Chapter 6 chapter Five

How long has it been since you stepped into this bedroom that was once their new house?Tang Yu quietly looked at the room that was tightly blocked by thick curtains from sunlight, and asked himself in his heart. At six o'clock in the morning, when he came back here, Mrs. Chen showed an expression of disbelief when she came to open the door, and then she was pleasantly surprised.Since he brought his son back once during the Lunar New Year, until the end of December, he has never set foot here, let alone a bedroom.Three or four years ago, this bedroom had already become Susu's private space, and he no longer entered it.

So standing at the head of the bed and looking at her sleeping soundly at this moment, there was an illusion as if she had passed away. The cloud-like black hair was scattered on the pillow and extended to the edge of the bed, letting the tails of the hair hang down below the edge of the bed.Since her parents passed away, she stopped cutting her hair and let it grow long, and now it has grown to her thighs, and her beautiful black hair has not changed. He quietly opened the thick curtain of one of the windows, carefully preventing the sunlight from shining on the person on the bed, so the dark room was brighter, and then he walked back to the side of the bed, unable to stop his desire to see her.Just because he doesn't love anymore doesn't mean his heart won't throb, otherwise he won't step into this room again, greedily looking at her flawless and jade-like beauty.

For some unknown reason, she suddenly woke up from a deep sleep, and her body's senses felt an uncomfortable dryness attack, unlike the usual complete laziness when waking up, it took a long time to fully wake up. The long eyelashes moved, and the big black and white eyes looked at the ceiling in confusion, blinked, and habitually looked around the room. There must be something different, which made her wake up inexplicably.It's not a natural awakening, it's almost like waking up from a start ah!The tall and slender male figure unexpectedly entered the searching eyes.She fixed her eyes, half-opened her cherry lips, and her movements remained the same as when she first woke up, lying on the pink-blue bed with a charming posture, like a frightened innocent angel.

morning.Before he realized what he was doing, he had put his hands on both sides of her pillow, lowered his head and kissed her lips, holding it slightly open like an invitation. It must have been too long without a woman, he thought.Otherwise, she wouldn't have forgotten how afraid she was of him touching her, and she just wanted to satisfy her own desire. Well, her face was so hot and her body was so hot, she couldn't help panting, she was still so shocked by his sudden appearance that she couldn't react. It wasn't until his lips moved away that she realized that her hands were lightly pressed against his chest, and she hastily retracted them into the quilt, but she couldn't restrain the flushing of her face.His face was so close, so close that I could feel his breath brushing against her face, causing another wave of dryness.

I come to Taichung for business negotiation and will stay for two days, do you mind?he asks. What do you mind?Was he asking if she was okay?She didn't think she had the right to make decisions about him.It's always what he says Is the cut from last time any better?He thought of a small wound on her left hand, pulled off the quilt, and pulled out her hidden left hand for inspection. She sat up, but unexpectedly, the front of the pajamas slid down, revealing a large opening, revealing one shoulder and half of her breasts ah!She screamed, and hurriedly grabbed the front front, so ashamed that she just wanted to dig a hole in the bed.

Tang Yu certainly didn't miss this beautiful scene. When he came back to his senses, he realized that he had stared blankly for a long time.He has hugged her body many times, but the agitation back then was far less than the turmoil in his heart at this moment. Has he really been without a woman for too long?Otherwise, knowing that this woman is colder than wood when hugged, why does she still have a surge of excitement.He had kissed Jiang Zhilan deeply and deeply many times, and caressed so fiercely that he almost went to bed, but he didn't face her with all the violence and uncontrollable intensity like a miserable green boy.

Could this be the main reason why he came to Taichung overnight to deal with business, but in fact he only wanted to see her?He still wants her! I'm going to brush my teeth and wash my face.Xiao Susu, who was almost burned to death by him, whispered, afraid that he would not take off her clothes if he made more movements, right?There's a bed here, and there's a chance he'll do that. You freshen up, I'll wait for you for breakfast.He patted her on the shoulder, turned and walked out.The fear in her eyes cooled all his reveries. Wanting her doesn't mean forcing her.If satisfying his own desires would only cause her more fear, then he would never touch her, maybe just steal a few kisses, it could only be a kiss, at least she didn't seem to reject it.

