Chapter 78 5. Topics of life and death

What Nakazawa thinks of is to maintain the family as usual, and at the same time fall in love with the woman he likes outside, and wants to have the stability of the family and the excitement of love at the same time. This may be a common wish of middle-aged and senior men who yearn for love. To be honest, when Jiu Mu first met Rinko, what he thought was that he could have dinner with her occasionally and enjoy the romantic atmosphere, until he gradually developed an inseparable relationship, he never thought that the family would collapse because of this.But now Jiumu's family is facing disintegration.When exactly did this start to happen?Jiu Mu himself didn't know, he only knew that it was irreparable when he found out.

In this state, Nakazawa also said that he envied you, which really troubled him.People envy him the freedom of others, but how do they know that there are countless pains and intolerances that only the person concerned can understand behind it. Of course, Nakazawa doesn't know that Hisaki's family is on the verge of collapse, and he and Rinko are falling into the bottomless hell of love.They thought that just like the popular love TV dramas, they only verbally hurt and comforted each other easily, and in the end it would always bring a happy ending because of honesty or tenderness.If it's the kind of superficial, sensational drama that's dreaming up, that's a problem.

To be clear, Hisaki has no intention of immersing himself in a world that only has a sweet atmosphere.No, if possible, he still thinks, but the state of the two of them has long been unable to return to the past, and they have fallen so deep that they can no longer be controlled by rational conscience. The primitive impulse in the depths of the flesh rushes here and there, writhing in pain. The love after that will be a fatal pill that has no relationship with tenderness and honesty, and when it reaches the end, there will only be collapse or destruction.When he was terrified by this idea all day long, others said they envied him, which not only made him irritated, but even made him a little angry.

The number of people in the lounge gradually increased, and there were almost forty or fifty people. If you die in office, the funeral will be beautiful.As Nakazawa said, although Mizuguchi was released as a subsidiary company, he was still a director of the head office. Therefore, many important people from the publishing industry to the broadcasting and advertising industries showed up. It's a pity to die early, but if you die after retirement, I'm afraid not even half of the guests will come. Jiu Mu looked at the flower baskets around the altar in the mourning hall, and said in a low voice: He was very social.

But people don't come just because they know each other. That's not necessarily true, is it? People are very indifferent to those who have lost their value. But those who come back after death are all true friends! After all, it's still hello. When Nakazawa said this suddenly, Jiumu was puzzled, and Nakazawa's expression narrowed. If it was you, she would definitely come to worship, but I don't have such a person. Will not After Jiu Mu hastily denied it, he realized that he had never imagined such a scene. In case there is anything, you can ask me, otherwise she will be wronged and stay in the corner when she finally came, it's so pitiful!

what words Nakazawa seems to be imagining the scene where Hisaki's wife is the head of mourning and Rinko comes to worship, but in fact that is impossible. Or are you going to let the current her be the mourner? Nakazawa seemed very interested, but Hisaki didn't think about it at all. In short, funerals are like a microcosm of a person's life, and you'd better be careful. I have to go now.Another new guest came in, Jiu Mu stood up. Waiting to go to her place? Even if he denied it, Nakazawa would not believe it, and Jiu Mu remained silent. But you don't really intend to marry that woman, do you?

I? Hengshan and the others are all worried! As expected, Nakazawa heard it from colleagues in the investigation room. Haven't thought about those yet. That's fine, we really don't know what you'll do have no idea? Nothing, that is a thing of the past myself! Seeing Nakazawa's wry smile, Hisaki remembered what happened three years ago. Hisaki was the Minister of Publishing at the time and opposed the publication of a religious book.Although he knew there would be sales, but the taste of publicity was too strong, he thought it would damage the company's image.He originally opposed the practice of giving priority to sales, but as a result of a dispute with the directors who were in favor, he still suspended publication.

At that time, Zhongze was in the sales department, mediating in the middle, it seems that he remembered that incident. that thing is not the same thing as this thing Jiu Mu would like to say that of course it is different, but now he has no enthusiasm for work. Then, let's talk again! Hisaki slightly raised his hand to Nakazawa and walked out of the room. He walked straight to the station and caught a train back to Shibuya. I didn't do any work, I just went to have some incense and drink some beer. Why do I feel so tired? Mizuguchi's death made him depressed, but when meeting Nakazawa and other colleagues, he always felt that he was alienated from everyone and wandering in another world. Perhaps it was the feeling of being out of place or alone that added to his fatigue.

The tram to the city center after eight o'clock in the evening was empty, Hisaki sat on the side seat, and remembered what Nakazawa said just now. You don't really intend to marry her! Nakazawa seemed to ask casually, but maybe he really cared about it. Now, as rumors spread, the two left their families and lived together outside, ignoring the feeling of relatives in society, and buried themselves in a world where there were only two of them.If you can make up your mind to do this, the next thing you think about is marriage. Regardless of whether you can get the blessings around you or not, at least you have to start from the first step of building a new family.

But the strange thing is that Jiu Mu never thought about marrying Rinko and starting a family. Although he thought about expanding the place where he lives now so that there is a place for books, he never thought about entering a new married life. The strange thing is that Rinko is also like this. She has never heard that she has never said that she wants to get married, and Jiu Mu himself has never said anything. Even if they are attracted to each other, why haven't they thought about getting married? Indeed, Rinko's husband would not agree to a divorce right now, and forcibly marrying in this state is a crime of bigamy.The same is true for Jiumu. Although his wife agrees to the divorce, once the divorce becomes a reality, it will be difficult to deal with issues such as property distribution and housing.As long as these issues between the two parties are not resolved, it will not be easy for them to embark on the road to marriage.

Moreover, they both left the family and had exhausted all their energy to live together, and there was no room for further consideration of marriage at all. So it's easier to understand why it's forgotten, but is that really the case? The two of them spent most of their time together, as long as one of them said the word "marriage", they would immediately discuss with each other, but they kept silent about each other, why is that? A voice whispered to Jiu Mu: Maybe both of them are afraid of getting married.