Chapter 16 sixteen

The wind blew away, the haze also blew away, and the sky returned to clear and clear.The sky of love between me and Aurelia has also returned to clarity. We are like two leaves, falling into an abyss so deep, falling, falling, Aurelia threw all the enthusiasm a twenty-six-year-old girl could have on me. Although she didn't like Turgenev, she loved me with the feelings of a girl in his novels.She not only loves me, but also loves the ups and downs of my life, pouring out on my misfortune in the past thirty-three years.For a perishing nation, she has a deep sympathy from the wellspring of her heart.

We hugged each other and wept as we told each other of our nation's tragic fate.We can't tell whether the tears are mixed with sympathy or love; whether this hug is pain or happiness.Or it is not one person embracing another person, but one nation embracing another nation, one nation embracing another nation. Our constant recreation is walking. Slowly passing through one street after another, most of them are quiet spaces with few people.At this time, all the worldly noises disappeared from our ears, and it seemed that only the sound of our footsteps remained in the whole world. On some unbearably beautiful moonlit nights, we took walks in deserted streets.The big moon rises from behind the big forest far away, reflecting the light of the snow on the dense coniferous trees, reflecting a light blue light.The moonlight shines on the blue dome of the Greek church, flashes on its beige wall, and falls on the crystal white snow. It looks extremely gorgeous and quiet. There are so many churches in Tomsk. The ancient Roman-style buildings draw misty reflections on the snow, making us feel a solemn peace.

Moonlight hugged Aurelia's beautiful figure, caressing her bright face and bright eyes.She smiled heartily in the silver light, and her laughter stirred the moonlight.She smiled a silvery moonlight smile. On such moonlit nights, our walks sometimes extend into the middle of the night.At this time, it is spring, and the weather is not as cold as winter.The night is getting darker and darker, our words are getting less and less, most of the time we are silent.Although we didn't say a word, as long as the two warm bodies touch each other from time to time, we feel infinitely happy.She often stops and looks at me mysteriously; her four eyes are intertwined in the moonlight, and the brightness of the moonlight shines in each eye.

The city of Tomsk is surrounded by mountains, with a basin in the middle, and there are many high slopes in the city.Some streets are undulating in waves, and there are several feet of thick snow on the ground, which is frozen and smooth, and it is very difficult to go uphill.Physically speaking, I am far stronger than Ao, so naturally I should support her.But she always likes to support me, like a young mother supporting a toddler.She did this entirely out of a maternal instinct, extremely subconscious.Her tenderness and affection moved me, and I couldn't bear to follow her wishes, so I had no choice but to obey.In this way, every time I go uphill, as long as she stretches out her hand, I have to lean over like a child.Seeing me like this, she froze for a moment, then smiled and handed me her hand as if awakened from a dream.That expression seemed to be beckoning to me:

Come up, my boy! With my body in her arms, I couldn't help looking around. There were only a few people on the street like morning stars, and it was extremely quiet, even quieter than an ancient temple.The doors of every house are closed.Dim yellow light shines through the double windows, occasionally mixed with the faint sound of mandolin Alas, why do we exist?A thought flashed through my mind. Honey, don't make a sound, hold me tight!A thought seemed to flash through the back of her mind. In an instant, the nearby lights and the sound of the mandolin seemed to disappear. Climate change sometimes does not affect our walks.In the middle of the night, the strong wind roared like thousands of tigers and leopards, washing us like a waterfall and hitting us.We were still walking arm in arm, bowing our heads slightly.The night is ferocious and lightless, and we seem to fall into a raging sea, walking on the surging waves with our feet.The wind is constantly roaring, this kind of wind is only found in the area close to the North Pole, it is called cloth chaos in Russian, and big blowing snow in Japanese.It rushed furiously from the Arctic Ocean, and the sound was trembling and terrifying.Our footsteps were completely lost in the wind.We can't say anything, we can only move forward with all our strength.The whole world seems to have collapsed, only the two of us are still alive.

