Chapter 5 chapter Five

Today, Sunday, is Shijun's last day in Nanjing.His mother said softly to him: You have to go to see Dad today. Shijun was very reluctant to go to his father's small mansion.Why did his mother want him to go, but she felt that he hadn't come home for a year, and since all his relatives and friends knew he was back this time, it would be a bit rude not to visit his father anyway.Shijun also knew that he had to go there, but he always liked to procrastinate until the last moment. On this day, he chose to go to the small mansion in the morning before his father left the house.The style over there is much bigger than theirs, and there are two male servants.A servant who came to open the door was new and didn't know him, Shijun said: "Is the master up yet?"The man looked at him hesitantly, and said: I'll go and have a look.Your name?Shijun said: You just say that the second young master in the old mansion is here.

The man asked him to sit down in the living room and report himself.The living room is full of mahogany furniture.Shijun's father liked to be arty, on the high table, on the bar table, there were antique porcelain everywhere, making people afraid of breaking valuable things with every move and gesture.Shijun didn't pay attention to anything else, there was a tray on the table with a few visiting cards and invitations scattered inside, Shijun picked it up and looked at it.There was a pink wedding invitation, and it was Mrs. Shen Xiaotong's wife. It can be seen that in the circle his father interacted with, everyone treated his concubine as his wife.

Xiao Tong probably hadn't got up yet, Shijun sat alone in the living room and waited, the morning sun came in and shone on the sofa he was sitting on.The white cloth cover on the sofa is quite old, but it has been washed clean.Obviously, the housewife here is a thrifty housekeeper. At this time, she was buying vegetables in the small vegetable market and came back, followed by a maid who carried the basket for her, and she carried a steelyard in her hand, walked past the door of the living room, opened a picture inside, and said with a smile: Oh, The Second Young Master is here!When did you come back to Nanjing?Shijun never called her or anything, he just got up to her, and said with a straight face: "It's only been two days since I came back."This concubine is already a middle-aged lady. Although she used to be a woman in the dust, she is dressed very honestly now, with her hair combed, wearing a half-worn black wool wool cheongsam, and her face is only lightly powdered.If she was a coquettish slut, Shijun would feel calmer, but she is such a typical housewife, completely taking Shijun's mother's position, so every time he sees her, he always feels very uncomfortable .

She always put on a perfunctory face when she saw him, but she did not lose her identity in being polite.She turned around and shouted: Li Sheng, why don't you pour tea for the second young master?Li Sheng replied outside: "It's down here." She nodded to Shijun and said with a smile: "You sit for a while, and Dad will come down."Little San'er, call me brother.Come!Her third child was coming downstairs with his schoolbag on his back. She beckoned him over and said, "Second brother!"The child was about the same age as Shijun's nephew.Shijun smiled and said: How old are you?The concubine laughed and said, "Second brother is asking you something, tell me!"Shijun laughed and said: I remember he stuttered a bit.The concubine smiled and said, "That's his brother."He is the third one, last time you saw him, you were holding him in your arms!Shijun said: Children grow up really fast.The aunt said: "No."

Immediately the concubine took the child by the hand and went out, and she could be heard shouting from a distance: Where is the driver?Tell him to take the young master to school, and he will be back soon, the master wants to sit down.She knew that the meeting between their father and son would not be long, and they would not have any confidantes, but she was still very careful. Although she walked away, she dispatched her mother to sit in the main room.This old lady has been living with her daughter. Although her daughter has been completely transformed and has become a standard family, the mother's godly spirit is still very strong.Shijun hates seeing her even more than seeing his concubine.She probably knew something in her heart, so she didn't come to greet him.I heard her sit down rustling in the main room, and said to a little girl: "Little Si, come on, grandma will teach you how to fold tinfoil!"Well, after such a fold, such an origami, the rattle of the ingots and the ingot being dropped into the basket can be heard, and of course she can hear the conversation in the living room here.Although she is old, her ears are probably fine.

