Chapter 7 ■Sun Moonlight Huadan Fudanxi

Today is March 12th, the fifty-first anniversary of the death of the founding father and my eighteenth birthday. Being at school all day, there must be a lot of excitement.I have a drawer full of presents from my buddies.At noon, I, Juer, Xiaojing, Mao Mao, Deng, Xiaosu, Xiaogui, and Agui first went to the welfare club to eat, and then each took a popsicle to hang out on the playground, regardless of the eyes of the sophomore picket Well, the school stipulates that food must be eaten in the welfare agency to prevent people from throwing confetti. The sky is blue again, the sweetgum next to Jing Xuetang will never let us forget the things we were young, and the oranges are making noises on the sidelines. Next Saturday, I will go to Yangmingshan to see maple trees, skip half-day class, wear uniforms and go out of the house, carrying The schoolbag full of picnic candy, Xiaojing smiled and said casually, I also laughed, but I was more thinking of the vast and boundless blue, not the bright blue of the sky, but royal blue, and the sparkling waves, that distant ocean .

When I got home, Xiaohan and Yiyang had already arrived, and my uncle brought cakes. After a noisy night, I went upstairs quietly by myself.I thought, at the age of eighteen, there must be something earth-shattering.I sat at the desk and chatted face to face with the father of the country. I always believed that we have one thing in common, not Hubirhan, love, and country that Yiyang said with a smile. I worked hard to the death, just like you, I hope that the heavenly father can give me an experience in the future, let me put aside love, and then be as solid as the father of the country, dedicate my life to the country, I hope this kind of prayer is not blood, not a kind of revenge Missing my crabapple leaf concept, I could have done something, yes.

Really, when I think about it carefully, I can't let go of many entanglements now, but in college, when I come into contact with a wider and bigger new world, I will do that, and lay a deep foundation like another. , encountering love is inevitable, I only hope that the heavenly father will give me an experience, so that I can put it aside and walk the path I should go. I believe in Hubierhan, a Chinese child who was born on the day the father of the country died When it is, it must be extraordinary. I organize the photos at night and put them in the album that Carlo gave me. High school life is worth remembering forever. When I open it, it’s really sunny and blue sky. I want to cry when I see it. Maybe I will be a lonely person in the future. A strong man, but in the dead of night, I will not forget to sip tea, lie on the rocking chair and think, when I was young!

Today is my eighteenth birthday, and this is the end of my diary. Thinking of the last paragraph in Deselle's diary on the eve of her coronation as Queen of Sweden, I can't write any more. Dad, French citizen Claire.Quiet Ni.This is the end of Daisley's story, and tomorrow is another new day.Good night, Dad.That diary was given to her by her father on her sixteenth birthday, her father said, to write the story of a French citizen.Now I can't write anymore, I hope I can feel like her, decisively and truly, but I will do what I should do in the future. Went to bed early. Good night Father, Dad, Mom.

I struggled in bed for a long time in the morning, but I still got up. Today is the first flag-raising ceremony since the beginning of school, and it is worth commemorating. Recently, my heart is very floating, and the weather is getting warmer, especially the Three People's Principles, English, and history. I always don’t listen to it. I just look at the gentlemen with my chin. Among them, I like the eyes of the English teacher the most. They are really sharp, like Uberliner. Yes, but he is very shy. I think of what my mother said. The Japanese now have a new word, Romantic gray, which refers to the kind of middle-aged people in their 40s and 50s. They have a considerable career foundation and social experience. , people are stable and rich, their hair is mostly gray, and there is another kind of richness, the gray that young girls like nowadays, Romantic gray, but I shouldn't be so conformist!Simply don’t want this, miss Fanny, think I am Fanny, the days of Marseille’s spring river and moonlit night are gone, but deep down in my heart, I still miss it, I like this kind of miss, it makes me feel that everything is true I have been there, but I have been there before, so I will no longer, because it is enough, the blue ocean with waves, Marseille is a distant thing for me, but I will bury them in the bottom of my young heart, go The way I should go, let me tell you again, Chinese children who were born on the day the father of the nation died will be extraordinary, well, it’s time to study, don’t keep pretending that you didn’t see the father of the nation frowning at you on the wall in front of the classroom !

In the evening, I went to Taiying with Carlo to watch the test films, one was The 14, and the other was The Man on Snow and Ice. I have actually watched The 14 once, but Carlo hasn't watched it yet, so it's worth watching it again with her. Evil, one, social insurance.2. Total national employment.3. Inflated economy.I asked my grandfather what these three evils were, and my grandfather made it clear in three sentences. Social insurance isolates the human body from the wind, frost, rain and snow of nature.Gross wage-labour cuts off human life from the vast cultural dimension.The expansionary economy is to isolate people from the plain side of things.This reminds me of the twenty-seventh chapter of the Biyanlu of Zen Buddhism, Yunmen body reveals the golden wind, the original text is as follows:

Example: A monk asked Zen Master Yunmen: What happens when a tree withers and leaves fall? Yunmen said: The body reveals the golden wind. I asked my grandpa, what would be the answer to Indian Buddhism?Grandpa said that in Indian Buddhism, extinction should be a joy, while in Zen Buddhism, the golden wind is revealed in the body, which is completely Chinese.In the Old Testament, there is also Noah who came out of the ark after the flood receded in the beginning. He was like the golden wind on his body when the leaves fell from the trees, and this is how the new world began.Civilization is born of man's sense of nature.If the temperature of bathing soup cannot be measured by hand, but must be measured with a cold and heat meter, this means that the human body is cut off from nature, and all constructions will become inhospitable and unable to become civilized.Children from poor families have always had aspirations. Ambition is born in thin clothes and frugal food. The body is grateful for the stars, moon, wind and dew of nature. In the poem, there are flowers when the flowers are cold, the heat of summer and the lotus wind, the beginning of autumn and the winter solstice, can be felt by the human body. Dear, but modern people live indoors where the temperature of the air conditioner and heating is adjusted, and the body is first isolated from the seasonal solar terms.People don't look at the moon anymore.The people who founded the country in history all showed their golden style.A great hero is both noble and happy, but he often has to worry about food and clothing.He and the contemporary patriots naturally enjoy each other, but he is bound to be insulted by villains.He is exposed in the will and breath of nature, so when he perceives the luck of history, he will perceive the luck of nature without reason.

