This work is a collection of twelve short stories.Most of them are after the narrator reaches middle age, the lovers met by chance many years ago, as well as the memories of the scene at that time and the experience of real life.In fact, after many years of unexpected encounters, those grievances and grievances have long since disappeared, and the first feeling is nostalgia.Every little story is the intersection of time and space, because the wind is picked up from the space, and the things last forever with time, and the words can only be expressed from the heart.The author uses the three words of wind, things, and language as the main line, and relies on twelve short stories to tell people: growing up is really a cruel and happy thing, and the lost years and passions are all transformed. Became a peaceful and peaceful life

The first thirty years Kyousuke put on the clogs with the inn's logo on them and walked up a gentle slope.Soon, a fork appeared in front of the road, and one of the more sloping forks led to a slightly higher hill, which was said to have the site of an ancient castle. Kyousuke chose this relatively steep fork in the road. The vines of morning glory creep along the mountain road, sometimes winding between the tree trunks, sometimes winding around the protruding rocks, and the small lavender flowers are dotted among the green leaves in twos and threes.The larch stands tall on the sloping hillside, and its whole body is dyed crimson by the rising sun.The mist surrounding the mountains dissipated piece by piece under the reflection of the morning glow.

The morning air was unimaginably fresh, and Kyousuke's alcohol-intoxicated mind seemed to be much clearer. I heard that doctors in the hospital often use oxygen inhalation to sober up after getting drunk. I don't know if it really works.It seems that the air here has the effect of hangover. To confirm that his head no longer hurts, Kyousuke tried to shake his head two or three times. Because the long-lost old friends reunited after many years, they naturally drank too much.Last night, everyone slept very late, so when Kyousuke went out early in the morning, the hotel room was still full of snoring.

On one side of the road is a lingering small river. Although the river is narrow, the water volume is unexpectedly rich.Not far away, where the river widens, there is an old tree bent into a 7-shape on the bank, with branches stretching out to the water.The leaves formed a lot of shadows on the water surface, which just built a rare habitat for the small fish, each one of which was about to move with its mouth open. Kyousuke opened his eyes, and suddenly noticed a white figure walking down the slope.Upon closer inspection, it turned out to be a woman in a natural wool-colored dress. Speaking of nearby hotels, there was only the Green Water Hotel where Kyousuke and the others stayed, so Kyousuke concluded that the person in the white dress was one of his friends.The moment Kyousuke hesitated, the man walked over, and Kyousuke finally recognized that it was Mr. Koide.Kyousuke stopped in his tracks.

boss is getting closer Kyousuke waited for her to approach The breeze in the early morning brought back the distant memories, and there was such a scene a long time ago. However, it was on the street at that time, and the setting sun shone warmly on everyone.Both of them were so young at that time, no matter whether it was Kyousuke or the boss, there was infinite time extending to the future, and time was so pure. Today, everything has changed. The boss noticed Kyosuke standing by the roadside, and nodded hastily but gracefully to say hello, then as if explaining something, a faint smile appeared on the corner of his mouth.Maybe the boss thinks it's a bit embarrassing to be seen by someone when he goes out for a walk early in the morning.

Out for a walk? Hey, yeah. Is there something on it? Nothing but stones from a castle ruins. At the banquet last night, everyone drank to their heart's content and mingled with each other. After drinking for three rounds, old friends formed a small circle to chat about the past.Kyousuke joined the circle where the head son was.Sitting on his knees, the boss moved his knees to Kyosuke's side and asked: You came here from Tokyo, right? Yes. Kyousuke works for a magazine, and the son of the boss seems to have ambitions of becoming a journalist.So the boss asked him about work again, you are a magazine reporter, what kind of work do you do?And Kyousuke, who was drunk, seemed to be very unclear about his answer.

