Chapter 47 four six

Seeing Jinghui, Zhiyun felt the joy of reuniting in a different place. Jinghui and Yang Wenyan bought a very comfortable house in Wai Shuangxi, and hired servants. Perhaps it was because of their happy life, Jinghui looked radiant.Yu Zhiyun, you really shouldn't think of me after coming back for so long?Jinghui smiled and complained when she saw Zhiyun.While pouring her tea. In the days when I just came back, I was invited by one or the other, all elders, I had no choice but to go, and now it was my turn to see my own friends.I'm the first one to visit you, a great pianist, aren't you satisfied?Zhiyun also joked when he saw Jinghui.

Grand pianist?Tsk tsk, don't make me blush!It is true that people who return to their place become useful.Apart from teaching at school, I also teach private hours. I am very busy, and I feel that I am a little more important.It's not like in a foreign country, where you stay at home after finishing your studies.Jinghui said very proudly. This is the difference between being in one's own country and being in another's.Zhiyun said. How do you feel about coming back?You must feel that a lot has changed in China, right? It has changed so much. Unexpectedly, in such a short period of time, so many new things have been built, and many places have changed. I got lost on the street twice.As Zhiyun said, he looked at the gorgeously furnished living room, and then at Jinghui, who was full of spring breeze.How is Yang Wenyan?Did you see the alarm old man and Jia Tianhua?

Yang Wenyan's walking with artificial legs is similar to real legs, and he can walk like flying.He is now teaching at the University of Law, cultivating talents!He takes his work seriously and works extremely hard.Jinghui elongated her tone deliberately exaggeratedly, and then said with a smile: "It's common for old students to be alerted. He is even more busy. He not only teaches students, but also leads the chorus, and wants to rehearse operas. He is very active."Jia Tianhua is also busy, their factory is planning to produce new products, I don't know what will come out, I just know that he is working very hard.In a word, these people are not idle when they come back, they are all doing things, and they are all very satisfied.Yang Wenyan said, knowing this, it would be nice to come back sooner!Why suffer so much anger outside, suffer so much, and lose a leg

Zhiyun listened quietly.She thought that since Jinghui Yang Wenyan had such close contacts with the old police officer and Jia Tianhua, she must also see Jiang Xiaofeng often, and she expected that Jinghui would always mention him.But after waiting for a long time, Jinghui talked about everything except Jiang Xiaofeng.Finally, Zhiyun couldn't bear it any longer, interrupted Jinghui, and asked: Jinghui, don't you have any contact with Dajiang? Jinghui put away her smile, turned serious, stared at Zhiyun and said: You came back just for Da Jiang? for him?No.My purpose of coming back is very simple. For these years, the days of being noble on the surface, but being treated as second-class people in the bottom of my heart are enough.This is where I belong, why don't I come back?Zhiyun smiled freely.

So what did you ask Dajiang to do?Jinghui looked at Zhiyun with weird eyes. Because, I feel that I have done nothing all these years, which is tantamount to dawdling.It is absolutely correct that Dajiang wants to create our nation's own voice and ask every Chinese to sing their own songs.I would like to ask him, where can I do my best?Even if it is the smallest job, I will happily accept it as a Chinese, especially as a Chinese intellectual.Zhiyun was calm, serious and sincere. Oh Yu Zhiyun!Jinghui has been looking at her so strangely, hesitant to speak, as if there is something difficult to say.Seeing Jinghui's expression, Zhiyun understood.Jiang Xiaofeng must have been married to someone else, and Jinghui didn't know how to say this so as not to embarrass her.Thinking about it, Zhiyun smiled generously and calmly and said:

Jinghui, Dajiang must have been married long ago, right?If you think that I still want to continue my previous relationship with him, then you really don't understand me.As you can see, I am no longer the Yu Zhiyun who sheds tears at every turn and doesn't care about anything else except love and my own affairs.I think Dajiang may still be very lonely and needs help, and he may not be accepted by most people.Otherwise, why are other musicians whose names often appear in the newspapers when they return to China, but he is unknown? Yu Zhiyun, Jinghui sighed, her complexion darkened.Yu Zhiyun, do you really know nothing about Dajiang?

