Chapter 3 three

Everything is alive and powerful. On both sides of the promenade of the Faculty of Arts, the wind is blowing briskly. Two immature banyan trees grow fresh and tender leaves day and night. On the green grass, there are some butterflies flying, white stars The flowers of the grass are small and dense, and there is a light pastoral fragrance in the air. Groups of students flocked under the brown colonnade as soon as they took advantage of the short time after class, talking and laughing, while the freshmen, like urchins playing in the sea, always loved to climb. Go to the high waves, look forward to the vast space in front of you, and look forward to the bright future of Jinxia in the future.In fact, they are only holding foolish longings, and they don't really have the ability to steer the boat of life on the ocean of life and make it sail stably.

In these days, Nansen feels tired of reading. Feelings come and go, he can't get rid of songs, dances, rushes, collisions, fantasies, vistas, excitement, sadness, injustice, etc. It is woven into a soft net, covering everyone, and when people are in the net, they feel empty everywhere.Is it the emptiness of this era?Or are young people trapped in their own cocoons, creating a sense of emptiness in themselves?Perhaps some answers can only be found from books and life perception? This kind of idea prompted him to gnaw at the book, and he couldn't wait to argue with Lao Gao, who loves to talk about metaphysics; in fact, both of them knew that their concepts were not mature enough, and they couldn't be sure of anything, but such empty arguments, how many To fill that void in my heart.

Lao Gao, you skipped class again, you are so comfortable. After Nansen finished his Sociological Encyclopedia, he jumped down the stairs and found Lao Gao with a flower on his head, sitting under the shadow of the porch by the lawn, teasing a butterfly flying around the flower. you forgot?I am exempt from English.Lao Gao said: I should be skipping the class for honor.Don't come near me, this girl in a skirt is in love with me. Don't speak so lowly!A girl passing by with a book in her arms turned her head back, with a sullen look, and asked, "Please tell me clearly, who in a skirt is dating you?"

Lao Gao told her to be dumbfounded, then suddenly laughed and said: You are completely wrong, I mean the butterfly.You see, I put this flower in my hair and played with it for a long time. When you interrupted her, she flew away. It should be saying: You broke my love! The girl blushed, smiled awkwardly and said: You are a little nervous. He's not nervous at all, Xiao Cui.Nansen rushed over and explained: He is a philosopher, a monster in Room 204. The girl named Xiao Cui stood there in a daze, not knowing whether to leave or not?She is of the same age as Nansen, and they are already familiar with each other. The nickname Xiaocui was also given to her by Nansen. He explained: She is like a little green fish.

Come, come, let me introduce you. Seeing that Lao Gao and Xiao Cui were both in a daze, he smoothed things over and said: This is Gao Gao from the Department of Foreign Languages, and this is Xiao Cui.If you don't scold and don't know each other, it's also predestined.You don't have class next term? Xiao Cui shook her head.Lao Gao stood up holding the flower that was once chased by butterflies, and smiled at Xiaocui. There is no class, I treat you.Nansen said: Go to the welfare agency and listen to Lao Gao talk about philosophy. A very pure girl is really easy to catch like a timid newborn butterfly. She is also very happy to be close to boys like Lao Gao and Nansen with a bit of uninhibited temperament, and doesn't like those pale, weak , restrained, and walking wood.

Are you really only going to fall in love with butterflies?Old Gao.Sitting down in the welfare agency, Nansen called black pine root beer. The beer liquid was floating on the rim of the cup, and his words naturally floated up. I'm going to spend some time and listen to philosophy. So interested in philosophy?Xiaocui played with the straw: I just don't understand, how can you be so crazy to make a bunch of abstract symbols? Of course, Lao Gao said: Women are real animals, so of course they hate abstractions.And Socrates said: If a family has a wife, a man has no choice but to be a philosopher.At the same time, it can be proved that few of the professors of philosophy are women.That's why my old man said: only women and butterflies don't need philosophy, as long as they have youth, freedom and beauty, that's enough!

You are obsessed with taking the left and right.Xiaocui raised her lips, took a sip of her drink and said: Men are real animals, fighting for power, talking about politics, and gaining a good reputation, while women are born philosophers, just take Suge's words: fierce wife Philosophers are specially made, then, aren't they professors?But the way of education is not to indoctrinate, but to inspire! Alright, alright, Nansen said: I'm sorry for you two if you start arguing as soon as we meet.As for me, I am actually closer to literature, which is more humane. The philosophy in literature is contained in life and cannot be separated.Those metaphysics, Taoism, appearance world, will world, nirvana state, essence, existence, are just creating mental illness!An old farmer doesn’t study philosophy, but he can still live a real and happy life all his life, while philosophers often go to the electric chair in a mental hospital. I said, Lao Gao, if it’s this kind of ghost philosophy, you don’t need to listen to it!

