Chapter 2 two

The weather is much warmer, and the cotton-padded jacket has long been taken off, and a thin cotton vest is put on outside the jacket when it gets cold in the morning and evening, which is light and soft.The new cloth shoes I wore had a piece of black leather on the front. Old Wang Ma, Xiuzhen's mother, saw my new shoes and said: These shoes are so strong that they kicked the threshold of our house into pieces, and your shoes can't be broken! I am already familiar with the Hui'an Hall, the door of the hall is always open, so I can sneak in at any time.I said sneak in, because I always sneak in behind my family's back. They only know that I often go to Jingwozi to find girls with Song's mother to buy vegetables. When Song's mother enters the oil and salt store, I Just turn around and go to the Hui'an Pavilion.

I entered the Hui'an Pavilion today, but Xiuzhen was not in the room.There is a large glass jar on the Kang table, in which are a few small goldfish swimming around.I asked Mama Wang: What about Xiuzhen? In the courtyard! I go to her.I said. Don't mind, she's coming, just wait here and watch the goldfish! I put my nose against the goldfish bowl and looked in. The goldfish was drinking water one by one while swimming, and my mouth could not help but imitate the fish drinking water one by one.Sometimes a goldfish swims up to me, separated by a layer of glass, and the fish nose and I are the best!I just watched it like this, kneeling on the edge of the kang, my legs were numb, and Xiuzhen hadn't come yet.

I rolled my legs and sat on the edge of the Kang, and waited for a while, but Xiuzhen still didn't come, so I got anxious, slipped out of the room, and went to look for her in the courtyard.The courtyard seems to have been closed all the time, and I have never seen anyone go there.I gently pushed open the cross-yard door and went in. There was a tree in the small yard, which had grown small green leaves.There are dry fallen leaves on the ground in the corner of the courtyard, and some are rotten.Xiuzhen was probably cleaning, but when I went in, I saw her leaning on the tree trunk with a broom in one hand, and wiping her eyes with the other hand, I walked up to her quietly and looked up at her.She may have seen me, but she ignored me, turned her back suddenly, and cried on the trunk of the tree, she said:

Xiaoguizi, Xiaoguizi, why don't you want your mother anymore? How aggrieved and pitiful that voice is!She wept again and said: If I don't take you with me, how can you recognize Dao'er? It's far away! I remembered that my mother said that we came from a hometown far, far away. There was an island surrounded by water on all sides. We took a big ship and a big train to come to Beijing.I once asked my mother when I would go back, and my mother said it was early, and it was not easy to come here, so I stayed for a few more years.So is the distant place Xiuzhen mentioned as far away as our island?How could Xiao Guizi run away alone?I felt sorry for Xiuzhen, and I also missed Xiao Guizi, whom I didn't know, tears fell from my eyes.In the blurred eyes of tears, I seem to see that fat baby riding a big goldfish, wearing nothing!

With tears in my eyes, I took a deep breath, to prevent myself from crying, I grabbed Xiuzhen's pant leg and called her: Xiuzhen!Xiuzhen! She stopped crying, squatted down with tears all over her face, put her arms around me, buried her head on my chest and wiped it away, and wiped away her tears with my soft vest, then she looked up to see Seeing me smile, I stretched out my hand to smooth her messy bangs, and couldn't help but say: I like you, Xiuzhen. Xiuzhen didn't say anything, she stood up while sucking her snot.As the weather got warmer, she stopped wearing leggings and cotton trousers, and now she was wearing a pair of fat loose-leg trousers.Are her legs thin?Why did the pants look so dangling when the wind blew them.She was thin all over. When she squatted down and lay on my chest just now, I saw that back, it looked like a flat plate.

Xiuzhen took my hand and said: Go inside and help tidy up. There are only two small rooms like this in the Xiaokuan courtyard. When the door is pushed, there will be a series of squeaking sounds. The sound is not pleasant, as if a thorn is pierced in the heart.It is strangely cool to come into this dark room from the sun.In the outer room, desks, chairs, and bookshelves were neatly arranged, covered with dust, I thought to myself, we should ask our Song mother to come and shake it, so as to ensure that the house is full of dust.Dad often said to Mom, why didn't Song's mother wipe it with a damp cloth? After a while, wouldn't the dust fall back to the original place?But my mother always asks my father not to talk too much, she says this is the Beijing rule.

