Chapter 15 fourteen

After a while, Qiuming came out of the room slowly.With her head down, like a newlywed, she sat shyly beside her aunt. I glanced at her inadvertently, and she happened to look up at me too.Looking at each other, we all seemed to be too ashamed to hide, but it made my cousin clap her hands and burst out laughing. How interesting!A young couple, let's have a good talk!Bending over with laughter, she staggered to her own room. No!do not go!aunt!Qiuming blushed and blocked her way. What are you ashamed of!It's my cousin again.What are you afraid of?She broke away from Qiuming's hand and said with a smile: Children!I'm here.It's too late for you to hate me in the future!

Cousin!Please, old man, give us some advice on participating, don't leave!I begged repeatedly. No!No!She waved her hands again and again: In what era is it now, you are as shy as a big girl! The maid came in to pour us a cup of tea and walked away with a mysterious smile on her face.Qiuming and I were left in the room, it was quiet, only the ancient wall clock on the wall was making a regular sound of tick-tock. We all bowed our heads, neither of us willing to speak first.I felt that this situation was too embarrassing. After a while, I mustered up the courage: Qiumen!Did you not go to school today?

Um!She still didn't say anything, just nodded shyly and played with her handkerchief.I suddenly remembered that my words were ridiculous.Because our school always suspends classes for three days every week before the big exam, allowing students to review their homework by themselves, day students do not need to go back to school.So I hastily changed my words again: How is your homework preparation? I don't need to prepare anything, I usually take notes, how about you?Seeing that I didn't directly talk to her about that matter, she asked me boldly. You know I've always been cramming, so I had to drive all night!

Yes, I believe you are clever for a while, but; she coughed seriously: learning is not based on this cleverness! I think she hurt my self-esteem. Young people don't want to admit defeat, especially in front of girls.So I argued with her: But, I am not behind in the class! You are just talking about the scores on the test paper. But I am not necessarily inferior to anyone else in extracurricular self-study. For example, in the literary weekly we edited, according to Shen Chao's investigation, my works are the most praised by readers. cousin!You are still such an old temper!She was no longer shy, and debated with me calmly: Yes!I have read every article of yours.Although some have fully demonstrated your creative genius, most of them are obviously not mature enough.This is a matter of literary accomplishment, and you should work harder on it.

Therefore, I am going to seek further study in the four years of college. Qiuming thought for a while, then lowered his head, and said softly: Cousin!Do you plan to go north after graduation? Well, I suddenly remembered our marriage and said in a whisper.What about you? Because of the family relationship, I am afraid I will miss school for a year!She glanced at me with a deep sorrow on her brow. Tyumen!I also asked her in a low voice: Is it all for our business?She nodded slightly. Do you also feel a little too early? Yes!We are all ignorant children. So what can we do to convince them?

This is your family problem! As long as you can work hard, it's not too late. She pondered for a while, and suddenly asked me a question: Cousin!Do you think a girl is finally going home? This is the arrangement our ancestors gave us!I said. So, are we all going to be like this forever?She said compactly: like Nora Nora!I looked at her suspiciously.Do you want to get out of the family too? No!She smiled and blinked: I mean, family is not necessarily happiness for women.The more civilized the world is, the more complex the family organization is, and the more delicate the relationship between people becomes.How many women in the world are desperately in love with someone who doesn't love her.Of course, there are also many cowardly men who lock their wives tightly at home for the sake of decency, reputation, and the social system.But he secretly fell in love with another girl.

Qiumen's words invisibly gave me a lot of stimulation.It immediately occurred to me that maybe she was alluding to my relationship with Alan.However, I dare not show the slightest trace at such an opportunity.After a while of silence, I said: Are you so pessimistic about the future of starting a family? No!As modern young men and women, they should have such an understanding and preparation. Yes!But you have to control your emotions with reason. control!She shook her head gently: Do you think reason can control the element of love added to emotion? Then I can't think of how to answer her.Under such circumstances, I felt that Qiumen seemed to be a different person; a shrewd, reserved, and sharp-tongued woman.