Could this be the most remarkable improvement between the two?And can't you ask for anything better?he sighed silently Didn't he come to Taichung to negotiate business? After finishing her lunch, she stole a glance at him, she didn't understand why she was in Shanlin Creek at this moment, but she didn't dare to ask. This year's winter is not cold at all, today is December 26th.But the mountains are no better than flat land after all, and the cold air makes people understand that winter does come to Baodao, and it is not something that the woolen coat on her can resist. Breathing out a puff of white smoke, her hands were shaking in her pockets, and then a long coat was draped over her thin shoulders. It was the black velvet coat that he had been hanging on his hands since getting off the car.

She looked up into his deep eyes and forgot to look away for a moment.He slightly hooked the corners of his lips invisibly, and stretched out his hand to help her put on the coat; the sleeves were too long, and he turned two big folds to reveal her pair of green hands. Now is the tulip season, want to see it?He took her hand and walked towards the greenhouse following the directions of the road signs.Since it was not a holiday, there were no people in Shanlinxi.In this area developed into a sightseeing area, there is still a quiet atmosphere, only clouds and mists surround the mountains and forests, forming a kind of illusion and real scenery.

Looking up at his handsome profile, he summoned up his courage and asked: Are you here to work? No.He responds without emotion. what is that?Did he come to Shanlinxi to relax, or to accompany her?Looking at the hand that he had grasped was put into the pocket of his coat, I was a little surprised that I no longer felt repulsed, and I couldn't help but recall the feelings I had when I saw those photos a few days ago. After seven years of husband and wife, his position in her heart is only terrible.He never put himself in his shoes and thought that maybe he also felt pain in the process of harming her.Especially whenever he forced her to face the crowd and fail to join his world, the cold words he gave her might be an expression of frustration and weakness.

