Chapter 25 Chapter 24 Rain, Moon, Snow

one When Du Yunqing first came to this nunnery, she was numb and didn't respond to anything.What kind of territory is this, who is there, how she is treated, and even how she eats, lives, and lives, all of which have lost the awareness of examination. In the eyes of others, she seemed to be out of her body, like a living dead. After more than a month in this way, Du Yunqing showed some vitality and noticed that this is an unfamiliar land boundary, very close to the mountain. However, this land is very quiet and clean, and there is always a fragrance of incense, as if it is the breath of a fairyland.Therefore, she couldn't help thinking ignorantly: This is the land to come after death, right?

It is not big here, there are not many courtyards, but there are trees in the courtyards.The tranquility under the shelter of the green shade is indeed very strange.In the center of the front yard is an exquisite flower pond, in which there are several flowers and trees with old trunks, lush branches and leaves, and huge flowers.It's a pity that the flowers are fading, and the pond is full of falling flowers.It must be some kind of precious flower for offering in such a prominent position. On this day, Du Yunqing was in a daze in front of the flower pond when a lame old woman came over.The old woman seemed to recognize it, so she asked: What kind of flower is this?

The old woman said coldly: I have told you several times, this is peony. you told me The old woman snorted coldly. What is the name of the flower? peony.How can the flowers next to it be so big? peony?Do peonies have such big flowers? Have you never seen a peony?What a waste to grow up in the capital. What capital? The capital is the capital, what could it be?no more.Are you still eating your tea and rice?After taking a few bites, I ran here to be in a daze. Tea and rice? If you want to eat, go back and eat!After dinner, there is no one to serve. After finishing speaking, the old woman staggered away.

The old woman has small feet and a limp, but she walks vigorously.Du Yunqing looked at the old woman who was leaving, and didn't go back to eat immediately.She also didn't remember that the fading flowers and trees in the pool were called peonies. This old woman is exactly Kang Hunan's fourth wife, Meng Shi, who was also Rumei who was brought up by the third master, the old nun with beauty moles whom she ran into in Fengshan last year.She took a dharma name for herself, called Yuedi. When she was mysteriously deposed by Kang Hunan, like Du Yunqing, she was lethargic at first, then died of a serious illness, and then witnessed the grand funeral for herself, and was finally sent to this quiet nunnery.Back then, she was deposed because of this woman from the Du family who had returned from the capital.Now, Mrs. Du has also followed in his own footsteps, and has fallen into this extraterrestrial Buddhist world.Yuedi should have been somewhat happy, but she really didn't have that kind of thought.

She was as calm as stagnant water. When Du Yunqing was ill, Yuedi heard the news.She was someone who had experienced it, and she knew that Du's end in the Kang family was coming soon.At that time, all she felt was a bit of pity: the Buddha nature must have wiped out her jealousy and hatred long ago. Du's arrival came earlier than she expected.She originally thought that it would always be delayed until May, but she didn't expect to come here as soon as March.Mrs. Du was not as haggard and old as imagined, this woman did not seem to have experienced great grief.In the past, I always wanted to face Du Shi up close and take a closer look.Now, I finally got my wish, but I no longer have that interest.At that time, Du Shi was also in a daze, as if his soul had gone away, and he lost his joy and anger.She and Mrs. Du must be enemies, and finally meet each other at the end of the road, but it seems that they don't know each other, calm as stagnant water.

Is this the meaning of Buddha? Back then, when Yuedi first arrived here, he was also in a daze, like a living dead.When she was seriously ill, she didn't want to die, but she wasn't petrified: God wanted you to die, and you couldn't escape it.But that mighty funeral really frightened her into a petrified state!She didn't die, but the grand funeral that announced her death was held with such grandeur: she couldn't understand what happened. Lao Ting told her at that time: This is the only way to save her life.Only a grand and grand fake burial can keep her real life. But at that time, she could no longer understand other people's words. She was not deaf, but she couldn't understand Lao Ting's words at all.

She is demented, stupid. It was only later that she suspected that she was so stupid at that time, except that the funeral of the big scene frightened her too much, maybe the medicine in her body hadn't worn off yet.After many years of comprehension, she finally suspected that she was so lethargic and comatose before she died, probably because of some medicine she took. Now, Du Shi's dementia is so severe, it must be due to the nature of the medicine. Back then, after Yuedi arrived at the nunnery, he was in a daze for ten days and a half. After that, he gradually became less stupid, and he knew the grief first.Du Shi has been stupid for more than a month, and he still can't recover, Yuedi suspects that they have administered too much medicine.The onset of illness in the twelfth lunar month, the serious illness in the first month, the ascension to heaven in February, and the mourning in March, it is too hasty.It took nearly half a year for Yuedi himself to go from the onset of illness to his funeral.

Such a rush to give Du Shi such a strong drug, probably due to the fact that she is healthy and minded, is also forced by the current situation, but if she is given such a tiger wolf drug, what if she passes out of a coma and never wakes up again? Or, are they still secretly continuing to drug her? The pity of Yuedi is derived from this.She pays attention to checking the fast food in the nunnery, and beware of adding any medicine secretly.Because the rice, grain and vegetables in the nunnery are still supplied by the Kang family.But Du Shi is not the only one who eats tea and rice in the nunnery.Others are fine, so should Mrs. Du.This has always been what Yuedi eats, and Dushi eats what he eats.But Du Shi is still foolish, unable to call back his soul.

Yuedi was full of doubts and had nothing to do.Is it the Buddha's will not to wake up Du Shi?Or, is it Buddha's intention that he doesn't want to inquire about Liu Ye's current situation?She hoped that Mrs. Du would wake up, but she actually had a private idea: ask Mrs. Du carefully about Master Liu.Thinking of Liu Ye, Yuedi suddenly realized: Mrs. Du had no worries!There is no big concern in the world to tear you down, but it's not like you can't wake up! When Meng Shi woke up, the first thing she thought of was Liu Ye!Master Liu was her life, and Liu'er was only five years old at that time.At the end of her life, the only thing she couldn't let go of was Liu'er.

If there is no Liu'er, God will tell her to die, and she will die willingly.The Kang family, Mrs. Kang, and her days as an old lady really didn't make her miss them much.But God gave her a Liuer, so she was given an undead life.But her six son is only five years old, and God is going to call her dead!What crime did she do to suffer such retribution? Can't she let Liu'er grow up and claim her life after he becomes an adult? Her life is not precious, and she is not really enjoying the glory and wealth in the Kang family. The humiliation and resentment during the period are hard for the world to know, but God should know.Let her suffer for a few more years!