Go into the back room, which is smaller, with only a bed and a coffee table.There was a suitcase on the bed. Xiuzhen opened the suitcase and took out a big cotton robe from it. My father also had it, and it belonged to a man.Xiuzhen hugged the big padded robe to her chest, and said to herself: It's time to turn over some cotton. She took the big cotton robe out of the yard to dry, and I followed.She came in, and I followed.She told me and her to carry the box out to dry in the sun in the yard, and it contained only a pair of gloves, a fedora hat, and some old underwear.She spread out these pieces of clothing carefully, and picked up a striped gown and said to me:

I see that this gown can only be used as a jacket lining for Xiao Guizi. No, I opened my coat and showed it to Xiuzhen: it was also made from my father's old clothes. You also use your father's?How do you know that this dress belongs to Xiao Guizi's father?Xiuzhen smiled and stared at me and asked me, she was very happy like that, and I was happy when she was happy, but how did I know that this was Xiao Guizi's father?She asked so much that I couldn't answer, I tilted my head and smiled, but she still asked while teasing my chin: Say it! The two of us were squatting next to the box at this time, I looked at her face very refreshingly, bangs were blown to the side by the wind, she seemed to be someone, but I couldn't think of it.I answered her:

My guess.Then I asked her again in a low voice: What do I call Xiao Guizi's father? Call uncle! I already have uncles. Too many uncles?Call him Uncle Sikang, he is ranked third, you can also call him third uncle. Uncle Sikang, I said, what time does he come home? He, Xiuzhen stood up suddenly, frowned and tilted her head thinking, after thinking for a long time, she said, soon.It's been a month since I left. As she spoke, she walked into the house again, and I followed her in again, doing this and that, and then following out, moving here and there, and I was so happy to follow out and follow up.At this moment, Xiuzhen's face was pink, and the sides of her nose were covered with dust, and there were small beads of sweat oozing from the tip of her nose and her lips. Such a face looked really pretty.

Xiuzhen wiped the sweat from her nose with her sleeve, and said to me: Yingzi, can you bring me a basin of water?The room needs to be cleaned. I hastened to say: Yes, yes. The house in the Kuayuan was originally on the same side as the porter’s house, but there is only one more door in the Kuayuan’s house, and the water tanks and basins are placed under the eaves of the porter’s house.I lifted the lid of the water tank, spooned water into the basin, and heard someone in the room talking to Xiuzhen's mother: Is the girl feeling better these days? well!Don't mention it, there's been trouble again for a while, every year when spring comes, there will be trouble for a while, these two days I just cry and laugh for a while, how good it is!really

