Chapter 4 Chapter Three

one After Liu Ye was awakened by the sound of the gong exorcising ghosts, he never fell asleep again. The mother's spirit did not visit him for many years.The nanny said that his mother did not abandon him, but was reincarnated from heaven.But next fall, he will take the provincial examination, and he hopes that his mother will bless him to win the first examination, to be named on the gold list, and to share his glory. The amazing thing is, when he thought this way in his heart, did his mother really come to see him? However, when he was awakened by the sound of the gong, he hurriedly jumped out of bed and knelt down in front of his mother's portrait, the sound of the gong stopped.No other voices were heard.Is it true that the mother has come, or did the guards and guards knock the wrong gong?

Early the next morning, Liu Ye sent his servants to inquire.Come back and say, it's not the wrong gong.The guard at night saw a woman walking under the moonlight, and hurriedly beat the gong.When the gong rang, the woman disappeared.The housekeeper, Lao Xia, has already strictly examined this servant, and asked him if it is true or not, is it your dog day dreaming, or is there really a woman who appears?The servant didn't dare to change his words, he still said that he really saw a woman walking around under the moon. The sixth master hurriedly returned to his mother's portrait, offered incense, knelt down and saluted, and said in his heart: Please rest assured, mother, I will definitely pass the provincial examination next year.

When it was time for breakfast, he rushed to the dining room on time.His father had arrived before him, and he was sitting there dignifiedly and peacefully, with the same expression as usual.Didn't father hear the rapid sound of the gong at night? Even in the early years when my mother had just appeared, and the whole family turned pale when they heard the commotion, my father was also like this, majestic and serene, as if nothing had happened. During the meal, his father asked him: Do you arrive at the school on time every day? The sixth master said: Yes.I am studying hard for next year's competition, even if I am at home after school, I dare not neglect.

What does Master He think of your future? His words, maybe. Bold, who is he?I still call him Master He, but you are so disobedient! Mr. He is really like that. He said one day a day, one day he said, you will undoubtedly win the championship, and the next day he said, why do you bother, what are you doing to take the exam? What about you, you can see for yourself, can you win the exam? able.Regardless of the number of places, I also want to win back a candidate. You have a lot of energy, and you are determined to ask for an official position. During breakfast that day, Kang Hunan announced to the four masters present his decision to go out to inspect the business.Ask who would follow him.

The old man couldn't hear anything, he sat on the side like a Buddha, as quiet as a virgin. The second master said: I have martial arts, I am willing to follow, and be my father's bodyguard.But my father is over seventy years old, and it is such a hot day that it is absolutely unsuitable for him to go on tour! The fourth master also said: Father, you must never go on tour! Kang Hunan said: I don't need your promise for my trip.I just ask you, who wants to follow Me? The fourth master hurriedly said: Of course I am willing to follow and serve my father!However, it is really not suitable to go on tour in hot weather.I also heard that the outside world is not quiet, there are boxers in Zhili, Shandong, and Henan.

Kang Hunan closed his eyes and said without doubt: I know more about the outside world than you.Say no more.Sixth, what about you, don't you want to follow me? The sixth master said: Father, I am preparing for the exam. It's still early next year's autumn. But I have not dared to waste a day. Then you go about your business. Kang Hunan took the mouthwash from Lao Ting, rinsed his mouth, got up and walked out of the dining room. The old man followed and left. The second master hurriedly said: Do you think the old man really wants to go on tour, or just made up questions to test us?

The fourth master said: I'm afraid we will still be tested. The second master asked the sixth master: What do you think? The sixth master said: The old master said that it is obviously false. He is really talking about me. He doesn't believe that I can succeed in the competition. The second master said: The old man looks down on you. The sixth master said: Then he can think highly of you? The second master smiled and said: How can you think highly of me!Among our brothers, the old man valued only the third child! The fourth master said: The old man loves strange things all his life, and maybe he really wants to tour the world with his rare body.

The second master said: If the old man really wants to make surprise soldiers, then we can't persuade anyone, unless the third child persuades him. The fourth master said: Where is third brother?In Guihua City, or in Qianying? The second master said: Who knows!Send someone to ask shopkeeper Sun Da. The fourth master said: The old man wants to go on a tour. I can see it and tell the third brother about it. The second master said: Then tell him. When he came to the academy, the sixth master told the school teacher, Mr. He Kaisheng, about it. Master He, do you think my father will really go out to patrol the docks in other cities?

Master He didn't even think about it, and said: Why not?This is just like your old man's actions! The old man is so old, and it is such a hot day, Mr. He, can you persuade him? It should be that knowing a father is like a son.Sixth Master, you just don't know the truth about your old man?Who has he listened to persuasion in his life, and who can persuade him?I can't afford this kind of thing.Read your book. Today my father asked me, what does Master He think of my future? how do you answer I said, Mr. He always thinks I'm too stupid, and the test is for nothing! Liu Ye, when did I say that?

I see Master He saying this in his heart every day.This is called knowing a teacher better than an apprentice! Sixth master, why do I think you are stupid?It is because of your extraordinary talent that it is a pity that you are so obsessed with Confucianism.Anyone who wants to make a career in Confucianism and turn out to be born in the world, no one is too stupid.Confucian sages and sages have evolved to this day, which is already very unbearable.Among them, there are too many old barriers and secular activities.No matter how stupid and sincere you are, you will only be in deep trouble, and you don't have to think about getting ahead.At that time, I had neglected Confucianism for a long time, and I had already become the assistant gang of the Beijing name in your Tiancheng Yuanpiaozhuang. I don’t know why, so I made a guest appearance in the township examination, and unexpectedly I won the exam!How can I win the election?Just nine words: Don't be obsessed with it, let it go!

