Chapter 19 nineteen

Rolling up his luggage and returning to the cold rain in the Taipei Basin, Nansen felt his heart freeze. He wondered if Meiqian took advantage of the winter vacation to marry the scrawny Chen as the Chen family had hoped?I don't even know if Meiqian will give up her last semester of studies after she gets married?He wrote several letters, but they all seemed to sink into the sea, and he couldn't get any news. He and Meiqian are one south and one north, more separated than living on two planets.He guessed that Meiqian was probably married, otherwise she would not have replied.Thinking of this, he couldn't help feeling sad. Although he knew that he would lose her sooner or later, he never thought it would happen so soon and so suddenly.

He is still young, and he will not worry about not being able to make a girlfriend in the future, but Meiqian is the first girl he admires the most. No matter how difficult it is for him to give to others, it is as painful and difficult to give up as when he was with Meiqian in the past four years. Feelings gone.He knew he had to get over this grief, and it was so frustrating and confusing that even a friendship between him and her had been cut off, it was terrible, it was too much to bear! It was raining continuously, making Taipei cold and damp. He locked himself in the room, desperately writing his graduation thesis, trying to dilute it with work.But as soon as he stopped writing, he couldn't help thinking about them. He remembered from his relationship with Meiqian, thought of Meizhen, and thought of every little thing that happened in Donghai in the past four years. He was about to graduate, and he would be empty-handed Walk out of the school gate with nothing.He still remembers how he got lost while climbing Guanyin Mountain with Meiqian during the winter vacation of his freshman year. He remembered how he confidently searched for all the trails in the clouds and mist all over the mountain. He thought he was walking the right way, but in the end he lost his way , lost his way in a daze.When he first entered the East China Sea, he also regarded himself as the proud son of heaven, and rushed forward with confidence, but he didn't expect that the things between men and women would not only make him lost but also hurt him.

On a cold and rainy night, he was burning a pot of charcoal fire and writing a thesis by the stove. Lao Gao, with raindrops hanging on his body, appeared in his study like a daredevil, breathing hot air with his hands around his mouth. Brother Ha, are you grounding yourself?He said: You don't even go to the stars. I was catching up on my thesis, and he said: If you don’t use it during this period, people will get moldy. This period of rainy weather is so annoying. Shouldn't it be used to send lovelorn away? It's up to you to ruin it.He said with a wry smile. How can I have the heart to spoil you?Lao Gao sighed: Xiao Cui decided to go abroad to study in Colombia, we are definitely done!During the winter vacation, I paid for the TOEFL for two guys who wanted to go abroad, and the few pennies they paid for their tuition fees were not enough for me to eat Yangchun noodles, except for cigarettes.

So why don't you apply to Columbia as well?Your grades are top notch. This involves a problem of concept!Are we going to study for girls who are more ideal?Studying in order to find a job, serve a job, and grow old comfortably?If not for these reasons, I have seriously considered and decided to change my mind and not go abroad!In my opinion, rather than pursuing advanced studies in books, it is better to roll around in society to seek experience. Don’t you think we are lacking too much in this regard? Nansen was silent, the red light of the charcoal fire flashed in the room. I counted these four years in vain.He said: Too many fantasies, too much chaos in life, and in the end nothing was accomplished.

This situation is actually very common. Lao Gao warmed his hands on the charcoal fire, rubbed them and said: We are all very ordinary people. What Professor Hender said makes sense: To be a person and do things in an ordinary way is the most useful up.It's a pity that although we listened to it, we didn't really give up the many unrealistic things; colorful dreams, ideals like castles in the air, and more young and great dreams. At least, we should not mark them before doing it. Otherwise, why call young to come?This is a transition stage that life must go through in its growth.I think, yes.Nansen said: There is no need to defend the young, which is natural. Any great person was once young, naive, like us,

When Nansen said this, Lao Gao's locked brows relaxed, and the focus of the conversation became more relaxed. Do you still remember the story of the crowing bird we told when we entered school?Speaking of Dadu Mountain, there is such a mysterious bird. You have lived on the mountain for four years, have you ever seen it?Or heard it cry? How could that happen?It's just an illusory legend! In fact, I quite like to hear such legends. Lao Gao said: I think it has a strong symbolic meaning. University life seems to be a night dream, blurred and in a trance, one day after another, and we are used to it. Treat the dream as real, and finally the birds will sing and the dream will be broken, and people will go to the sky!

