Chapter 42 four one

Zhengyun went to the United States in February and entered the Massachusetts Institute of Technology as a graduate student.It happened that He Shaoxiang was going to Boston for a meeting in April, and then New York and California. Zhiyun thought why not take the opportunity to go to the United States with him and see Zhengyun, Zeng Manlin, and Chen Lingling.These people have been in her thoughts, she has not seen them for too long. Well!You go to play and relax.When she said that she wanted to go together, He Shaoxiang immediately agreed generously. The plane flew directly from Zurich to Boston, but the journey took seven hours.

As soon as Zhiyun left the inspection office, he saw Zhengyun who had made an appointment to pick him up.When she went abroad, he was still a high school student with a shaved head and a big schoolbag, but now standing in front of him was a burly and mature man.She almost didn't have time to accept the fact, is this my little brother who wears smelly rubber shoes all day long?She thought in amazement and joy. When Zhengyun saw Zhiyun's group, he smiled and called out from afar: Sister. Zhengyun Zhiyun yelled, but couldn't stop the bursts of tears.Zheng Yun came over and hugged her shoulders, shook her face gently and said: Sister, don't cry, don't cry.How glad we are to meet!

Zhiyun was still wiping away tears, she hadn't heard such an affectionate address in so many years, only these few calls of "Sister" made her feel mixed with sorrow and joy, tears could not be held back even if she wanted to. Sitting in the taxi into the city, He Shaoxiang and Zhengyun started talking with each other.Although it was the first time for them to meet, they didn't say a word of greetings and entertainment. They talked about school and homework from the beginning.He Shaoxiang was very concerned about Zhengyun, and asked him a lot of questions, such as who is the professor?How are you teaching?Are there any difficulties in listening to the class?Zhengyun mentioned the names of the supervisor and several other professors, and He Shaoxiang said happily after hearing that, he recognized one of them, he had met him during the meeting, and he will meet again in this meeting, and he will mention Zhengyun in front of the professor name.Zhengyun was naturally very happy when he heard this, but he said that he had been abroad for less than three months, and his English coping skills were not very good, and sometimes it was difficult to attend lectures. The situation will definitely improve after a while, and the two talked very speculatively.Then Zhengyun suddenly remembered a question in physics, saying that he had never understood it. He Shaoxiang immediately took out a small notebook and ball pen from the inner pocket of his suit jacket, and drew, wrote, and used analogies. The talk was on, until the car stopped at the door of the hotel, and it was not finished.

Let's get out of the car first, and then continue.He Shaoxiang said before getting off the car. The hotel is not far from the meeting place of He Shaoxiang, and it was booked by the secretariat of the conference.As soon as it was settled, little Hansi cried out loudly that he was hungry. Don't make noise, go out to eat after mom changes clothes.Zhiyun who was washing his face and combing his hair said. He Shaoxiang and Zhengyun were sitting opposite each other on the sofa by the window, and they were still explaining the question. Zhengyun was so interested that he asked questions enthusiastically, and the two couldn't stop talking.It wasn't until Zhiyun got dressed and reminded them that little Hansi was already hungry that He Shaoxiang put away the little notebook and stood up.

Zhiyun heard that the Chinese restaurants in the United States are authentic, unlike the Chinese restaurants on the European continent, which combine Chinese and Western styles, so he wanted to eat Chinese food.Zhengyun said that there is a restaurant not far from here, but he has never eaten there, so he can't guarantee whether it is good or not, he can lead the way. Is it not far?Don't go if it's far away.Little Hans was tired from the flight and had to go to bed early.Zhiyun said hesitantly. Not far, just two streets away.Zheng Yun said.He walked beside Zhiyun, and He Shaoxiang led little Hansi in front.Sister, after just meeting you for a while, I can see that you have completely changed.

Wu Zhiyun touched his cheek unconsciously.getting old? Nor is it old.I can't say it, maybe it should be said that I have become mature!No, it doesn't include the word "mature".What should I say!Zhengyun murmured, as if he really couldn't find the right words. After walking a short distance, he suddenly realized: Now I know how to say it.You have become deeper, more powerful than mature. More powerful than mature?Zhiyun smiled. Really, that's how I feel.When Mom mentions you, she always has the impression of the past. If she sees you, she will also see that you are completely different from before.Zheng Yun said with a childish smile.She couldn't feel the feeling his words aroused in Zhiyun's heart at all.

How many years have I been out!In the mountains and rivers of these years, even the people who fight with steel will change a little.Zhiyun couldn't help but sigh. sister.Brother-in-law, Zhengyun pointed to He Shaoxiang in front of him, he is awesome, knowledgeable and knowledgeable!You have great eyesight.Zhiyun only smiled, and then asked about Zhengyun's life. That's how it is, suffering, being poor, and having to read books!Zheng Yun said with a wry smile. What are your plans?Is Zhong Lanxin coming too?Zhong Lanxin is Zhengyun's girlfriend, and she mentioned it in a letter.

