Chapter 18 eighteen

These seven days have been really sweet and happy.Couldn't be any sweeter, and couldn't be happier.In this happiness, even tears and sorrow are sweet.If we die in our arms at this time, we must die sweetly and happily.Once upon a time, I read in the newspaper that a pair of lovers both committed suicide with a smile on their face, and I often wondered why they died so naturally and calmly.Now I suddenly realize: in this situation, death is actually more beautiful and comfortable than life. In Tomsk, I parted ways with Aurelia and promised to see you the next day. When I got back to the shelter, it was almost empty.I was taken aback.While I was amazed, my colleague Colonel A gave me a notice: it was specially issued by General Ma Zhanshan to all senior officers.

Only in this notice did I know what a huge change had taken place during the week I was traveling. At this time, Mr. Yan Huiqing, the Chinese ambassador to Russia, had already arrived in Moscow, and China and Russia had officially resumed diplomatic relations.As a result of the consultation between the Chinese and Russian authorities, it was decided to take the following measures for those of us who retreated from the northeast into Russia: 1. More than 10,000 soldiers and junior officers returned from Russia to Xinjiang. 2. All senior military officers above colonel shall take the train from Tomsk to Moscow, transfer to Poland, and then go to Italy via Germany and Switzerland to return home by sea boat.

3. All the family members of senior military officers will take the train to Vladivostok and return to Shanghai by boat. During this week, junior officers, soldiers, and their families have all set off successively.We, a group of high-ranking officers, must prepare everything within four days and prepare to leave.In other words, apart from today, I can only stay in Tomsk for three more days. Well, I have suffered for several months, and now I am in my early years, and I can go back to my country!Happy event!Happy event! Colonel A was all smiles, stroking the blackboard and brushing his beard with one hand, and yelled at me.

Yes!This is a happy event!happy event! I smiled wryly at him in a daze, not even knowing what I was talking about.I immediately ran to General Ma Zhanshan, and after a few words, I knew that the notice was genuine and not false at all.This legend has been told several times in the past, and now it is confirmed. General Ma's thin face glowed red, and he congratulated me: When you return to Shanghai in the future, your South Korean interim government is there, and you can fully display your ambitions. I couldn't hear his words at all, even if I heard them, I didn't know what he was talking about.

To his surprise, I still stood in front of him and said resolutely: Commander-in-Chief, I cannot leave for four days.Please allow me: Two weeks later, I will return to China from Xinjiang with a large army.At that time, Ma was the commander-in-chief of the Volunteer Army of the Northeast, and we all called him that. What?The horse didn't seem to believe his ears. Without hesitation, I repeated what I had just said. You are crazy! I didn't speak, and insisted on my original intention with silence. You sit down and talk about you!what do you mean? I made up an impromptu excuse, saying that among the more than 10,000 soldiers, a small number were Koreans. They were all the backbone of the Korean Revolution, and I could not leave them.

In fact, I was trying to stall for time.Some things can never be done within four days, but if they can be delayed to two weeks, they may be done.Besides, it would be a dream to force their mother and daughter into the group of senior officers who totaled no more than a hundred or so. After listening to my words, General Ma showed a humorous smile on his thin, proud face. He stroked his thick beard hanging down on both sides, and looked at me sharply. Colonel Lin, in my staff, you have always been a wise and courageous senior staff officer.When it happens to you, why are you confused?Can't you see that Xinjiang is now under the sphere of influence of the Russians. They insist that more than 10,000 people return from Xinjiang and not take the road of Vladivostok, just to keep them in Xinjiang and add capital to the region.Those few Korean soldiers, do you still expect them to return to the Northeast to make revolution one day?Besides, I can't take care of those mid-level and lower-level officers. We are living under the fence at the moment!Only what he said, not what we said.It is already very good to be able to do this.If Russia had strictly maintained neutrality and prevented us from retreating, would we still exist today?As for the senior military officers leading the team, they may give us a little face and let them return to Nanjing freely, but it is hard to say.If you want to be caught in it, is it possible that you must have trouble with yourself?I value your ability, and I would like to borrow it in the future. When I made the list, I decided to ask you to go with us. The journey is fast and comfortable, and you can also visit Germany, Switzerland and Italy!As long as you think about it carefully, you will feel how absurd your thoughts just now are!