Understated lyricism.Nansen said. That seems to be it!Lao Gao said: Before you leave the East China Sea, you will always hear the crowing of the bright bird. The same tune, everyone's feeling is slightly different. After Lao Gao left, he sat by the fire all night by himself.Yuli knocked on the stepping stones under the eaves, sometimes slow and sometimes urgent, sometimes heavy and sometimes light, as if telling him many, many stories, like golden flowers blooming in the dark, in an instant, and again One after another fell. Meiqian finally sent him a letter, which was sincere and sad:

Nansen: I haven't replied to your letter. Chen came back to the south. His illness needs someone to take care of him, and he talks about our marriage all day long.I know you are also very concerned about this matter, Chen doesn't want me to force this before I finish college, he treats me too much. It’s the fourth grade, and everyone is busy with their own affairs. After graduation, it is true that labor and swallow are separated and go their separate ways. I will always cherish your friendship. It brings me too much encouragement and comfort, just as I cherish the big Like every plant and tree in Dushan, they have been integrated into my life during the four years of life.

I once felt you were the warmest and most ruthless person in the world, I think you should understand the meaning of this sentence, that's what I felt when I waited for your reply, now it's a dead sentence, it doesn't mean anything anymore .Thanks to God for your guidance and support, I can stand alone, but for your pain, I can do nothing but pray for you and bless you. Don't think about me anymore, Nansen, I am very stable and peaceful now, because I have chosen and affirmed my own future. In the future, if you need my help, I will try my best. I hope you will recognize what you want, and don't wait in a thousand threads, procrastinating. You are motivated, but lack determination and perseverance.

Congratulations Meiqian with a bright future In this way, Meiqian ended her struggle, thus keeping Nansen silent for several months.He returned to the East China Sea with his luggage, and the beautiful spring scenery of Mount Dadu was dimmed in his mind!The influx of freshmen will always be the darling of nature. They sing loudly, roll on the blue grassland, go outing together, go to Dream Valley to find dreams, and throw too much laughter everywhere, just like when Nansen first came to the East China Sea Same. When one is about to graduate, everything is different. Writing a graduation thesis makes one lose weight, and the rest of the time is spent on homework.Generally speaking, Nansen is still normal on the surface, neither sad nor painful, only with a feeling of loss, often playing John.Baez's song, recalling it with perplexity.

He thought about it, Meiqian saw him very clearly, he was really that kind of person, he had too many dreams, but lacked determination and perseverance, he was like this in his studies, his behavior, even in love.Even if you are traumatized, it is all caused by yourself, and you cannot blame others. The estrangement between Nansen and Meiqian is concerned by many teachers and classmates who are familiar with them; the warm-hearted little girl sympathizes with Nansen and praises his straightforward attitude that does not win people's love; Xiaocui encourages Nansen to forget about this incident thing, smiled and said to him: Brother Ha, didn't you say that the girls in Donghai are spiritual?Why is there only one person in your heart?Is the other person not worth your pursuit? Don't think too highly of me, Xiao Cui.Nansen smiled wryly and said: For an unorganized person like me, even if he puts a cheap sale label on his head, I am afraid that no girls will come to care about it. Who can I chase after?The more spiritual a girl is, the sharper her eyes are like X-rays, and she can see right through me! The more spiritual you are, the more you will like your special temperament, very poetic, don't you think? And it's a pure free body, isn't it?he said jokingly. By the way, Xiaocui said: At the same time, it has a bit of modern style. Let me tell you, this kind of poem is the least valuable and a spiritual girl wants to eat, and I am not a good meal ticket. Especially in front of girls, he acts very relaxed when he has the opportunity.My younger sister often came to him, comforted him with many innocent and silly words, and took great pains to make him happy. Although he smiled at his younger sister, she could still see the emptiness in his heart from his frowning eyebrows. . Brother Ha, you are considered to be a girl. Old Su said: "Little