I struggled for a long time in the morning, because the first class had to take the Chinese language test, and I had to memorize this lesson. God knows I came back too late yesterday, tired, and didn’t recite a single word, but I still went to school and memorized it in the car. When I arrived at school, I just finished memorizing it. As a result, I scored 99 points in the test, and my confidence in my memory increased greatly. I had nothing to do all day. I went to the activity center to eat popsicles at noon, and watched the junior high school basketball practice. I should think of Joe and the cat, but I didn’t feel anything at all. I stayed out of it, maybe.

I fell asleep without reading a book, watched the cold current, and now it is getting better and better, and there is no stereotyped smell of such things in the usual way, which is rare. At night, I covered myself with a new satin quilt made by my mother, but in the middle of the night, it started to rain. I sat up straight, and muttered in a daze, the rain outside the curtain was gurgling, and the spring was fading. Cold, I don't know that I am a guest in my dream, and I am greedy for joy all day long.Don't lean on the railing alone, there are infinite mountains and rivers, it is easy to see other times, but it is difficult to see others, and the spring will go when the water falls and the flowers fall, it is heaven and earth!Falling asleep after reading, like a dream, a cool and distant thing.

When I got home from school, I found out that Uncle Lu passed away last night from stomach cancer.I lay down on the window sill of the bedroom to look at Uncle Lu’s house. Their balcony was green again, and the climbing vines were as full as every spring. I listened attentively, and I seemed to be able to hear Uncle Lu speaking with that thick Zhejiang accent. Teach Junjun to sing children's songs.My Uncle Lu! The first time I saw Uncle Lu, I was five years old.My mother took us to a church in Jingmei. Uncle Lu was dressed in a black robe with a bright cross chain hanging on his knees. He always knelt down and crossed himself before the altar.My lollipop fell, and he knelt down to help me pick it up, blowing the dust on it, and handing it to me.

The second time I saw Uncle Lu was at Yangmingshan.Uncle Lu carried me on his shoulders as a striker, and rushed to the mountainside without panting.We were waiting for other people on the top of the mountain, and I was still riding on his shoulders, the wind was blowing strongly, looking at the little people down the mountain, I felt really great. I will often see Uncle Lu in the future.He and Aunt Xindai also moved into our village, and we always like to go to their house.In winter, we sat on the pile of quilts and teased Bobo the cat; in summer, the small room was stuffy and hot, so we huddled in front of the small electric fan that my mother said was a flyweight. Later they moved to an apartment house down the street.Uncle Lu said that he likes to eat the dishes made by his mother, so they always come on Sunday evenings. Aunt Xindai rides a bright and green mini car, and Uncle Lu rides a squeaky old car. Bought from the garage, that made us secretly laugh all night. We love climbing and want to explore a new trail on our own every time.Uncle Lu always took a wooden stick to lead the way ahead. He was sweating profusely and often handed us a few small red strawberries that were not easy to find in the lush grass. We used them to dye our lips. Uncle Lu always wiped the heat from his glasses. Watch us laugh. Later, with Junjun, Uncle Lu still wanted to take the lead while carrying him, but Aunt Xindai was afraid that the long mowing reeds would hurt Junjun's tender cheeks, so Uncle Lu walked behind and let Dad drive. I will never forget that once Uncle Lu was far behind, and it took us a long time to see their small figures far away when we arrived at the waterfall.After the picnic, everyone lay down on the spot and basked in the sun. Junjun wanted to cling to others, so Uncle Lu had to carry him and stand on a big rock. I looked up at them and saw Uncle Lu panting slightly. There was no wind, but I felt that Uncle Lu was standing on a windy hill, standing tall and straight against the sky.I don't know if Junjun feels great, he is so small!But I don't think it's a problem for him, anyway, he will understand when he is older. Later, our two families went to Jingmei as neighbors together.At that time, there was no telephone at home, and boys often called Uncle Lu’s house. Every time he went to pick up Uncle Lu, even if he was reading manuscripts in the living room, he would pretend to go to the yard to water the flowers and plants. Pull the weeds, lest I be uncomfortable.I often want to talk to him as I did when I was a child, but I am always afraid that this kind of deliberate conversation will appear alien, and there are too many new things in the young world to distract me, so I always hang up the phone , smiled with Uncle Lu and left. Once he hung up the phone in frustration and walked out of the living room. Uncle Lu, who was loosening soil in the yard, suddenly raised his head and asked, "Why is it so fast today?"His lenses were whitened by the heat, and