Drink, Romeo is also talking about philosophy?Dare to love is the philosophy of love? Nansen raised his head and saw the big baby smiling and pointing at himself with the book clip, so he also smiled and said: I'd like to treat you if you forget your wallet again. I didn't forget to bring my wallet.The big baby said: But there is no money in it.I didn't mean to take advantage of it.She sat down and the welfare girl filled another cup. Go on with yours, she said: What about philosophy? Philosophy will make me a king for the rest of my life.Nansen said: I would rather go down the mountain this weekend, go shopping, and run to second-hand bookstalls.I was just trying to persuade Lao Gao not to listen to philosophy. In our history, there are too many talkers who never leave the bench!So I don't want to do that stuff.

Of course you have the right not to engage in it, but you really have no right to despise this discipline.Lao Gao said: Compared with literature, philosophy is considered to be on a higher level, and it is in the position of guiding life.It wants to thoroughly explore things that ordinary people think are boring and difficult to understand, such as the essence of life and the essence of the universe. Sometimes it is simply testing human wisdom, smashing the empty shell of human mind, and filling in some things that make human beings feel unwilling but helpless. Laixi. Outside the window, the feathery leaves of the poinciana are so green and cool, but the two big boys on the square table put the two girls aside, and raised their bars familiarly.For the first few minutes, the two remained inseparable, but later on, they forgot the original topic and slapped each other on the table, arguing loudly.

Life is stupid, it is always wasted blindly.Lao Gao said: The emotion of literature is just a fog that confuses people's eyes, and it is harmful to real thinking. Can life and emotion be separated?Cut off your emotional head, can you still be a completely calm philosopher?Nansen became excited, and immediately counterattacked with a series of questions: We are all descendants of the Yellow Emperor, isn't it philosophical to love the nation?I chose the Department of Sociology and learned the new knowledge to serve the society and transform the society. Shouldn't I rely on sincere emotions?A philosopher who removes emotion, if it is not helpful to human beings, he can study in his own discipline as much as possible, without having to raise his beard to guide or interfere with other disciplines. Philosophy can be independent, but it is not ruling. tyrant of everything.

Enthusiasm has blown your head away, Brother Ha, Lao Gao said with a wry smile: The phenomena that arise in reality are like lightning, which light up in an instant, leaving only darkness, which is too vain and meaningless. You are poisoned by existentialism, Lao Gao.You can't be so negative, really, you should take traditional Chinese medicine, first relieve it, and then use some ethnic life to nourish it. It has nothing to do with negative and positive issues, the nature of life is like this. I said about it, Lao Gao.I think the attitude towards life is the key, it can fundamentally change the joys and sorrows of life. I said nothing to do.The essence of life will not pay attention to your attitude! I prefer to talk about it, people live a real life, no matter what the essence of life is not! Nothing, nothing!With a flick of his elbow, Lao Gao dropped a bottle of black pine beer: Ha, Your Highness, Brother I, use your brain to think carefully: Are you only satisfied with a moderate real life?Your needs and desires are so thin? I care so much?Optimistic struggle is the best way.Have you heard that Brother Ha can also write poems like Li Bai's?Listen to me recite a five-character quatrain.He took a sip of the smoothie and groaned: a big belly can hold things, so why be afraid of kicking a ball?A glass of smoothie is enough to forget the eternal worries! Haha, the big baby clapped his hands and said with a smile: First of all, it's an argument, but now it's time to turn into a poetry competition!Brother Ha has already sung a song, Gao Yuan, should our philosopher also sing a song? What I drank was soda, not wine. Lao Gao said: I don’t have the cheekiness of Romeo to compare Li Bai with his stinky poems. Author: Lao Gao talks about philosophy, finds butterflies in love, Lao Dan is startled, Zhuang Zhou is also angry!how?You should also make a piece together, lively and lively! Xiao Cui, why don't you sing?said the big baby. No, no, Xiao Cui said: I don’t know how to do it at all, I only have the ability to drink soda.In my opinion, it's better for Big Baby Sister to