sister, this girl is innocent and pure, and she is free, (that is, she has no date yet), laughing and joking, with a bright personality, and she is the perfect match for you." never mind!He sighed and said: I want to put this kind of thing aside for a while, I don't want to cause trouble anymore. I'm afraid you are duplicity? Ah, no, no, he hurriedly waved his hand and said: Once bitten by a snake, ten years afraid of grass ropes, I absolutely agree with what I say, and I will never cause trouble again. What Nansen said was the truth, both Lao Su and He in the dormitory could tell that he deliberately avoided getting close to his younger sister. He often went down the mountain and resumed his old habit of visiting second-hand book stalls; Soaking in the music for a whole night, sometimes he couldn't catch the bus, so he would sleep in Taichung Park and let the moonlight praised by Li Bai cover his dreams. Soon, it will be time for the acacia tree to bloom again. The graduation prom was scheduled for the night three days before the graduation ceremony, and the graduating students planned and arranged it themselves, and put up huge posters everywhere, especially asking the male students to invite their dance partners first to go to the party together. It was a veritable farewell dance!Old Su said: Although it is not a taste, it is worth inviting a girl to dance it. If someone has a partner, they dance the sweet dance. Lao Gao said: We dance the sad dance.Just reluctantly invite a dance partner to go to the meeting, and then go their separate ways after the dance. This is not called Soul Break Blue Bridge, but Soul Break Dadu Mountain. Are you willing to break your soul?Old Gao. certainly.Lao Gao said: It is rare to have such a soul broken in a lifetime, and I am going to be crazy about it for a night. However, this is completely different from our strange dance in Dream Valley.Old Su put on a sad face and said: If you stomp on a girl's toes at the graduation prom, wouldn't that make you look like a fool? It doesn't matter.Lao Gao said: We asked Mr. Ha to take night classes for us, and make up for it temporarily. This flat-footed folk dance is terrible, but he is very proficient in ballroom dancing. I also participate.He said. You thin-skinned person, can you find a dance partner? Let Nansen take care of it.He said: All our dance partners are entrusted to him to make appointments in the girls' dormitory. Our Romeo is the most attractive, isn't he?Nansen. Don't think about your wishful thinking, Nansen snorted lazily and said in a nasal voice: "What the hell dance, I don't even have the slightest mood to participate, how can I make up for you again?"Going to make appointments for you again? Guy, don't put on airs, Old Su said: You won't attend the prom, you don't want to dance, are you going to cry all the way down the mountain? The help was only this time, Lao Gao said: Don't let the girls criticize us for not measuring up, does it mean that a breakup in love will wear down our vigor and vigor?Want to dance, let's dance together, need a girl, sorry, you have to find it for us! All right!Nansen said: I can only promise to do my best, and if I can't find everything, I will find a way to find it individually. In order to participate in this grand ball, Lao Gao added a new outfit, and He also made an exception to sew a new suit. Old Su Ke was more difficult, ironed the Hong Kong shirt, and put on a tie, but the tie clip was inlaid with real gems. Just because I can't dance well, I need to dress smarter!Lao Gao said: This is a typical filling of dice. Now everything is ready, only the east wind is owed!Old Su said: Brother Ha, go to the girls' dormitory and borrow the wind for us. If you go late, the girls will be invited by others. I'm afraid we won't be able to invite even one. Nansen was nervous when he went to the girls' dormitory. As soon as he saw the round red-painted moon door, he couldn't help but feel a sense of desolation.He was timid to approach the round door, and just wandered among the peach groves to watch; those were the carved railings, and those were the windows of Meiqian's bedroom. As soon as she whistled, Meiqian opened the window, or ran to the corridor, leaning on the railing and waving at him. Now the scenery remains the same, and everything is different!Unexpectedly, in the blink of an eye, four years of college life has become a cloud that cannot be looked back. The setting sun elongated his lingering shadow, and many well-dressed male students gathered from various roads to the female dormitory to invite their dance partners. Some familiar ones greeted Nansen when they passed the peach grove. Brother