Chapter 5 Chapter 3 Nanjing 1

On the day of Maverick's operation, Xin Mei happened to receive a letter from Nanjing, which was from Dr. He.The letter mentioned that Xiaoye was suffering from dysentery: But don't worry, grandma has brought him to our hospital twice to see him, and he has been given medicine on time.If the condition does not worsen, hospitalization is not necessary. When Xin Mei saw the word hospitalization, her eyes almost went black.She imagined that the condition must be very serious, otherwise Dr. He would not have mentioned hospitalization.At that time, she wished she could fly back to see her son immediately.But the perforation of the calf's appendix was very serious, and it turned into peritonitis. Director Fang cut off a large part of his intestines and gave him two blood transfusions.Fang Zheng and his wife stayed by the sick bed day and night, no matter how worried Xin Mei was, she couldn't bear to leave Yuan Yuan alone.When Director Fang announced that Xiao Niu was out of danger, she said she wanted to rush home to see Xiaoye.This time, Xin Mei was very decisive, and immediately asked the students of Wuhan Port Authority to open the back door, accommodated two boat tickets, and sailed eastward the next day, rushing back to Nanjing.

Tao Ye suffered from bloody dysentery and was admitted to the hospital.She came back just in time to pick him up from the hospital.Dysentery hurts the body the most. I haven't seen him for a few days. My son is already skinny, and he feels light and weightless in his hands.Grandma had never taken care of Tao Ye's illness alone, so she was frightened and lost all her flesh.She got old and dizzy, caught a cold again, and coughed non-stop.Xin Mei sent Tao Lian to the kindergarten in advance in order to let the young and old take care of themselves at home. Tao Lian came back from kindergarten on the first day and played with Maomao at the door.Not long after, Xin Mei heard him yelling loudly in the room: "Down with you Yankee!"

Who is Yankee?Xin Mei ran out and asked with a straight face. Tao Lian was stunned for a while, then pouted and answered: People called me Yankee first! Xin Mei scolded the child and then let it go, but she felt uncomfortable for several days.When Tao Lian was three or four years old, he often called himself a Yankee.The mother was very angry. After negotiating with the kindergarten director and childcare staff several times, the matter was calmed down.Unexpectedly, after a trip to Wuhan, the child called this nickname again.This time, Xin Mei was so discouraged that she didn't even bother to mention it when she saw the nursery staff.

After returning from Wuhan, she looked at her child again, and she seemed a little strange.After careful scrutiny, I found that my point of view has been shaken; the previous thought of taking it for granted has been replaced by contradictory feelings unconsciously.Seeing the children, she couldn't help but think about their future.At this time, a feeling of confusion and frustration hit my heart, like a shadow that could not be wiped away.She is used to this kind of propaganda that children belong to the state; education and work are subject to state arrangements; for the sake of the state, any individual will should be suppressed.But Yanan's thoughts affected him.Yanan believes that children are the continuation of personal hope. Parents have the right to intervene in how to raise and educate them. This is a sacred right of being a human being and cannot be trampled or deprived of.

What highlights politics is all nonsense!Yanan once yelled at him.Entrance to high school and university is based on class status, entering a factory or going to the countryside also depends on family background, and even transferring back to the city has to compare the size of the back door. Doesn’t it depend on parents?According to Lao Tzu's blood theory of revolutionary sons and heroes, the children of cadres all follow the path of studying, joining the party, and becoming officials, and become the new aristocrats.Why should the children of our intellectuals be unlucky? Xin Mei could not deny this hard fact.What else could she expect from a native who couldn't shake off the nickname Yankee?Tao Lian was her child, and he was branded with the so-called class from birth. Like bees and ants, he was born with distinct types of jobs and could not surpass them.

My child!When she couldn't figure it out, Xin Mei couldn't help but let out a motherly cry. There are no parents who don't love their children, Fangzheng and Yanan want to wander around because of Yuanyuan and Mavericks? On the eve of leaving Wuhan, Yanan confided to her that they planned to go abroad again and return to Western society.At first she thought it was a joke about the child being sick and getting emotional, but she didn't take it seriously.Yanan waited until Yanan explained all the specific steps, including waiting for Xinmei to return to Ning for 30 days before filing the application, in order to clear Xinmei's suspicion of influencing them, and she knew that the matter was irreversible.However, she still dissuades them instinctively, pointing out that they have returned to China for too short a time and their observations have not been in-depth.She was not a person who could speak well, but that night, when she was in a hurry, she actually repeated a lot of nouns, which surprised even herself.

Regrettably, the more Yanan listened, the more stubborn she became, and even attacked her with Zi's spear and Zi's shield, overwhelming her. How can you endure such chronic political terror?Yanan asked her almost pityingly.The most frightening thing is that this kind of fear is invisible and present all the time. It burrows into people's hearts like a worm, and it's no wonder it doesn't drive people crazy someday! There is political pressure, but it will be fine if you get used to it, Xin Mei tried her best to persuade her.It's easy to accept as long as it's part of your daily life.

You are numb! Yanan not only remained unmoved, but even criticized her instead. This kind of political phobia has already made people crazy, don't you think everyone has become double-faced?I think those activists who waved their flags and shouted were frantic with fear, and they waved their tails in such a way out of self-defense.What kind of righteous killing of relatives is a psychopath!Now, if a kind person wants to live, he can only keep silent.Our national character has always been law-abiding, patient and courteous in every way, but Mao Zedong Thought has transformed it for a quarter of a century, leaving only a docile side, and we have become 800 million obedient citizens!

Yanan, you only see the dark side, our nation also resists sometimes.Mao Zedong is not immortal, the situation can change as soon as it is said, why don't you have any confidence in the future? confidence?Well, thank you for your example!We were hesitant at first, but after seeing you, we realized that the six years of thought remolding and selfless restraint had only made people cautious, so we made up our minds.We never dreamed that Tao Chengzhi, who used to be full of fighting spirit, became Tao Xinsheng, and became a full-fledged non-resistanceist!Speech criticism has been the tradition of our scholars since ancient times. If we are submissive, what kind of scholars are we?There is no need to criticize Liu Shaoqi’s theory of taming tools. Today you are Mao Zedong’s taming tool, and when he dies, he will be transformed into another idol’s taming tool. Do you still have your own existence?

Xin Mei couldn't convince the other party, so she had to appeal to her feelings: she came back out of patriotism, and going out again would always be a blow to the country's reputation! On the contrary, Yanan's eyes lit up: Alright, it can really stimulate the country's reputation, and it can also achieve our goal of going out again!In this kind of society where one can speak aloud, intellectuals have no room to speak, so why not go abroad to speak freely?Sacrifice without price, in my opinion, is not the way of patriotism.If it is said that we are not born at the right time, we should sacrifice, and there is no need to accompany our children?To serve the motherland, I think we need to find another effective way.