Master He, I'm off to study. After the sixth master finished speaking, he hurriedly left Master He.If you don't hurry up, Master He will tell him the story of Zhongju again. He Kaisheng was selected in the Jiawu National Examination in the 20th year of Guangxu.At that time, he was indeed working as the assistant gangster of the Beijing account in Tiancheng Yuanpiaozhuang, and he had already reached six per cent of his stock.Because he is very talented and sociable, he can often win a large amount of treasury and bank business in the officialdom of the capital, so the big shopkeeper Sun Beiming let him stay in Beijing for many years.His three-year class period in Beijing coincides with the period of the general examination in the capital, and he leaves work at Chen, Xu, Chou, and Wei Nian.Therefore, every time he returns to Jin after get off work, it is also the day when the capital will try to make a list. At that time, the famous tributes on the gold list were proud of their spring breeze and were waiting to go to the palace examination.The loser, on the other hand, sprinkled the sadness of frustration all over the teahouse and wine shop.The capital was extremely lively at the moment.He Kaisheng and his colleagues in Jinghao couldn't help asking how many people from the township party in Shanxi province made the list, which province won the championship again, and whether there are any candidates who are worthy of early curry favor among the top three scholars in the new department.Then, He Kaisheng took the news and embarked on a journey back to Jin. In the 18th year of Guangxu's reign, there were surprisingly few candidates for the Renchen Divisional Examination and the Shanxi Intermediate Examination.The friend of Jing Hao was a little frustrated.There was a lot of chatter, accusing the group of officials in the township party for being too incompetent and unfulfilling, and suddenly they all mobilized He Fugang.Said shopkeeper He, you go to take the exam, you won't win the champion, and you won't come back empty-handed!The most terrible thing is that Dai Ying's old gang also participated in the mobilization: Shopkeeper He, you might as well go to play a guest role, to win back a Jinshi, and to make a name for our Tiancheng Yuanjing name! This was originally a joke, but when we returned to the old shop in Taigu, the shopkeeper Sun Beiming became serious: Shopkeeper He, you just have to work hard.Tian Chengyuan has a lot of talents, and it's up to you to win back a decent reputation.If you are willing to work hard, I will grant you a year off to prepare for the provincial examination! It's too tempting to give a year off. When Mrs. Kang, the rich man, heard about this, he summoned He Kaisheng and asked him, "Do you think it's not difficult to take the exam?" He Kaisheng said: I have not focused on Confucianism for a long time, and I am afraid that I will fail the old man's expectations. Let me see, it's not too difficult.A group of rotten Confucians can hardly get rid of a pedantic word, they can only break the meaning out of context and attach it to the ground, so don't be afraid of them.You have experienced many years in the business world, less pedantic, more enlightened, I don't think it is difficult. In this way, He Kaisheng embarked on an unlucky road by a strange coincidence. He was talented and learned, but he thought it was a cameo, so in the competition of the Jiawu year, he was extraordinarily open, swaying his ink freely, without any obstacles along the way.Especially the current affairs and policy theory in the third scene, because he has been stationed in Beijing for many years and has a broad vision, he has played a vivid role.In the examination room of Jin Province, how many Confucian scholars are there who play like this?Even if he didn't want to win, he had to win.Shopkeeper He really brought back the 19th candidate for Tian Chengyuan, which caused a sensation in the Taigu business circle for a while. Both Sun Beiming's shopkeeper and Kang Hunan's old boss held a banquet to celebrate their achievements, and they praised him a lot. How could He Kaisheng have imagined that bad luck would follow glory like this.After celebrating the meritorious service, Sun Beiming, the treasurer, suddenly discovered that He Kaisheng was already a dignified official and a member of the imperial court.Although Tian Chengyuan's business is spread all over the world, it is a private name after all.It is a violation of the current government system and outrageous for a private firm to order the master Juren.Sun Beiming discussed with Kang Hunan for a long time, but he could only respectfully ask Mr. He to find another job.If you go to Beijing for the test in the coming year, all the expenses will still be reimbursed on the counter.After leaving the account, Mr. He's six per cent stock can still be kept for one year. He Kaisheng almost went crazy when he heard the result.He never even thought about such a stupid thing as abandoning business and seeking an official position!After staying in Beijing for many years, he still doesn't know the dangers of officialdom?His guest appearance in the township examination was originally to fight for glory for the Kang family and Tiancheng Yuanpiaozhuang, so he didn't want to be an official!His ideal in life is to survive to become a member of the old gang of Beijing.Now it is not far away from such an ideal, and suddenly it has a name?After half a lifetime of hard work, the whole family is rich and honored, just like this?It's not expulsion from the account, it's better than expulsion from the account!If you ask Tian Chengyuan to fire you, you can still apply for a job at other companies. Now that you have earned such a reputation as a master, no one can use you anymore! But this empty fame, can you return it to the court? During the first two years of Zhongju, He