The fault of this road is that spring makes a lot of mistakes. I took a basin of water, shook and sprinkled it, splashed myself with water, and when I got to the Kuayuan room, there was not much left.Putting the pot on the chair, suddenly the smell of cooking vegetables came from nowhere, I smelled it and remembered something, so I said to Xiuzhen: I am going home. Xiuzhen didn't hear it, she just rummaged through the drawers. I remembered that I would go to Heng Hutong to wait for Niuer after dinner when I got home. I had a date yesterday. The cold and wet pants stuck to my legs, and my mother scolded as soon as I entered the door: Just play in Jingwozi all morning?I thought you fell into the well?Look at such a body of water!While changing my clothes, my mother said: Ask me which elementary school in Beijing is good, and I should send it to school. I heard that the elementary school attached to the Normal University in Changdian is not bad. Mom said that, and I realized that my father had come back. I got a whole body of water, afraid that my father would beat and scold me. He was very powerful. I shrank my head and looked at my father, ready to be beaten. Fortunately, he didn't pay attention. , smoking a cigarette and reading a newspaper, he casually said: It's still early, what's the hurry. If she is not sent to school, she runs all over the street, and I can't see her. Hit if you don't listen!Dad's tone seemed very fierce, but then he turned his face and smiled at me. It turned out that he was scaring me!He also said: About Yingzi's going to school, wait for her uncle to come and tell him, let him take care of it! After dinner, I went to Heng Hutong to pick up Niu'er. The weather was getting colder, so Niu'er and I went to play in the vacant west wing, where dismantled stoves, chimneys, unused tables, chairs, and beds were piled up.In a broken rattan box, there are a few newly hatched little chickens that I bought recently. The soft little yellow fluff is so fun. Niuer and I squatted and played with the little chickens in the box.Watch the chicks peck at the rice, always eat, always eat, why don't they stop! The chicks couldn't eat enough, but we had enough to see, so we covered the rattan box, and we stood up to play other things.We put two coins on a thin rope and held them in our hands. We played kicking coins. Every time we kicked, the two coins clattered on the upper of the shoes.Niu'er twisted her waist when kicking, she looked so delicate. We had a lot of fun this afternoon, if it wasn't for Niu'er when she was hanging her throat again, we don't know how long we would have played. Dad bought a new pen and ink today, and a stack of red tracing paper.In the evening, under the kerosene lamp, he taught me to draw, and first read the words on it: one to two or three miles, four or five houses in Yancun, six or seven pavilions, eight or ninety flowers. Dad said: You have to draw one picture a day, and you will be admitted to elementary school after the summer vacation before you can pass the exam. In the morning I went to the Hui'an Pavilion to look for Xiuzhen, in the afternoon Niu'er came to look for me in the West Wing, and in the evening I painted red characters, that's how I lived these days. Short wings grew from the yellow hair of the little oily chicken. Niuer and I fed rice, water, and vegetables. Mama Song said not to strain the little chicken’s belly, and she was afraid of being picked up by wild cats. Use a big rock to press the lid of the rattan box, and we are not allowed to open it casually. When Niu'er played with me, she often moaned and chirped. When she was happy that day, she actually started to twist. She twisted and twisted and compared, and she sang: Open the door, open the door. Scholar mourns what do you singIs this hanging your throat?I asked I sang playing drums.Niuer said. She was in a good mood, so she just sang and twisted gently, and I was dumbfounded watching it.She suddenly said to me: Come!Follow me, I will teach you. I can also sing a kind of song. For some reason, I think I should also show off my ability. I suddenly remembered a song that my father sang when talking with a guest. Later, my father taught me, and my mother said that my father Teach me this kind of song is really not big or small! Then you sing, then you sing.Niuer pushed me, but I was too embarrassed to sing. She insisted that I sing, so I had to stammer and sing in Hakka: You listen to what you want to do, think about your heart, think about your heart, and feel uneasy!I want my heart, my heart, my heart, my heart, my heart Before I finished counting, Niu'er was already laughing until she shed tears, and I laughed too, those few words were really awkward. Who taught you this?What the heart thinks of the heart, the heart thinks of the heart, hahaha!Which country's song are you singing? The two of us hugged each other and laughed, talking nonsense about our hearts and minds, but we couldn't figure out what it meant. We are so happy, talking nonsense, singing and playing nonsense, the West Wing is our happy den, I even dream about it.Every time Niuer looked out of the window when she had played enough, she suddenly shouted: You have to go back!After she finished speaking, she ran away, so anxious that she didn't even have time to say goodbye. Suddenly, for several days in a row, there was no girl in the alley. How disappointed I was, I stood there and waited and waited.I walked slowly towards the well, hoping to meet her, but it was no use.In the afternoon, Jingwozi was not so lively, because the water delivery cars came in the morning, and only the nearby people pushed their own small carts with lead buckets to buy water. I saw Lao Wang, the leader of the class, also pushing a small cart. He came several times. Seeing me standing there, he asked me strangely: Xiaoyingzi, why are you being so stupid here? I didn't say anything, I knew what was in my heart.I said: What about Xiuzhen?I thought that if I couldn't wait for Niu'er, I would go to find Xiuzhen, and the Kua courtyard was well cleaned up.But Lao Wang ignored me. He filled two buckets of water and pushed them away. When I was hesitating what to do, a familiar figure suddenly turned from the entrance of Xicaochang, that was Niuer, how happy I was!I ran to meet her and shouted, "Niuer!girl!She ignored me, as if she didn't know me, and she didn't seem to hear anyone calling her.I was very strange and followed her, but she gently drove me away with her hand, frowned and blinked, meaning to tell me to go away.I don't know what happened, but there was a tall man a few steps