When Xin Mei finished her work at the printing factory and returned to the teaching and research group, Lin Weidong had already come and gone.The composition he left was being flipped through by Guo Yingsheng in his hand.Lao Guo used to be a top student at Jinling University with 20 years of English teaching experience. Xin Mei wanted to hear his evaluation of her students.
My student's English is not bad, Lao Guo?
Lao Guo nodded, returned the composition to her and said: It is not bad, but it is best to do less composition, especially not to have such topics.The future movement is coming, just this topic can give you a wall of big-character posters!
She is submissive, and she is embarrassed to say that this is a topic that she came up with because of Lin Ye's love.After sitting down and reading the composition in a hurry, I was surprised.I thought that Lin Weidong would write some revolutionary stereotypes that college students are not suitable for dating, but he said in the first sentence: proletarian college students are mature workers, peasants and soldiers, so they don’t have to be afraid of falling in love.Then he defended his actions, and quoted a few quotations from Mao Zedong and the Constitution, emphasizing the freedom of marriage, which made sense.The grammar of the article is even more correct, and the composition is also stable.Xin Mei shook her head and sighed, she only felt ashamed towards her colleagues.
Less composition and sentence making.Lao Guo kindly advised her: When writing example sentences on the blackboard, you must think twice before acting.For those who teach English, all the mistakes are in this kind of place.Fortunately, the 900 sentences in English were not made up by us, otherwise they would have been thrown into hell!Opening your mouth means traveling and vacationing, whether it’s an airplane or a car, all kinds of bourgeois things, but there is no revolution that we should have!
Xin Mei knew that what he said was the truth, she nodded her head convinced.Lao Guo was an outspoken person at first, but he was afraid of being criticized, so he had no choice but to play it safe. In public, he always kept his mouth shut; in private, his slogan was to tell people what people say, and to talk nonsense to hell.Xin Mei was obviously not a ghost in his eyes. Since she stepped onto the podium, she received friendly advice from him from time to time, and her impression of him gradually improved.Four years ago, when she first came to the teaching and research group, the teachers and students were bombarding this rightist who slipped through the net, tearing up the textbooks he compiled in the 1950s and criticizing them one by one.What she couldn't forget most was when he explained the subjunctive syntax and used the phrase "I wish money would grow on the tree!"Accused of being a money fan, he was nicknamed Guo Cai fan.
At this time, Lao Guo gave another example from personal experience.
Once, I wrote on the blackboard that rainy days are so annoying!When the Red Guards rebelled, they wrote a big-character poster with just this sentence, saying that rainwater is the treasure of agriculture and the lifeblood of poor and lower-middle peasants.Can I say that what they say is unreasonable?
Xin Mei shook her head sympathetically, but thought that her students would not be so unreasonable.
Are those students playing sports for sports sake, Lao Guo?This kind of faultfinding makes the teachers feel at a loss. In the end, they are the ones who suffer the most!
Most young people exercise for the sake of exercise, but we bear the brunt of it and suffer from immediate losses.
Having said that, Lao Guo smiled wryly, and picked up the nine hundred sentences in English again.He flipped through the picture pages, pretending to be casual and said:
In fact, students are difficult to serve, and colleagues are also hard to guard against.After all, the big-character posters of the students are the bright guns, but the reports between the teachers are the hidden guns, and this is the most important thing to guard against.In a word, protect yourself everywhere.
Xin Mei recalled his words, and Wang Degui's face suddenly flashed in her mind. The yellow face wearing deep-set glasses who appeared in the last row of the classroom to listen to her lectures looked a bit scheming.Like a thorn popping out of her back, she immediately felt uncomfortable.I wanted to find out about Lao Guo, but seeing him frowned and bowed his head to write a book, as if he had reached the end of the conversation, he had no choice but to give up.She said goodbye, took Lin Weidong's composition and went home.
On the way, she felt more and more heavy as she walked, and finally decided to find an excuse to withhold the composition and not return it.
Tao Xinsheng came back that afternoon and made the whole family happy.
When Xinmei saw her husband, she was happy, and all the unhappiness at school was forgotten.In order to celebrate the reunion, she went to the Dasanyuan Restaurant in Xinjiekou and bought a roast duck for the whole family.
In the evening, Dr. He brought Maomao to visit, and when he came in, he shouted: Congratulations, Xiao Xin!
The freshman sat on the edge of the bed and giggled, seemingly unable to say anything other than nodding his head.He held Tao Ye in his arms, let him jump on his knees, but squinted one eye, and read a comic book with Tao Lian who was snuggling at his feet.
Xin Mei seemed to be drunk, she already felt in high spirits. Hearing congratulations was very pleasant.She found that life is easy to be satisfied, and there is no need for a salary increase. As long as the family stays together, they are happy and worth celebrating.
Dr. He was happy for the family, and Yuanpan smiled like a peony in full bloom.She was really envious of seeing father and son enjoying themselves without saying a word.Thinking about my husband feeding pigs on the farm for many years, my eldest son living far away in Hunan, and my family of four being divided into three places, I can't help feeling sad.Thinking, watching, the teardrops didn't listen, and hung on the cheeks.She wiped it off quietly, lest Xin Mei would catch her.Xin Mei's eyes were sharp, and when she saw the tear stains, she knew what the other person was thinking, and she also sighed in her heart.
Dr. He sat for a while, and took Maomao home with the excuse of going to work early tomorrow.Grandma wanted the Taos and his wife to go to bed earlier, so she washed the brothers' hands and feet yelling, and put them to bed before nine o'clock.Today, after a long separation, the family turned off the lights and went to bed early.
In the dead of night, Xinmei curled up in her husband's arms, like a boat sailing into a safe haven, feeling safe and happy.She listened to his deep heartbeat after passion, every beat awakened the intoxication and confusion of love.Reminiscing about the frenzy and kiss just now, the rush of force and fusion of heat made her feel so rich that she was going to dizzy.She closed her eyes and closed her mind, rejecting yesterday and tomorrow, only thinking about this moment, believing that nothing has changed, and everything is as beautiful as before.She wished that time would stay at this moment, and she simply did not want the past or the future.If it wasn't for her husband to wake her up, she would have no regrets if she died in this love coma.
What are you thinking?He asked close to her ear.
Nothing.
She is telling the truth.She hoped that the new students would not use their brains, and would be as intoxicated in the tenderness of love as she was, and ignore everything else.
But Xin Xin is a persistent person, lacking her free and easy way of stealing half a day of leisure.What's more, the pillow is a surefire place to talk, and only at this time can he reveal a little bit of his thoughts to his wife.
Fangzheng and the others are leaving.After finally coming to a friend, I have to leave soon.
This is the first time he mentioned friends since Wuhan broke up.Although the tone was melancholy, there was no condemnation or emotion in the tone, which surprised Xin Mei.She had no doubts that he would never approve of their actions.