come. Alright, the big baby said: You two are arguing, and even reciting poems has a bit of gunpowder, and each advertises itself. As for me, I have to pretend to be Lu Zhonglian and mediate for you.Literature is also a study, and philosophy is also a study. Each study has its own study, so why bother to chatter?Xiaocui, it's your turn! wait a while.Xiaocui opened the bookcase, turned her face away and was writing something. The big baby took advantage of this moment to ask Nansen: Are you going to go down the mountain this weekend? Browse used bookstalls.Nansen said: What about you? I want to buy something and watch a movie by the way.The big baby said: Will the philosopher go?Taichung is no better than Taipei, where all students get half the ticket. Not that much energy, I just want to lie in my easy chair, rock it, smoke a few cigarettes, and read a half-finished book. When paying the bill, the girl from the welfare agency said: The bottle was broken, and the cup was missing. The bottle cost one yuan, and the cup cost six yuan, so a total of seven yuan was added. My God, I have to admit that a philosopher like Lao Gao is really good!Nansen cried out and said: I treat guests, he destroys them, I spend too much money, he laughs and hurts his stomach, this is his philosophy?I am a poor mouse! Xiaocui tore a piece of paper and stuffed it in the big baby's hand, and ran away laughing all the way. The two asked the big baby what she wrote?The big baby opened the crumpled paper ball and saw that it was also a doggerel, so he read: Two kings and fives, pretending to be tigers; take a closer look, they are still little mice! Alas, unexpectedly, the little butterfly also silenced us.Nansen said. The big doll took the lead in laughing and laughed all the way to the other end of the forest; this is the way of life of young people in their spare time, serious debates and a kind of unbridled relaxation always make their self-conscious life full of vigor and vitality. One fly, one bump, has almost become the mantra of many people.In fact, no one thinks he is an authority, and no one is eager to affirm something prematurely. They can only show it nakedly and absorb it vividly. In this way, Dadu Mountain quickly becomes narrow. Nansen has new teeth in his heart, wild and sharp, he longs for the weekend, so that he can nibble on the cultural city down the mountain. As early as in high school, Li Nansen had the desire to control and manage his own life. What he needed in this regard was complete freedom.For example, try to save when you are willing to save, and spend as much as possible when you need to spend. He feels that calculating money is not about its quantity, but about the meaning of spending or saving. This meaning can only be judged by oneself.Let’s take dressing as an example. I don’t think jeans, BB pants, and floral shirts are fashionable, and I don’t think that a well-ironed school uniform can add a little knowledge?During holidays, I always like to wear iron-gray trousers and gray-blue shirts. It belongs to my own life. Choices and hobbies should not be criticized and interfered by a third party. Of course, there is no need to tell anyone reason to come. Even if the clothes are old or faded, it doesn't matter, as long as they are washed clean and comfortable to wear, why should a young man be locked up by old social customs and new fashions? This is completely personal life ah! In today's society, there are some adults who, intentionally or unintentionally, use certain concepts that have been solidified in their adult world to suppress the thoughts, behaviors, and even details of life of the younger generation, hoping to carve the next generation into the same life as them There is a model and a continuation, but the vitality is lost. For the entire nation, is it a kind of gain?Or is it a loss?Of course, this is a deep and broad question, and Nansen is not in a hurry to find an answer.Perhaps a moderate amount of sensory restraint is an even check and balance, which is good for young people, at least enabling them to reflect on themselves, or take it as exercise, but he is urgent about the free boundaries of personal life. What we hope to keep.What kind of music do you like to listen to, what kind of works do you like to read, what kind of field activities you like to do, what kind of hairstyle you like to wear, what kind of movies you like to watch, young people should also retain their right to choose! Adults should intervene or blame the current society before intervening or blaming the lives of young people.As long as a healthy and clean society can never be infected with gray, yellow, and black age habits, it is a waste of money to put