General Ma's words made me speechless, and I wanted to explain a few more words. He had already stood up from his chair, waved his hand decisively, and said firmly: That being said, we don't need to talk any more.You're a soldier, and you understand: obedience is a soldier's calling.There are no special accidents in the decision made by the Supreme Command, and it will not be changed casually.There are still four days, you go back and pack your luggage and take care of your personal affairs! I ran straight into the street.I almost want to scream: This is murder!This is murder!

Yes, that's right, it's murder!Kill an innocent pure soul! It doesn't matter if I kill myself, but I must not kill her!This is many times more horrific than ordinary murder.Usually, the slain dies with little pain.But in such a murder, the deceased will first suffer unspeakable pain. Who actually murdered her?Is this country?Sakura Mishima?Is it my home country?Is it Yan Huiqing, is it General Ma?or myself?These many factors each have their share.certainly.I take the greatest responsibility.But I actually want to get away with it and escape far away. My colleagues will still say that this is a kind of happy liberation!

But what should I do?what to do? Thinking wildly, he hurried through one street after another.An hour later, I saw the space where she and I had our first laughing conversation: the café on the corner of Olafest Street.Its bright large glass windows seem to show her smiling blue eyes and oval-shaped white face.I'm starting to calm down.No, I can't waste any more time.Every second is an opportunity to save her and myself, and it must not be wasted in vain. So, General Li Du's chubby face and chubby figure came to my mind.This is a kind general, and I usually get along best.In the Northeast era, I was his staff first. After his troops joined forces with Ma's army and cooperated, I became an officer of the joint command of General Ma Li and Su San.At this moment he is the only star in my sky of misery.

I immediately went back to the shelter. Second seat!I gave a military salute to General Li Du, who was the deputy commander in chief at this time. He returned the military salute and asked me to sit down. What, you don't feel well?Why are you so pale?His kind eyes glanced at me, a little surprised. Yes, not very comfortable. I looked around and saw no one in the room, so I immediately plopped and knelt down in front of him. Deputy seat, please help me!help me!My face is full of tears. He was taken aback.what happen? !Have something to talk about.stand up.Sit down and talk. The situation is really urgent, and I can't care less.Originally, I briefly described my relationship with Aurelia, and then talked about the scene with General Ma two hours ago.