it turned out to be a hazy scene.Then he smiled again, and continued to work with his head down. For a while, I only thought he was the lonely old father in the godfather who was lonely at his daughter's wedding. Every time my mother comes back from Rong Zong, she always tells me how Uncle Lu is so thin now. I always like to say that I am busy with homework in the third year of high school, so I should go to see Uncle Lu next Sunday.I felt sad again when I went back to the study. Uncle Lu’s study was facing my window, and the climbing vines on their balcony had only a few withered red leaves left.I always don't think about the sickness described by my mother. In my heart, Uncle Lu will always stand on the hill. Although he is panting, there is a gentleman on his shoulders. Uncle Lu went very peacefully, I believe his life in heaven must be like this, standing tall and straight against the wind, so great!I think Junjun will understand when he grows up. I skipped class for no reason, hid in the library and wanted to read English, but in the end I couldn't help but took out the Puyi that my father bought yesterday.Autobiography of Aixinjueluo.This book is really good. Not only is it the best in this biography, but it is also literary. I heard that it was written by Lao She for Puyi. No wonder!However, recently, some people in the newspapers have scolded this book, saying that it contains toxins and so on, and I am very angry after reading it. Is it true that good works must be planted in the mouths of these reactionary people who talk about this toxin all day long?I thought of Tianyu who was also banned from the book. In fact, this book is not inferior to Zhang Ailing's Yangge and Chen Ruoxi's Yin County Magistrate in any aspect. However, some people criticized this book for being poisonous. Geng Yanqi speaks Russian to tease kittens, and eats milk and bread sandwiched with eggs. If you think that this will really defeat our anti-communist confidence, the readers are either too superficial and naive, or we have to doubt their intentions.The highest and highest thing in Tianyu is that it surpasses anti-communism. Beyond anti-communism does not mean not to oppose or oppose anti-communism. Ling Geng presents something higher than anti-communism. I can't say it and I can't explain it clearly, but after reading this book, you have to, have to decide that the Communist Party must be opposed and defeated, because there are so many people who are as big as us and have skin color on the other side of the sea. Young people who are as yellow as us, and whose pulses are as hot as ours, they also have ideals and feelings, but they all died under the absurd depression, so unwilling! There is a sentence that I have experienced the most, and it was said by Mr. Lu Yaodong: Do anti-communists still need to register!The real Chinese people today must have the same heart and mind. Everyone wants to overthrow the communist regime and rebuild a prosperous and powerful country that every Chinese can truly enjoy. The blatantly anti-communist stereotyped articles, even if they are badly written, can only give people a concept, oh, we want to oppose the communist party.The same goes for other aspects!Not only in literature, we have confidence in the government of the Republic of China, and we hope that the government will do the same to us. Waiting for his best friend at the school gate after school, for a long time, Xiao Jing was intercepted alone, and it was okay, the two of them went to Southeast Asia together to watch the deep palace grievances.I remember watching it once when I was in the third year of junior high school, and I couldn’t get rid of Stewart Granger’s blue eyes for a week. I thought that at least I would shed some tears this time. Maybe it’s not a big deal, but I still like the ending part, she Never mentioned his name, because he still lives deep in her heart, I like to see her stand facing the wind and receive the cheers of her people, that is what I wish, I hope one day I can stand facing the wind In this world, in the depths of my heart lies my dear and dear young lover. What to do, I haven't read a book for a long time, a book from a textbook.He sleeps all day long, and sleeps for ten hours, but lives happily, thinking that he will definitely enter National Taiwan University and ride a bicycle for four years. In the afternoon, I went to see Ju Ming's woodcarving with Ju'er and Carlo, and met Yiyang, Mao Mao and Lao Wu by accident.Ju Ming is really big, and in China, there are infinite meanings everywhere.In the evening, I went to Guobin to watch Flying Century. I watched it when I was very young. I still remember laughing and falling into my mother’s arms at that time. Go home soon after the movie. Spring break started, and I made an appointment with Carlo early in the morning to study in the library of National Taiwan University School of Medicine. In fact, it was mainly for the scallion chicken drumsticks in the medical school buffet.The green grass and green trees in the medical school didn’t bother me, but my heart was calm. Maybe it’s because Carlo next to me is a type O person. If it’s Tangerine who likes to talk crazy, I don’t know what to swear.Thinking