Did you persuade Fangzheng?she asked.
He only told me when he was taking me on the train, how could I have time to persuade him in such a hurry?It's useless to persuade him. If he doesn't leave today, he will leave tomorrow.
So you think they're on the right track?
Xinsheng made no sound, only his heavy snort was heard in the darkness.It was a painful ordeal for him to judge the right and wrong of his friend's actions.He loves his friends and understands their difficulties, but he is more patriotic.
I don't think it's a question of right or wrong, Amei, it's a personal choice, and my hometown is where I feel at ease!
Xin Mei thought his answer was too mysterious. There is always a judgment of right and wrong and value in everything, and this case is no exception.But then I thought about it, I was also full of contradictions, and I shouldn't push people too much.
Although Fangzheng emphasized that the motivation and effect of patriotism should be unified, the new student said, I think it is Yanan who can't wait to leave because of the future of the child.
When the child was mentioned, Xin Mei's heart became alive.She struggled out of his arms, and asked him gently but seriously: Have you thought about the future of our child?
The freshman seemed to have anticipated this move, and immediately comforted her with a firm tone: Don't worry, Tao Lian was born and raised here, and they are two different generations from us.We are catching up with the era of great changes, so we have to sacrifice, but we can give our children a perfect growth environment and let them become 100% Chinese.Their future may not be what we want, but what does it matter?It is better to be an upright Chinese than to wander outside.The Jews who have been wandering for thousands of years still want to establish their own country. How can we instead deprive our children of the motherland?
Xin Mei suspected that this environment was perfect for Tao Lian, but she was unwilling to argue.Their thoughts are often consistent, and they have never been in the habit of arguing.But when Xinxin mentioned native-born, her heart skipped a beat.She thought of Su Tao.So, she leaned into his ear and told about A Tao's swimming practice.
The surprise of the new students exceeded her expectations.After yelling, he quietly withdrew the hand that was on her pillow, crossed his hands under his head, and lay quietly on his back.The room was dark, but she seemed to be able to see her husband's long eyebrows and big eyes locked tightly.
A Tao is young and full of hope.She whispered in her husband's ear: Tell Xiao Li Zai to persuade her not to take this risk.There are militias and border guards on land, and sharks and storms at sea. How can a girl get out?
It's too late, it's too late, one has to run away, the other has to be punished, how can there be a chance to persuade?
Take the whole thing?Who will be punished?She thought she had missed it, so she quickly turned around and raised her head to ask.
Li Yongzhong.
Li Yongzhong will be punished!
She felt that the news was too abrupt, as if reading the Arabian Nights when she was a child, it was so bizarre and unbelievable.A few days ago Yongzhong was still talking and laughing in this room, encouraging her not to be discouraged.Unexpectedly, in the blink of an eye, he himself was besieged on all sides.What makes her most uncomfortable is that Yongzhong is still kept in the dark.
According to the freshmen's understanding, Yongzhong was implicated by two students from the former largest combat group. They were arrested in Xuzhou and bitten out his name during interrogation.Xuzhou sent people to Nanjing to investigate, and the school ordered the team to finish their work as soon as possible and return to Nanjing.It happened that Yongzhong asked for leave to go home.As soon as he left, the leader and the deputy captain called everyone to study Mao Zedong's quotations on the struggle against the enemy, and announced that Yongzhong was suspected of being anti-party and anti-leader, and asked everyone to report it.Because Yongzhong is a popular figure in the education team, for the sake of prudence, big-character posters are not used for the time being, and only verbal and written reports are limited to the small team.
What is the suspicion of anti-party and anti-leadership?
Xin Mei felt that this suspicion was placed on Yongzhong's head, which made people laugh and cry.
I can't find out how.The freshman's low tone expressed his distress: When Xiao Li was around, I heard all kinds of news from him.Once something happened to him, I was more afraid than being blind. It would be a waste of effort to see others whispering and not easy to inquire about it.It's been four years, and I'm still a guest in the group, so I can't get into the circle.
Hearing that she was a guest, Xin Mei felt as if she had been stabbed with a needle. Although the pain was small, it spread to her heart.She stretched out a hand and hugged her husband tightly by the waist, without saying a word.Facing the cold facts, verbal comfort is superfluous.
We exposed it for two days, but we didn't uncover any serious crimes.On the first day, everyone seemed to have been hit by a sap, and they were all in a daze.The next day, everyone waited and watched, and the leader had no choice but to throw out a piece of material, which was against Jiang Qing.
Too bad, why are you going to touch Jiang Qing's bad luck again?Xinmei couldn't help crying for Yongzhong.
It turned out that last year Nanjing vigorously promoted model operas, and the farms in northern Jiangsu also set off a climax of popularization, and regularly held singing competitions.Yongzhong's group selected Red Lantern and recommended him to be the lead singer, and the leader asked him to be in charge of teaching some old professors who had never sung.He can't sing opera himself, so he had to go to the town to buy music scores, sacrifice his nap time, and practice hard first.It happened that one day, when the farm was on vacation, everyone went to the town to go to the market, and he was left singing in the dormitory.The passage he practiced was the libretto of Li Yu and his mother going to a banquet. The first two lines are:
Drink a bowl of wine before leaving,
The whole body is brave and valiant!
Yongzhong was lying on the bed, sang and sang in discord, he was so angry that he threw away the song book, and came out fluently:
A fucking bowl of piss before leaving!
It stinks all over, there is no cure!
Everyone went to the market, who heard it?
Xin Mei is funny, but also annoyed who is so boring to make a small report.
I guess it was Yang Rui who did it, he didn't seem to be seen in the episode that day.He was sleeping on the upper bunk, but Xiao Li must have not seen him, thinking that everyone had left.
No wonder!Xin Mei thought.Yang Rui is one of the party members with the worst profession and the worst labor. His only ability is to give small reports to others.
As soon as the material was released that day, he took the lead in speaking, saying that Xiao Li had always been in conflict with the model opera, that he was deprived of the freedom not to listen or sing, to vilify the image of a hero, and to point the finger at Comrade Jiang Qing.He also exposed Li Yongzhong's accusation of attacking Jiang Qing, which was a sentence during the climax of the Cultural Revolution.At that time, people from the Revolutionary League copied the big-character poster that Wang Guangmei was arrested in Beijing and sent to Tsinghua University to criticize him. It is said that Xiao Li once cursed a Red Guard: If Wang Guangmei is punished like this today, Jiang Qing should not end up in the same end someday!
Now, Xin Mei was really sweating for Yongzhong.
He is politically shrewd and capable, how can he speak so carelessly?I hated Jiang Qing, I got it in my heart, so why talk about it, Yang Rui and he belonged to the faction of the Revolutionary Union, so it doesn't matter if you don't cover it up, if you come here to fight back, it will be a joke for the faction of Gesi!