Looking back at the lonely him in the photo, and comparing him to the guy who doesn't show his emotions easily, the doubts and fears in his heart gradually became less deep.This person will not harm her, so why is he the person she fears the most in the whole world?Was it because he did to her what any couple would do? She insists on being a little girl, forgetting the ruthlessness of time, so her mature body wraps her immature heart, hiding under the wings of her parents and ignoring the call of growth.He is the hardest person, right? Tired?He stopped and looked down at her panting.Forgot that she seldom goes out, and her physical strength is weaker than ordinary people. Seeing that the greenhouse was already in sight, she let out a sigh of relief: I want to see flowers.Bravely gave him a smile, then walked away timidly.She felt that she was bad and owed him a lot. If she could, she could at least get along with him and not let him feel her fear. OK, let's go inside and rest.A trace of tenderness flashed across his eyes, he didn't quite understand the reason for her change, but he was delighted.It's a pity that her change didn't come from him. That's right, this is a knot in his heart that he can't let go of for a long time. In the huge greenhouse, tulips of various colors are competing to bloom beautifully, proudly showing the figure of the queen, and attracting amazing sighs from the viewers.She took a deep breath, fascinated by the sight.He suddenly remembered that the honeymoon was planned to be in Holland seven years ago, but it was canceled because she was seriously ill for several days, and he finally understood that she didn't want to step out of the door at all.Naturally, the surprise he carefully arranged became a disaster in her eyes. She always felt that this man couldn't wait to harm her, and that the pain in her body was not enough. He also wanted to take her abroad to abuse her Memories bring more and more guilt.She turned around to look at him, but unexpectedly, the clod protruding from her feet tripped her, causing her to fall back firmly into his arms. Be careful, the ground here is not level.He hugged her into his arms, and smoothed her loose long hair. It's beautiful here.She whispered in his arms. You are more beautiful, he whispered in his heart.After strolling around with her arms around her without words, he helped her sit in the rest area outside and ordered two cups of hot black tea. The climate on the mountain has always been unstable, and it was only when the sun showed its face that the next moment, it was immediately covered with dark clouds, and the drizzle fell without warning.Outside the shed is no longer just clouds and mist curling up, but real misty rain, and the chill is even worse than before. Cold?He sat on her side, hugged her back against his chest, hugged her tightly with his arms, wrapped her cold little hands with his thick palms, and didn't stand still until they warmed up. you are so kind to me.she whispered. Was it his non-interruption, or the non-erotic nurturing, like her parents did? should.That's all he could answer.As long as he doesn't want to play the role of a husband, but is content to guard without any affection between men and women, he will be a good man in her mind.She doesn't need a husband at all. But he just wanted to be her husband and be accepted by her. Why did you bring me here?she asked. Because you are no longer afraid to go out.There are not many people here, so it is suitable for you.Relying on an inexplicable impulse, he came up.Originally, others should be listening to the briefing in the branch at this moment, but now the shareholders have another crime to make things difficult for him, accusing a president who put his employees down. Thank you.There was a sweet feeling in her heart, she didn't understand why this happened, but she welcomed it wholeheartedly.He wasn't scary at all. She was so bad before that she thought him a bad person. In fact, when he didn't take off her clothes, everything was unbelievably good. It has been too long since her parents passed away, and she has not received warmth for too long. Her empty heart almost forgot how happy it is to be cherished. Now someone loves her so much, which makes her very touched.He is a nice guy! Because of the excitement in her heart, she raised her head and kissed him on the cheek, just like kissing her own parents. Under his stunned gaze, she smiled and said: You are as good as my parents. The drizzle gradually turned into torrential rain, which hindered the planned return trip that day.The mountain road at night is not easy to drive, let alone in the rainy night, no matter how good your skills are, you should not take risks. So they stayed at a hotel in Cedarwood Creek. On the mountain at night, it is several times colder than during the day.After taking a bath, Xiao Susu immediately got under the warm quilt, shivering from the cold air. I'm sorry, I know that you will sleep in bed, but I can't let you go home and sleep.Don't be afraid, I live in the next room, if you have any questions, you can come to me.He waited for her to come out of the shower, saw that it was time for her to go to bed, went to the bedside and pulled the quilt for her, and then planned to leave her bedroom. I will be afraid! The lights won't turn off, don't be afraid.He stepped back and sat on the edge of her bed, remembering that it took her a month to get used to their newly married bedroom, and now putting her in a strange place seemed to kill her.So he had no choice but to say again: Close your eyes, I will wait until you fall asleep before leaving. She shook her head, and looked at the gorgeous room anxiously. Every strange decoration made her