Chapter 5 five
After the midterm exam, Christmas became the focus of students' attention.
The window of the welfare agency is full of dazzling Christmas cards: a small church with a steeple, an old square lamp, a group of peaks wearing white snow-pointed hats, silver needle pine, various Christmas red patterns, and the Holy Child in the manger , the doctor pointing at the star gives people a distant reverie; near the post office, there are even more students who receive letters, with a very happy look, embracing the colorful blessings sent from all over the world, and Friendship tied together with silk.
This is a missionary school. Before Christmas, the whole Dadu Mountain is surrounded by a strong atmosphere of celebration.The Christmas red flowers bloomed so brightly. In the sunny weather, it was like burning a small transparent fire. The chapel was decorated with a new look. People passing by could often hear the melodious sound of the pipe organ.
Students who usually don't go to church were also affected by this craze, and they rushed over to join in the fun, and Lao Su was even more busy, rushing back to the dormitory to drag people.
Are you not going to take part?Brother Ha.
I'll stay in the dormitory and watch the door.Nansen said dully.
Let me tell you some good news, Lao Su's eyes rolled mysteriously: Lao Gao's attack target is Xiao Cui, and you have to fill in the vacancies of the little fairies one by one.
Without that kind of emotional cells, I don't even have the emotions to cultivate it!Nansen forced a smile: You go to the fun, I have to let the loneliness freeze me.
Lao Su and the others left, the loneliness in the dormitory was really icy.Christmas already heralds the arrival of the New Year, and the New Year also means the end of a semester. How hurried are the days on Dadu Mountain?This precious first semester of freshman year is about to disappear under the wheels of time. I can't see the track it left when it rolled, and I can't hear the sound of it saying goodbye.
Every student who comes to the East China Sea has his own vision, and he has to pursue and discover something, but when everyone is faced with the naked life, some of them become a nest of faint birds, just flying around, and some simply follow suit. Naturally, it went with the tide.
But Nansen can't, he can't admit that this kind of hazy floating is the implication of youth, and can't bear the naked days coming and going freely in front of people; he feels that as a modern person, especially a young senior intellectual, he should not only mark himself, It is even more necessary to start from the self, touch the nation, and touch the broad masses of people in history and the present.But the environment limited him, so that he could only look for the ideals composed of concepts hastily through books.
Because he was unwilling to do so, he used his extracurricular time as much as possible, especially cooperated with Professor Hender to go to the four villages on the top of the mountain to repair ditches and build storage pools.No matter how cold it is, he will use a simple password to wake himself up; when he snoozes under the quilt, he will call out one, two, three!Get up immediately, and while he's reading, call out one, two, three!Immediately throwing a pen to cover the paper, he used this method to train himself to get up and go.The bitter wind on the top of the mountain made people unable to stand still, and there was a kind of icy cold that pierced through the muscles.Gradually, he fell in love with this kind of training. The gray-haired Professor Hender became an image beside him, not only loving China, but also loving life. That image always inspired him and inspired him. People, it seems, should regard survival as a responsibility.
Is it true?no!This responsibility can only be experienced and interpreted through the life of the self. Any fixed and conceptual explanation is superfluous.In the cold wind on the top of the mountain, what is the significance of mixing cement and moving pebbles with Professor Hender, and doing work with frozen red hands?Did you save those villagers 30 yuan a day's labor fee?Or is it to represent all the intellectuals at Dongda University to fulfill the duty of service for these neighbors?As if it was not like that at all, the refinement itself has given it a tacit meaning with life through feeling, and in a moment of enrichment, he has come into contact with the flash of life's responsibility in the future, without any ideas or words.
It has been several weeks since the start of the revitalization work camp. From Professor Hender, he has learned about the situation in nearby places, such as hospitals, orphanages, schools for the blind and dumb, and some isolated small villages. The place of service will be listed as a key point in the future work plan.He is convinced that there is too much living knowledge and knowledge hidden in work and life contact, which can be absorbed by people with a sense of freedom. The dazzling array of signboards devours the youths of thousands of people who have been tortured by crammed school education and become very pale.
Even so, this meaning seems to be still not understood by most students.Old Gao is right, college boys who always like to hunch their shoulders and show off a little academic elegance are actually fools who think they are smart, in other words, they are books that can walk.Where are the girls?It is obviously a tile, but in order to embellish the unique atmosphere of entering and exiting the university, it is decorated with elegant smiles, sly jokes, clear noodles with hooks, unique handbags and some foreign-style books Facade, so that they transcend a little bit in consciousness, from cement tiles to glazed tiles!
Of course, it is not surprising that cement tiles can be seen everywhere. Although glazed tiles have an extra layer of tiger yellow or light blue colored glaze, they can be worth a hundred times, giving people a soft, non-sexy lyric.
It doesn't matter whether it is a fool who thinks he is smart, or a glazed tile, they and they probably won't be keen on the work camp!
When Lao Su and the others come back, this kind of matter must be brought up for public discussion and thoroughly studied!Nansen was thinking wildly in the dormitory alone: It can't be like this, relying on five or six people to fight to the end.What's more, the work camp was in full swing, but Lao Su dragged those two guys to the church to express their feelings softly!
Brother Ha, Brother Ha!In the distance, someone was calling softly.
Nansen recognized that it was the voice of the big baby.He ran downstairs, and the big baby was waiting for him in the cold wind at the intersection.
You didn't go to church?Big doll.
went.The big doll fastened her bandana that was blown loose by the wind: Mrs. Chen asked me to help arrange the Christmas tree, and I caught Lao Su’s work, and they said: Brother Ha is hiding in the dormitory and writing a love letter to his girl, so I want to arrest him. You should go get him.
Don't listen to him talking nonsense, I'm worrying about the work camp!
Christmas is over, and the semester is almost over.The big baby's tone is a bit gentle, but it has a sincere concern: You should take this opportunity to rest for a few days, reckless is easy to get hurt, other people have other people's ideas, don't they?
Me, I'd rather be a little traumatized than paralyzed!
The big baby glanced at him with a smile, and said nothing more.The two walked along the tree-lined road towards Teacher Chen's dormitory.Although Nansen didn't take Mr. Chen's class, he loved reading the prose works written by this female writer.All the literature-loving Donghai students like to huddle in the living room of her house and chat freely. Some girls jokingly call it the church of life.In fact, in Nansen's opinion, he does not agree with such a name. The word "church" is too serious to describe it.Mr. Chen never likes to preach to his classmates. In many places, she is not like a teacher at all, but like an older school sister. Her smile and her wise words are like a bunch of magical keys. It is specially designed to open people's melancholy hearts and frowning brows.
Maybe Mr. Chen will give you some advice, and the big baby will think of something: Maybe she will think that it is wrong for you to be so enthusiastic about the work camp.
why?
