Chapter 40 three nine

The holidays are over, and the days return to their old ways. Summer passes and autumn arrives. The days are getting shorter and the nights are getting longer. Morning and night are often filled with fog. Little Hansi is like the children in Switzerland. Before eight o’clock in the evening, he was already asleep on the bed. Zhiyun sat by the bed and told him stories as usual. Today she was telling stories about tattooing his mother-in-law. After the story, little Hansi opened his eyes wide Dim eyes asked: Mom, Yue Fei's mother stabbed him in the back with a knife, doesn't it hurt him?

The pain must be a little pain, but because Yue Fei is a great hero, this little pain is nothing to him, he doesn't care.Zhiyun thought for a while and explained. Mom, does Yue Fei's mother like him or not?Why did you stab him with a knife? The voice of little Hans was extremely sleepy. Didn't mom say it?Yue Fei's mother asked Yue Fei to make a weaving cloud, and found that little Hansi had closed his eyes, breathed evenly through his nostrils, and was already asleep, so he stopped talking. She stood up, turned off the small lamp by the bed, and gently closed the door and walked out.

He Shaoxiang did not know when he came out of the study, and stood outside the door of Little Hansi's room, Zhiyun just came out and met him head-on. Huh!What are you doing standing here?Zhiyun asked strangely. I'm waiting for you, I have something to tell you.He Shaoxiang smiled as usual. Have something to tell me?Zhiyun had a big accident, He Shaoxiang was always a talker at home, why did he suddenly have something to tell her.What words?Such a serious look?She walked into the living room and sat on the sofa. He Lanna, my opinion is that He Shaoxiang hesitated, as if he had something to say.

What is your opinion about that?Zhiyun raised his eyes and looked at her. My opinion is about the education of little Hans.He Shaoxiang pushed the glasses frame, and finally said it.You always tell those weird Chinese stories to little Hansi, like the tattooing of the mother-in-law just now, what will the child think when he hears it?How can a mother be so cruel that she stabbed her son in the back with a knife?Will my mother treat me like that?This kind of story will have a bad impact on the child's psychology, so don't tell it again in the future.Very serious tone. Zhiyun let out a long breath, thought for a while, and then said:

Shaoxiang, this kind of story will not have any bad influence on the child's psychology.The fairy tales that Westerners tell children are always about princesses, princes, wolves, foxes, and pirates, and they are meaningless.I think Chinese kids have to accept some good traditional Chinese ideas. Honey.He Shaoxiang tried his best to restrain his voice so as not to let it appear excited.Don't you think that's good for the kids?How far has science advanced in the twentieth century?Those ancient concepts and absurd education methods are too out of touch with real life. This depends on how you say it. From a superficial perspective, it seems to be out of touch with life. If you think about it, you will know that you are not out of touch with life at all.Chinese children need Chinese thinking and Chinese-style personality education.Zhiyun also tried his best to control his emotions and remained calm.

Helanna, what kind of personality education can this outdated old thing give children?Moreover, you have to make it clear that we are in a foreign country, not in China. You have to use modern methods to educate your children, not the ancient Chinese methods. My ways are not ancient at all.I just hope that although little Hansi grew up and received education in a foreign country, he can still maintain a Chinese heart, knowing where he came from and where he should go?Don't be a lifeless person all your life.Zhiyun's endurance was on the verge of collapse, and his tone was not so gentle.

What is this called?What do you mean by a person who is lost?If you give him a Western-style education, he will be able to break into the circle of Westerners in the future and have a good chance.Are you going to make him a Chinese forever?Although He Shaoxiang's attitude was kind, his words became more and more sharp. I don't need to cause, he is always Chinese. Helena, I can't understand The two were arguing, when suddenly the phone rang outside.Zhiyun glanced at He Shaoxiang, then walked out of the living room. Zhiyun and He Shaoxiang had had several frictions because of Xiao Hansi's education method.One wants little Hansi to become a Western child, and the other wants him to remain a Chinese model. When opinions are rarely the same, no one agrees with the other.Zhiyun has always tried his best to avoid quarrels between the two, and He Shaoxiang has cultivated a good temper at home, but for the sake of his beloved son, they refuse to give in to each other, and debates and disputes cannot be avoided.