everything on the young people.What's more, Nansen's own life is enough for him to control! If you decide to go down the mountain, go down the mountain!He said to himself: Find a coffee shop with classical music, have a drink, and read a book. Where can I not read books?Do you have to squeeze the school bus like sardines?Old Gao was picky again. feel different.Nansen said: Lao He, Lao Su, which one of you has aspirations? I have to practice tennis.He Liangtang said: It has already been agreed. I am looking at Mies from a high altitude.Lao Su said: Girls and Dadu Mountain complement each other, the scenery complements them, and they also enliven the scenery. If you look at girls as scenery, you are a big spoiler.Nansen said: "If you don't marry, you will be molested!"Being organic without talking about love, what a fool!This is a famous saying from Dadu Mountain people. When you pinch your feet, you might as well study more, my god will go. On such a sunny weekend, most of the students in the school have to run down the mountain.Some are tired of eating Fatty Laowang’s beef noodles and go to the city for a change of taste, some are shopping for daily necessities and watching a movie by the way, some are impatient with the quietness of Dadu Mountain and want to go shopping on the dusty streets, so there are frequent shifts. The little school bus is always packed like a can of sardines.Nansen knew this, but he didn't want to spend money to buy a ticket to take a bus from the Highway Bureau. He would rather skip dinner and take the bus down the mountain after three o'clock to save the fare and go to Taichung to eat bread, because shopping Buying books from old bookstalls must be during the day. Brother Ha, are you going to visit Taichung?In the car, someone greeted him. Nansen didn't know him, and he didn't know which department the other party was in. Anyway, he was a classmate, and he would get acquainted after chatting. He said: No, I sent myself to the streets and let Taichung visit me. Very philosophical, very philosophical. No, it should be said to be very literary.I am a homeless person from Taipei, smothered by soot and car farts. There is a person in Taichung who should be proud of the smell of soot and gasoline on my body. After all, she is a spacious and clean city. It's just because you didn't grow up here.One said: Some people also said that my hometown Tainan is so beautiful. In fact, if you really go sightseeing, you can break your intestines while sitting in a car!There are no sidewalks in many streets, and the car is still driving slowly. Kaohsiung is still the most beautiful!The road is wide and straight, and the coconut trees are lush green. It is a tropical city style. A pretty girl said with a graceful chime: How beautiful is the river of love?Especially at night, when the lights on both sides of the river are on, thousands of beams of light sway on the waves, like a crystal palace. I am from Kaohsiung, and a male classmate said: I did jump, not swim, because I didn't take off my clothes, and it was winter at that time. Hey senior!Premium at an unbeatable price!Nansen said: You must be an aestheticist, purer than Wilde.Think back when Li Bai threw himself into the river, in order to fish for the moon, what did you fish for? what else?The classmate said: It's the banana peel that made me slip and fall!At the same time, I want to tell everyone that the Love River is not a place suitable for eternal bathing. Its water is salty and has the smell of rotten wood. Once you drink it once, you will feel that the city is not cute! The school bus was flying fast, the casuarinas on both sides were whistling in the wind, and the laughter on the bus was louder than the sound of the car and the wind.In Donghai, as long as a group of young people get together, they will immediately enthusiastically show their respective lives and feelings. It feels like this class can never be finished. If you run for mayor in the future, will you regard sweeping up the banana peels on both sides of the River of Love and purifying the river water as political opinions?The pretty girl said: Then I have to vote for you first. Ah, of course.The young people who drank the stinky water said: If I am elected as the mayor, after rectifying the love river, I have to put up a sign saying that the love river is sweet and guaranteed to be free of coliform bacteria. Note: 20% discount for students of Dongdae University.Do you think my business will prosper? It’s hard to say, Nansen said with a smile: These days, many young people talk about existence, and they would rather cling to the world and shout about nothingness. If there is no banana peel to push them, they