he?What's the matter?I do not know!We have absolutely no relationship.Zhiyun looked at Jinghui in confusion. Yu Zhiyun, you know that Jinghui paused with difficulty, and said: We didn't see Jiang Xiaofeng, he was gone two years before we came back. Zhiyun seemed to be struck by lightning suddenly, and he was stunned, unable to speak a word.You mean, Da Jiang is dead?After a long time, Zhiyun woke up from the shock and asked softly. Jinghui nodded, and said with a gloomy expression: It is said that he took the choir to the east to sing, just in time for a typhoon, the seawater came ashore and flooded all the houses along the coast. He went to rescue them one by one. Those people were rescued, but he himself did not come up.

Well this is impossible!The night I came back, I heard the girl next door singing our song!My sister, Banyun, said that these kinds of songs are popular among college students and middle school students. If Dajiang had disappeared a few years ago, how could these songs have spread?Jinghui, is this really the case?Zhiyun looked at Jinghui in bewilderment, hoping she would say it was not true.But Jinghui nodded again, and said solemnly: Yu Zhiyun, that's how things are. Zhiyun lowered his head, pondered for a while, and said sadly: Poor Dajiang, why such a fate?His lofty aspirations, his ambitions, alas, why did he die just after the beginning?Jinghui, Jinghui, I really can't express how ashamed I am. As I spoke, two lines of tears flowed down Zhiyun's small straight nose.

Yu Zhiyun, don't think about the past, we should look forward.Jinghui took a sip of tea and said calmly: Although Da Jiang's ambition was not fulfilled, his spirit awakened us.You know, the domestic music industry is now working hard to create our own Chinese music, and they all see the importance of this work.Alarm old student, me, a good friend of Jiang Xiaofeng who studies composition named Lin Xinrong, and several other musicians, often meet together to discuss how to promote our songs. We will hold a joint concert soon, specially performing The work of the Chinese themselves.The youth idol and Sophia Liu said that if you have any difficulties with the cost, you should ask them bluntly, and they will fully support. Lao Xie said that he will write the story of Da Jiang in pen in the future to let young people know.Jinghui pondered for a while, then said: Each of us regrets it very much, and we are so ashamed of our own hindsight.You see, we can't understand Da Jiang's wish, but think he is out of fashion and weird, and let him fight alone for so long.According to Lin Xinrong, Dajiang was very lonely and bitter. At first, no one accepted him at all. When everyone began to accept him, he left

Jinghui, if you discuss anything else, don't forget to call me. Although I am not a music student, I am willing to contribute.Zhiyun had wiped away her tears and said calmly. I am afraid that there will be many places where you will be required to contribute in the future!Dajiang left a lot of works, some completed, some unfinished, and some need to be accompanied by lyrics, because everyone is busy, they have not been sorted out yet, and this work will belong to us in the future.Dajiang's ambition is not only for the Chinese to sing their own voices, but also wants to take Chinese music to the world to compete for strength one day!Lin Xinrong said that Dajiang told him a few days before the accident: In the future, we will take the Chinese songs to the world to sing, so that people can see that China is not dumb who can't make a sound. The responsibility of the music person, let's think about it, is also right.So we are working hard in this direction!I wrote to the gifted child and he said he absolutely supports it.Maybe we are not qualified now, but we will always do it in the future.Jinghui said confidently, and said half-truthfully: If we really go to a foreign country to perform, how can we do without your help?