Also asked why!We came to Donghai because of K Shu, not because of labor, at least, like work-students, it is enough to work.
I don't think so.Nansen said: Work-study students pay a price for sweeping the floor and windows, washing dishes and dishes, which cannot be regarded as active and service-oriented labor, it is just hard work to support themselves.I think it is meaningful to participate in the work camp and volunteer to help others.
You're so mesmerized, bro.Can you put your work camp aside for a while and have a merry Christmas?
I am not a Christian.Nansen said: There is no religious cell.
That doesn't matter, the big baby said: You should be able to receive pure happiness, didn't you say you should read the feeling all over?Churches and family gatherings should also be said to be part of the overall feeling of Dadu Mountain. You have no reason to give up it, and I am not preaching.
No, Nansen laughed: You didn’t say my Lord God when you spoke, and you didn’t say Harry bared his teeth at the end. Although I haven’t been to a church, I know this set of formulas.
It's Hallelujah, not Toothless.
It's Luya, not Luya.Nansen said: There is a joke in it. I only remember the prayer formula when I heard this joke for the first time.It is said that a priest who was afraid of dogs went to a residential area where dogs were kept for family visits. The first time he rang the doorbell, a child just opened the door, and a dog rushed out. The priest ran away when he saw it. Say Oh, Harry Toothy!Harry is showing his teeth!The dog caught up with him and tore his pants.The adults came out to stop the dog, and saw the priest squatting on the ground with a pale face, his hands behind his back, as if he was constipated, very unrefined.The adults scolded the children and said, "Why don't you stop the dog?"This is the priest, you recognize it.The child cried and said: It was all his own fault, he told our Harry to show his teeth!Of course, you know it was such a coincidence that the joke happened. The dog happened to be named Harry and happened to know how to show his teeth!When the priest yelled like that, the dog misunderstood it!
Brother Ha, you should be damned, the big baby twisted Nansen and said: You stalker, you took such a big turn to curse people!
I only scolded the Pharisees, never dared to disobey God.
Even scolding the Pharisees is a bit too sharp.
I don't think so anymore.In every church nowadays, those Pharisees have too many faces. They talk about God, but shut up about my lord, and there are strings of Harry baring their teeth. What, I'm afraid it's so dark that even God doesn't want to know.Those kind of people, I really hope they meet that Harry, open their pants, let them understand God's will, and learn to be a pure child again.
Is this your prophecy?
No, I'm not a prophet, and I don't want to bring dogs into the Bible as an extra chapter of Revelation.It's just an adult fairy tale.
I really convinced you, Brother Ha!The big baby said: "Your eloquence should have been born in the Spring and Autumn Period and the Warring States Period. I believe that if you were there, Su Qin would be ashamed to death, and Zhang Yi would be outraged. We are here, go and fight the Confucians!"
Nansen hadn't answered yet, when the door over there opened, five or six arms rushed out like scratching hooks, holding Nansen tightly, and the big baby pushed hard from behind, Nansen couldn't help himself into the living room.
I officially announce that the big baby wins!She has tricked Brother Ha out!Lao Su lost a bowl of beef noodles and a movie ticket!
I also announce that Brother Ha I has an additional title: he has become a, er, a goose!
Nansen was in the middle of the living room, turning around and staring at all directions. He realized that he had been lured into Jiuli Mountain by the big baby. It turned out that Lao Su, Lao Gao, He Liangtang, Xiao Cui, there were always 14 or 15 classmates gathered together Here, the big Christmas tree eight or nine feet high in the corner has already been arranged.
Low level, low level, he smiled and pointed at Old Su and said: You must have come up with this crazy idea.
You are calling the wrong person.Old Su said: I only made a bet with the big baby later, how can you scold the master in this room?This is entirely Mr. Chen's kindness. I was afraid that you would be alone in the dormitory, cold and stuffy, so I asked Dawa to ask you to come over for a chat. I think it is better if you come here, and you will be safe. Over there Sit down.
As soon as Nansen sat down on the rattan sofa, Mr. Chen came over wearing a white apron with a smile. She said to Nansen:
It's a time of lighthearted joy, how boring you are in your bedroom!Want tea?Or coffee?
Tea.Nansen said: I am a rat, and I want another biscuit.
At this time, he inadvertently turned his head sideways, and a pair of talking black eyes covered him. Her handsome and beautiful nose, although it didn't remind him of Greece, at least reminded him of that night in Carmen!
Have you forgotten me?Brother Ha.You have always been a noble person who forgets things more.The girl said, grinning with teeth like broken rice.
In the colorful lights of the chandeliers and Christmas tree lights, her face is very like a luminous white magnet, which attracts people. The Christmas tree stands on the corner of the wall behind her, and countless colorful light balls flash one after another. It was so bright that the edge of her hair showed a slight gleam, and there was a large round dimple on her cheek. When she smiled, the dimple was moving, giving off a refreshing sweetness.
Will you forget?You are a deserter from Carmen, for the sake of your high heels.
Yeah?Why don't you say that you are neglecting others?
Nansen shrugged apologetically:
I should have apologized in person, if I hadn't been afraid of seeing your dormitory supervisor's face, I should have gone long ago.
Well, you've apologized.
Next time I go to Carmen, I swear off the music.
what do you do
Staring at you intently and making up for my unintentional neglect last time is more practical than an empty apology.
The girl smiled as she twisted her handkerchief, as beautiful as a flower blown by the wind.
Brother Ha, you can only joke around.she says.
Lao Su and the others were in another corner, discussing preparations for the celebration of the good news and other matters. Needless to say, he was one of the main tenors of the sacred orchestra, and even his words seemed to be singing loudly.
The cold night air surrounds the houses in the forest. Outside the French windows of transparent glass, the lights illuminate many never-withered forest leaves.
Because of the cold winter outside the window, the warmth and comfort inside is more and more reflected.
I really like it here.Nansen said.
Me too.The girl said: I heard from Mr. Chen that she had rejected offers from several universities in Taipei because of this dormitory. She felt that there must be enough and quiet space for learning and cultivating the mind. She said: Taipei City is better than the zoo. It is more crowded, and it is equipped with a dormitory, which is also a small pigeon cage, a small pigeon cage, like raising Leghorn chickens.
Ximending is more like a cellar for burying living people. It is so popular that it can be set on fire. Nansen said: The smell of sweat, tobacco, soot truck fart, the smell of perfume on bar girls, and body odor. We call it total natural gas, which is designed to make the spirit sleep, and it is more effective than sleeping pills.
The girl listened with interest.
Do you feel the same way?He said.
I?The girl blinked twice: I just listened to what you said. I have never been to Ximending in Taipei.
Oh, I'm too presumptuous, where are you from?
Guess it?
Local products from Taichung, I guess.
