Chapter 32 31

The next day, I asked the mouse to go to the swimming pool of a hotel halfway up the mountain.Summer is almost over, and the traffic is not very convenient, so there are only about ten people in the swimming pool.And half of them are American tourists who are more enthusiastic about sunbathing than swimming. This hotel was rebuilt from an old nobleman's villa. It has a magnificent courtyard covered with green turf. There is a wall of roses between the swimming pool and the building. Clear sea, harbor and city. After swimming back and forth in the 25-meter swimming pool for several times, the mouse and I sat side by side on the deck chair, drinking cold Coke.When I adjusted my breathing and began to smoke a cigarette, the mouse looked at an American girl who continued to swim in a daze, as if he was quite comfortably alone.

In the clear sky, several jet planes could be seen leaving a frozen white cloud and continuing to fly forward. I feel like there are more planes flying in the sky when I was a kid. The mouse looked up at the sky and said so. Almost all the aircraft of the US military, do you remember, the kind of propeller double-barreled aircraft. P38? No, it's a transport plane.Much bigger than P38.Sometimes it flies so low that even the logo of the Air Force can be seen. Others remember DC6, DC7, and I have seen Cyberjet. Oh so old. Yes, that was during the Eisenhower era.As soon as the cruiser appeared in the port, the streets were full of gendarmes and sailors.Have you seen the military police?

Um. Many things are gone now.Of course I don't like the military I nod. The Seber is an outstanding aircraft!If only it didn't drop napalm, have you ever seen a napalm drop and explode? in war movies. Humans can really come up with all kinds of things.And, those are really well done.In another ten years, we may even miss napalm bombs. I smiled and lit my second cigarette.Do you like airplanes? I used to want to be a pilot.But even if the eyes are broken. real? I like the sky, I can't get tired of looking at it all the time, and when I don't want to look at it, just don't look at it.

The mouse was silent for five minutes, then spoke suddenly. Sometimes there are things you can't stand, like being a rich man, and you want to run away, you know? There is no reason to understand.I said in a daze.But just run away.If you really think so. I guess so.I also think it's best to go to a place I don't know and start everything from scratch, which is not bad. Don't you want to go back to college? It's gone and I don't want to go back. From behind the sunglasses, the mouse again followed the girl who was still swimming. Why not go. I don't know, probably tired of it?However, I have also tried hard, and even I have been unbelievably serious.I have imagined things about others as well as myself, so I was beaten by the police.But when the time came, everyone went back to their places.Only I have nowhere to go back.It's like playing with the wind blowing.

What are you going to do next? The mouse thought as he wiped his feet with a towel. I want to write novels.What do you think? Of course you can write it. Mouse nodded. What kind of novel? Great novel, I mean for myself.I don't think I have any talents, but at least every time I write, if there is nothing that can inspire me, I think it's meaningless, right? Yes. Write for yourself or write for the cicada. cicada? Um. There was a Kennedy coin pendant hanging from the mouse's naked chest, and he played with it for a while. A few years ago, I went to Nara with a girl.In a very hot summer afternoon, we walked on the mountain road for almost three hours.The only objects we met in the middle were wild birds flying away with their shrill cries, or cicadas rolling down on the side of the road and flapping their wings.Because it is too hot.

Not long after we walked, we sat down on a hillside with beautiful summer grass, blowing the comfortable wind and wiping the sweat off our bodies.There is a deep ditch at the bottom of the slope, and in the lush forest on the opposite side, there is an ancient tomb that rises like a small island. It belongs to the former emperor. Have you seen it? I nod. At that time, I thought, why build such a huge thing?Of course, any kind of grave has its meaning, and all kinds of people will die sooner or later. That's it, it taught me a lesson.But, that thing is really too big, and its hugeness often changes a thing in a completely different direction.To be honest, that thing didn't look like a tomb at all.Because on the mountain, the water surface of Haogou is full of frogs and aquatic plants, and there are spider webs beside the railings.

I looked at the ancient tomb silently, listening to the wind blowing across the water.The feelings I felt at that time cannot be expressed in words.No, that's not what you call a mood, it's just like the feeling that your whole body is tightly surrounded.That is to say, cicadas, frogs, spiders, and wind all merge into one and flow into space. After the mouse said this, he drank the cola with all the bubbles gone. Every time I write an article, I think of that summer afternoon and the ancient tombs with dense trees.And think of it this way: If I could write something for cicadas, frogs, spiders, summer grass, and wind, I don't know how great it would be!

When he had finished speaking, the Mouse folded his hands behind his head and silently looked at the sky. So, what did you write? No, not a single line was written, nothing could be written. Really? You are the salt of the earth. ? If the salt loses its potency, substitute something else for the salt. The mouse said so. ◇ When it started to get dark in the evening, we left the swimming pool and walked into the small bar in the hotel with the Italian folk songs of Mandobani, drinking cold beer, and from the wide windows, we could clearly see the lights of the port. How are the girls?

I simply ask. The mouse wiped the foam off its mouth with its fingernails and stared at the ceiling as if lost in thought. To be honest, I didn't intend to mention this to you because it seemed stupid. But you ever wanted to discuss it with me, right? Yes, but after thinking about it all night, I gave up.There are some things in the world that cannot be solved. For example? For example tooth decay.One day it will suddenly hurt, no matter who comes to comfort you, the pain will not stop, so I start to be very angry with myself.And then you can't help but start getting mad at the guys who aren't mad at you, you know?

A little.I said.But think about it!The conditions are the same for everyone.It's like taking a flight with a broken plane, of course there are good luck and bad luck, strong and weak, rich and poor.But no one has superhuman strength, everyone is the same.Those who have something are worried that they will lose it one day, and those who have nothing worry that they will never have anything.Everyone is the same.Therefore, those who awakened earlier should try to become a little bit stronger, at least to put on a show.Is it right?Strong people can't be found anywhere, only people who can pretend to be strong.

Can I ask a question? I nod. Do you really believe that? Um. The mouse was silent for a moment, staring at the glass of beer. Can't you say it's a lie? The mouse said so solemnly. ◇ I drove the mouse home, and then went around to Jay's by myself. Have you talked about it? talked about. That's fine. With that said, Jay put some french fries in front of me.