Chapter 54 eighteen

The next day after I went back, I told Mr. Fu about Wang Kuilong's message. Mr. Fu was not surprised. After thinking for a moment, he sighed: I had heard that he was back a long time ago, so I figured it was time for him to come and see me. The old man also knows Wang Kuilong?I asked curiously. I was an old friend with his father, Wang Shangde. During the Anti-Japanese War, we were both in the Fifth War Zone, which is regarded as a robe.However, I retired early, and Wang Shangde was promoted, and he became a great official.In the past in Nanjing, we all lived in Dabei Lane. Our past was very close, but we gradually became estranged when we arrived in Taiwan.Kuilong, I watched him grow up.

Mr. Fu originally planned to go to Lingguang Nursery in Zhonghe Township in the afternoon, but he gave up because of this. He changed into a white bamboo cloth Tang suit that he usually wears at home, sat in the living room, waited for Wang Kuilong, and ordered me to boil water and make tea.Wang Kuilong arrived at about two o'clock in the afternoon. He was wearing a black suit and even a black tie, which made his face paler. , Comb neatly.I led him into the living room, and when he saw Mr. Fu, he called out: Uncle Fu. Kuilong, Mr. Fu also stood up tremblingly, stretched out a hand, and called out to Wang Kuilong. He bent his back and barely raised his head. Wang Kuilong hurried forward and held Mr. Fu's hand. Staring at it for a long time, he hesitated to speak, and finally Mr. Fu told Wang Kuilong to take a seat.I went to brew a pot of Tieguanyin, brought it to the living room on a tea tray, and poured tea for both of them.Mr. Fu picked up the teacup, blew away the floating tea leaves, and took a sip.Wang Kuilong also raised his cup and drank tea silently.

Uncle Fu, I want to come to you as soon as I come back.Wang Kuilong finally spoke. I know, Mr. Fu nodded and replied, I'm waiting for you too. I've always wanted to come back. These years, being outside is enough for you.Mr. Fu looked at Wang Kuilong and sighed. My mother passed away four years ago. I telegraphed to my father to come back for the funeral, but my father refused. Kuilong.Mr. Fu raised his hand and called out, but fell silent again. After a while, your father said, Mr. Fu said that he was also in a difficult situation. I know, Wang Kuilong said with a sad smile, it is unfortunate for our Wang family to have such a monster like me, which dragged down the fame of my father's first life.

You have to understand that your father is no different than ordinary people. He has made great contributions to the country. Mr. Fu persuaded him. His social status is high, so of course he has many scruples.You have to think about him too. Uncle Fu, I lived in America incognito and wandered for ten years, just because of what my father said. Wang Kuilong’s voice was full of resentment. When I was about to leave, my father said to me: Once you go, I will live for a day , you are not allowed to come back.His words were very decisive.I understand that I am the shame of his life. We have many relatives in New York. I never go to them or let them know, just to avoid adding trouble to Dad.But Uncle Fu, this time when my father passed away, he didn't let me come back to see him when he was dying, and he didn't even want me to attend the funeral.My uncle told me that it was my father who told me that he sent me a telegram after his body was buried.

On the day of the funeral, I went, and Mr. Fu's voice became a little hoarse. It was a state funeral ceremony, and the mourning behind your father was very beautiful.There were all related people that day, and there were so many relatives and friends in your family. It was indeed inconvenient for you to be present. Of course, Wang Kuilong said with a wry smile, my uncle said the same thing, I had already humiliated my father before I was alive, so why should I embarrass him on the big day of his funeral?These days when I came back, I never went to visit my father’s grave. It was not until the day of the seventh year that I went to Liuzhang plow with my uncle, aunt and others.Dad's grave hadn't been wrapped yet, and a black tarpaulin was covered on top of a pile of loess.I stood in front of that pile of loess without a single tear.I saw my uncle's face full of anger, and I knew that he must be cursing me secretly: This beast, he still doesn't shed tears when he comes to his father's grave!

Wang Kuilong sneered twice, and suddenly he raised his head, his deep-set eyes sparkled, his pale cheeks turned red, and he shouted excitedly: Uncle Fu, Uncle Fu, how does he know what I was thinking at that moment?At that moment, I wished I could rush forward, uncover the black oilcloth, scrape away the pile of soil, jump into the pit, hug my father's body, and cry for three days and three nights, bleeding from crying, to see if it was washed well The resentment in Daddy Jing's heart is that he hates me to the core!He doesn't even want me to see his remains for the last time.I have been waiting for ten years, just waiting for his pardon.His words, like a spell, have been branded on my body, and I carried his deportation order, like a convict, wandering around under those skyscrapers in New York.Ten years, I have escaped for ten years, his spell is on my back, burning every day, only he, only he can lift it.But he didn't say a word, and fell into the ground.He is cursing me, cursing me that I will never be reborn

Wang Kuilong's voice seemed to be shaking with pain. Kuilong, Mr. Fu also became agitated. His shoulder blades were raised high, his hunchback seemed to be overwhelmed, and his iron-grey eyebrows were frowned. You say that about your father, too. It's not fair anymore! Is not it?Is not it?Wang Kuilong shouted, "Uncle Fu, I'm here this time to ask you, you must have seen your father before he passed away. When he was seriously ill, I visited him once or twice at the Veterans General Hospital. What did he tell you? We talked some old things, he was not in good spirits, and I didn't stay much.

I know, he won't mention me.He's completely out of love with me.Wang Kuilong shook his head desperately. Kuilong, you only care about your father. Have you ever thought about how much your father suffered for you?Mr. Fu seemed a little angry. Why haven't I thought about it?Wang Kuilong said helplessly, I just hope he can give me a chance, and I try to make up for some of the pain he suffered for me. You said it so easily!Mr. Fu also trembled, "Father's pain, do you think you can make up for it?"That's right, Kui Long, your father never mentioned you to me, and I have rarely interacted with your father these years.But I know that his suffering will never be inferior to yours.I believe you must have been tortured outside these years, but do you think your suffering is only yours?Your father is here to share with you too!The more you hurt, the more your father hurts!

But Uncle Fu Wang Kuilong stretched out his bony and thin hand to grab the back of Mr. Fu's hand, and asked sadly, why didn't he even want to see me for the last time? Mr. Fu looked at Wang Kuilong, his freckled face was full of pity, and murmured: He can't bear to see you, he can't bear to see you even when he closes his eyes.