The ambushes here had just been set up, and there was a familiar Hehan on the stairs!Shijun's father came downstairs.Although the coughing sound of the father sounded familiar, the father himself was a little strange.Shen Xiaotong walked in with his hands behind his back, Shijun stood up and called Dad.Xiao Tong nodded to him and said: You sit down.when did you come backShijun said: I came back the day before yesterday.Xiao Tong said: There have always been a lot of rumors, what news did you hear in Shanghai?Then talk about the current situation.Shijun didn't admire his opinions at all, he was just an old-fashioned businessman, and his comments were all heard from other businessmen, or they were scraps and pieces from the newspapers.

After Xiaotong analyzed the major national events one by one, he was silent for a while.He never looked at Shijun's face, but at this moment he suddenly said: Why are you so tanned?Shijun smiled and said: "It's probably because I went out to climb mountains every day for the past two days after I came back.Xiao Tong said: You came back this time on leave?Shijun said: "I didn't ask for leave. This time, the Double Tenth Day holiday coincides with Saturday and Sunday. There are several days off."Xiaotong never asked him much about his career, because there was a big break between father and son, just because of his career.So at this point, Xiaotong felt a kind of taboo, and immediately changed the subject and said: "Uncle is dead, do you know?"Shijun originally wanted to say: I heard Mom say it, but temporarily changed it to: I heard it said.

There are a few old elders among their relatives, Xiaotong respects them very much. During the Chinese New Year, when he visits these families to pay New Year's greetings, he always goes with Shijun's mother, although the couple rarely see each other. In this way, it is absolutely impossible for Li Ying to go out together.Now these elders have passed away one by one, and only this uncle is left, and now he is also dead. From then on, Xiao Tong will never go out with his wife to pay New Year's greetings. Xiaotong talked about his uncle's stroke, and said: Xiaotong himself also has a serious problem of high blood pressure. When he mentions his uncle, he can't help but think of himself.He was silent for a while, then said: I don't know where the prescription Dr. Liu prescribed for me is gone, I'll find it tomorrow and buy something to eat.Shijun said, "Why doesn't Dad see Dr. Liu anymore?"Xiaotong always shy away from medical treatment, so he evaded and said: I don't know if this person is still in Nanjing.Shijun said: Yes.He was the one who saw Xiaojian's rash this time.Xiaotong said: Oh?Xiaojian has a rash?Shijun thought to himself, since he also lives in Nanjing, he wants to ask me, a person from Shanghai, about these things, which shows that there is a gap between him and his family.

Xiaotong said: Xiaojian is always sick, and he doesn't know how to raise him well.When I see him, I think of your brother.It's been six years since your brother died!As he spoke, tears suddenly shed.Shijun felt very surprised.When he came back this time, he saw his mother was a little confused. He thought that his mother was old, and now his father was crying to him again. This is also because of old age. It has been six years since my brother died, and my father didn't cry like this when he just died, so why is he so sad again today, six years later?Or he feels that he is old, his brother lost an arm after his death, and his second son refuses to cooperate with him. At this time, he misses the dead, expressing a kind of helpless yearning for the living.

Shijun remained silent.At that moment, he thought of countless things, how his father had treated his mother, and his mother's suffering had cast a shadow over his childhood.He thought of all this to harden his heart. The concubine shouted loudly from upstairs: "Mother Zhang, please listen to the phone, sir!"He was calling Mama Zhang, but he was actually calling him Master directly.Her shout reminded Shijun that he didn't have to feel sorry for his father, as his father had a warm family of his own.Xiaotong stood up and was about to go upstairs to answer the phone, Shijun said: Dad, I'm leaving, I still have something to do.Xiaotong paused for a moment, then said: Okay, let's go.