But what is the effective way to serve the motherland?Xin Mei thought all the way from Wuhan to Nanjing, but she couldn't find the answer. Soon, the school started again.Although Xin Mei does not teach freshman English, she also welcomes freshmen and arranges courses.Wang Degui was originally a Russian teacher, and the school sent him to Nanjing Teachers College to study English for a year as a freshman. Now he and Xin Mei are asked to take classes together, one is a trainee, and the other is helping tutor students' English.The already tense teaching artifacts, coupled with such a redundant assistant, made her too busy to take care of others, so she relaxed the tension of her thoughts. During this period, the educational revolution of the Water Institute has been further advanced, accepting the model experience of Tsinghua University and Peking University, and re-adopting the establishment of teaching and research groups.This was originally a 100% restoration of the old with new shoes, but the official document insisted that it was a brilliant achievement of the educational revolution.The teachers of the Water Institute tacitly agreed with each other, and shouted in unison: Another great victory for Mao Zedong Thought! Since the establishment of the school, basic courses such as foreign languages, mathematics, physics, and chemistry have been compiled together and merged into the Department of Mechanics.When the Cultural Revolution came, the clarion call for educational reform was blown. Regardless of whether it was good or bad, the original system was completely dismantled, and the Department of Mechanics was completely abolished.The School of Water follows the example of Tsinghua University, copying the establishment of the People's Liberation Army, organizing each department into a teaching company, equipped with teachers of physical education, politics, and various basic courses.It is said that this is done for the sake of integration and ease of combat, as if to closely link future higher education with guerrilla warfare.Recently, due to the actual needs of teaching materials and teaching, coupled with the fact that the Lin Biao incident has greatly damaged the military's prestige, and military terms have been used less, Tsinghua took the lead in canceling the title of company and restoring the old system.Other colleges were happy to follow suit, so Xin Mei returned to the long-lost foreign language teaching and research group. It had only been two weeks since the start of school, and the teaching had not yet been on the right track. The province suddenly issued an urgent instruction: the central government decided to hold the National Track and Field Games, which had been suspended for many years, and it was scheduled to be held in the playground of Nanjing Institute of Technology in late October.The Water Academy is one of the few schools in Nanjing that has a sports field. The province specifically instructed that it should be quickly opened to athletes from all over the country as a practice field. After receiving the order, the school immediately mobilized and sent a telegram to recall all the physical education teachers working on the farm.The teaching staff in the school also organized and invested in the renovation of the site.The playground, which has been idle for eight years, has long been overgrown with weeds, showing uneven pits and valleys.The runway was washed out by the rain and there were many mud holes, and the weeds on the side were as lush as a border on the playground.Weeds even spread to the road, with a handful growing here and a clump growing there. Next to Qingliang Mountain, there is a view of the wilderness in the distance. ten.Immediately after passing, the field and the runway were re-rolled with soil, and most of the weeds on the edge of the runway were also cleared.Classes are never arranged on Saturday afternoons, allowing students to live a democratic life and discuss life and study situations.Foreign language and mathematics teachers are usually busy in class and unable to work, so they are arranged to pull weeds on Saturday afternoon. As soon as the nap call sounded, Xin Mei and Zhao Ping walked to the playground at the corner of the campus together.Teachers from the two groups also came one after another.Many good teachers wore bamboo hats to shade them from the sun, and they were covered in shabby clothes and pants.Teachers usually dress neatly, but their clothes are worn out when they are working. They even compete on patches, showing that they have a hard and simple work style.The set of clothes worn by Xiaomai, the head of the foreign language group, has become famous throughout the school, with patches on top of patches, dark blue on top of light gray, layered on top of each other, making people dazzled.According to her claim, she has been wearing it since she was in college, and it has a history of ten years. Taking advantage of his good background, Situ Qing was about the same age as Xiaomai, so when they met, he joked and taunted her first: Xiaomai, you should change your clothes!I can prove with precise figures that these patches add up to more than enough to sew a new suit! What words!Patching is the true nature of working people!Xiaomai raised his voice and answered boldly. Her parents opened a deep-fried dough stick shop before Liberation, which was originally a capitalist or small business owner, but somehow it became a working people in her mouth.In addition to being exploited and bitter, she got into the ranks of party members and swaggered in the foreign language group. Xinmei's teaching and research group has twenty teachers, most of whom come from bureaucratic or landlord families. Only the group leader and activist Wang Degui is a small