She probably came out next year to Zhengyun and talked about half of it. He Shaoxiang suddenly turned his head and called Zhengyun: "Zhengyun, you just asked me about the phenomenon like this." Zhengyun hurried to the front and talked with He Shaoxiang while little Hansi rushed to Zhiyun's side and took her by the hand. Mom, is this the America you speak of?He raised his face and asked. Well, this is America. Why are those people's faces so black?Little Hans pointed to some negroes passing by on the road. No pointing.Zhiyun stopped him softly, and explained: That's a black man, that is to say, his skin is black.

Oh, little Hans stared carefully at a black man walking towards him.Mom, his skin is so dark, is his blood and heart also black? Not black, but red, exactly like us. oh.Little Hans nodded, but a new problem came up again.Our skin is not dark, but we are not the same as Lisa and others. What color are we? We are yellow, yellow people.Didn't I tell you?We are Chinese, and all Chinese are yellow-skinned.Zhiyun spoke slowly and patiently. Mom, you always say I am Chinese, why does Dad say I am German?Little Han asked puzzledly. Daddy said so?Zhiyun was surprised. Um.Dad just told me.He said I was German, and so were you, and so was he.Only uncle is not,

oh?Zhiyun was speechless, and after a while he said: Dad is just kidding you, we are all Chinese. Mom, what you said is true. Dad coaxed me to play.We are all yellow-skinned, black-haired and black-eyed, how could we not be Chinese?Every time Lisa quarrels with me, she calls me: Chinese, yellow-faced, yellow-faced, Chinese. This is not scolding, we are originally yellow-skinned Chinese.Zhiyun looked at the chaotic street in the evening and all kinds of pedestrians passing by in a hurry, his heart became more and more heavy, and the drowsiness of flying also came up.I can still feel the buzzing in my ears.

Coming out of the restaurant, Zhengyun went straight back to the dormitory, and agreed to take Xiao Hansi out to play tomorrow, so that He Shaoxiang and Zhiyun could report to the conference together, and then attend the opening reception of the conference. On the way back to the hotel, He Shaoxiang was full of praise for Zhengyun: Zhengyun, a young man, is very smart and has a good foundation. Only foreign students like him have the conditions to make a fortune outside.Your big brother can't do it, he thinks like a little old man, it's too out of fashion. Not being in line with the trend is not necessarily bad, everyone has his own aspirations, and Ling Yun has his ideals.And it doesn't necessarily mean that refusing to go abroad is out of fashion, just like the little old man.Zhiyun defended Lingyun as usual. He Shaoxiang only put on a peaceful smile and stopped talking about this topic, but Zhiyun knew it very clearly: he looked down on Ling Yun, thinking that Ling Yun had no real knowledge and special thinking. The conference lasted for five days. Apart from attending the reception on the first day, Zhiyun only went out with He Shaoxiang at the evening banquet, and was always with Zhengyun during the day.The sister and brother have not seen each other for many years, and there are too many words to talk about. Zhiyun is homesick and wants to know the situation of everyone in the family. There are so many questions. Zhengyun is also very eloquent. A description of sound and shadow.This day, the siblings were walking and talking on the campus of Zhengyun School.Zhengyun said: Sister, everyone in the family misses you, saying that they don't know when they will see you again. Zhiyun couldn't help feeling a little bitter when he heard it, and said with a long sigh: This is the most popular Chinese life now. The whole family is scattered, and I really don't know why?After pausing for a moment, I asked again: How is Mom and Dad's health? Dad is still the same. He has been suffering from dizziness since two years ago. He went to the doctor and said that his blood pressure is a little low. He is now taking medicine to increase blood pressure.Dad just goes to work, reads newspapers, and plays chess every day. It is the same as before, and there is not much change. Where's mom? mother?Zheng Yun smiled.Mom complains a little more, and she is in a particularly bad mood recently. Why is my mother in a bad mood recently?Zhiyun thought to himself: This is really a heart-to-heart bond between mother and daughter. How could it be so coincidental? She is in a bad mood, and mother is also in a bad mood. Because many people have green cards now, our family has no way to get one. Green card?Zhiyun felt that he had seen these two words there. A green card is a long-term residence permit in the United States. With that, you can come to the United States at any time.Dad has several friends, even our neighbor Wang's next door has them. Mom refused to accept this