon, where have you been?I was so scared, I thought you fell into the river.I don't like being alone in this room. Terrified?Touching her face, he said, was like she was a small domestic animal.Why, I thought nothing could scare you.I'm sure you've grown a little bit arrogant since we got that estate, and don't like living here.Well, it's such a tiresome business, to get a new house; but I can't do it right away, unless the ten thousand we got has turned into a hundred thousand, and then we'll have no scruples, can afford it. No I don't mind the wait I'd rather stay here another year before taking any risks with the baby.But I don't like it when you go out at night like this.You have something on your mind and I know what it is, Damon.You go out with such a gloomy face, looking at the moor, as if it were not a nice moor to walk in, but someone's prison. He looked at her with a sort of pitiful surprise.What, don't you like Eden Moor?he asks. I like the place where I was born and raised; I like its old, stern face. Phew, my dear.You don't know what you like. I know exactly what I like.There was only one unpleasant thing about Ayton. what is it? You never take me with you when you go out for a walk.If you don't like it here, why do you keep wandering around the moor? The question, though a simple one, was embarrassingly sharp, and he sat down before answering, I don't think you've seen me go there all that often.Let me give you an example. I will, she replied triumphantly.When you went out tonight, I thought about it. Anyway, the baby is asleep, so I will go and have a look. If you don't tell me where you are going so mysteriously.So I went out and followed you.You stop at the fork, look at the campfire, and say, fuck it, I'm going to check it out!After that, you walked quickly along the road on the left.I stood there looking at you then. Wilderf frowned, then forced a smile, and said, Well, what kind of great discovery have you made? Well, you're annoyed now, so let's stop talking.She walked past him, sat down on a footstool, and looked up into his face. nonsense!He said: You always shrink back like this.Now that we've talked, let's move on to the matter now.What did you see next?I really want to know. Come on, Damon!she whispered, I didn't see anything.You walked out of my sight, and then I looked around the campfire and went into the house again. Maybe this isn't the first time you've followed me.What are you trying to do to me? absolutely not!I've never done anything like this before, and if it weren't for the kind of gossip that sometimes goes around about you now, I wouldn't do it at all. What do you mean by that?he asked impatiently. People say people say you always go to Eldworth at night, which reminds me I've heard people say Wildeve turned angrily, and stood suddenly before her.Well, he said, waving his hand in the air, tell it all, ma'am!I'd like to know what you heard. Oh, that's all I've heard you used to like Eustacia very much, though that's what other people say little by little.You shouldn't be so angry at all! He noticed that her eyes were welling with tears.Well, he said, that's old stuff, and I certainly didn't want to be rough with you, and you don't need to cry.Well, let's stop talking about this topic. Tomasy was glad to stop there, so that she would not have to mention Clem's visit in the evening and what he had been talking about.