owner.Later, when I came to Xinmei, her family background was filled with sharecroppers and converted to self-cultivation farmers; when her colleagues heard that her father and grandparents lived on renting land, they all looked at her with admiration.Guo Yingsheng admired her from the bottom of her heart, and publicly declared that she was the only descendant of the proletariat.The team leader didn't say anything, but let the cold wind behind his back: How can people from poor peasants get into college?Not to mention studying abroad!Who doesn't know that the working people in Taiwan don't have enough to eat and don't wear warm clothes, and they live by selling their children and daughters?Taiwan has not been liberated, and it is hundreds of thousands of miles away, don't listen to her nonsense here!This word later reached Xin Mei's ears, and it almost made her sick to death.In the future, when the team leader boasted that he was a working people, Xin Mei didn't show any respect. When all the personnel arrived, Lao Xiao from the physical education teaching and research group clapped his hands and said hello, and everyone squatted down to pull weeds.As usual, the female teachers gathered together, chatting while picking grass roots.Jiangsu Province has recently focused on family planning, and the Water Institute has been ordered to implement it and has formulated many regulations.When the female teachers met together, they inevitably whispered. Because Xiaomai's parents and in-laws are all in good condition, and someone takes care of the children, he raised three children after four years of marriage, and then underwent tubal ligation once and for all.She considers herself a role model of family planning, and is overzealous in promoting birth control.As long as she hears that a female teacher's menstruation is overdue, she will come to check immediately.Seeing someone's belly bulge, she felt as uncomfortable as if she had hung a buffalo's belly, and she wished she had an excuse to let him get rid of it. She had just pulled two weeds and was feeling bored when she suddenly caught a glimpse of a pregnant math teacher beside Xin Mei.In line with the party member's mission of educating the masses at any time, she raised her voice again: No way, our family planning this year has already been overfulfilled! What is overrun?A woman answered. The city distributes it to the water hospital, and this year there are only six babies, and we are about to give birth to a dozen, isn't it 100% overproduction? The teacher next to Xin Mei blushed slightly, and quickly declared: I am born next year, so this year's quota will not be affected. It will be born next year, so we must hurry up now! What Xiaomai said was clearly a warning to all the teachers present.The female teacher lowered her head, not daring to say anything more. While everyone held their breaths, Xiaomai immediately preached: Anyone who already has a child should consciously follow the plan and give up the place to others.Some people have been married for many years and have not had a baby. Give them priority.In the socialist system, everything must be included in the plan. Situ Qing is not married, but he likes to fight against injustices, especially with Xiaomai.When it came to birth control, the male teacher was too shy to ask, but he didn't care. I don't think it can be too rote, right?He said to Xiaomai.Those who haven't given birth for a few years may not be able to give birth at all, so won't they occupy other people's places? Many people laughed out loud. Xin Mei couldn't help but also interjected: I don't think it should be too strict. The principle is to have two children. As for when to have children, it is up to the couple to decide, not to distribute collectively.The distribution method is like a lottery ticket. If you don’t win the lottery, you can’t live. No, no!Xiao Mai interrupted her immediately.As you do, it will become liberalism, that is, a planned economy that violates socialism, and it will not work.It is impossible to control the fixed number of people. Wouldn't the undetermined number be more free and rampant? Xin Mei felt ashamed, so she had to keep silent.The other teachers couldn't refute Xiaomai, so they pulled the weeds silently. This afternoon, I heard that the Chief of Staff is coming to inspect our work. Lao Xiao first warned everyone, please work harder. As soon as they heard that the chief of staff was about to appear, everyone became wary and lowered their heads to pull weeds seriously. After pulling the weeds for a while, Situ took a break to wipe off his sweat, and took the opportunity to joke again: Shouldn't the chief of staff come to see how tall the cabbage grows? As soon as cabbage was mentioned, there was a burst of laughter in the crowd.The fact is this.Last spring, the chief of staff who was busy grasping the class struggle suddenly visited this corner one day.Seeing the overgrown weeds on the playground, he raised his eyes, and immediately reprimanded the accompanying cadres: Such a big playground is wasted for nothing!Immediately call me to the teacher to pull the weeds!All of them will be developed and planted with cabbage for me!You have to learn to count and count carefully. Look, this runway alone can harvest dozens of loads of cabbage a year.This is the assignment, I'll check it out then! Although the accompanying cadres were surprised, they didn't dare to snort, and followed the same pattern to pass it on to the sports team.The physical education teachers were furious. They depended on the playground for their lives. How could they have the heart to destroy the stadium built with huge sums of money?But the chief of staff's decree is like a mountain and cannot be disputed.They recommended Lao Xiao as a