Chapter 21 twenty

My new home is a quiet place.This quietness enabled me to do the experimental work of the novel very smoothly.I tried to use three spaces to express a woman's heart. Although there is still a distance from the ideal, it is half completed.I haven't given up drinking, but it's been a long time since I've been very drunk.The Rays treated me well; but the behavior of the old lady surprised me greatly.She often talks to herself.She often locks herself in the bedroom, does not turn on the light, and sits blankly in the dark.She often laughs.She often sheds tears.When I asked the Rays about this, they always responded with a sigh.One day, the Leis and his wife went to a restaurant in Central to attend a friend's birthday banquet, and there were only two people left at home, my grandmother and me.

I was writing a manuscript when Mrs. Lei came in. Xinmin, don't work too hard, she said tremblingly. Looking back, the old lady's smile contained a strong sense of terror.Those dull eyes were like two unlit electric lights.Teeth are yellow.One of the front teeth has fallen out, which looks very unpleasant.Silver-gray hair, fluffy, looks like the cotton candy sold by hawkers. Ma'am, I am a tenant here.I am not a new citizen. The old lady twisted her eyes with her fingers, stood in front of me, looked up and down, and kept looking.She doesn't speak, and neither do I.For a long time, tears rolled down her cheeks.

An indescribable feeling, like a flame, burns in my heart.I was forced to put down my pen, change my clothes, and go outside to find a place to drink.I want to forget myself.When the man brought the whiskey, the mind stretched its arms.Now the jazz's rhythm is swimming in the air like a fish, and then a pair of familiar eyes. Long time no see, she said. Yes, long time no see. are you free tonight? (She's selling me cheap love again, I think.) Hong Kong has cheap love for sale everywhere, but I'm afraid of wrinkles in the sun.I can only buy her a glass of wine and admire that unreal smile.

You are mistaken, she said. Misunderstanding what?I asked. What I mean is: If you're free tonight, I'd like to introduce you to someone. who? She raised her neck, drank it in one gulp, narrowed her eyes, and said four words: my daughter! (What an ugly contribution! A mistress who has lost her years, she can't hide her age with makeup, and wants to sell her daughter's youth.) I told the clerk to pay the bill, negating the unnatural fake smile with anger.The street is a nightmare, the bestiality, the search of eyes, and the sound of car horns form a grotesque picture.Emotion is a cripple, and the devil is grinning.When I got home, Mrs. Lei was already asleep; Mr. and Mrs. Lei were in the living room exchanging views on the birthday banquet.I have a question in my mind that must be answered.

Who is Xinmin? After hearing my words, the Lei family's eyes suddenly woke up. My brother's name is Xinmin. Where are you now? When I was in Chongqing, I was bombed by a Japanese plane and died. Then, Mr. Lei entered the bedroom and took out a faded and yellowed photo.explain: At that time, he was only in his early twenties, had just graduated from Chongqing University, and was working as a member of the Resource Committee.He was never married, and was very intelligent.My mother loves him the most, so