Chapter 75 seventy four

With a painful heart, I went back to Qiuming's aunt's house. After ten years of separation, this old house is fortunately still safe and sound.The rich gates, promenades, gazebos, and flower gardens are still the same as before.The piano, bookshelves, and murals in Qiuming's room are still the same as before.Touching the scene creates emotion, seeing things and thinking about others; I suddenly remembered the past ten years ago when I was ill. In order to avoid my mental stimulation, my family members are reluctant to bring up the past, especially about Qiumen's recent situation, they are even more tight-lipped.Even in the family situation, my mother simply told me that my father had already changed his career to business, and went to the Sichuan-Shanxi area with friends to buy medicinal materials half a month ago.My younger brother was out of school for two years during the war and will only be able to complete high school this year.My younger sister entered a girls' vocational school, where she learned accounting and sewing skills, and she could use her spare time to earn some money to support her family.

As for Qiuming's uncle, he had passed away three years ago; only his cousin and aunt were left alone, in a pitiful old age.When my mother talked about these unfortunate things, I was afraid it would affect my mood, so she immediately put on a smile and changed the topic of lightness. After all, it is the mother who loves her son dearly. She wants me to live in her room. No matter it is day or night, she always asks me about my health and advises me to add clothes and meals. She is really considerate. In the great maternal love, I gradually woke up from the emotions of confusion, sadness, and depression.I think there are people in the world who love me more than myself. This kind of love has no partiality or selfishness; it is pure, sincere and holy.

Is there anything more pure, sincere and sacred than maternal love in the world? Mourning for my parents, giving birth to me.In the dead of night, I remembered the Liaoge poems my mother taught me to recite when I was a child.Yes, in order to repay my mother's kindness, I can no longer spoil myself, let alone make her sad.I should live bravely, even if not for myself, but also for my mother. However, the indelible impressions of Alan, Qiumen and Yanan are still in my mind for a while. Verily, there was a time when it was a time of great peril for the succession of severe blows. Several times, from the negative and disappointment, I always hoped to end this painful life as soon as possible. I also thought that only death can relieve the mental pain and obtain real peace.

However, I also thought that even if I close my eyes, all the pain will be eliminated.However, I just transferred the pain to my mother. Can I go to another world with peace of mind? In a blink of an eye, this new life environment gradually grew up in my mind. Yes, I not only want to live, but also live happily, so that my mother can be happy, and my mother can also be happy. So, putting away my complicated thoughts, I tried my best to forget the past, and tried my best to cheer up.A month later, I felt that the trauma in my heart had gradually healed. Sure enough, I gradually saw a smile on my mother's distressed face.

I think, the first step is to understand the real situation of the family; the second step I want to restore the old garden, we are from a farming family, it is best to go back to the countryside; the third step I plan to get some capital and go home to run a Farm, plowing in spring and harvesting in autumn to entertain parents.Simply being a vulgar person, why bother to pursue fame and fortune, and why sink into the vortex of emotions and ask for trouble?