would only want to be butterflies on the shore rather than mandarin ducks in the water !Of course, scrambling to drink foreign water is an exception! In this way, during the holiday weekend, their wanton laughter brought the city.There are too many happy faces from Donghai, Chengda, Zhongxing, Fengjia, No. 1 Middle School, No. 2 Middle School, and Jingyi, pouring into parks, movie theaters, bookstores and downtown.They come to dig out feelings, absorb knowledge in life, or express their own feelings. Because of their gathering, this city is extraordinarily colorful. After jumping out of the car door, Nansen walked away alone.A person, caught in a certain kind of gossamer-swaying thoughts, whistling leisurely that only he can hear, that feeling makes his steps float, really like a lonely, thin stream of water. When passing by a tall building, he met the pretty girl he met in the car again. She was looking up at the newly completed building carefully. Nansen walked in front of her, She greeted him with her talking black eyes. You're a student of architecture, I guess. You are Brother Ha.the girl said. Who told you that I am Brother Ha?Do I have words on my head? What the big baby said, the girl stared at him with shiny black eyes: You have a jet-black shiny weed growing on your head. Many people in our dormitory know you, and when they see you from afar, they are like Romeo Romeo's mess. refer to!They all say you're funny, don't you? You guessed a little bit wrong, Nansen said: I can only count on Brother Ha, because I lack a beautiful wife who loves to act like a baby, and I lack a nosy mother-in-law.Tell me, are you from the Department of Architecture? The girl shook her head and smiled charmingly: You guessed it completely wrong!I'm just interested in architecture, and not engineering, just the art of architecture.where did you go? Old bookstall.and you? Take Carmen.She squinted and said: Have you never been to Carmen?It was the Donghai House in the urban area. The coffee and cold drinks were very cheap, the atmosphere was beautiful, and the music was very classical. Good place.If I'm free, I'll also go to Carmen for a ride.Nansen said: After leaving Taipei, I miss Star Cafe very much. It is a quiet place to read and talk about dreams. The pretty girl waved her hand naturally and left.He doesn't know which line she is from?What is your name?This is unimportant, anyway, the two are already familiar with each other, that's all.Donghai's classmates are like birds in a forest. The same life background shortens the gap and distance between them. Nansen was not in a hurry to do anything. He was walking alone on the street, standing here and looking there; the spacious streets, the shophouses that were tidy but could not see the architectural wisdom, and the window design was similar to that of Taipei, which displayed the waiting for people. Go shopping for autumn. He wandered to Zhonghua Road, where there were several second-hand book stalls where he could pick out treasures.It was the weekend of last week. He found a complete set of literary and trendy magazines from a bookshelf in a family. He only spent 25 yuan to buy it, and he was so happy that he almost whistled loudly.For some reason, he cherishes and loves those old books almost crazily; some of them have been imprinted on the pages of those books, some of them have been imprinted on those pages, some of them have been soaked by rain, some of them have been damaged by fire, and some of them have been destroyed by termites. After being gnawed, many irregular small holes are left between the pages, which reminds people of the process of their suffering.He also likes to smell the old smell of those books, and feels that those yellowed pages are more alive and full of wisdom than contemporary pale new books. Unfortunately, none of these bookstalls had the books he wanted to buy. He wandered to the circle near the park, where there were also several small second-hand book stalls.Leaning against the shade of the bearded and leafy banyan tree, Nansen knew very well that when buying second-hand books, one has to waste time, and the other is to try one’s luck. Everything depends on whether one has enough patience. He found a round stool and sat down, rummaging constantly.As the evening approached, the sun became gentler. Across a row of green trees, there was a soft and shimmering smile on the surface of the pool in the park.Flipping through the pages, his dark eyes lit up, and he found a half-new Jack.London's Creation Snow Tiger, another collection of Takero Arishima's novels whose cover has come off. A group of people were bathed in the light of the setting sun, and they flashed past him