The freshmen are resting too much: they can't get rid of factional disputes, and the leaders use this factional strife to divide and conquer.As soon as Yang Rui took the lead in reporting, people from the Ge Division jumped out to report, saying that Li Yongzhong had always been dissatisfied with Chairman Mao's policies on intellectuals.It is said that when studying Yao Wenyuan’s article asking intellectuals to receive re-education, Li Yongzhong complained in the dormitory: “Intellectuals are so pitiful. kill!
Who doesn't think so?Xin Mei said angrily: Only Xiao Li has the guts to speak out.This guy didn't report it at the time, so it can be seen that he felt the same way. Now that Xiao Li is in trouble, he came to beat him up. It's shameful!
From his tone, he was not the only one present.He may be afraid that if he does not report first, when others speak out, he will not only appear backward, but also be suspected of covering up.
Still shameful!Xin Mei decided that it was unforgivable to betray others.However, these are complaints and resistance, but they are not labeled as counter-revolutionaries, right?
Who knows how it will develop?The freshmen were worried about their friends, almost pessimistic: Xiao Li was punished!
Since Yongzhong is being punished, how can he persuade A Tao?Xin Mei lay in the dark, thinking of the torture the lovers had suffered, thinking of their unknowable future fate, she sighed from the bottom of her heart.
Seeing such a young and promising couple being torn apart alive, one was rolling in the waves and the other was unable to move in the mud pit.In contrast, she and the new student can cuddle up to each other at this moment, it seems too beautiful to believe, even if it is just a dream.The thought of the dream frightened her.In order to prove that the happiness in front of her was not a dream, she quickly pressed her face to her husband's chest, feeling his heartbeat and body heat.His warmth comforted her and gradually dispelled her doubts and fears.In the past few years, Xin Mei has never cherished the pure warmth of skin-to-skin contact like this moment.It suddenly made her think a lot, far away.
Xinmei thought of her friends, her family, and the south where there are sunshine and flowers.So, she gently, as if asking herself: Should we go too?
The freshman didn't seem to hear.He gently moved his wife's head to his chest, kissed her hair, and said: Amei, you are tired.I'm tired too, go to sleep.
A stomachful of words had just flowed up her throat, so she had no choice but to swallow them again.In the darkness, Xingmei opened her eyes wide and thought alone, only hearing the heartbeat of her husband Budubudu.
Sure enough, the freshman never had a chance to talk to Yongzhong again.
Not long after Yongzhong rushed back to Shijiazhuang, his mother passed away.It was the end of October when he returned to school after the funeral, and most of the teachers had already heard the news of his accident.The teaching and research group immediately asked him to stand aside and asked him to explain all his anti-Party and anti-leader words and deeds since the Cultural Revolution.The Department of Mechanics put up a big-character poster, but did not mention the name.Yongzhong was isolated by the people around him, like a scourge, no matter how familiar his colleagues were, he would avoid him.He himself ignored everyone, wandering between the dormitory and the office like a ghost.
Xin Mei is busy with her classes, so she has never met Yong Zhong face to face, only that he has a very tough attitude and refuses to plead guilty.She really wanted to persuade him not to suffer the immediate loss, but to avoid the limelight first, but unfortunately she couldn't even see him.
Recently, at a meeting in the courtyard, Master Luo of the Workers Propaganda Team suddenly interjected an irrelevant sentence during his report: Some people think that they have a good family background and meritorious service in the rebellion, so they want to make money on their laurels.no!Whoever opposes Chairman Mao, or his close comrade-in-arms, no matter how good his background is, we will still condemn him!A dishonest attitude adds to the crime!
She knew that this was a warning to Yongzhong, so she couldn't help worrying about him.
The foreign language group stipulates that a meeting will be held every Wednesday afternoon to discuss administrative and teaching matters in the group, and all teachers will be present at that time.This afternoon, Xin Mei left the Waterport Building after her first class in the afternoon, and went back to her group for a meeting.
It was the late autumn weather, and the sycamore trees on the campus shed their leaves one after another, and the sky poplar also peeled off pieces of heart-shaped leaves, and scattered them all over the ground. The light yellow and dark brown alternated, painting the road with brilliant colors.She walked on fallen leaves, listening to the rustling under her feet.A gust of wind passed by, and the treetops trembled and whimpered.The sound of autumn, no matter how slight it is, is still chilling.She looked in the direction Chongtian Yang pointed, and the sky was clearer than ever, as blue as the sea, and so far away that it was unattainable.
When she passed the intersection of Xinjiekou, she suddenly saw Li Yongzhong walking towards her.
He walked with his eyes downcast as if he had stayed up a long night and was too tired to lift his eyebrows.Not seeing him for more than a month, Yongzhong has lost weight.His face was dark, with sunken cheeks; his hair, long and matted, fell over a protruding forehead, and seemed eagerly awaiting comb and scissors.It was getting colder, and he was still wearing the youth clothes that Xin Mei had seen last time, but the oil stains were old, only the black cloth on the sleeves, which symbolized the importance of filial piety, was new and stiff.The blue cloth clothes hung loosely on his body, making him a long dry strip like a soaring poplar with all its leaves stripped by the roadside.
Joyful and frightened, Xin Mei quickened her pace and greeted Yongzhong.My heartbeat also accelerated, and horrible words such as counter-revolution and anti-party flooded into my mind.She glanced around hurriedly, seeing that there was no one else, she quickly greeted in a low voice.
Little Lizai.
Yongzhong opened his eyes and took a look, the soles of his feet stopped like an emergency brake.But it was only for a moment, he quickly turned his face away, fixed his eyes on the withered grass and fallen leaves by the roadside, and continued walking forward.
She froze in the middle of the road, but he passed by indifferently, as if she didn't exist.
It was Xin Mei's first experience of being repelled by a friendly gesture. She felt embarrassed for a moment, her cheeks became hot, and her feet seemed to have lost their support.Although it was just a quick glance, Yongzhong's eyes left a deep impression on her.His eyes, which had always been smiling, were now sunken under the disheveled hair and protruding forehead, becoming dull and dull, and it was hard to tell whether they were indifferent or gloomy.
Xiao Xin, are you going to a meeting?
Xin Mei turned her head and saw that Wang Degui, who loves to tell small stories, was walking behind her, showing his dirty teeth to her.She was taken aback, secretly glad that Yongzhong never talked to her.
I just finished class.She forced a smile.You came all the way from home for the meeting, Lao Wang?The spirit is commendable!
Congratulations!It's a meeting, how dare you not come?
While talking, the two walked towards the Water Conservancy Museum together.