Shijun walked out with his father, and his concubine's mother smiled at him and said: Second young master, why are you leaving?Are you not eating here?Xiaotong said impatiently: He still has something to do.When he reached the stairs, he turned around and nodded to Shijun, and went upstairs.Shijun left. Back home, his mother asked him: What did Dad tell you?Shijun only said: Speaking of my uncle, he also suffers from high blood pressure, and my father seems to be a little scared himself.Mrs. Shen said: Yes, your father's problem is that he is afraid of stroke.It's not that I curse him, I'm always worried that if you don't come back, I'm afraid you won't be able to see him!Shijun thought in his heart that his father must have thought the same way, that's why he was so sad just now.This time when I came back to Nanjing, my mother never had the chance to shed tears to him because of Shuhui.Unexpectedly, his father cried to him! He asked his mother: How is this family going?Mrs. Shen said: "It's always good. I always ask someone to deliver it on a monthly basis."But don't say I'm cruel, I always think this way, if one day your father dies, what will happen, all his money is in the hands of that woman.Shijun said: Then Dad will always have an arrangement, and he will always guard against such a day. Mrs. Shen smiled bitterly and said: But at that time, he will not be able to make decisions.Everything is in the hands of others, and it is difficult for us to even meet him!I don't necessarily run away like Qin Xuemei's filial piety! Shijun also knew that his mother was not overly concerned.This kind of incident often happens between relatives. The master died at the concubine's place. The wife wanted to carry the body back, but the other side refused to let it be carried. mourning.This is still a trivial matter. In the future, the property issue will really be a headache.I hope he already has the ability to support his mother, sister-in-law and nephew at that time, so he doesn't have to fight with others for family property.Although he had this kind of heart, he didn't want to comfort his mother with empty words, so he only comforted his mother mechanically, saying: Let's not worry about it.Mrs. Shen didn't mention it because it was his last day at home and she wanted everyone to be happy. He left in the car tonight, and accompanied Shuhui to two places during the day, and returned home in the afternoon to have dinner early.The eldest grandma hugged Xiao Jian and smiled: I just got to know my second uncle, but I have to leave again.Next time the second uncle comes back, he will admit his birth again!Mrs. Shen thought: Come back again, it will take another year and a half, the child will have to give birth again.Thinking of this, her eye circles turned red, and she forced a smile and said, "Xiao Jian, why don't you go to Shanghai with your second uncle?"Are you going?The eldest grandma also said: Hello Shanghai!Shall I go with my second uncle?The question was tight, Xiaojian just burrowed into the arms of the young lady, and the young lady smiled and said: "Nothing!"I still want my mother! Shijun and Shuhui didn't bring much luggage when they came this time, but they returned with a full load when they went.In addition to the usual fruits and snacks, Mrs. Shen bought two osmanthus ducks for them. That was the season when osmanthus ducks were on the market.In addition, there was a large box of medicines, which she forced Shijun to take by injection.She was going to send them to the station, but Shijun stopped her.Everyone in the family stood at the gate to see them into the car. Mrs. Shen wiped away her tears with a smile and asked Shijun to write as soon as she arrived. Once on the train, Shijun suddenly felt relaxed.They bought two Shanghai newspapers and read them on the bunk.The train left Nanjing, and the lights of the ancient city gradually faded away.People say that the train of the times is a metaphor, and it really makes sense. The train does seem to pass through an era with vigor and vitality.The atmosphere of the old times in Shijun's house, those tragic characters, and those things that hate shipwrecks have all been left behind.The train rumbled away into the darkness. Shuhui slept in the upper bunk, Shijun was bored below, and saw one of Shuhui's feet hanging over the edge of the bunk, the sole of the leather shoe was covered with a layer of yellow mud, and there was a circle of fluffy grass on the side. crumbs.The so-called tour clogs, is