Chapter 15 Chapter fifteen

Han Xing knew that as long as she asked, Sally could easily arrange a date for her.But she knew she shouldn't have done it.She liked to go to Sally more and more, and Sally was so lively and active that she always cheered her up.When Han Xing returned home, he felt that he had sacrificed too much for his lover. There is no doubt that her love for Xingle has changed.She yearns for freedom and misses the independence of a girl who worked in a dairy.She would rather go to work and make money to live by herself.The more she thought about it, the more she longed for freedom.Xingle loves her crazily and relies on her, which makes everything sadder.

Of course Xing Le also felt it.When he came home, he often found her nervous and cranky.Xing Le is willing to do things for her, but he feels that she is no longer satisfied, a shadow has entered their lives, a long, invisible, mysterious shadow has crawled into his soul, he is disheartened, but he does not understand what's going on.He never expected such a situation. Dear, what's the matter? no wow. You don't seem happy when you're with me. Locked up in this little hole, with nothing to do all day, how do you want me to be happy?you have a job.What do you want me to do?

Would you rather move in with your uncle? of course not. If it's about money, I can go to my uncle.As long as I ask, he will give me thousands of dollars at any time.I know.I just don't want to speak, but for you, I'm willing to go.I try not to rely on him, and I think he respects me for that. Han Xing remained silent.There was no expression on his face. Please understand, dear, Xingle said: Every young lawyer has to go through training.We have to do all chores and prepare materials for the boss.I learned a lot from experience.We wait patiently for several years.Maybe in a few years I'll be able to open my own business.It was different then.

What do you want me to do these years?I live frugally on your six hundred and fifty star coins a month. When you become a fat barrister, I will no longer be young and attractive.I know what those fat, successful big shots look like. how do you know I just know it.You'll go after young girls. It's unbearable.He stared at her desperately, as if he had never seen her before.He squeezed his lips together.Seemingly for the first time looking at the true face of the woman he married and is still madly in love with. You think of me as that kind of person?he finally said. What else can I think?Aren't men all over the world the same?She got up, paced the floor, then punched the sofa with her fist and sat down.Staring at Xing Le coldly.

Xing Le was petrified.She has never been like this.He went up, sat beside her, and took her hand. Darling, please.I did not give you a luxurious home.But, I think we agree not to rely on the uncle.I know you must be working hard. He wanted to kiss her, but she turned her face away and said, Please, don't do that. God, what's going on?Please speak up. nothing. She remained silent again.Her hair is combed to one side.Now she is looking at him out of the corner of her eye, with the same expression as in a photo she gave him before the engagement.With her legs crossed on the sofa, she was still so beautiful.But Xing Le felt that she didn't love him anymore, which was more clear and affirmative than what she had said in thousands of words.He struggled to face the present reward.I know you don't love me anymore.Feeling uneasy, I waited for her answer.

Nothing but love?she answered. She got up, said nothing, and went to bed. The next day, Xingle woke up very early.The scene last night made his mouth bitter.What's wrong with Han Xing?Oh, he thought, the best time to make peace is in the morning. They sleep in two beds.The apartment was on the second floor, and a French window with a half-closed lattice railing looked out onto the woodland.Xing Le got up and stood by the railing for a while, trying to let her know that she was up.He looked back at her figure under the sheet.Hair draped over the pillow; eyes shut tightly. The Xiaoyi music box on the dressing table will release the music of Paris Love.They used to lie down with each other in the morning, and they loved listening to this piece of music the most.

He went up and opened the music box.Unless she's fast asleep, she should hear voices saying a sweet good morning.But she didn't say a word. He plays it over and over again.Waiting for her to open her eyes, so that he can go up to court and reconcile.Han Xing didn't move.Then she opened her eyes suddenly, jumped out of bed, and went into the bathroom.She went away for a long time before coming back. I see.Their love is gone.She was still unhappy and still in a bad mood.This is not just a night of tension, a good night's sleep will be fine. When she came out of the bathroom, he had already made coffee and put it on the dining table.Wearing a pink bathrobe, she kissed him quickly on the forehead and sat down.

Feel better?he asked her. Maybe?she said listlessly. He raised his coffee cup and wished a happy day together! She raised her glass and said: Another day!Her statement seemed sad, as if the prisoner had just had another day. He felt that Han Xing wanted to get rid of him.He didn't speak, just finished his coffee and went to work. It's still early.He walked a long way, through several shady belts, to the commercial street.At exactly nine o'clock, the tropical sun dazzled the eyes.He was filled with a feeling of failure, not a failure at work, but a great love that he had dreamed of forging throughout his life, an infinite, perfect, elevating love that was supposed to protect him like a magic spell, but finally failed.