Once Liu'er stands on her own, she should kill herself with a smile on her face. But God did not listen to her pleading, as if she would die without mercy. Bewildered, she came to the nunnery, and it was Liu'er who woke her up first.When he was dying, the nanny brought Liu'er in her arms.She also wanted to hug Liu'er, but Liu'er refused to let her, just looked at her strangely, and struggled back. Are you haggard and frightening?Tears are already welling up. But Liu'er didn't feel any grief at all, he still doesn't know what grief is, right? The heavy drowsiness oppressed her again, and she didn't have the strength to grieve anymore.Since then, I have never seen Liu'er, nor my nurse: she has reached the end of her ascension to heaven.So before she died, the last memory left to her in the whole world was Liu'er who knew no grief, looked at her strangely, struggling backward as if she wanted to abandon her Since he is not dead, since he is still alive, he must first let Liu'er know, and he must meet Liu'er first!Can't see Liu'er, what's the use of keeping this life? But the nunnery master persuaded her not to go, coldly advised her not to go. Later, I found out that Yudi, the master of the nunnery, turned out to be the fifth master's biological mother, Zhu Shi.At that time, Yudi, although indifferent, had a kind face. In his forties, his face is as clean as a virgin, and his expression is as calm as water. At that time, Mrs. Meng was like Mrs. Du today. She didn't pay attention to everything in front of her eyes, so she couldn't feel whether the rain was good or evil.Her heart was completely occupied by Liu'er. How could she listen to Yu's persuasion?Just say: I have to go, I have to go, no one can stop me. Yudi said indifferently: Someone can stop you. No one can stop it! Even your sixth master can't stop you? Six children?How could he block me?He won't block me! Are you not afraid to scare him? I will scare him? If you reappear in the Kang family, you will be a ghost. ghost? You have died of illness and mourned, and the new grave has not yet been dry. Lao Ting said that it was a fake burial. In the Kang family, few people knew that it was a fake burial.In the whole Taigu, everyone knows that you have a grand funeral.You reappear, who dares to treat you as a living person in the world? Meng Shi was so shocked that she couldn't speak. Although you are alive, you and the world outside the nunnery are already two realms of yin and yang. Yin and Yang? The Kang family mourned for you so grandly, do you think it was just for show?It was a sign to the sun: Your old lady Meng has ascended to heaven.From then on, you only have a ghost body in the yang world and no longer have a living body. They said it was a fake burial, to avoid disaster and save my life Yudi sneered, and said: The underworld wants to end your life, so if you hide here, you won't be able to find it?Yincao is so stupid, the Kang family can fool them with a fake burial?If this method is effective, everyone in the world will not die. Meng Shi was speechless again. Remember, you are already in the world of yin and yang in the world outside the nunnery, so forget the world of mortals outside as soon as possible. Yin and Yang?I do not care!I can't forget Liu'er, I have to see Liu'er! It's up to you to listen to me or not.But if you scare your Liu'er out of your mind, you can't feel at ease in this underworld, right? Liu'er will recognize me, he is my flesh and blood, I can't scare him! Sixth Master was young, so maybe he didn't know how to be afraid.But you have left a ghostly impression in his young heart, how can he miss you all his life? Liu'er will recognize me, will recognize that I am not dead! Yudi smiled coldly again and stopped persuading her. At that time, Meng Shi really did not believe that he could not return to the world. two Knowing what situation she was in, Meng Shi also calmed down a little.But she still put a price on her own life without hesitation: if she can't see Liu'er, if she can't enjoy the family relationship with Liu'er again, she will die for real.She just saved this life for Liu'er. Lost Liu'er, lingering in this yin and yang world, how can I really go to heaven! Meng asked Yudi what the rules were in the nunnery.The nunnery master said, there are no rules, you are not required to be ordained, you are not required to do Buddhist homework, and you are not required to observe the precepts, you can live according to your habits in the world.Because the Great Precepts of the Outer World have been set, even if you want to jump, you can't jump out. The world of mortals in the world has long been far away from us, and it is no longer possible to get close. This is called being comfortable without precepts. At that time, Meng Shi didn't have much awareness of the great ring covering him.Since there is no need to shave or change the nun's cassock, what is the difference between today's body and the past?Just trying to send a message to Liu'er's nanny, and the way back to the world will be opened.The nurse is her confidant, she is really a ghost, and the nurse will see her. But who can deliver the message for her?There are no other nuns in the nunnery except the nunnery master Yudi, and only a few maids who have not become monks, all of whom are middle-aged women.They should be easy to buy, right? It turned out that it was simply difficult to get to the blue sky!They all earn money from the Kang family, so it is inconvenient for them to exceed the rules.What's even more frightening is that Meng himself has no money to bribe others.Only now did she understand better that