this right?Shijun asked himself that he was really not a good playmate.This time when I came back to Nanjing, I don't know why, but I was always so restless, no matter what I did, I was in a hurry, I just wanted to get away quickly, as if he had another appointment. Arriving in Shanghai early the next morning, Shijun said: Go directly to the factory.He wanted to go earlier, so that he could see Manzhen earlier, without having to wait until dinner time.Shu Hui said, "How about the luggage?"Shijun said: Take it first, and put it in your office.He helped deliver the luggage to Shuhui's office just to see Manzhen.Shuhui said: "It doesn't matter anything else, but these two ducks are so oily that there is nowhere to put them."I still have to send it back.I'll run for a while, you go first. Shijun took the bus to the factory alone, got out of the bus, and looked at his watch until eight o'clock, Manzhen must have not come yet.He wandered about the station.It was still too early, and he also knew that Manzhen would not come for a while, but when people got anxious and counted the time, Shuhui might come soon.If there was Shu Hui in the next bus, wouldn't it be strange to see him, who came three quarters of an hour earlier, still here after jumping off the bus? Thinking of this, he felt a thorn in his back, and immediately turned around and walked towards the factory.There is a fruit stand near the bus stop.Shijun had eaten several oranges on the train just now, and he couldn’t even eat the fruits brought by his family, but he stopped after passing by the fruit stand, bought two oranges, peeled them out immediately, and stood there Eating slowly.After eating the two oranges, he felt that this place really couldn't stay any longer, as Shu Hui would come anytime soon.Moreover, how could Manzhen still not come at this time, if he had come earlier, he was already in the office?He fell here and waited foolishly!Although this idea is extremely unreasonable, he immediately walked to the factory, and this time he walked very quickly. On the way, I suddenly heard someone shouting from behind: Hey!When he turned around, it was Manzhen, with one hand brushing her wind-torn hair, walking towards this side with a smile in the morning sun.As soon as I saw her, I immediately felt my heart open up.She smiled and said: Are you back?Shijun said, "I'm back."There was nothing funny about it, but both of them laughed at the same time.Manzhen said again: Just arrived?Shijun said: Hey, I just got off the train.He didn't tell her he was waiting for her there. Manzhen looked at his face very attentively.Shijun touched his face a little awkwardly, and said with a smile: I don't know if my face was washed carelessly on the train or not.Manzhen laughed and said: No, she sized him up again and said with a smile: You are still like that.I always feel as if you go back and change your appearance.Shijun smiled and said: After so many days, will it change?However, he also felt that he had not only been away for a few days, but had also come back from a far away place. Manzhen said: How is your mother?How is everything at home?Shijun said: "It's all good."Manzhen said: Did they say anything when they saw your box?Shijun smiled and said: I didn't say anything.Manzhen smiled and said: Didn't you say you sorted the boxes well?Shijun smiled and said: No. While walking and talking, Shijun suddenly stopped and said: Manzhen!Manzhen saw that he seemed to be in a dilemma, so he said, "What's the matter?"Shijun fell silent again, and continued walking forward. A series of disasters flashed in her mind: something happened to his family, he was going to quit his job, his family got engaged to him, he fell in love with someone, or an ex-girlfriend, and this time he went back again... met.She asked again, why?He said: Nothing.She fell silent. Shijun said: I didn't bring a raincoat, but it happened to be raining again.Manzhen said: Oh, does it rain in Nanjing?It didn't fall here.Shijun said: "It's okay, it's only been down for one night. Anyway, we always go out to play during the day."But we also went out at night, even on rainy days.He found himself a little incoherent and stopped abruptly. Manzhen really became a little anxious, looked at him and said with a smile: What's wrong with you?Shijun said: Nothing.Manzhen, I have something to tell you.Manzhen said: Tell me.Shijun said: I have something to tell you. In fact, he has already said it.She had heard it too.Her face was completely still, but