like shadows. Some people accidentally touched his elbow and back, but Nansen didn't notice it. His mind was completely covered by the two old books. took up. He has always liked Jack.London, I like his rough character expressed in his works, and his in-depth depiction.In Snow Tiger, he described the life situation of a dog with wild wolf blood living among the snowy wild wolves. Even after reading the clips, he was already fascinated. Among many Japanese writers, he has a strong preference for Takero Arishima. He likes works with a strong Hokkaido flavor, even more than Akutagawa Ryunosuke.He feels that the works of Akutagawa Ryunosuke, like Kappa, are brilliant and whimsical, while the works of Arishima Takero are ordinary and steady, with a kind of melancholy, repressed, and deep sympathy between the lines. . The owner of the bookstall once greeted him, and when he saw him burying his head in the old books indifferently, he waited helplessly.He hopes to make a deal and earn a few more dollars back.At this time, a tall, fat girl with a red face and brown hair, carrying a large bag of newly bought things, walked over from the crowd, stopped behind Nansen, looked at Nansen coldly, and curled her lips thinking what to say to him. The owner of the bookstall gestured to her, as if begging her to speak, so she approached his ear and called out softly: Brother Ha, Brother Ha! Nansen didn't say anything, although a voice rang in his ears, it seemed to be blown away by the evening wind immediately, he just hummed casually, and still immersed himself in the pages of the book.The female student's cheeks were a little swollen, and she was obviously angry, thinking that he was deliberately ignoring her, she snorted, hit him with a handkerchief, shook her hair, turned and ran away. Well, what's going on here?Nansen then raised his head, rubbed his eyes, and said to the book stall owner with a puzzled expression: "You are the one who photographed me?" where is meIt's one of your classmates, she told you not to, and left by herself!Here he pointed to the distant figure and said: It's her, that brown-haired, tall and fat girl. Oops!I shouldn't have offended the big baby, I have to apologize to her. How about these two books, be more polite? Ten yuan for a new one, and five yuan for the broken one! Nansen almost laughed out loud again, the owner of this bookstall wanted to be an amateur, so that two good books were combined and only bargained for one movie ticket, but in this bustling city, no one came to argue Want to buy it? : Thinking about it carefully, not only is it not funny, but it is a bit sad.He hastily paid the money, trying to catch up with the big baby who was going away. But the street has been shrouded in a layer of hazy twilight, the first light ball is shining in the distance, the back of the big baby has already sunk into the strings of lights on the street, and it is impossible to see. With a little apology, he went around the park at Twilight a few times, but he didn't find her.Suddenly he thought of Carmen, maybe she would go there, why don't he buy two loaves of dry bread, go there, read a book and have dinner at the same time, if you meet a big baby, apologize to her face to face, it doesn't matter if you are humble . He pushed open the door of Carmen's coffee room, and was immediately buried in a kind of quiet, gray-blue light.He took a look downstairs and didn't see the big baby, so he went upstairs. The upstairs was more spacious and quieter. There were less than ten people scattered in their respective seats. I got a table in the corner by the window. When I came to Carmen for the first time, I was still not used to it. I just felt that it looked a bit like a star in Taipei. The lighting was a bit dim, but the place was a little spacious. The bonsai decorations were excellent, and it felt like being in the countryside.The big leaves of the palm trees are splashing green, and the light shadows fall on the beautifully lined new pattern wall, which is very interesting.The tabletop is inlaid with cloud white marble slabs, very smooth and cool.The waiters are all smiling boys, this alone is already advanced enough. Let's have a cup of black tea.He said. It’s the same in the stars, spend a very small amount of money, hide in the air-conditioning and read books for half a day, and a cup of celebrity black tea costs 6 yuan, with some vodka flavors, ancient and classic music gently pouring into my heart, good music !Over time, drinking black tea has become a habit. After ordering black tea, he began to nibble on the dry bread alone. This was one of the dinners he was used to enjoying. The music is playing Mendelssohn's Violin Concerto, which