representative to intercede with the Workers Propaganda Team, and listed the production value of cabbage and the cost of the playground for them to compare.Although the Worker Propaganda Team and the Military Propaganda Team were sent to jointly manage the school, due to the struggle for power and profit, they have always been at odds with each other.However, due to the convenience of leadership, the Workers Propaganda Team did not want to confront the military representative, so they suppressed it with an instruction to suspend the execution of cabbage planting as another urgent task.The chief of staff questioned him once, but the physical education teacher prevaricated on the pretext of being busy fighting the drought.Then the Lin Biao incident broke out. The chief of staff was busy criticizing Lin in school, and he had to clear his innocence in the army.Now that the central government has designated Nanjing to hold the track and field games, the surviving stadium is immediately worth a hundred times. Not only the provincial government cares about it, but the chief of staff personally supervises it and inspects it every three days. Hey!Hi! Old Xiao suddenly cleared his throat.Everyone looked up, but it wasn't true, the chief of staff in civilian clothes with his hands on his back, followed by the gray-haired Hu Fei, was coming from the other side of the runway.As soon as the leader came, everyone quickly lowered their heads and stepped up to pull the weeds; those who pulled out the grass beside them had to dig the grass roots with their fingers. Everyone has worked hard! When approaching, Hu Fei first cupped his hands to express condolences, with a smile on his face wearing reading glasses.He was wearing an old blue breenin suit, a thin man of medium height, following behind the tall horse chief of staff, he was thin and short by the lining.His white hair and the folded lines of his face made all those who approached him feel kind and respectful. Cough, Hu!Many teachers greeted him kindly. Welcome to the Chief of Staff to give us guidance!Xiaomai's coloratura soprano overwhelms other voices. The chief of staff nodded, then withdrew his right hand from behind and waved to everyone. Can today's task be completed?he asked. Guaranteed to be done! The leaders of the two teaching and research groups answered almost in unison, and stood up, listening to the instructions with their hands down.The chief of staff did not give instructions immediately, but asked Lao Xiao to accompany him to inspect the runway with Hu Fei.When they passed by Xin Mei, she took the opportunity to see the straw sandals on the chief of staff's feet. The Chief of Staff has been in the Water Institute for three years. Xin Mei often listens to his reports at the conference. Today is the first time she is so close, and she finally sees the true face of Mount Lu.He was only in his early forties, with a fat head, dark skin on his face, sharp eyes like an eagle, and fierce like a tiger when staring at his subordinates.He is half a head taller than ordinary people, and because of his well-maintained and habit of puffing out his chest and shrinking his abdomen, his whole body is as thick as a concrete pillar, straight and hard.The straw sandals on the feet are even more famous in Shuiyuan. It is said that they are made of some kind of straw produced in Sichuan, with the sole made of high-quality cowhide, and the upper of the shoe is also hand-sewn calfskin.This pair of shoes looks exquisite and comfortable on the outside. It is not the same as ordinary men's plastic shoes with sealed toes, and it is much more expensive than ten yuan a pair of leather sandals.Naturally, this kind of straw sandals is not available on the market, and it is said that only mid-level and above cadres are supplied in the army, in order to carry forward the arduous tradition of the Red Army wearing straw sandals to cross snow-capped mountains.Sure enough, when inspecting labor, the chief of staff often keeps his straw sandals on his feet. Xin Mei doesn't like Chief of Staff Xiang.When he came to the Water Academy, just after the Ninth National Congress, Lin Biao's status as heir was blatantly written into the party constitution, and his military prestige was greatly boosted.No wonder the chief of staff looks down on everything and treats the teachers as nothing.I remember that the first time he came to the stage to give a report to the whole school, he saw the teacher dozing off, and he stared angrily on the spot, slapped the table and cursed, which shocked the dozing audience.His reports are often outrageous, making it impossible for the teacher to tell the truth.For example, on the eve of Nixon's visit to China, he came to the stage to talk about how the world situation is getting better and better.When talking about the triumph of Wan Bang's coming to court, he suddenly brought up the American physicist Yang Zhenning. You have all heard what Nobel Prize Yang Zhenning won, right?He is a big professor at an American university, and he gets a salary of 3,000 U.S. dollars a month.much?Ha, he's too poor to hire a driver!The wife can't enjoy any blessings. She is busy with washing and cooking all day long, and she has to drive her lover to and from get off work. Life is hard! Afterwards, Xiao Ma came to ask Xin Mei: Is Yang Zhenning really living so hard?Why doesn't he come back to settle down, we make him the vice president of the Academy of Sciences or something, isn't it better than a professor? Xin Mei couldn't help but laugh.She did not dare to say that the chief of staff had only a half-knowledge, so she had no choice but to falter by saying that she had been away from the United States for many years and did not understand the situation. The teachers knew