about it, I've been in a really unstable mood recently, messed up, and always offend people with rude words. Before ten o'clock, we anxiously waited outside the restaurant to eat, and we got chicken legs.After eating, I wandered around the campus, and secretly picked out green loquats to eat. It was cold, what!March is going to end like this? Mo Dao scholar empty talk, There were blood spots all over the head. This is a poem left by Deng Tuo before committing suicide in prison.In the past few days, the cold current has reached Yanshan Night Talk, Deng Tuo, Wu  (Japanese + Han), Liao Mosha.Two days ago, Hai Rui was dismissed from office, and Tian Han's Xie Yaohuan was played.I thought of Ding Ling’s conversation in which the sun shines on the Sanggan River before. It’s really overwhelmed. I often don’t understand how people can change so much. I think I’ve always wanted to study history, but how should I look at people?Grandpa said that its history is to be able to communicate with heaven and man, to understand the changes of the past and the present, and to have a bosom friend with a generation of people.The king can be a bosom friend to a generation, but the history can also understand the elegant meaning by listening to the stringed songs. The authentic history and barnyard history in old dramas all have the truth of Chinese civilization. This is the basic condition for becoming a good history.And when one is happy, everyone is happy, and when one is sad, everyone is sad. The people in the play and the audience can be such bosom friends. The likes and dislikes of a generation are the same, and the same is true for sex, the same for emotion, and the same for reason. The place where the world is united.As for historiography?Grandpa said that the predecessors of Chinese historiography have made such good achievements, but we can also have new historiography. New historiography does not lie in inventing and inventing history. Then history has a dark part that can never be invented. The invention part also does not count in the end.The new historiography is to write about things in the past, just like writing about the present, writing about oneself, because people are born in one era and at the same time they are born in many eras.Wu Jizha was optimistic. We not only learned about the past dynasties and future generations of various countries from his words, but also saw Wu Jizha himself.But no matter what, I like the beginning of Romance of the Three Kingdoms the most. It talks about the general trend of the world. Today, I still went to the medical school with Carlo. The two first made an appointment to have breakfast in the green wall behind the school, fried dough sticks and salty soy milk.Carlo said, Doudou came home this morning. Doudou is the male cat I gave her last summer. I don’t know where it went in the spring of this year. I laughed and said that Doudou probably heard Lin Doudou’s name in the cold current at someone’s house yesterday. , It was only late at night that I suddenly dreamed about juvenile affairs! In an alley on Zhongshan South Road, there was a courtyard with big tree branches sticking out of the wall. They were all thick and dry, without a thin branch or leaf. It was very weird. Carlo asked me what kind of tree it was, but I didn’t know. I just remember that when I passed by here by car after school in the summer, there would be a tree with yellow hearts and white flowers, and some would fall on the ground. I always picked up a few flowers and took them home. I thought they were the frangipani flowers mentioned in Zhang Ailing’s comic strips. It's plumeria.Carlo said that there is no such sloppy name, but she believed me.I told Carlo, summer, it will bloom a tree this summer, shall we come and see it then?Carlo smiled.I was thinking, I don’t know what this summer is like, is the phoenix flower also red? After we sat down, the library workers were checking our student ID cards, so Carlo and I had to come out, what should we do?It's half past nine, wait for the buffet!Even though I just had breakfast.The two of them searched out the only two loquat trees in the medical school today. Anyway, they have to gain something when they come here! After lunch, we went to the main campus of National Taiwan University and ate ice cream. The two each ate four, and then went to the activity center to watch the film commemorating the anniversary of the death of President Chiang Kai-shek.After four o'clock, I ate a few packs of Qizhenmei, picked up a few green olives to eat, then stood on Roosevelt Road to look at the kapok, and then went home. Stay at home to study, get up at eleven o'clock, eat and drink, today is another day of finishing. Waking up from the sound of the pattering rain in the morning, I feel that life is really scary. If you can't wait for the car, just go home.Mom thought I was still on spring break and didn't care.Wandering with Xiaolan in my arms, until twelve o'clock to eat lunch, I wandered for a long time, I was too afraid of the wandering days in the third year of high school.Thinking of it, I fell down on the desk and chatted with my heavenly father, and then opened the Bible. It was Psalm 119:65. Those who obey