tremble. In the end, she only dared to fix her eyes on him, and he was the only one she was familiar with.The fear of him seemed trivial in comparison at the moment.Don't think that you will go, I dare not close my eyes. Tang Yu stretched out his hand to caress her face, and felt the caress of her attachment. I am not your parents, even if you gave me the same trust as your parents, I am still a man not related to you by blood.The only relationship we have is husband and wife, and it just makes me do things to you that you're afraid of, not purely protective. Does he mean that if they sleep on the same bed, he will definitely take off her clothes and press her down? But we're divorced, and I know that divorced couples won't be intimate any more. She stutters to point out the facts. We are not yet officially divorced.He caressed her small white mouth with his fingers. She shook her head, her voice choked with sobs: You get mad, and every time we did that, you got so mad, and once slammed the door so loud.I don't get why you're all so horrible afterward if what we did was what you wanted?I'm afraid you'll be angry, do you have to take off my clothes before we can sleep together?This is her doubt for many years.The discomfort during intimacy is far less than one-thousandth of his terrifying anger.He was so angry, why did he do it to her again?So later she thought that after sleeping in separate rooms, it was the real relief for the two of them.She doesn't have to cry and pretend to be uncomfortable just to avoid this kind of thing. Every first time between them represented misfortune, and the vicious circle continued, he looked deeply at her crying face. If, afterward, I don't get angry, does everything become bearable?Inquiring softly, waiting for her response with bated breath, the other hand resting on her pillow quietly clenched into a fist. She looked at him in bewilderment, not understanding why he looked full of anticipation, his eyes suddenly became so bright, as if two fires were burning, and then her whole body became tense with tension. I thought her mouth was dry, so she swallowed: probably, because the only times that really hurt me were the first few times, and it wasn't actually painful in the future, it was just uncomfortable. That's enough! Suddenly, he lowered his head and kissed her deeply, and promised under her widened stare: I will stay tonight. Thank you for the change in his face, full of aggression like that on the wedding night that year.She swallowed again, feeling that she had become a dish of food being placed in front of the diners who had been hungry for three days and three nights.He he thinks? Don't be afraid of me, Susu, please don't be afraid of me. He slipped into the quilt, hugged her carefully, put his hands gently into her robe, and slowly caressed her delicate body without daring to exert any force. You will be angry that she murmurs, and her whole body trembles for no reason. No, I promise not tonight.He kisses her. The clothes of the two of them slipped from the bed to the floor one by one, and the man's panting breath filled the gorgeous suite, and soon joined in the soft moans In a strange night, a new experience was explored. The cold wind and rain outside gradually subsided, and the stars quietly revealed a glimmer of light, sprinkled with gentle silvery white, witnessing this strange night. The night was of course peculiar.A couple who have been married for seven years, have a son, and have signed a divorce agreement, unexpectedly enjoyed the real happiness of wedding ceremony tonight. The nightmare of that night seven years ago is officially gone at this moment. Tang Yu and Xiao Susu finally became a real couple. It has been a week since I came back from Cedar Creek.Same as previous years, the alternation of the new year and the old year is just a change of a new calendar. There is no sudden change, and everything is normal. Let the days rise and fall, day and night alternately race as before, Flipping the fleeting years. What has changed is the mood. Xiao Susu always fell into deep thought, thinking about her own changes, searching for the reasons, and then letting self-contempt and self-hate emerge in her silent heart.Because every time the conclusion is the same: she used Tang Yu. Seven years ago, she could not accept Tang Yu because her parents were still alive, and they built a warm world for her without wind and rain. The persecuted self-pity and self-pity, unwilling to think about his badness, is actually good to her, and it is a normal behavior of a husband to his wife. But now, she actually changed her mind about him.After thinking about it, the answer is unbearable Because her parents passed away, she lost her support and had no place to seek warmth and compassion. She was lonely for many years, eager to seek another selfless devotion, so Tang Yu was accepted by her body, because She wants him to be her pillar, and wants to get the long-lost warmth from him. It must be like that, otherwise how could she explain the absolute rejection seven years ago, but the full acceptance seven years later?In the past, she simply regarded love as daunting, because even if the pain was gone, she could only let him invade her body stiffly; there was no other feeling to speak of except for endurance.However, that night in Shanlinxi, she experienced a trembling passion, peeped into the palace of lust, and under his guidance, her senses reached an almost unbearable tremor and explosion, which she never knew would be A passion that exists in the world. Originally, she thought that it was inevitable for all human beings to have body entanglement, because children must be produced in this way.But she was wrong, getting a baby