On Wednesday, Xin Mei only had one class in the afternoon, and Wang Degui always took the leave automatically and did not come to tutor.The students did not welcome this Russian teacher who had just studied English as a freshman to tutor, so she was happy to pretend to be deaf and dumb.
In the foreign language group, Wang Degui is a character.He lives in Xiaguan. It is said that the house is large and it is his own property, so compared to other colleagues who live in public dormitories, he is the only property owner.Xin Mei has always been dubious about class stigma, with the exception of Wang Degui.His parents are small business owners, and he is also born with a small business temper.He wants to get a little bit of a bargain in everything. If he suffers a small loss for a while, he will always try to get a big deal in the end. The balance is only allowed to tip towards him.In terms of labor and errands, the abacus is especially good.He rushes to do small things, yells loudly, and hides away from dangerous and tiring tasks.
But these are not as annoying as his snitching.Before the Cultural Revolution, although he was well-rounded, his colleagues already suspected that he was betrayed, but there was no evidence.It wasn't until 1967, when the students rebelled, copied and looted archives and materials, and revealed many notebooks in which party members reported to colleagues, that Wang Degui's face was exposed.It turned out that he not only reported the things around him, but also guessed and created by himself. After some reports were revealed, even the defendant was puzzled.During that time, he became depressed, not only the party members who listened to his report were indifferent to him, but all the rebel organizations excluded him from the door.
However, time has passed, and since the party organization was rebuilt, the old rules and regulations have gradually been restored under the new name, and Wang Degui has become a celebrity again in front of party members.Recently, he was planning to recruit new party members. It was rumored that Wang Degui made a report on joining the party, and his colleagues looked at him differently.
He was very polite to Xin Mei, especially since the university offered English classes exclusively, he was very kind to her.Nanjing was short of mops a while ago, so he brought her a mop and a cutting board for cutting vegetables all the way from the shop in Xiaguan.It's a pity that Xin Mei couldn't change her subconscious dislike of him; every time she thought that such a person might join the party, she felt sick from the bottom of her heart.Ever since Guo Yingsheng reminded her to be careful in class, she felt uncomfortable talking when she saw Wang Degui.
You didn't expect Li Yongzhong to have a problem, did you?Walking up to the second floor of the Water Conservancy Museum, Wang Degui suddenly accosted him and asked.
Xin Mei hummed, but didn't dare to say anything.
The second floor is the offices of the various teaching and research groups, and the walls are covered with big-character posters.Slogans were painted around the corner: ㄨㄨㄨ If you don’t confess your guilt to Chairman Mao, he will die without a burial!Find out the big black hands hidden in the Department of Mechanics!Resolutely criticize the disciples and grandchildren of the stinky forest bald!
Seeing these slogans, she recalled Yongzhong's indifference again, and couldn't help feeling grateful for his painstaking efforts.Yongzhong once helped the department to punish others when he cleared the team, of course he knew how to protect himself, her kindness was really superfluous.She also blamed herself for not being sophisticated enough in the political struggle to do even the bare minimum of camouflage.Real life is like poplar trees and phoenix trees in late autumn, naked and chilling.This realization made her feel bitter, like biting into an unripe apricot, her mouth full of bitterness.
The door of the foreign language office was wide open, and a dozen teachers filled the rectangular room.Six desks are lined up on both sides, with an aisle in the middle, and the team leader sits in the middle facing the door.Seeing King Xin and the others coming in, she clapped her hands together and greeted everyone, saying: "Okay, everyone is here, we can start the meeting!"
Normally, Xin Mei shared a desk with two female teachers.At this time, the two teachers had already sat down on each side of the wall, and a chair was vacated for her.In a meeting, everyone likes to sit on the sidelines.She was late and had no choice but to sit down facing the group leader.On the contrary, Wang Degui had sharp eyes, and he took an empty armchair by the door.He stretched out his feet like a corpse, and leaned back.He was a little smug about sitting so comfortably on the back seat.
The team leader announced that the main task of the meeting was to discuss teaching methods, but he first conveyed the school's instructions and resolutions: the academy has decided to recommend Xiao Ma to apply for the university.
This is the result of each group's nomination, as early as expected, and no one is interested.
However, Xiaomai lowered his voice and added a ostentatious sentence: I heard that he himself does not miss college!
This is news.
Do ideological work for the pony!A male teacher shouted loudly: "Going to the mountains and going to the countryside can be mobilized, and patients can be mobilized even after surgery without anesthesia. Is there anyone who can't be mobilized after going to university?"
Don't worry, someone has been found to clear his mind.
After Xiaomai finished speaking, he turned to the discussion of teaching work: it has been more than two months since the school started, and today I will summarize the teaching work, especially the improvement of teaching methods.First, let's talk about our opinions on teaching plan disclosure.
No one made a sound, obviously no opinion.Some people's eyes fell on Xin Mei, and she also heard that the group leader's words were addressed to herself.
The lesson plan is the teacher's detailed plan for how to explain the text of each lesson, including opening remarks, example sentences, and homework assignments at the end.Xiaomai asked everyone to put their teaching plans in the teaching and research group. The reason was to observe each other, and when they were unable to attend class for some reason, others could follow the original teacher's teaching plans to substitute for the class.It is said that the disclosure of teaching plans had been implemented for many years before the Cultural Revolution, and now everyone follows it, with the exception of Xin Mei.
Xin Mei is not unconventional, she just thinks it is superfluous.How to teach the text of each lesson has been discussed in a meeting beforehand, and the teaching plans are almost the same.Most of the teachers in the class are new to English from Russian, and each of them only teaches one class, and the time is leisurely.She is in charge of students in two departments and three classes, and the progress is different, so she doesn't want to waste time doing this kind of paperwork that is useless.In addition, she felt that the disclosure of the lesson plans clearly showed her distrust of the teachers, and she felt disgusted in her heart.
Since it was the focus of attention, Xin Mei had to defend herself: I think, since we are using the same and the same text, the substitute teacher can follow his own teaching plan, not necessarily follow the original teacher's procedure.Based on Chairman Mao's belief in the teachings of the masses, we should give substitute teachers the flexibility to use them flexibly.
Disclosure of teaching plans is necessary, and a party member female teacher immediately objected: Only by making teaching plans public can everyone observe and emulate each other, and only when shortcomings and mistakes are found can they be pointed out and corrected in time.We all know that giving examples of sentences in class is of great importance, and if we don't study them well in advance, political problems may arise.In this regard, our foreign language group has already made several jokes in the courtyard.For example, I hope that money will grow on the tree. Not only Lao Guo is called a money fan, but also people who speak foreign languages are said to be full of copper stink!Like the sentence I wish I could fly, the students scolded us as whimsical and divorced from reality.After the Cultural Revolution, college students have a higher political level and greater sensitivity, and we must be more careful in handling this aspect.A few comrades among us are about to make mistakes because they lack teaching experience and do not pay enough attention to the experience and lessons of others!I think everyone should pay attention to this issue and help these comrades as soon as possible.