is a world-famous piece, with such a beautiful and gentle melody, those jumping notes seem to form a soft belt in the blue light, entwining people's hearts .A cluster of bonsai in the room is piled up into a well-defined small flower tower. The colorful flowers are peacefully open, making the air infiltrate with a faint scent of flowers. There is a rectangular water tank with lights on the side. The algae are swaying, and some strange tropical fish are swimming lively. It's a pity that the big baby is not here. Ever since I met her, I haven't been able to find an opportunity to talk to her alone and get to know each other better. Otherwise, in her eyes, maybe she only sees herself as a joking person. At least, he wants to Show her the serious side of herself. He slowly sips black tea and chews dry bread. He leans his head on the back of the sofa and stretches his legs in a relaxed posture. His only regret is that the light is too dim for him to read books. But for these two books He has a very eager desire to read the newly bought book. Hey, do you sell candles here?he asked a waiter. I'm sorry, sir, but candles are never sold here. Please help me buy a candle. The waiter shook his head and opened his eyes wide: There is nothing for sale in this area, so you have to go to a candle shop or a grocery store to buy them. Hey, in order to read these two books, I have to buy them myself.As soon as Nansen ran downstairs, the waiter thought he was going to leave and handed over the bill. He didn't bother to argue with the other party, so he dropped four yuan and left, but the waiter took away his unfinished cup of black tea. Nansen ran for several streets before he bought the candles, and ran back to the second floor of Carmen. As soon as he opened the door, he met the waiter. The waiter looked at him again and again, and said with a smile: Sir, I thought you were gone, why are you back again? Nansen saw that his table was taken by someone else, and the cup of iced black tea that was not fully utilized was gone, so he frowned and said: I asked you to buy candles, but you didn't want to buy them, so I ran for several streets and couldn't come back!I want to read a book, but the light is too dim! Seeing that something was wrong, the waiter smiled and said: Yes, yes, of course you are welcome, but please sit here, I thought you would pay the bill and leave, so I received the tea, and that table has already been taken by that lady. Well, Nansen wiped his sweat and said: I lost to you! Brother Ha, why don't you come over?At the place where he had been sitting before, a girl greeted him like this, and he realized that she was the pretty female classmate who had introduced him to Carmen. Haha, so it's you?Why didn't you see it when I just came here?Nansen sat down and said. You hurriedly held the book, looking around as if looking for something, running for a while, and running away for a while, I greeted you downstairs, but you didn't even pay attention, the girl said: I thought you didn't know each other!What do you want to eat?black tea?Or coffee? Ice, a glass of iced water. He knew that not only in Carmen, but in any coffee shop, iced water was provided for free. At least at least, he would drink a few more glasses of iced water to make up for the loss of the half cup of black tea. What are you doing with candles?Brother Ha.the girl said. I originally planned to click it to read, but I didn't expect to meet you.Nansen said: Reading alone can do what I want, and chatting with two people can do what I want. You can’t have both. I’d rather give up reading and chat instead! Ha, so you bought the candle for nothing? No, let’s sell it to Carmen’s night, chatting needs more sentimentality, let’s have a candlelight party in front of bonsai and tropical fish!Tonight, we are officially acquainted, maybe not, I really hope that after many, many years, we can still miss the candlelight in Carmen tonight! Are you reciting poetry? No, I'm reading my own lines. He asked the waiter for matches, and lit the candle, which he set on a glass ashtray. But, Brother Ha, your memory is really not very good, the girl said jokingly: You really don’t remember, where did we meet in the first place?Think about it? on the school bus.Nansen blinked at Kong Kong, and said with certainty: First, I got to know your nose, and then, I got to know your eyes and hair!If I say: your nose is very Greek, maybe no one will be picky! Your hair is very grassy, ​​and there is nothing to criticize, the girl said: It's just that your memory is not good, and you even forgot the dance in Dream Valley! are you thereThat was the orientation party in our department! I was pulled to be a