Chapter 51 Fifty

Under Alan's attentive care, the injury improved day by day, and after a month, I was gradually able to walk with the help of a cane. Everyone in the hospital knew that Alan and I were childhood sweethearts, and the dean specially invited us to drink to celebrate.Alan also changed his uniform and wore a bright dress, like a newlywed, mingling among colleagues. Everyone was also very happy. Someone boldly teased Alan during the banquet and asked when we would get married. Alan announced to everyone nonchalantly that she would accompany me to the rear hospital for recuperation. She also wanted to find someone in the rear hospital. Work.After a period of time, when I have fully recovered, I will prepare for marriage.

For the sake of our apparent relationship, Alan avoided visiting me at night; she and Ms. Huang changed their working hours.Every night, I always think about Yanan. I hope that before I leave here, I must find out the real whereabouts of Yanan; Allow me to move about as I please. Seeing that the slightly injured soldiers returned to their original troops one by one, the seriously injured were sent to the rear to recuperate in batches.If it drags on, will I just leave Yanan like this and go to the rear alone to seek safety? Originally, I could ask Alan to inquire.However, I already knew that they had passed letters, even if I said it was a classmate relationship, her suspicion would not be avoided.Moreover, she has gradually become estranged from me in the past few days, and Ms. Huang often chats with me.

One fresh morning, I got up early and walked in the courtyard with a cane. I just saw this temporary hospital. It turned out to be the site of a rural teacher’s school nearly a hundred miles away from the battlefield. The special ward I lived in was the staff dormitory. General wards are located in student classrooms.Walking around the campus, you can see a vast sports field; there are more than a dozen tents set up on the sports field, and there are many wounded soldiers crying terribly inside. I wanted to go into the tent and ask the wounded soldiers about Yanan, when suddenly someone shouted from behind: Comrade Xu!where are you going

See if there are any acquaintances?I turned around and saw Miss Huang catching up from behind. Go back, the doctor doesn't allow you to walk around casually.She took my arm unceremoniously, took me back to the ward to lie down, and poured me a glass of boiling water. This is the rule in the hospital, patients are not free!She sat down and watched the expression on my face: Who are you looking for?Tell me, it will be easier for me to check at the register! Well!I responded casually: I will ask you when I think about it!Thank you! Do you have anything else to do?Ms. Huang said to me sincerely: Otherwise, why did you go out so desperately?

Loneliness, let me think about it, and said falteringly: I can't stand such a lonely life! Doesn't Sister Lan come to see you often? I seldom come here these days, and I seldom talk when I come, probably because Maybe you offended her?Miss Huang smiled mysteriously at me. No!I was stunned for a moment, shook my head and said: She is my life-saving benefactor, and it is too late for me to repay her! Then she snubbed you! Why? No reason!I'm kidding you!Ms. Huang rolled her eyes, and suddenly she smiled sadly: "It's probably because you're going to be transferred in a few days, so she's busy going through the formalities for you!"

oh!I sighed and said: But I want to stay here, there is one important thing to do! whats the matter?Ms. Huang asked me closely: Can you tell me? No!I looked at her hesitantly, and then said falteringly: Please forgive me!I don't want to make it public yet! good!Ms. Huang nodded, looked outside the door, smiled at me and said: Comrade Xu!I want to ask you something!You have made things public! Is it about me and Alan's past? No!She said seriously: What is the relationship between Miss Yanan and you? Anam!I looked at her in surprise: how do you know, is she also in this hospital?

No! fellow countryman? No! do you know her I'm just in your sleep, I often hear you calling her name! Oh I see!I breathed a sigh of relief and said shyly: A very good female classmate! Is it just a classmate relationship? What is there to hide!But I'm afraid that Alan misunderstood, so I don't want to mention it to her.In fact, I say it frankly: she treats me better than Alan Where is she now? Was with me on the battlefield not too long ago.Now, I suddenly touched the wound in my heart, and couldn't help saying sadly: Life and death are unknown.maybe hurt, maybe Maybe she's still alive?Ms. Huang nodded and said: "Is it because of this matter that you are disturbed, that you cannot love Alan sincerely, and that you are unwilling to leave here?"