she had nothing but this life, her previous monthly chart, private house, delicate jewelry, and all valuable and non-valuable things were all left in the mortal world.She has nothing else, what can she use to bribe others? The nunnery provides all food and clothing, and gives everything you want, but no money.Even Yudi, the nunnery master, has not touched silver for many years.All the expenses in the nunnery were sent by the Kang family ready-made.The rainy land has regarded money as waste.But the Meng family was surprised: The Kang family really knows the power of money! If you can't buy others, you can only rely on yourself. How can you ask money to separate her from Liu'er?Since her life is there, these two legs can move.There is no car to send the sedan chair to welcome me, and I can still walk at home. She has already recognized that this nunnery is under Fengshan Mountain, not too far from Kangzhuang.She visits Longquan Temple in Fengshan once or twice a year.From here to Kangzhuang, it is just a smooth road all the way to the north. The Meng family silently began to plan: how to spy on Kangzhuang on foot. In her opinion, everything is nothing to worry about, the only thing she should worry about is choosing an appropriate time.Yudi has already pointed out to her: The outside world knew she was dead.Therefore, it is difficult for her to show up when the sky is bright.But in the dark of night, the Kang family had already closed their doors, unable to contact Liu'er.Then only at dusk, right?At this time, the sky was hazy, and the gate was not closed. But when I think about it again, I don't think it's right at dusk.The Kang family is a wealthy family, and they have very strict guards on the door.She has been in the Kang family for more than ten years, and knows that the Kang family's security at dusk is the strictest during the day: they are afraid that strongmen will sneak into the house at dusk and sneak into the house to steal at night. Then choose in the early morning?The Kang family has the habit of getting up early.Especially the men who practice Xingyiquan, pay attention to starting the practice before the sun is up, so the side door of the mansion can be entered and exited early.At the beginning of the morning, people will inevitably remain drowsy, staring in a daze, not alert.She comes in and out as a woman, so it won't attract attention.At this time, Liu'er should be sleeping soundly, and Mrs. Cui, the nurse, must have woken up.See Mrs. Cui first, it's easy to tell the truth, and it won't scare Liu'er. Just choose in the early morning. Meng Shi was eager to see Liu'er, so she made such a rough plan, thinking that everything was in order.She chose ordinary clothes and secretly prepared some dry food, so she decided to go immediately. It wasn't until I lay down the night before my departure that I realized that I had to leave in the middle of the night: there were still more than twenty miles to go.Meng Shi had never walked such a long distance on foot, and he didn't know how long it would take.Anyway, let’s hurry up early rather than late, I’m late, I’m afraid I won’t be able to make it to Kangzhuang in the early morning. But if you leave in the middle of the night, how can you open the gate of this nunnery?The door of this nunnery is also closed at night and locked by maids. How could she convince the maid to open the door for her in the middle of the night?Said to go to the wild to pray?I'm afraid it can't be said: she still doesn't have the capital to buy a maid. That night, Meng really stayed up all night.In the past, you didn't need to arrange everything by yourself. If you have something to do, you can just order it, and someone will take care of you.Now, not only do they have to do it themselves, but they also lose any capital and status.The maids here, no one treats her like an old lady.It's really a world of yin and yang. But she must go to see Liu'er.She must open a way between the yin and yang worlds. Not in the early morning, but at dusk?After much deliberation, I finally figured it out: It doesn't matter whether it's early morning or dusk. Anyway, when the gate of the mountain is not closed, I leave the nunnery and walk north.Before the sky is dark, just don't enter Kangzhuang.Only walk around in unfamiliar lands, and no one will treat you as a ghost.When the sky is dim, whether it's dusk or early morning, just sneak into Kang's house. Anyway, I made up my mind that if I don't see Liu'er, I won't go back to this nunnery again!Wandering outside, begging for food, not afraid.It's also hot, and if you spend the night outside, you won't be able to freeze. Now that you are going to do something more important than your life, then everything is no problem. After only one day's delay, Mrs. Meng quietly left the nunnery in the afternoon. At that time, there were not many tourists in Fengshan Mountain, and the nunnery was located in a secluded valley.The journey out of Fengshan was quite smooth.I haven't met anyone, and I still have strength to use under my feet.After leaving Fengshan, the road is smoother, but it still goes downhill slowly.But Meng felt that every step was getting heavier.Walking further, I felt that my whole body was getting heavier and heavier, and it was all pressing on my two feet, almost crushing my muscles and bones. He gritted his teeth and walked another distance, but couldn't move anymore, so he sat on the ground and leaned on the side of the road. After a short period of panting, when I got up and started on the road again, I couldn't walk anymore: my feet were stiff, and I almost lost consciousness.God, her