The more Xin Mei heard these words, the more she felt that something was wrong.She barely pretended to be calm, but her mind was reversing the film like a projector, quickly recalling where she made a mistake.
It is common for Lao Guo to expose scars in public. Instead of being indifferent, he calmly suggested to the group: Why don't we copy the example sentences from Peking University and Tsinghua University?Find a comrade to list the sentences in these two textbooks, and everyone will extract from them in the future, so that you don't have to rack your brains, it is convenient and safe.
The team leader disagrees: different majors are not easy to use, one is liberal arts, the other is engineering, but we are water conservancy.Moreover, the textbooks are all edited by themselves, so how can they copy other people's example sentences?The phenomenon of ignoring teaching plans is not common at present. It is just the shortcomings and mistakes of individual comrades. Let us follow Chairman Mao's policy of learning from past mistakes and avoiding future ones, curing diseases and saving lives, and help her!
After finishing speaking, the team leader glanced at Wang Degui.Wang Degui quickly retracted his outstretched feet, sat up straight, and cleared his throat at the same time.Before he could speak, Xin Mei's heart shrank into a ball.
I have studied English for less than two years, so I can't say I understand English.However, I was taken care of by the organization and asked me to tutor Xiao Xin in English class and learn from her. I really learned a lot, a lot of lessons!
Wang Degui not only emphasized his tone, but also nodded his head at Xinmei to express his sincere gratitude.
Xiao Xin taught, I honestly say, he is really enthusiastic.She explained in detail and gave examples repeatedly, always asking students to understand the meaning and usage of words.I'm not trying to criticize her teaching methods, let me be the first to state.However, I think her example sentences should be carefully considered in advance, so as not to cause unexpected complications and get out of control.
Speaking of which, he gave an example.
Last time, Xiao Xin asked the students to master the usage of the verb love, and wrote the Chinese words "I love China" on the blackboard, and asked the students to translate on the blackboard.The students did not capitalize China.After Xiao Xin pointed out the shortcomings, he said: If the word 中国 is not capitalized, it will become porcelain. If you want to show it to foreigners, they may think that you love porcelain instead of China.In my opinion, it seems too solemn to associate China with porcelain.If we are prepared in advance, we can replace "I love China" with "I love Chairman Mao". The meaning is both great and kind, and nothing will go wrong.
Pharaoh's suggestion is very good!
The team leader took the lead in echoing, and looked around the room.Many teachers quickly followed suit and nodded.
Looking at the situation, Xin Mei clearly planned to criticize her own teaching methods, and she never dared to speak up to defend herself.She lowered her eyes and sat upright, pretending to accept criticism humbly.Only now did she understand the intention of the team leader to send teachers to help her tutor. It turns out that tutoring is a name, and supervision is the reality.In order to arouse students' interest in learning English, she spent a lot of time preparing lessons, and finally managed to hear laughter in the classroom, and no student fell asleep in class.Now it seems that it was all wrong!
As soon as Wang Degui mentioned the verb love, Xin Mei secretly cried out inwardly, hoping that he would point it out and not tell the whole story.
But Wang Degui continued: I have another suggestion for Xiao Xin, that is, in class, we should closely follow the content of the text and not digress.What's more, you must be able to control the order of the classroom, and prevent students from influencing you and getting out of the way.Like wives and lovers are in the lecture hall, this, I think is too far from the topic!
When they heard about wives and lovers, many colleagues turned their heads, their curious and surprised eyes cast on Xin Mei one after another.She blushed, remained silent, her eyes had nothing to rest on, so she lowered her head and stared at the cloth shoes on her feet.
damn love!She couldn't help but curse in her heart, she knew that there would be this trouble, so she really shouldn't touch this word.
Originally, after correcting the mistake of the Chinese word, she would continue to teach the book.But a student raised his hand and asked: Teacher, what does your lover say?Is adding ER to become a Lover?
She just nodded, before she had time to say anything, the student asked again: Then, when we introduce Comrade Jiang Qing to foreigners, can we say that she is Chairman Mao's lover?
When she heard that Mao Zedong and Jiang Qing were involved, she felt nervous first.I also wondered if this student knowingly asked him that he had a background in Russian, and he had studied English by himself, so he had to go to the blackboard and write the English words of husband and wife, and explain to everyone: Our lover mainly refers to the spouse.Usually when we talk about wife, when translated into English, we must use wife instead of lover, otherwise it will cause misunderstanding.
The students broke the casserole and asked in the end: So, what does lover mean in English?
Couples refer to men and women who are not married.
At that time, the students listened to her explanation with wide eyes, and no one laughed or made trouble.Although she was nervous for a while, Wang Degui didn't express anything after class.She thought the matter was over, but she didn't expect him to criticize in public today.
I have also heard reports that Xiao Xin often adds additional materials.
The group leader continued immediately after Wang Degui's words.
We absolutely trust comrades, but the materials that leave the text must be discussed in advance.The word "wife" is not unacceptable, but depending on the occasion and the partner, if the two do not cooperate well, it can become a political issue at any time.I hope everyone remembers one thing: the classroom of socialism is a place to criticize imperialism, revisionism, and rebellion, and no bourgeois gags are allowed!
Xin Mei regretted that she was soft-hearted towards the students just now, which caused a digression.But the team leader actually compared it to a gag, which is a big deal.Her regret suddenly turned into injustice.She couldn't see anything unrefined in his wife.Isn't the term that everyone is talking about authentic the language of workers, peasants and soldiers?It is said that during the Yan'an era, Jiang Qing's most proud occasion was to introduce to others: I am Mao Zedong's wife.It can be seen that this word has also reached the highest leadership of the country.
It was Xiao Xin's first year in class, and the female party member teacher suddenly said in a forgiving tone: Everything is still in the groping stage, and shortcomings and mistakes are inevitable.We must also see the influence of the past environment on her, Taiwan's reactionary education and the decadent culture of American imperialism, these cannot but be reflected in her thinking.In my opinion, Xiaoxin needs to learn more from Chairman Mao's works and use Mao Zedong Thought to completely reinvent himself; coupled with the patient help of comrades, he will definitely be able to make greater contributions to teaching in the future!
When she heard about Taiwan, Xin Mei's grievance suddenly turned into anger.It's not enough to criticize her, and it's deceiving too much to mention her hometown and alma mater!
She turned around and looked at the other party, just about to refute.Guo Yingsheng stared at her suddenly and shook his head slightly, with a hint of warning in his eyes.Xin Mei immediately raised her vigilance and held back her breath.When she thought about it again, she had nothing to defend, and the more she defended, the more she showed that she was guilty or wronged.