Kaisheng was always insane and doing nothing.After he recovered a bit, Kang Hunan invited him to be the tutor of Kang's family hall.The gifts are expensive and respected, but compared with the life of the vice gang in Beijing, it is already a sparse scene. After He Kaisheng took up the teaching post, Kang Hu Nan asked the sixth master to pay homage to his teacher.But Liu Ye really couldn't respect such a crazy old man.However, as the township examination was approaching, Master He was particularly open-minded in his on-the-spot performance back then, which can be used as a reference. It's a pity that Master He repeated his story too much. two Kang Hunan's fourth wife, who is also Liu Ye's biological mother, was born in an official family.Her father is a Jinshi on the right path, and although the officials only do the general judgment of the county magistrate and the state capital, it is only six or seven ranks, but she has always been very dissatisfied with the Kang family's despise of Confucianism.Therefore, Liu Ye was taught to read books as a sacrament since he was a child.After his mother passed away early, his nanny kept up the mother training. The sixth master is determined to study and seek an official position, which is really full of longing for his mother.When he was young, he noticed that his mother was always unhappy.When he was five years old, his mother passed away suddenly. At that time, he didn't know the meaning of death. He just thought that his mother must have gone away because she was unhappy. Why is mother always so unhappy?He asked the nanny many times.The nanny never told him, but told him to study hard: Mother will be happy only if you study hard.But he could see that there was something the nurse was hiding from him and refused to tell. Half a year after Liu Ye's biological mother passed away, Dexintang began to be haunted.According to the servant who guarded the courtyard at night, they had seen Mrs. Xian's figure and heard her shrill cry.However, the sudden sound of the gong in the middle of the night did not wake up the young Sixth Master, who was just at the age of snoozing.Later, every time the gong sounded, the nurse always shook him awake and told him to kneel in front of his mother's portrait. The nurse offered incense on his behalf and told him: Your mother sees you coming, talk to her quickly! How could he understand, so he asked: Where is mother? She is in heaven, and she can hear you when you talk to her in your heart. Mother is in the sky, where is the sky?He still can't understand.It's just that once, twice, many times, the young Sixth Master also believed what the nanny said, and got used to meeting and talking with his mother.He knelt down and told him how much he missed his mother, and the nurse passed on his mother's reply, telling him to study hard. Sometimes, kneeling there, he could not help crying.The nurse cried with him on behalf of the mother. However, most of the time, he still told his mother how he used the book of sages.He worked hard and really wanted to make his mother happy.But he never knew why his mother was so depressed. He grew up day by day, and when he had many questions to ask his mother, she had already left him.My father has done a lot of dojos for my mother to save the dead, so my mother has to leave.Apart from caring about him, there must be something else that my mother can't let go of.But the nanny still refused to tell him more secrets. My late mother suddenly appeared again last night, isn't it just because of his scientific research? Liu Ye believes that the nanny must know many secrets related to the mother.When will you be willing to tell him these secrets?Do we have to wait until after he wins the imperial examination? When she came back from the academy that day, the nanny talked to Liu Ye about his marriage again.He was seventeen years old and was about to reach the age of marriage.Kang Hunan also wanted to start a family for him as early as possible. He is so old, and still relying on his nanny to live, how can he have any future.But Liu Ye insisted on waiting for the provincial and general examinations before mentioning the marriage.The old man didn't push too much, but the nanny was not happy, thinking that the old man didn't love him too much. Sixth Master, your mother came to see you last night, do you know what she is thinking about? Must it be my first mother?I haven't been here for many years, my mother should have been reincarnated long ago, right? Who is not your mother?It must be that your mother is worried about you. Don't worry about next year's Dabi? Next year's Dabi is also thinking about it, and what I miss most is your marriage! This is your mind, nurse.What my late mother hoped for most in me was to be able to pass the imperial examinations and become a Jinshi just like my grandfather.I also want some Hanlin.With fame and fame, are you afraid that you won't be able to form a good relationship? Sixth Master, your mother knows that you have lived up to her high expectations, and you are very competitive in your studies.She is assured of your future.As long as you get married as soon as possible and have your own home, your mother will have nothing to worry about. I know that my mother has other concerns.You must know, nurse, that she has something to say.Since I have grown up and should start a family and start a business, then you should tell me what you should say! Sixth Master, I have nothing to hide from you. Nurse, I can see that you have something to hide from me. Sixth Master, although we are master and servant, I regard you as closer than my own flesh and blood.What can I hide from you? Nanny, I also regard you as my mother.I can see that you, like my mother, are always unhappy. I just miss your mother too, she is so miserable.In the past ten years, I have never felt that I am carrying