The girl shook her head.Her face was lifted slightly upwards, with a smile that fluctuated from shallow to deep.When Nansen was speaking, she closed her eyes slightly, the black shadows of two dense and long eyelashes brushing the soft and fine hair on her white face.
Well, that must be Yuan Lin, probably right!He said in a very confident tone: how?Did I guess right?
However, why do you guess that I am from Yuanlin?
It can be seen from your snow-white skin, and your family also runs an ice cream shop, or has an orange orchard, and eats vitamin C for free.
Forget it, the girl said: It’s not because of learning, if it’s learning, if you only have bold assumptions like you and don’t want to verify it carefully, you don’t know where you went wrong.
Don't make a detour, tell me where you are from.
Kaohsiung City, believe it or not?
Do not believe.It's time for Nansen to shake his head: I really don't believe it.
You also need a reason.The girl said: Reasons not to believe.
The sun in the south is so strong that the girls in Kaohsiung City are all tanned and rosy. Could it be that your white skin was bleached out with bleach before you came to the East China Sea?
You forgot, the watermelon in the south also has vitamin C.
He talked with her to the point where he was happy, and he laughed with forgetfulness.
Brother Ha, you are amazing.The big baby saw it from the side, and came to point to them and said: Our little fairy, she can only smile so happily when she meets you.
Don't dare to be.Nansen said: Girls who grow up against the sun all smile like sunflowers, don't they?
A smile like a sunflower is really the most appropriate description.Her smile is so bright, it jumps up in the soft light, and shines brighter. On her full forehead, there is a kind of modest and cheerful wisdom, which may have a lot to do with her religious life. close connection.Regardless of that, at least tonight, her smile gave the night something new and full of meaning, and made everything feel wonderful to him.
Back in the dormitory, the four guys seemed to have taken a stimulant, chatting wildly.Nansen published a treatise on sensations, arguing that the religious atmosphere is beautiful and can feed the empty hunger of the heart.Lao Su interrupted him, thinking that Brother Ha had been taken over by the little fairy and was suffering from first love emotional infection.
I said Lao Gao, since Brother Ha is so pitiful, you can just pay him a price and formally transfer your right to pursue the little fairy to him!Old Su said.
Two bowls of beef noodles, Lao Gao said: I will sell the rights!
What kind of philosophy do you call this?Nansen retorted and said: It is not only buying short and selling short, but also trying to monopolize the market?
Don't talk too much, Lao Gao said: sell the rights, collect some royalties, you who study sociology, are you making a fuss?I have to tell you, Brother Ha, I have a principle when it comes to dating, the other party must be a non-religious person.
What does that mean?Old He asked in a soft voice: When you didn’t give up, you went to church all day long. Now, have you become a believer in Saudi Arabia again?
That's not the case at all, Lao Gao said: I just want to get a complete love, I don't care for the kind of saint girl who dedicates her love to God first, leaving a little bit of emotional bones, Throw it to me to eat!I'm not toothy Harry.
One should not be too perfectionistic, Lao Su criticized: If you can’t seek perfection, you will suffer yourself. What kind of philosophy is this?You can't force the girl you're in love with to declare in public: I love Lao Gao more than anything else in the world!stop?
This is not a question of perfection, it is a question of the most basic principles for boys all over the country at the end of the 20th century.Lao Gao said: It is not a matter of face, but a matter of substance.It is not a matter of emotional disputes, but a matter of defending dignity.If you ask me like this, it means that you don't understand the problem at all.
My darling, Lao Gao, you open your mouth to ask questions, but keep your mouth shut. Where did all these questions come from?Be careful that you get into the horns and become a typical problem character, that is a bigger problem!
Don't interrupt, let us philosophers explain.
This is not about philosophy, this is about facts.Old Gao lit up a cigarette and said: Look, how much masculinity is left in today's boys?It's called breast culture, which breaks the backbone and turns into a mollusk!Honey, love me, don't want you to love me too much, just love me a little bit!Is this like what a man would say?Just because there are too many worthless boys, those beautiful girls will become queen bees, give this a little bit, give that a little bit, only in this way, my old Gao will work hard to lift up the wind, and take the place of the soft picker The boys who pick up are fighting for face, what I want is all, and keep the concentration without adding a drop of water!
So you plan to be Napoleon in the Kingdom of Love?Lao Su grinned crookedly: Brother Ha, Lao He, you are all here, why don't we copy Lao Gao's bold words in the diary, and keep it as a record, to see if he will be bald in the future?
It doesn't matter, I would rather bend than bend.
I was just the opposite, Lao Su smiled like drinking hot tea: I would rather bend than bend, and eat whatever is sweet.And you?Brother Ha.
Nansen crossed his arms and walked back and forth:
I?I am not as lucky as you. Chasing girls is as common as eating and sleeping. Moreover, my emotions are frozen in all directions, and the word lovesickness is not found in Lao Su's dictionary!
So you don't even chase after him, so it turns out that you are afraid of getting lovesick?Hahaha brother missed the bottom today!Lao Su laughed and said: Actually, the knowledge of love is all learned from experience.You can't become a writer without being rejected thousands of times; how can you learn to compete in love without being hit by a broken relationship?Take advantage of Christmas to go to church, you can't pass up this opportunity.
I don't have that big of an appetite.
In fact, religious belief is very useful in life. Lao Gao said with a smoke ring: I am not against religion.
This is just an excuse for ulterior motives. Old Su said: Why do you have to preach to Brother Ha to cover up your ulterior motives?
You are simply low-level, plus poor-mouthed.Lao Gao said.
You are old and advanced, saying that the eyes of God shine in the big eyes of the little fairy, and that kind of girl is only worth two bowls of beef noodles!You are a standard two-headed snake philosopher.
All right, all right, old Su, you'd better pinch your feet obediently.Nansen said: The four of us are four extremes and four independent selves. No one wants to overthrow anyone or conquer anyone. It is meaningless to keep raising the bar.
Who is raising the bar?Old Su said: We just spit out some heat to increase the temperature of the dormitory. The ghostly weather on this mountain is really too cold.Just now I persuaded you to go to the church, not because of anything else, it is the warmest place, and at the same time, you can enjoy the singing performance of the most outstanding tenor in the world, my old Su, for free.
Lack of gas, I still think it is Caruso!
What is Caruso?My old Sue lost 8,000 calories with a hymn, Caruso's brother.
The four of you looked at me and I looked at you, all laughed as if they were infected.They often open themselves up in the dormitory and make some purposeless conversations; sometimes serious, sometimes relaxed, sometimes humorous, sometimes witty, the topic is like a gossamer pulled by the wind, erratic, no one can predict Knowing what conclusions it leads to, usually no conclusions at all, like tonight, a belly laugh seems to be the conclusion.