is not the main reason people do that, otherwise there wouldn't be so many contraceptive devices invented. She felt so ashamed, how was she different from her parents?Back then, her parents used Tang Yu to take care of her orphans, but now she uses him and accepts him because of her extreme loneliness.She is twenty-seven years old, and she walked out of the ivory tower built by her parents not to seek a solid tower to live in again, and then live her own life with peace of mind.She didn't have this idea, but she was doing such a behavior, how could it not make her feel despised and disgusted to death? Can't use him anymore, he spent seven years for her, could it be possible to use his goodness to tie him up now that he is aware of his goodness?No way!She can't be that mean.And just as Fei Fan said, she should decide her own destiny by herself, whether it is good or bad, she should bear it by herself, if she falls down, she can at most get up again.A toddler will never learn to walk on his own if he is always supported. So she can't bother Tang Yu anymore, and she can't think of him too often after he came back from Shanlinxi, and her heart will always be filled with his figure.It must be trying to rely on him to do this, just like her parents who only cared about her in her previous life. She will not allow this situation to continue, the divorced man and woman have nothing to do with each other, but he still asks a servant to take care of her daily life and give her the safest and most complete care, which is already too good for her to be ashamed of , must not try to squeeze more from him, he has no obligation to let her get whatever she wants. The pain in her heart is nothing more than the fear of her own incompetence, but this fear must be ignored, because there will inevitably be more in the future, and she should be responsible for herself. Madam, your phone number.Mrs. Chen tapped on the open door, reported to Xiao Susu in the sun room, and handed over the wireless receiver. After thanking Mrs. Chen, her heart was beating wildly, as if it was about to jump out of her heart, she quickly held it with one hand, and then carefully said: Hello?is it him?will it be him Susu, I'm Du Feifan. I'm back in Taichung now. There will be a charity fundraising performance at Chunhui Qizhi School tomorrow. Do you want to go together?Her eager voice came through. Fifan?Oh well, there won't be many people, right?I can't explain why I suddenly lost something in my heart. Won't.Don't worry even if there are many people, no one will force you to smile.Anyway, everyone doesn't recognize it, so it's okay to eat, eat, and watch. There are many people who care about others, and we are not the hosts, so we have to deal with the idlers.By the way, where were you last Thursday?Originally, I was in Taichung at that time, and I was going to drink tea with you, but Mrs. Chen told me that you had gone out.That's great, you've been very courageous and strong, and you're not afraid to go out alone. No, she confessed in a low voice. ah?Do you have friends?Du Feifan cried out in surprise. It wasn't Xiao Susu's softer response. Fortunately, there seemed to be someone beside Du Feifan on the other end of the phone, who kept calling her, forcing her to close the line early: Oops, I can't hear you!Anyway, we'll talk again when we meet tomorrow, I'm going to be busy now, bye. Slowly put down the microphone, Yu Yu's heart is still depressed. You must cheer up! It's just where does the feeling of waiting in my heart come from?If something is lost, why? I came to the villa in Yangmingshan to have dinner with my mother, only to understand the overly excited tone on the phone.It turned out that his mother invited Zhou Yunxi, the daughter of Shi Bo, who grew up with him as a childhood sweetheart, as his surprise. Long time no see, Yun Xi.He greeted with a faint smile. Zhou Yunxi spread out a flowery smile, stood up and turned around in front of him: How? Is there any stance of a strong woman? Of course, Mr. Zhou has heard more than once how well you manage the American branch, which is really amazing.He led her to sit down at the dining table together. Yes, and too busy to have a boyfriend.You, Zhou Shibo, called her back to the country this time, partly for a blind date, to see if you can find a good husband for her.well!It's a pity that our Tang family doesn't have this blessing.Mrs. Tang looked left and right with a smile on her face, her tone clearly expressing her intentions. Ever since she learned from Wang Li's lawyer that her son was going through a divorce process, her desire to find a woman who was really suitable for him suddenly became high.I am extremely glad that my son is finally free, and he is no longer obsessed with a relationship that cannot repay him. In her mind, Zhou Yunxi is a very suitable candidate.Renmei has a good figure and good education and knowledge, not to mention she has always been secretly in love with Tang Yu.If Tang Yu hadn't been madly infatuated with Xiao Susu more than seven years ago, and broke Zhou Yunxi's heart by impatiently getting married, and couldn't help but go away, the ending should have been different.Originally, the parents of both parties had always been optimistic about this couple, and secretly decided to wait for Zhou Yunxi to propose marriage after graduating from university. Unfortunately, a stunning beauty was killed on the way, which changed the situation and wasted many people's beautiful youth. Tang Yu understood his mother's hints in his heart, did not speak, and ate in silence, his mind was full of thoughts on his wife; he didn't want to let himself have too much desire, but he couldn't restrain it. Have no feelings?Then why did he