it all well, and when discussing privately, Situ Qing said: Yang Zhenning doesn't come back to settle down, it's only worth it!Come and go as the number one VIP, Premier Zhou personally received, and the words are so delicious!If you really come back to settle down and become your own person, there will be no sweetness! Every time Xin Mei saw the chief of staff, she would always remember Situ's uninteresting words. The chief of staff came back from patrolling the runway, very satisfied, and his serious black face thawed for a moment. very good!The task of renovating the sports field can be completed ahead of schedule. This is the hard work of all the teachers and staff, which is worthy of praise!Athletes from all over the country are coming next week, and we have to do a good job of receiving them.Comrades must continue to work hard! After finishing speaking, the chief of staff waved his long hand to express his encouragement, and then moved his back to make a gesture of looking up at the mountain.This posture has long been pointed out by the teacher, which is an imitation of a photo of Chairman Mao in Beidaihe that hangs everywhere. When today's task is completed, let's call it a day. Before leaving, Hu Fei whispered to Lao Xiao.Saturday afternoon, rest early. After only two steps, the chief of staff suddenly remembered something, so he lowered his head and whispered something to Hu Fei.Hu Fei immediately asked Old Xiao: Who is Comrade Xin Mei? Everyone's eyes were on Xin Mei, and with Lao Xiao waving frequently, Xin Mei had no choice but to stand up and walk forward anxiously.She thought that the military representatives who forbade her from leaving Nanjing in July suddenly came to her because they wanted to interrogate her friends in Wuhan?Within a few steps away, she quickly thought of the answer.If Fangzheng was asked the reason for going abroad again, she was going to ask all the questions. The chief of staff looked her up and down with eagle eyes.Seeing that she was wearing a blue cloth uniform that was washed white and had some fraying threads, the trousers and cloth shoes were covered with dust, and many female teachers were working with gloves on, but when she walked in with bare hands, she still grabbed a handful of grass. He nodded slightly. He bowed his head, like inspecting goods, indicating that he passed the test. Comrade Xin Mei? yes. Is Wuhan doing well? good.She couldn't think of any other answer than good words. Are you busy in class? not busy. Your lover can't go on talking, the chief of staff looks at Hu Fei. Comrade Tao Xinsheng, Hu Fei hastily interjected. Comrade Tao Xinsheng did a good job!He is hardworking and serious in his studies, and is highly praised by his leaders and colleagues.We are very happy that the returned overseas Chinese have such a performance! The chief of staff spoke loudly, sounding like he was awarding a certificate. Thank you Chief of Staff. When Xin Mei heard Huaqiao, she felt harsh, just like the term "lover" made her sick.But the chief of staff rarely praised people. Whether it was sincere or not, it was always an honor to praise in public, so she thanked him humbly. He'll be back in two days, you know? Xin Mei was taken aback, the grass in her hands could hardly be grasped firmly.She looked at the chief of staff, not knowing what to say for a while.After the breakup in Wuhan, she only received a letter from her husband, without mentioning anything about returning to Nanjing. Hu Fei saw that Xin Mei was at a loss, so he smiled and explained: The nationwide campaign to criticize Lin has promoted the work of all walks of life.In response to the call of the new situation, the academy decided to concentrate on revolutionizing teaching and teaching materials, and all scientific research teams had to be transferred back one after another.The task of Lao Tao and his team was basically completed, so the first batch was transferred back. Coming back is also necessary for work. The chief of staff went on to say that we must go deep and criticize the forest thoroughly and thoroughly!How about it, your spouse is not at home, you have to go to class by yourself, and you have to take care of your children, is there any difficulty in life? No.Xin Mei thought about it and added: Thank you Chief of Staff for your concern. The chief of staff nodded, expressing that he deserved it. If you have difficulties, you can report to the leader at any time, and try to solve it for you, don't be afraid.Overseas Chinese, we have to take care of them, there are policies! After exhorting, he pulled out his hand and waved twice, indicating that the conversation was over. Thank you Chief of Staff, thank you Comrade Hu. Seeing them turn around and leave, Xin Mei breathed a sigh of relief. When she walked back to the team, she had a lot of envious eyes. Wang Degui said in a flattering tone: Good!Xiao Xin's lover is praised, Xiao Xin should treat her to sweets! Xin Mei only smiled, and knelt down to pull the weeds quietly. Xiao Xin, I'm so glad your lover is coming home soon!Zhao Ping approached her and warmly congratulated her. Zhao Ping's words really reached her heart. After all, women care about women.She didn't take the chief of staff's praise very seriously, because freshmen were often praised.It is good news that he is going home soon.Since coming to Nanjing, the husband and wife parted often and got together less.She only hoped that the new students would live longer after entering the door this time. Situ Qing also welcomed the news that the team had been brought back. At least our faculty dormitory is more lively, he said.Li Yongzhong was gone for ten months, and we couldn't even organize a table tennis match.He is back, this winter night will be better, and he will play with