Jehovah’s commands learn knowledge. I couldn’t help laughing when I read it. up! The sun came out today, this kind of day is the best, dry and cool, with the sun and the blue sky, Deng, Xiao Su, and the little ghost came to me with a commemorative book to write.At noon, I hurriedly took Xiaojing and Ju'er to the playground for a walk, the three of them sighed endlessly after walking, I looked at Ju'er's sad face, don't get old, Ju'er!I remember knowing Ju'er because we took homework class in the freshman year of high school. The two of us were assigned to share a sewing machine. The good sewing machine was messed up by us. After seeing her through, I fell in love with her big eyes with deep eyelids and self-smile, and her weird laughter like a spring. In the shady, cool and endless Zhishan Building, I am writing a memorial book, my friend!Never forget Deng's sincerity, the kid's purity, and Xiao Su's contentment.As for the cat, I can only say, the girl I like, let me call you again, dead child, my cat.Where's Carlo?Today we ticked off again and made a vow. She is still in Cambridge, and I am in Missouri. After taking the vow, I feel sad again. Thinking of the vicissitudes of life in Bai Xianyong’s novels, I really dare not think about the life after graduation. , I hope it is a counterattack to the mainland. After school, Xiaojing and Xiaojing rushed to Southeast Asia to see General Patton.After reading it, I hurried home to watch Mencius. In two days, I will have the second mock exam.Tired in a mess, hurriedly said goodnight to Lao Meng and went to bed. When I arrived at school early in the morning, I saw the cat's letter in my drawer. shrimp: The rhododendron has withered, and there are not many days left in the green garden. On the eve of parting, I would like to tell you something. No matter whether you and I are destined to meet again in the future, I hope you will not forget the singing and joy we made up together. When I first saw you, I told myself that I wanted to be friends with this girl with two bright eyes on her face. When I first met, I was attracted by your innocence and optimism. You are a talented person. Girl, your ideals and aspirations are different from others.The days gradually passed with happy laughter, I got to know you more, I like your lovely smile like an angel when you are sincere to others, but I always feel that your friendship to me is so unreal, I don't want to be a friend who is as sweet as honey, but I would like to have an ordinary and real friendship. Whenever I think that I treat you with sincerity, I can't help but think that you treat me with a general attitude. I'm so sad, really, if I never liked you, I don't have to be like this, I feel that what I gave was reciprocated, how contradictory and painful I was during the second year of high school!I think it is better to let our friendship slowly fade away. I have never told you this. I always thought that friends should treat each other with sincerity. This is the most precious friendship. What about you?But I would like to tell you, I'm still fond of you, really, I think, I will always remember the days of Fengxiang Jingxuetang, the warm sun and singing on the long box of Guangfu Building, the youthful days under the bright sun of basketball in Dujuan City Day, and many small tacit understandings in our hearts.The mango tree outside the window is almost bearing fruit, let me tell you. May God Bless you! cat one nine seven six four nine PS I hope to meet you in Fuyuan in the future, and I would like to raise the flag with you again When I was just a little girl It made me cry. Cats are my most caring and affectionate friends, but now we are so polite that we are even worse than strangers. Why was I the one who made trouble and broke things the most since I was a child?I'm always bad.But I don’t want to cry now, I want to think about what the kid wrote to me, I have admired your flash flood wardrobe for a long time, I don’t know when I will be able to watch the grand scene in person, and the poor duck egg, who has worked hard on the podium for a long time, also Can't wake you up from your dream.You always say that I am a little ghost, too pure, and don't let me read that kind of book, it makes me mad every time.That's right, I won't let the little ghost read that kind of book in my whole life. I'm a naughty kid, and I want the little ghost, the little angel, to guide me on my way to the top. Skipped class at home, flustered with reading, but ate another ten packs of five spices, obedient, hugged Xiaolan, Guigui, Maomao, Dandan, Maomao, Nunu, Tiantian successively.Obediently, I was hurt by eating. The mock exam was a mess. After the exam, I rushed to Laoshan to eat home-cooked noodles like a death squad, and then Xiaojing and I went to Southeast Asia to watch the sunset. Regardless of the three subjects tomorrow. I stayed up all night, studying geography, and then I really panicked again!Seventy-four days, look, Mom and Dad, I want to read good books for you, I swear to the presidential palace, but the sky is blue, I went to Zhongshan North Road with Juer, Xiaojing, and Dengdang and forgot to return home.The four of them went to Aidi to listen to the piano again. It