Zhiyun couldn't continue the conversation, and now she is still unwilling to tell Jinghui that she is going to divorce He Shaoxiang and has no plan to return to Europe. The news of Jiang Xiaofeng's death wiped out all Zhiyun's interest.Yang Wenyan came back and said he wanted to invite her out for dinner, but Zhiyun insisted on declining.She didn't want to go home either, so she hailed a taxi and went directly to Ling Yun's place. Ling Yun is writing something, Hui Mei is not off work yet.Seeing Zhiyun's sad expression, and a person suddenly barging in, Lingyun asked with concern: Sister, what's the matter with you?What happened? Oh Zhiyun touched his forehead, and said dejectedly: "It's nothing, I'm just feeling bored and want to talk to you." Is there anything wrong?You look unusual.Ling Yun stared at her, his eyes and tone were full of concern. Wu Zhiyun put down the hand touching his forehead, leaned on the back of the chair, and said slowly: "Ling Yun, I decided not to go back to Europe, I want to stay." Was it decided before coming back?Or is it decided now? I just thought about it before I came back, but I didn't have the courage to make a decision, and I didn't have the courage to make a decision after I came back.However, now I know what to do.Zhiyun said with certainty. Then, you and He Shaoxiang Lingyun looked at Zhiyun worriedly. I was going to propose a divorce to him, but our views, thoughts and actions were completely inconsistent and we couldn't get along.Our combination is simply wrong.Zhiyun paused for a while, then sighed and said, "Lingyun, you and Huimei are single-minded and live so well together, you don't know what kind of pain it is for two people who live together to live so far apart.At that time, my marriage to Shao Xiang was not based on feelings.Of course, his conditions are the reason why I am willing to marry him, but the other most important reason is to escape and deliberately take revenge. Sister, what are you running away from?revenge for what?Ling Yun stared at her with piercing eyes. I, Zhiyun, came back from my contemplation, and recalled: Lingyun, I once loved someone wholeheartedly, but I didn’t have the courage to marry him, because he is a character that cannot be accepted by ordinary people I know.Ling Yun interrupted her. Zhiyun swallowed half of what he said, and looked at Lingyun puzzled, unable to figure out what he meant by "I know?"During the time with Jiang Xiaofeng, she never mentioned a word to her family.He knows, what does he know? I know Jiang Xiaofeng, he is really amazing, enthusiastic, sincere, courageous and ambitious, he is an admirable character.Ling Yun sighed and said. You know him?Zhiyun was surprised. He is not only an acquaintance, but also the most intimate friend. I am greatly influenced by him. oh?Zhiyun was even more surprised. After he returned to China, he came to me and said that he heard from you that we are on the same road and wanted to make friends with me. Of course I am very willing.When he talked about you, I thought you were wrong at the time. Didn't I write to ask you to come back? Did Dajiang ask you to write it?Zhiyun suddenly realized, and interrupted Lingyun's words. Ling Yun nodded and said: Also half of what I meant.I admire Jiang Xiaofeng, and think it's very sad for you to reject such a person. Why did you never mention knowing him in your letter? Because, Jiang Xiaofeng said: You are a bit self-willed like a lady, and you deliberately want to be awkward with him. If you know that I have his intentions in calling you back, you will be even more unwilling to come back.He said: He has confidence in you and thinks that you will come back sooner or later, because you are not a person who can bear to be a foreigner forever.But then you suddenly married He Shaoxiang, Jiang Xiaofeng changed his mind and told me not to mention calling you back again He must hate me.Zhiyun said dejectedly. He doesn't hate you at all, he said, and in that case, he wants you to be happy.He said: After all, Zhiyun is a girl who has not gone through big storms, maybe it is really not suitable for me to live this kind of wild life.He Shaoxiang loves her very much and can make her live a peaceful and prosperous life, so don't disturb her anymore!He also said: He Shaoxiang is a talented person, very good, but he is a bit carried away and forgets where he came from.If Zhiyun could influence him, it would be meaningful for this outstanding scientist to contribute a little to his country.Ling Yun recalled, and after talking for a while, he said with a more emphatic tone: Among other things, Jiang Xiaofeng's kind-heartedness is convincing. oh?Oh I see?Zhiyun listened fascinated and talked to himself. That's it.However, at that time Jiang Xiaofeng was worried that you would be unhappy.He said that you are not the kind of person who