tone, and often complained, blaming my brother and blaming you. Zhengyun suddenly shut up vigilantly and smiled apologetically. Blame me?Zhiyun became more and more puzzled.Mother always thought Ling Yun had no ambitions, she knew it, but how could she blame her?She has always followed the path her mother wanted her to take, and her mother never ceases to praise He Shaoxiang in her letters, and often says that she has helped the Yu family, why is she suddenly dissatisfied with her now.What are you blaming me for?she asked sullenly. I blame you, Zhengyun, I can't do it if I don't want to say it, but I feel that there are some words that are difficult to say, so I can only smile apologetically and say: Mom said that I used the power of the whole family on you alone, thinking that you would give back to the family when you went abroad. I searched for a way out, but after you came out these years, you didn’t do anything for your family. As Zhengyun said, he remembered that he went out to study. The security deposit was all borrowed from Zhiyun, and it was repaid indefinitely. Sorry to say it. How can I find a way out for my family?My mother told me to help Ling Yun out, and I did as she said, but Ling Yun has a stubborn temper and has his own ideas, so I can't influence him at all, what can I do if he refuses to come out?Do you want to apply for a green card for your family?It is absolutely impossible in Europe. Without this example, Europe does not welcome immigrants, let alone Chinese.And what can they do abroad?What is the purpose?I really don't understand.Zhiyun spoke excitedly, a blush appeared on his slightly pale face. Seeing Zhiyun's displeasure, Zhengyun regretted his over-confession, and hurriedly explained: Mom doesn't really mind, but now that many people do this, the people around them will be jealous when they see it. This is also human nature, and there is nothing wrong with it. Zhiyun didn't want to talk about this topic any more, so he didn't answer. They were walking on a very long stone step, and little Hans ran up and down. Two American students passed by and stopped there to tease him, making little Hans laugh out loud. This is the day of class, and there are many people coming and going on campus.Looking at those young faces, Zhiyun couldn't help thinking of his days as a student, and sighed that it was too far away. Coming for me, I have delayed a lot of your homework.Seeing that Zhengyun was still depressed by what he said, Zhiyun said gratefully on purpose. It's okay, but a week.Zhengyun put his hands in his trouser pockets, walked forward silently for a while, and muttered: "Sister, how are you doing in Europe?"You seem to be dissatisfied with life abroad. That's it, just living life.Zhiyun smiled indifferently, and pointed to the lively little Hansi: He is my only achievement. Sister, you have really become too much, it seems that the feeling is very deep. Any Chinese with a conscience will have deep feelings after living in a foreign country for a long time.Zhiyun raised his eyes and looked at the blue sky in the distance.Zhengyun, what are your plans?Are you ready to stay after finishing your studies? I still do not know yet.When I first came out, I felt that everything was novel, especially in terms of knowledge. I think I can really learn a lot here.What about the future?I don't know either, let's see the future development!It also depends on what Zhong Lanxin means.Zheng Yun said frankly. What will happen after Ling Yun gets married?Is it still as hard as it used to be?Zhiyun couldn't help laughing as he spoke. The elder brother is that tempered, generous and elegiac passionate character.Zhengyun couldn't help laughing.It's really strange, how could he be able to meet a woman like his sister-in-law if he was so well matched.The two people can be said to be like-minded, both love literature and the country, and they both want to use this bald pen to arouse the self-esteem of the nation.You don't know how special their lives look. Both of them work and make money, but they are so poor that they only live in one room. Why are they so poor?Where is the money? First of all, I have to tighten my stomach and save money. If I save enough money, I can run magazines.Now it seems that I have almost saved it, and there is another overseas student named Chen who helps Is it called Chen Yonghua?Zhiyun interrupted Zhengyun's words. That's right, it's him.He also paid for it, and co-organized it with his brother, sister-in-law and a few poor friends of them.The name of the magazine is Xingshi, and the location of the magazine is in the mansion of my brother's room.Zheng Yun burst out laughing again as he spoke. Oh, it turns out that Ling Yun is doing such a big business, no wonder why he hasn't written for so long!Zhiyun said happily.When they were children, Ling Yun said that he would start