was still the broken luthier, but we belonged to old friends under the stars.I said, I have been dreaming under the stars all my life.But I thought that the summer thunderstorm is coming soon, after the thunderstorm in the summer afternoon, there should be a long, cool and green red brick road, let me walk endlessly, and the wind will pick up again, telling me to set up ambitions all the way.No worries. The results of the second mock test were announced. It’s really funny. The mathematics in the class is the last in the school, but the total score of the six subjects is the first. It’s really strange. The class has been famous since the first year of high school. In the second year of high school, they competed for the right to represent the school’s class chorus , and then the province's chorus was excellent, and he was so busy that he didn't care about his homework. When the whole class sang happily all day long, he asked the instructor to worry about us amateur students.However, after being promoted to the third year of high school, another upset broke out, and the homework was quickly taken to the forefront, but the atmosphere was still scattered, especially in the previous weekly meeting, inexplicably won the Order Champion Award, we were from surprise to suspicion. Happily hung the pennant on the grade column of the classroom, and after the second class, the Discipline Office announced that the senior three and the class should return the order champion pennant, because the report of the weekly meeting was wrong, and the senior three and the class were the last first, not from the beginning Number one.The smiles in the class were happier than winning the prize, but they were also very relaxed. It reminded me that there were different people from generation to generation, each leading the way for hundreds of years. Grandpa came back from Japan, and this time he will live there for half a year. Aunt Xindai next door just moved to Yonghe. The house is vacant. Grandpa is going to live in, so we need someone to take care of him.Grandpa lived in Japan for more than 20 years, living a leisurely life, and doing research with physical mathematicians such as Yukawa Hideki and Oka Kiyoshi.When China and Japan broke off diplomatic relations, my grandfather was invited by Mr. Xiaofeng and Mr. Qinglan to return to China to teach. He felt that there was something wrong with the family, and the prodigal son was coming back to visit. Today is the first meal of grandpa at our house. I saw grandpa wearing a fluttering robe. He chatted with us leisurely about knowledge while eating. I like to watch grandpa’s fingers draw lightly and casually on the table. Calling people to be honest, a generation of country is all in it. Thinking of Tang Weizheng's poems, I express my feelings: At the beginning of the competition in the Central Plains, I invested in Rongxuan, but I couldn't make any plans, and my generosity still remained. The stick pays homage to the emperor, drives the horse out of the closed gate, invites tassels to be tied to Nanyue, and goes down to Dongfan with Shi, Yu Yuzhi Gaoxiu, haunting the plains, ancient trees singing cold birds, empty mountains singing night apes, It not only hurts the clairvoyance, but also frightens the soul, is it not afraid of hardships and dangers, deeply cherishing the kindness of the country, Jibu has no two promises, and Hou Yingzhong said that life is full of enthusiasm, and fame and fame will never be judged. Grandpa is so generous, and his ambition is still there, and he pays homage to the emperor.Grandpa is talking about the Tanggu Agreement today, Chen Yingshi, Huang Yingbai, Chiang Kai-shek, and Zhang Qun.I have read Mrs. Huang Yingbai's family biography written by Mrs. Huang and Ms. Shen Yiyun before. At that time, I only thought that Mr. Huang Yu was a good person, but after my grandfather talked about it, I felt that I have a close relationship with him, just like my second uncle in mainland China. Uncle, I haven't seen them, but we are supposed to be together.Grandpa wants me to read Yiyun Memories, it is a very good book, and I am anxious again, not only because I don’t have this book on hand, but also because I think of what Grandpa said, learning depends on immortal fate, and there is also a time character, even if you work hard However, knowledge is like a flower that blooms suddenly when it is time to step on it.It was my destiny to learn when I met my grandfather.Why do I feel that it is time for me! Yesterday was Xiaosu's birthday, and I made it up today.After school at noon, I went to the basement of Far East Company to buy food.The little ghost asked for Weiquan strawberry ice cream, Xiaojing and I wanted Master Du’s chocolate, Ju’er and Deng wanted Swiss chocolate, and cats were fine, and the smell of gunpowder next to the freezer was quite strong for a while.In the end, Xiao Su laughed first. Xiao Su is a birthday star, but she has a bad stomach and can't eat any ice cream. Went to Xiaosu's house to make a fuss again, after eating and drinking, and after taking pictures, everyone lay on Xiaosu's bed reading novels and chatting.I saw Xiao Su Yuyu, and knew she must be thinking about her homework.Xiao Su's