demonstration.She said: I studied Chinese, but I am also one of the directors of the Shifeng Dance Club. Maybe what we should miss is the wildfire in Dream Valley. Nansen let out a cry, and he suddenly thought of her. She danced skillfully, delicately and lightly. Her graceful dancing posture was like a swallow flying around a fire. Her back was very similar to Meizhen's.Tonight, the candlelight shone on the girl's youthful and charming face, but it couldn't shine on Meizhen's bent back.The candlelight is flickering, and even small tropical fish know how to swim to the light. Will such a heavy burden of life make Meizhen wither prematurely in the dust and fog of the city?Although she is wild enough and strong enough, judging from her age, she should still be regarded as an immature child, and she should have all the happiness and all the dreams of adolescence. what's on your mind?Brother Ha. music.I am listening.He said. The music changed, and he also turned over Mendelssohn, Bach, and Mozart like a book. Now, what he faced was the song of the wanderer by Sarasat, which aroused his emotional waves that could not be calmed down for a long time.The melody with the flavor of the Middle East is played in a low and hoarse voice, repeating round and round, as if on the banks of the Ganges River in India, following the undulating waves on the side of the ferry boat, or stumbling over the sand and stones in the Sahara Desert, hypnotized by the sound of the bell The anxiety, thirst and long-distance loneliness of the exhausted camel all woke up.The years that are controlled by fate should be so lonely and difficult, right? Alas, Meizhen, in our memory, there is only heavy rain, but no fire.You are not willing to accept cheap sympathy and pity, but you should always accept the blessing of friendship?What happened to you is not only a matter of complaining, but also hating anything can be solved. With your talent, you are wronged as a proofreader, and those mechanical writers who write books faster than typing can buy a tall building with a single book , this responsibility is not yours, and your fault is not yours, let the society open its eyes and reflect on itself! Alas, sir, the waiter's voice interrupted his meditation: This note was left for you by the lady just now. oh?It was only then that Nansen realized that the girl opposite him had quietly left at some point. He opened the note, which read: Leave it to Brother Ha: reading books is precious, and chatting is more expensive. If it's music, you can throw away both!P.S. The girls' dormitory closes at eleven o'clock. Tonight, unfortunately, I'm wearing full heels, (shoes that don't fit the wall very well.) Goodbye. Meiqianliu When does Carmen close?he asked the waiter. half past ten. Nansen looked at his watch. It was nine o'clock, and there was still an hour and a half before closing time. This Meiqian might have misunderstood that I was neglecting others just like the big baby!管她們怎麼想去，益發多得罪幾位，再到女生宿舍門口，吹口哨道歉就是了。 再跟我來一杯。 紅茶嗎？ No!還是你們不要錢的飲料冰開水。 侍者也很知趣，他乾脆拎了一大瓶，笑說： 先生，要喝你就自己倒吧，省得我樓上樓下的跑腿，別忘記，那邊是WC。 南森也呵呵的笑出聲來，他取出乾麵包，幽回一默說：你這瓶水，正好夠泡開我的麵包，我懶得解扣子，扣扣子，替卡門義務沖洗便所。 你是東海大學的，我猜是。said the waiter. 你猜對了！但是，你怎會猜我是東大的？南森饒有興致的問說：總該有些理由罷？ Of course there is.侍者說：我也參加了中區聯考，差了三分沒能進東海，不但是考巷，連幽默也輸你們三分。別的學校不想進，特意到台中來捧一年盤子，沾上點兒東海味道，希望明年上榜。 東海同學叫人，向不叫先生，先生的，南森說：我叫哈老哥，希望到明年，我是你正式的學長！你如果唸社會系，可以坐我的位子椅縫裏有一隻常常吻我屁股的臭蟲。 臭蟲有什麼好？侍者說：我沒有你那麼胖，也沒有你那麼多的血！ 牠卻會告訴你，不要老想坐在課堂裏，就自以為唸完了這所大學。 幽默透了，學長，侍者立正挺胸說：歡迎你經常到卡門來。 of course.南森說：你得多多準備這種最便宜的飲料，冰問水。 年輕人和年輕人之間，有一種很特殊的膠著性，略為碰一碰，就黏上了，對方姓丘，南森說： 好姓，正好是孔老夫子的下面半截兒，他是當年的老丘，你就是現代的小丘，有教無類，這話是老丘說的，你小丘今年捧盤子，明年進東海，不但合邏輯，而且有根據。 我要去換唱片了！小丘說：你要聽什麼？ 柴可夫斯基的悲愴。 小丘離開了，隔不上一會兒，那首Ｂ小調的交響曲便鏗鏘的響起來，如夏日薄暮時驟來的急雨。他把蠟燭熄掉，祇是靜靜的坐著。樓上的客人彷彿不願忍受那種使人窒息的悲愴，一個個悄悄的溜走了，整個卡座裏，祇有他一個人沉陷在沙發上，他整個的情緒都捲進了那股音樂的狂潮。 鮮花在展現著它們的顏色，熱帶魚停留在水藻下，好像矇矓的陲去了，南森呆看著天花板，低低的吊燈和圓圓的藍色燈罩，就覺得自己站立在這樣一座幻想的崖塔上，面對著的，是無限的空曠和浩浩的荒涼，自己一直猛啃著書本，但在這樣巨大的背景比映中，彷彿變得微不足道了！對於人世間一切事物，自己究竟懂得多少呢？大學這名詞，乍聽起來很有些兒學術的味道，剛進大學之門的青年人，總有些天之驕子的自負，可是，當自己卸脫這份虛無的傲感，面對著廣大的生活海洋時，這才發現，自己不是巨鯨，祇不過是常在淺水中喋喋的沙丁。 就要打烊了。小丘來提醒他。 酒店關門，我就走，這是丘吉爾的名言，在東大非常流行的。南森說：再見！謝謝你的冰開水。 他挾著書，懶懶的走出了卡門。 才十點半，卡門打烊算是太早，市街上的燈火還旺呢。南森趕到火車站前廣場，最後一班到東海的公路局的車子已經開走了。這傢伙得走路回去啦！他迎著清冷的夜氣，挺愜意的走著。卡門真是個挺不錯的地方，以後假如要去看書的話，得先準備一支蠟燭才行！ 走夜路吹口哨，晃晃盪盪的走出市區，南森的平腳板已經在隱隱的作怪了！他想起前幾年看過的一部小說，描寫抗戰期間青年們在戰地跋涉的戰鬥生活，他們能夠揹著沉重的背囊，一天走上百里的路程，難道我連這點兒路也走不下來麼？這樣一轉念，他便咬咬牙，走一步，就喊一聲：抗戰！同自己的腳板抗戰！ 公路上的行人越來越稀了，一輛計程車，突然停在南森的背後，裏面擠著好幾個男同學，向他大喊說： 哈老哥，你是收容對象！上來罷！ drink!不加錢罷？南森說：我是夾帶。 不加。 等南森坐下之後，那同學說：祇是按老價錢，每人五塊！ 哇，南森叫說：我沒有坐著車，祇坐著了腿。 坐腿的，另加兩成坐腿費！那同學說：如果你不願意，我們就調換一下，我坐你的腿，讓你坐車。 我願意照加。他說著，一連顛了幾下，顛得下面那同學哇哇叫，他這才接著說：不用叫，就算是沙發罷，也得要先試一試彈性。 他們這樣打趣著，全車都充滿了鬨鬨的笑聲。 回到學校，像夜鳥飛回黝黯的林子，林葉和星芒，在人頭頂上構成一種溫寂的碎語，路燈光青青的，從這裏那裏來，雜亂鋪陳著樹影和人影，他回到二○四室，人有些鬆快過度的倦怠感覺。 那麼，把一切都交給明天罷。 他很快就睡著了，像一隻吃飽了的獅子。