Chapter 99 3. Calm towards death

Rinko started copying Buddhist scriptures a few days ago, but now she stopped writing and stared at the white powder. Just dissolve it in juice and drink it. Rinko didn't say anything, just kept watching, and after a long time, she asked with a dry voice: Is it really possible to die from taking these powders? After drinking it for a minute or two, you die. Hisaki put on his gloves, picked up the medicine wrapper, and poured the powder into a small round container. Kawabata said that this stuff loses its purity when exposed to light or air, and it seems to be best kept in a dark place.Jiu Mu put the unnecessary medicine wrapping paper and tissue paper in another bag, and prepared to burn it or bury it in the soil later.

Just having these is enough. Will it be painful? It might be a little painful, but it's okay as long as we hold on tight and don't let go. Rinko was still looking at the powder in the container, and suddenly asked: Can I drink it in wine? What wine? Definitely the best red wine. should be no problem. I want to hug you and drink wine, you first drink the bright red wine and then pass it to my mouth Rinko, who loves wine, seems to be planning to end her life by drinking bright red wine at the last moment in this world. Just do it! If that was Rinko's wish when he set off on his death journey, he would accept everything.

After determining the way to death, Jiu Mu's heart became more peaceful and peaceful.I feel that my body has been purified from heart to every corner, a transparent body without any worldly desires except waiting for death. Next, the two had to decide where to die, and on this issue they naturally agreed on Karuizawa. Of course, there are also the Kamakura Hotel where the two are burning with passion, and they both vowed never to go home, the Yokohama Hotel where they have had a tryst several times, the Chuzenji Lakeside Hotel that is quiet in the snow, and the Noh stage that they visited during the cherry blossom season The inn at Shuzenji was a memorable and unforgettable place for both of them.

But dying in a place where ordinary people live will bring trouble to the shopkeeper and the people around. If you want to die quietly in the way you want without bothering anyone, the only place is the villa in Karuizawa. Of course, if the two of them die there, Rinko's mother and elder brother will also feel troubled, and I'm afraid they won't live in that villa again, but they are a family after all, and although I feel sorry for them, I can only beg for their forgiveness The last willfulness of two people is for. After deciding to die in Karuizawa, Jiu Mushige vividly remembered the matter of Takero Arishima and Akiko.

It was the rainy season in early summer when they died, and he and Rinko were going to Karuizawa in early autumn.Autumn on the plateau comes early, and now I am afraid that it is already autumn. The corpses of Arishima and Akiko rotted quickly due to the sultry heat and humidity during the rainy season. It seemed that this tragedy could be avoided in autumn. It will only get cooler from now on. Even on a sunny day, the air is cold, and in October, no one goes there except those who live in Karuizawa. Hisaki imagines a peaceful villa where the leaves start to change color. The larch forest has turned yellow, and walking on the only road seems to be walking towards a distant world that has never been seen.

Both Hisaki and Rinko believed that following that path would lead to a quieter world of death. Everything flows slowly but surely toward death, and the body and mind are already so inclined toward death that they are no longer attached to being alive.Even so, the lives of the two are not always repressed, withdrawn and conservative, but more intense in terms of sex. They want to sort out the trivial things around them in the last few days of this world, and then go to the world of death without attachment. The more he thinks this way, the more Jiu Mu wants to court Rinko, and the more Rinko craves his love.

For example, when Jiumu wakes up in the morning and sees Rinko by his side, he will naturally lean towards her, caress her breasts and even her whole body repeatedly, and then combine them together naturally, and after confirming that Rinko has several orgasms, they will embrace and fall asleep .Towards noon they wake up again, play again, and in the evening they can't wait to tangle together in the twilight. People who don't know this kind of insanity day and night must think that they are either shameless or sensual. However, once one abandons the worldly desires such as working to make money and enjoying a rich and colorful life, there is almost nothing worth doing in this world. The only thing left is appetite and sexual desire. All that remains is the sexual desire of a couple.

In this way, you may think that they are extremely energetic sex addicts, but rather than saying that they are challenging sex, it is better to say that they are immersed in sex, and through their indulgence in sex, they can eliminate the anxiety about the imminent death , weakening the vitality of life.People without faith want to meet death with their natural bodies, and there is no other way but to use up the residual energy hidden in their bodies to approach the state of death.As long as the energy originally possessed by the living body is exhausted, the desire to survive will naturally weaken, and eventually one will enter the world of death from the realm of selflessness.

Hisaki and Rinko indulge in sex day and night without getting tired, which can also be said to be a healing work for the body and mind to meet a peaceful death. After sorting out the trivial matters around him, Jiu Mu was still a little worried. he wants to see his wife and daughter again