Yes!I stared at her and lowered my head: I should admit it frankly! You should admit it more frankly!Miss Huang looked at me coldly: She is your fiancee! fiancée!I shivered, and said loudly: You are wrong! Isn't it an honor to have a fiancée of a heroine?It is much more honorable than our nurses, Ms. Huang laughed sarcastically, and suddenly changed a gentle tone: Excuse me?I shouldn't laugh at you with such an attitude, but I should advise you that your fiancée only loves her husband, which is different from our nurses! Ms. Huang, I want her to stop talking, but I can't express my inner emotions.

certainly!We don't underestimate ourselves. In terms of contribution to the war, a female nurse is not necessarily inferior to a female guerrilla leader. Didn't Alan use his own blood to save a hero? It's not a matter of honor and status Honor, status!The weight in love is weightless!Ms. Huang said a little angrily: What's so great about graduating from university?What a man who has been the editor-in-chief of a supplement!These conditions are just a new type of dowry for women, and they can only be carried to the homes of vulgar philistines! I am not a philistine, so I held back the ruthless irony and said anxiously to Team Huang: Please believe me

Of course I believe in you, ten years of love, three years of steadfastness, you should trust others even more! But, I didn't let her down, I didn't let anyone down! Is it!Ms. Huang laughed coldly: Do you think we women will all plead with heartless men?joke!We are all used to sharp knives in the operating room, are we reluctant to cut off even a little tenderness?But her eyes were red, and she let out a long sigh: women are women after all, and women are so stubborn.For loving someone, until old age, until death, there will never be any regrets! If two, three, or more loved her, she would suffer too!