Zhiyun was so angry that he picked up the phone without making a sound, just waiting for the other side to speak first.After waiting for a long time, the other side didn't say a word, only the sound of crying came. Zhiyun was impatient and didn't understand what was going on. He thought that someone must have made the wrong call, so he said: Hello!Excuse me, who is it? Is it the wrong line? The crying over there was still louder.Zhiyun listened carefully again, ah!Isn't that Jinghui's voice?She immediately became nervous and asked quickly: Jinghui, what's the matter with you?What is so sad?

Yu Zhiyun Jinghui called her name sharply, crying.Yu Zhiyun and Yang Wenyan are probably about to die. What?What did you say?Yang Wenyan is dying?Zhiyun was taken aback, and was so panicked that he didn't know what to say!Concentrated, I asked: Jinghui, don't cry, tell me clearly, what is going on? Jinghui was still crying, and it took a while before she said intermittently: Yang Wenyan drove to the Austrian border to buy vegetables early this morning. In order to take a shortcut, the mountain road he drove was foggy today, probably because he couldn't see clearly!He ran into Jinghui with the car on the opposite side and started crying while talking.

Don't cry!Jinghui, how is he doing now?Zhiyun asked eagerly. He was seriously injured, his left knee was completely shattered, and now he is in the hospital, Yu Zhiyun is unknown, I don't think he can be saved, the doctor said that he can't predict the consequences, look, what hope is there?Yu Zhiyun, you don't know how scary he looks like, with blood all over his body. Jinghui said and cried, cried and said again. Zhiyun calmed down when he heard that Yang Wenyan was still alive, and comforted Jinghui: He was just injured, and he will be fine, so don't think about the bad!

Yu Zhiyun, it's not that I think the worst, his situation is more ominous than good.Jinghui stopped crying, her tone still full of despair.Yu Zhiyun, look at how unfair God treats us!That person Yang Wenyan has never had any bad intentions towards anyone. Why can't a person who has nothing to do with the world live on?Abandoning us orphans and widows, she cried again. Well, where do you want to go?Jinghui, you have always been optimistic about things, why are you focusing on corners now?Don't think about it, torture yourself, it has happened, you have to wait and see, what good is it for you to be so sad?The child still needs you!Zhiyun was trying to persuade Jinghui, but these words made Jinghui cry even more.Zhiyun had no choice but to sigh directly into the phone, and when he looked up, he saw He Shaoxiang who had just entered the study came out at some point and was standing at the door of the living room. You ask her, which aspect is the mistake?He Shaoxiang looked serious. Zhiyun didn't ask this question, feeling that the person has been hurt like that, no matter whose fault it is, there is no possibility of remedy. Hey, Jinghui, are you alone at home?Zhiyun asked again. The prodigy child and Lao Xie were here just now, but they are all gone now. How about this!I'll go to your place tomorrow morning, now you take a sleeping pill and go to sleep!Don't cry anymore, you are sick, what can the child do?Zhiyun persuaded her for a long time before Jinghui agreed not to cry, but she was still crying when she spoke. Zhiyun put down the phone and said to He Shaoxiang: well!It's really unpredictable, people have misfortunes and blessings, how can such a big thing happen? Aren't you going to Munich tomorrow?Do you want to go by plane? If so, I'll call you to book a ticket.He Shaoxiang said enthusiastically. Jinghui's phone call shocked both of them greatly, and they forgot about the friction just now. I think it's better to take the train!It's only four or five hours away.I think human life is really fragile, it is better to be more careful, if something happens to me on the plane, who cares about little Hansi?Zhiyun was filled with emotion. You look at things too pessimistically, where accidents will happen when you fly?How many times do you think I sit in a year?How can you go back and forth on the same day by train?He Shaoxiang followed Zhiyun back to the living room, and sat on the sofa facing Zhiyun. Who said I have to go back and forth in the same day?I couldn't get out of bed at that time, and Jinghui came to help me for a month.Now that she has encountered such a big event, I just go back and forth on the same day, just to entertain her face?Zhiyun looked at He Shaoxiang questioningly. He