can be satisfied with a life of prosperity and wealth. You have a lot of caring and know what the real value is, but you have no strength to resist the trend of reality.He said that you are contradictory, and it is rare for contradictory people to find real happiness.After Ling Yun finished speaking, he realized how embarrassing Zhiyun was made by these words, so he could only smile awkwardly. He's right, I'm a contradictory person, I'm really unhappy, and I don't have the power to ask Shao Xiang to do for his country?I am a failure of everything.Zhiyun didn't mind what Lingyun said, but was filled with emotion.I can't forgive myself that we talked so well about writing our song together and I got cold feet.I was sitting in a taxi just now, and I was thinking in my heart, if I came back with him at that time, maybe the situation is not like this, maybe he won’t die Sister, don't blame yourself so much, and don't be so sad about Jiang Xiaofeng's death.Ling Yun interrupted Zhiyun's self-pity and self-pity, and said seriously: Sister, you will understand that there is a kind of person in the world whose life cannot be tolerated by the meaning of ordinary life.His life belongs to many people, and belongs to the whole world. The life of this kind of person will not really die, because there is no power to make him die.He just disappeared in form and turned into a spirit, living in the hearts of thousands of people Ling Yun, you are right. On the first night when I came back, I heard Ma Xiaomei next door singing our song. According to Ban Yun, many people in the student group are singing this kind of song.Dajiang's efforts were not in vain Zhiyun said leisurely. In fact, not only the students were singing our own songs, but even many country people were singing.Of course, there are still many, many people who do not have this kind of awakening, but this is a long-term work, and there is no rush.Ling Yun added. Dajiang always said a word at that time, he said: Those who plant trees may not see the blossom and fruit, but if no one plants, there will never be a day of flower and fruit.He kept saying that he was going to be the seeder, but he did it, but he really didn't see the fruit.Zhiyun shook his head and sighed. People like Jiang Xiaofeng don't care about the results they see. He thinks he should do that, so he will do it regardless of success or failure.So, sister, don't be sad about this matter anymore. No one can undo what has happened.Should we look forward rather than backward?Do not you think so?Although there are still many people living in a daze, there are actually many people who are vigilant and responsible. Many friends who make music continue Jiang Xiaofeng's work and create our own voice for our nation. Some people with pens, such as Talk about me, regardless of whether others like to read it or not, I always write some articles to remind people to regain their lost national feelings. Jiang Xiaofeng is no longer alone, his ideal has become the ideal of many people.So, sister, you should not be sad, recall, blame yourself, you should cheer up and participate in this work.Ling Yun stood up from the chair, passionately and generously. I'm going to be involved in this work.Zhiyun has a well-thought-out plan and a firm tone.But I have to find a job first to support me and little Hansi. I can’t say that my family will provide for my college graduation and send me to study abroad. Sister, have you really decided to stay?Do you think mom and dad can take that hit? Is it such a big blow to them that I stay? How could it not be?You live abroad and you are married to such an amazing scientist as He Shaoxiang. This is what your parents are most proud of and what your relatives and friends are most envious of.If you stay, your parents will not only feel that it is too embarrassing, but also feel that all hopes have come to naught. This blow will be too great for them.Ling Yun put one hand in his hair, his eyes were lowered, as if he was very worried about this matter. To be a Chinese today is a heavy burden, and the pressure from trends and ideas is too great.Zhiyun gave an infinitely weary wry smile. That's it.Ling Yun raised his head and smiled while holding the corner of his mouth.Like me, under the current trends and concepts, in the eyes of many people, I am almost a person who is not doing business properly. Nothing at all.So my parents see me as worthless!But I don't care, what others think is up to him, I always do what I think is right.He really put on an air of indifference. Ling Yun, I admire you for this, and now I want to learn from you.Ling Yun, you have to support me. Sister, I'm always on your side.Ling Yun patted her on the shoulder. When Zhiyun returned home, the family was eating.Mrs. Yu said: We waited for a long time, but you never came back. I think Liao Jinghui