Thinking of this, Kyousuke asked: Is your child in college? Yes, a sophomore in college. Zongzi has dark eyes, long eyelashes, and the kind of eyes that don't dodge or be timid when looking at people, obviously retaining the impression of Girls' Generation.Kyousuke had already noticed this last night. You live in Tokyo too. I live in Machida, in the suburban countryside. However, it has been developing very well recently. But if compared with the downtown area of ​​Tokyo, The words stopped here, and the boss also stopped and stared at the calm water.It looked like he was waiting for Kyousuke to say something, but maybe it was just Kyousuke's own thoughts.

There is a question that has been buried in my heart for a long time. I can see you this time, and I think I must ask you for advice.Kyousuke smiled shyly.Kyousuke didn't come to the reunion of old classmates just to ask this question, but if he can see the boss, he must ask clearly. This is also Kyousuke's original idea. What's the problem, you say. Seeing the somewhat surprised expression of the boss, Kyosuke hesitated for a moment, but it was impossible to stop there since the point had already been said.I'm afraid there will be no such opportunities in the future. Please don't worry too much, in fact, there is nothing special.I'm just more interested in human psychology. Kyousuke's tone was full of excuses.

What When I was very young, I used to like you. ah The boss laughed out loud. If he took it seriously, both parties would be in an awkward situation. The boss understood Kyousuke's mood very well, and seemed to know how to deal with it.It's been so long ago, but that's all At that time, I didn't mention it to anyone, maybe it was just my wishful thinking, and it was love at first sight. I am sorry.I remember that at that time, even in the same class, male students and female students seldom talked to each other. yes.And I'm not in the same class as you. I always watch you quietly when others are not paying attention. I don't know if you felt my presence at that time. I just want to ask you this.

Kyosuke clasped his hands behind his head, put on a childish look and waited for the answer, and glanced at the boss from time to time to see her reaction. Thirty years ago, Kyousuke was still studying at Morioka Middle School, and his class at that time was Class D.Last night, at the reunion held at the green water hotel in Shiobara Onsen, it was a classmate of Kyosuke's class C in the same year.Originally, Kyousuke was not supposed to attend, but the student cadres who organized the party in Class C used to work in the same publishing house as Kyousuke, so they advised Kyousuke to come to the party too. It just so happens that you are also going to Sendai on a business trip, why don't you join me as a classmate? Go to the party.It's been 30 years, why are there classes C and D? Everyone is a classmate.