Ha, why don't you go back and change your clothes?The dance is about to begin!One said: Look, the girls are so beautifully dressed, all of them are full of flowers, like newlyweds! I don't have any clothes to change, Nansen said: I'm here to invite dance partners for Lao Su and the others. If you see the little girl, please tell her, just say that I am here waiting for her. The girls who were invited walked out of the round door one after another, and the clothes brighter than the sunset lit up the dusk. They seemed to have never been so beautiful like today; some wore high-heeled silver shoes like little clouds, and some wore Put on the dresses cut and sewed by myself, bright white, pink, or light yellow, as bright as some budding flowers.It was only then that Nansen felt that if he wore this dress to the ball, others might think he was pretending to be crazy. To be honest, the yellowed Hong Kong shirt and faded jeans were too outrageous on an occasion like tonight. . Brother Ha, hey, Brother Ha! He was hesitating whether he should go back and change into a neater set of clothes. The little girl had already run out from the round door. She was wearing an autumn-colored dress, and even her hair and shoes were autumn-colored. Her originally fair complexion became brighter. Hey, little girl, how dare you go to our prom and see off Big Brother and Big Sister when you dress up like this? Well, my clothes have been changed long ago, and I am waiting for you here!When the little girl spoke, she stared at Nansen with her round black eyes: I've never been to such a big ball before, I'm a little scared, I really dare not go if you don't take me with you! I will accompany you later, little sister.He said: Can you ask three more classmates to come down for me?Lao Su, Lao Gao and He, they all changed their clothes and waited, but only lacked a partner. The little girl rolled her black eyes nimbly and said with a smile: Who do you want me to date again? You can make an appointment with whomever you want, Nansen said: It would be even better if you can invite Xiaocui for Lao Gao. Let's dance together, he will really die. That's impossible, the younger sister said: Narcissus has already been asked out by her close friend, even if Lao Gao came to ask her out first, she would not agree. Hurry up and make an appointment for me, or if it's late, I'm afraid the dormitory will be empty.Nansen said. It doesn't matter, the beauty is still there!The little girl spoke in a naughty tone, ignored Nansen's stop, turned around and ran into the round door. After the little girl left, Nansen became even more nervous.It’s been a long time since he came here to look for Meiqian. Sometimes he bumped into each other in the corridor of the Faculty of Arts. Although they still nodded and smiled at each other, Meiqian always lowered her head quickly and walked over in a hurry. Say a few words, that is very little.Now, college life is coming to an end, and within a few days, he will leave Dadu Mountain. How he longs to go to the ball with Meiqian, or have a relatively deep talk alone, thirsty for a night of light.In short, I feel that I will never be able to shake Meiqian's shadow in this life. Will Meiqian come downstairs? The horizontal clouds in the western sky are like brocade, softly supporting the setting sun, and the green grass stretches on the hillside, forming a sad color.The girls who walked out of the round gate passed each other parting flower branches, a string of bright yellow eye-catching lovesickness. He lingered for a while, and saw the little girl walking out leading Meiqian. Meiqian was wearing the light gray dress that Nansen was familiar with, with a bunch of yellow flowers of the acacia tree hanging on the lapel, and she was also holding a bunch in her hand. Her hair was still combed back very neatly, Wearing a bundle, when she saw Nansen, she only blinked her eyelashes, smiled and said: Can I help you? Her tone was very gentle, and there was a sense of calmness and plainness in the gentleness, and his heart was immediately filled with desolation.Seeing the little girl who was hiding behind Meiqian winking, Nansen suddenly realized that Meiqian was probably coaxed down the stairs by some kind of words that the little girl used.He didn't dare to raise his head to look at Meiqian carefully, so he moved the tip of his shoe and said: I want to invite you to the dance party. I wonder if you are free? He took a lot of effort to speak out hesitantly, and Meiqian quickly declined gently but firmly: I can't dance, you know that. Nansen could only nod sadly, and the air became so stiff and silent. For a long while, the two faced each other