a magazine in the future, and Zhiyun was also happy for him when it was done.However, running a magazine is not an easy task. I heard that there are very few purely literary magazines that do not lose money.She couldn't help feeling sad again. I think they probably want to pay, just listening to that slogan doesn't seem like they will make money.My brother said: His lion dance should not be published in black, yellow or pink, nor should it be incomprehensible works that are neither Chinese nor Western. The kind of gossiping essays like counting lotus flowers falling.Zheng Yun shook his head helplessly and smiled.Will it still not lose money?In fact, what he doesn't want is the one that most caters to the tastes of ordinary people, and many people like that tune. Ling Yun has not changed at all, he is exactly the same as before, he is an idealist.But it’s fine if you don’t want yellow, what are black and pink?Zhiyun asked puzzled.She has been abroad for many years, and she is unfamiliar with many domestic terms. She has never heard of them before, but now she does not understand them. Black is to describe the society as miserable and dark, making people look dark.is it pink?In my opinion, pink is also unacceptable. Those are some nonsense novels, all about inexplicable love.Once when I went to a classmate’s house, I saw that a popular novel was dropped on his desk. I flipped through it casually, and found that there was such a plot in it: a girl was grateful for the kindness to her, and the wife could not have children. In order to repay the kindness, give birth to someone else.The implication of that book is to praise this great love.You see, what kind of concept is this?Isn't it obvious that you are messing around?But it was a bestseller.Zhengyun stretched his arms and made gestures, as if he was helpless.He said again: Do you think, can my brother's magazine not lose money?In my opinion, it will close after a few issues. Not necessarily, don't look at things so pessimistically. If a person can really implement his ideals and is willing to do it, there is always hope.Zhiyun said deeply. Sister, didn’t you also write before?Why don't you write now? I?Zhiyun shook his head, and said dejectedly: "I can't talk anymore. I have no energy or emotions about anything. I haven't written for many years, and I can't write anymore." Zhengyun looked at Zhiyun for a while, and sighed: Sister, really, why have you changed so much?It's completely different from before. I think you are listless, as if you are not enthusiastic about anything. Zhiyun brushed his hair and said mockingly: I have changed, my mood has grown older, and I have become less and less fond of myself.Sometimes I think: Why did I go abroad?But I simply can't answer this question. If I just want to live a stable and prosperous life and marry a famous and knowledgeable husband, my goal seems to have been achieved.The question is, is this the purpose of a woman who has read so many books?She was silent for a while, and then said: Zhengyun, if it were me today, I would never go abroad at all. How would your mother feel if she knew that you regretted going abroad so much?She always encourages Banyun by your example!Said: See how competitive your sister is, you have to learn from her.Ah!Mom's biggest worry now is Banyun. What did Banyun do to annoy her mother?Didn't she study hard and be a good person?Zhiyun asked in surprise. She was good before, but not so good now.Zheng Yun smiled and said: She has a boyfriend, and that person doesn't suit Mom and Dad. Well, what does her boyfriend do? I am a classmate of Banyun Normal University, who studies education, and my volunteer is to teach in the mountains and run education.Originally, the family planned that Banyun would go abroad after teaching for a year after graduation, but now she keeps saying that she can't go abroad and that she will dedicate herself to education.My mother was very anxious, she said she wouldn't listen, so she asked me to enlighten her, but I think it's useless even if we talk about our three-inch tongue, Banyun has a very strong personality, and what she wants to do is to Impossible to make.Zhengyun made another helpless expression. In fact, it is a good thing for a person to have a strong personality and know which path he wants to take.Zhiyun said emotionally.Thinking of when she left, Banyun was only twelve or thirteen years old, innocent and lovely, so simple that it hurts people.It is unimaginable that she would change so much and be so strong that no one can affect her. Zhiyun and Zhengyun chatted about the daily life, and five days passed quickly.When Zhiyun's family left Boston for New York, Zhengyun sent him to the airport.After a short reunion, and parting again, both siblings are reluctant to part, Zhiyun is especially sad. Zhengyun, come to Europe to have fun!Zhiyun held