little golden lotus feet are so useless! The Meng family was born in a family of officials, and since she was a child, she had such a pair of noble little feet that she couldn't walk a few steps all day long.To become an old lady in Kang's house, there is no need to go any further.Usually, I don't walk much like this, so I don't realize that my family is not good at walking.Now, doing this long-distance trek unexpectedly, and being caught in such a predicament for the first time, what can I do except panic? So embarrassed, how to move forward!Even if I turn around and return to the nunnery, I don't know how long I will struggle, right? Meng Shi had no choice but to turn around and go back, but it was still more difficult step by step.After struggling for a long time, she was shaking three times at one step, resting at one step after three steps.Even though it was still early, the nunnery felt very far away. Will I be able to struggle back when it gets dark? Just when he was in desperate situation, a maid quietly appeared in the nunnery.The maid didn't say anything, but came over to help her, and walked back with difficulty step by step.When they got to the valley, the maid had to carry her for a while before returning to the nunnery. At that time, it was almost dusk.The nunnery master Yudi didn't say much, even the expression on his face remained the same, as if nothing had happened.He just ordered the maid to boil more hot water for Mrs. Meng to burn her feet. That night, Meng felt that she had lost her feet.During the sleepless period, I only felt my swollen legs, and I couldn't find the feeling of my feet anymore.She also lost her sense of grief and didn't want to cry.Just like that, he kept staring into the darkness, feeling the pain in his legs. She also hardly thought about Liu'er. The next day, Meng Shi could not walk anymore.Yudi came over and said to her: If you want to go a long way, you must first practice the strength of your feet and legs.There is a skill, would you like to practice it? The rainy land was so calm that Meng couldn't believe it, so she didn't say anything. This exercise is not difficult, as long as you have a lesson in the morning and evening, persevere, and don't try to rush it, you can practice it. I'm going far outside the nunnery, you won't stop me anymore? As I said earlier, everything is up to you, never obstructed. Forgive me if I can't go out, so I won't stop you? If you have the ability to break the great precept, I will not stop you. Meng Shi didn't like to hear Yudi's words like this.However, she still asked: What kind of exercises are you talking about?Did the female generation practice boxing? It is similar to outer boxing, but much simpler. From the simplicity of Xingyiquan? Maybe, I don't know what Xingyiquan is. Since it comes from the simplicity of boxing, I don't want to be contaminated.I hate men who practice boxing! Then there is a more simple practice method, ordinary people's movements, which have nothing to do with martial arts. How to practice this skill? The peony flower bed in the center of the front yard is 6636 steps around.You can walk around the flower bed in the morning and evening. It is up to you to walk fast or slow, and it is better to relax.For the first time, wind three times in the forward direction, and then three times in the reverse direction.If you practice like this for six days, you can add one round to each front and back.Another six days, plus.Persevere in this way, rain or shine, and practice until you walk ninety-nine and eighty-one laps on the front and back of each lesson, and you can reach the state of lightness on your feet, even if you are traveling around the world, you can feel free. How long does it take to practice? Obviously there are many, and it won't be too long. Meng thought about it for a few days, and felt that only by practicing her legs and feet would she be able to see Liu'er, so she decided to follow Yudi's advice and went around the flower bed to practice. She didn't expect that she ran out of the nunnery so recklessly, walked only three miles, and then lay down and rested for six or seven days before she regained her strength.Therefore, when she started to practice, she didn't dare to be reckless anymore, and honestly followed Yudi's instructions, she didn't dare to take more steps, and of course she didn't want to take less steps. When the Meng family entered the nunnery at the beginning of the year, it was already summer, so the peonies in the pool in the nunnery had already passed their flowering period, and there was no trace of falling red.She walked around the flower bed every day, only to see that its branches and leaves were plump and lush.Within a few days, I got tired of watching it. After the first month, each class was added to eight laps.There are eight for the front and back, which is sixteen; sixteen for the morning and evening, thirty-six circles per day, nearly 1,300 steps.Meng Shi didn't find it difficult after practicing.It's just that I always walk around a flower bed, just like a donkey pulling a mill. In a cramped area, I can't walk to the end, which is extremely boring.The peonies in the middle of the natural flower beds have not been seen as precious for a long time, they are just a bunch of low trees. Yu said: It will be fine in autumn, but you can see how the peonies wither day by day.In the spring of the next year, you can watch how it slowly recovers, buds, leaves, buds, and flowers. Do you have to practice until the peony blooms to come back to the end? Only then did Yudi tell the truth: a day without stretching