too much weight.Your mother is from everyone and is a famous talented woman, how can I fulfill my duties as a mother to you on her behalf?But she weeps and bleeds at the end of her life, and I dare not neglect her for a day. Nanny, you don't need to say anything. Sixth Master, I heard that the old man is going on a tour, is there such a thing? There is such a plan, but it has not been decided yet. Then please ask the old lady to make a marriage arrangement for you before going on tour.It's a joy to get married, and it's also auspicious for you to take the exam next year. Nanny, the old man said to go, and he was leaving, how could there be time!To be sure, she must be a talented woman like her mother.Not such a talented girl, I don't want it! If you want such a talented woman, ask them to find you. Where to find it! Liu Ye remembered that even when his mother was alive, he lived with his nanny in this courtyard.Mother sometimes lives here, sometimes not.When he was away, he stayed in the old courtyard where his father lived.In the old courtyard where my father lived, Liu Ye had grown up so much that he hadn't been in it a few times.His father often came out to see him, but never called him in. The old courtyard where my father lived was a mysterious forbidden place.From the eldest brother to him, there are six brothers, none of whom can go there often.Even the third brother who is the most valued by my father can't come in and out casually.Usually, they greeted their father and kowtowed, and they all ate in the big dining room.During festivals and New Year's Eve, it is in the hall where the ancestral tablets are enshrined.Even if their father is sick, they will not be called into the old home to visit, but they will only inquire about their illness through the old kiosk and convey their greetings. However, from the eldest brother to the fifth brother, they seem to be used to this.Only he has always connected the mystery of the old home with the mother's depression and the secrets that the nanny is hiding.If he could come in and out of the old house casually, he would be able to figure out everything he wanted to know.Liu Ye made many excuses and tried to go to the old home a few more times, but all failed. Now, my father is going out to inspect the business, which may be an opportunity.If father is not at home, will the old courtyard still be so guarded? Therefore, in his heart, Liu Ye hoped that his father's tour would take place.The last time my father went on tour was four or five years ago, when he was still young, he didn't take advantage of that opportunity. After his father announced that he was going on a tour, the housekeeper Lao Xia also came to look for the sixth master and said: You masters don't persuade the old master, dare to travel far in this hot day?What about you six masters, who can't make a trip for the old man?It's blocking, it's replacing, you guys have to find a way quickly! Sixth Master originally wanted to use the excuse of emergency preparation for the exam and not to participate in persuasion, but later he remembered what Master He said: whoever has been persuaded by him, who can persuade him!Knowing that persuasion is useless.But in terms of filial piety and human relationships, you have to try your best to persuade them. He said to Lao Xia: You have to tell the second master about this.The eldest master is an outsider, so the second master has to come forward to make up his mind.He takes the lead, so we can talk. Lao Xia said: Second Lord, he has no idea.He also said that he was a martial artist, and the old man didn't like to listen to his words.I went to Fourth Master again, and he also said that his words have no weight, and persuasion is useless.He asked me to meet shopkeeper Sun, and what the shopkeeper said has more weight than you.However, if you want to ask for the shopkeeper Sun, you have to ask for it too!What face do I have, to beg the treasurer Sun Da? The second master and the fourth master are both married and established, and their words don't carry much weight. I'm a child, can words work? Sixth Master, you are young, and you are loved by others. Maybe the old man loves to listen to what you say. The sixth master said in his heart: Can the old master love me?I have persuaded him many times during the meal, how could the old man listen to me!It's still necessary for the second master to come forward. He can't make up his mind, so he has to greet everyone and discuss an idea together. If the second master is invited to come forward, the fourth and sixth masters must invite you too! Well, please.At breakfast tomorrow, I will force the second master to leave after the old man finishes eating.When the time comes, you have to come, Lao Xia, and invite Master Bao too.You have to give us advice. That's OK.Master Six, just as you said. three For breakfast the next day, Kang Hunan came to the dining room before all the gentlemen.But during the meal, very little was said.However, he eats a lot, as if to show that he is not old and can travel smoothly.After eating, Kang Hunan got up first and left. The Grand Master left the table as usual. The second master was leaving too, but was stopped by the sixth master: "Second brother, have you tried to persuade the old man?" The second master said: Besides eating here, where can I meet? The sixth master said: Second brother, you are good at martial arts, you just fly over the eaves and walk over the walls, and you still worry about not being able to enter the old home? The second master said: "Sixth child, you are eloquent, well-educated, and young. You can speak childishly without restraint, so you should talk more." The fourth master said: We, even if we try to persuade him, it won't do anything. The sixth master said: It's not worth it, we have to persuade him, this is filial piety!The elder brother is an outsider, we