When I came to the Green Water Hotel, just as Kyousuke expected, many people present had only met each other, but they didn't know each other very well.But after chatting, I found that many of them were alumni of the same elementary school, or childhood playmates on the same street, so there was no sense of incompatibility among them, and soon Kyousuke got along with everyone. There are many reasons why Shiobara Onsen was chosen as the location for class reunion instead of Morioka City. Someone said: Many students live in Tokyo, let's choose a place between Tokyo and Morioka. Someone said: We should find a place to stay, so we can have a good drink. Others said: It's so easy to go once, I want to take the fast and comfortable Tohoku Shinkansen train. Especially for the last reason, many female students strongly demanded it. Therefore, after careful consideration, the student cadres who organized the party chose Shiobara Onsen, a tourist attraction between Tokyo and Morioka. For Kyousuke, these were people who had barely been seen since middle school, thirty years.When it comes to change, everyone has changed.Some people have all white hair, and some people have gone bald.The women all exude the majesty of mothers. But the nature of men does not change dramatically with age.After drinking a few cups of dirty wine, they let go of the airs they used to put on in society, and the expressions of their childhood appeared on people's faces again. He was like this when he was a child.This sentence is repeated by old friends who have not reunited for a long time.Perhaps the personality cultivated in youth will accompany a person throughout his life. Back then, the thin girl who won the gold medal in the composition contest married a monk in the temple, and her posture at the dining table was majestic.And boys who like to imitate pop singers are now managers who organize pop bands touring. It is also the first time in 30 years that the boss has reunited with everyone.I didn't find anyone I knew very well at the banquet, so I seemed a bit at a loss. The boss is not from Morioka, but transferred from Tokyo to Morioka when he was in the third grade of junior high school.Both her parents passed away, and she came to Morioka to join her uncle. However, Kyosuke learned about these things during the summer vacation because he was not in the same class. Kyosuke didn't know about these things at the beginning, and even when the boss just transferred to another school, he didn't even notice the existence of such a girl. Until one day, I saw Zongzi for the first time in the corridor. What a beautiful girl! Kyousuke's heart was taken away by this girl. Since then, Kyousuke has always felt that there is something on his mind, and he can't calm down no matter what. Is it really that beautiful? Kyousuke doubted his own eyes a little, and made another observation to confirm his judgment. It really is so beautiful! Kyousuke was very excited. Until a long time later, that is, when Kyosuke went to university and even became a staff member, he thought about this problem many times with a calm heart different from his boyhood: Is she really that pretty? Beautiful things are indeed beautiful, but whenever Kyosuke thinks of Soko, he always has the feeling of a country boy seeing a beautiful girl in Tokyo for the first time, and the beauty is exaggerated. But facts are facts, and in terms of shocking force alone, Soko was the most beautiful girl in Kyousuke's life before or after. Most of the teenage years are of course spent in school, but after school the street is also a playground for children to play.After Kyosuke left the school, he also looked for the figure of the president everywhere, and once found, he would quietly cast a warm look. Although he was expecting the other party's response in his heart, Kyousuke never had the courage to look her in the eyes from the front.I thought to myself: watching her from here is enough for a moment. The thoughts that ignited in my mind are so hot, compared with that gaze, it must be hotter.Just like that, Kyousuke fell into pure, demented unrequited love. In the hot summer, in order to ventilate and cool down, the glass windows on the corridor side of the classroom will be half opened, and the head teacher's seat is right by the window. Every time Kyousuke passed by the corridor, he would never forget to look into the window a few times.Occasionally, the boss would suddenly turn his head to look outside. Did she feel it? It's not surprising to be noticed by her as I quietly watch her all day long.No, it is inevitable to be discovered by her, Kyousuke thought. So what would she think? At this time, Kyousuke was completely lost and didn't know what to do.In fact, the girl's gaze was the same as the light from the round, large but lifeless eyes of the herbivore.Show favor?express uneasiness?Or just a casual glance?Kyousuke couldn't judge at all. It would be great if I could talk to the boss, but I have nothing to do with her, because she is just a girl in the next class.And Kyousuke couldn't think of a suitable topic to talk to. Winter in the northern country came very early, and Kyousuke heard a rumor that after the end of the second semester, the boss would go back to Tokyo to study again. A day or two before the transfer, the president and a girl in the same class were walking in the long corridor of the teaching building, and Kyousuke followed not far behind, staring at the back of the president. This is the last chance to have a word with the boss. Kyousuke thought so, but still didn't have a suitable topic. The girl who was with the boss was very familiar to him, so Kyosuke was quick to think, and inadvertently called out the girl's name. In an instant, Souko turned around before the girl whose name was