Do you dare to conclude that no one pursues Alan?Ms. Huang showed a look of contempt, and said angrily: Humph!Do you think women are something for people to choose?Do you think that a woman's love can be given to others casually?Comrade Xu, you are wrong! Yes, I was wrong!I felt like her words shot towards my heart like poisonous arrows.I clenched my fist and hit my chest hard.Say loudly: I was wrong, I shouldn't be alive!You are also wrong, you should not have saved me Comrade Xu!Ms. Huang hurriedly grabbed my hand and said out of breath, "Don't do this, I'm here to try you on purpose, Sister Alan wants me to come!" alan!I suddenly woke up and said: Does Alan know? She is friends with your fiancée!Pass the letter very early!Ms. Huang asked me to take a sip of boiled water, and said calmly: She also heard you talking in your sleep, and she talked to me about it suspiciously. A few days ago, she found Yanan’s letter and photo in your pocket, so this She was in pain for a few days! How did she express it to you? Just want me to pay attention to your expressions and actions! Then she knows everything!I pondered for a while and said: How did he know that Yanan was a guerrilla leader and my fiancée? Don't worry, she probably doesn't know about these things, Miss Huang said slightly: Although the hospital often talked about the heroic story of the female soldier these days, she didn't pay much attention to it.Moreover, the soldier who experienced the scene has also returned to the army; apart from him, no one else knows your relationship! How do you know? Firstly, it was out of curiosity, and secondly, because my sister was also working in the army, so I wanted to find out more clearly. Ms. Huang said, "I just found that short and fat squad leader last night!" Class monitor, Humpty Dumpty! Listen to me, Miss Huang waved to me: this heroic story was told by him.It just so happened that when I found him, he was packing his luggage and was about to catch up with his troops. He just talked to me briefly, and he told me that the heroine's name was Yanan, and he was listening to her on the battlefield My fiancé mentioned it. ah!That's it, I cried out uncontrollably. Don't worry, Ms. Huang went on to say: When I heard the name Yanan, I suddenly remembered your babbling in your dream, and also remembered Alan's melancholy, so I immediately went to Alan's room and showed him the photo. Nod your head and get busy driving! he's gone!I said anxiously: I know him, why didn't you mention me? Of course I know you guys know each other!If I mention you to him, he will definitely come to see you, but I think about Alan just as much as you do! Well, you can sneak him here. no!You know our rules here, especially in special wards, anyone who visits a patient must go through the procedures of registration review and the permission of the nurse on duty.At the same time, it was Alan's turn to be on duty yesterday, would you like this news to be known to her? I sighed and fell silent. Please forgive my selfishness!Ms. Huang rolled her flexible eyes and said to me with a smile: This is the selfishness of our women. There is no doubt that I should help my friends! However, you should ask her about Yanan's whereabouts!I still looked at her anxiously. Then do you need to worry now!However, Ms. Huang hesitated for a while: You have to promise me, don't be sad when you hear it! good!I said nervously: I promise you! When you were on the battlefield, the squat squad leader said, he saw you running past under the gunfire.When not far from her, the enemy's bullet hits you right in the stomach.At the same time, Ms. Yanan was also injured. He saw that you were still struggling to move forward. At this moment, a shell landed beside you, so he rushed forward desperately from behind?drag you down What about Anam? He was about to drag Yanan again when a bullet hit his ankle. after The squad leader told me!He was later carried down by the ambulance team.Ms. Huang sighed and said: When he was leaving, he heard Ms. Yanan's screams. Because of the fierce artillery fire, no one dared to rescue her. So she's still on the battlefield?I said in a daze. Comrade Xu!Don't be sad, those who died on the battlefield have no relatives or friends.Ms. Huang also shed tears: But there is still a glimmer of hope. The squad leader told me that he would also ask you everywhere, but he doesn't even know your name, so naturally he has no way of asking.As for Yanan, there are no female soldiers in the nearby hospitals, and there is no body of her on the battlefield, so everyone unanimously speculates that it is probably more than auspicious. No!she will not die!I leaned on the pillow and cried: I still see her well in my dream Comrade Xu!Ms. Huang patted my chest and back lightly, and said in a trembling voice: Let it be a nightmare!Don't think about her anymore, if you really love Yanan, or she loves you sincerely, even if she dies, she still wants you to live happily! I can't believe she's going to die!I rubbed my eyes and said confidently: She is brave, smart, and witty, and can rush through any dangerous moment. If so!I also don't want to curse her maliciously for my friend.However, Ms. Huang hesitated and said: If she hadn't died, I think she must have found a way to inquire about you after such a long time. Our hospital is very famous here. I looked at her speechlessly. Why bother to ask for pain, even if you die, what good will it do her, if she dies and knows, she won't want you to do her justice like this, Miss Huang is very calm: Comrade Xu!You should have the courage to forget the past, forget her love for you, and love Alan wholeheartedly. I know what happened to you in the past. Now Yanan is gone, and Qiumen is gone, leaving Alan alone.What are you worried about!To tell the truth, she was very poor.For fear that you will be