would take a total of 474 days of practice before he could count to ninety-nine and eighty-one.Therefore, even if the peony flowering period comes again, it is far from over. It turns out that you have to practice for such a long time? three Yudi asked Meng Shi to practice this kind of homework, originally because he wanted to lighten the vulgar thoughts and not engage in vain struggles.The yin and yang fake situation set up by that old man of the Kang family is extremely meticulous.Not only is it futile for you to rush, but you also have to take another humiliation, so that the secular old man will really drive you away like a ghost, why bother?Since the secular world has failed you and abandoned you, why are you rushing back to do it? Walking around the flower bed so tediously, thinking about it in a boring way, you will always understand this truth.Especially when it's cool in autumn, seeing everything is dying day by day, even like Kao Peony, it is no exception, it is also in decline: look at things and think about yourself, don't you want to see through the world? When Meng Shi practiced until late autumn, it seemed that she was completely addicted to the exercises.She seldom mentioned her six children, but kept talking about how strong her legs and feet had become. In order to complete Meng's merits and virtues, Yudi kept telling her: "Now the legs and feet are just buoyant."There is no foundation for buoyancy, as long as you slack for a few days, the power will be gone, and months of hard work will be in vain.Only when you have practiced counting to ninety-nine and eighty-one, with a firm foundation and deep-rooted muscles and bones, will your leg and foot skills be used for a long time and you will never be exhausted. Meng Shi is now willing to listen to Yudi's words.If there is no accident, she will practice step by step until her merits and virtues are perfect. But the accident still happened. That day, Meng Shi was already practicing the number of thirty, that is, walking 30 laps on the front and back of each class, and a total of 120 laps and 4,320 steps in the whole day.Women with small feet have short strides, and these more than 4,000 steps have covered more than four miles.With such an amount, Meng Shi still didn't feel hard work, but rather had a sense of accomplishment and fun.So, recently, her evening class has been brought up a lot earlier, as soon as the sun sets and the sky is still bright, she starts practicing. Not long after the practice started that night, there were servants from outside to deliver food and vegetables.The flower bed is in the front yard, separated from the mountain gate by a screen wall.The two maids who were the chef in the nunnery kept joking with the guards when they were receiving rice, grain and vegetables at the screen wall, which was already the norm.But today they were at the screen wall, they seemed to be a little abnormal, they only talked about something mysteriously, there was no atmosphere of joking. Meng's state of mind has already become flat, abnormal is abnormal, the worldly situation really has nothing to do with me.Except for Liu'er, even if the sky falls and the earth sinks, let it go.She just concentrates on practicing her skills. However, after all, she still has an ordinary heart, even though she didn't pay much attention to the screen wall, she could vaguely sense that after the guards left, the two maids didn't rush to carry the food and vegetables, but kept standing at the gate of the mountain to continue the mysterious discussion.Meng Shi couldn't help but listen carefully.Hearing this, it was terrible, Meng Shi could hardly control herself, she wanted to yell a few times, and slumped on the ground. Fortunately, after five or six months of practice, I finally stood up and did not lose my composure. What did Meng Shi hear, so stimulated?It turned out that what the two maids were talking about was that Kang Hunan was going to marry Mrs. Du as the fifth old lady!Besides, the whole town was talking about it at that time. When this young and beautiful woman from Du's family came back to Jin with her father, she mixed Beijing flavor with foreign flavor, which caused quite a stir. The big households in Taigu competed for the banquet, of course the Meng family knew about it.Kang Hunan talked about Du Yunqing in the old courtyard, even if he was in front of Meng Shi, he didn't have any scruples.Kang Hunan's comments can be summed up in two words: great rewards. As a woman, Meng could best understand the meaning of Kang Hunan's appreciation of Du Yunqing, but she didn't feel much jealousy.Although she has been in the Kang family for many years, the Meng family has never been proud of being a business lady.It's not all about arrogance and self-cleaning, the fact that Kang Hunan was only willing to show his true self in the old home really made her hard to respect.What's more, it's not uncommon for big families to take concubines and beg for small ones, with three bedrooms and five bedrooms. Therefore, Mrs. Meng once sincerely advised Kang Hunan: If you like that girl from the Du family so much, why don't you ask a respectable person to make a test and see if you want to be a child to the old man?That woman is just a little widow, and her father is not a serious Beijing official, so she is not very noble, is she? Unexpectedly, when Kang Hunan heard this, he lowered his face and said coldly: "The Kang family does not marry concubines. This is a rule left by the ancestors. You want me to break it?" It's really kind and thankless.Who wants to break the rules of your ancestors, you know