father is a professor at National Taiwan University's Institute of Agricultural Chemistry. She was under a lot of pressure. Her brother failed the exam the year before last. Now she feels double pressure. Although Xiao Su and I haven't talked much except for laughing, we know her He really cares about homework, but he is also a person who doesn't work hard. Looking at her appearance leaning against the door, one can't help but feel pity. Xiao Su has become thinner, although she has always been a rare thin and good-looking girl.She and Xiao Ling in the class are both beautiful and thin girls, Xiao Ling is even thinner, with only a pitiful twist in her waist, her face is white and clear, and the thin capillaries can be seen.Juer and I like her very much, especially the way she stumbles when she walks, she is very cute. I always like to think of Xiaoling as a pure and gentle little girl, because she also likes to be ironic about everything, It's not bad, it may be easier to see things this way, but it also makes her lose a lot of good things that may be rare in the world. Tomorrow is Mother's Day, after school, I went to Luoluo to buy that big lion that I planned to give my mother a long time ago!That lion is very cute, lying on its stomach, its thick legs and claws clumsily curled up, its golden fluffy hair hides its smiling eyes, like a Chow Chow dog, But the tongue is pink, sticking out naughty, really naughty.My mother will definitely love it very much. At her age, she still loves dolls and toy dogs. Every time she buys some for us as birthday presents, they will all end up on my mother's bed. My mother was really happy. She hugged the big lion and showed it to others. She couldn’t bear to put it down while she was cooking. I thought of what my grandma often said. When I was a baby, I often fell asleep alone in the stroller. It was parked under the lychee tree on the east wall of my grandmother's house, but my mother nestled upstairs with the cat in her arms, reading novels and fascinated.Mom named the big lion Tingting, which was a big old dog that my mother loved the most.I saw my mother holding the Tingting machine, laughing and making noises, and I didn't feel like my mother.I often feel like an orphan, but it doesn’t mean I’m sad. Like last semester, Ju’er and I often stayed at school to study at night. At seven o’clock, Ju’er must run to the school gate, and her father will deliver hot food for her. Here comes the lunch box.When I came home at nine o’clock, it was miserable and rainy, and Ju’er’s father was always waiting at the school gate to pick her up, and I was the only one walking slowly in front of the empty presidential palace, cold and hungry, like a little beggar, but I was If you are a scholar, think of yourself as Song Lian, and send the miserable Song Lian in Dongyang Ma Shengxu.I often hear classmates talk about the privileges of being a senior high school student at home, such as not having to wash dishes, and I will also come to envy them, because my sister lives on campus, and my sister is busy with activities at school, and I am the only one at home, and my parents often don’t remember I'm a senior in high school, but I'm the only one supporting the family. Thinking about it, I feel like a tragic hero. Today, the tutor reviewed geography for us. She drew a big map of southern Europe on the blackboard, which is the most frustrating.The large blank area in the middle is the Mediterranean Sea, which is a transparent blue sea with sparkling waves. Jin Yumeng, who skipped class the day before yesterday and went to Rixin to watch it for the third time, realized that the Mediterranean Sea during the day is also so blue. Although Carlo said it was a set, but But I don't believe it. Spring river flowers face autumn moon nights, and every summer night in Marseille sapphire blue is in my heart. The class is about to be suspended. Recently, the class is giving souvenirs to the teachers. It is strange that every teacher mentions marriage. When you get married in the future, don’t forget that when you get married in the future, the teacher must wear this necklace.We gave Miss Hong an amber necklace, red.I was thinking, I have been busy loving my Begonia Ye and the heroes of the ancients, how could I have time to fall in love! Today is the last day of the third year of high school, and also the last day of the third year of high school.All day long, I skipped classes and hid in the library. I don’t know if it was to catch some time to read, or I hope that there will be no sentimentality of the last class. I would like everything to be as usual. What a feeling of ending. The horn rang for the end of class, and there was a lot of noise outside. I was sitting by the window on the second floor of the library, and I could see Xiao Gaoyi, who was stunned by the school next to me, erasing the blackboard by the window. I wonder if they love that tree as much as we do. Golden-green sweetgum in the sun.What are Juer and Xiaojing doing now?The last class was English. I don’t know if the class finished it obediently. I hope it will be like usual. Then the English teacher raised his sharp and deep eyes on the podium and smiled helplessly. He was exactly like