As Nansen said, four people are four extremes, four independent selves.He can't be like Lao Gao, who spit out many things in a smoke ring, and he can't be like Lao He, who sips other people's words as much as possible, always unwilling to express any opinions. Of course, he is not as optimistic as Lao Su, who said After laughing, everything is over, no more thinking about it.
On the extremely cold Mount Dadu, the days are like slimy loaches, although they are tightly grasped, they are also quickly slipped away by it; despite the joy surrounding him, he is still lonely, he I often feel this way; young people, even if they are just candles, should rely on their own rational light to illuminate the things around them, social, conscious, and ideological, and go through these to grasp the progress of life. It seems that it is not just about reading books, going abroad, chasing after girls, blindly enjoying pleasure, and wasting the light and heat of life on many boring things bit by bit.
He believed that the three friends in the same dormitory would all have roughly the same feeling, but they were all driven by this soft youthful trend, and drifted helplessly, it was difficult to hold themselves steadily!
Isn't the beauty of Mount Dadu also the reason that makes people float?
It has no clouds of gray smoke, noisy carriages and horses, it is elegant and dusty, really like Penglai on the East China Sea. When young people embrace their youth and enjoy their happiness in its embrace, it is easy for many social abnormalities to be misunderstood. , The consciousness of greed for pleasure and pleasure is put into oblivion.
But Nansen can hardly forget the big city of Taipei, which is ashen and smoky.He has lived there since he was a child. In his first hazy impression, there are still red brick houses and shadows of shaded trees. Unlike today, the prosperity is real prosperity, and the brilliance is bright. The colorful neon lights in the city seem to illuminate the dancing pavilions of the houses. The population is rapidly expanding, and various types of illegal buildings and too many vehicles blocking the flow make it suffer from untreatable colon disease.The green space shrinks like the lungs of a tuberculosis patient, the bus is more crowded than a chicken coop, and the house is narrower than a pigeon coop, making people lose their space. Popular music holds many young people in the air, and pop music divides like cancer cells , spreading, causing more souls to suffer from hypochondrosis, either flowing water for love, or lovesickness in dreams!Is this a nation that was once ruled by all directions in history?Is this a nation that overwhelms Siyi with five thousand years of culture and impresses the world?In addition to the superficial prosperity of contemporary society, the inner consciousness is aging and needs to be awakened!If young people want to inject new ideas and ethos into society and reform society, the most important thing is that society must tolerate youth!It's not about pulling them into the vortex and sinking together.
He has such confidence, because a calm and resolute girl like Meizhen is the best sample; although she was forced by the environment to drop out of school, she always resisted all the misfortunes imposed on her and struggled silently.He believed that there were such people in every corner of that big city.
At the end of December, it should be the rainy season in the basin again. The dark and gloomy mountains are like a rusty hoop holding the city that is about to burst. In terms of human feeling, it is the same as a big schoolbag on the small shoulders of a thin schoolchild.Maybe there are many people fleeing intentionally, hoping to get rid of the weight attracted by that feeling, so they go to play cards, listen to songs, watch dances, chat and get discouraged, almost self-defeating and seal their brains, and live in reality , without feeling alive.
Thinking of Meizhen, who looks thin and gentle, wearing a very thin windbreaker, rubbing her frozen red hands and waiting for the car under the carport, thinking of the Venetian-style streets in the rain, and the flowers and plants dotted around the ring for the seasons, I feel nostalgic. The feeling of hometown makes his heart palpitate. Hasn't he been immersed in the happy tide of Dadu Mountain for a long time, and doesn't he often miss that city?
A whole semester passed like this. A large stack of Meizhen's letters were put in the side pocket of the small box. I couldn't calm down and write a long letter for Meizhen. It's true. Somewhat ridiculous.In recent days, I don’t know if she was angry or too busy, and the letters became rare. She wrote three and a half sentences by herself, but she returned only two hurried lines. The way is to rule the person.After Christmas is the end of the semester, and I have to pack up my bags and go north. When I see her at that time, let me explain it tactfully. I am lazy and hardworking, and she will forgive me.
Brother Ha, you're determined not to go to church, are you?
Like I said, I don't have that appetite.
When it comes to love, you have the right to choose, Lao Su said: How magical is that so-and-so Meizhen girl in Taipei?Knock you out with a stick?
Nansen shrank his head, folded his arms, and smiled wryly:
I'm too lazy to explain to you, old Su.
In fact, there is no need to explain, since lovesickness is certain, you can suffer it alone, we are not listed doctors, and besides, this kind of feeling cannot be explained well.
Hi, you must be the apprentice of presbyopia.
how?
how?Hard planting.Nansen said: Actually, what I hurt is not lovesickness, but out-and-out homesickness!Knowing that the winter vacation is going to pack up and go back, I feel homesick and feel depressed.
Only you, a man with a big belly, can hold so many unnecessary depressions in your stomach. If it were me, Lao Su, I would have eaten radishes and gnawed soybeans a long time ago. Talking on the top, farting on the bottom, ventilating both ends My secret recipe.
Nansen blushed from laughing, Lao Gao slumped on the chair, and even Lao He, who didn't like to laugh wildly, choked from laughing.Old Su is such an interesting character, in order to maintain a pleasant atmosphere around him, he would rather play a buffoon, in any occasion, under any circumstances, he must amuse people.Lao Su himself admitted that this is a legitimate way for young people to vent.
What else can we talk about?Girl again, girl, honestly, I'm sick of it.
It's okay to change your appetite, let's talk about whatever you want to talk about.Religion is fine, life is fine, or you can just bullshit, just don't talk about work camps before Christmas, that's insane.
Seriously, Nansen said: I would love to sleep.
It doesn't matter.Old Su said: Then we will sleep with you.
The lights are off, the wind shakes the glass on the window, and the cold stars are lined up outside the window, as if they are also blown by the wind; on a clear winter night, the starry sky is not as dense as in summer, but the grains are bright and sparkling. mans angle.
Nansen closed his eyes, starlight covered his eyelids, he couldn't sleep, he was in a trance thinking of many trivial things, many stars, many pictures.I forgot which Christmas Eve it was, and Meizhen and I went to choose Christmas cards to send to friends far away. The two walked along the tree-lined street, passing a church with a steeple, and the slow organ was playing with the wind. There was a solemn and peaceful atmosphere. Neither of them were Christians, but they were both immersed in the atmosphere of sacred music.There is no need to pursue the story of the mysterious manger and the legend of the shepherds who were led by a bright cross star. It is said that the savior shed the precious blood to the world to wash away the sins of the people, and resurrected and ascended to heaven as a human being. Whether it is the mediator of eternity, in short, long, long ago, there was a day, and this day has gradually evolved into a worldwide festival.Both Meizhen and him agree on this, agreeing that to live in the world, one must pursue the beginning and end of life, and appreciate the meaning of life and the value of existence.