best, right?You keep criticizing the beauty of Du's daughter all day long, so you are obeying the rules of your ancestors?Look at every mention of other people's natural feet, it's almost salivating: a pair of natural feet, walking is also charming?Is Tianzu also so unique and exquisite? If you really don't want to break the rules of your ancestors, that's fine. From then on, the Meng family stopped talking, but Kang Hunan's comments on the daughters of the Du family did not restrain themselves. At that time, it was popular among rich families to invite Du's father and daughter as guests, but the Kang family remained silent.The young third master suggested several times to the old man: We also invite Du Changxuan, who has been on an embassy to the West, to listen to overseas anecdotes and broaden his knowledge.But Kang Hunan just refused to allow it, saying that foreigners are not kind, so what can he do! Seeing this, the Meng family thought that Kang Hunan would stick to the ancestral system.Later, although I also heard that the Kang family's Tianshengchuan tea house had hosted a banquet for the Du family's father and daughter, Kang Hunan did not attend publicly, but only peeked at Du Yunqing's face from behind the partition: after all, he did not want to deviate. The Du family's father and daughter made a big splash in the autumn and winter of that year, but by the end of the twelfth lunar month, it had calmed down.For the entire second year, almost no one mentioned the Du family father and daughter again.Meng Shi remembered that she had asked the third master this year: Has Du Changxuan returned to Beijing?The third master said: "I didn't leave, I'm still in Taigu."The third master didn't seem to want to say anything more about it, so she didn't ask any more. That's how it went. In the spring of the thirteenth year of Guangxu, when Mrs. Meng was seriously ill, even though she occasionally thought of the girl from the Du family, she never suspected anything.She suspected that she was ill too suddenly, but she never suspected Kang Hunan. Since coming to this nunnery, she has gradually understood the meaning of her suspended animation. Apart from worrying about her Liu'er, Meng Shi has already decided to abandon the secular world.As for the daughter of the Du family, she has really forgotten. But now, all of this collapsed in front of her: Kang Hunan is going to marry a woman from the Du family so soon!It turned out that her false burial was to fulfill Kang Hunan: not only let him marry the romantic woman he had coveted for a long time, but also told him to keep the ancestral system and keep his virtues! For heaven's sake, what evil has she done to make her fall into such a false situation? In order for this man to have both selfish desires and virtues, he actually messed up the yin and yang worlds? She is old and poor, and she can be discarded like a shoe, but the sixth master is your flesh and blood, and you have the heart to let him lose his mother since childhood? In any case, the Meng family couldn't bear it any longer, and just wanted to expose the fake situation of Kang Hunan to the world immediately.Now, the first person she can talk to is Yudi, the nunnery master.Because until now, she didn't know that Yudi was the fifth master's biological mother, Mrs. Zhu. At that time, she was very impulsive, ran in and held Yudi, and spoke incoherently about her shocking discovery. Yudi listened calmly like water, and after listening, he asked: Do you know who I am? who? I am the old Mrs. Zhu in front of you. Meng Shi was shocked again: Are you the fifth master's biological mother? Yudi smiled calmly and said: You haven't looked at my portrait carefully, have you? How could Mrs. Meng have not seen the portraits of the first three old ladies?But the difference between the portrait and the real person is really too big.The current Yudi is as holy as a fairy, who will link her with the late Zhu Shi? Yudi continued to say calmly: I have been buried alive in this nunnery for more than ten years.During this period, it was the time when you were an old lady in the Kang family. So you died because of me? How could it be because of you?Yudi smiled calmly again.Besides, I'm not dead.To say that the one who killed me should be the man in charge of the Kang family.He wants to marry another woman from an official background like you, so he will kill me.However, I didn't know where you were before I died.Forget it, it's already a secular world, so it's not worth mentioning. I have today, is it also retribution? You have not done any crime, how can you repay?It should be a blessing to be able to escape from the evil sea. Fortunately?How lucky to be in this state of neither yin nor yang! Yudi just smiled calmly. But Meng couldn't help asking: Did the old lady in front of you, the biological mother of the third and fourth masters, die like you and me? She is really dead, and being an old lady is also the shortest, only six or seven years.Kang Hunan also misses her the most.He chose me back then, as if he took me as a substitute for that woman.Where am I?It's ridiculous to be in the world of mortals. What about his first wife? Of course it is really dead.The false burial began. Not to mention the vanity of the old lady, she is just a living person, suddenly imprisoned here alone, how can you tolerate it? At the beginning of the year, I was no different from you, ignorant and ridiculous.It's just that the head of the nunnery is an orthodox nun, and her Taoism is profound. If she is extradited in time, she will gradually realize the Tao and enter the Dharma door. Where is