Shaoxiang felt at a loss for words, but he really didn't want Zhiyun to go there for a long time, firstly because there was a time when Zhiyun and Jiang Xiaofeng were in Munich, and secondly because Zhiyun had never left home for several years of marriage, and he didn't know about it when she wasn't here. How should I live?But he was unwilling to say such a reason, so he took advantage of it and said: You have been away for a long time, what can little Han Sike do?I'm not sure I'll take him well, and he'll be clamoring for you to come back. Wu Zhiyun was really in trouble.I think otherwise I would take him there. No no no.He Shaoxiang shook his hands anxiously.How can you take your child to such an occasion?Maybe there will be a funeral in two days. Everyone is crying and wearing all black clothes, which is too bad for the child's psychology. Hope it's not as bad as you say, that's brutal.Zhiyun lowered his eyes and pondered for a while, then said leisurely: I suddenly remembered that when I went to work in Sweden that year, the old doctor told me what one of his patients said. is cold. He Shaoxiang pushed the glasses frame, shook his head, and said: When a person dies, he is exactly the same as a stone or a log. There is still feeling there, and you can tell the difference between hot and cold. Zhiyun has experience and knew that such words would be considered illogical by He Shaoxiang and would be scorned, so he returned to the original topic: But I have to stay for three to five days, so what do you think little Hansi should do? Because Zhiyun only mentioned Xiao Hansi but not He Shaoxiang, He Shaoxiang's psychology was not very good.Unhappily said: I can't think of a way either. In my opinion, you'd better not go there for so long. Zhiyun was very disgusted with He Shaoxiang's attitude, thinking that he was surprisingly selfish and didn't value her friends, so he stood up and said: I figured out a way. I can ask Mrs. Bergman downstairs. Little Hans is familiar with her, and he can play with Lisa.As she spoke, she went downstairs to find Mrs. Bergman. Bergman and his wife are elegant and friendly. They lived next to each other for four or five years and got along very well. Their six-year-old daughter, Lisa, often plays with the sand in the backyard with Little Hans. Lisa likes to eat Chinese dumplings Every time Zhiyun made dumplings, he had to send a plate to Bergman's house. Sometimes Zhiyun went out and couldn't take little Hansi with him, so he put him in Bergman's house. Zhiyun told Mrs. Bergman what happened, and Mrs. Bergman immediately agreed. Little Hans can stay at our house all day, and Dr. He will take him back to sleep at night. I will take good care of him, so you can rest assured.Mrs. Bergman said generously. Zhiyun took the first express train in the morning, the first-class carriage was always so empty, sitting alone in a small room with six seats, the train rumbled forward, and the hills and forests on both sides continued back Actually, this situation reminded her of the first time she came to Switzerland.Looking back now, she herself doesn't understand why she decided to marry He Shaoxiang so suddenly? Is it when the mood is too bad, the spirit is too empty and tired, and a safe haven is desperately needed?Or do you intend to take revenge on Jiang Xiaofeng?Alas, Jiang Xiaofeng, this person has long since disappeared from her life, how could she think of him again?What's worse, the closer she was to Munich, the clearer his shadow became, and fragments of the past that had been buried for a long time became active again in her thoughts.What about remembering the past?The past is finally the past, life is the most real thing, now she is a wife and a mother, for the sake of her son, she is too timid to even take the plane, this is a human, especially a woman, what can I say That's what life is like, right? Zhiyun's thoughts fluctuate along the way, thinking east and west for a while, chaotic and directionless.She found that Munich was indeed not the place she should come to. Before the bus arrived, she could already smell the sad smell. When Zhiyun arrived at Jinghui's home, Jinghui was leaning on a chair and weeping.Seeing Zhiyun, he called Yu Zhiyun and burst into tears. Jinghui and Jinghui Zhiyun supported Jinghui's shoulders and called repeatedly.Seeing Jinghui crying like that, she thought Yang Wenyan was dead. Yu Zhiyun, it's terrible, it's terrible, Jinghui's voice is hoarse, her shoulders shrugged from crying. how is heZhiyun asked anxiously. Still the same, one