Tell you!Qiumen gave me a stern look: love is like a pair of eyes, you can't get a little sand in it! Do you think my eyes have been mixed with a little sand?I blurted out in panic. Then you go ask your heart!Qiumen looked at me: Marriage is not a physical contract, it can have the power to tie two people's hearts together, but a real spiritual union.It can also be said that there must be a firm contract spiritually, and the two parties fulfill their promises according to this contract. From the religious marriage ceremony, we can see that they swear in front of the priest, vowing that he will love someone forever , until death.No!Death is only physical separation, but spiritual separation can never be separated.

This is very similar to our ancient traditional concept. Do you think this concept has no feudal consciousness?I thought of the truth that Yanan told me, which was exactly the opposite of her. If someone blindly opposes the spirit of old morality, I think he is the most ignorant, blindly obedient and self-defeating person in the world.Qiumen stood up indignantly: Cousin, you have to know that a new idea comes out of the old culture.But now some people just pick up fragments of history to deny its value; as a result, they take the path of extremes, which only creates disturbances in society, you say!What can they get?

This is a conservative argument! But we cannot ignore its good side. But it cannot guarantee love! But in a person's life, it can exert great power.Qiumen is like the teacher in the classroom, what he does to his students: a person's life is lived in love.But the scope of love should not be limited to the narrowness between men and women.Living in society, how many things in society are worthy of great love with people.Therefore, some people are devoted to landscape, some are dedicated to academics, and some are loyal to their careers.Some people even sacrifice their own youth and life to love other people's youth and life.Especially women, women seem to be born to love others.She put her whole life's efforts on others.Therefore, being born as a woman has such a nature; for love, she can do her best for her lover; for love, she can work hard for her children; for love, she even forgets her own youth and life

I stared at her blankly, pondered for a while, and felt that her point of view was somewhat similar to that of Yanan, but their goals and ideals were quite different.I was about to make some comments to her, but she said seriously: However, the old morality only knew to emphasize this point, which caused misunderstandings by future generations.Therefore, we should establish a new moral concept; that is to say: when a woman realizes that the other party has been unfaithful to her, she can no longer cocoon herself in this small circle.Therefore, she must have such an understanding to expand and enrich the field of her life.Pin her great love on other aspects. I didn't expect you to think so far in this regard, so much!I nodded helplessly. She was cold, as if she was thinking about something again. I knew she still had a lot to say, but she didn't want to say it outright. It's always difficult to express the girl's situation in an appropriate way, so I had no choice but to walk up to her and say: Qiumen!What's your opinion on our business? And you?she asked me back. For our happiness; I think we need to know more deeply. Is it just for this reason? Yes. good!She hesitated, and immediately said firmly: "Okay!"Promise you, I believe in you even more! The most important thing is to get through your aunt's relationship first! She nodded silently, and I felt that my mood was also very messy, and I was about to take the opportunity to say goodbye to her.Suddenly, at the sound of the door curtain, my cousin and aunt came out of the room with a smile. oops!It will be a long time in the future!See you talking so sweetly? aunt!A red cloud suddenly appeared on Qiuming's face, and he said shyly, "Why are you so special to us, old man?" us!The cousin smiled more subtly, and said humorously: Listen!How affectionately we cried out! Both Qiuming and I blushed from embarrassment, and she was busy calling the maid to prepare dinner. During the meal, the old man still asked questions and asked us about the content of the conversation just now.Qiuming and I were always silent and unwilling to say anything. She thought we were shy, so she just smiled and said nothing. After the meal, my cousin and aunt graciously asked me to stay and played all afternoon before I bid farewell to them.While saying goodbye, I gently said to Qiuming: If you have any news, you can write a note, put it in your notebook, and give it to me at school. When we walked out, the moon was already hanging on the top of the willow tree.