silently.The sun at dusk is thousands of faint golden light particles scattered between him and her. The two opposing shadows seem so close but feel very far away. There is a kind of illusion. Really dreamy.In the moment of silence, Nansen harbored a hurt that touched the ages, and the corners of Meiqian's eyes were a little moist. Please forgive me.She swallowed slightly. You will forgive me too.His voice was low as a whisper. The clever little girl didn't want to startle them, so she tiptoed away and went to the Acacia forest to pick the yellow flowers.The two stayed there for no reason or reason, watching the setting sun and the silence together. We finally parted!He said: Time is really howling wind. With slightly wet black eyes, she squinted thoughtfully at the green grass stretching on the slope, and said with a low sigh: Take your little sister to the dance properly, don't keep her waiting.We are friends, today and in the future. He nodded again, and she handed the bunch of yellow flowers to his hand.The returning bird crossed the night sky, and the parting was completed silently.There was no farewell, no exhortation, no cherished and blessed words, she put all her emotions and voices on the bunch of yellow flowers.A bunch of yellow flowers so gorgeous, and a sunset glow so gorgeous, all dripped on his heart, brightening the memory behind him. He took his younger sister and two other girls empty-handedly, and joined Lao Su and the others to attend the dance.The venue was decorated exquisitely and grandly, with strings of colorful lights reflecting a row of gold letters on the wall.Among the graduating classmate group, some people hope to replace the sentimentality with carnival, but the sentimentality surging in people's hearts is still overflowing, and the carnival and sentimentality are mixed together like a cocktail, which is intoxicating. Drunk is not the feeling of taste. Nansen sat in an aluminum chair in the corner of the room, leaning back with his elbows outstretched, watching the pairs of figures gliding across the dance floor; It seems that some elves who are fiddled with by the music are circling and circling in the dream, and the small steps trample the spring and autumn in the memory.The music was changing, Lao Gao and the younger sister were sweating, and He Ye got off the dance floor. Lao Su patted Nansen and said: This is a twist, you also go down to the pool to wipe your back. I don't want to jump.He said lazily: just sit here and get a little dance smell. Is it a word?Just here to test the writing booth, Lao Su said: Is it impolite for a girl to invite you? While talking, Old Su got up and left his seat, and gave the girl a rather funny Spanish salute, and the two of them went down to the dance floor to wipe their backs. Nansen was still sitting silently in the corner by the dance floor, his eyes that could not be stared for a moment were like strange transparent glass, looking at the dancing shadows on the dance floor through the dim colored lights, and seeing the scenes in front of him again. Many pictures flying out of memory, goldfish sleeping in Carmen's glass fish tank.A white face protruding from a background of flowers.The red soil cliffs that show the stratum state thousands of years ago are bare.The decadent bridge standing in the sky and the bright moonlight.In the spring class, Professor Rapley recited the phonology of English poetry.The shadow of a pollen-carrying bee tapping on a pane of glass, and the soft sting.The crowded heads of the library and the heat fog on the glass windows.When announcing the good news, a circle of figures in white clothes and a horseshoe-shaped candlelight. What is this song?Brother Ha. Bruce. Well, Old Su said: I would be better off dying if I danced this one again, I donated my soul to Dadu Mountain. Nansen seemed to have woken up from a coma. The little girl sat beside him, with her head half tilted, watching him with concern. What are you thinking?She quietly leaned close to his ear and said: "I don't dance, I'm just in a daze." Gotta get out of here.He stretched his waist helplessly and said: There is always some parting emotion that is difficult to explain clearly. This is a very grandiose reason, and Xiaola laughed wittily, a sweet fragrance entered his nostrils: If sister Meiqian were here, you would not be as listless as you are now, like a locomotive without coal, Yes or no? Don't you see too much Dream of the Red Chamber?little sister.Nansen said: Don't regard every boy as a treasure-shaped character, who is sentimental and sentimental. We are all fish in the shallow sea. When we step out of school and step into the ocean of society, we will