leg has been amputated.I don't know if I can save my life or not. Hearing that one of Yang Wenyan's legs was sawed off, Zhiyun felt as if a whip had been whipped in his heart. He was so shocked that he couldn't speak for a long time, but looked sadly at Jinghui, who was disheveled and haggard. Yu Zhiyun, what do you think I can do?Jinghui helplessly grabbed Zhiyun's hand, Aihua and Weihua leaned tightly on Jinghui's lap, calling mom, mom Seeing this scene, Zhiyun couldn't help crying bitterly.She led the two children to her side and coaxed them: Don't be afraid, mom will be fine.Auntie brought you chocolates, I'll give them to you later. Auntie, my dad was hit by a car and broke his leg, will he die?Aiwa had a look of worry on his little face.She had only seen Zhiyun when she was a baby, but she hadn't seen Zhiyun since then, but she wasn't shy at all, and she called her aunt very affectionately. Auntie, I don't like my mother crying, I want my mother to laugh.Wei Hua said stupidly.With her round face and big eyes, she looks exactly like Jinghui. Mom stopped crying.Zhiyun hugged the two children and sat on the chair.Jinghui, please don't cry anymore, look at how frightened the child is. Jinghui wiped her eyes with a handkerchief for a long time, and she didn't cry anymore, but her eyes were straight, with a delirious expression. Can I go and see Yang Wenyan?Zhiyun asked. He is still in the most urgent situation, and even I am not allowed to visit him.Jinghui shook her head as she spoke, and let out a long sigh of despair.Yu Zhiyun, he is probably hopeless.If he really died, I don't know what to do!Surviving in a foreign country is too difficult. People say that we made a fortune by opening restaurants, but they don’t know how hard it is to make a fortune.If Yang Wenyan hadn't traveled so far to buy things every morning, how could something have happened?She started wiping tears again.well!What's worse is that the fault is entirely Yang Wenyan's, and we are entirely responsible for the consequences. What exactly happened?Zhiyun was full of concern. Not to save a few bucks.I've said a long time ago, don't drive so far to buy groceries.He didn't believe it, and always said that the vegetables and meat were cheap there, and he could also buy carp from the Danube.He said that he could save 1/4 of the money by adding the gas fee, so he got up early every morning and drove for so long to go shopping. The terrain was high, the road was curved, his car was old, and it was foggy that day. Big, he couldn't see clearly, so he crossed the line, bumped into the car on the opposite side, Jinghui whimpered for a while, and said: He said that we must save money in this way so that we can pay off the loan quickly. When we drove the Yangtze River, we borrowed ten yuan. Wanmark's money Um, borrowed so much?Zhiyun was quite surprised. This one is huge!The decoration is exquisite, and several famous figures in Munich have invited guests there, and Yang Zijiang's scale is incomparable.Jinghui's mood seems to have calmed down a bit, and she no longer wipes her tears, but her normally smiling round face is full of gloom.To be honest, Yang Wenyan really can't say that he is not a good person. In fact, we haven't stood firm yet!I don't even save a small amount of money, but since the year before last, I have donated a scholarship to foreign students from Taiwan, 600 marks a month.The students have activities, Yang Wenyan doesn’t just donate money to donate food, if he dies so early, it’s really unfair Don't always think of the bad!Maybe he is out of danger now.Seeing that Jinghui's eye circles were red again, Zhiyun quickly interrupted her.You haven't eaten or slept, have you?You're going to be sick.I see you go to bed and rest, and I'll get you something to eat.She lowered her head to look at the two frightened little faces, and asked with a forced smile: Are you hungry?Auntie will cook for you, okay? My stomach is already hungry, Auntie.Edward said.Weihua followed suit: Hungry, hungry. Don't bother, there are cold intestines in the refrigerator, give them a piece of bread, just eat a little casually!I have no appetite for anything and don't want to eat anything.Are you hungry?Jinghui leaned on the back of the chair and said sleepily. Zhiyun still boiled a pot of noodle soup, cut a plate of cold intestines, mixed some lettuce, and a few people ate some.At dusk, the children went back to their own rooms to play with the toys that Zhiyun bought for them when they got on the train in the toy store below Zurich station.Jinghui