must have kept you for dinner, so I won't wait for you.Have you eaten yet? eat it!I am not hungry at all.Zhiyun said and went back to his room. Mrs. Yu looked at Yu Huanzhang and said: It's not that Zhiyun is sick, he doesn't look very well. I will ask her later, is it uncomfortable there?If you really feel bad, see a doctor.Yu Huanzhang said. Zhiyun heard the conversation of his parents in the room, and felt that he didn't have the courage to tell them his plan not to return to Europe.They loved her so much, she couldn't bear to hurt them, just like she still couldn't bear to ask He Shaoxiang for a divorce. After a while, Mrs. Yu really opened the door and came in. Zhiyun, are you uncomfortable there?Don't be sick? Mom, I'm not sick. Maybe it's because I have too many social activities these days and I'm a little tired.Zhiyun reluctantly smiled and gave up the chair for Mrs. Yu to sit in.Sitting on the edge of the bed by himself. You are really tired, and you will keep entertaining when you come back.Fortunately, almost all the guests who want to treat have been invited.Go to bed early today!I want to take you out to make clothes tomorrow!Mrs. Yu said thoughtfully. Mom wants to take me to make clothes?What kind of clothes are you doing?Zhiyun looked at her mother puzzled.Mrs. Yu smiled and said: I'll take you to make a few satin cheongsams, if you don't make them, you'll have to go back, it's too late.Tailors are busy now, and it always takes two or three weeks to finish. Zhiyun said no while listening: Mom, I made so many cheongsams when I went abroad, and half of them I haven’t worn yet. It’s useless if I make more of them. It’s like throwing money away, so don’t do it! Everyone makes a few new clothes when they return to China, how can you not do it, you have a lot of entertainment and grand occasions, so you have to wear cheongsams.What was done before is outdated.Mrs. Yu has always done things well, and she will do what she says. Zhiyun almost said that he would not return to Europe, but after pondering for a while, he only said: Mom, I've already made an appointment with a friend tomorrow, and I'm afraid I won't have time to make cispora.She really has an appointment with a friend tomorrow, and that friend is him with the cloud. well!I can't go tomorrow again, and it seems too late.You are tired, just take a rest!Mrs. Yu went out nagging.As soon as she went out to accompany Yun, she slipped in, smiled and said to Zhiyun: Sister, don't forget about tomorrow. I know, but let's just talk in the coffee shop and skip other shows!Zhiyun said sleepily.These days when she came back, she was really tired. Whatever you want, as long as you look at him.Banyun said briskly. In the afternoon of the next day, Zhiyun finally met the Huang Chaoxiong whom Banyun kept talking about in a quiet cafe in the downtown area. Zhiyun fell in love with Huang Chaoxiong's upbeat look when he saw him.But she doesn't talk much emotionally, and Huang Chaoxiong is very talkative, so he is mostly talking. I do not deny that there are still many problems in our society. For example, some people are too extravagant, worship material things too much, lack a sense of responsibility, lack public morality, and lack self-awareness. Some people even have no conscience.But this is not necessarily a personal fault, nor can it be corrected overnight.This is a problem of education. To make our society perfect, it is not enough to let students read books. We must cultivate their personality and let them know that being a human being is such a solemn and sacred thing. Any individual is responsible for society. have a responsibility.If every teenager has such self-awareness, can this society still be bad?Huang Chaopai: He was neither too busy nor too slow, and he talked eloquently. Seeing Zhiyun's approval, he took a sip of the orange water in front of him, and continued: Today's living standards in Taiwan may be a little worse than those in Europe and the United States, but in the whole Asia is the best.For example, my family is a farmer. Before I was born, we didn’t have any land of our own. My father farmed for others, so life was of course very hard.It’s different now, we have our own fields, we’ve built a new house, we have everything like a refrigerator and a color TV.The five brothers in our family all went to college or junior college. My second brother received a doctorate from the University of Michigan last year, and my third brother graduated from National Taiwan University School of Medicine two years later.My younger brother and my eldest brother are really typical peasant children, they are interested in farming, and both of them are graduates of agricultural colleges.In short, compared with before, our life is so many times better, it seems like a miracle.My family is just an example. Now that Taiwan's industry