this nun now? The mage has moved to other places to practice, and he thinks the dust of Taigu is too heavy. No matter how deep the Tao is, I don't believe it!Among other things, how could you not miss Fifth Master back then? The circling altar exercise you are practicing is the method used by the mage to save me.Back then, I was like you, the most difficult thing to cut off was the mother-child relationship with Wu'er.But the mage didn't say anything to stop him, he just said that to return to Kang's house, you must have feet and legs first. Your legs and feet have been disabled for a long time, how can you come?When I practice counting to ninety-nine and eighty-one, I have legs and feet, but I have already understood everything, and I don't want to re-enter the sea of ​​evil in the world. I do not believe!What did you understand? When you practice counting ninety-nine and eighty-one, you will understand. Meng Shi sneered. Although I am destined to extradite you, it is just that my morals are not profound.Since you have hoped to cross the sea of ​​evil, you still hope that you can practice the exercises to the end. At that time, Meng Shi could no longer listen to Yudi's words. Four After Meng knew that Yudi was Zhu who had passed away for many years, she lost her composure. She thought that it was Zhu's escape into the Buddhist gate without making a sound, that indulged Kang Hunan even more!Since the yin and yang fake game he created was so successful and so impeccable, why didn't there be another round? She must not be silent, as if she were really dead! Therefore, Meng shi resolutely stopped practicing.At this time, she also felt that her own legs and feet had been reborn, and she was not afraid even if there were thousands of mountains and rivers in front of her. She began to openly prepare to appear in Kangzhuang, and she did not shy away from Yudi and the maids in the nunnery.The strange thing is that they didn't say a word, especially Yudi, who was still calm. Did they believe that she would not be able to return to Kangzhuang? This angered Meng Shi even more.Really can't break this fake situation?She didn't believe it. Now, she doesn't need to make any more preparations.Since it is a holiday, there is no need to pick the time, when to go, when to go in.What needs to be prepared is to bring some dry food for the journey.She hasn't walked this long road yet, so she doesn't know how long it will take.You also need to bring a thick coat to keep out the cold. It is already cool in autumn, and you may have to spend the night in the wild. After saving enough dry food in two days, the Meng family resolutely walked out of the nunnery's mountain gate.She didn't say goodbye to Yudi, and she didn't pay attention to whether the maid was watching.At this time, the autumn sun has just risen, illuminating the valley golden.The frost-stained trees in the mountains are dotted with gold, which is a special scene.A little cool, but no wind. This is clearly the human world. Now Meng Shi really feels like walking lightly and vigorously, and walking is no longer a difficult task.This should also thank the rain.Why don't you want to go out of the nunnery since you have practiced in the rainy ground to the point of perfection?If you want to be born, why do you have to work hard on your legs and feet? Never mind her, don't think too much about it. Walking out of Fengshan this time and stepping into Pingchuan gradually, Mrs. Meng always felt very relaxed and her mood improved.After entering Pingchuan, she kept meeting pedestrians, chariots and horses, and farmers going out to work, but no one stopped to look at her. It can be seen that there is nothing unusual about her. It is less than twenty miles from Fengshan to Kangzhuang.It was already noon when Mrs. Meng approached.After walking ten miles, she gradually felt strenuous and walked more and more slowly.But she still made up her mind to move forward and never looked back.I thought maybe I would die of exhaustion on the road, but I didn't die of exhaustion, so I approached. When she clearly saw Kang Zhuang and the Kang family's house, she thought to herself: I have already died, so I won't die again.Even if I want to die of exhaustion, I will not die of exhaustion. At noon in late autumn, it is no longer as quiet as summer: the days are getting shorter, farming is busy, and the villagers no longer rest.At this moment, the Kang family is still resting, that is the old guy Kang Hunan. Regardless of whether it was quiet or lively, Mrs. Meng just kept moving forward.After seeing Kang Zhuang, she clearly regained her strength.Hmph, what's so difficult about returning to Kangzhuang?Lift your feet and walk back!Yudi pretended to be mysterious, maybe he was secretly entrusted by that old thing? In this way, the Meng family approached Kangzhuang vigorously.Seeing that they were about to enter the village, two farmers came to meet them, one was young and the other was older, carrying empty poles.Most of the farmers in Kangzhuang are tenants of the Kang family.So, before meeting, Meng lowered his head: She didn't want the peasants to recognize her prematurely. But it's too late! When he was about to approach, the young farmer looked at her first, but he didn't say anything, and continued to walk over.But the older one just raised his head and glanced at her afterward, then suddenly let out a stern scream, then fell to the ground, kowtowed like garlic, and kept begging What. At this time, the young man also froze, opened his mouth and stared for a moment, then suddenly dropped his pole and ran towards the village.While running, he yelled in terror. At that time, Mrs. Meng didn't hear what the young man was calling, and she didn't hear what the farmer was begging for: she was also frightened by this sudden situation, panicked, and couldn't care about anything.She was obviously also stunned, stunned! 