Even if there is no God in the universe, people still have to live helplessly.Meizhen said: If there are no people in the universe, then even if there is a God, He will feel lonely, and He will become a shepherd without flocks.
There were stars that night, so should we have heard Meizhen's innocent words?He and she bought Christmas cards in a bookstore in the downtown area, exchanged one with each other, and signed blessings for each other. Although it was not very religious, it was quite humane.
Before Christmas, he and Meizhen started the habit of exchanging small gifts.Let us feel God, Nansen.Feeling, not belief.Tomorrow, he thought, I should go down the mountain and go downtown to buy presents.This mutual care and blessing, but even I can't tell whether it contains love or not?
The Christmas card and gift package from Meizhen were received the next day.Lao Gao and Lao Su haven't come back yet, he ran back to the dormitory with them in his hands, opened the snow-white envelope first, and a unique card was kindly presented in front of his eyes.
The pattern of green bamboo on the white ground is simple and beautiful, and the slender green stems give people a refreshing memory.He stared at it intently. How much encouragement did those few strong leaf clusters and strong bamboo joints give him?How longing?He opened the card, and there was a line of familiar and elegant handwriting on the title page:
Nansen: I bring you my first blessing
I wish you peace and happiness.Mei Zhen
This brief blessing brought an unconscious smile to Nansen's face, and covered his usually rough and straightforward forehead with a soft glow.Yes, in this world, especially in this homeless and war-torn nation, what is more comforting than peace and happiness?How many people of the previous generation who were buried in the tomb have been looking forward to a moment of peace and happiness all their lives, but it is difficult to obtain it. It is not singing and dancing, Dadan carnival, money, fame, power, or the fulfillment of selfish desires. Or any physical, sensory satisfaction, it is in the depths of the human soul.
ah!Meizhen, may peace and happiness be shared by us and people all over the world.
He unpacked the gift bag, which contained a pair of extremely soft real suede gloves; he suddenly remembered that one winter, he and Meizhen braved the cold wind to borrow books from a classmate's house. In the blue nylon jacket, his hands were red and swollen from the cold. He kept rubbing them along the way, and put them by his mouth from time to time, exhaling to keep warm.
Are you afraid of the cold, Nansen?
Just cold hands.
You should buy gloves and wear them.
No, the cold weather is very short, I would rather buy an extra good book if I have money.
I happened to pass by an auction house, and in the sky-blue window, there was a pair of extremely delicate and elegant real suede gloves on display. Meizhen stopped when she saw the gloves, pointed and said:
I think these gloves are just the right size for you.
At that time, he just smiled wryly, shook his head and said:
Meizhen, those are real suede, they are too extravagant for us, such a pair of small gloves cost hundreds of dollars.
It's been a long time ago, and it's rare that Meizhen still remembers it in his heart. Now, what he holds tightly in his hand is not only such a pair of gloves that he has longed for, but also Meizhen's strong friendship.A pair of real suede gloves may not be a big deal for a wealthy classmate, but for Meizhen, it must be said to be a heavy burden. Maybe it is the price of her hard work for half a month. In the case of heavy family livelihood, Nansen can figure out how many extra nights she should work to make up for when she bought this glove. This kind of friendship is really unforgettable.When he opened the stacked gloves, another small piece of paper fell on the table, on which Meizhen wrote:
Nansen: Don't say it's extravagant. Didn't you say that Dadu Mountain is very cold?Often when I can't wait for your letter, I think of your red and swollen hands from the cold.Wish you a happy and warm winter.
Mei Zhen
under christmas lights
Meizhen, what a smart girl!She actually used humorous and short words to dilute the painstaking gratitude others had for her when she bought the gloves, but she didn't expect that the more she did this, the deeper the gratitude to her would be.
I have to go down the mountain now.Nansen said to himself: Why am I always so careless?How about letting Meizhen send the gift first?
Turn up your collar and walk on the boulevard. There are no people on the campus, leaving only the wind and fallen leaves.他決定搭公路局班車趕下山，選購一點小禮物寄給眉珍，明天就是聖誕節了，盼望立刻寄限時郵包，明天能送到眉珍手裏。
聖誕夜，同學們留在大度山上，分別的歡慶佳節，學校附近的人們，也都早早關上門窗，享受著室內的溫暖，只有南森一個人，留在黝暗的林蔭下等著車，尖風吹得他透心的冰寒。
但他自己感覺到，有一朵小小的金色火燄，在他心裏燃燒著，那火燄，是眉珍用她纖細的白手替他點燃的。這真純的友情，竟有著如此巨大的力量，激發著他的思想，鼓湧著他的生命，並且提示他做人的責任。
在這偏重學位、資格，而輕視真實才能的社會上，眉珍個人的命運確是夠不幸的，比起她來，自己算是幸運者，如果不能善自掌握時間，求得實際的學問，豈祇是慚愧而已？眉珍的才華和實學都高過自己，她雖然遭受困阨，被拒於大學門牆之外，雖然懷才不遇，反因生活的壓迫，淪為通俗淺浮作品的校對者，但她無論在思想上，精神上，都沒被這社會擊倒，反把它當成自己歷練的機會，若以她的年齡和有限的人生經歷來看，她足可當得偉大的形容了。
夜晚的班車，稀稀落落的沒有幾個乘客，一盞打盹的黃燈，使人有些昏昏的夢意，人在速度中搖晃著，風在車窗外喧嘩著；然後，車開走了，把他單獨的遺留在市區的路燈下面。
街道並不算太冷清，有些商店提前打了烊，有些專做聖誕節生意的商店卻張燈結彩，裝飾得格外的輝煌。行人比較稀少，許是因為風太大天太冷的緣故罷？連路燈都被寒風吹青了臉，亮也亮得寒森森的。
南森在各家商店打著轉，一路敲著腰袋盤算著：買什麼樣的禮物給眉珍才實惠呢？一塊冬季的衣料？一支書寫流利的鋼筆？走來走去，就是作不了決定，不是嫌這種東西太俗氣，就是怕那種東西眉珍用不著，總該怪自己不好，粗心在前，臨時又來抱佛腳，時間太迫促了，看樣子，再轉幾轉，等郵局關了門，這份聖誕禮物今天就寄不成了！
正楞著，一條飄揚著的淺綠色圍巾從眼前飄過去，又忽然的兜轉回來，朝他打著招呼：
哈老哥，你偷偷的一個人跑下山，待在這兒幹什麼？喝冷風嗎？
南森一斂神，這才看出是小仙女，便笑著說：
應該說：兩個人偷偷的分別跑下山，妳怎麼不留在學校，等著報佳音？
嗨，替一個朋友買禮物呀。
嘿，那麼巧，我也來買禮物啊。
還笑呢！我急都急壞了，禮物可真難買，東西這麼多，挑來揀去的亂了主意，也不知哪樣合適，再晚，郵局就要關門了，你能不能幫我出出主意？早點買妥了，我還得趕回山上去，團契裏的同學都在等著我呢！
Oh My God!我正在自顧不暇呢。南森抓著頭髮說：這樣罷，我幫妳出主意，妳也得幫我出主意，咱們算是患難相扶罷。妳先得告訴我，妳的朋友是男朋友？還是女朋友？人長的什麼樣？年紀如何？要不然我怎麼替妳選禮物？
嗨呀，什麼男朋友女朋友的，說得多難聽！他是我的鄰居，跟你一樣年紀，不過比較瘦，也比你矮些，現在在台北上學，行了罷！
比我還矮？那不成了小不點兒！
你管他什麼！我只問你該買什麼禮物。
this!南森像獻寶似的取出那雙手套來說。
ah!Gloves!小仙女雀躍起來，好像好像眉珍的樣子，但眉珍從沒像她這樣興奮這樣快樂過：手套，真的好極了！謝謝你，哈老哥，你不這樣提醒我，我可沒想得到呢！
現在該妳替我出主意了！
那，我也得問你，你的朋友，男朋友？還是女朋友？人長的什麼樣？年紀如何？我這算是以其人之話，還問其人，你說罷。
一個女同學，高中同學，她長得跟妳一模一樣，真的，她只是更沉默一些。
I already knew it!老蘇他們全告訴過我們，那個叫什麼什麼珍的，你心上的一盞燈，不是嗎？
甭提那個費蒙筆下的人物情報販子啦，妳說，我該為她買什麼禮物呢？
this!她笑著扯下她那條圍巾說：是下午他由台北寄到的。
巧，巧我的手套也是。
兩個人一同去買禮物，一直在為這事的巧合發笑，女店員不知他們為什麼這樣好笑，也跟著笑了起來，使那家商店裏洋溢著久久不歇的笑聲。
由於商店沒有真麂皮的手套，小仙女只好退而求次，選了一雙黑羊皮的。而南森算是幸運，他買到一條和小仙女的那條同樣品質，同樣顏色的圍巾，他想像得到，眉珍圍上它，會和眼前的小仙女一樣的豔麗動人的。
我們趕快得找個地方去封包裹。她說：郵局幾點關門？
南森看看錶，計算說：
別急，天還早，妳幾點要回去報佳音？
九點開始。
好，我們去卡門，南森說：忘了沒有，我欠妳一次卡門，這一回，保證不聽音樂，我們把包裹封妥，馬上托小丘去寄發，我們還可以坐一個小時，九點鐘之前，一定讓妳趕回學校。
你真會忙裏偷閒。the girl said.
不，我是會利用時間。
在路上，小仙女突然又說：
哈老哥，你究竟是不是姓哈？
姓哈怎樣？
說話不要鼻子，哈迷蚩要在今天，應該捧回一座最佳勇氣獎，坐卡門，也算利用時間？
南森笑著捏捏他凍紅的鼻子：
正因為我的鼻子還在，所以不姓哈，我這一輩子命定姓黎，黎玉璽那個黎。妳竟然問誰是黎玉璽？虧得妳是女孩，要是男孩，妳就不配當海軍。
姓就是姓，還有什麼一輩子命定？
那妳姓什麼？姓小嗎？
胡說，我姓林，林森那個林。
暫時姓林。南森說：誰知妳將來冠上誰的姓？
女孩子斜瞟了他一眼，沒接話，她端麗的白臉上湧現出一層薄薄的臆想的紅暈，南森當時就覺著了，暗怨自己說話粗率孟浪，太欠含蓄了；可不知怎麼的，和她見面時，總有一種直感上的錯覺，老把她當成眉珍，他跟眉珍極為熟識，極為相知，常常是坦誠展放，無話不談的。但這次是林美倩，剛見過兩三次面，剛知道她的姓名，雖說在東海，男女同學不論在交往上談話上都夠大方，而這樣的說話總是不適宜的。
很抱歉，我使妳受窘了。他訥訥的說。
你以為會嗎？美倩說：我早就訂婚了。真的，這付手套，就是寄給他的，套一句你們的口語：已經被敲定了。
That's fine.南森有些感慨：有時候，早早被敲定了，未嘗不是一種幸福。
幸福是很抽象的字眼兒，內心的平安才是實在的。美倩掠掠她被風吹散的圍巾說：我的宗教信仰，使我獲得這種平安，幸福摻和在裏面。And you?
我是感情上的流浪者，連一種哀莫大於心死式的、死心塌地的平安也沒有過，當然也沒想過個人的幸福。誰能把幸福送給我呢？真的，我覺得在我們這種年齡，戀愛祇是一種青春的遊戲。
有空的時候，到教堂去坐坐罷。我不勸你接受什麼，信仰什麼，你相信沙特的話，認定上帝已經死亡了？美倩這樣說話時，語音非常圓潤，語調也特別柔和，自有一種吸引人去傾聽的魔力：我並不想跟你談論宗教，事實上，有一個時期，我在情感上也流浪過的。
沙特是不需要人去信仰的，撕碎很多世上的信仰，去建立另一種信仰，那是不真實的。南森說：妳在卡門樓上等我兩分鐘，我去買兩張牛皮紙來。
熱帶魚和水藻彷彿凍結在那種透明的夢幻的匣子裏，變成一幅多色的靜態圖案，南森裁著牛皮紙，包紮兩份聖誕禮物，美倩在一邊幫著他，禮物必須趕寄出去，估量郵局也快關門了，兩人忙著包紮郵包，便把剛剛沒討論完的話題擱在一邊，沒有再繼續談下去。
小丘沒在，樓上幾乎沒有別的客人，音樂輕輕的流瀉，緩緩的縈迴，構成一種夢幻的情調，他必須立刻趕到郵局去，把這兩份禮物給寄掉。
兩位要吃什麼？另一個年輕的侍者走過來說。
妳吃什麼？美倩。Nansen said.
熱可可。
好，南森說：一杯熱可可，另加一杯白開水，我總是口渴。
侍者走後，美倩用手帕捂著嘴，但仍禁不住兩肩抖抖的笑出聲來，瞧了南森一眼說：
要是我會賬，你會點個什麼？
me?仍然是白開水一杯。南森說：這不是猶太，這是節省，對於我來說，一杯可可或者咖啡，往往就是一冊舊書的價錢。
美倩用纖長的白手捏著圓桌上的盆花的葉子，淡淡的笑著說：
我了解你，我也很羨慕你收藏舊書的嗜好，這是真正實際的，你一定讀過很多的文學作品罷？
並不算太多，若說喜歡它們倒是真的。
南森看看錶，再沒有時間讓他和美倩泡在暖洋洋的音樂裏了，美倩也看出他的不安來，就說：
別著急，南森，喝完了可可，我們一道兒去郵局，不必再繞回來了。
All right.Nansen said.
