Chapter 27 24

I'm leaving this place.The mouse said to Jie. At six o'clock in the evening, the store just opened, the counter was waxed, and all the ashtrays in the store did not have a single cigarette butt.Wine bottles, wiped clean, were lined up with labels facing out, new napkins with neatly folded tips and shakers of Tabasco and salt neatly packed away on platters.Jay is stirring three salad dressings in different small bowls.The smell of garlic drifts around like a thin mist, just at such a small interesting moment. The mouse borrowed nail clippers from Jay, and said so while dropping the clipped nails in the ashtray.

Where did you say you were going to leave? Without a specific goal, I think of a place I haven't been to, preferably a place that is not too big. Jay funneled the various salad dressings into different large flasks, put the three bottles in the refrigerator, and wiped his hands with a towel. What are you doing there? work.The mouse looked at the hand several times after clipping the nails on its left hand. Is it okay to work here? Can not be done.The mouse said: I really want to drink beer. I treat you. Thanks then. The mouse poured the beer slowly into the chilled glass and drank about half of it in one gulp.Don't you ask me why I can't do it here?

Because I seem to understand a little bit. The mouse smiled and said, "Oh, Jie!It can't be like this.If everyone gets to know each other like this without asking, what's the point of singing?I don't want to, but it seems like I've been in that world for too long. maybe.Jay said this after thinking about it. The mouse took another sip of beer, and then began clipping the nails of his right hand.I thought about it a lot, and I also thought that the result would be the same wherever I go, but I still have to go, even if it is the same. Won't come back again? Of course I will come back one day, well one day, because I didn’t escape.

The mouse picked up the peanuts in the small dish, peeled the wrinkled shells loudly, and threw them into the ashtray.Cold beer dew dripped on the polished surface, and he wiped it off with a paper napkin. When to set off? Tomorrow, the day after tomorrow, I really don’t know, probably within two or three days, it’s already ready. It was so sudden. Well, I have been causing you a lot of trouble. well!It's been a lot.Jay nodded several times as he wiped the glasses lined up in the sideboard with a dry cloth.But as long as it's over, everything is like a dream. Maybe.Before I could really think that way, though, it felt like it took a lot of time.

Jay laughed after a while. Yes, I often forget that I am twenty years younger than you. The mouse poured all the remaining beer into the glass and drank slowly.This was the first time that I drank beer leisurely and slowly. Would you like another bottle? Mouse shook his head.No, no need.This bottle was originally intended to be the last bottle to drink.I mean drink it here. Are you no longer here? That's the plan, because it will be sad when you come. Jay smiled.Then there will be a period later. Maybe I won't recognize you next time we meet. Just smell it. The mouse looked at its two clean-cut fingers again, stuffed the remaining peanuts into its pocket, wiped its mouth with a paper napkin and stood up.

◇ Like sliding through a transparent fault in the dark, the wind flows silently.The wind shakes the branches overhead slightly, and regularly blows the leaves on the branches to the ground.The leaves that fell on the roof of the car made a dry sound, lingered on it for a while, and then slid down the slope of the front glass and fell on the hood. The mouse was alone in the woods of the cemetery, lost all language, just continued to stare at the distance of the front glass of the car, the ground a few meters in front of the car was decisively subsided, and the dark sky, sea and street night scene stretched infinitely in front of it .Mouse leaned forward with his hands on the steering wheel, and stared intently at a point in the void without moving.Holding an unlit cigarette between his fingertips, he continued to draw several complex and meaningless figures in the air with the tip.

After talking with Jie, he was overwhelmed by an unbearable sense of exhaustion, and the various streams of consciousness that had managed to bring the entities together into one body suddenly seemed to start to separate in different directions.The mouse did not know where to go to bring these tributaries back together again.Every tributary is but a dark river flowing to the desert sea.Maybe they will never meet again, and twenty-five years seem to exist only for this.why?The mouse tried to ask himself.do not know.While a good question, there is no answer.Good questions always have no answers.

The wind strengthened a bit, and the wind blows the warmth baked by people from all kinds of livelihoods to some distant world, leaving behind the cooled dark depths, where countless stars are shining.The mouse put both hands down from the steering wheel, turned the cigarette between its lips for a while, and then lit up as if it suddenly occurred to him. My head hurts a little, not so much a pain, but a strange sensation in both temples as if being pressed by cold fingers.The mouse shook his head, shaking all thoughts away.Anyway, it's over. He took out the road map of the national version from the compartment, flipped through it slowly page by page, and then pronounced the names of several places, almost all of which were small places he had never heard of. After reading a few pages in series, the fatigue of the past few days suddenly rushed to him like a huge wave, while a slight warm current slowly circulated in the blood.

sleepy. I feel like sleepiness is going to wipe everything out, as long as I fall asleep When I close my eyes, I can hear the sound of the waves deep in my ears, the waves of winter that are beating against the breakwater, pulling away as if to mend the seams of the concrete berm. Then there would be no need to explain anything to anyone, thought the Mouse.And the bottom of the sea is warmer than anywhere, and it is full of peace and tranquility.No, don't think about anything, don't think about anything.