can't trust him, even if something happens, the world will not blame him.We can't escape!Second brother, you have to pick up a heavy responsibility.We talk lightly, and the old man doesn't like to listen, but we can ask someone who has the weight to speak to persuade the old man. While talking, Lao Xia and Master Bao arrived.After discussing for a long time, we agreed to invite three people to come first.The first one, of course, is the shopkeeper Sun Beiming.The other one is also the big shopkeeper, that is Donglin Qinxuan, the leader of Kangjiatian Shengchuan Tea House.The Kang family originally made their fortune from the Tianshengchuan tea house, and later came to the Tiancheng Yuanpiao shop, so the status of the shopkeeper of Tianshengchuan is also very high.The third place is Che Yizhai, the number one master of Taigu Xingyiquan.Che Yi Zhai Xing Er, known as Master Che Er in Taigu folk, not only has high martial arts skills, but also has better virtues, and is well-known both inside and outside the martial arts world.Kang Hunan also respected him very much. The ones who insisted on asking Master Che to persuade Mrs. Kang were of course Er Ye and Master Bao.They also had another thought, in case the persuasion did not work, they would ask the second master Che to accompany the old man on the tour, as a guarantee.So, I came forward to invite the second master Che, and the second master also took the initiative, and only asked Master Bao to accompany him. The task of respectfully inviting the two shopkeepers had to be undertaken by the fourth master, and Lao Xia accompanied him. As for the sixth master, everyone still calls him Yixiaoshouxiao, as long as he sees the old man, he will persuade him, don't be afraid of trouble, and don't be afraid of the old man's anger. Liu Ye was very satisfied with this kind of persuasion. After all, Second Master Kang was a warrior. After taking the order, he called Master Bao that day and rode to Guanjiabao where Master Che lived. Guanjiabao is also in the south of Taigu City, not far from Kangzhuang.Guanjiabao has always been famous for its chrysanthemum art, which has been handed down from generation to generation by flower farmers with unique art methods.When the flowers bloom in deep autumn, rich families compete to buy them.Although Master Che Er is a martial arts hero, he also likes Yiju very much.In his early years, he also applied to a wealthy businessman as a martial artist in the nursing home.Later, when I got old, I returned to my hometown to manage the fields and raise the military.His ancestral home was originally in Jiajiabao, but because he liked art chrysanthemums, he moved to Guanjiapu.In addition to taking apprentices to practice martial arts, he is happy to practice chrysanthemums.On this day, when Kang Erye and Bao Shijing visited, he was working in the chrysanthemum orchard. Because they came here often, Er Ye and Master Bao were not very polite, and went straight to the chrysanthemum garden.Seeing Master Che Er was fertilizing and watering the chrysanthemum seedlings, Er Ye picked up a dung scoop and wanted to help.So frightened that Master Che Er seemed to have discovered a hidden weapon flying, and hurriedly used a punch to block it. Second Master, Second Master, I dare not bother you! This earning a living is effortless and requires little effort! Second master, put down the dung ladle quickly.I am applying fertilizer and water to strengthen the leaves, so that the feet and leaves will not fall off after flowering.You can see that this is a piece of cake, but it is actually very delicate.It's like you are so careless, if you sprinkle fertilizer and water on the leaves, within a few days, the leaves will be burned, what kind of leaves are there! The second master scooped up some fat and water and smelled it: the soup is thin and watery, and it doesn't smell bad, is it that bad? Master Che Er said: This is retting with the soup of boiled chicken feathers and goose feathers.It is to be retting until it is filthy and not smelly before it can be used. Really particular.Then we weed for you? No, there are two little hoes, and there is not much work.In fact, Yiju also maintains her temperament, putting effort and hard work in the second place.Please, please, go back to the humble house and sit down! Bao Shijing said, "Master, it's very nice to just sit in the arbor of the chrysanthemum garden." Kang Erye also said: That's right, it's cool and beautiful here. Then you two will be wronged.Master Che Er didn't give in any more, he called a young apprentice and sent him back to serve chrysanthemum herbal tea. The three of them sat casually in the arbor.Although the sky was sunny, there was a cool breeze and it didn't feel stuffy.In the chrysanthemum garden, the mugwort-like vanilla scent makes people feel a little excited in tranquility. Master Che Er said: You two are not here today to perform martial arts, right? The second master said: Martial arts is also possible, but unfortunately, we are no match for you! Bao Shijing said: Second Master Kang came today, and he really asked for master. The second master of the car hurriedly said, "Second Master, let me tell you, when I arrive today, I am so attentive."Let me tell you, those who can serve me will obey orders.We are not outsiders anymore. The second master hurriedly got up and bowed, and said: "Master Che is so polite, I really dare not open my mouth." Bao Shijing said: The second master came today, not to beg the master alone, but also to beg the master on behalf of the six masters of the Kang family! The second master Che also hurriedly got up to return the salute. He said it so solemnly, what happened? Bao Shijing said: The old man of the Kang family is more than a few years old.Recently, on a sudden whim, I want to go on a tour of the various docks for business.If he said go, he would