not feel emotional stop! Do you feel like there is too much water?she asked childishly. Nansen didn't answer her, but took her hand and said: Come on, let's dance this tango. Along with the melody of the music, he slid to the center of the dance floor with his little sister in a very skillful dance.Footsteps step on the time behind, and youth is like a flower, he will not be caught by Ruanruan's emotions for a long time, Ruanruan's life will be tied up for a long time, this is a display of the past, and it is also a declaration of the end.This group of dancing lives is like a school of fish swimming forward, and will eventually swim into the ocean. This is growth. You dance really well, just too fast. After the music came to an end, the little girl gasped. Yeah?For the first time, he regained the wild smile of the past: You should say: the locomotive has added coal, and the train of life driving down from Dadu Mountain should be impressive. What are you going to do after graduation? Of course, people have to do something to live.He said: Although it is time to wake up from the dream, the ideal has not faded. I plan to go out to fight indiscriminately, learn from experience, and put my feet on the ground first. . Seems to make sense.The younger sister said: You speak very proudly, Brother Ha. This is what Professor Hender taught us. The dance ended, and a few people walked back to the dormitory on the moon and stars.Nansen was still holding the string of parting flowers that Meiqian handed him just now, when suddenly he heard a strange sound resounding in his heart, it was a thin and hazy song of a bird!Yes, that was indeed a mysterious bird song, which sang off the blossoming dream flowers and told him that it was time to clean up his youthful dreams.What a beautiful legend, what a fitting symbol!In the dense shade of Dadu Mountain, there is a mysterious bird called Mingming Bird, which always calls to welcome the dawn before dawn, when people's dreams are strong. This legend is absurd in terms of fact, but he believes it exists in his feeling. Although he can't see its image, he has heard its cry from the depths of his heart.Not only him, any young man wearing a black academic uniform may have heard such a sound, the sound of crying, in Mount Dadu or elsewhere. In any case, the dream of being pecked by a bird's beak is always impossible to pick up; it is just a real process of life growth, formed naturally in the social net and infected by the times, and there is nothing to complain about or linger on.What he cares about is what will happen after the birds sing? Graduation ceremonies are held in the gymnasium. The night before, the few in Nansen's dormitory didn't sleep well, and they had put on and taken off the borrowed black academic uniforms countless times. This thing looks quite solemn, Lao Su pulled the black robe on him and said: What does it look like?By the way, it's like the mortuary clothes that bury our colorful dreams of youth.As he spoke, his shoulders shrugged slightly, and he slowly pressed a pair of new glasses on the bridge of his nose. how?I mean the smell?He turned to Nansen and Lao Gao with an expression. Bachelor's style, the sour style of standard colleges. That's fine too.Old Su said: Four years of being crazy and foolish, at the graduation ceremony, it is time to be serious for two hours. Every summer, when the doors of the universities are wide open, Lao Gao thinks of something to say: just like our half-baked, bachelor, wearing a black robe and a top hat, thousands and tens of thousands flow out, serious but serious, with an air It's not a good show, it's a calculation, two legions can be formed with a degree, but it's really adhering to the ideal, serving the people, and living up to the scholars, how is it? Let’s not mention the past, Lao Su said: Let’s start everything. I hope that after 20 years, your Lao Gao’s reputation will overwhelm Shakespeare, and you will still be able to produce first-class inspiration after eating Yangchun noodles. Where is the word, first look at your locomotive! Quite emotional.Old Su said: Don't you know that the big baby wrote to Professor Chen?Her love speed is so fast that my broken locomotive can't catch up. She is already engaged to a golden hat spike, and the girl goes abroad, it seems that it is just for a meal ticket.You haven't seen the photo of her, darling, wearing a high-level gram, so pompous, it's all used in that kind of place. No need for piquant, you old tomcat. Their banter and jokes made a burst of laughter, especially for Nansen. The lament and sadness that he originally harbored didn't matter now.respectively?Let's say goodbye in such