sad, I would rather suffer myself than expose the secret between you and Yanan.Mr. Xu!A person who truly loves you with tears and blood, can you bear to let her down again?What's more, she couldn't bear more stimulation anymore! Yes, I nodded blankly: I should live for her too, shouldn't I? I can tell her about your love relationship with Yanan, so that many troubles can be avoided.Ms. Huang smiled, covered me with a blanket, and looked at the watch: Alan will probably be here soon, she said that your transfer can be decided at noon today! All right!I sighed and said: I wish to leave here sooner, and leave this sad place! coming!Ms. Huang looked at the window, then turned her head and said: "Hurry up and wipe away your tears, don't let her see the whereabouts." There was a rattle of leather shoes, and I saw Alan walk in with a pale face. She nodded to Miss Huang and ran over to hold my hand, but she was too nervous to speak. how?Miss Alan.Miss Huang looked at her in bewilderment. The date of the trip has been decided, unexpectedly it will be tonight.She bit her lip and said to me: You should get ready, do you have anything to ask me? It's decided so soon?Miss Huang looked at Alan anxiously: "Sister Lan!We are going to separate. I!Alan smiled wryly: I can't go with him!I Why do you want to stay!I also looked at her strangely: Sister Alan!Did not you say please forgive me!Jianbai Alan avoided my sight, turned his face away, and faced the window, trembling and unable to speak. how!alan!You have changed your mind. No!She turned her head and forced a wry smile: Don't think about it, I'm just because the procedures here haven't been cleared, and there are several seriously injured patients who need my care.You go first, I will catch up with you later! oh!Is such that!Ms. Huang burst out laughing: Your expression just now was really frightening, I thought you guys had some misunderstanding again.Tell you!Sister Lan, I have done all the tasks you gave me; and I have achieved very good results! I know!Alan said coldly: I heard it from under the window, I know more than you! Sister Alan, I took her arm and sighed deeply. Don't do this, Alan said with red eyes: Don't be childish, take good care of yourself on the road, I will catch up with you in a few days.If I miss the time, can I write a letter to your hospital?you'll see it then The days are still long!Miss Huang clapped her hands and laughed: I have endured it for more than ten years, don't you feel relieved after a few days! Alan nodded, and suddenly coughed violently. She covered her chest with one hand, took out a handkerchief to cover her mouth and nose with the other, and lay silently on the head of my bed. alright!You guys talk a little longer!I beckon them to hurry up and have dinner.Ms. Huang made a face to us: Don't cry!Not officially married yet!Make people see it as weird! After Miss Huang left, Alan stood up and closed the door, drew the curtains; she threw herself into my arms quickly, and she burst into tears. Alan, I stroked her hair and said: Don't be sad, let him pass the past!After a while, we can be together forever! She cried even more sadly for a while, raised her head, and stared at me desperately.Suddenly, she frantically kissed my forehead, cheek, and finally she kissed my lips. This was the first time I kissed Alan. For an instant, I felt trembling all over, and my heart was about to explode. In the excitement, I suddenly saw a few drops of blood dripping from her lips. ah!Alan suddenly relaxed me, wiped the blood from his mouth, and stood up panting. alan!The corner of your mouth is injured, it must be because I am too reckless! She closed her eyes, her face was flushed like a flower, and she was still coughing gently. alan!Come up quickly!I caressed her hand: If you are needed here, it doesn't matter if you are a day late, I can pick you up at the station then! She nodded, and there was a light knock on the door. Miss Huang opened the door and walked in with the food.He smiled mysteriously at us and said: The car has already arrived, they have to leave quickly, I have already called the people in the car to take care of them along the way, now, let's eat! I'm going back to my room to have a look.Alan nodded to Miss Huang and me, and walked out blushing.I ate something hastily, when I heard the sound of the motor starting outside the door, Ms. Huang supported me, went outside, and arranged me on a soft bed in the car. I opened the car window and saw Alan holding a large bag of things. Come in a hurry. Inside are cleaned underwear, a pair of new shoes I made myself, canned food I saved, and sterilized bandages. The wallet is in my pocket: here's some money I've saved for you to spend on the road.There is also a gold necklace, it is useless for me to keep it, I can sell it for flowers if necessary. alan!I can accept things and money, but you can bring the necklace yourself!I was moved and said: Anyway, we still have to meet, why bother! I will be a lonely girl walking, and it is not convenient to carry gold jewelry!Alan held my hand and said softly: Wear it when you sleep at night, just like I am always on your heart, the chicken heart on the necklace hides the photos of me and you when we were young, this thing has been with me for ten years how many years! Sister Alan!I kissed her arm lightly. Don't let anyone see!How embarrassing!Alan broke away from me and jumped out of the car. The car horn was already sounding. Goodbye!Comrades!I wish you good health and return to the front one day soon.A group of farewell people beside the car were waving white scarves. I saw Alan leaning on Miss Huang's shoulders and looking into the distance with his face turned away. The distance is vast, and the sun has already set; in the mist, I seem to see the shadow of Alan, still shaking in front of my eyes. CIMC finished