still had that delirious look, Zhiyun told her to go to rest, but she refused, saying that she had to wait for the call from the hospital. Yu Zhiyun, no matter what, we are always best friends, aren't we?You see, when necessary, I think of you first.Jinghui said suddenly. Zhiyun was stunned for a moment by this sudden sentence, and then realized that Jinghui was apologetic for alienating her for a while. Of course, Jinghui, what kind of friendship do we have?This friendship will never change.She wanted to explain to He Shaoxiang that he wasn't being polite to Jinghui that time, it was just because he didn't know much about the world.Later, I felt that explaining it would be even worse, and the description became darker, so I didn't say anything. Well, I forgot to ask you, how did little Han Si arrange things when you come here?Can He Shaoxiang take him?In fact, you should bring him, so you can stay longer.Jinghui said with concern. Little Hansi is noisy, you are in a bad mood, I am afraid he will annoy you even more, so I handed him over to the neighbor.Zhiyun gave a vague explanation.Of course she couldn't say that He Shaoxiang was afraid that if Yang Wenyan died, the sad atmosphere would affect little Hansi's psychology. well!I have also seen through it. Human life is really very fragile. If God tells you to go, you can’t do it if you don’t go. The kind of people who seem to be the strongest and strongest, as if they will never fall, still say they will die. this is life.Jinghui came up with such a lot of theories very suddenly, Zhiyun couldn't understand what she heard, thinking that she believed that Yang Wenyan was hopeless and had a pessimistic view, so she didn't respond.However, she was deeply touched by this sentence in her heart. She remembered that Yang Wenyan had kept saying that staying abroad had a sense of security, and she seemed to trust this sense of security very much.Judging from his experience today, the so-called sense of security is not absolutely reliable anywhere. Yu Zhiyun, what are you thinking?As before, Jinghui asked Zhiyun what she was thinking when she saw Zhiyun drooping her eyelids and not speaking.Well, I didn't think about anything.Zhiyun whispered. There's none?I was thinking.I think how much we have changed in these years of going abroad!A simple and innocent person who didn't know what to say and what to say, turned into such a family.This family is a whole, and no one can live without the other, and it will be difficult to live without one day.She thought about it and added: This is especially true in foreign countries, let's live together! yes!How much we have all changed!Especially me.Zhiyun smiled helplessly.Jinghui compares the family as a whole, which makes her feel a little sad. She has been married to He Shaoxiang for several years, and the child is so old. She doesn't feel that she is a whole with him, but always has a feeling of being out of place. Based on this For one thing, she was subconsciously envious of Jinghui. Just as she was talking, the phone rang non-stop. Jinghui thought it was a call from the hospital, so she hurried over to pick up the receiver and asked: how is he On the phone, he said: Is it Jinghui?Is Wen Yan better?It turned out to be He Shaoxiang calling. The dangerous period has not yet passed, and I don't know what will happen, so I have to resign myself to fate!Jinghui said indifferently and dejectedly, said a few more words to He Shaoxiang, and then handed the phone to Zhiyun. You came back so early today?Zhiyun said. I came back a long time ago, because I was afraid that little Hans would trouble Mrs. Bergman too much, so I could take him home early.He Shaoxiang's voice was surprisingly kind. Is he already at home? At home, right next to you. What did you have for dinner? I bought a roast chicken and came back, and the two of us only ate a small half. Little Hans ate a chicken leg, ate a piece of bread, an apple, and drank a glass of milk.He Shaoxiang solemnly reported in detail, as if he was afraid that Zhiyun would blame him for not being able to take care of children. What are you doing now?Why are you not in the study? He Shaoxiang's slight laughter came from here.I'm not going to work in the study today, I just played two games of chess with little Hans. You don't go to the study to read, but also play chess with him?Zhiyun was so surprised that he couldn't believe it. yes!We played chess, each of us won one game, and after the phone call we had to play a third game to decide who would win and who would lose.He