a cheerful and open-minded way! The next day they made an exception and got up early. Lao Gao and He stood at the railing of the corridor, bathing in the morning breeze. Nansen and Lao Su auditioned for their bachelor's uniforms in front of the mirror, carefully arranging the tassels hanging from the corner of their square hats. Nansen carefully looked at himself in the mirror. It has been four years, and the traces of time can be clearly detected from the mirror; although his forehead is still bright, his eyes are much more complicated. Even when he is smiling, he cannot escape a kind of depression The smell, maybe this is a sign of a person's maturity?Who knows?It seemed as if he realized that at this moment, he was no longer as unrestrained and carefree as before.A huge pressure oppresses people, causing them to care about tomorrow, the path they should take tomorrow, and the unknown future. Only the parents, relatives and friends of the graduating students regard graduation as something worthy of celebration and joy.From sunrise, one chartered car and one chartered car drove in one after another. Crowds of people and umbrellas surged everywhere, narrowing the campus that was always thought to be vast. Under the shade of willows and by the lotus pond, many colorful clothes surrounded the campus. The classmates in black robes were arched, surrounded by joy and family affection. Nansen, Lao Su and the four of them were walking around the campus. He said his father and sister were coming from Chiayi to attend the graduation ceremony. My father will definitely come when he gets his certificate to attend the ceremony.He said. The old man in my family will not come. Lao Su said: The rice in the field needs to be taken care of, and he is reluctant to spend the car fare. I didn't ask the school to notify my sister. Lao Gao said: Graduation is not a happy event for me. A wanderer leaves this quiet learning environment, and I feel a little at a loss for a while. I don't know what to do! And you?Brother Ha. No one came to my family. Nansen said: My father is away on business, and my mother is old and weak. In order to save the old people from running around, I have written back and asked them not to come. Okay, Lao Su said: This is refreshing. There are more and more people, and on the boulevard, various types of vehicles form a long queue.Some people spread newspapers, put up umbrellas, and sat around on the grass; some people took pictures in front of buildings such as Lusiyi Church and Art Center; beside the acacia forest, many people were picking yellow flowers. The small flowers in the garden are so yellow that it is eye-catching, as if even Dadu Mountain knows how to cherish parting, and sheds yellow and bright lovesickness everywhere like tears; Another branch was given to her smiling mother. Lao Su said that it is quite like drumming and passing flowers. Hey bro!Who is calling at the edge of the acacia forest. Nansen turned his face away, and saw the little girl bouncing over with a large bouquet of yellow flowers in her arms, and handed him the densest bunch of flowers. Little sister, I'm leaving, do you want to miss me?He said. Of course, how could you not want to?The little girl blinked her big round black eyes: In Dadu Mountain, there is only one Brother Ha! That's very simple, you can create another Brother Ha II, Nansen said sadly: But, we are one step away from this, and there will be no another Dadu Mountain! Brother Ha, congratulations, just as Nansen was talking to his younger sister, a large group of male and female students from lower grades smiled and gathered around: Sign your name as a souvenir! Drink, am I being treated as a character by you?Nansen said: Why don't you find someone else to sign? Both Socrates and Lao Gao signed it! All right, I will sign Brother Ha I.He said. Involved in this craze, I happily agreed to everyone, and signed the English abbreviation of Brother Ha with a signature pen.A few naughty girls asked him to sign their names on their straw hats and handkerchiefs, except for the words Ha Lao Ge, and also asked him to sign Romeo of Donghai, so he simply wrote the words Romeo. On their skirts and shoe tips. Finally it's your turn to sign for me!A male classmate approached and said: Maybe we still know each other?I am Xiaoqiu who delivered ice water to you in Carmen. Xiaoqiu, Nansen said: I should congratulate you, you have finally entered the East China Sea. And also participated in the work camp, Xiaoqiu said: I have accepted the spiritual leadership of you, the old senior. When you go to Carmen in the future, you'd better order more iced water.Nansen said: Donghai students are the