his company. Xiaomai wanted revenge, and took the opportunity to expose his fault: What ball partner do you want?It's because you're afraid of ghosts and have a guilty conscience, so you have to hold on to Li Yongzhong so that you can be more emboldened! Who is afraid of ghosts in the new society?joke!Situ immediately defended himself. He was such a hero that many people laughed out loud.It turned out that Situ Qing and Li Yongzhong shared the room, and the big chimney of the Nanjing Crematorium could be seen from the window. When the wind changed direction, there would often be a strange smell, which Situ could not get used to for several years.It doesn't matter, the dormitory building facing their window, in the late period of the Cultural Revolution, a female student he knew hanged in it, and it happened that he was the first to discover it.Young people are competitive, and they always pat their chests that they don't believe in evil.But once Li Yongzhong accidentally revealed that he didn't dare to approach the window for a long time, and everyone knew that he was a little timid after all.Since Situ had a good background and was impeccable politically, this shortcoming was seized on. Why, is it the east wind or the west wind blowing recently?Someone asked knowingly. Still criticize the theory that ghosts are harmless, Situ? Before Li Yongzhong comes back, the windows must be closed at night! Situ couldn't stand it anymore, so he pretended to threaten and said: See you spreading superstition, the movement is coming, be careful I will post your big-character posters! Don't talk about it!At this time, Xiao Mai acted as a peacemaker again, and turned around to smooth things over for Situ.We are so close to the crematorium, it is too late to break the superstition and spread it! Spreading superstition has long been strictly prohibited. Since Xiaomai turned his back on him, the jokers had no choice but to let Situ go.So the laughter that had just started subsided again, and everyone pulled the weeds silently. Speaking of the crematorium, Xin Mei couldn't help but tilt her head and glance up the mountain.It was a cloudy autumn day, and the sky was covered with thick and thin white clouds that looked like choppy waves.A brick chimney protruding high on the hillside spewed out endless black smoke. The black smoke rose slowly, gradually faded in color, and finally disappeared into the depths of the white clouds without a trace. It was the first time she had noticed this chimney in the years since she came to the water hospital, and found that it was the only building protruding from the forest surface on the mountain in this area.It is condescending, looking proud and indifferent, even the slanting sun in the west can't melt the gloomy chill.Although Xin Mei was not superstitious, her heart suddenly felt chilly.She quickly retracted her gaze, and then buried her head to pull weeds. After pulling the weeds back, Xin Mei immediately told her family the news that the freshmen were going back to Nanjing.Grandma and Tao Lian were naturally pleasantly surprised, only Tao Ye blinked and couldn't comprehend the meaning of his father's return for a while.Seeing that the younger son's reaction was not enthusiastic, the mother felt both emotion and pity.It's no wonder that Xiaoye is unfamiliar with his father. Dad is a term that is often heard, but not often encountered.Before he was one year old, his father had been working on the farm and only came to live at home for a few days in three months, almost as a stranger to passers-by.When he could recognize someone, Dad was away on a business trip again.This past ten months made the impression he had just established blurred again.Xin Mei believed that he was not as familiar with his father's image as he was with Chairman Mao. Xiao Ye could recognize Mao Zedong's face anytime and anywhere. Xiaoye, are you not happy that Dad is coming back?Xin Mei held the child in her arms, kissed the little face and asked. The nature of father and son is delicate to say the least. Seeing his brother happy and hearing his mother's affectionate tone, Tao Ye suddenly broke into a smile, opened his little hands and shouted: Dad wants to come back!Dad is coming back! Time to come back too!Grandma was happy for a while, and chattered unsatisfactorily.After traveling for so long, if you don't come home again, isn't it the same as being sent to the labor camp?Those who have been sent down, the whole family is still together! When Xin Mei heard that the labor camp was being devolved, she quickly stopped her: Grandma, don't take it down and compare it! What are you afraid of?Decentralization is what I said! She swung her presbyopia, straightened her thin and flat chest, with an air of daring to stand up to the sky. Xin Mei just smiled and stopped talking.Relying on their poor backgrounds and tough waists, the old man can say whatever he likes when he is happy, and he does not shy away from any political influence.If she thinks it is reasonable, she will raise her voice to fight for a blush and a thick neck, and she will never give in.Xin Mei likes her straightforwardness, but she is also worried that the neighbors will hear half-knowledge and cause misunderstanding.She had experienced grandma's stubbornness, so she stopped talking in time to avoid arguments. I'm going to see Dr. Ho.She was anxious to tell her neighbors that her husband was coming home soon. Our meals are all on the table, let's eat first.Dr. He was not at home, he rushed back in the afternoon to cook for Mao Mao, and just now he rushed to work the night shift again.Later I have to go to wash Mao Mao's face and send him to bed. After finishing speaking, grandma immediately called Brother Tao Lian to have dinner. Xin Mei felt