Shaoxiang's tone seemed to be several times more humane than usual, and then he was a little embarrassed to say it, and said hahaha: Helanna, when are you going home?You are not at home, it seems like the house is empty and nothing is right anymore. oh?Am I that important?Zhiyun deliberately put him in the army. It is not uncommon for He Shaoxiang to say such words. After several years of marriage, he has always given her the feeling that she is secondary, just his spouse in life, and work is his. The place where all the heart is placed. He Shaoxiang didn't say anything, he laughed awkwardly, and said slowly: Helena, little Hans said he missed his mother! I was just about to talk to him too!Having not seen little Hansi for a whole day, Zhiyun misses him unbearably. Mom, why don't you come back?There was little Hansi's baby voice. Zhiyun felt a warm current rushing into his heart, and he missed Xiao Han even more, wishing to see him right away. Mom wants to accompany Aunt Jinghui, and she will go back in a day or two. You have to be good at Lisa's house, and you have to listen to Mrs. Bergman and Dad. Be good, and Mom will buy you a car when you go back The mother and son chattered for a long time before putting down the phone reluctantly. After only one day of leaving, the father and son felt that something was wrong.Zhiyun made an incomprehensible expression, suppressing the relief and pride in his heart. I said so!Every family is a whole, even if one person is missing.Jing Hui stood up from the sofa as she spoke.I have to call the hospital and ask how Yang Wenyan is doing?It would be maddening to wait like this. Jinghui hung up the phone to the hospital, who said it was still the same, no progress, no deterioration, and still not out of danger.Jinghui put down the phone and said anxiously: Are you out of danger yet?God!It's going to drive people crazy.I don't have any other wishes now, I just ask God to be merciful to us and let him live.It doesn't matter if a leg is broken, a hand is broken, or his mind is blurred, as long as he is alive Zhiyun comforted Jinghui a few words, then forced her to take a sleeping pill and told her to go to sleep.Jinghui refused at first, saying that she was afraid that she would sleep too soundly, that she would not be able to hear the phone call from the hospital in the middle of the night, and that she would not know that the children kicked off the quilt, which would make them catch a cold.Zhiyun said: You should take a good rest!Maybe I have to go to the hospital tomorrow!How can you be so bad?I have everything to do, anyway, I can't sleep well the first night after changing the bed. I can listen to the phone, and I can also get up to cover the child.Jinghui reluctantly complied with her. Jinghui, Aihua, and Weihua were all fast asleep, and Zhiyun went to sleep.She deliberately opened the door a crack so that the phone could be heard.The room where Zhiyun sleeps is the most exquisite room in the whole apartment.Jinghui once joked with her: My guest room is specially decorated for you, come and play!You man, leave Munich and never come again.Now she came to Munich again, but in this case even the black funeral clothes were brought in the trunk. Zhiyun really couldn't fall asleep after changing the bed, tossed and turned many times, but still couldn't get rid of those chaotic thoughts.She recalled herself when she first went abroad to Munich, from some fragments of the past to today.What happened to Yang Wenyan made her see that human life is not as strong as steel, which reminded her of what Jiang Xiaofeng said: Human life is very short, and birth, old age, sickness and death are not in our hands. What I do is just how to make this short life more meaningful, and how to make life better for those who come later.If we muddle along in this life, we will muddle through forever, and there will be no second life.She didn't want to think of Jiang Xiaofeng's words and his people.Over the years, she has been trying her best to forget him and not let his shadow appear in her life. The scary thing is that although she hasn't met him, she hasn't heard any news about him.As the years go by, he is getting closer and closer to perfection in her heart. When I came to Munich, I had to avoid thinking about that period of bitterness and happiness, young and pure feelings. It is almost impossible to do everything in the past. It was like a revolving lantern spinning in her mind, tossing and turning for most of the night, and it was almost dawn before she fell asleep in a