most common people, not aristocratic at all.Some people say that this is a noble school, do you believe it? If the waiter holding the plate can be classified as a nobleman, I will believe it. Not impossible, Nansen laughed and said: Because you have the same surname as Qiu Weng. Just talking to Xiaoqiu about the interesting things in Carmen back then, Xiao Cui, who was carrying a camera, ran out of nowhere. On his thin face, there was a dignifiedness that was rarely seen today. Daffodil, I just saw you grow up today.Nansen said. Originally.Xiao Cui said: As a girl studying, I think there are two most important clothes in her life, black robe and white gauze. When are you wearing white gauze? You don't need to be anxious, there will always be a day, when the time comes, I must tell you first.Xiaocui suddenly asked back: Really, Brother Ha, who is your favorite?Don't you worry too much about yourself? Nansen was stunned by this sudden question, and finally couldn't say a word: Let's talk about it after graduation. Let me tell you: there will always be a day. Did you see Meiqian?She said: Let me tell you, just now I saw Meiqian in the corridor of the Faculty of Arts with some children from the School for the Blind and Deaf, you should go to her and say goodbye.May I take some photos for you as souvenirs?What are you staying for?Come with me. Xiaocui is such a headstrong girl, when she thought of what to do, she rushed towards her like a whirlwind and dragged Nansen away.But she was still one step too late, Meiqian had already left there, and the departments of the Faculty of Liberal Arts had gathered separately, and under the leadership of the department heads and professors, they began to circle the school for a week.The yellow flowers in the sun are a bright piece of rain that symbolizes parting. The procession of black robes is slowly going on. Nansen can't see where Meiqian is, but he can imagine her petite figure and her figure in black robes. look.Just now Xiaocui said that wearing a bachelor's gown today and wearing white gauze in the future are the same for life. Xiaocui's words touched him deeply. He also imagined that Meiqian would look peaceful and indifferent in white gauze. When he walks up to the wedding hall, he himself is nothing, he won't even receive a wedding invitation, Meizhen is an example. His mind was full of that mysterious bird cry. The birdsong in his heart is not happy, but he must listen carefully. A bit like sleepwalking, and a bit like waking up in the twilight, he followed the long procession of black robes, stepping on the yellow flowers like rain, in the sun, in the time, slowly moving forward Go, go forward.The revolving lantern will continue to spin here. After spinning out his shadow, there will be more shadows of young people. It seems novel, but it is always plain.Generally, it is the years of rounds and rounds, gentle wind and drizzle, and colorful and dreamy spring and autumn, but when the birds wake up from the dream and step out of the gate wall of this university, it may be a completely different world. Lu Siyi Church stands in the green grassland. All eagles will fly far away from their nests, piercing the wind and rain.As long as there are young people studying here, living here, and growing up here, Dadu Mountain has such a symbolic meaning. It will always be praised and admired by people, and it will never be lonely. Acacia forest should be the thick eyelashes on Dadu Mountain, tearfully bid farewell to batch after batch of children who grew up in its arms and left.It will always forgive their confusion, dreaminess, and floating, because that is the symbol of growth. Its tears of yellow flowers are full of tender love. Maybe one day, it will become the rain of history, so abundant, so Torrential, so that the entire nation can get the rain it longs for. It was with this in mind that he attended the ceremony and attended the graduation dinner.Because he drank too much wine, he lay down on the grass and fell asleep at noon.睡夢中，他看見美倩的影子，昇高，擴散，化成路思義堂的形象，朝他微笑著，祝福著。他又聽見虛空中有一種巨大的聲音，對他說：你已經成長，過去的一切，都祇是你青春期的幻夢，徙現在開始，你必須試練你自己的翅膀，去穿越，去飛翔，去尋覓你自己的未來，也許你會尋到荊棘，但荊棘那邊仍有康莊！那明明是美倩的聲音。 南森驚醒來，坐起身，揉揉眼，四周寂然無人，長匹瘦瘦的樹林環繞著他，瞪視著他，他彷彿認識每一株樹，就像他認識過這兒的許多張人臉，哪兒是水塔，可以登高望遠；哪兒是夢谷，有過紅紅的野火和歡樂的歌，在濃烈的肉香中飄響；哪兒是土地公公和他腳下的墓場，有許多標示著人生終站的碑碣，警示著人們珍視自身能握有的、短暫的光陰。 他抬起頭來，碧野上灑著相思樹的黃花，凸現的路思義教堂的片片瓦鱗映著太陽，那種無法形容的燦爛的光輝，使他瞠目屏息，古老中國的琉璃瓦，覆蓋在精緻的西洋式的結構之上，一種完成，表現在路思義教堂的周身。它那樣安然的立在草原上，甯和的接受晨曦和夕陽的光照，何嘗又不是另一種象徵？ 他踏著毯似的柔草，一步一步的走過去，堂內沒有人，只有一束鮮花放在聖壇中央，高高斜斜的長排天窗，給人一種上昇的欲望。他要飛過去，飛過去，飛過去，當初在古堡上望眼欲穿的焦灼和斷崖間迎風呼嘯的勇銳，都在這一飛的願望中混合在一起了。是的，他是一隻羽毛已豐的幼鷹，他要從大度山的懷中振翼而起，直上蒼穹。時間不止造就了他，更多幼鷹仍將在滾動的時間中試行鼓搧，飛上九霄，咕碌碌的為民族啼明。why not? 蒼藍是他對自己的蒼藍， 天空是他們自己的天空。 （全篇完）