sorry for Mao Mao who had to look after the house alone at such a young age, so she went over to have a look.Without the supervision of adults, Maomao played while eating, half of a bowl of rice was spilled, and the chairs on the table were full of rice grains.Maomao eats quickly, and can come to play with Tao Zhi only after eating.She coaxed the child a few words before going home for dinner. Just after eating, there was a knock on the door.Xin Mei thought it was Mao Mao who was coming, so she just turned around slightly, stretched out a hand and opened the door behind her by a crack of a ruler.After waiting for a while, she didn't see Mao Mao coming in, so she poked her head out.When a visitor came, she jumped up in surprise. What, it's Li Yongzhong!Already back? Didn't expect that, Xiao Xin? Seeing Xin Mei's eyes widened in surprise, Li Yongzhong cracked his mouth and smiled silly.He shouldered two bedrolls like a burden, with a cloth belt tied in the middle, straddling his shoulders, and holding one in each arm. He was as steady as a farmer.The long-distance travel made him dirty and wrinkled, his hair was disheveled, and the corners of his mouth showed stubble. It seemed that he hadn't combed it for a few days, showing a dusty appearance. Come in, come in!Xin Mei praised Li Yongzhong into the room repeatedly: "Haven't you eaten yet, little Lizai?" Just got off the train. The dining table blocked the passage, so Xin Mei cleared the way before letting the guests and luggage into her room.Li Yongzhong greeted the old and the young, then tilted his shoulders and dropped the bedding to the ground. There are noodles ready-made, I will come to order right away.Grandma stayed for Xin Mei's guests first, and at the same time hurriedly fed Xiaoye. Seeing that the food on the table was ruined, Yongzhong immediately waved his hand to stop it: don't bother, I'll eat it at the train station later, it's very convenient. You still have to get on the train?Xin Mei was surprised that he had to leave just after he came back. Yes, I went back to the dormitory and left the bedding behind, and I had to take the overnight train back to Shijiazhuang in the evening.Come over to see you first, and bring back Lao Tao's things by the way.When they passed through Nanchang and Shanghai, they had to visit several universities, so it took some time.Lao Tao bought you a few pieces of porcelain that were exported to the domestic market, wrapped them in quilts, and asked me to bring them back. Xin Mei thanked him, and immediately asked Yongzhong to sit down at the desk. Take a breath, Xiao Li, I'll fetch a basin of water to wash your face.You don't stay to eat noodles, don't say grandma doesn't follow, Tao Xinsheng will come back in a few days, it's no wonder if you don't scold me! Yongzhong smiled and was no longer humble.When Xin Mei went to the kitchen to fetch water, the old lady whispered that there were only two eggs at home, and they were reserved for the children.She gave grandma two yuan and told her to go to the deli in Yinyangying to buy some stewed pork. Tao Lian dropped the bowl early and came to chat with Uncle Li.When he heard that Uncle Li took the train back to Nanjing, he was very envious, but he refused to be resigned to the disadvantage, and announced loudly: I have been on a boat! OK!Are you going to Wuhan?Yongzhong wiped his face with a towel while teasing him.In the blink of an eye, he grows so tall!Tao Lian, what do you want to be when you grow up? Tao Lian blurted out without blinking: Be a People's Liberation Army! Well done! Yongzhong praised her and looked at Xinmei with a smile.After Xin Mei smiled lightly, she immediately shook her head heavily and said nothing.Tao Lian has been intoxicated by the dream of being a soldier since he was a child, but given his family background, this is pure fantasy, but the mother can't bear to tell the truth. Yongzhong was more realistic than her, so he immediately said: Tao Lian, isn't it good to be a worker?The working class leads everything! Tao Lian shook his head and refused, and immediately assumed the posture of standing at attention and carrying the gun. It's best to be the PLA!Fight the Soviet revisionists, fight the U.S. imperialists, and overthrow the reactionaries of all countries! Xin Mei waved him away: Tao Lian, my brother has finished his meal, you can take him to Mao Mao's house to play. Grandma came over and took the washbasin away, then turned around and sent the two brothers to the next door.Then she winked at Xin Mei and quietly went to the street. In the evening, the clouds in the sky are getting thicker and thicker. When the sun sets, the twilight will come early. Xin Mei saw that the student dormitory of the Southern Normal University across the street had been turned on.She also turned on the lights in the room, closed the curtains, and turned around to make Yongzhong a cup of good tea. Let's have a drink of Biluochun. I bought two taels last year, and I have been reluctant to make it. It is only for rare customers. Yongzhong was extremely thirsty, he blew a few times, and drank most of the cup in one gulp.He didn't know good from bad, and grinned dryly. Xinmei and everyone used to call him Little Lizai. In fact, Yongzhong has passed his thirties, but he has been placing orders all the time. Moreover, he is a graduate of the school who stayed to teach, so he can't get rid of his nickname when he was a student.Yongzhong's stature is only of medium height, but he is full of energy, full of air in his speech, and his deep and powerful voice often attracts people around him like a magnet, making him look much taller than ordinary people.他是典型的北方青年，粗獷豪放，而且腳踏實地，簡直是牢牢站穩了給他生命和力量的大地。永忠來自農村，雖然在城市薰陶了十幾年，身上仍然散發著泥土的渾厚和芬芳，尤其是他對未來永不灰心的一份固執，更像土地那麼堅硬。