he could see that she was very happy.A light suddenly shone in this world, and everything could be seen very clearly and accurately.He has never felt so clear in his life, like during an exam, when he sits down and reads the questions, he knows all the answers, and he is so excited, but also feels a strange calm. Manzhen's expression changed suddenly, she smiled and called Mr. Chen, Mr. Chen, the manager of the factory, and walked beside them.They have come to the gate of the factory.Manzhen hurriedly said to Shijun: I am late today, and you are also late.see you later.She hurried in and up the stairs. Of course Shijun was happy, but after thinking over and over all morning, his self-confidence gradually disappeared, and he regretted not being able to speak clearly just now, so that he could get a clearer answer.He always thought that Manzhen was very good with him, but now that she thought about everything she showed her affection for him, she felt that it was not justified, either out of friendship, or just her innocence. During the meal, the three of them were together again, and Manzhen was still talking and laughing as usual, as if nothing had happened.According to Shijun's thinking, even if she doesn't love him, she should react a little to what he said to her this morning, a little embarrassed, a little stiff. He doesn't know what kind of attitude a woman has at this time , but in short, it won't be completely nonchalant, right?If she loves him, then her composure is even more astonishing.It's almost inhuman for women to calm down sometimes.And he can really act.I am afraid that every woman is an actress. After leaving the restaurant, Shuhui went to the cigarette shop to buy a pack of cigarettes. Shijun and Manzhen waited for him at a distance, and Shijun said to her: Manzhen, what I said this morning was too unclear.However, he couldn't speak more clearly for a while.He looked down at the shadows of the two of them in the autumn sun.There were many fallen leaves on the side of the road. He poked through them with his toes, picked up the biggest browned leaf, and stepped on it with a loud croak. Manzhen also avoided looking at him. She looked at Shuhui's back and said: Let's talk about it later.Come to my house later. He came to her house that night.She still has something to do after work. She goes to a place to teach, from six to seven.After dinner, I have to go to another place to make up books for the two children.Shijun is very familiar with her daily program, he can only go to her place during dinner time, maybe he can have a few words with her. He set the time right, and rang the bell at the back door of Gu's house at ten past seven.The Gu family has now rented out the downstairs house, so it was the old lady of a tenant who came to open the door.The maid was cooking, and she was so busy cooking, she just yelled upstairs: Mrs. Gu, you have a guest!So he let Shijun go upstairs alone. Since the last time Shijun brought his friends to look at the house, he has been here once, and he has not been there since, because there are many people in their family, and when a visitor comes, the quiet and avoiding situation makes him feel very uneasy, especially Those children, children are active by nature, there is never a moment of silence when they ping-pong-pong, how can they be so silent. On this day, Shijun heard them talking and laughing upstairs when he was on the stairs.An older child scolded: "It's so noisy!"People are doing their homework here!Books, rulers, and squares were scattered on the table in front of him.Manzhen's grandmother held a pair of chopsticks in her hand, pushed his things aside, and said, "Hey, it's time to close the stall!"Make room for the dishes.The kid just worked on his geometric triangle without looking up. When Manzhen's grandmother turned her head, she saw Shijun, and said with a smile: "Yo, here's a visitor!"Shijun smiled and said: Old lady.He went into the room and saw Manzhen's mother cutting the children's hair, he nodded to her again and said, "Auntie, is Manzhen back yet?"Mrs. Gu smiled and said: She is coming back soon.you sit.I'll pour tea.Shijun kept saying that he didn't dare to do it.Mrs. Gu put down the scissors and poured tea.A child yelled: Mom, my neck is itching!Mrs. Gu said: The dregs of the hair fell out.She picked up his collar, turned it over, and brushed it carefully against the light for a while.Old lady Gu brought a broom and said, "Look at the hair all over the place!"Mrs. Gu