called, did she already know that Kyousuke was following? By this time, Kyousuke still hadn't found anything to talk to the boss about. Is your week over? In the end, Kyousuke only asked another girl such an innocuous question. Well, it's over. The boss lowered his long eyelashes and listened to their conversation indifferently. Originally, the story should have ended like this. However, it seems that the goddess of fate has developed some kind of mercy on the bitter unrequited love. Two days later, Kyosuke was standing by the mailbox in front of the station, as if looking at the bicycle, but he couldn't remember the scene other than that.However, the scenery on the street that day remained vividly in Kyousuke's memory. The afterglow of the setting sun shone warmly on the road, on the telephone poles, on the mailbox, and on the body. Although it was winter, there was no cold memory in Kyousuke's impression.At that time, the square in front of the station had not yet been renovated, and the main road leading from the square to the commercial street presented a sad vista in the setting sun.Towards the end of the year, the store started a big sale, a group of bands advertising the store passed by, the magician handed out leaflets in dazzling ways, and the children followed behind to watch.The sound of the clarinet in the orchestra lingered in the air and lingered for a long time. Suddenly, a young girl's figure appeared in the crowd. The girl walked towards the mailbox. It's the boss! Holding a letter in his hand, the boss walked across the horse path towards the mailbox. For the sudden appearance of the president, Kyousuke was suddenly confused and didn't know how to deal with it.He could only stand there blankly, staring blankly at the approaching Zongzi. It was impossible for the boss not to notice the person next to the mailbox, but her footsteps were not affected, and her gaze remained as calm as water. If you don't speak again, I'm afraid there will be no chance in the future. Kyousuke's throat throbbed. The boss walked to the mailbox, less than one meter away from Kyousuke. Kyousuke just looked at her profile, waited for her to put the letter into the mailbox, then turned around and left slowly. At that moment, time seemed to be frozen. Kyousuke was still surprised by the appearance of the boss just now, but at another moment, he realized: it's over! The girl's back flashed a few times in the ups and downs of the crowd, and then she was no longer seen.The western sky was ruthlessly reddened by the setting sun, and the sound of the clarinet was carried away by the breeze like a mockery. Then there is no more text. When seeing Soko again after 30 years, Kyousuke no longer felt the breathtaking beauty of the past.Although Zongzi did look younger and more elegant than the women around him, he was not stunningly beautiful. Well, sure enough. Kyousuke was neither surprised nor disappointed, the result was just as he expected. She must have been pretty in her twenties. Whether this is the case or not, it is very pleasant to be able to imagine so freely.Because there is no intersection between the path that Soko walks and the path of Kyousuke's life. Last night, the expression on the head's eyebrows showed some characteristics of Girls' Generation, and Kyosuke was very happy to find these details, and even felt a strange feeling of embarrassment. The president talked about his post-graduation experience in a crisp voice: After graduating from girls' high school in Tokyo, I worked in a department store.Then I found a partner at work and got married, leading a very ordinary life.I don’t know if you understand. My family environment was very complicated when I was in school. My parents passed away, and I was able to continue my studies thanks to the help of relatives from all over the world. Thinking about it, it’s a very miserable situation, but I didn’t suffer much. Now I live a good life Although ordinary is also very happy.The son is in college and the daughter is in high school. After listening to the chief son's narration, Kyousuke learned about her tragic experience, and felt lucky that the ill-fated girl was able to maintain her beauty. Kyousuke also talked about his experiences over the years: After graduating from high school, I was admitted to a university in Tokyo. After I graduated from university, I came to work in this publishing house. I have been working as a magazine editor for more than 20 years.There is a wife, two children. After Kyosuke finished speaking and sat down, the president next to him said to himself, "Are you also in Tokyo?"What is she thinking? After entering high school, the admiration for his son still remained somewhere in Kyousuke's heart, and he even imagined that maybe one day they would meet again on the noisy streets of Tokyo.However, it seems that the goddess of fate has given Kyousuke too many opportunities, but he has not been able to grasp it. Maybe the goddess of fate is tired of it, so the things that Kyousuke fantasizes have never happened Because of the class reunion many years later, the love between men and women who once had old friends rekindled in their hearts, and they fell into extramarital affairs are often encountered in magazines edited by Kyousuke. It can even be said that there are quite a few authors who wrote such articles.However, it is no exaggeration that Kyousuke's admiration for his son is completely different from this.First of all, thirty years is too long, and the relationship between the two people is not close at first, and it can be said that there is no relationship at all, it is just Kyousuke's unrequited love.What occupies Kyousuke's heart now is the same as before, only one-sided, strong curiosity. For a young girl, does she really feel nothing when