and import and export trade are so developed, life is much better than our transformation.Huang Chaoxiong articulated clearly, his voice was sonorous, and he spoke very vividly, quite attractive as an orator, and even Zhiyun listened with fascination. From the examples I mentioned, it can be clearly seen that our society and the lives of ordinary people are progressing, and the progress is very, very fast.I always feel that we should cherish such achievements and not destroy them.You must know that thirty years of hard work is not an easy task.Of course, I do not deny that some remote areas are still very backward. For example, in mountainous areas, the lives of fishermen and salt people have not been generally and deeply improved.Huang Chaoxiong seems to be full of high-level theories, and he speaks out like flowing water. He likes to use metaphors. The story is just as interesting.He took another sip of orange water, looked at Zhiyun and Banyun, and saw that Banyun's cheeks were flushed when he heard it, with an expression that really won my heart, so he gave her a knowing smile, and continued: There is no significant improvement in these areas. It's not that I don't want to do it, but I haven't had time to make it perfect.Modernizing such a large area and bringing everyone's life to a moderately prosperous standard is a job that requires patience, and it cannot be done just by talking about it. It takes time, hard work, and manpower.To be honest, many intellectuals are unwilling to work in that kind of area, what a pain!Who likes to go?But on the other hand, they have to make sarcastic remarks and be picky, and in the case of a very small number of people, they will obliterate the achievements of the entire society and see everything as dark.I don't agree with this kind of attitude, which is too narrow-minded and too lacking in kindness.As he spoke, he looked at Banyun again, who was also looking at him affectionately. So, sister, the two of us said that after graduation, we will go to the mountains to teach.Not everyone can stay in a good place, and some people have to go to the backward areas. If no one is willing to go, how can the place be improved?Ban Yun said. This is the principle. If you want to do something well, it is useless to just complain and abuse. We should try to improve it. Therefore, we don’t scold, we do it, and we must pass this principle on to our students.Huang Chaoxiong laughed heartily. I totally agree with you guys.Education is not just a profession, it requires dedication. The seeds sown may not grow into big trees immediately, but one day they will grow into big trees, and the effect will be seen. If young people today have ideas like yours, the country will Is the future good enough?Zhiyun said very approvingly.For Huang Chaoxiong, a young man, she really appreciates it from the bottom of her heart. Sister, do you really agree with our idea?Banyun couldn't hide the smile on his excited, flushed face. Why not?Zhiyun asked with a smile. Because, many people think our thoughts are special.Ban Yun said naively. What do people say about us?We do what we think is right, regardless of what others think.Huang Chaoxiong smiled at Banyun, as if comforting her.Then he turned to Zhiyun and said: In our society, there is also a kind of people who don't care about anything other than their own interests. If others are different from him, he will find others disliked and feel weird. Human perceptions are a product of education, and that is exactly what you are going to do.Zhiyun couldn't help but said with emotion: People who embrace ideals are often lonely, but we can't abandon ideals just because of loneliness, and this kind of loneliness will not be permanent. That's right, that's it.Huang Chaoxiong said happily. After coming out of the cafe, Huang Chaoxiong left, and Zhiyun and Banyun went home together.The two sisters kept talking on the road.Zhiyun said: This is a good young man, bright, warm, clear-headed, honest, ambitious.Banyun, your vision is very accurate. Sister, do you really think so?Banyun was very happy, and his voice was as light as a bird singing. Sister, you have to help me get through the level of my mother.Mom is too!He insisted that Huang Chaoxiong was worthless.My opinion is exactly the opposite of that of my mother. I think that those who are willing to sacrifice their own interests for the benefit of the public need great courage. Not many people can do this, and only those with great promise are willing to do so.Sister, Huang Chaoxiong is famous for his excellent homework. I have also read his high school transcripts. Mathematics, physics, chemistry, and English are all above 90. He is qualified to study in any department, but he is determined to devote himself to it. educate. He said that in the future he will run his own school and develop