hurriedly took the broom and said with a smile: "I'll come, I'll come."This really makes guests sweep the floor!The old lady Gu said: Don't sweep someone's hair!Let Mr. Shen sit over there. Mrs. Gu went to turn on the light, and let Shijun go to the next room.She stood at the door, leaning on the broomstick, and asked him with a smile: "Have you been busy all this time?"After exchanging a few pleasantries, he said, "Let's have dinner with us today."I'm not polite to you if you have nothing to eat!Shijun came here when he was in a hurry to eat, he was really embarrassed, but there was nothing he could do.Mrs. Gu immediately went downstairs to cook, and was busy again because she needed to add some food temporarily. Shijun stood alone in front of the window, looking into the alley, but did not see Manzhen coming back.He knew that Manzhen lived in this room, but the room was full of other people's things, such as her mother's sewing basket, glasses case, and children's basketball shoes.A blown-up photograph of her father hangs on the wall.There was one of her sweaters on a bed, which must have been her bed.Her room was like a boarding house, with no personality.It seems that the only things that really belong to her are the books on the bookshelf.There were magazines, novels, novels in translation, and textbooks she read at school, English books with the spines off.Shi Jun looked over one by one, and found many books he hadn't read, but he thought they were all his books because they belonged to hers. Manzhen is back.She walked in and smiled, "Have you been here for a while?"Shijun smiled and said: Not much time.Manzhen put down the leather bag and books in her hand, the air between the two of them was a bit strange today, she seemed to feel that her every move was being closely watched.With a blushing face, she went to the full-length mirror to get a haircut, then straightened the front of her clothes, and said: Today the tram is really crowded, people are out of shape, and the socks are dirty.Shijun also came to look in the mirror, and said with a smile: Look, I went to Nanjing, did I get tanned?He stood behind Manzhen and looked in the mirror, standing too close, he didn't see whether his face was tanned, but he saw that Manzhen's face was red. Manzhen looked at him perfunctorily, and said: It's always like this when the sun is exposed to the sun. It turns red first, and it takes two days to turn black.When she said this, Shijun realized that he was also blushing. Manzhen leaned over to check her socks, and suddenly said, "It's broken!"They are all crowded by trams, which really doesn't count!She took out another pair of socks from the drawer, ran to the next room to change, closed the door, and left Shijun alone in the room.He was very uneasy, wondering if she was a little unhappy.He took out a book from the bookshelf to read, and just as he took it out, Manzhen had already opened the door and smiled at him: Come to eat. A round table was full, and Manzhen sat diagonally across from Shijun.Shijun felt that he had dinner at the same table with her today, but someone was always with him, and he was getting farther and farther away from her.He is really a bit resentful. Mrs. Gu temporarily added a piece of scrambled eggs with preserved eggs, and sent the children to buy some meat with smoked fish sauce, and put these dishes crowdedly on Shijun's side.The old lady Gu still told her daughter-in-law from time to time: You give him some sauced meat.Mrs. Gu laughed and said: I'm afraid that their new recruits don't like other people's cooking. The children didn't say a word, they ate very fast, they finished eating after a while, and went to the table.They have always been somewhat hostile towards Shijun. Seeing their expressions, Manzhen remembered that her sister's fiancé, Zhang Yujin, had come to their house before. At that time, Manzhen was already twelve or thirteen years old, and she hated seeing Yujin very much.Children at that age seem to have the mentality of barbarians in the tribal era, with a strong sense of family, and always think that others are foreign invaders who come to rob their sisters and destroy their families.After dinner, Mrs. Gu wiped the table with a rag, and asked Manzhen: You should sit over there.Manzhen said to Shijun: Let's go over there, let them study here, the lights here are brighter. Manzhen first poured Shijun a cup of tea.After sitting down, she picked up the pair of silk stockings that she just changed, and