一路走，她就曾一路想：世人會怎樣將她當鬼看？可還是沒料到會是這樣一種場面。而更難以想像的情景，還在後頭呢！ 可能就是轉眼間吧，村口已經聚滿了人。人群擁擠，卻沒人敢出聲，只是都抻長了脖子，朝她這裡張望。 也沒張望幾眼，這一片鄉人竟一齊匍匐在地，磕起頭來，但依舊沒人出聲。 這死寂忽然被打破：村中響起了淒厲的鑼聲。一面，又一面，鑼聲四起。 狗也狂吠起來，一呼百應。 孟氏幾乎是下意識地逃走了：她無力撒腿跑掉，只是鑽了路邊的一片莊稼地。那是未收割的高粱地，能將她完全隱沒。 後來多次回想，也幸虧有這一片高粱地。否則，那天村人將會怎麼驅趕她？說不定會請來什麼和尚道士，施了法，捉拿她？ 那天藏進高粱地，可是一直驚魂未定。她不知道村人會不會追趕進來，或者，人不敢進來，只放進狗來？那就更可怕。此刻，極度的疲累感已經湧上來，特別是腿腳，好像又失去了。她再無力挪動半步。有誰追進來捉拿她，都會易如反掌。 村中的鑼聲和狗吠喧囂了很久，才漸漸平息。但一直沒見人或狗，衝進來追趕她。 莊稼地裡寂靜無聲，因為一點風也沒有。外面，村子那邊，也沉寂了。但太陽當空，外面還是一個明亮的世界，你萬萬不能走出高粱地。等到天黑了再說吧。 此後整整大半天，孟氏就坐在那片高粱地裡，等待天黑下來。恐懼與疲累也漸漸在消退，但她不敢多想今天發生的一切。後半晌了，才有了飢餓感，翻出乾糧吃了幾口，又吃不下去。 終於熬到日落星出，才發現還有月亮。夜越深，月光越明亮。 這是不讓她走出高粱地了？ 秋夜的寒意越來越重，秋夜的曠野更是死一般的寂靜，月光雖明亮，映照出來的分明也是陰森和悽苦。鬼蜮就是這樣吧？既已成鬼，還有什麼可怕的？陽間的活人才怕鬼。 這樣一想，孟氏終於站起來了：她得先回鳳山尼庵。她不能困死在這裡。她已經不能再死了。 往出走時，孟氏才發現：自己衝進高粱地時，竟鑽到這樣的深處？居然費了這樣大的勁，才走了出來。當時也是太倉皇了。 月光照耀下的鄉間大道，此刻空無一人。望了望康莊，已落在一片朦朧和死寂中，只有高處可見幾點燈火在游動。那是康宅守夜家丁在屋頂巡遊吧。她的鬼魂在村口出現，康家一定知道了。他們會不會告訴六爺？能不能嚇著他？奶媽一定會聽說這件事，她應該護著六爺，別叫他受驚。 這一趟，來得還是太魯莽？ 孟氏不再多想，轉身向鳳山方向走去。此時，她彷彿又來了功力，走路重新有了身輕步健之感。這種有力感，倒漸漸喚起了她的自信。雖然是頭一遭走這樣的夜路，似乎也不是十分懼怕。 在夜間曠野，活人所懼怕的，無非是鬼怪吧。她現在已被陽間活人視為鬼怪了。世間如真有鬼魂，她倒想遭遇一回，看看真鬼是何樣面目行止。從此往後，她將以鬼名存世，卻並不知真鬼為何樣德行，也是太可憐吧。 越這樣想，周圍倒越是空曠寂靜，尋不出一點動靜來。 其實，這死一樣的寂靜才是最可怕。 歸途這一路，孟氏倒並不覺十分漫長。鳳山漸漸臨近時，她覺自己腿腳依舊有力。自己真是有腿有腳了？她驚異得不大敢相信。 其實，孟氏到達尼庵時，已是午夜了：她一路極度緊張，不斷設法給自己壯膽，哪還能感知別的！她斷定敲不開山門了，預備倚在門洞，坐以待旦。但試著推了推，山門居然就動了，再一用力，就張開一道寬縫。 是雨地特意留了門嗎，還是有女傭一直暗中盯著她的行蹤？ 不過，孟氏已顧不及多想：極度的疲累彷彿突然甦醒了！她進入尼庵後，才感到一點力氣也沒有了，掙扎回自己的禪房，一頭栽倒了下來。 第二天醒來時，睜眼就看見了雨地。她還是那樣平靜如死水，這使孟氏感到非常不快：雨地早料到她會這樣無功而返？ 雨地平靜地問：腿腳比以往好使喚了？ 孟氏懶懶地說：好使不好使，我也得去。 你把功法練到頭，來去自如，豈不更好？ 與其驢拉磨似的繞了花壇轉，哪如多出外跑幾趟？反正不叫腿腳閒著，總會練出來的。 練功須內外都靜，跑出去處處嘈雜，心裡也慌亂，哪能練得出來？ 我也不求得道成仙，只求腿腳如村婦鄉姑似的，能隨處走動就得了。 只是無人會將你當村婦鄉姑的。你闖康莊這一趟，很快就要傳遍四鄉了：康家鬧鬼，新逝的老夫人現身村頭。此流言既經風行，世人將重新記起你，疑心你會隨時隨地現身。康家一準要為你再次大做道場，請了道士和尚，驅鬼的驅鬼，超度的超度。這就像布下了天羅地網，你豈能再臨近康莊？ 我才不管這許多，想去，抬腿就去了。既已為鬼身，還受它世間束縛？ 是你在緊束自己。 我緊束自己？ 你每去鬧一次鬼，那邊就重布一次驅鬼的天羅地網；你去得越多，那羅網就結得越嚴密。那邊防備得越嚴密，你的行動就越艱難。這豈不是緊束自己？ 你怎麼知道得如此清楚？ 靜心一想，即可了悟的。 當年，你也去探望過你的五爺吧？ 雨地恬然一笑，說：盡早了悟才好。 孟氏冷冷說：我可丟不下我的六兒！我也不想得道成仙。 雨地依然平靜，說：我還是勸你練夠九九八十一數。無論入佛門，還是返塵世，自家能來去自如，總是好的。 雨地離去後，孟氏慢慢回想她說的話，覺得不願聽從也得聽從。雨地說得很對，康莊這一鬧鬼，真也十天八天冷淡不下去。在這人人怕鬼疑鬼，人人議論老夫人陰魂不散的時候，你真是不能再靠近康莊了。 這一鬧鬼，會嚇著那個杜家魔女嗎？洋夷不敬鬼神，那魔女也會如此大膽嗎？ 只是不要嚇著六兒就好。 想到杜家魔女和六兒，孟氏還是不肯罷休的。這一趟往返康莊，她也嘗到了練功的甜頭：腿腳到底大不一樣了。要想見到六兒，還得將功力練到頭的。只練到三十數，便能往返康莊，要練到九九八十一數，也許真能健步如飛，隨心所欲吧？ 所以，孟氏暫時安靜下來，聽從了雨地的勸說，繼續繞了花壇練起舊功。 在那乏味的繞圈中間，她終於也想起來了：自己初到康家時，也有夜間鑼聲四起的情形。她問起，總是說嚇賊呢，沒說過嚇鬼。現在看，誰知是嚇什麼！說不定雨地也有過像她一樣的鬧鬼經歷吧？ 雨地也許生性賢淑沉靜，可怎麼能淡忘了她的五兒？ 孟氏設法探問過多次，可惜，雨地對此一直不多言一字。 five 孟氏練到九九八十一數，已到中秋時候。臨近功滿時，日走路程已到十二里，即早晚各走六里，來回輕鬆自如。不過這時的孟氏，已無驚喜，她也變得平靜多了。 這期間，她曾得知杜筠青果真做了康笏南的新婦。聽到此消息，雖然也一股怒氣頂上來，衝動不已，但她畢竟沒有失控。所以，練功一天也沒有耽誤。 功法練到頭了，雨地以為她已看淡了俗世恩怨，就問她願不願進入佛門。哪想，孟氏居然說： 我剃度為禿尼，六兒更認不得我了。 雨地一驚，問：你還想重返俗世？ 不為見六兒，我何苦下這種功夫？ 你已試過，擱在陰陽中間的天羅地網，是撞不破的。 只試了一次，就知撞不破？ 此道間隔，我比你看得清晰。 你也試圖穿越過吧？ 天長日久，你也會一眼望透的。 我一眼想望見的，只是我的六兒！ 雨地嘆了一口氣，說：既然因緣未盡，也只能由你了。 那我討教一聲：我臉上這顆痣，割去無妨吧？ 雨地又一驚：割你臉上的痣？Why? 這顆痣，是我臉面上最分明的記號。 這種痣是不能動的，醫家郎中都不敢動。 為什麼不能動？ 聽說連著命根，割開將流血不止。 我們已是鬼身了，還有血嗎？ 說完，孟氏倒平靜地笑了。 有六爺牽掛著，孟氏哪能割斷俗念！但現在她除了牽掛六兒，對世間的一切，真是看淡了。跟老東西的恩怨，他的新婦杜氏，還有康家興衰，商界官場，她都已撒手丟開：不過是一片孽海，你在乎不在乎，都一樣了。但她不會丟下六兒。想割去臉上的這顆美人痣，正是為了在陰陽兩界間來去方便。 在這大半年的練功中，她不知想過多少次了：那次剛到村口，一眼就被認出，只怕要賴這顆痣。如沒了這顆痣，村人即便覺得她像死去的孟老夫人，多半也不敢認吧？所以她下了無數次決心：去掉這顆痣！ 因為從小生了這樣一顆痣，也就早聽說了它連著命根呢，不敢動，更不敢傷著。現在雨地也這樣說，雖附和了俗世說法，只怕也是動不得。魯莽將它割下來，真會失血而死？ 孟氏還有一種擔憂：去掉這顆痣，就怕六兒也不認她了！ 所以，孟氏已另謀了掩蓋的辦法：尋一片膏藥，貼住它就得了。在功法還未練到頭時，她就吩咐女傭，送幾貼拔毒膏來。膏藥早預備妥貼了。 她也早預備了一身尼僧穿的法衣。那一次，穿著上也太大意。雖然只穿了婦人便服，但還是太像大戶氣象。她看雨地，穿了那身法衣，真與大戶不相干了，冰冷中透著聖潔。這番氣象，鄉人見了既不敢輕慢，也不會害怕吧。她沒有答應剃度出家，雨地還是送了她一套法衣。 總之，孟氏是一邊練功，一邊就在謀劃重返康莊。功法練到頭時，一切也早預備齊了。雨地勸阻，她也只是平靜地聽聽而已。 就只等挑一個好日子，從容下山。 八月中秋是個大節慶，孟氏不想在這種時候驚嚇鄉人。所以，她挑了八月十七這天下山。 下山前，試穿了那身新法衣，忽然才覺得一個尼姑進了村，也夠醒目了。尤其像她這樣的尼姑，也不醜，又藏不盡頭上蓄髮，必定引人注目。一被注意，就麻煩了。 想了想，穿農婦粗衣最佳，可一時也不易得。於是，她就試著向尼中女傭借一身布衣。想了半天借口，只勉強尋到一個：日後要練武功，看穿你們這種便裝是否更利落。不想，一位女傭倒慨然答應。 八月十七正午時候，孟氏就穿了這身女傭服裝，用膏藥貼住臉上的美人痣，從容走出山門，下山去了。依然未跟雨地告別。 這一次，不到一個時辰就臨近了康莊。只是，她並未直奔村口，而是提前繞了一段田間小路，又過幾處莊稼地，藏進了一片棗樹林。從這片棗樹林望過去，百步之外就是康宅正門前那道巨大的影壁。 康宅的前門，開在村子的最南頭，可遙望鳳山。風水上為了聚氣，在大門對面立了那道影壁。 孟氏在康家多年，自然知道這一切形制。不過，她還是經過大半年的尋思，才謀得這樣一個線路。因為心宅漸漸冷寂平靜後，她已經不想矇混著進入康宅了。既然脫出孽海，何必再入其中受玷污！她只是想見見自家的六兒，在宅外見分明更從容，也更乾淨吧。 六兒畢竟是男娃，屋裡關不住他，宅院裡也不夠他奔跑。奶媽常帶他到康宅之外，跑跑跳跳，護他玩耍淘氣。有時也到這邊的田畝棗林間，掐野花，逮螞蚱。孟氏得閒時，也與他們一道出來。這一切情形，孟氏當然也是熟知的。 所以，思來想去，她選定了隱藏在這片棗林中，死守著，等候六兒出來。在這安靜地界，也便於向奶媽說清真相的。 現在，已經順順當當來到這片棗林中了，但望過去，影壁那廂卻是一片冷清。已是午後了，還不見有多少人影走動。 那老東西是不是得知她已下山了？尼庵的女傭若暗中跟了來，也該跑進康家報訊去了。 下山這一路，孟氏已留了心眼，不時回頭觀望：並沒有發現什麼可疑處。再說，她現在行動利落，健步疾行，也不是誰能輕易跟隨得上。 耐心等吧。 六兒從五歲起，已送入家館識字讀書。有塾師管束，也不可能早早跑出來玩耍的。 可死死等到天色將晚，也未能如願。孟氏也不氣惱，起身撤出棗林，從容踏上返回鳳山的大路。 哪那麼巧呀，頭一天就見著？ 回到尼庵時，月色正好，山門依然留著。她也不甚疲累。吃了齋飯，洗漱過，恬然入睡。 第二天，依然如此。直到第七天，也許感動了上蒼吧，她終於見到了她的六兒。 那天康宅前門依舊冷清，只是偶爾有村人走過。後來，見到一輛華麗的馬車駛過來，但並未停在前門。這樣華麗的車馬，只能是往康家，為何不停？孟氏這才記起：康家前門平時不大開，主客都走東邊的旁門。 守住旁門，也許能更容易等到六兒吧？可旁門開在街巷裡，附近實在不好藏身的。她也只能繼續守候在棗林中，六兒總有來前面玩耍的時候。 這天守到後半晌，她已不抱希望了，正想鬆弛一下，起身走動走動，就見從影壁後面走出一個婦人。 好像是一個眼熟的身影！ 孟氏不由得一驚，忙定睛細看：那可不就是奶媽崔嫂！ 但六兒呢，怎麼不見六兒？ 崔嫂走出影壁不遠，就站住了，轉身望著後面，又不斷招手：六兒在後面跟著，一定在後面跟著。 可他就那樣被影壁遮擋著，久久不肯走出來！ 六兒在影壁底下玩什麼呢？ 孟氏真想衝過去。為這一刻，她努力了一年多，一天都沒放棄。現在到底等來了，與她的六兒只相隔百步之遙了。 不能錯過！ 要在半年前，她可能早衝過去了。可現在，她沒有動，她不能嚇著六兒。 崔嫂竟要往回返嗎？ 她就這樣閃出來露了一面，連六兒也沒引出來，就要回去了？ 孟氏望見崔嫂開始向影壁走回去，真急了，幾乎要喊一聲：崔嫂，六兒當然沒有喊出。 也幸虧沒妄動，就在崔嫂往回返時，六兒終於走出了影壁！是的，那就是她日夜牽掛著的六兒！他低著頭，邁著緩慢的小步子，就像小老頭踱步似的，從影壁的遮擋中走出來，顯然很不高興。 他不高興，為什麼不高興？ 崔嫂迎過去，蹲下身來哄他。他站定了，不理奶媽。 他是不高興！ 崔嫂轉過身，蹲得更低，六兒就爬到奶媽背上。她背負六兒站起身來，卻沒向棗林這頭走，竟繼續往回返了，轉眼間就被影壁重新遮擋住 孟氏沒有衝出來，她一動不動伏身在棗林中，一直到天黑。淚流滿面時，都沒有知覺。 回到尼庵過了許久，孟氏也沒有再下山。 六兒的不高興，壓得她太沉重了。臨終時見到的六兒，就是一臉的陌生和懼怕。經過千辛萬苦，終於又遠望了六兒一眼，見到的還是他寡歡的樣子。才多大一個孩子，就這麼鬱鬱寡歡，太可憐了。 這都是因為失去了母親！ 可她能再見他嗎？能跟他說清真死和假死是怎麼一回事？能說清她為什麼要丟下他，自己去假死嗎？ 這一切，就是跟奶媽崔嫂只怕也說不清的。崔嫂會相信她還活著，而不是鬼身嗎？ 就是說清了，他們