Zhengyun's hand and smiled relaxedly. Europe is always going to have a look, but there is no talk yet.Zhengyun looked at Zhiyun and then at He Shaoxiang, forced a smile and said: You have to finish your studies before you can talk about anything else, like me, a newcomer, I don’t know what will happen in the future! Don't worry, if you have a good background and are willing to work, you must have a good future.He Shaoxiang patted Zhengyun on the shoulder and encouraged him with a smile. It's a pity that we are far away, otherwise I could often ask my brother-in-law for advice.Zheng Yun said. It doesn't matter, I often come to America.He Shaoxiang pushed the glasses frame. The three people didn't understand what they were talking about, and little Hansi asked some questions from time to time, which made it very lively, and there seemed to be no parting atmosphere on the surface.But as soon as the loudspeaker started to call the guests on the plane, Zhiyun's control skills completely collapsed.She stared at Zhengyun for a while, shook his hand tightly twice, and said: Take good care of yourself.As soon as he turned around, he took little Hansi in. A strong wind was blowing outside the airport, blowing out the tears that Zhiyun had held back for a long time. The plane was very small, Zhiyun asked little Hansi to sit by the window. Little uncle, little uncle!Little Hans waved his arms. Stop barking, little uncle can't hear you anymore.Zhiyun stopped him, but he couldn't help but look outside, and saw Zhengyun standing outside the railing on the apron, staring blankly at the plane. Zhengyun is a promising young man.After He Shaoxiang finished commenting, he opened the English newspaper and read it. From Boston to New York, just a moment's work.He Shaoxiang came here to go to a research institute to discuss and exchange opinions.The hotel was booked by Zhiyun Tuozeng Manlin, which is near Fifth Street.As soon as they walked into the room, Zeng Manlin's phone rang. She was so excited that she twittered on the phone: Yu Zhiyun, I thought I would never see you again in this life!Alas, how old is it?So long!Have you changed?I can change yes!You have become a great professor!Zhiyun was so happy that he laughed out loud.An old friend is an old friend, and when she heard Zeng Manlin's voice on the phone, she felt kind, and her mood seemed much younger. snort!What a big professor and a small professor, he made me poor and happy before meeting him!Zeng Manlin also grinned. Hello!Zeng Manlin, how about you come right away?Shaoxiang has something to do and is about to go out immediately. We will go shopping together when you come. I'll be here, in an hour.Zeng Manlin said. Zeng Manlin received her Ph.D. three or four years ago, and taught Chinese after finishing her studies. She has been teaching Chinese in a private university.When she arrived at the hotel, He Shaoxiang was about to go out. Zhiyun was slightly taken aback by Zeng Manlin's appearance.Because Zeng Manlin really changed as she said.She became yellow and thin, with deep myopia glasses on the bridge of her nose, crow's feet crowded around the corners of her eyes when she smiled, she was much older than her actual age, and she already showed the dryness of a middle-aged woman. Under the microscope, she is also a female academic who has no female attractiveness. Yu Zhiyun, what an old acquaintance in a foreign country!Zeng Manlin cried out in surprise, holding Zhiyun's hand with both hands, shaking it again and again. Zeng Manlin Zhiyun was naturally full of sadness and joy, he only looked at Zeng Manlin and was speechless for a long time. Do you see that I have really changed?This thing has been worn for five or six years.Zeng Manlin pointed to the glasses on her face.Just reading makes my eyes short-sighted. It is worth thinking about myopia, you are accomplished.Zhiyun said and pointed to He Shaoxiang.This is Shaoxiang.He pulled little Hans over again.This is little Hans.Little Hans, called Aunt Zeng. Aunt Zeng.Little Hansi called obediently. How cute this child is!Zeng Manlin took little Hansi's hand and looked at him lovingly.Little Hans, Auntie will take you to play and buy toys for you, okay?She turned to He Shaoxiang and Zhiyun again and said: You are really amazing, you taught little Hansi to speak Mandarin so well.Here, many children from families can't even speak a word of Chinese. oh?Zhiyun glanced at He Shaoxiang, and said: I stipulate that little Hansi must speak Chinese at home.Children who grow up abroad have the opportunity to speak Chinese only when they are with their parents. When they grow up and leave home, they will have no chance to meet foreigners. You are right, how can Chinese people not speak Chinese!Did you also teach him to recognize Chinese characters?Zeng Manlin teaches Chinese, she keeps her three sentences in her profession, and