I must take her with me, otherwise, she must die, at least, she will suffer for the rest of her life, and I am committing murder.Please help me, save me! After hearing this, the old general began to smile on his previously nervous face.This piece of laughter does not mean that he does not sympathize with me, but that he finally realizes the truth.From his point of view, it was much easier than he had originally imagined. oh boy!It's a woman's business again!Young people are always these things.I thought you really got into some serious trouble.His tone softened. But this is more terrifying than getting into a catastrophe! No, it's not terrible.You are too emotional.For us old soldiers, this is not as serious as throwing the entire three northeastern provinces to the Japanese! Although it was unintentional, his last sentence really put me in the army, and I was almost at a loss for words. Listen to me, kid.He looked at me kindly.Whenever the conversation was most speculative, he always liked to call me his child, as if I were his son and daughter.Although I am an old man, I completely understand your emotions and your mood.You Koreans are all hot-blooded men and women, both on the battlefield and in life.but He paused, pondering over the words, because he understood the possible impact they would have on me, and finally said word by word: What you've planned won't work!I know that on the battlefield, you are a good staff officer, both wise and brave.In this kind of matter, you are not, you are more brave than wise, and you are desperate, so you want to take the risk. Like a strategist, he analyzed the overall situation for me. He thought: Even if more than 10,000 soldiers return from Europe or Vladivostok, my method will not work, let alone via Xinjiang.First of all, we have not left this country for a day. To put it mildly, we are guests. To put it bluntly, we are all high-ranking prisoners, and there is not much freedom left for us.If they find out about my abduction plan, not only my mother and daughter will suffer, but the entire army, including the three commanders Ma Lisu, will also be implicated.Not to mention anything else, just talking about this kind of involvement, (I should understand the strict atmosphere that is pervasive in this country at the moment), I should never bet on the overall situation of the country and the nation, trying to win the bargaining chip of this person's private affairs, let alone such a private matter ?Between national interests and the private affairs of men and women, which is more important, almost even the three-foot boy knows it well.How come a revolutionary like me who is loyal to the independent cause of the motherland doesn't even understand this point?Secondly, if you want people not to know, unless you do nothing yourself.One train will carry more than a hundred soldiers, and the mother and daughter are hidden in two places, and nearly 300 people know about it.As long as one leak, the whole world is not.The Russians in this era are not as serious as they were in the Tsarist era. They will definitely send people to search the trains at each section. It is not difficult to find out these two Poles who disguised themselves as men. It is even more difficult for large trucks to march on foot. It is even more difficult to keep it secret. The above analysis is only based on common sense. If we dissect it in a deeper level, the problem will be more complicated. I don't want to analyze too much, boy, think about it for yourself!It is entirely out of sympathy that I am discussing this with you.If I were your strict chief, I wouldn't even think about it! To be honest, this old general really confided in me, speaking from the bottom of his heart.What else can I say after hearing his full statement? Kid, wipe away your tears and get ready to go on the road with us!It is inevitable to be emotional when it comes to men and women.But as soon as you leave here, your thinking will change, and her thinking will also change. Things will never be as serious as you think!There are tens of thousands of men and women in the world who love each other without worry, and there are not many people who are truly in love with each other!I hope you will take the motherland as the most important thing and the revolution as the most important thing!Don't forget that your 30 million compatriots are still in dire straits, and my 400 million compatriots are also facing the fate of your Korean nation! Finally, he looked at his watch.It's almost lunch time, you should go eat! God knows, what would I think of for lunch? I didn't listen any more and couldn't say anything more.Like a completely defeated soldier, I bowed my head and withdrew.But from the bottom of my heart, I thank him for his sincere concern for me. Once again, I was walking down the street.This time, I was not in a hurry. I was meditating, walking slowly, aimlessly. I recall my seven-day honeymoon with an almost fatalistic attitude. I think these seven days are the culmination of our happiness in the past four months.After the apex, of course, we have to go downhill.If a person climbs to the top of a mountain, unless he is a god, he will always stay on it and never come down.If he is human, how can he not descend?But I didn't expect to fall so fast, so terrible! I am not confused, (although love sometimes makes me confused into dreams, but I also have moments of lucidity,) I gradually see that the happiness of these seven days is like the last reflection of the sun when it goes down, especially gorgeous and bright, but That which prophesies itself is settling, disappearing.But I didn't expect: Shen Luo disappeared so quickly! At the last moment before a person dies, his face will be particularly beautiful, flushed, and his speech will be particularly clear. Didn't we talk about Goethe on the evening of the seventh day?This is precisely an ominous omen.In the story I tell, at the beginning, there are several references to evening and sunset, About this kind of thing, Aurelia naturally didn't think about it at that time, and she didn't want to think about it. Those who love others in her way will never, and they don't want to think too deeply. The joy and youth in front of them, It was enough for her to be busy, and enough for her to be intoxicated. I thought again: On the day I returned to Tomsk, Aurelia was really beautiful and touching. This kind of beauty is not only like spring flowers, but also like red ripe fruits in autumn, containing the most fresh and tender. The most mature ingredients.Because, now she is not only a girl, but also a young woman.Anyone who has just changed from a young girl to a young woman must reveal her beauty, charm, and loveliness! She is happy, cheerful, like a lucky person who has captured the greatest luck. I, on the way home, kept silent.A dark premonition began to overwhelm me. In my life experience, whenever I have really good luck, that is, when I really start to have bad luck, this kind of experience has been tried and tested repeatedly, and it is difficult to fail once in a hundred times. Therefore, on this day, I feel unspeakably anxious and dull.At this moment, when I was walking on the street and recalling all this, my suspense was confirmed to be sharp and correct, but I still did not expect that everything would be so terrible!