go, the weather was getting hotter day by day, he didn't care, no one could persuade him.The second master and I told the old man directly that around Jin Province, Zhili, Henan, and Shandong, it is not peaceful at the moment, the boxers are rioting, and the teaching cases continue, and they may be trapped wherever they go.The old man couldn't even listen to such words.In Taigu, there are not many people who can talk to him.But master, you are respected by him, and he will listen to your words. It turned out that it was this kind of thing, and I thought I was told to capture thieves and defend against enemies.I am a country warrior, why did you think of asking me to be a lobbyist?You know, I'm not good at words.Besides, this is your family business, how can I, an irrelevant outsider, put my beak on it! The second master immediately said: My father really respects Master Che, not only for your martial arts, but also for your benevolence.He is willing to practice Xingyiquan to keep fit, in fact, it is because of his admiration for Master Che. Bao Shijing also said: No one in the Kang family can persuade the old man to invite you, master! Master Che Er thought for a while and said: I can't be a lobbyist.It's not that I don't want to help. Based on what I know about Mrs. Kang, he won't listen to my advice on this matter.Because this is a big move related to the rise and fall of your Kang family!Take a look at those rich and powerful families in Qi Taiping now, how many of them are not just sitting and enjoying their wealth?Which of them is willing to inspect the business of the docks in other cities?Just go, who knows business?They will only spend money, not earn money. Bao Shijing said: The second master and the others are not against the old man's tour, but just want him to miss the hot weather.Even if you run high feet and pull camels, you must avoid the hot weather. Master Che Er said: Mrs. Kang chose to go on tour in the hot summer, maybe it was intentional, and he wanted to issue a warning for the West Gang.If it's not intentional, if you really don't put the cold and heat under the radar, then you will be more heroic. The second master said: We are worried about his body. Master Che Er asked: Has your father been practicing boxing all the time? The second master said: No, rain or shine, all day long. What about appetite? The appetite is not small. What about sleep? Then I don't know. Bao Shijing said: I think the old man looks very good. Master Che Er said: Tell me, you will fulfill the old man, and respectfully send him on a tour.When he was young, he often went out, north and south, all over the world, where has he not been?Especially the border of Mongolia outside the mouth, the big Kulun, the front and rear camps, have run many times.He is still afraid of wind, rain, cold and heat?Although you are old, you all know that in martial arts, in addition to strength, you also need to have heart.The old man is so angry, nothing will happen.How can the merchants of the West help become rich in the world?In addition to his gentle temperament, he has long legs, travels thousands of miles, and works hard in business, which has always been a common thing.Second master, your father named your brothers Yuan, Xian, Guang, Yun, Yao, and Long. They are all long-legged characters. I hope you don't lose your legs! The second master said: The old master suddenly wants to go on tour in such a hot summer, obviously he is dissatisfied with us. Master Che Er said: Yes, but not all.Second master, you have to be filial, why don't you follow the old man and travel a long distance, and you will also meet martial friends in the world? The second master said: When the old man went on a tour, I didn't want to accompany him to serve him?People look down on me and don't ask me to go.Master Che, if my father insists on going on tour this time, I wonder if the master will condescend to go with him to strengthen his prestige? Bao Wushi also said: If the master can go together, it will become a great event for the West Gang! Master Che Er smiled and said: I am a farmer, what kind of prestige and grand event can I make!If you want a bodyguard, you should ask a martial artist from the bodyguard bureau.They travel all the year round, they know the ground well along the way, they have many friends, they understand the rules, and there will be no troubles.A novice like me, even if he has some martial arts skills, he has to open his way again. Wouldn't it delay the old lady's schedule?In this kind of matter, the old man is smarter than you. He always invites martial artists from the Escort Bureau when he goes out. The second master said: "Rujia's father has invited me personally, will the master Che be willing to honor the company?" Master Che Er laughed again: There will be no such thing. Bao Shijing said: If there is such a respectful invitation, the master will not refuse, will he? Master Che Er said: If there is such a thing, I will not refuse.But I daresay there will be no such thing.Your grandpa is going on tour this time, I think he wants to warn the West Gang by enduring hardships and taking risks.They dragged people like me and put them in the middle, as if for the sake of ostentation, so who can warn anyone! The second master hurriedly asked: "Master Che, boxers from Zhili, Shandong, and Henan are not afraid to start riots everywhere?" Bao Shijing also asked: Master, what kind of boxing do those boxers practice? Master Che Er said: A few days ago, a martial friend from Zhili Shenzhou came to gossip, and he talked about the popular Zhixing boxing.The boxing over there is not similar to our Xingyi boxing martial arts, it is really a kind of spiritual religion.When he joined the school, he took boxing as his main lesson, so he also called himself Yihe boxing.The gods and gods enshrined in the altars set up in the religion