patched up the broken place.Shijun said: "Aren't you tired? After coming back for a while, you've been busy all the time."Manzhen said: If I don't do it, my mother will do it.She is also tired enough, cooking and washing clothes, everything is her.Shijun said: "You used to have a young lady here, but now you don't need it?"Manzhen said: Do you mean Ah Bao?Already quit her.When you saw her, she was still helping us because she couldn't find a job for a while. She lowered her head to mend her socks, her hair was all thrown to the front, revealing a soft and greasy neck.Shijun paced back and forth in the room, walked past her, and really wanted to bend down and kiss her neck.But of course he didn't.He just stroked her hair.Manzhen didn't seem to feel it, she still lowered her head to mend the socks, but she held the needle in her hand, and she didn't know where it went, so she accidentally pricked her hand.She didn't say anything, she saw a small bead of blood coagulated on her finger, and she wiped it on her handkerchief. Shijun kept looking at the clock and said: You have to go out again in a while.Should I go too?He felt very disappointed.She is so busy that she hardly has a chance to talk to her. She has to wait until Saturday, and today is only Monday. How to spend this long week.Manzhen said: Sit down for a while, and walk together when I leave.Shijun suddenly came to his senses, and said, "I'll take you there."What car do you take?Manzhen said: There are not many roads, I often walk there.She was putting a piece of thread into her mouth to bite it off, with a silk thread between her teeth, she smiled at Shijun.Shijun suddenly gave birth to endless hope. Manzhen stood up and looked in the mirror, put on a coat, Shijun held the book for her, and they went out together. Walking into the alley, Manzhen remembered that her sister used to go out for a walk with Yujin sometimes, also after dinner.Manzhen and the children in the alley often followed them, clamoring and nailing them.Although her sister and Yu Jin ignored them, they were embarrassed to show displeasure, and there was always a smile on their faces.Thinking about it now, she felt that she was really unforgivable, especially because her sister and Yu Jin's marriage did not succeed in the end. Their sweet time was not long, and there was really not much time. Shijun said: I am so happy this morning.Manzhen smiled and said: Really?You look like you've been very unhappy.Shijun smiled and said: That was later.Then I thought I misunderstood you.Manzhen didn't say anything.In the semi-darkness, she could only hear her giggling.Shijun didn't feel relieved until this time. He takes her hand.Manzhen said: Your hands are so cold.Don't you feel cold?Shijun said: It's okay.not cold.Manzhen said: It was already a bit cold when I came back just now, and it's getting colder now.This conversation between them is completely night effect.Under the night, he held her hand.Both of them had an indescribable feeling. Most of the shops on the road are closed.Across the way there was a big yellow moon hanging low over the street, exactly like a street lamp.The moon is particularly human today.It seemed to rise from the boundless sea of ​​people. Shijun said: I am too bad at talking, I just want to be like Shuhui.Manzhen said: Shuhui is not a bad person, but sometimes I really hate him because he gives you a feeling of inferiority.Shijun smiled and said: I admit that my inferiority complex is also a shortcoming of mine.My shortcomings are too many, but the advantages are not at all.Manzhen smiled and said: Really?Shijun said: Really.But now I think again, maybe there is always something good about me, otherwise why are you being nice to me?Manzhen just laughed, and said for a long time: Anyway, you always say what you have to say.Shijun said: You mean I'm a fake?Manzhen said: Say you can speak. Shijun said: "The day before I left, you came to our place. Later, Shuhui's mother said: I can't imagine that such an honest person as Shijun would snatch Shuhui's girlfriend away."Manzhen smiled and said: Oh?I'll never be ashamed to go there again.Shijun smiled and said: Then I regret telling you.Manzhen said: Did she say that in front of Shu Hui?Shijun said: No, she was talking to Shuhui's father behind her back, and I just overheard it.I find it ridiculous.I always thought that falling in love should be a very natural thing, why is it always like fighting a war.What to grab or not to grab.I don't think Shuhui will rob