許多女孩子對他注目，其實永忠並非美男子。他天生皮膚就黑，像北風吹多了，顯得又乾又粗。長方形的臉頂著突出的額頭，下巴寬闊，乍看有些突兀，不過眼神明亮而含著笑意，加上雙唇豐滿，流露出他熱情的天性。要說英俊，該是指他挺直的鼻梁，把方頭大臉高高地挑起，賦予它平衡和調和，使得粗壯中藏著一份溫柔。 司徒青看到你回來，可要高興了！辛梅對永忠說，他等著和你打乒乓球。你不好明早走，非要這麼連夜趕？媽媽身體好嗎？ 就是不好，我這才急著趕回去。 永忠說著，眉眼啪噠往下掛，臉膛立刻佈上陰雲。 她病了一個夏天都不叫人告訴我。九月底的一封信裏，寫信的人瞞著她，才把病情透露了一些。我正想著什麼時候回去看看，電報就來了！四個字：病重速回。我立刻去請假這次用的是今年的探親假，領導上不好不批。 年紀大的人變化多，但願是虛驚一場。明天到你家，老人家好好的也說不定。 辛梅從永忠母親轉而想到自己的父母，心裏不免惆悵，因而更加同情他。永忠的父親是貧農，抗日的時候給游擊隊通風報信而被日本人殺害。母親含辛茹苦地帶大永忠。兩人一向相依為命。永忠很孝順，雖然常年在外做事，只要走得開，總是趕回去看望她。 今天永忠卻不想談他母親。他向辛梅打聽學校的近況，特別是批林運動。 批了將近一年，大家想得通嗎？ 辛梅揚了揚眉，淡然一笑說：有什麼想不通？領導怎麼說，我們也跟著說。 永忠對共產黨一向忠心耿耿。他在造反的時候，喊得最響的一句是自己天生有深厚的階級感情。這是因為，除了貧農的成分外，他父親的死使得共產黨把他家封為烈屬。他從小受到照顧，對共產黨一直感恩戴德，黨裏的一些知名人物，都是他心目中的英雄。特別是林彪在平型關一役中打垮日本的板垣兵團，早成了他崇拜的偶像。當林彪被毛澤東選為接班人時，永忠和所有的紅衛兵都是誓死效忠的。永忠帶領的造反組織本來叫叢中笑戰鬥組，以後特地改為最大戰鬥組。這是摘自林彪針對武漢事件的講話中評及文革的損失是最小最小，而政治收穫是最大最大這個形容詞而來的。辛梅自己對林彪原先就好惡參半，但對他狡兔死，走狗烹的下場也很同情。她猜想永忠可能心情十分矛盾。 小李，你自己對林彪，現在怎麼看法？ 果然，小李慘笑了一聲。what is the difference?我們也是上了當！ 他忽地側轉身，避過辛梅的眼光，去望著對面的白粉牆。五斗櫥正上方掛著毛澤東像，永忠的目光剛落在上面，眉頭便一皺，立刻又移開。 辛梅正要問他上了誰的當，他像有預感，把手一擺，近乎專橫地阻止她說下去。她從來沒見他這麼急躁過，猜想是歸心似箭的結果。 永忠似乎醒悟到自己的突兀，抱歉地咧嘴一笑說： 革命總有曲折，但中國的前途是光明的！這點信心一定要有。 永忠果然顯得很有自信，額頭看來更加寬闊開朗。辛梅發現他的眼中閃爍著一種光亮，是一種狂熱，不惜一切要去挑戰的決心。 老陶在湖南過得怎麼樣？辛梅改口向他打聽起丈夫。 永忠約略談了一下他們在湘西的考察工作，生活自然是艱苦，但發現了不少水源，蒐集了大把資料，已經在長沙整理出來了。說到陶新生的工作表現他讚揚不止，但也說出了他對朋友的憂慮。 他向來很自覺，只有多幹，不會少幹的老陶為人太純真了，你最好勸勸他。他把國家、主義和領袖等同於宗教來崇拜，這樣的愛國者，在我們社會裏要碰得頭破血流的。 辛梅想起丈夫鬱鬱寡歡的臉，不免嘆氣。 我希望他會慢慢看淡看開。翻天覆地的文化大革命老陶都走過來了，林彪事件遲早也該淡忘掉。 對人是可以這樣永忠搖著大腦袋，似乎只同意辛梅一半的話，要是對整個制度產生懷疑 這時，老太太推門進來，永忠立刻閉上嘴。等看清楚老人是出門買東西，他含笑地責備起辛梅：你說是現成的麵，怎麼又叫人出去採購？ 不費事，不費事！奶奶笑瞇瞇地搶著回答。你坐坐呀，麵馬上就下出來！ 爐上的水早燒開了，水聲呼呼響著。辛梅過來幫著把奶奶買來的滷菜乘在碟子裏，重新擺出了碗筷。奶奶拉開了爐門，開始下麵。自從她到辛梅家當保姆，兩年多了，這是第二回留客人吃飯。老人家都喜歡熱鬧，她雖然忙，可是覺得新鮮又帶勁。不止她高興，連辛梅都覺得榮幸。記得頭一回留客人吃飯，還是小冶剛生下來不久的事。小邁來看辛梅，談過了時間，被留下來吃了頓午飯。這頓飯對小邁顯然不好消化，據說她因此吃了黨裏的一頓談話，嚇得她輕易不敢再來陶家別說吃飯了，連板凳都不敢坐暖！ 奶奶很快端出了湯麵，面上漂著蔥末和麻油。 你只管吃，她給客人打氣，掛麵多哪，我還在下。 永忠在辛梅的桌上看見一本朱元璋傳，坐下來吃麵時，就問她怎麼走私出圖書館的？她知道他嘴很緊，便據實相告，說是小馬從圖書館半盜半借給她。 一定是書庫底層拿的，永忠微微一笑說。六七年我和紅衛兵經常出入書庫，什麼禁書都拿來看，可惜沒看這一本。不過，批判海瑞罷官那一陣子，這本書也批到。它的要害是借古諷今，諷刺我們的領袖像朱元璋一樣，取得政權後背叛農民階級，成了獨攬大權的專制暴君。你是學歷史的，你怎麼看呢？ 辛梅想說毛澤東分明是做賊心虛，但話到舌尖，又咽了下去。一則永忠是大左派，自己不願意在他面前當右派，二則老奶奶近在咫尺，雖然忠厚可靠，究竟是外人，還是小心為上。但她也不肯全部抹煞自己的觀點。 我一向主張為歷史而歷史。用階級鬥爭來概括幾千年的歷史，我想有些簡單粗暴。一部二十四史，就是簡單的人吃人的時代記錄嗎？我看文明和進步才是主要的。這當然屬於論從史出的觀點，但也是客觀而科學的。吳晗專搞明史，朱元璋傳前後寫了二十年，是一部嘔心瀝血的學術著作，不該被套上政治教條。歷史本來就有借鏡作用，如果覺得史實觸動了自己的瘡疤，應該改正自己，而不是禁止史學家不寫歷史。歷史是永恆的時間，客觀的存在。它又像滾滾向前的車輪，人要遮掩抗拒，就像螳臂擋車，又像毛主席說的嗡嗡叫，有幾個蒼蠅碰壁，全是白費心思。 聽了她的論調，永忠注視了她一眼，說：你不再搞歷史也好。不後悔吧？ 這個問題倒使辛梅躊躇了一下。 與本行一刀兩斷本來是十分痛心的事，她幸好是逐步放棄，有一段適應的過程。在美國念研究院的時候，為了準備回國，她特地鑽研了一番馬列主義，嘗試用階級鬥爭來闡釋歷史。即使在愛國熱情取代一切的當時，她已經感到這樣治史，失之偏激，疑惑唯物史觀不是死胡同，也是窄門陋巷。但是翦伯贊、吳晗還能發表著作，她相信國家還是重視歷史研究。直到人到了北京，她才發現史學領域裏是淒風慘雨，清一色的黑旗。陳伯達鼓吹厚今薄古所帶動的史學革命，再加上以馬列主義、毛澤東思想為指導來研究歷史的以論帶史口號，造成了狹窄閉塞，甚至黑白不分的後果。農民戰爭取代了一部中國通史；蘇聯的開國史和黨史搶去中國近代史的地位中國人可以數不出歷代王朝，不知孔丘為何氏，但是斯基耶夫之流卻被灌輸了一腦袋。她原先是準備要放棄自己專攻的希臘史，改教通史，而分發工作的時候，幹部局口口聲聲說：我們儘量結合專業，但是最要緊是考慮到國家的需要。 歷史兩個字從來不曾提到，可見不是國家的需要。 不後悔！ 她爽快地回答永忠，雖然自己都聽得出淒涼的尾音。 中國的歷史都不要了，我學的西洋史更該扔進垃圾堆！快吃吧，麵要涼了。 別看到一時一事就灰心，小辛。不會老是陰雨，總有天晴的時候。 永忠安慰了辛梅一句，才捧起麵，大口吃起來。他人爽快，吃麵也快，擺在桌上的滷肉和鹽水鴨，他還沒怎麼動過，轉眼就吃下兩大碗麵。 老奶奶看到客人能吃，比自己吃下肚還高興，便忙著給他下麵，又勸他吃菜，招待得比女主人還殷勤。永忠除了回老家，從來不曾像這樣被兩個女人熱心款待過，興奮感激之餘，又不免有些靦腆。他接過老太太第三碗麵，其實已經飽了，不好意思辭謝，一聲不響又吃下去。 看著永忠的藍布外套，袖口磨得油汙發亮，胸前的口袋因為使用得厲害，已經出現了綻線。辛梅想永忠實在應該結婚了。正想問他女友阿桃的近況，礙著奶奶在附近，只好忍住。她知道永忠不願意在外人跟前談到他心上的人。 永忠的傷心事，辛梅最清楚。他的女友阿桃在文化革命初期很出風頭。她本名是蘇桃，但老師和學生都親暱地喊慣了她的小名。辛梅不曾同她交談過，但自第一眼看到她，到目送她離校，始終都覺得她是個可愛又可敬的少女。阿桃是小小個子，但長得粗眉大眼，高顴骨，有些像北方人，不過一對眸子溫柔多情，這卻是南方少女的特點。辛梅見到的阿桃從來不曾笑過，然而據永忠形容，阿桃的一張小嘴最是會笑。她送永忠的一張照片就是巧笑倩兮的證明。不但笑得甜，攝影師還擒住了那脈脈含情的眼神，它像雲一樣輕靈，又像水一般綿密。 阿桃是福建武夷山下的茶農女兒，因為品行兼優，中學畢業後被縣裏保送到南京念水利。永忠教過她一年書，但真正墜入愛河還是紅衛兵起來造反以後的事。阿桃很活躍，是水院最早的紅衛兵之一，曾經帶領女同學出外串連，足跡遍及華南和東北，而且兩度在北京受到毛澤東的檢閱。她最先支持永忠的戰鬥組，以後成為最大戰鬥組的幹將。兩人並肩作戰，互相仰慕，革命感情終於昇華為愛情。本來，師生戀愛雖無明文禁止，但絕對不受鼓勵。然而永忠這一對，人人都認為階級上門當戶對，是典型的天作之合，剩下的只是何時請吃糖的事。 可惜一張大字報帶來了厄運。 阿桃第二回去北京串連的時候，同高幹子女為核心的造反組織聯合行動委員會掛了鉤。這個組織先受江青利用，以後覺醒了就起來反對江青。阿桃受到影響，轉抄了一張大字報，拿回南京來張貼。叫呂后外傳的這張大字報，用嘲謔的遊戲文字，不指名地攻擊江青的背信和跋扈作為，用茶花女影射她早年的浪漫生活。不久，江青親自把聯動打成反革命組織，圍剿搜捕，迫使一些成員逃亡到國外。消息傳到南京，她立刻自我檢討，並公開與聯動劃清了界線。可是到了清理階級隊伍的整肅階段，她成了整肅的對象，罪名是聯動餘黨，惡毒攻擊領袖的親密戰友和無產階級革命戰士江青。永忠跟她是公開的愛人身分，又同一個戰鬥組，為了避免自己做無謂的犧牲並保護其他的成員，不但不敢為她辯護，還被迫上臺鬥爭她，與她劃清界線。 我這是生平第一次演戲。 他後來向陶新生吐露心事，談到這一段時，愧恨交加，大腦袋都抬不起來。 我站在臺上喊口號，可是我心裏淌著淚不，是在淌血！ 阿桃很剛強，隔離審查了半年，她死不承認參加過聯動，其他罪名她一個人承當，不曾咬出任何同志來。六九年春天，學校奉命去支援挖煤，阿桃才被帶出隔離室，也送到煤礦去勞動。那是辛梅首次見到她。她住在女生宿舍裏，可是不跟任何人說話；白天也不同大家在一起勞動，而是由一個女同學押著到路邊去敲石頭。看她明眉秀目，臉上平靜，勞動又勤快，辛梅不能想像她犯的罪有什麼實際意義。有一回撞見永忠他以為是無人注意的當兒拿眼梢瞟著阿桃，辛梅心裏連喊了幾聲罪孽。 最令永忠難堪的是六九年秋天，阿桃正式被打成反革命分子，遣送回鄉勞改。學校竟叫他和一名紅衛兵押解她返福建。可憐的永忠，簡直是冰炭滿懷抱了。想當年，兩人攜手幹革命，叱吒風雲，不可一世，如今愛人成了階下囚，自己竟得當起解！但是他不能推托，只能勇敢承當。阿桃的堅強支持著永忠，也感動了許多紅衛兵。與阿桃牽涉在一起的還有個女生，她見幾次檢查都沒通過，嚇得中途就上吊自殺。相比之下，阿桃反而贏得了敬意。她被押解出校的那天，好些女生掉了淚。辛梅是躲在辦公室，偷偷看著他們走過去。 表面上，永忠與阿桃不再來往了。但是辛梅很清楚，兩人儘管隔著千山萬水，感情比以前還要牢固。永忠出身好，精明能幹，是教研組裏的依靠對象，而且是黨員候選人。如今阿桃成了戴帽子的反革命，結婚完全不可能。熱情如火的永忠，這幾年來也學會了忍耐。他耐心地期待著阿桃有摘掉帽子的一日。 為了永忠，阿桃確實很努力。就在去年春天，她老家公社的社主任給水院來了一封信，要求學校重新考慮對阿桃的處分。他們公社是武夷山中的窮鄉僻壤主任在信中指出解放二十年來，阿桃是他們的第一個大學生，當年敲鑼打鼓歡送她上南京讀大學，萬想不到她會被打成反革命押回勞改不止她個人丟醜，整個公社都抹了灰。信裏強調，阿桃家是三代貧農，她離鄉前表現很好，目前也勞動積極；她的反革命言行完全是水院的責任，要勞改也該在水院勞改，草草遣返是推卸責任。 最後一批紅衛兵離校前，就有人公開表示，對蘇桃的處分太嚴厲，不符合坦白從寬的政策。接到這封信時，永忠這一派的教員便有建議給她摘帽子的。可惜時機與阿桃作對，江青的地位蒸蒸日上，不但擠進了政治局常委，而且公然是毛澤東的代言人，眼看就要扶成國家領導人。對著準皇后，院革委會吹捧都來不及，豈敢赦免了阿桃？於是，信便被送進了檔案，不知哪天才能再見天日。可憐的永忠，好不容易燃起一線希望，馬上又化成了灰。 再來一碗麵？奶奶要給永忠盛第四碗。 永忠趕緊搖頭稱謝。他見辛梅盯著自己的衣服發呆，以為哪裏又破了口子沒有補，有些難為情，只好顧左右而言他：小辛，你的天才教學怎麼樣啦？ 她知道永忠指的是給林衛東單獨上英語課的事。這件事已經有些風言風語，雖然沒有正式聽到領導方面的評論，她心裏已經作好為自己辯護的準備。 林衛東是我九十個學生中成績最好的，我不給他單獨上課，三年大學下來，他英語會等於白讀恐怕還是逆水行舟，不進則退呢！ 別緊張，小辛，祇要不是為自己出風頭，就要擇善而固執。要有天塌下來也敢頂的精神才好。 你怎麼知道這些事，老陶告訴你的？ 司徒青。他還告訴我，你是水院第一個恢復考試的教員。要得，教育革命的闖將！ 別挖苦了！我為了考試，翻了一夜的毛主席語錄，摘了幾條第二天拿去課堂裏給學生打通思想，煞費苦心的。 別怕，以後全要恢復考試，永忠極有自信地預言著。這是客觀規律。清華北大起先數學是開卷考，結果學生連定理定律都不想記，現在也開始閉卷考了。毛主席的那一套教育理論，諸如上課打瞌睡，不要考試，考試可以看書等等，才是不折不扣的天才教學。它只適合像他這樣天分高的天才，我們凡夫俗子還是老老實實多讀幾本書才是正經。 Yo!你怎麼修正起自己的論點來？辛梅樂得有機會能挑挑大左派的毛病。我聽說六六年，你是頭一個支持起來造反的紅衛兵，親自抄出這篇與鄧小平同志春節講話的大字報，打響了水院師生革命的頭一砲哪！ 永忠自我解嘲地嘿嘿笑了，又晃下大腦袋，表示與過去決裂。 革命形勢不同了！你若記住那個談話的內容，不難發現一點：就在交談的當時，鄧小平已是不耐煩，幾次把毛澤東從離題十萬八千里的自言自語中拉回現實來。不是紅衛兵沖擊，談話也不會上大字報不信你等著瞧，陳伯達一定不敢把它放進毛選第五集裏！ 辛梅正想訴說一通這