the topic always stays on Chinese. He Shaoxiang was not interested in this topic at first, and it happened that it was time for him to talk with someone, so he politely said to Zeng Manlin: It's been a long time since you old classmates, let's talk more!It's time for my appointment with someone, so I have to go out.I'm really sorry, I can't accompany you.After he finished speaking, he shook hands with Zeng Manlin, then kissed Zhiyun and little Hansi on the cheeks lightly, then picked up his leather bag, and walked out gracefully and gracefully. Zeng Manlin looked at He Shaoxiang's back for a while, then said to Zhiyun: Yu Zhiyun, I really have you. How did you catch such a good husband? He is knowledgeable and smart. You have gained a lot from going abroad, unlike me, alas!She was full of grievances and didn't know where to start. Are you still not satisfied?Female doctor, female professor, how airy!How can I compare, I have no achievements at all, I just spend my whole day as a housekeeper and take care of the children, and I am busy with the seven things of opening the door.Zhiyun had more grievances, and when he saw his old friends, he was quick to vomit and complain. What you said is wrong, women don't need to be doctors and professors, what they need is a family.Think about it, a small family, husband and children, whether the sky is falling or the ground is sinking, the family is always connected with each other, and the same fate, how wonderful that is!Like me, what is the meaning of this day?The money is enough, and things are considered stable, but it is very empty and has no content, especially when it comes to the Chinese New Year, that life is simply not human.well!Sometimes I ask myself, at that time, I had to come out with all my life, what was the reason for it?Zeng Manlin seemed to have nothing else in her stomach except complaints. Didn't you keep saying at that time that you would come out to study for a Ph.D.?Now that your goal has been achieved, are you still not satisfied?Zhiyun looked at Zeng Manlin in confusion, wondering why she was so dissatisfied with reality. If I knew at that time that today was nothing more than that, I might not have gone abroad at all.Zeng Manlin lowered her eyes and pondered for a while, then raised her eyes leisurely: Yu Zhiyun, do you still remember Liu Junyuan?A blush appeared on her sallow cheeks. How can I not remember Assistant Professor Liu, you were not always together at that time.Zhiyun said.At the same time, she also recalled Zeng Manlin's ambivalence before going abroad.At that time, Zeng Manlin said to her and Chen Lingling with a sad face several times: I am really conflicted. Everything is done in the United States, I have a visa, and I have bought a plane ticket, but I still don't know whether I should leave or not.After hearing this, she was only worried about Zeng Manlin and couldn't come up with any specific ideas.Going abroad is of course a major event, which they have dreamed of for several years, how can they give up?As for love, she was inexperienced in love at that time, not only could she not understand Zeng Manlin's distress, but she also blamed her: "Who made you so baffled, knowing that you were going abroad, and even having a boyfriend."Chen Lingling said straightforwardly: "Having a boyfriend and going abroad are two different things. For example, Xiao Duan and I are not without sincerity and love for each other."But I can’t sacrifice my great future for him. There are many stages in life. During the university period, it can be said that we have not yet left the period of dreaming and poetry. Therefore, we at this stage are sincere, simple and divorced from reality.The problem is that people cannot stay in the stage of dreaming and poetry forever, one day they will mature and live in reality.So, I've figured it out, when I step on the plane to America, that's when I say goodbye to my old life.The stairs on the plane are the dividing line between my two lives.Hearing Chen Lingling's philosophy of life, she was in a daze, feeling specious, but she had nothing to refute, so she could only smile silly. Yu Zhiyun, don't laugh, people can live happily only in this way.Otherwise, it’s okay to be like you, not to have a boyfriend at all, with eyes growing to the top of the head, and simply waiting to go abroad to start everything.Like Zeng Manlin, it's terrible, she knows she can't take it and let it go, and she's so close to Liu Junyuan.Chen Lingling has always been the eldest among them, and she came up with an idea for Zeng Manlin without even thinking about it: Zeng Manlin, I advise you to also regard the stairs on the plane as the dividing line in your life. Once you go up, you will enter a new life. Download the old one.Moreover, to be honest, what's so good about Liu Junyuan?Not too sour, with the bottom of the bottle