他和她走出暖洋洋的卡門，重新走入街頭的浸寒裏去；人群更為稀落，一溜兒長長的街廊空盪盪的，路燈一盞一盞的亮著，冷冷清清的。即使不逢著聖誕夜，在這種風尖夜寒的季節，人們也都該各自歸向他們小小的窩巢了，那些窗簾掩映的燈火，不正是快樂的音符嗎？宗教當真有著那種親和的魔力，使眼前這個女孩子從裏到外都像一盞燈似的亮著一種快樂，如今，這快樂強烈的浸染著他，也使他的心裏充滿了異樣的溫柔。
他曾把美倩和眉珍暗暗比較，在形貌上，兩人像是孿生的姐妹，而在性格上，卻有顯著的不同：眉珍是爽朗、沉默又堅強的，咬一次下唇，就有一次決心，而且總有更多的勇氣和耐力，支持實現她所決定的。美倩卻不是這樣，她像是一泓深碧的潭水，她的總是掛笑的臉就是潭面上被春風吹動的漪紋；她是深沉的，溫順的，含蘊的，她的快樂裏，也有著很濃的宗教情感。儘管他本身並非宗教的信仰者，他也得承認：像林美倩這樣的人，才算是一個有著真正信仰的信徒。
說來也奇怪，一條冷冷的長街，有她在身邊行走，在感覺上就不一樣了。她是個知人解意的朋友，一路上，她跟他談論著遠在台北的眉珍，她說她聽同寢室的朋友說過她的事，非常欽慕她在逆境中獨力奮鬥的精神，她的話說得很自然，表露出她對眉珍真摯的關懷和敬佩，連南森聽著，也覺得羞慚和感動起來。
他想到在這許多時日裏，眉珍的來信多，自己的覆信卻太少；祇知道眉珍的家境窘困，從不清楚窘困到什麼程度？眉珍在做事了，不像往年在學校，能探討書本上或課業上的問題；她現在已經進入社會，以她柔弱的、羽毛沒豐的翅膀，接受著八方風雨的考驗。她雖然一直把自己當成唯一可傾訴心聲的朋友，而她卻是內向型的女孩，總不願跟他說起太深的生活和感覺上的痛苦，而自己很少為這事深思過，只擁住關於對方的一些概念，真的，如果再這樣下去，眉珍距離自己會越來越遠了！
真的，哈老哥，你願意介紹我跟眉珍通信嗎？
Oh, of course.我相信眉珍會喜歡妳的。南森有些惘然的說：我常覺得，人與人的相識和相交，都是一剎的機緣，假如她進了東海，妳們早就是朋友了！
Maybe.不過現在並不晚。
great.南森說：我希望眉珍能從妳這裏，分到一些快樂的。
你真的覺得我很快樂嗎？她順手理一理圍巾的巾角，突然抬起臉，側轉頸項望著南森說：我很奇怪，你怎的會有這樣的感覺？而且又說得這樣自信。
我想，用不著說道理，我有這樣的直感。
你相信你自己的直感嗎？
當然囉，它常常是很靈驗的。南森一本正經的說：同時我相信，它總要比籤筒裏那些虛無飄渺的籤語要實在得多。
偶爾有車輛在森寒的路燈光下滑行過去，迴盪在車尾的旋風，捲起一些行樹落下的葉子，淒惶的蝶舞著。
這倒是挺有趣的，美倩說：我很想試一試，依你的直感判斷，你是怎樣判斷我？
you?一個挺漂亮，同時有高度智慧的女孩子，南森理直氣壯的說：從妳的風度、舉止，我判斷妳是系出名門的大家閨秀，至少，家庭非常的富裕，生活相當的安適，心靈有深度，對廣大生活卻欠體驗我說的怎麼樣？
what else?美倩含著微笑說。
總之妳很幸福，南森語意模糊的說：妳很早就在暈船了！
seasick?
暈船妳也不懂？就是鬧戀愛鬧得迷迷糊糊的意思。我敢說，今晚接受妳禮物的男孩，他更幸福，因為妳是本身幸福也會給人幸福的女孩子。
南森說完了話，美倩不知怎麼的笑出聲來，而且笑得很兇，一直笑到郵局門邊，還在不停的笑著。她在廊燈下抬起臉望著南森，卻含了一眼盈盈的淚，笑和淚光同在一張臉上輝耀著，構成一種恍惚的迷離，使南森一時分辨不出那究竟是快樂，還是悲傷？直到他把兩個郵包寄掉了，美倩才說：
老高把大學的男孩形容成什麼來著？
自以為聰明的笨蛋。
包括你在內，美倩說：你的直感判斷就是最好的證明了。
南森猶疑的摸起後腦勺來。
當真那麼糟嗎？He said.