When teachers receive such bombarded help, they usually say a few polite words of thanks.Xin Mei's personality did not allow her to blaspheme herself, so she kept her mouth shut, resisting all attacks with silence, expressing her protest with silence.
Xiao Mai urged everyone to continue to give her advice.有人諷刺她給林衛東單獨上課是搞特殊化和天才教學；又有人說她自己要突出個人；此外便提不出什麼新的批評來。至於她帶頭考試，免學生修英語等，教員全步她後塵，就沒人能說她不是。
小邁看說得差不多了，辛梅又死不開腔，擔心她初次挨批評會吃不消，便捉個空進行總結。她把缺點和成績作三七開，將眾人的批評重點又羅列了一遍，然後再吹捧了辛梅幾句，說她有為社會主義服務熱忱，有很大的積極性等等，這才宣佈散會。
會後，教員有說有笑地走出辦公室，只是誰也不和她搭腔。辛梅儘管灰心喪氣，卻不肯做出在這種場合下必有的低頭認罪狀。她悶聲不響地下了樓，頭始終挺得高高地。
辛梅獨自又上了清涼山。天涼了，加上學生忙著上課，四望杳無人蹤。蒼松寂寞地綠著，默默地守著這一片山坡。她的頭腦經過這場炮轟，一時昏昏沉沉。在群松之間胡亂走了一圈，慢慢才把剛才的嘔氣消掉一大半。她決定暫時不想讓新生知道她在教研組裏受圍攻的事，免得他也跟著懊惱氣憤。
回家見了丈夫，她只提起與李永忠打照面的事。對於被迫要把朋友視同路人，夫婦倆都感慨不已。
新生，做人要這麼演戲，多沒意思！
他是為我們著想，新生安慰她。從石家莊回來到現在，他從來沒有看過我一眼，更別說哼一聲了。即使這樣，我還是受到壓力。工宣隊的駱師傅和我們教研組的組長已經找我談過話，要我大膽站出來揭發李永忠。今天下午，組長就找我談心過，說李永忠的罪行相當嚴重。我終於搞清楚，那兩個學生是準備逃到國外去，身上搜出軍用地圖和指南針，還有大把的美鈔。
美鈔？辛梅很訝異。哪來的？
我想是文化革命中，這些紅衛兵去抄家時，乘機入飽私囊的。現在大驚小怪了，作為裏通外國的證據，可笑！聽組長的口氣，已經有幾個年輕人逃掉了，這兩個手腳不嚴密，才被逮捕。他們懷疑李永忠是慕後操縱，至少是參加了叛國的預謀。組長大概也感到指控的罪名有些荒唐，提到這些罪名時，眼睛只敢盯著水泥地瞧。你想想，李永忠跟我們在湖南快一年，他怎麼去操縱別人呢？我是絕不相信這些指控的罪名。
把叛國的罪名同李永忠扯在一起是離譜，這一透露，辛梅更加擔了心，疑惑學校是不擇手段，非要整垮李永忠不可。她跟著也擔心起自己丈夫在這場風波中的角色。
新生，他們要是老逼你揭發李永忠，你頂得住嗎？
就是山壓下來，我也只好頂著。
他的語氣儘管低沉苦澀，他的決心是無可置疑的。
她拍拍新生的手，表示同情和支持。只有她才能體會這決心背後的沉重負荷。
新生和永忠不是嘻嘻鬧鬧或形影不離的朋友，但友誼的深厚誰都知道。六九年，學校教工去蘇南一個礦山勞動時，男教員輪班去挖煤。有一回，新生和永忠值午夜班，等爆炸過後，他們進洞去清理碎石。新生頭上的岩層忽然坍方，永忠恰巧看見，就奮不顧身地撲過去，把新生拉開。兩人的腳只受了點輕傷，新生卻避過了被碎石砸中腦袋的危險。辛梅相信碰到類似的場合，新生也會勇往直前的。儘管兩人性情不同，一個活潑健談，一個沉默寡言，但天南地北碰在一起，竟成了知己朋友。
新生在學校裏受到的壓力，回到家裏絕口不提。每天，他照常上下班，親自到幼兒園接送陶煉，教他認方塊字，或者同小兄弟倆看一本翻得破爛了的小人書。他默默地協助家務。準備過冬了，他和老太太把窗縫用報紙塞緊封死，兩個房各留一扇可以打開透氣。隨著時令推移，夜拉長了，孩子們很早就上床。新生沒有合意的書看，又不願意聽無線電廣播，就坐在書桌前抽香菸。權當菸灰缸的缺口飯碗一晚上總要填上半打多菸頭。他寧可對著拉上的藍色塑料窗簾沉思，或傾聽窗外呼嘯的北風，也不肯閒話組裏的事。辛梅體貼丈夫的心思，也不去打聽。她坐在飯桌旁批改本子或寫教案，默默陪著他。難得這個冬天一家四口能守在一起，她但願平平安安地過日子，把政治的陰影儘可能關在門外。她只盼望永忠快快度過這場災難，好讓新生得到心情的解放。
剛轉入十二月，南京就下了今冬第一場雪。雪不大，飄了一夜只積上薄薄半尺。雪霽後天沒轉請，而是陰暗得發黑，像張放大的苦臉瞪著慘白的大地。
這天中午，新生踏著雪回家吃飯，臉上一片陰霾，比天色還難看。辛梅怕他是病了，他卻說沒事。等吃完飯，把房門一關，他和衣倒在床上，才悄悄告訴她：阿桃跑了！
她猛吃一驚：怎麼知道的？
福建派人到水院來了解情況，紙包不住火，教研組的人全知道了。我昨天正奇怪，怎麼突然把李永忠作隔離審查，原來又是懷疑他唆使阿桃跑掉的。今天，小李已經不來參加組裏的會。他們另外在實驗室裏給他開了學習班，派四個人日夜看管他。四人中，兩個是我們組的黨員，另外兩個是外組的，司徒青是一個。
司徒青！辛梅可是同情多於驚訝：這不是嘲弄人嗎？他和小李是多年的同學、戰友和室友，現在派給他這個差事，多尷尬呀！
這就是階級鬥爭，總要逼得人翻臉不認人！
說完，新生望著空白的天花板長嘆了口氣。