behind her, wearing a blue cloth coat, holding a dirty long cloth bag, and I saw a huqin protruding from the bag. I think this must be Niuer's father.Niu'er often said that I was afraid of being beaten by my father, or scolded by my father. Now that I saw that, I knew that I didn't talk to Niu'er anymore, so I turned around and walked home, feeling very uncomfortable.I have a fossil in my pocket, which can be used to write white characters on bricks. When I took it out, I couldn't help but draw along the walls of other people's houses, and then painted on the wall of my house.I thought to myself how meaningless it would be to play without Niuer! Just as I was about to call the door, I suddenly heard the sound of someone running in the alley. It turned out that Niu'er came running panting. She hurriedly said with a disturbed expression: "I will come to you tomorrow."Before I could answer, she ran back to the alley again. The next morning, Niu'er came to see me, and we squatted down in the west wing to watch the little chicken.Lifting the lid of the rattan box, both of us put our hands in to touch the feathers of the little oily chicken, and neither of us said a word after touching it like this.I was going to talk, but I didn't make a sound. I just asked her in my heart: Girl, why haven't you come to me for so many days?Niu'er, is it because your father is so powerful that you are not allowed to come?Niu'er, why wasn't I allowed to talk to you yesterday?Girl, you must have something uncomfortable, right?It's strange, these words are all in my heart, and I didn't say it, but how did she know that she answered me with tears?She didn't speak, and she didn't even use her sleeve to wipe her eyes, she just let her tears drip down in the rattan box, all of which were eaten by the little chicken and millet! I didn't know what to do, but I saw her ear from the side. There was a hole in the earlobe and a red thread was passed through it. Niu'er's ear was not cleaned, and there was a line of black mud on the edge.I looked down along her shoulder again, there was a blue scar on her wrist, I stretched out my hand to lift up her cuff to see, she just woke up, dodged in fright, then turned her head and smiled sadly at me laugh.The morning sun was shining into the west wing, onto her unclean face, her wet and long eyelashes flickered, and tears flowed down the tear pit to her mouth. Suddenly, she stood up, opened her cuffs, lifted the corners of her trousers, and said softly: Look at my dad playing! I was squatting, and I reached out and just touched the swollen scars on her legs.I touched it lightly, which made her cry out loud.Because she didn't dare to let out her voice, she wept softly, which was really pitiful.I said: Why did your father hit you? She was speechless at the time, and cried for a while before saying: He doesn't allow me to come out to play. Is it because you have been in my house for too long? Niuer nodded. Because I played at my house for a long time, she was beaten. I was sad and scared. Thinking of that tall man, I couldn't help but say: Then you go back quickly!She stood still and said: He went out early in the morning and hasn't come back yet. What about your mother? My mother screwed me too, she didn't care about my coming out.Dad hit her too.After hitting her, she pinched me, saying it was me who did it. Niu'er cried for a while and got better, and then told me this and that. I said that I had never seen her mother. Niu'er said that her mother was a little lame, and she sat on the kang all day long to mend clothes. make money. I told Niu'er that we didn't live in Beijing before, but came from a faraway island, and she also said: We didn't live here before, we lived at Qihua Gate. Qihuamen?I nodded and said: I know that place. How do you also know Qihuamen?Niuer asked me strangely. I can't figure out how I know, but I do know, as if someone took me there early in the morning, and I kind of saw it, no, no, no, what I saw was very Fuzzy, maybe it was a dream?So I answered Niuer and said: I dreamed of that place, is there a wall?One day, there was a woman carrying a bundle and sneaking towards the city wall early in the morning Are you a storyteller? Maybe it's a story, I tilted my head and thought deeply, anyway, I know Qihuamen. Niu'er smiled, stretched out her arms and put them around my neck, and I also stretched out my arms to wrap hers around hers.But when I pinched her shoulder, she let out a soft cry of pain!pain! I let go of my hand quickly, and she frowned again and said, "Even this place is swollen to me!" What did you smoke? 撢子.After a pause, she continued: My dad, and my mom, but she stopped talking. how are they Stop talking, I will tell you next time. I know that your father taught you how to sing and asked you to make money for them.I heard Song Ma tell her about this, so I said it right away.I want you to make money and beat you, why!After I said that, I became angry. Drink, look, you know everything, I don't want to tell you about opera, how do you know what I want to tell you! What the hell are you going to say?Say it! If you are so impatient, I won't talk about it.If you are nice to me, I have a lot of things to tell you, but you are not allowed to tell others, and don't tell your mother. I won't, we whispered. Niu'er hesitated for a while, then whispered and hastily whispered next to my ear. I was not born to my mother, and neither was my father. She spoke so quickly, as quickly as a flash of lightning passed, and then it hit my heart like a thunderbolt, which made my heart skip a beat.After she finished speaking, she removed the hand that was attached to my ear, and looked at me with wide eyes, as if waiting to see what I would do after listening to her words.As for me, I just stared at her and couldn't say a word. Although I promised Niu'er not to tell her secret, but after Niu'er left, I kept thinking about it, and the more I thought about it, the more worried I became, so I suddenly ran to my mother and asked in a daze: Mom, am I born to you? What?Mom gave me a strange look, why did she think of asking this? You say it's fine. Yes, why not?After a pause, my mother said again, if it wasn't my own, would I be able to love you so much?If you make trouble like this, you'll be flattened long ago. I nodded, what my mother said was indeed right, think about Niuer!So how did you give birth to me?I've wanted to ask about this for a long time. How did it happen? Mom thought about it and laughed, raised her arm, pointed to the armpit and said: Fall out of here. After she finished speaking, she laughed with Mama Song.