ideal education!Sister, we are like-minded, and I want to help him. very good.Banyun, don't worry, I will fight for you with your parents.Zhiyun secretly decided in his heart: what he lost, he would never let his sister lose too. Mrs. Yu, Yu Huanzhang, and Xu Molin and his wife both said that they would accompany Zhiyun on a trip to the south, and discussed booking that hotel.Mrs. Yu repeatedly emphasized how modern the construction in the south is, and how luxurious some big hotels are, so Zhiyun must go and see them.Zhiyun was not in the mood at first, but when he remembered that his family usually lived frugally and spent so much money for her, he was even more unwilling. He only reasoned that there would be more opportunities in the future, so why rush at this moment.Mrs. Yu said disapprovingly: If there is a chance to go there in the future, you will leave soon, and you will not know when you come back to visit relatives. Zhiyun didn't know how to answer for a while, he didn't want to tell the lie that he was going back to Europe, and couldn't bear to tell the truth about staying, so he just kept silent in embarrassment. You have been back for so long, it seems that you haven't written any letter to Shao Xiang?Mrs. Yu seemed to have discovered some secret suddenly, and asked tentatively. There, it was written.Zhiyun faltered in the past. Mrs. Yu studied Zhiyun's expression, and felt that she was not happy at all, her complexion was gloomy, and she didn't talk much. She refused to make some cheongsams for her, and she refused to go sightseeing with her. Tian ran out to find her classmates and friends, she seemed not interested in anything else, and she was like two people before she went abroad.She couldn't imagine that Zhiyun had achieved so much abroad, had everything that others dreamed of, married such a capable husband, and lived such a high-end life, why couldn't he see a little bit of pride in returning home?On the contrary, he was preoccupied and depressed.This made her suspicious and worried. Don't you have an awkward fight with Shao Xiang, right?Mrs. Yu looked at Zhiyun anxiously. No, mother, you want to go there!Seeing his mother's worried look, Zhiyun held back the words that came to his mouth, although the unrest in his heart had reached the extreme. He Shaoxiang didn't hear from him these days, and Zhiyun seemed a little disappointed, but then he thought: Maybe He Shaoxiang has also reflected on it, seeing the distance between the two people and the meaninglessness of life, and he definitely doesn't want to continue this marriage anymore. Naturally, it calmed down.Then, if she asked him for a divorce, it would reduce a lot of her unbearable heart, and things would be simpler and easier. Logically speaking, she should feel relaxed about this situation.But she didn't feel relaxed, on the contrary, she was full of unpleasant taste. Mrs. Yu has had two days with Ban Yun, and the reason is naturally because of Huang Chaoxiong.She formally warned Banyun to cut off contact with Huang Chaoxiong, but Banyun tilted her head and asked: Why?This question made Mrs. Yu very angry.That day, when Banyun was not at home, she complained to Zhiyun: Every time I told her not to associate with that kid surnamed Huang, she always asked me why?Isn't this asking knowingly?She clearly knows that I think that Huang Chaoxiong is not good enough for her Mom, feelings are the most subjective thing. Only the two of them know if they are worthy or not, and no one else can judge.Zhiyun pretended to be casual and interrupted.Mrs. Yu was about to say something more, Zhiyun said again: Mom, why do you object to Banyun's relationship with Huang Chaoxiong?I think that young man is very nice. Have you met him already?Mrs. Yu had a big accident.Even Yu Huanzhang, who was sitting on the sofa reading the newspaper, raised his eyes and looked at Zhiyun attentively. I have met him, and I think he has ambition and purpose, he is a rare good young man, and he is suitable for Banyun.Zhiyun said calmly. Do you think he is a good match for Ban Yun?Yu Huanzhang couldn't hide his surprise in his voice, he threw the newspaper aside and sat up straight.Zhiyun, why did your child keep living and going back?Mrs. Yu was disappointed, and said displeasedly: That Huang Chaoxiong studied in an education department, and his family is a farmer, and he insisted on not going abroad.Think about it carefully, what future does this kind of person have?At best, I can only be a middle school teacher, and I can't even teach a university.Today, doctoral experts are flying all over the sky, what is a small teacher?After Mrs. Yu finished speaking, she shook her head angrily, folded her hands on her chest, and sat down on a chair. Mom, today, many of our concepts must be changed. What's wrong with Huang Chaoxiong's farming at home?Where