daze. Because Jinghui took sleeping pills, she had a good night's sleep, and her spirit recovered a lot.She called the hospital first thing in the morning, and it was the same: no progress, no deterioration. I have to go to the restaurant to see, life must live!Yu Zhiyun, look at them for me.Jinghui pointed to the two children. You go to work, I will take them out for a walk.As Zhiyun said, she began to dress and put on shoes for the two children, and went out of the gate with Jinghui. When Jinghui went to the restaurant, she took Aihua and Weihua to the British Park by tunnel. Aihua and Weihua happily ran into the gate of the park, Zhiyun followed behind.Nature seldom changes. The path surrounded by thick shade, the wide prairie, and the small rubber boat that looks like a few red dots floating on the water from a distance are still the same, and have not changed at all. The two children were playing and running on the grass, and Zhiyun walked and watched slowly until he reached the edge of the lake.The familiar red bench was empty there, and she sat down.Aihua clamored to feed the wild ducks and whooper swans, Zhiyun distributed the bread they had brought, and the two rushed to the lake immediately. Sitting on this chair, Zhiyun really has the feeling that the scenery remains the same, and everything is different, especially when he thinks of some things he said while sitting on this chair with Jiang Xiaofeng.He once said: Nowadays, many Chinese people are contradictory. They are not willing to stay in their own country, but they are full of complaints when they stay in a foreign country, and they are arguing about rootless, pale, and lost.He also said: It's not that you shouldn't stay abroad, but it depends on what the reason is?If it's just for personal gain, then it's meaningless.At that time, the sentence that disgusted her the most was: If we lose our true self in the journey of life, we will not be happy even if we get any kind of glory and wealth.At that time, she thought these remarks were all prejudiced words, and felt that Jiang Xiaofeng lived completely in the tower of the artist's fantasy, and did not look at the outside world.Now I feel that every word of his has been answered, he observes subtlety and penetrates into people's hearts, like a prophet.She has everything now, she just lost her true self, and she is not happy at all. Late autumn in Munich, tantalizing nostalgia, evoking memories of vivid past events, emerged one by one in front of Zhiyun's eyes.What surprised her was that when she recalled all the past events with Jiang Xiaofeng, the element of love for children was not very strong, but a little dazed and heavy, which made her deeply realize that she was no longer the same person she was before going abroad Simple, satisfied with her own appearance and talent, intoxicated by everyone's compliments and gazes, seeing the little things around her, shed tears at every turn, that delicate Yu Zhiyun.After more than two years of getting along, Jiang Xiaofeng has changed her. Although she has not completely become him, she has been infected by him without knowing it. The sense of worry, responsibility, and value he often talks about, the conscience of an intellectual , the sense of dignity of the Chinese people, etc., have deeply invaded her consciousness.No wonder her heart always seemed to be stuffed with a big lump, and she couldn't be truly relaxed and happy! She can no longer be a girl who is so pure that she doesn't know the difficulties of the world, nor can she just be a wife who is so wise that she doesn't notice anything except her family. If today, maybe my choice will be different?Maybe I'll go back with him and write our songs?Zhiyun looked at the lake and meditated.What followed was shame and self-blame, especially when He Shaoxiang said on the phone last night: You are not at home, it seems that the house is empty, and nothing is right.So she immediately stopped dissecting herself, refusing nostalgia.Before Aihua and Weihua could have fun, he took them out of British Park and went to the dormitory where they lived. All the people who used to live with have left, only Miss Smith is still there. Miss Smit was getting thinner and older, with two big lines like deep grooves on her narrow cheeks, and the eyeballs behind the thick glasses like the bottom of a bottle kept looking Zhiyun up and down. ah!Helena, what brings you here?Is this your child?I remember you only had a little boy!Miss Smith smiled at Mimi, showing the kindness towards a married daughter. This