are arbitrarily created, and they are not uniform. Most of them are gods, men and ghosts in novels such as "Journey to the West", "Fengshen", "Three Kingdoms", and "Water Margin".The leaders of the religion held incense and recited mantras, that is to say, they were possessed by gods, with heavenly constitutions in their mouths, arrows, stones, guns and cannons, all of which could not enter.Such a magical fist can be practical after one month of practice, and can be accomplished after three months of practice.You and I have practiced boxing for most of our lives, how have we ever seen such a flattering boxing technique?It's okay for them to scare Westerners, but it's nothing to us! The second master said: I heard that when the incident occurred, there were many boxers, and it was difficult to deal with it. Master Che Er said: "Then Er Ye, you will follow, and you will be able to show off your martial arts skills in taking people back from thousands of troops." Bao Shijing said: Since this is the case, it is really nothing to be afraid of.Let's play martial arts for a while! The three of them drank some herbal tea, walked out of the chrysanthemum garden, and went to the martial arts arena. Four Lao Xia accompanied the fourth master, and went to the city to meet Sun Beiming, the treasurer of Tiancheng Yuanpiaozhuang. Shopkeeper Sun still didn't quite believe that Mrs. Kang was really going on tour. He said: That was a joke he said when I was chatting with Mrs. Kang.Don't take it seriously. The fourth master said: The old man has solemnly explained to us. Lao Xia also said: The old man has already instructed me to arrange many matters for the tour as soon as possible. Shopkeeper Sun Da said: Did he really say he was going to leave? Lao Xia said: No way!Otherwise, we would come to see you in such a hurry? The fourth master said: Master shopkeeper, you have to persuade the old lady.If he really wanted to go on tour, he would have to miss the summer, right? Sun Beiming pondered for a moment, then said: Then I'll go see the old man.Let's see if he really wants to go on a tour, or has he published another Zen family koan for you to understand?He really wants to go on tour, so I have to settle everything on the cabinet quickly! The fourth master said: "The old man really wants to go on tour, can't you persuade Master Sun?" Shopkeeper Sun said: Fourth master, Lao Xia, let me see the old man first. The fourth master hurriedly said: Then I will ask the shopkeeper, Sun Da, a lot! Lao Xia also said: The shopkeeper keeps his promises, and no one can persuade the old man except you to speak out. After leaving Tiancheng Yuanpiao House, Lao Xia accompanied Fourth Master to Tianshengchuan Tea House. Tianshengchuan Tea House is also on West Street, not far from Tianchengyuan.The door face is not as elegant as Tiancheng's, but it has an antique elegance.Although the Kang family's big business is in Tianchengyuan, Tianshengchuan is the family name of the Kang family, so its status has never been low.Every year in the first month of the lunar year when the business is open, Kang Wat goes south to the city to burn incense and bless his own brand name, and worship the God of Wealth. Tianshengchuan was just a small tea house in the city of naturalization in the early years.At that time, Kang Shiyun, the head of the Kang family, ran a small camel transport agency in Taigu, raising more than 100 camels, and ran the tea-horse road between Hankou and Kouwaiguihua.When going up, the old green brick tea will be transported from Yanglou Cave in Puqi, Hubei, outside the north exit; when going down, the woolen felt will be carried from Guihua to Hankou in the south.Tianshengchuan Tea House is a regular customer of the Kangjia Camel Transport Club, transporting tea goods from Hubei for it all the year round. Old green tea, which belongs to black tea, is a kind of fermented tea.Mongolian herdsmen are used to making milk tea with old green tea, and milk tea is half of the daily diet of herdsmen.However, the old green tea business in Mengdi is almost monopolized by Dashengkui, the number one firm of Jin people in Mongolia.Tianshengchuan is a small tea factory, so it is impossible to compete with it, and the manager assistant is a mediocre person, so the business can't do well.In the end, it was often difficult to pay the freight in arrears to the camel transport agency.But Kang Shiyun was very benevolent, owed the shipping fee, and still bought goods for Tianshengchuan.With more and more debts, the Kang family's benevolence has not diminished.Feeling his sincerity, the treasurer and treasurer of Tianshengchuan offered the tea estate to Kang's family in return for the debt. Kang Shiyun took over the Tianshengchuan tea house, first avoiding Dashengkui's edge, and no longer doing the old green brick tea business.Da Shengkui's camel transport team has tens of thousands of camels, and the mobile houses for sale can travel all the pastures in Inner and Inner Mongolia.Who can compete with it?It was during the reign of Emperor Yongzheng, when the China-Russia Kyakhta Commercial Treaty had just been signed.Kang Shiyun had a unique insight, and boldly transferred his business to the more remote frontier town of Qiaktu, where he opened a branch in Tianshengchuan.After traveling the tea-horse road for many years, he knows that Russians like to drink black tea, and the rice brick tea from Yanglou Cave in Puqi is a very famous black tea.Changing old green tea into rice brick tea is a matter of familiarity.After Tianshengchuan changed hands, it turned to the foreign trade business specializing in rice brick tea. Although the camel road extends from naturalization to Kyakhta, across the whole north and south of Mongolia, and there are many difficulties and obstacles that cannot be exhausted, but at the beginning of the establishment of the trading city of Kyakhta, it took the lead and took the lead.Tianshengchuan not only established a foothold in this treasure land of border trade that will be extremely prosperous in the future, but also developed rapidly.Selling rice brick tea to Russian businessmen has made a lot of profits, which is incomparable to the old green tea business.The furs and woolen goods sold back from Russia can even be sold at a good price for precious items in Hankou.Come and go, Lifeng at both ends, what are you waiting for if you are underdeveloped! In the hands of Kang Hunan's great-grandfather, Tianshengchuan tea house has expanded its business.