me.Manzhen smiled and said: You will not rob him, will you? Shijun paused for a moment, then smiled and said: I think some women might like to be beaten to the bone for her, but you are no different from them.Manzhen smiled and said: This is not about fighting.Fortunately, Shuhui doesn't like me, otherwise you would have walked away without saying a word.I'll never know what happened.Shijun was speechless. Just now when he passed by a fruit stand that was lit up for a night market, he put her hand down, and now he held her hand tightly again.But she broke free and said with a smile: "It's almost there, maybe they can see it from the window."Shijun said: Then go back two steps. They walked back again.Shijun said: If I knew that you wanted me to snatch it, I would snatch you over no matter what.Manzhen couldn't help laughing, and said: Who will rob you?Shijun said: Anyway, no one should think about it.Manzhen smiled and said: I will never know whether you are really stupid or pretending to be stupid.Shijun said: In the future you will know that I am really stupid, and you will regret it.Manzhen said: I will not regret it unless you regret it. Shijun wanted to kiss her, but she turned her face away and only kissed her hair.He felt her trembling.He said: Are you cold?She shook her head. She rolled up some of his sleeves and looked at his watch.Shijun said: What time is it?It took a while for Manzhen to reply: 8:30.The time has come.Shijun immediately said: "Go quickly, I'll wait for you here."Manzhen said: How can I do that?You can't just stand here for an hour.Shijun said: I will find a place to sit for a while.We seem to have walked past a cafe just now.Manzhen said: There is one in the coffee shop, but it's too late, you should go back.Shijun said: Just leave it alone!Come in!He just urged her to go, but he forgot to let go of her hand, so she couldn't walk two steps, and was pulled back again.Both of them laughed. Then she went away, hurrying to ring the bell.As soon as she rang the bell, Shijun had to run away. A big leaf floated down from the phoenix tree beside the road, like a bird, huh!passed over his head.When it landed on the ground, there were two more clicks, and it slipped smoothly.Shijun walked over slowly, and heard a person shouting: rickshaw!rickshaw!There was no answer for calling from the east end to the west end, which shows that the road is quite desolate at this time. Shijun suddenly remembered that the primary school student she was teaching might be sick and unable to go to class, so she would come out immediately and look for him there.So he walked back and stood for a while on the corner of the road. The moon is getting higher and higher, and the moon is shining on the ground.A rickshaw passed by in the distance, and the swaying headlights creaked and creaked, reminding people of the cold sound of the wind blowing the swing ropes in the quieter night. Kiss her later no matter what. Shijun walked over there again, looking for the small cafe.He recalled Manzhen's contradictions. She was a very sophisticated person, but sometimes she seemed so naive, and sometimes she was too shy.He thought: Maybe it's just because she likes me so much?He couldn't help shaking his heart. It was the first time he had shown a girl that he loved her.It was also the first time that the person he loved happened to love him too.It must be a very common thing that the person he loves also loves him, but for the person who is in the situation, it seems to be a once-in-a-lifetime coincidence.Shijun often hears people talk about how a certain person fell in love, but, for some reason, those things of other people never remind him of him and Manzhen.He believes that things between him and Manzhen are different from others.It was different from everything else that had happened in his own life. When the street turned a corner, I heard the sound of music, and the violin was playing dance music with Eastern European colors.Follow the sound of the music and find the small cafe with red lights inside.An old foreigner with a yellow beard pushed open the glass door and came out. The glass door swings back and forth, sending out a burst of voices and warm air.Shijun stood outside the door, feeling that it was impossible for him to walk into the crowd in such a mood.He is so happy.太劇烈的快樂與太劇烈的悲哀是有相同之點的同樣地需要遠離人群。他只能夠在寒夜的街沿上踟躇著，聽聽音樂。 今天一早就在公共汽車站上等她。後來到她家裏去，她還沒回來，又在她房間裏等她。現在倒又在這兒等她了。 從前他跟她說過，在學校裏讀書的時候，星期六這一天特別高興，因為期待著星期日的到來。他沒有知道他和她最快樂的一段光陰將在期望中度過，而他們的星期日永遠沒有天明。