We are the only beings who live in the wind! Woo, woo, woo, woo, woo, the wind howls, howls We suddenly stood still, looked at each other, and suddenly smiled at each other. After leaving Aurelia, I used to spend part of my time in beer shops.There seemed to be nothing worthwhile, tempting me to do, except drink beer.I seldom go to the library, and I start to hate books. When the red wine slid over my lips, a barley aroma stirred in the air, and even my sweat pores seemed to exude an aroma.After being digested by the stomach, the wine is absorbed into the blood vessels, and the whole body becomes extremely warm and soft.The warmth given by sorghum wine or vodka is like an acute bomb that explodes suddenly on a person's body, and the body temperature rises to a high level in an instant.The warmth given by beer is slow, slowly, one at a time, gradually raising the body temperature.

While drinking beer, I stared out the window into the distance. In winter, the excessive cold makes the air-conditioning form a transparent layer like white mist, which is called Duman by the locals.It hangs everywhere, and continuously sprinkles milky white powder like crushed salt, or like small snowdrops, falling on people's faces, which hurts more than needle pricks.Sunlight in winter is rare, and at its most generous, it only shines for about two hours a day.The cold overwhelmed everything.In the distance, in the sea of ​​forests and mountains covered by Duman's net, a piece of milky white appeared vaguely.When the strong wind blew, Lin Hai shook, and the treetops entangled by Duman immediately turned into countless silver lions.Looking, looking, I feel a strange kind of bewilderment and tiredness.Is this how I pay with my life?I ask myself.

It is spring now, the snow has begun to melt, and the trees are gradually revealing green shoots, heralding a beautiful and gentle season.In the distance, the white net of Duman is gone, and the tops of the mountains and trees are shining with brown sunlight.There are more people on the street.Is this spring?I asked myself. There was a burst of noise all around, which made people feel dull.I seem to be hiding in a can. I raise the highball again. My aversion to books and my constant approach to beer foreshadowed that another mood was beginning to interfere with my life. That tomorrow's tomorrow, the vague future, is like a strange and gigantic monster, gradually, from behind the pervasive Duman, from the sound of melting snow, slowly, from hazy to clear, is in the distance Floating out of the forest in the mountains, I stood up straight and walked slowly towards me.No matter how tightly I close my eyes, I still hear its footsteps.

It is time to hear its footsteps. For more than three months, I buried my soul deeply in a kind of dream, in order to resist the emptiness of real life, just as I walked down the street, wrapping my head tightly in the high otter collar of my fur coat, in order to defend myself from the surroundings. Cold wind and severe cold.However, sometimes, a traveler still has to raise his face from his collar to stare at the objects in front of him. Similarly, my secret soul also has to pay attention to everything in the future ahead at this moment.Then, I heard the aforementioned footsteps, and caught a glimpse of the gigantic spirit.Experience has always told me: No matter how hard you try, you can't absolutely simplify your life, simply enjoy, kill, and pay for life, especially for people like me.A lot of complexity is always with you. You can make yourself simple for a while, but you can't be like this forever.From the not-simple changes, I struggled, trying to bring my and Ao's spiritual enjoyment into a simple track, so that after all, I could simply enjoy dreamy happiness.But the complication still awaits me, and it is the twin of the spirit.

How can we make our dreams and the twins live in harmony and harmony? If they suddenly stand before us and ask us for something (which is perfectly justified), how should we answer them? For the first time, I made a sober and profound analysis of my environment. Our world will always be a chaotic and contradictory world.So is our time.The country I'm currently inhabiting temporarily, too.There was a time when it was not so, when a great faith that seemed to unify the mental state of all mankind cleared all chaos.For several years, people were completely free from psychic conflicts.At that time, although I was not here, I was in another dimension and breathed its harmonious atmosphere.But after 1925, especially in the past few years, the situation has changed more and more.The gunshot Mayakovsky fired at his temple was a signal that a new chaos was about to begin.Thousands of people who have shed blood and sweat for this country have been exiled, killed, and thrown into prison.Many pure souls have returned to the contradictory spiritual world.In this atmosphere, my relationship and future with Ao, as long as we think about it, will inevitably cast a shadow.If it was ten years ago, we could combine freely and turn short-lived dreams into eternity. The objective environment here is almost entirely favorable.but now

