Chapter 5 Four

In the lonely and resentful mood, news came suddenly that my grandfather was seriously ill; this news caused great fluctuations in my family.The mother hurried back to her natal home in a mule cart, and it took about a week before she came back.I brought a lot of things from my grandfather's house, and my brothers and sisters were all given clothes and toys, except for me.I thought, maybe they heard my news and intended to make such an arrangement, so as to show me some embarrassment. In the evening, I saw my mother coming to my study, holding a big paper bag in her hand, and I thought the paper bag was about my share.I didn't even look at it at the time, and my heart became even more angry.I was angry why my mother didn't give it to me in a fair and honest manner. I would never accept this gift in the dark.Besides, I had to avenge the insult to be happy.

Mother put the paper bag on the desk, then walked up to me gently, stroked my face and said: In the past few days, I see that you have lost a lot of weight! Well!I opened a book and avoided his gaze as if nothing had happened. Grandfather is much better!My mother seemed to have seen my mood, and said to me gently: They are all thinking about you, and I hope you will go to their house to play! Thank them!I felt very irritable in my heart. There seemed to be a mocking element in my mother's words. The cousins ​​are very envious of you when they hear your achievements! I endured my mother's trivialities and reluctantly listened.

Especially your cousin, I showed her your composition book, she admires you very much. I remained silent, unable to think of any words to answer her.For some reason, since Sister Alan left, I was very afraid that someone would mention my cousin's name.I even developed a great hatred for this unfamiliar girl, as if she had become Sister Alan's enemy, deliberately playing tricks among us. Moreover, my mother continued to tell me: When I came, Qiuming gave you some of the new books she bought, and she said that you must like these literary works.As she said that, the mother opened the paper bag, and there were really beautifully decorated books inside.The book is really a great temptation to me; immediately, I forgot my displeasure towards her, stood up hastily, and stretched out my hand as if I had acquired some treasure.

These literary and artistic books are probably our favorite extracurricular readings in middle school; the names of many authors, every student who loves literature and art, can memorize them by heart.Because I am busy with other homework, in the library, I often gobble it up and forget it. My mother smiled slightly when she saw my surprised expression.She seemed to see my stubborn character melting in front of these books; or, she was secretly admiring my cousin's clever plan. I felt like I was on an exciting tour in the city of books. In my joy, I picked up a Chinese-translated myth, and when I opened it, it was a poem describing the stars. brilliant.Unknowingly, I raised my head, faced the clear sky outside the window, looked at the clusters of shining stars, and suddenly, Sister Alan's face floated in my heart again.I hastily recited the verses of Manilis Island silently:

Her beautiful braids, shining in the starlight, The bracelet embedded on her arm also looks like a star. On her deeply rumpled garments shine the stars, Snow-white bare feet, stepping on the stars, A pair of eyes radiate divine light, A star was made out of these, and on top of it was a golden tassel. Like a dream, I thought of Sister Alan's usual lively expression again, and felt sad.After a while, I felt my mother pat me on the shoulder and said softly: What are you thinking?Firm white!People are so affectionate, you should also write a letter of thanks? I turned around with tears in my eyes and nodded to my mother: OK!I can write a letter to her.

look!Mother opened the title page of a book and said to me: This was written by Qiumen himself! I watched, and it turned out that on the blank title page of each book, the words Huicun and Jingzhi were written.The font is very beautiful, and my mother laughed and said: People are more beautiful than words!As she said that, she took out a photo from her purse and presented it to me, smiling on purpose, "Take a look, how about Bi Alan?" This is a four-and-a-half-inch color photo, wearing a sky blue student uniform with a lapel.A silver necklace hangs around her neck, and her school's triangular badge hangs on the left side of the neckline.I haven't seen each other for several years, and Qiuming has changed too fast since he was a child; his hair is cut very short, his face is plump like a full moon, his eyes are radiant with tenderness, and there are sweet dimples on his cheeks.

Much better looking than Alan!The mother repeated from the side: Look!What a generous attitude, how refined, how blessed.Unlike Alan, who is pitifully thin and can be blown down by a gust of wind, just like Lin Daiyu in the Dream of the Red Chamber! Speaking of Lin Daiyu, my mother suddenly stopped talking.Probably she remembered the tragic end of the heroine. This kind of metaphor seems to be deliberately despising and cursing her. Yes, the cousin and Alan are really two very different types; from the appearance, we can also see two different personalities.The beauty of Qiuming is like a lotus just about to open, plump and luxurious.Sister Alan is like the orchid grass in the deep valley, delicate and super-vulgar.From the point of view of the natural world, Alan is just like a cold star in the sky, making people think it is crystal clear and lovely; but Qiuming is like a radiant moon.

I think it is very appropriate to compare the moon to my cousin.Is not it?When we look up at the sky, everyone feels warm as if we are bathed in the silver light of the moon.How many people sing and praise it, just like the brilliance of my cousin's youth, our family and relatives, who doesn't like her, hold her high like the moon. As for Sister Alan, under the brilliance of her cousin, she seemed insignificant, as insignificant as a star in the sky, and no one paid much attention to her. Since she left her hometown, everyone seemed to try hard to forget her. However, the moon belongs to everyone.It seems that in my nature, I don't have the character to join in the fun; I just want to find my favorite one among the thousands of stars.I regard it as a confidant, as the only companion in my mind.

Therefore, the advantages of my cousin did not arouse my love; I am still willing to look for my familiar star, sister Alan. Seeing that I was speechless in a daze, my mother understood what I was thinking, sighed, and walked out gently. During this summer vacation, I finished reading the many books my cousin gave me.Sometimes, taking advantage of the convenience of communication, we also discussed our reading experience in letters.She seems to be very accommodating to my wishes. When I am in a restless mood, I often follow my likes and dislikes and express my prejudices through the characters in the novel.However, she was not angry at all, and still talked with me gently.

In this way, I passed the summer vacation quickly, and went back to school with a desolate heart. This is the last year of junior high school. My father used the reason of the graduation year to go to the school in person to negotiate with the director of discipline and education. Without his letter, I will not be allowed to go home.Sometimes my mother missed me, so she had to go to the city to see her. I really wanted to ask her about Alan, but she told me about my cousin, and she planned to ask us to go to the provincial capital to apply for a famous college after graduating from junior high school. high school.