she is watched by such passionate eyes? No, the boss must be more or less aware of it.At that time, the head son had the feelings of adults who were more mature than Kyousuke and the others. If she realized, what was she thinking at the time?How would she react if I spoke to her? Although he didn't seize the opportunity to get to know her at the time, after so many years, Kyousuke has no regrets. Kyousuke just lamented the intricacies of life.If I had been able to take the initiative to say a word to her when I was next to the postbox, maybe the lives of both of them would be very different from what they are now.Regarding this possibility, Kyousuke wants to further imagine that life is full of divergent paths. In order to prove that there were different paths in front of him, Kyousuke wanted to inquire into the inner thoughts of the girl back then. The morning sun had not yet fully risen and was still lingering along the outline of the ridge, so the line between the sunlit slope and the shadowed slope was very sharp.If you look carefully, you will find that the depths of autumn colors are also different at different heights on the mountain. The top of the mountain has been quietly covered with a layer of gray and withered yellow color. There are a few withered yellow or red leaves floating on the river, which must have drifted down from the top of the mountain. The boss was wearing hotel clogs, and she must have gone out for a walk aimlessly after waking up in the morning. Kyousuke and Soko seemed to be the only ones who walked out of the hotel alone. For helpless girls, everything has to be decided by themselves.Once things come to an end, sometimes even very bold moves are made.Since he doesn't know anything about Soko's life at all, Kyousuke made various guesses about her life. When I was very young, I used to like you. Kyousuke's words expressed his previous feelings to the other party with the weight of facts.But the other party's understanding smile seemed to say that it was not that serious, it was just a past event thirty years ago.Frankly, the laugh subtly lifted both parties out of an awkward situation. I am sorry. This answer from the boss is also very suitable for this occasion, expressing his attitude tactfully. I always watch you quietly when others are not paying attention. I don’t know if you felt my presence at that time. I just want to ask you this.After so many years, I just want to know something about the psychology of people The boss's laughter rose a little more. I see. Such a reaction and answer relieved Kyousuke of his worries. yes.It would be surprising if this were not the case. Looks like this morning was a good morning. I hope my presumptuous question won't trouble you. No, I have already forgotten. Maybe the beautiful girl has long been used to being stared at. But is she really that beautiful? Although the president in the morning hadn't put on makeup yet, Kyousuke felt no different from the one who attended the banquet last night.Fair skin, neat teeth, and the twinkling eyes made Kyousuke's long-lost memories come back to mind. However, Kyousuke still felt a certain alienation. At that time, I just stared at you blankly, and I didn't know how to talk to you.How did I do it!No courage, but also childish self-confidence. ah It would be nice if I could talk to you at that time, but I couldn't find a suitable topic at that time, what a child. I feel like you were out of breath when you spoke. Yes, so you still remember, that's how it is. Hmm, remember a little bit. If I say a word to you, I will be very happy, maybe we will become good friends You said you came to Tokyo later, right? Yeah, I've been in Tokyo since then. I've been in Tokyo too, so it would be interesting if we met in Tokyo. The woman added fuel to the flames. Do you remember the last day? The last day?you mean the last time we met I have no memory, when is it? Kyousuke picked a dried fruit from the tree and threw it into the water. The fish gathered around and sniffed it but refused to eat it. It's next to the mailbox in front of the station, just two days before you're going to transfer schools.I'm standing right next to the mailbox and you're here to mail. Ah, I remember, is that the last day you said? Yes, I remember the scene very clearly.You walked slowly, and I stood by the mailbox, did you notice me? Well, I recognized you halfway, but I can't turn around and go back halfway At that time, did you think: This person is very annoying! No, why would you think that way? The president seemed to still have a little memory of what happened that day, and Kyosuke became eloquent. Life is really interesting. It is only at our age that we begin to have a thorough understanding of many issues.Looking back at the road I have traveled, it is like a net.Among them, only the road that I have really walked is clearly marked with thick and black lines.And other paths are not impossible, but why did we have no choice at the time? Um A little bit of deviation, maybe life will become completely different.Is this incredible, or is it interesting? Um. If I, who was standing by the postbox, had the courage to speak to you, maybe the pattern of my life would have changed later.Maybe the two of us come to Tokyo together and meet up from time to time yes.While nodding, the boss turned his eyes to the distance and said: Compared with other students at that time, I may have somewhat adult thoughts, because after all, I have experienced many things. Yeah, you think more than we do. There are indeed as many paths in life as there are nets, but at that time the woman turned her head to one side and said to herself slowly. Um? There was a very good male classmate in Tokyo. I sent him a very important letter at that time, and I remember it very clearly.