sink deeply when he touched her body?If it is purely based on the mutual needs of love between men and women, it would be self-deceiving.Recently, I have been busy with business affairs, so I hardly have time and I don't want to think about it. However, it is impossible for people to be busy all the time, so many things that I don't want to analyze are all in my mind in my spare time. Brother Tang, I haven't seen my sister-in-law for a long time. How is she?There are many kinds of news circulating in the upper class. According to the most reliable news authority, his wife was extremely weak and bedridden for many years, which caused Tang Yu to exile her alone in Taichung and did not go back often. Tang Yu smiled: she's fine. Yeah, they're all doing well.Mrs. Tang interjected. I haven't been back in years and I heard you guys had a beautiful baby, I really want to see it.The sister-in-law is so beautiful, and the child she gave birth to must be even more beautiful.There was a trace of loneliness in her tone. Come come come!I have photos here. My Xiaoqian is so beautiful, she looks like a golden boy in front of a Bodhisattva who came to reincarnate!Mrs. Tang quickly took out the small gold necklace that was placed in the pocket of her coat. Inside the pendant were her two treasures: the photos of Tang Yu and Tang Xueqian, displayed in front of Zhou Yunxi like a treasure. Zhou Yunxi watched deeply, and was slightly surprised that Xiao Susu's beautiful figure did not exist in the photo.Could it be that the rumors outside are really close to the truth?That's why Tang's mother tried her best to invite her here today, and she always meant something in her conversation.So can she take advantage of Tang Yu's waking moment to invade his vacant heart?Can she keep this expectation? Since she became sensible, she has been secretly in love with him; seven years ago, she left because of his marriage.Being out of sight does not mean that she can really find her heart. Now that she is twenty-nine years old, she is still alone, which is enough to show that her attachment to him remains unchanged. Is it God's favor this time that she is infatuated? The beautiful little boy in the photo is amazingly good-looking. He is indeed the product of handsome men and beautiful women. If she can also give birth to Tang Yu's child, she must not be inferior, right?Perhaps even better than Xiao Sususheng's.Competitive heart gradually rises, if she becomes Brother Tang's wife It's beautiful, it's a pity I didn't have a second one.Be careful to hide temptation in your tone. That's right, but Susu was frightened by the dystocia.That girl is weak, I hope my next daughter-in-law will experience it mom.Tang Yu yelled in a deep voice, stopping Mrs. Tang from saying something that would bring hope to others. What does that mean?Zhou Yunxi's heart was beating fast by Mrs. Tang's implication, and she had no time to pay attention to Tang Yu's displeased face.Is Mrs. Tang about to tell her that Big Brother Tang has Cough, it's nothing, I just said that you can get together more when you have time, and it's rare to come back, so it's appropriate to ask Tang Yu to accompany you more.Mrs. Tang, who doted on her son to the point of hopelessness, naturally obeyed her son's orders, and was so obedient that she couldn't bear to disobey them.Since her son is not happy about her mentioning it, then she doesn't say anything, just show it with actions. Anyway, divorce is a fact. As long as the son has the heart, he can hook hands casually, and there will be a large number of famous ladies and ladies who will love him to death.He will definitely find a woman he truly loves among them. Of course, if that woman is Yunxi, it is the best, because looking at the upper class, there are not many marriageable and beautiful ladies. I believe my son's eyes will be sharp this time. One point, find a woman who can really live a happy life with him as his wife. Sneaking Zhou Yunxi an encouraging smile, Mrs. Tang smiled happily. Maybe Xueqian will have younger brothers and sisters to accompany him soon, so he won't be lonely, that's really good. Tang Yu politely chatted with Tong Yunxi for a few words, took advantage of the end of dinner to leave, went back to the room, and threw himself on the bed.The center of his mind is full of Susu's figure, and the situation of Shanlinxi getting along with each other in those two days. Immediately after returning to Taipei, he and Shi Zhongcheng went to Japan to deal with a contract issue, and did not return to Taiwan until yesterday. I miss her, but I don't allow myself to go south impulsively to see her. A moment of passion does not mean that everything has turned for the better.She was able to respond to his enthusiasm that night, maybe it can only be said that she finally understood the human affairs, just like the girls who got married at the age of twelve or thirteen in ancient times, most of them did not understand their customs until they were twenty. So the response of the body does not mean that the heart agrees. He used to be too extravagant, so he was desperate again and again. What else does he want?Be a fool again?Knowing that she only regards him as a good person, a dependent relative like her dearest parents.He couldn't take advantage of her body as he was currently her only advantage.If she doesn't love him and doesn't have love for him, he shouldn't do it again. He is just as good a person as her parents in her heart. Can't do it again, no matter how much he longs for her body and her love. Find out What I long for is the most floating feelings I really look forward to I wish it could be your love Let the doubts you once had turn to dust Get back the freedom of two hearts