Sydney Bowdy , and am I the student Julie Christine who admired him?We also have a thick and upturned lower lip.I think of the last scene in the movie My Love, My Teacher, a dance between Julie and Sydney Baldy at the prom. She watches her favorite teacher, the days of schoolgirls biting their nails and telling stories coming to an end.At this moment, I want to sing the respect and love for the teacher like Lulu. I picked up the pen and wrote a letter to the English teacher, thinking about his deep and sharp eyes.I copied another copy of the lyrics of "I love my teacher" to him, and I will also sing it to my favorite teacher: Those schoolgirl days of telling tales and biting nails are gone, But in my mind I know they will still living on and on, But how do you thank someone who has taken you, From crayon to perfume. It isn't easy but I'll try. If you wanted the sky, I'd write write across the sky in letters, That would soar a thousand feet hogh. To sir with love. 有一個夢，忘不了的。 糊里糊塗的就畢業考了。今天一考完，我們三人，橘兒小靜我，就又跑到喜愛迪去聽鋼琴，看台北市的闌珊燈火，我們都不說話了。 畢業考的最後一天。第一堂考完，有個小高一的來傳話，說英文老師中午在光復樓二○四導師休息室等我。下一堂地理考，惶惶的讀不下，只有卡洛放下書本問我怎麼樣。what about一直只有卡洛知道我對英文老師的心情。 我是低著頭進二○四的，也是低著頭出來的，因為他的眼睛太深太利，我不敢看。也不記得英文老師說了些什麼，可能第一個問題約是問我讀得怎麼樣了，我只管低著頭，意外發現自己的白皮鞋不很髒，大約是前天放學時的那場大雨洗的。迷迷濛濛的拿著英文老師的回信走出光復樓二○四，帶上門，我不會忘記的，不會忘記少年時候曾有那麼一個會叫人臉紅心跳的人。 晚上去台映看電影，一是春暉處處，一是仁愛，後面這部片子極好，描述非洲賴索托國內一個黑人小孩和白人小孩的故事，此刻我極想回頭去做小孩，小孩天真無邪，小孩的眼睛比誰都漂亮。 小靜回苗栗了。晚上一連打了兩個長途電話去，一是叫她好好用功讀書別亂跑，一是叫她聽我彈剛找出和弦的金玉盟的主題曲，我也學片中的海倫海絲，把個裝飾音彈得笨笨拙拙的，讓小靜在電話那頭笑沒停。好小靜。 還沒行過畢業典禮，就老覺得有什麼事情沒個了結，讀讀書，心一點都靜不下來。我和橘兒約了到學校圖書館讀，而且她在二樓，我一樓，天人兩隔，免得一聊起天來又一發不可收拾。可是橘兒還是藉故拿幾顆糖下來給我吃，我也拿一朵早上在介壽公園摘的羊蹄甲花給她，橘兒漂亮，適合粉紅色。兩人跑累了，就一起到福利社聊天，要不早早回家。一個人時也讀不下書，想東想西，想傍晚的圓山橋動物園，中山北路，想金山露營，想喜愛迪裡碎碎散散的鋼琴，想和卡洛約定了的夏天到國父紀念館前廣場放風箏，不知可有大鵬鳥的風箏。烈日，汗水，五月的雷雨，涼涼綠綠長長的紅磚路，想小童，奇怪一到這種天我就會想他，或許那是小童乾乾淨淨走出我的世界的季節罷。 也想英文老師，那總叫人怦然心動，想著我走出光復樓二○四時，他利利深深的眼睛。想到他很老師的回信。想，若有一個戰事，我們將在大草原上相會，像齊瓦哥醫生和娜拉，我也將以解人的笑來化開他的保護層，當然他有家的，然而我當然愛他的妻，和子，有人在寫小說了，我且就停筆了罷。 決定不到學校讀了，在家雖然也閒，但是沒看到別的同學的緊張，自己也心安理得多。 最近和爺爺下五子棋，每下必輸，但是爺爺仍說，聰明，我亦老下不厭。爺爺時時都在講學問，昨天中飯說維摩詰，今天晚飯說東坡，說東坡的被謫黃州，被謫黃州與海南島，他的文章才像一枝好花的滿滿開了，這裡超過了人事的成敗，因為時人見此一枝花，如夢相似！英雄美人都是萬民的親人，所以是冤家，在一淘時便這樣那樣都不對，要凌辱他，不在一淘時，又別人不想單想他。史上的英雄美人都是千載後被人想他也想不完。他在時是世人對他，像對一枝花，如夢相似。詩經裡寫美人，委委佗佗，如山如河，象服是宜。英雄美人你何以見了他當下便覺得親？因為你見了他就是見了天地萬物，而且就是見了你自己。你對於這個自己可不知要怎樣才好，如此就懊惱起來了。這不是在夢中嗎？你要敲打出響聲來聽聽，你要咬你自己的手臂看痛與不痛。這就是屈原的何以遭放逐，王昭君的何以不得不出塞了。 爺爺現在每星期六都與我們講易經。先時我只要聽人說易是一占卜之書，總會無端的生起氣來，可是聽了爺爺說占卜之後才懂得這無與有的陰陽變化，處處都開向著未知，處處都是生死成敗之機，連是非善惡亦都是疑問，若要占卜，何時都該卜一卜。爺爺說占卜： 易經的卜卦，是凡好卦都有其不可安心之爻，而凡不好的卦，又都有可以轉機的爻。這裡的骨子仍是在於天地人三爻，有了人的因素在內，遂一切不可逆轉的亦皆是可以逆轉的了。譬如說，困難是損害志氣的，而易經卻說，困，君子以遂志。這並非所謂征服困難，而是對困難也發生了歡喜。凡好事都是從災患才生出來的，如因雨雪而發明了傘笠，有了傘笠乃是可以與雨雪遊戲了。 還有我們也與爺爺一淘玩耍，我們到碧潭的上游去，沿著河堤走一陣子，我們都走在堤防上，看藍藍的天下高高低低的紅磚房子，房子頂的紅瓦上有老貓咪在曬沒完的太陽，有不按牌理出牌亂長的綠草，還有破銅爛鐵，和小人的下門牙，我想。我們還坐渡船過河到對岸，昨天一場雷雨，今天的河水混混滾滾的，船夫猛朝遠遠的上游撐去，我們要到河正對岸呀原來這就是高二時老師日日說的三角測量，我想船夫未必如我一樣約約知道賽因扣賽因，但是他做得又熟又好，真是父說的，不知亦能行。 船到河中央時，突然顛簸得厲害，猛下沉，再又突的向上一掀，我一向有些神經質，這會兒覺得自己是死透了，又活過來了，我抓緊著船沿，尤其感謝的看著依然亮亮的陽光。爺爺說，這些些個像是渡漢水，當下我就呆住了，那原是我夢想過很多回的，可是這會兒不正是嗎？不遼闊的水面上，可以清楚的聽到午後的岸那邊遠遠農家的雞啼，和婦人說話的聲音，真是如在日月山川裡聽不盡的漁樵閒話。我們問船夫這渡船的船費可如何算，船夫正色的答道，一人三元錢，然後仍娓娓道來今年的河水怎樣比往年急些，什麼什麼莊稼今年的收成不好，也沒一點抱怨牢騷的意思，我們亦端坐，靜靜的聽他。在想，我對這江山不也是時人對此一枝花，如夢相似！ 好無聊的畢業典禮，鬧鬧亂亂的，本來只有唱驪歌時有些動容，不過小高二樂隊吹奏得實在破，惹得大夥兒又破涕笑開了。只有我和小靜、橘兒總也覺得沒完，三人固執的去盪，盪到美加美吃冰淇淋聽電子琴。今天情緒不好，電子琴真是一個沒文化的東西！ 橘兒在長智齒，我好像也是，長長停停，痛得要命，可是橘兒那樂觀的本性真是天不怕地不怕，說，這樣也好，聯考前只要能增一些智都是好的。 只剩十八天了，和橘兒兩人約定好好開始過種新日子。果然，今天一早八點就到學校圖書館，卻是都沒吃早點，餓昏了，我一時饞起來又想吃七珍梅和山楂果，橘兒奈不過我，也只好想吃，兩人就千里迢迢跑到遠東百貨去買，卻是公司十點才開門，地下超級市場也得九點半，兩人只好坐在紅磚路邊等，也不聊天了，我想到真的這種日子馬上就要沒了，我是說放學背著書包和小靜、橘兒一起晃蕩回家的日子，而且小靜把中部學校填在前頭，離家近，我和橘兒又都沒填台北以外的學校，尤其橘兒是臺大圖書館第一志願，然後師大，再跳到輔大淡江，我則是臺大除圖館哲學外都填，然後政大，政大完了就淡江，因為我一向對輔大印象不好，橘兒則是很討厭政大，陳明事件使不少同學捨政大不填呢。 兩人各買了兩大包的七珍梅和山楂果一路吃回去，沒吃完，就到教室找貓咪請她吃，沒想到教室有那麼多人，有心心、有佳玲、文英、翠敏和郁秀那群我一向喜歡的可愛好女孩，也有黃玫的那群死黨，明惠、小麗、慧玲、汪汪。清音是回南部念書去了。黃玫她們是緊接著我們這群死黨後頭坐的另群死黨，平常我最喜歡靜靜的在前頭聽她們談話，黃玫是她們都寵的寶寶，慧玲像媽媽，總叮囑她們這個那個，但沒一絲婦人氣，清音就是成天笑個沒完，汪汪是班上最嗲最甜的女孩，長得很媚。最可愛的是明惠，不知怎麼我一直記得很清楚她是獅子座的，大概是她一暴躁起來就跟頭小獅子一樣，但是她的暴躁絕對都是出於她的正直坦白和正義感，所以當了幾任的風紀股長都能當得最嚴而不得罪人，也長得很好看的，有些像嬌嬌張琍敏，不過又還要明艷清爽得多。 我們把蜜餞打開都分了吃，一時氣氛好好，大家都放下書來吃著聊著，我看著她們一張張年輕飛揚的臉，外頭的陽光一寸寸的爬進百葉窗來，還有涼涼軟軟的風，氣象局的那個男的又及時的連打了兩個噴嚏，威力不減當年，我們都笑了，我想我們是很親的，聯考真的把我們不分彼此的湊成一堆共患難的朋友，我將永遠珍惜這段緣的。 吃過中飯就回家了，還是該在家裡讀的，比較靜得下心？其實也不，一回家就抓人昏天黑地的下五子棋，下到傍晚天是緋色的，我就抱小雙雙到院子裡看花，小雙雙是單單在我畢業典禮那天生的一個漂亮的小姑娘，白白長長的鬈毛，眼睛鼻子跟單單一樣的黑亮。我把她認作我的小外甥女，奴奴是我哥哥，單單是我妹妹，奴奴是小雙雙的舅舅。我常覺得無父無母無姊妹，姊姊好像從沒比我大過，總是我的同輩的朋友，雙胞胎都不夠，因為變得太厲害也不像是我的姊姊了。所以我都管奴奴叫哥哥，他帶我走捷徑上小山崗，我拿小石子當投手，他從來都沒漏接過，即使我是大暴投。 聯考愈近好像也愈不真實了，偶爾一焦急起來，就扔得一床書，要不打長途電話到苗栗聽小靜輕輕的笑聲，要不畫時間分配表，結果畫得一抽屜不實行也不慚愧。有時抱狗抱貓晃蕩太久，爸爸也會用商酌的語氣說：去讀讀書怎樣？其實我也有讀書的，讀阿輝的拒絕聯考的小子和紅樓夢。阿輝是和姊姊同屆一淘玩過的，他書中的維維即是姊姊最要好的同學，看完了這書，覺得阿輝做得沒錯，但是我更想去撩一撩大專聯考了。 今天兒是七月一日，只有妹妹陪我去聯考。 坐在公車上，對面有兩個也是考生模樣的女孩，閒閒的坐在那兒玩指甲聊天。我卻緊張了，昨晚半夜快四點了才睡，今天眼睛澀澀的，可是仍然沒命的在翻書，妹妹在一旁勸我：好了，不要那麼緊張，隨便考考就沒事了。我知道的，昨晚媽媽才曉得我老早就放棄了數學，她和爸爸在樓下書房咕咕嘰嘰講了一晚上，盡是嘆氣急躁的聲音，我看她能隨便掛上一個學校念念就算不錯了，這句話說得很大聲，我聽得很清楚，但也不驚，當時還想瀟灑的揮揮衣袖，想到溫瑞安的詩，黃河中的一段： 而春山是愛笑 明天我的路更遠 馬蹄成了蝴蝶 彎弓射箭，走過綠林 我是那上京應考而不讀書的書生 來洛陽是為求看你的倒影 水裡的絕筆，天光裡的遺容 挽絕你小小的消瘦 一瓢飲你小小的豐滿 就是愛情和失戀 使我一首詩又一詩 活得像泰山刻石驚濤裂岸的第一筆 我是那上京應考而不讀書的書生，來洛陽是為求看你的倒影。 考區在弘道國中。我們在中央黨部下車，我仍邊走邊沒命的翻書，妹妹在旁攙著走，我是那上京應考而不讀書的書生，來洛陽是為求看十字路紅燈一亮，妹妹一把拽住了我，放下書喘口氣，才發覺陽光像每一個日子一樣那麼亮，絳紅色的總統府正挺挺的對著我。像很多很多個早晨一樣，然而我好久沒有當那偉大的小兵丁，看著青天白日滿地紅飄飄上藍空了。 這會兒可要發誓嗎？不了，十線道的寬敞大路正向著我，金黃的陽光灑在上頭，而且有風，有風！想到曇花開的夜晚，歲月變得好悠遠，爺爺啜口酒對我說，李世民十八歲就打了天下。我亦要回答爺爺，風起的時候，我就要做那隻大鵬鳥，凌空一飛，飛到那九萬里的高空裡，與天父守著我的海棠葉，其翼，若垂天之雲。 民國六十六年（一九七七）陰曆三月三日