is Jinghui's daughter. Because Jinghui often came to Zhiyun in the past and was very close to Miss Smit, Zhiyun told her about Jinghui's situation and Yang Wenyan's car crash.After hearing this, Miss Smit sighed and said: Hey, you girls, you looked like carefree little girls back then, but now you are supporting your family and becoming mothers.Jinghui looks like a blessed person at first glance. How could such a thing happen to her husband?May God bless that Mr. Yang get well soon.After not seeing each other for several years, Miss Smit seems to be more human than before. yes!Hope he gets well soon.Zhiyun couldn't help but sigh. Miss Smith chatted with Zhiyun for a while, and asked her about her life in Switzerland. Zhiyun briefly talked about it, and showed Miss Smith a pocket photo folder in her purse. There are more than twenty photos, all of which are recent photos of their lives. Miss Smith is amazed as she looks at them: Is this little Hans?ah!Helena, what a happy mother you are!How cute and smart he looks!This is your family portrait, Dr. He is still so young!What health secret does he have!It must be your wife who is virtuous and takes good care of her.Your house is really magnificent, like the old castle where the earl lived in the old days.Helena, how enviable you are! Miss Smith praised Zhiyun enthusiastically after she was amazed and sighed. You haven't eaten boiled sauerkraut and small white intestines for several years!Try again!Miss Smith said. Zhiyun hurriedly explained that he was thinking about the changes in Yang Wenyan's injury and Jinghui's mood, and because he had been out for too long, the children also missed their mother, so they had to take them back.She would come again soon, and she would bring little Hans with her, so she shied away.Miss Smit sent her out, chattering, asking if she had any news from Inger!Zhiyun replied that he would send one or two letters every year, and now Yingge is a famous doctor and teaches at a university.Miss Smith talked about the situation in the dormitory, and said that among the more than 30 female students living there, none of them are as elegant and well-behaved as Zhiyun.Chinese girls are really good, now these girls, hum!Some actions are the same as savages.She commented. The taxi came, and Zhiyun took the two children up. Miss Smit said goodbye to her with a smile, and told her to come and play again when she came to Munich. Until the car turned a corner, Zhiyun saw Miss Smit Beckoning. Zhiyun felt that Munich was more charming than he recalled, with sentimental beauty everywhere, and even Miss Smith became cute.On the way to the Marlene Square through Ludivisi Street, Zhiyun saw a pair of young Chinese students, hand in hand, talking and laughing on the wide sidewalk. Seeing their expressions, they seemed to be intoxicated by the two. In her own small world, she completely ignored the world outside her body, which made her miss the days of eating pancakes, walking in the rain with an umbrella, and sitting on a cold bench in an English park for debates.At that time, I thought that day was very bitter and hopeless, but now I think about it, but I feel that it was the most hopeful day, and even the bitterness was suffering with hope. Before Zhiyun rang the doorbell, Jinghui had already opened the door and waited for her. You went there to play?Jinghui asked.The attitude is very calm, not the look of despair yesterday.I took them for a walk in the park and saw Miss Smit.Zhiyun played it lightly, and didn't want Jinghui to think of her purpose of going to England Park. Well, the weather is fine today, so it's time to go for a walk in the park.Jinghui also said lightly.Then he smiled bitterly and said: I have been to the hospital, and Yang Wenyan is out of danger.But his consciousness is not fully awake yet, I stand in front of him, he doesn't even recognize him.She couldn't help being sad as she spoke, and her eye circles were also red. Don't worry, you have to take your time to recover. Once you get out of the dangerous period, there is hope.This news relieved Zhiyun's heavy heart, although Yang Wenyan's leg was sawn off, stuck in his heart like a lead block. I know, as long as he doesn't die, I'm always grateful.He's disabled, so I'll serve him!As long as we have him in our lives.Jinghui took out her handkerchief to wipe her tears again. Zhiyun was deeply touched by this sentence, and was almost a little envious of what happened to Jinghui. How precious it is for two people's hearts to be so close and so tight!She thought silently.