幾乎完全錯了，她說：你說我快樂倒是真的。她一面朝車站那個方向走，一面說著。
把妳能夠告訴旁人的事都告訴我罷，南森說：這一向我的直感判斷不靈光了，也好藉此修正修正。
事實上，我既不是大家閨秀，更不是什麼系出名門。美倩坦然的說：我父親是個貧苦的小市民，我的童年，一點兒也不安適，我是在街頭長大的。
可是，看起來卻不是那樣。
信賴你的直感，有時候會錯得一塌場糊塗的。美倩說：尤其是做學問，千萬不能用這種沒有根據的判斷，否則，豈不是洋相出到非洲去了？
甘心聽訓；南森聳聳肩膀，苦笑說：難道我對妳的愛情經歷也判斷錯了嗎？
錯得更多。美倩說：一直到現在，我雖然訂了婚，卻沒有獲得過一丁點兒愛情，那種熱烈，狂亂，可生可死的愛情。
假如是這樣，妳豈不成了小可憐了嗎？
在上帝的眼裏，誰不是小可憐呢？我不是在跟你說教，事實上，很多人都有他們的痛苦，生存決不像你概念裏那樣的單純，很早之前，我就經歷過了。
照這樣說來，最最小可憐，倒像是我了？
也許是罷。美倩說：車子來了。
這是一班空車，除了司機和車掌外，就祇有南森和美倩兩個搭客。車子在空盪盪的瀝青路面上疾駛著，沉沉的夜色貼佈在叮叮作響的車窗玻璃外面，讓人去感覺，去冥想。
美倩和南森坐在車尾，她娓娓的敘說起她自己的一些故事，那些過往的經歷，都黑黝黝的，彷彿是用車窗外的夜色塗成的。一個貧家的女孩兒，生長在簡陋暗黑的窩磚屋裏，一張古舊的大木床，一紅光屁股的娃娃，構成一個哭泣的世界，屋後是火車的軌道，每過一些時刻，那噴騰著黑煙的龐然大物，便會發出驚天動地的轟隆聲，嗚嗚的怒吼聲，直壓過來，掩蓋住她卑微的啼泣。
後來她進了學校，在古舊的木椅上捉臭蟲，刻小人頭，左一次右一次的鬧頭蝨，使她的鴨屁股髮型剪得更短更短，她雖不算醜小鴨，卻也不算天鵝。
高三那一年，她發狂的愛上一個年輕英俊的少尉軍官，她捧著書本，每個黑字都變成他黑黑的、露著潔白牙齒的臉；那軍官是她鄰舍一位老先生的姪兒，很喜歡文學，談吐也很出色，第一次談話她就迷上了他，在她不甚解事的心裏，愛情是那樣的朦朧而又熱烈，正像那個黃昏裏西邊天壁上璀璨的火燒雲，但從沒形諸於任何神態和語言，那祇是一個少女偷偷裝在心底下的祕密。
而她那時已經由父母安排，跟同一條街上一個富有的醫師的兒子訂婚了。對她父母來說，這宗婚事是極為體面的，說是榮宗耀祖也不為過當。那男孩自小就跟她玩得很熱絡，又同讀過小學，論關係可算是青梅竹馬；他多年來一直把她當成女王看，從沒拂逆過她的意思，她也慣把他當成傻弟弟，但兩人之間，並不存在著那種熱烈的、朦朧的、使她臉紅心跳的愛情。
換我的話，我是不甘心這樣被敲定的。他朝後仰仰身體，抱起膀子來稅：假如我們這一代，還不能決定我們自己本身的命運，又何必進大學來求知呢？
這也許正是我們觀念不同的地方。美倩幽幽的說：我總覺得，愛，有時也要學習的，雖然學著去愛一個人，或是去忘掉一個人是很困難的，這樣的心使我感覺揹負，卻也使我感覺平安。
嗨南森噓口氣，彷彿要把圍困自己的什麼噓開似的：但願這不是弱者的遁詞，那就好了！
車到東海，美倩到奧柏林中心去了，她要參加報佳音的行列去唱聖歌，南森祇好一個人拐向陳老師家裏去；來大度山一個學期了，就算今夜的心情最糟最亂，很難說究竟是為了什麼，也許自己不該去追詢美倩的身世罷？一個特出的快樂的女孩子，竟會是個宿命論的網罟裏的魚，連掙扎和跳躍都放棄了的。如果年輕人個個都像這樣子溫柔順從，誰再去漂白這個社會，只怕都將被這太老的社會染黑了罷？
而自己是要作一個騎士的。
即使是唐．吉柯德也好。
口哨聲被人切斷了，在路上，他遇上了老蘇和小翠。
哈老哥，你鑽到哪個老鼠洞裏去了？老蘇扯著他打轉說：到處找你找不著，陳先生等你去吃火雞呢你答應過的。
抱歉抱歉，我忘了，下山去剛回來。
嘿嘿，老蘇把他推在一盞路燈下面，退開兩步，繞著圈子，上上下下的看他。
what the hell?老蘇。
你說，你說你搞什麼鬼罷？大冷天的夜晚跑下山，空著兩隻手回來，明明是約會女朋友，還保密保得這麼緊！我一回寢室就沒有看見你的影子了。
哈老哥，你究竟愛上了誰？小翠說：當真不肯宣佈嗎？
sure.南森又恢復了他平常的機智，眨著眼說：不過，要等到了陳老師家，當著更多人公開宣佈才有意思。
好，我願意作證，你賴不了的。老蘇說：我們現在就演一場大肚山人起解，我要把你押了去，當眾宣佈你的情人。
不不不，我還有附帶的條件。
What conditions?
我要先分一隻火雞的腿。
三個人一路開心的笑到陳老師家，那間寬敞的客廳裏已經坐滿了好幾十位男女同學，彩色燈泡在聖誕樹上一明一滅，閃閃的紅綠燈光，交替的染著那些生動的笑臉。
南森奇怪著，這節日真的具有這樣大的魔力，把整個大度山上的年輕人都推到歡樂的浪頭上來了，似乎沒有誰願意在冷靜沉默中去思想它的意義，歡樂的本身就含有若干無須解釋的意義在內了。
每年聖誕節都這樣熱鬧嗎？
去年更熱鬧。大娃娃說：整個寢室的燈，通宵亮著，報佳音的歌聲，一夜唱到天亮，沒有人願意留在屋裏睡覺，音樂教室的屋頂上，坐滿了望星的哲學家，他們不是談哲學，卻談著希望和愛情。
哈老哥是實行家，老蘇大聲說：他已經拋開空談，偷偷的獨嚐了禁菓！剛剛他答應過，祇要分給他一隻火雞腿，他就當眾宣佈他的情人。
南森笑著，覺得自己的笑裏有些無可奈何的苦味。自己沒在另一個苦難的時空裏生活過，當然也不可能親身體驗到那種生活的情境和青年們的生活意識、生活態度。但當前年輕人的生活似乎太軟，即使在歡樂的浪頭上，也沒有什麼可供仔細咀嚼的味道。在這熱烘烘的人群裏坐著，飄浮不實的狂歡，形成一道牽拽著人的漩渦，使人不得不跟著拍手打掌，擠迸出浪費精力的笑聲。這樣倒不如方才單獨跟美倩在一起，談談那些使人心情糟亂的話，反而顯得有份量些。
生命的重量，常常是某些事實的壓力造成的。
鬨笑像一陣突起的風暴，從他身邊捲過去了。
陳老師動手分火雞，真的給了他一隻雞腿。
在你這種年齡，戀愛是好的。她眼裏含著關切的笑意說：那是預示著年輕的生命趨向成熟
宣佈罷，羅密歐。老蘇說：火雞腿捏在你的手上，該是你亮底牌的時候了。
我我愛上
慢點，慢點，大家不要說話，這是哈老哥歷史性的聲音，他要正式宣佈了。
哎，這樣不好意思，南森說：我還是用紙片寫下來，交給小翠去宣佈罷！否則我會臉紅。他說著，拔筆在一頁拍紙簿上寫下一個名字，遞到小翠手上，便若無其事的低下頭，專心去啃那隻很肥的雞腿。
小翠抓過那張紙條，原想張嘴唸出來的，誰知一張開嘴，就笑得再也無法閤攏了，她把紙條傳給大娃娃，大娃娃笑著彎著腰，總算撐著桌角說出話來：
你們知道他愛誰？他愛上的是墳場上的土地公公！她說著，又笑倒在沙發上。
不行，這小子騙吃了一隻雞腿！Old Su said.
還給你，南森說：雞腿還是雞腿，只欠肉，不欠骨頭。
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