Our enjoyment of love alone, if it is protracted and bright, it may encounter difficulties. As for eternal union, it is even less possible.Leaving aside my identity and situation, let's take her as an example. In the past few years, the power of reality itself has gradually recovered the traditional pressure on her.The old Russians never forgot that they were the conquerors of Poland.With the development of the current situation, this kind of proud master consciousness will also have an impact on the new generation.It would take three days and three nights to talk about this, and it would be endless.Just stating a fact is enough.Eight years later, the German-Soviet non-aggression agreement further confirmed everything she felt so far.This so-called most progressive country cooperated with Hitler to carve up Poland again.This cruel fact, when I fell in love with O, although there were no signs of shaking people's hearts, many clues rooted in the spirit of Great Slavism have long been sensitive to us and many people in this country, and, It has formed a social force that violates the spirit of its founding.In such a situation, as a Polish girl who was once a subjugated slave, if she wanted to do whatever she wanted and realize her plan of eternal union with me, it must be as difficult as heaven. Because of these, sometimes I feel depressed, and I often drink beer to relieve my worries.I began to feel: the true meaning of happiness is not simple.Naturally, there is also a method, (this is what I have adopted up to this time), to temporarily solve the heavy Duman hanging around us.That is: indulge in the ancient Roman carnival in Pompeii 2,000 years ago.Before the eruption of Mount Vesuvius, this small town can enjoy its festivals. Once the lava explodes, let it be.I am addicted to Aurelia's love, sometimes, with a little bit of this mood.Knowing that the future is likely to blow the horn of Gabriel to me (note), as long as the horn is not sounded, I can still enjoy my carnival one day. "Note Gabriel is the one who plays the horn of doom." " However, my meddling attitude, strictly speaking, the attitude of dancing wildly at the foot of the volcano does not completely bury the less lovely things. Once, when we finally talked about them for the first time, she sat beside me, looking straight at me with her two big sapphire blue eyes, and said excitedly: How to do it!Honey, don't you want to keep happiness by our side forever? I looked at her sometimes sad and sometimes excited face, and had to be serious and calm to make the following analysis. If we want to make happiness into eternity, there are only two choices in front of us.One is: I will stay forever.One is that she will leave here with me in the future, along with her mother. After hearing this, she also calmed down, and she was silent for a while. You stay, maybe?Do they agree?Even if you can stay, what will happen in the future? Without a word, she refers to the atmosphere of near-terror that is pervading the country at the moment. She knows, even in case she these three?There is a most optimistic answer, (in fact, it is rarely possible,) but you have to abandon the cause of the independent revolution of your motherland forever, oh, throw the motherland aside completely.Ah, no, no, this sacrifice is too big for you, I cannot accept it. All that's left is to leave together. Ah, Lin, as long as I can get out of here, I am willing to go with you, and so is my mother.She will never leave me.smiled wryly.Of course, we can stay for a short time when passing through Poland, where some of my relatives are still there. I told her: If we can really leave together, even though I am an exile, as soon as I arrive in China, there is still a way. There is our government-in-exile in city S, and there are some Korean overseas Chinese, some of whom are my relatives.No matter what, there is always a place to stand. However, how to leave the law?Leaving together, the actual terrifying meaning of these four words of happiness is clearer to anyone than the sun. But everyone knows that throughout the ages, no matter what kind of strong love, it can make people dizzy and dizzy, and a person's thoughts often go off track because of this.People have even experienced that this special emotion can also make people create all kinds of special courage, hallucinations, and imagine all kinds of miracles.Miracles are often the only child of the brave.Take me in the past, I have encountered this kind of experience.I remember that once, when I participated in a guerrilla fight with the Japanese army in the Northeast, I was injured in the head.In the dark night, I led a battalion of cavalry and moved to a new position on horseback.Suddenly, the horse stumbled and rolled down the edge of a cut-off wall more than ten feet high. However, at the critical moment, I used a special equestrian skill to perform an assisting movement, and the horse jumped down from a height of three feet knowingly, and finally It landed safely on a flat ground with no one injured.This