阿桃失蹤的新聞在力學系很快傳開，而且成了熱門話題。辛梅稍許用了點心思便打聽到來龍去脈。據說阿桃是十一月上旬就失蹤了，失蹤前曾接到一封信接信前又曾接到一通電報，為此請了兩天假。巧的是她失蹤的同一天，別的村子也有兩名插隊的知識青年跑掉，其中一名後來在海邊的沙灘上被民兵打死。這一來，三人共同逃亡的可能性顯然很大。福建方面要追查信和電報的來源，終於找到水院來，教員的猜測自然也集中在永忠身上。
要真是李永忠幹的，他這下可完啦！有人為他懸著一把心。
蘇桃是自取滅亡！也有人幸災樂禍地說：這時候不給大浪捲去，怕也早餵進鯊魚肚啦！想叛國投敵，哪會有好下場？
辛梅除了聽，一句話也不敢插入，心裏像勾住一個秤錘，只有往下沉的感覺。她不知道有沒有人發現永忠出事前曾來看過自己，怕被人套出話來，逢到談論永忠，她裝作不聞不問。很快地，她發現自己同新生一樣，也沉默了下來。
永忠一定不會牽累道她，這一點她極有信心。但她排遣不開阿桃的影子。上課時，看見小葉，她就想起阿桃。夜裏也夢見阿桃抱著小船的碎片在海裏掙扎，而一個大浪捲來，嚇醒的是自己。這時候，怕驚醒丈夫，她就按住突突跳動的心口，苦苦思索著一個問題：阿桃為什麼走上這條路？
有一天中午，她下了課騎車回家。路經十字路口時，又碰上了李永忠。他拿了一付碗筷，看樣子是要去餐廳吃午飯。司徒青落後幾步跟在他身後，手裏拿個鋁飯盒。永忠穿上了棉襖，下身仍是單褲，頭上卻帶了一頂棉帽子，厚厚的帽沿遮去大半個額頭，一張臉變得上重下輕，像隻陀螺。他這回把頭挺得高高的，見了辛梅並不迴避，只是毫無表情，完全當她是空氣。倒是司徒向她點下頭表示招呼，但立刻就收回來眼光，低下了頭，瞅著永忠的腳後跟走路。辛梅也學著視若無睹地騎車過去，沒有理睬司徒的招呼。
看見朋友像囚犯般被人亦步亦趨地跟隨著，她心裏除了淒涼，又感到慚愧，就像自己也加入了迫害朋友的行列，驅逐不去一種犯罪感。眼看一個生龍活虎般的青年，不偷不搶，愛國愛黨，忽然就被剝奪掉人身自由，每天二十四小時讓朋友看押著。對這種不合法不合情理的現象，她覺得應該反抗，偏又無力反抗，心情更加難堪。
永忠傲然的神情也使她困惑。他說對自己的遭遇不服氣？還是以為阿桃做得對而無愧於心？一路騎車回宿舍時，這兩個猜測打鞦韆般在她腦中盪來盪去。
剛進宿舍大門，見萬嫂推開傳達室的門，探出頭招呼她：辛老師，等一等！
什麼事，萬嫂？辛梅跳下車，用手推著走過來。
你們陶冶幾時上幼兒園呀，辛老師？
辛梅怔住，一時答不上來。陶冶剛滿兩歲，是夠資格上幼兒園，不過她從來沒動過送他去的念頭。這是因為小冶身體太差，而幼兒園是傳染疾病的場所，送去也是自找麻煩。入冬以來，小冶已經發了兩次支氣管哮喘，這兩天還在打針服藥中。
是人家託我向你打聽的，萬嫂接著解釋，如果你們陶冶上幼兒園，那家裏不用長工了吧？人家想找陶冶的奶奶去當保姆，給同樣的工資，也供吃住。陶老師回來了，你真要改用短工，我可以給你介紹，包在我身上！我就是多嘴問問，沒有別的意思。
I see!辛梅發現有人在打老奶奶的主意，不免一驚。再一想，搶保姆只是口實而已，骨子裏的意思是嫌他們夫婦住在家裏，居然還雇用長工，是資產階級老爺太太的作風，活該批評。文化革命高潮時，宿舍裏的保姆全被紅衛兵勒令辭退，造成了失業問題，直到這兩年，才逐漸恢復了雇傭關係。但極左思潮的殘餘還在作祟，有保姆的人家經常受到揶揄和挑剔。
我同老陶商量看看，有消息再告訴你。
她含糊地回答了萬嫂。
她在樓下大門內鎖好車，剛走上樓梯，便聽到小冶在屋裏連聲咳嗽著。辛梅也跟著喉頭發緊，像一口痰吐不出來似的難受。進門一看，小冶果然咳得滿臉通紅，呼吸都困難，鼻翼一張一合地歙動著。奶奶正在給他換棉襖罩衫
咳得厲害哪！把吃下的飯全吐啦！奶奶心痛地告訴辛梅。何醫生說，她吃了飯就過來給他打針。
辛梅把孩子抱過來，讓奶奶去張羅中飯。她用自己的額頭去碰孩子的額頭，發現燒沒有退。她逗孩子笑，孩子一興奮，呼吸就拖著喘息的尾音，叫她聽著也心口發悶。這樣的孩子怎麼送幼兒園？想起萬嫂多管閒事，她心頭就惱恨起來。
老太太也捨不得小冶，辛梅很清楚這一點。小冶生下來就是她照顧，跟她像祖孫般親熱。北京的保姆據說是高人一等，每個月有一天假期，南京便沒有這個規矩。辛梅本著工作平等的精神，不時放她假，奶奶有時甚至想不出到哪裏去消磨星期天的下午。奶奶已經六十出頭，不堪勞累的重活；在陶家，買米買菜的累活都不假她手，三九寒天，她可以整月不出門一步。她常說，幹了十多年保姆，就數陶家最輕鬆。
等小冶四五歲，身體強了，你送他進幼兒園，我就回蘇北去。她不止一次向辛梅表示。
辛梅離鄉背井，眼前沒有親人，難得奶奶正直忠厚，就當成長輩般依賴。兩年下來，已經習慣了她的存在，一旦走掉，辛梅的損失絕不亞於折斷了一隻手臂。新生雖然回家了，但辛梅對未來仍是茫然。她怕哪天一早醒來，發現又要給他打點行裝，送他出遠門，那剩下自己和小孩多淒涼！
不能讓老人走掉，她對自己說，得想個辦法把她留住！
新生一回家，三個大人就吃起中飯。不久，何醫生敲門進來，一手高高擎起一根消毒過的注射筒，另一隻手抓了一把棒棒糖。辛梅和奶奶把她讓進東屋裏。陶冶看見了糖，加上大人柔聲哄著，終於強忍著淚被打了一針。
何醫生今天一進門便笑開了臉。辛梅猜想她有什麼喜事，還來不及開口問，對方已經自己抖出來。
小辛，我們老何要調回來啦！
恭喜呀！什麼時候到家？
這兩天吧，我是剛收到信才知道。下午我就去打電報給我媽媽，把非非趕快接回來！
