In Xiaofeng's memory, grandpa's face is easier to remember than his father's. Grandpa is very thin.Because he is the adopted son of others, he has not been in good health since he was a child and has been doing farm work for a long time, so he is very thin. In comparison, his grandmother is like a giant. Grandpa has many good friends.When I can't go to the fields on rainy days, I always like to drop by. That day happened to be a rainy day in spring.The water in the sky seemed endless.The eldest sister, who is already in elementary school, told her that there is a lot of water hidden in the dark clouds in the sky, so it will rain.Then Xiaofeng didn't understand again, why is the water flowing down from the dark clouds colorless?Every time she washes the dishes and pours the water into the ditch is black, why don't dark clouds cast black water?And what about the transparent water under the white clouds?She didn't ask the elder sister, because every elder sister in primary school looked very impressive, so she didn't want to ask.

When the rain turned into a light drizzle, grandpa's friend came, and they stood outside the door chatting together, Xiaofeng also tiptoed out with a broken bowl, squatted next to the pool of water and scooped up a scoop of water to see , some are cloudy, some are transparent, and she gets caught up in difficult questions. Brother Tim, you are lucky. You are lucky to have five grandchildren. Grandpa's old friend suddenly talked about this topic, Xiaofeng's attention shifted instantly, and he waited for Grandpa's answer with wide eyes. There are only two grandchildren, and the other three are granddaughters.If it weren't for one more boy, there would be three more useless girls.Hey, daughters and grandchildren are useless. When they are raised and married, the only reward is to send a piece of pork when they return to their natal family.

At this time, the little toddler staggered towards his grandpa, and was hugged by his grandpa: "My golden grandson." The grandparents and grandchildren laughed together. Xiaofeng, who was squatting on the side, did not look back, quietly looked at the water surface, and saw himself reflected in the water surface.With a wave of his hand, the water splashed, and she scattered under the water in a circle. It turns out that grandpa likes to eat pork.This is Xiaofeng's first conclusion, but why is it useless to have a girl?She thought about washing dishes every day, picking sweet potatoes in the fields, and taking care of her younger siblings, while her elder brother didn't need it.How can you say that girls are useless?

On the other side of the grain drying field, because the rain stopped, the children gathered together to play cards again, and my brother had already run over.If she is useless, where is brother useful?What is the use of a younger brother who can only eat and sleep?She stared blankly, unable to see the difference between useful and useless. Afterwards, male became the paramount noun in Xiaofeng's cognition.They are privileged. At that time, I began to hate myself as a useless girl.All she wanted was a happy hug from her grandpa. The color of the rain is no longer an important thing in her question mark world, she starts to think of ways to please the adults, and wants to hear the adults say that she is good, that she is good.

But for a six-year-old child, in this idea that everyone is a giant, she is just an insignificant dwarf, and she doesn't have a good brain to design ways to please others. She still could only squat by the water pool in self-pity, frowning at her pathetic and unfavored gender. Xiaofeng, come in and boil water!Mom is yelling. Xiaofeng didn't move lazily. The grandfather on one side scolded: Not yet!Lazy girl, she won't be able to marry in the future! Xiao Feng also rushed towards the kitchen door. get married?what? Looking at the sweating mother in the kitchen, she just came back from the field, and her husband, who also came back from the busy farming, was watching TV in the living room with other cousins ​​and chatting about today's hard work.

Start the fire quickly, your father needs to take a bath. Mom picked up a fish and brought it out, and the men in the living room immediately mobbed the dining table.Then the disheveled mother came back to fry the second dish.The portion size is like feeding the pigs. Married, what? Xiaofeng cowered by the stove, feeling a chill in his heart. A family of thirteen people is in charge of a tired woman who has to participate in busy farming and go to and from work with the men. Women are useless?Are you supposed to be so busy because it's useless?Or is it useless for women to cry because they can only be busy in the kitchen?

She leaned her face towards the stove door and blew hard, choking the smoke in her head. To love till the end, what is afraid of is a sudden epiphany It turns out that the other party is not loved by him Everything is caused by obsession.