on the eyes, like an old master, not handsome at all, are you willing to sacrifice going abroad to study for a doctorate just to be with him? You see, I just left like that, leaving Liu Jun far away, I really shouldn't!When I think about it, I blame myself. I don’t know what kind of madness I had at that time, and I was about to go abroad.When I think about it, I regret it and regret it for the rest of my life.Zeng Manlin's bitter tone showed how remorseful she was. That being the case, why don't you go back to Liu Junyuan, he will forgive you. Zeng Manlin pondered for a while, then said resentfully: Naive Yu Zhiyun, what are you thinking?Are there so many seeds of infatuation in the world?Liu Junyuan got married in the third year after I went abroad, and his wife was young and beautiful, and she dug me out of my heart long ago. Then forget about the past and start over. restart!Zeng Manlin laughed at herself.Where to start?They don't want to open a school, so how could they be interested in a female doctor in her thirties? In the few years since you first went abroad, didn’t you meet someone more satisfactory?Zeng Manlin's self-abandoned tone made Zhiyun very unbearable.In her memory, although Zeng Manlin could not be called beautiful, she was very delicate and refined, with a bookish air that ordinary girls lacked.She couldn't imagine how Zeng Manlin had changed so much?It seems that there is no shadow of youth at all, and it gives people a dull feeling from head to toe. In the two years since I first came out, a few people chased after me, but at that time I couldn't let go of Liu Junyuan, and I had to study and work part-time to earn tuition and living expenses. How could I have the heart to have a boyfriend?What I want is to study for a master's degree and pursue a doctoral degree. In foreign countries, people are more realistic, and when they see no hope, they immediately change their goals.When I finished my studies, my life was stable, Liu Junyuan married someone else, and when I started to notice marital problems, it was too late.The older you are, the less chance you have. Those male international students who have established themselves would rather pursue young girls who have just left the country, or even go back to Taiwan to marry one through introductions, rather than marry an old lady.Zeng Manlin curled her lips and smiled wryly.For marriage, I have given up. Zeng Manlin confessed so frankly that Zhiyun couldn't continue, so she could only comfort her by saying something like don't lose heart now and then.After complaining for a while, Zeng Manlin said: well!Seeing old classmates is different, and the grievances that have been stuffed in my heart for many years can be regarded as vomited.Yu Zhiyun, I can only post these grievances to you, if others hear it, they will die of laughter!I had to pretend not to care in front of people! In fact, you are not the only one who misses the marriage among foreign students. What's so funny about that?Zhiyun pretended to be very relaxed. Yu Zhiyun, you are really convincing, you have no regrets in China, you can get whatever you want when you go abroad, everything goes smoothly, perfect.Zeng Manlin expressed her sincere praise and envy in every sentence, and finally burst out laughing and said: Chen Lingling is also a great achievement, but it's a pity that her Dawei is too dark and too short.Yu Zhiyun, you must be wondering why I talk so much, right?I'm so happy to see you, so I dug out all the old sayings that I've been bored for a long time.Who do I usually talk to?well!I don't want to bombard you as soon as we meet, let's go out with you for a walk!where are you going? Take me there as you please.Zhiyun and Zeng Manlin walked out holding little Hansi and one hand. They went to Lincoln Center first, and then to Times Square to watch the crowds. What is your impression of America?Zeng Manlin and Zhiyun talked while walking. I can't talk about any great impressions. To me, it's just a foreign country.Zhiyun said with a smile. Don't you think this country is big and rich, and many places are stronger than us? The United States is not the only country that is stronger than us in many places, but no matter how good it is, it does not belong to us. In short, I am not like many people who think that foreign countries are paradise. Zeng Manlin walked forward thoughtfully for a while, then suddenly laughed and said: Yu Zhiyun, maybe you don't feel that you have become too much.I don't mean your appearance, I mean your mind, your mind has completely changed, you were not like this before. Yeah?I really don't think so myself.Zhiyun still smiled faintly. It is difficult for people to perceive the changes.Zeng Manlin sighed.Yu Zhiyun and Zeng Manlin walking on Fifth Street in New York are no longer Yu Zhiyun and Zeng Manlin walking on Taipei Street. It would be