does the food we eat come from if no one is farming it?Farmers are not inferior to us at all, and if we study for a few more days, we are not superior to farmers or other people.In today's era, the value of a person is the same, it only depends on whether they have fulfilled their responsibilities as a person.Huang Chaoxiong and Banyun are determined to devote themselves to education, to help the next generation to be good people, and to cultivate their correct outlook on life.I think it's a good ambition, I don't think it's a bad idea.Zhiyun finally spoke out what he had held back for a long time.Mrs. Yu and Yu Huanzhang both raised their faces and showed extremely unhappy expressions. This is simply nonsense, his own outlook on life is a problem, how can he cultivate others?With this kind of view of a frog at the bottom of a well, you still say that he has ambition.Yu Huanzhang stood up from the sofa all of a sudden, and walked up and down in the middle of the ground with his hands behind his back. Zhiyun, I really don't understand what you are thinking?You would think that this kind of person with no ambitions has ambitions!For a girl like Banyun, if Mrs. Yu was talking excitedly about going abroad to fight the world, Zhiyun would interrupt her with a wry smile: Mom, a Chinese girl, left her hometown and went to a foreign country. She was suffering to death. What world can she fight?A person has a value concept of survival, not necessarily everyone's goal is to pursue fame and fortune.Ban Yun and Huang Chaoxiong are single-minded, why do you have to break them up. Mrs. Yu's fair and round face flushed with anger, and she said angrily: Zhiyun, what you said is wrong.What kind of strength did your family use to train you to go abroad?I didn't want to mention this at first, but you have to take care of your family, at least you should care about your younger siblings, Ban Yun is young and short-sighted, please help her to persuade her, but you encourage her instead.Zhiyun, you married a famous and learned scientist like Shao Xiang, and let your sister marry an insignificant little teacher? Zhiyun was stunned, he didn't expect his mother to say such words.She could hear reproaches and complaints in these words, thinking that she had not fulfilled her responsibility to take care of the family and was not enthusiastic about the affairs of her younger siblings.What's more, her tone seemed to be that she was complacent and happy in a foreign country.This made her very unconvinced, and all the depression and grievances she had suffered over the years came to her at once. Mom, do you think that the family has lived frugally for ten years and put so much effort into sending me abroad, will it be of much benefit to me?Mom, to be honest, if I didn't go abroad, or if I came back after going out to see, I would be much happier than now.I married a famous and educated husband like Shaoxiang, but I was not happy at all.The more Zhiyun talked, the more sad he became, and the more he couldn't control it, even though he saw the shocked expressions on his parents' faces, he mustered up his courage and said: "I'm going to tell my parents!"I don't plan to go back to Europe. You don't plan to go back to Europe?Yu Huanzhang, who was walking back and forth, stopped and looked at Zhiyun suspiciously. I don't want to go back, I want to divorce Shaoxiang.Zhiyun lowered his eyes. Mrs. Zhiyunyu was so shocked that she couldn't speak for a long time, and exchanged glances with Yu Huanzhang helplessly.Zhiyun, are you joking?How did you come up with this idea so well?You and Shao Xiang have been married for so many years, haven't you always been very good?你別鬧孩子脾氣吧！完全是討好與不信任的口氣。 我沒鬧甚麼脾氣，我已經考慮很久了。 像紹祥那麼有學問有成就的人，還有甚麼可挑剔的？夫妻兩個在一起，總是能過去的就讓它過去，不能太吹毛求疵。織雲，你不可以意氣用事。余煥章沉重的說，眉頭蹙得緊緊的。 紹祥不是對你很好嗎？我看過了，誰家的女兒回國也沒你這個排場，又是貂皮大衣又是那麼大的鑽戒，我也並不是見錢眼開的人，可是紹祥肯這樣為你花錢，就證明他對你多重視，多好。他又有學問，有地位，這樣好的一個丈夫，還有甚麼不滿意的？織雲，你向來是本份的孩子，歲數也三十出頭了，怎麼會忽然這麼任起性來，要鬧甚麼離婚呢？你在國外的情形，不知道被多少人羨慕，如果你鬧離婚，不成了大笑話余太太滿面惶恐，連哄帶求的。她還沒說完，余煥章接著道： 紹祥到底做了甚麼？難道在外面有女人？ 他倒不是那種人。不過我們的思想、意見、做人態度、性情，都太不相同了。織雲苦著臉說。 哦原來是兩個人鬧了意見。余太太如釋重負的鬆了口氣。織雲，泥人還有個土性呢！人嘛！總是各人各性，夫妻兩個也不會全一樣，像我和你爸爸，還不是也有鬧彆扭的時候。那對夫妻都一樣，你就別鬧孩子脾氣了。 我不是鬧孩子脾氣。織雲兩手撐在沙發背上，看看余太太又看看余煥章。出國這些年，我早就不是甚麼孩子，也不會鬧甚麼脾氣了。能不能忍的，我都忍了。可是一個跟我要在一起生活一輩子的人，居然忘本到認為自己不是中國人，是我無論如何沒辦法再忍受的事。 你這孩子可真變了，想法好特別。夫妻兩個過的是日子，重要的是他對你好，對家負責任，在事業上爭氣，他認為他是那國人有多少關係呢？反正實際上他是中國人。余太太幾乎有點忍俊不禁，好像織雲的話很好笑。 你媽說的也對，這一點怎麼說也構不成感情破裂的理由。紹祥在國外多年，免不了想法洋化一點，那也無可厚非，如果你根據這個理由跟他鬧離婚，豈不是天大的笑話。余煥章又停止了踱來踱去，用教訓的口吻說。 織雲不想再把這個問題談下去，知道談得再多也不會使父母瞭解。 媽，爸爸，所以我勸你們，不要非把伴雲送出國不可。她出去，嫁個博士丈夫的成就一定會有，問題是那並不代表幸福，人生只有一次，錯過了再也回不來。她和黃超雄彼此相愛，志同道合，實在是最理想的一對，千萬別拆散他們。婚姻是最主觀的事，只有自己覺得幸福才是真正的幸福，別人看著好，看著羨慕並沒有用。織雲說完就轉身回到臥房，余太太和余煥章的嘆息聲也跟著傳進來。 小漢思被大舅母接去玩了，屋裏空空的，夕陽透過窗前的鳳凰木照進來，洒了一桌子的黑影，那些黑影在織雲的眼前漸漸擴大，整個籠罩了她。剎那之間，她覺得如置身在荒郊野外，那樣的孤單無助，四顧茫然，無處安排自己。她奇怪，出國多年的自己，到底變成了甚麼？在國外茫茫然，回來還是茫茫然。她把眼光從樹枝的空隙裏望出去，那片遠遠的藍天，又像是展著無窮希望，她定定的望著，竟出了神