何醫生的口氣簡直是一刻也不能等似的，而且喜得眼睛和鼻子都跳動起來，一張臉從來不曾像現在這麼開朗寬闊過。屈指算算，她丈夫在外將近三年了，能正式調回來實在是大喜事。
新生特地放下飯碗，走過來向她道賀：太好了，何醫生，元旦就到，正好一家團圓！
何醫生笑得嘴合不攏來，但念念不忘丈夫的健康：老何一進門呀，我得先押著他去醫院檢查身體！他上次回家，臉色太難看了。不徹底查查，我不放心。
買點好吃的給他進補一下吧，奶奶建議。
提到吃，何醫生趕緊告訴辛梅：元旦到春節這一段期間，南京要供應板鴨了！每戶憑證買一隻，賣完為止。你們要寄武漢，千萬早點買。
何醫生雖然喜得眉飛色舞，但看新生他們飯才吃到一半，不想打攪，又聊了兩句就回去。
聽何醫生提到信，奶奶才記起早上也收到一封信，連忙取來給新生看。新生拆看後，不動聲色地遞給辛梅。信是方正寫來的，說他們出國的請求已經有了反應，原則上沒有問題，目前正受到挽留。
不過，我們的決心不變，方正強調了一句。又見到一些老朋友，帶來了家人的消息，這是年來最大的喜訊。家書抵萬金並不誇大，我光是聽到父弟平安的消息，已經喜得眼淚都滾下來
辛梅反覆念著方正的信，這父弟平安四個字勾起了她的鄉思，總想在字裏行間捕捉自己父母的影子。看新生默聲不響，不知是懷念起姨媽，還是痛惜知友行將遠離。她悄悄把信收起，暫時不談論它。
這天正好是星期三，辛梅下午有一堂課。飯後，她把陶冶送上床午睡，又給老人叮嚀了一番服藥的事，就提早上學校。新生要同她一道走，還提議走宿舍後門的小路，多繞點路到學校去。她以為新生想散步，就讓他推著自行車，自己用圍巾把頭裹起來，陪著他從後門出去。
這是條小石子路，兩旁是低矮的平房，有木頭蓋的，有泥土砌的，年代久遠，已經出現腐朽剝落現象。夏天裏，被樹木掩映，加上兒童嘻笑其間，並不使人感到破舊簡陋。一入冬，家家閉門杜戶來抵擋北風的肆虐，一眼望去，房子像掉光葉子的樹幹，光禿而且醜陋。令人醒目的點綴是幾家門戶上貼著的毛澤東的彩色畫像。經過風吹日曬，這些畫像已經褪色而且龜裂，但仍在寒風中抖索，頑強地盤據在門戶上。
天色陰沉沉的好像要下雪，路上除了新生倆，沒什麼行人。
今天早上，駱師傅又找我談話。
剛走出後門，新生就低聲向妻子說出心事。
聽到駱師傅，辛梅耳朵立刻尖起來。駱師傅是院革委會常委，兼負責力學系，位置在系支書之上，被他盯住不放可不是等閒的事。
talk about what?辛梅明知故問。
還是要我站出來揭發李永忠。新生的語調同路旁的景物一樣的黯淡蕭索。聽他口氣，我是組裏四十個教員中唯一不曾檢舉過李永忠的。現在是，會一開始，大家的眼光先朝我這裏溜過來。
辛梅深深吸進一口冷氣，等涼到肺腑了，不得已又緩緩吐出。她瞧著呼出的氣在眼前凝成煙霧，一時找不到話來安慰新生。不肯背棄朋友，在他是原則，哪怕是一時權宜先混過關的念頭，他都不屑於考慮。而他的原則也是自己的原則。她擔心的是堅持到底，新生怕要吃苦頭。
你要表示自己是無可揭發，不是不肯揭發他。辛梅也想不出比這更好的應付策略。
我一直就是這個態度，駱師傅乾脆給我出問答題了。他說，司徒青檢舉李永忠常聽美國之音廣播，問我知道不知道。
這對辛梅可是新聞，她不禁皺起了眉：有這回事嗎？
李永忠提過他要學英文，美國之音有英語教學節目，他是聽過。
這也沒有什麼了不起，很多人是這麼學英語的小馬現在就是抱著英語九百句對著美國之音念。司徒青已經檢舉了，你怎麼回答呢？
I said I don't know.李永忠當然不止學英文。他早就關照過這是犯法的事，不能說出去。
辛梅的意思，既然司徒青已經檢舉了這一條，新生不妨依樣畫葫蘆，表示是成心對抗運動和組織。但新生一臉寧為玉碎，不為瓦全的神色，叫她難以啟齒。
駱師傅又說李永忠是反骨畢露，反對毛主席是階級背叛。他說得臉紅脖子粗，好像李永忠真成了階級敵人！徐州被捕的兩個學生罪名是攻擊毛主席和企圖叛國投敵，據說已經關進了監獄。
聽到監獄，辛梅的目光正好落在附近屋簷下一張毛澤東畫像上。那褪色的大胖臉虎視眈眈，比大雪來臨前的天色還陰沉冷酷。雖然全身裹著棉襖棉褲，她仍然覺得寒冷直刺進骨子裏。
新生，她輕輕地提醒他一句，現在是輪到年輕的進監獄了。
新生遺憾地搖搖頭：這兩個學生揭發了李永忠一條褻瀆毛澤東像的罪狀，駱師傅說已經調查清楚，罪證確鑿，完全證明他反骨畢露！
什麼罪證？
文化革命期間的事，幾個紅衛兵跟他在學生餐廳寫大字報，畫宣傳畫。有一張毛主席像放在椅子上，被李永忠一屁股坐下。等學生指出後，他才站起來，但隨手把它挪開，據說毫無懺悔或請罪的樣子。又說李永忠當場咆哮：毛主席像印得太多了，到處都是，弄得礙手礙腳！他又叫學生把像收藏起來，這就成為斗膽包天，要把毛主席打入冷宮！
辛梅皺著眉頭聽，先是懸著一把心，終於轉成不服氣。
這明明是過失，能證明什麼反骨畢露？
我也相信小李是無心坐上去。遺憾的是小李不該抱怨礙手礙腳，當場又不曾照慣例向毛主席像鞠躬請罪，現在授人以柄，無心也當作有意了呀！
新生為朋友悔恨的口氣，使辛梅大不以為然，忍不住要為永忠辯護。
你不能只看現象，要看本質呀。李永忠其實是真正忠於毛主席，所以才不必作誇張或虛偽的請罪敬意和歉意要發自內心才算數的。如果他在文化革命中的表現不是忠於毛主席，那麼全國沒有人是忠於毛主席的啦！
小聲點，阿梅。新生看她動了氣，嗓門也粗起來，趕緊勸告她。
辛梅壓抑不住，感到非一吐為快不可：這不像絞肉機一樣，壓榨個不停？打倒一個林
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