a sad thing if we always stay in that era.Hardened into steel, the environment has turned us into another person.Zhiyun raised his eyebrows at Zeng Manlin. I remember that you used to cry a lot, almost every time you watched a movie, you would shed tears. Now I cry less, tears become precious. I understand that people are like this. In the era of strong talk of sorrow, tears come a lot.When I'm really sad, there are no tears, because there are too many things that should be shed, and I can't shed them.Zeng Manlin said. This is clear enough. Although these words are clear enough, they can't be applied to you. Everything is going smoothly for you, and you have everything you want, so there is nothing to worry about.Zeng Manlin turned to look at Zhiyun, and said seriously. I didn't say that I have anything to worry about, I just said that I don't like to cry anymore.well!Don't talk about this, let's go shopping!Zhiyun pointed to the front with his chin. They visited several big companies in a row, and Zeng Manlin strongly recommended to Zhiyun which one had good products and which one was cheap.But Zhiyun only bought two pairs of Lee jeans, two sweaters and a few toys for little Hansi, nothing else. Won't you buy yourself a suit?Zeng Manlin carefully studied Zhiyun's suit.The suit you are wearing is similar to that on Fifth Street, but it costs at least three hundred dollars a set. The clothes cost more than three hundred dollars!Bought it in Paris, from Christian Dior.Zhiyun looked down at himself. You wear such expensive things?Zeng Manlin didn't wait for Zhiyun to answer, she nodded and said: Yes!You are different now, you are your lady, not Yu Zhiyun from before. If you go to Yu Zhiyun, you won't be able to find it. No one knows who Yu Zhiyun is, so what should you do with Hailana.Look, am I not a different person?Zhiyun smiled half-smile, and said in a teasing tone. Since Zhiyun didn't care much about American clothing, Zeng Manlin said that she should stop shopping and find a Chinese restaurant to eat!Zhiyun also agreed, so he followed Zeng Manlin again, turned a few turns and went to a Chinese restaurant with a rather large facade. Because it is not easy to eat fresh fish and shrimp in Switzerland, Zhiyun ordered fried prawns and fish in sauce. Zeng Manlin ordered fried beef and a plate of green vegetables. The two of them were very satisfied with the meal. Finally, they ordered fried apples, which cost only a dozen dollars. Jinghui, because their restaurant is too expensive, when mentioning Jinghui, Zeng Manlin asked: Liao Jinghui, didn't you come to the school to find you? Yes, it is her. She has graduated from the Music Academy in Munich. Zhiyun, who specializes in piano, talked about Jinghui and the situation in Europe. While talking, the shadow of Xie Jinchang suddenly came to her mind like an electric current. inside. Zeng Manlin listened to Zhiyun's talk about the life of overseas students in Europe, and she listened with great interest. When she heard that Xie Jinchang came out to re-read mathematics in order to satisfy his girlfriend's vanity, and because he failed in the exam, he had no face to see Jiangdong's elders, so he had to be a bastard outside. sighed: well!這就是我們這一代的知識份子，功成名就的有，一敗塗地的有，知足常樂的有，整天罵街怨天怨地的也有，甚麼樣的都有。其實無面目見江東父老的何止那個姓謝的？理由又何止於考試失敗？聽那口氣，大有她也無面目回去見江東父老的意思。 織雲聽出曾曼琳話中的辛酸，見她吃飯吃得不多，又關照跑堂的招呼廚房放油放鹽不要太重，又要茶沖得淡，人又那麼乾乾瘦瘦的，就斷定她的日子並不好過。 曾曼琳，你為甚麼這麼瘦？織雲注視曾曼琳的臉，覺得中年女人的乾枯衰老已經毫不容情的在那上面刻下了痕跡。 我胃不好，又有失眠的毛病。每年流行性感冒來都被傳上。曾曼琳端看畫了福祿壽花樣的小茶杯，飲啜著茶葉放得特別少的香片。茶水太熱，把厚厚的眼鏡玻璃上噴滿了蒸氣。她把眼鏡拿下來，用手帕擦了一陣又戴上了。余織雲，你不會懂，一個人躺在床上生病發燒，是甚麼滋味！ 織雲也慢慢的品啜著茶。 曾曼琳，你沒想到過回去嗎？在國外受這個苦真沒必要。你又沒甚麼牽掛，一個人，說走就走。 go back?Easier said than done.我倒也考慮過，後來想想，還是算了吧！出來是一個人，回去還是一個人，有甚麼面子？還是留在這裏好，至少誰都知道我在美國做教授，我每個月給家裏寄一百五十塊美金，有時候還寄穿的用的回去，我一家人都被人羨慕，在別人的想像和傳說中我也就成了不得了的人，那多好啊！何必回去露馬腳給別人看。曾曼琳大搖其頭，表示回去是多麼不可能的事。她喝了一口茶，轉換話題道：你去西岸嗎？要去看陳玲玲？ 打算去看她呢！你們有聯絡嗎？ 聯絡是有，不太多。前年我到她那裏去玩過幾天，回來心裏好不舒服。 心裏不舒服？why? 因為曾曼琳窄窄的臉上現出點彆扭的笑容。因為像不太談得來了似的，兩個人之間的距離好大。 real?織雲無法相信的口氣。依她的想法：大學四年，天天膩在一起的好朋友，彼此之間信任、瞭解，無話不談，在異國他鄉相遇，應該格外感到親切才對，怎麼反會距離好大呢？你跟我也覺得距離好大嗎？她想著就開玩笑的問。 跟你倒沒有。我看出你是整個變了，不過並沒變得陌生，彼此還是和以前一樣的談得來。陳玲玲就不同，我該怎麼說呢？曾曼琳一隻手扶著太陽穴。oh!只好這麼說吧！陳玲玲太得意，也太美國化了。Me!比以前倒更中國化了，所以兩個人就越離越遠了。 real?陳玲玲這傢伙太美國化了？識雲懷疑的微笑著，幻想著她的死黨到底變成了甚麼樣子？因為都忙，她和陳玲玲也不像以前那樣常寫信了，只每年耶誕時交換一張卡片草草的寫幾句話。所以對陳玲玲的轉變她一點也沒覺出來。 她們又談了些國內國外同學的近況，自然也就談到了她們當初四個死黨之一，唯一留在國內沒出來的簡玉瑩。 和簡玉瑩有信嗎？Zhiyun asked. 每年一封信，報個平安而已。曾曼琳說。 我連報平安的信都沒寫。這幾年我過得忙忙碌碌，昏昏沉沉，跟很多同學都失去了聯絡。織雲訕訕的說。 你們結了婚的人都是個忙。簡玉瑩也說她忙，她兩個孩子，又教書，先生要出海去，常常不在家，怎麼能不忙 兩人談得高興，就忘了時間，直到發現外面天黑了，曾曼琳才看看手錶，慌張的說： 哎唷，已經八點四十了！我得趕快回去。你不知道紐約的治安多壞，我住那地方不近，要轉兩次地道車，太晚了可不好走，有次我回去晚了一點，一個黑人從頭到尾的就跟著，把我嚇壞了。 織雲見曾曼琳緊張到那個程度，也不敢怠慢，忙給小漢思和她自己穿上外套，跟著曾曼琳走出來。 外面已經夜色很濃了，天空漆黑，人行道上幽幽暗暗，遠處的霓虹燈閃閃爍爍，街上的行人也不像白天那麼多了。 我送你回旅館。曾曼琳說。 don't want.旅館離得很近，我自己可以回去。織雲牽起小漢思就要走。 還是我送吧！你不認識路，可別走丟了。 真的，不要送，我認識路。你快回去吧！你那邊太晚了不好走。織雲擋住正要往旅館方向走的曾曼琳。 All right!那我就不送你了。曾曼琳和織雲約好了再見面的時間，就匆匆的離去了。 織雲牽著小漢思，竚立在冷清的街頭，直到曾曼琳那窄窄的身影消失了，才往回旅館的方向走去。