總號由歸化移到太谷，在湖北蒲圻羊樓洞有了自己的茶場，恰克圖的字號更成為大商行。駝運社則移到歸化，駱駝已有千峰之多。 康家的茶場，除了自種，在鄂南大量收購毛茶，經萎凋、揉捻、發酵、蒸壓，製成磚茶，然後，運回太谷老號，包了專用麻紙，加蓋天盛川字號的紅印，三十六片裝成一箱，再由駝隊發運恰克圖。 經歷乾嘉盛世，恰克圖已成邊貿大埠，天盛川也成為出口茶葉的大商號。自然，康家也成巨富。 道光初年，平遙西裕成顏料莊改號為日昇昌，專營銀錢匯兌的生意，打出了匯通天下的招牌。從此，山西商人涉足金融業，獨創了近代中國的前銀行票號，將晉商的事業推向了最輝煌的階段。康家依託天盛川茶莊的雄厚財力和既有信譽，很快也創辦了自家的票莊：天成元。康家也由此走向自己的輝煌。 票莊是錢生錢的生意，發達起來，遠甚茶莊。尤其到咸豐年間，俄國商人已獲朝廷允許，直入兩湖採購茶葉，還在漢口設了茶葉加工廠。俄商與西幫的競爭，已異常殘酷。康家雖沒有退出茶葉外貿的生意，但已將商事的重心，轉到票莊了。 天盛川茶莊的大掌櫃林琴軒，是一位頗有抱負的老領東了，他苦撐茶莊危局，不甘衰敗。對東家重票莊、輕茶莊，一向很不以為然。所以，當四爺和老夏來求助時，他毫不客氣，直言他是支持老太爺出巡的。 叫我說，老太爺早該有此壯舉了。看看當今天下大勢，危難無處不在，可各碼頭的老幫伙友，一片自負。尤其他們票莊，不但自負更甚，還沉迷於奢華，危難於他們彷彿永不搭界！天下哪有這樣的便宜？老太爺不出面警示一番，怎麼得了！ 四爺說：林大掌櫃一片赤誠，我們一向敬重無比。所以才來求助大掌櫃，只有大掌櫃的話，老太爺肯聽。我們不是阻攔老太爺出巡，只是想叫他錯過熱天，畢竟是年逾古稀了。 老夏也說：聽說外間也不寧靜。要出巡，選個好時候，總不能這樣，說走就要走。 林琴軒說：這你們就不懂了。我看老太爺才不是心血來潮，他是專門挑了這樣的時候。 大熱天，外間又不寧靜，以古稀之年冒暑冒險，出行千里巡視生意，這才像我們西幫的舉動。時候好，又平安，不受一點罪，那是去出遊享樂，能警示誰？ 四爺說：父母在，不遠行。現在家父要遠行，林大掌櫃，你說我們能不聞不問嗎？ 林大掌櫃說：不孝有三，無後為大。老太爺生了你們六位老爺，不是我說難聽話，你們有誰堪當後繼？ 當著四爺的面，林大掌櫃就說出這樣的話，老夏雖感不滿，也不便頂撞。因為即使當著老太爺，林大掌櫃有時也是這樣直言的。看看四爺，並無怒氣，只是很虔誠地滿臉愧色。 林大掌櫃說的是，我們太庸碌了，不能替老太爺分憂、分勞。 四爺，你真是太善了，善到這樣沒有一點火氣。你像歸隱林下的出世者，不爭，不怒，什麼都不在乎，這哪裡像是商家？ 老夏忙說：四爺這樣心善，有什麼不好！ 林大掌櫃說：你們幾位老爺，都是這樣逸士一般，仙人一般，商家大志何以存焉？ 四爺依然一臉虔誠的愧色，說：哪裡是逸士仙人，實在是太庸碌了。要不，還需勞動老太爺這樣冒暑冒險出巡嗎？ 老夏說：林大掌櫃，三爺在口外巡視生意，已經快一年了。三爺於商事，那是懷有大志的。 林大掌櫃居然說：三爺他倒是有心勁兒，可惜也不過是匹夫之勇。 老夏就說：林大掌櫃，你也太狂妄失禮了吧？當著四爺，連三爺也糟蹋上了，太過分了！你當大掌櫃再年久，也要守那東伙之分、主僕之別吧？ 正是當著四爺，我才這樣直諫。 四爺忙說：林大掌櫃一片赤誠，我們是極為敬佩的。所以我們才來求助大掌櫃。 不用勸老太爺了，他想出巡，就叫他出巡。他能受得下旅途這點辛苦，不用你們瞎操心。你們康家是拉駱駝起家，不應該怕這點旅途辛苦。沒有這點辛苦，哪還能立足西幫！ 四爺說：那就聽林大掌櫃的，不再勸阻老太爺出巡。林大掌櫃能否為老太爺選一相宜的出巡路線？ 林大掌櫃說：還是怕熱著老爺子吧？叫我說，他想去哪兒，就由他去哪兒。你們無非叫我勸他，往涼快的地界走。可叫我看，三爺既在口外，他一準下江南。 下江南？ 大熱天，下江南？ 你們不用大驚小怪了，下江南，就由他下江南。 林大掌櫃說話不留情，可執意要四爺和老夏留在字號用飯。席間幾盅酒下肚，他說話就更無情了。除了老太爺，幾乎無人不被數落，尤其是票莊的孫北溟大掌櫃，林琴軒數落更甚。 四爺和老夏，也只能虔誠地聽著。 five 求助的三位人物，就有兩位不但不勸阻，反而很贊成老太爺出巡。六爺聽了這個消息，心裡倒是暗暗高興。只有一個孫大掌櫃，沒有說定是勸阻，還是贊同。四爺說，聽孫大掌櫃口氣，好像是不贊同。 孫大掌櫃可不是一般人物，他要出面阻攔，說不定真能把老太爺攔下。 六爺想了想，忽然想到一個人，那就是他最不願意見的老夫人。老夫人出面勸阻，那會怎麼樣呢？六爺知道，老太爺是不會聽從她的勸阻的。但應該請她出面勸一勸。於情於理，都應請她出面勸一勸。趁見老夫人的機會，也可進一次老院。 這天從家館下學回來，吃過晚飯，就去老院求見老夫人。下人傳話進去，老亭很快就出來了。 六爺，我這就去對老夫人說。老夫人要問起，六爺為什麼事來見她，我怎麼回話？ 我正預備明年大試的策論，怕有制夷之論。所以想向老夫人問問西洋列強情形。 六爺稍擔待，我這就去說。 老亭進去不多久，老夫人身邊的呂布就跑出來了。 六爺是稀客，老夫人一聽說，就叫我趕緊來請！ 六爺真是沒有想到，這樣容易就進了老院。以前他想進老院，總是以求見老太爺為由，老太爺又總是回絕他。但他從沒有求見老夫人。這位替代了母親的女人，他最不想見她。今天來見她，也完全是為了母親。 跟著呂布，穿過兩進院，來到了父親的大書房。 這裡也曾經是母親生前居住的地方，但他自己是一天也沒有在這裡住過。他一落地，就和奶媽住進了派給他的那處庭院。母親也常常住在那裡。 現在，這個替代了母親的女人，已經站在大書房的門前。她這樣屈尊來迎接，六爺心裡更感到不快。 拜見母親大人了。 六爺正要勉強行跪拜禮，老夫人就說：呂布，你快扶六爺進屋，我這裡不講究，快不用那樣多禮。 進屋後，又把他讓進了她的書房，是想消去長輩的威嚴吧。其實，他在心裡從來也不認同她這位繼母。 這間書房，以前也是母親的書房。裡面的擺設，好像什麼也沒有改變，只是有些凌亂。書櫥上置有《十三經註疏》、《欽定詩經》、《蘇批孟子》、《古文眉銓》、《算經十書》、《瀛環志略》、《海國圖志》、《泰西藝學通考》一類書籍。六爺猜不出這個替代了母親的女人，是否會讀這些枯燥的書，也猜不出母親在世時，這些書籍是否已放置在此了。 這裡的書櫥，可比他自己房裡的書櫥精緻得多，是一排酸枝淺雕人物博古紋亮格書櫥。那邊，老爺子的書房，放置書籍的更是紅木書卷頭多寶架。 聽說六爺正在為明年的大比日夜苦讀呢。 這個女人的京話，說得這樣悅耳，六爺也感到很不快。 我哪裡是讀書的材料，不過是遵了老太爺的命吧。 六爺極有天分，我是早知道的。明年一準會蟾宮折桂，為你們康家博回一份光耀祖宗的功名來。 謝謝母親大人的吉言，只怕會叫大家失望的。 Won't.六爺，叫誰失望都不怕，但能叫你的先母失望嗎？這麼多年了，她的在天之靈一直惦記著你，真是得信那句話：驚天地，泣鬼神！ 六爺沒有想到，這個女人會說這樣的話。她是真心這樣說，還是一種虛情假意？ 先母生前的確是希望我能讀書成功的。可惜，我那時幼小無知。母親大人，難道你也相信，先母的靈魂還在掛念我？ 我一直相信。 Why do you believe it? 因為我也是一個女人。尤其是我住進了你父親的這座大書房，住進了你的先母住過的這一半大屋，我就能理解她了。 可是，父親一直不讓我相信先母的鬼魂。 但我相信。 先母的靈魂，回到過這座大書房嗎？ No.我盼望她能來，但她一直沒來。 你不怕她的鬼魂？ 我知道，她不會怨恨我。 那先母怨恨誰？ 六爺，我不能給你說。 Why not? I can't say.六爺，你還是全力備考吧，不能叫你的先母失望。聽說，你要問我西洋列強情形，我哪裡能知道！ 母親大人，我今天來拜見你，其實是為另一件事。老太爺他要到各地碼頭出巡，你知道嗎？ 我哪裡會知道？沒有人告訴過我。他什麼時候出巡去？ 他說走，就要走。已經叫老夏給預備出巡的諸事了，也不管正是五黃六月大熱天！他那麼大年紀了，大熱天怎麼能出遠門？但我們都勸不住他，票莊茶莊的大掌櫃也勸不住他。今天來，就是想請母親大人勸一勸他。想出巡，也得揀個好時候。就不能錯過熱天，等涼快了再說？ 杜筠青聽了六爺這番話，半天沒有言聲。 他決定要出巡，已經鬧得這樣沸沸揚揚，她連知道也不知道。他不告訴她，下面的人，也沒有一人告訴她。呂布是不知道，還是知道了也不告訴她？她當的這是什麼老夫人！想出巡，就去吧。她不阻攔，即便想阻攔，能阻攔得了！ 但她又不能將這一份幽怨，流露給六爺。 母親大人，你也不便勸說嗎？ 不，我看你父親要冒暑出巡，是一次壯舉。我為什麼要勸阻他呢？只是，不知要出巡何方？要是赴京師天津，我也想隨行呢。我已經離京十多年，真想回去看看。四五年前，你父親出巡京津，我便想隨行，未能如願。 聽說，這次是要下江南。 下江南？下江南，我也願意隨行。我外祖家就在江南，那裡天地靈秀，文運隆盛。六爺，你也該隨你父親下一趟江南，竊一點他們的靈秀之氣回來。 可老太爺那麼大年紀了，冒暑勞頓千里，我們怎麼能安心呢？ 他身子骨好著呢，又有華車駿馬，僕役保鏢，什麼也不用擔心。你們康家不是走口外走出來的嗎，還怕出門走路？ 六爺沒有想到，老夫人居然是這樣一種態度。她也是不但不勸阻，更視老太爺出巡為一件平常事，出巡就出巡吧。 這位替代了母親的女人，是不是也盼望著老太爺出巡能成行？ 六爺從老院出來，回想老夫人的言談，分明有種話外之音似的，至少在話語間是流露了某種暗示。她說母親不會怨恨她，也許她知道母親的什麼秘密吧？ 六爺回來將這種感覺告訴了奶媽，他還說了一句：她好像也同情母親呢。 奶媽聽後，立刻就激憤了，說：六爺，你可千萬不能相信她！ 說時，竟落下淚來。 六爺沒有想到，奶媽會有這樣激烈的反應。就問：母親生前認識這個女人嗎？ 奶媽嘆了口氣，說：六爺，有些話，我本來想等你中舉、成家後，再對你說。這也是你母親臨終的交代。現在，就不妨對你先說了吧。 母親去世後，奶媽就是他最親近的人了。但他早已感覺到，奶媽有什麼秘密瞞著他。現在，終於要把這些秘密說出來了。 奶媽，我早知道，你們有話不對我說。 六爺，那是因為你小。說了，你也不明白。 現在，我已經不小了，那就快說吧。 但奶媽說出的第一句話，就叫六爺大吃一驚：六爺，你母親就是叫這個女人逼死的。 她逼死了母親？只是，聽完奶媽的話，六爺明白了母親的去世，是同這個女人有關。可好像也不能說就是她逼死了母親。 原來，杜筠青回到太谷之初，陪伴著父親出入名門大戶，那一半京味、一半洋味的獨特風采，很被傳頌一時。自然，也傳入了康莊德新堂，傳入康笏南的耳中。他當著老爺少爺的面時正色厲聲，不叫議論這個女子。太谷的名門大戶，幾乎都宴請過杜長萱父女了，康家也一直沒有從眾。康家不少人，包括各房的女眷們，都想見一見這位時新女子，康笏南只是不鬆口。 不過，回到老院，康笏南就不斷說起這位杜家女子。那時的老夫人，也就是六爺的生母，聽老太爺不斷說這位女子，並無一點妒意。聽著老太爺用那欣賞的口氣，說起這個杜家女子，京話說得如何好，生了一雙天足，卻又如何婀娜鮮活，在場面上，又如何開明大方，一如西洋女子，她也只是很想見見這個女子。 她幾次對康笏南說：我們不妨也宴請他們一次，聽一聽西洋的趣事，也給杜家一個面子。 可康笏南總是說：要請，我們康家也只能請杜長萱他一人！ 到頭來，康家連杜長萱一人也沒有請。 老夫人後來聽說，康家的天盛川茶莊，宴請過杜家父女。老太爺那日去了天盛川，但沒有出面主持宴席，只是獨坐在宴席的裡間，聽了杜家父女的言談。老夫人想，他一定也窺視了這位杜家女子的芳容和風采。 但她心裡，實在也沒有生出一絲妒意。她甚至想，老太爺既然如此喜歡這位杜家女子，何不託人去試探一下，看她願意不願意來做小。杜長萱是京師官場失意，回鄉賦閒，杜筠青又是失夫寡居，答應做小，也不辱沒他們的。那時，老夫人也正想全心來撫愛年幼的六爺，她一點也不想在康笏南那裡爭寵。 她將這個想法給康笏南婉轉說了，康笏南竟勃然大怒，說怎麼敢攛掇他去壞祖傳的規矩！ 康家不納妾的美德，天下皆知，怎麼想叫他康笏南給敗壞了，是什麼用心啊！ 不納小就不納吧，也用不著生這樣的大氣。她能有什麼用心？不納小，在她豈不更好！ 從那以後，康笏南對她日漸冷淡。冷淡就冷淡吧，她本來也有滿腔難言之痛，早想遠離了，全心去疼愛她的幼子六爺。 總之，她是全沒有把這個變故放在心上，可她的身體還是日漸虛弱起來。飲食減少，身上乏力，又常常犯困。對此，她自己也感到很奇怪。 那時，她能知心的，也惟有六爺的奶媽。 奶媽說她，還是太把那個女人放在心上了，看自己熬煎成了什麼樣。她真是一點都沒有把那位杜家女子放到心上，可任她怎麼說，奶媽也不相信。她越說自己是莫名地虛弱起來，奶媽越是不相信。 她說：我要是心思重，心裡熬煎，那該是長夜難眠，睡