The mind is full of little things.He remembered the two of them walking in the woods and on the beach, her arm always around his waist, shaking her head and laughing.Now when she saw him coming home, there was no joy in her eyes.Climb the stairs and walk straight ahead. He remembered a weekend evening when he accompanied her to a restaurant in the Bedouin area.There was a small stage twenty feet square.A string orchestra with a piano is playing.Fifty or sixty couples of foreigners danced lightly. Do you want to jump?he asked her after dinner. In no mood. Oh please, I know you like to dance.

She reluctantly accompanied him, dancing silently.In less than two minutes, she said: Let's go back. He caught her looking at the European men, and they were staring at her too. Hey, everyone is looking at you.you.So beautiful he said. It's because we're so different.she replied. Does she feel ashamed because he is Chinese?How does he know?He bet she would dance all night with those Europeans if he wasn't there. He knew that he had not ignited the great love of his dreams.It just doesn't work. It never occurred to him to stop loving her. After get off work that day, he went to see his uncle.He asked for thousands of dollars.Uncle just waited for the day when he would come back and ask for money.He didn't have to give a reason.Uncle knew that the salary was simply not enough.

Take it, the uncle said: I know you are short of money.How is everything. Oh, very good, very good. Xingle knew that it was really unfair for Han Xing to save even though he could provide more money.It's all his damn self-esteem to blame! With the check in his pocket, he was determined to go back and make up for it. Guess what I got?As soon as he walked in, he swam the check to her. Where did you get it? Ask uncle for wow. Han Xing's expression relaxed.I thought you wouldn't want it. It's all because of my pride.I don't want it.I don't think it's good enough for you.My uncle has plenty of money.Take it, buy whatever you want. Did he ask anything? No.He more or less expected. You thanked him? Um.We go out to have a big meal.OK? They went to Nantian rooftop restaurant.Xingle is full of energy and hope.They should live like this.He has no reason not to use his uncle's money to go out on Sundays.Relatives meet once in a while without interfering with each other's lives, and can get along quite happily. Han Xing doesn't like Chinese wine and European sweet wine.They drank wine and ate several delicious dishes. Xing Le wants to have a good night.After dinner they went to the movies, and when they walked out of the theater, he said: Let's go to the beach. Accompanying her to the beach is his dream, an eternal dream.Two people can lie undisturbed under the starry sky and listen to the distant sound of the waves.They could lie all night, talking about each other's love and longing, talking about everything, discussing everything, alone.He often thinks about how they first met, the night they told each other on the beach.He wants to regain that love.Of course, she was bound to rekindle; he felt that it was only temporarily stifled by the circumstances of life. They took a taxi to East Coast Road.The night market is open.They got out of the car and walked up the beach path together. Han Xing said nothing.She is neither happy nor depressed.Just be nice.But her arms no longer came around his waist.They walked onto the damp sand. A few houses were silhouetted against the dark shoreline above.They walked a hundred yards on a detour to a deserted beach.There is only a faint light in the distance.Han Xing didn't seem to want to stop and walked straight forward, as if he was afraid of being alone in the dark with him. Finally he said: Let's sit down.He took a coat and spread it carefully on the sand. The moment he had longed for had finally come.They were all lying on the sand. He bent to kiss her, but she said: Please don't do this. I don't understand you.What's the matter with you? I have no idea. You don't seem happy when you're with me. You have been very kind to me and I am very grateful.It's not about sex, sex doesn't matter.It's just little things that I can't explain. He put his arms around her and bent over to kiss her, she said: I already told you His illusions were shattered.For a time they dreamed of a tryst like this, where they were connected physically and mentally.They can regain that sweet dream.All night on Lover's Beach, secluded from the rest of the world.It would be foolish of them to come to the beach when they could be making love in their own room.They lived together, slept in the same room, and hadn't even touched each other recently.But he thought that by bringing her to the place where they had been dating before, they could recapture the romance of dating in the past. She loved him with all her heart!He also has no other heart. Now he knows that the relationship with each other has hit the rocks because the fun is gone. Soon Han Xing went to Sally's residence to have a tryst with the man.She trusted Sally completely, so the money stayed with her.What she needs is not money, but sensory stimulation, which can enable her to escape the boring life around Xingle and fully adapt to urban life.It has become a habit for a long time, she faced her infidelity, saying that she prefers European men.Sally taught her to be careful. No need to tell anyone, Sally said: Be careful in your situation.I don't want you to get into trouble.I'll keep an eye out.If you avoid the residents here and only see tourists and such, you'll be fine. When Han Xing returns home, he is always refreshed.If she came back in the evening and found Xingle at home, she would say that she had gone for a walk, and he didn't ask.She is much friendlier to Xingle because she is happier now than before. They often ate dinner quietly, listening to music, and then Xing Le said that he had something to do.She had no interest in his legal business.Sometimes he was very lustful, but she said that she was too tired and had no interest in dating.