is a highly courageous harvest on both sides.I also remembered that when Napoleon's navy suffered a defeat in the English Channel, he turned his defeat at sea into a victory on land, and led an army to expedition to Egypt, a country that was completely unfamiliar to him, and achieved brilliant results.It is also the fruit of a high degree of bravery. (Naturally, wisdom must be added.) Receiving such revelations, Au and I continued to study various methods of leaving with the army for the next two weeks. According to the latest news I got, China and Russia are negotiating to resume diplomatic relations. In the future, sooner or later, formal diplomatic relations will be adopted to send our team back to the motherland. As long as I make full preparations, it shouldn't be a problem to hide two outsiders secretly in an army of nearly 20,000 people.The two of them, mother and daughter, can disguise themselves as men, change into military uniforms, and stuff themselves among the tide-like soldiers.You might as well use the excuse that there are sores and inflammations on your face, cover your eyes with gauze, and tie a white bandage around the rest of the body, so that people can't see the true face of Lushan. I will lead her into the car at night, (presumably to avoid Japanese spies. Eyes and ears, always get on the bus at night.) Mixed in among the soldiers, pretended to be sick, and fell asleep all the time.Her mother is an elderly person, and it is relatively easy to pretend to be an old man. You only need to wrap most of your face with a scarf, and fold down the cotton military cap with the front brim to cover your eyes.Once in the car, you can lie down and pretend to be sick without getting up. Regarding food and other issues, as long as I have a good relationship with the soldiers around me, it will not be difficult to solve. The train will arrive in Moscow within a week.It is estimated that the authorities will not send people to the car to stop and check, (even if stopped and checked, they can pass through.) In another week, they can leave the country. As for asking for leave from T Middle School (she doesn’t need to ask for leave at all if our army departs during the summer vacation), she can use the excuse that one of her relatives in Moscow is seriously ill and their mother and daughter have to visit. All their movable assets, including cash, can be exchanged or converted into US dollar bills and gold in the black market first.As for the real estate, she decided to negotiate with Ye Linna's family first, and give it to them at the cheapest price.Her family and the latter have been old friends for many years, and Ye Linna's thinking has always been inclined to the West. No matter in terms of morality or interests, Ye will eventually sympathize with her and support her. Once the above key problems have been solved, the remaining minor difficulties will be easier to overcome. The second Sunday was like the German General Staff Headquarters that launched the First World War. After we worked out all the details of the operation, she was really like a tigress, hanging in my arms, crying with tears and laughter at the same time. : We're really writing a new Sherlock Holmes detective novel, and when the last line is done, that's when our real paradise-on-earth building is complete.ah!Honey!My dear, she is not a Greek Christian, but she drew several crosses on her chest again and again.May God bless us! With that said, we're about to get started.However, negotiations with Ye Linna's family can only be carried out after our army is determined to move out in the future.At that time, there is always some time, let's get this done.From now on, I have to start recruiting officers and soldiers who can help us. I told her that this was my luck: when I was in Northeast China, a wealthy Korean businessman sympathized with the revolution and respected me. He gave me three gold bars in case I needed them.I kept it by my side all the time, not daring to spend it casually.Unexpectedly, it can be useful at this moment. Listening to your past combat stories, you have always been a great soldier.I believe that you will win this battle.Oh, you are fighting this kind of battle for a woman, just like Rome Antony! I laughed too, but didn't cry.Then, I remembered one thing. Oh, we've got to play for a few days before we get into this fight.After that, the days are tense enough, I am afraid that there will no longer be a relaxed mood to play.Didn't you say that in mid-April, the school has spring break, how many days are there?Let's find a temporary reason and try to extend the two-day leave. Let's go to the countryside for a week, shall we?We've never traveled alone before! That's great!I've already thought about it too!to the country!to the country!The beautiful sound of the Tom River is waiting for us! I thought to myself that there were two overcoats, one made of wool and the other made of leather.As the weather warms up, I can sell the parka for a huge sum of money to spend on our honeymoon.