Chapter 39 thirty eight

Zhiyun, He Shaoxiang, and Xiao Hansi, the family of three excitedly got on the plane to the south of Spain. Wuwu little Hansi sat between Zhiyun and He Shaoxiang, his mouth kept whining, imitating the sound of an airplane, his little face was full of smiles.He has almost never experienced such a family going out to play together. Usually, his father is always away from home, and when he is at home, he is bored in the study and ignores him. Although his mother is with him all day, she doesn't like to joke. Now the two Everyone sat beside him with a smile on Mimi's face. He was so happy that he couldn't stop talking.

Look at how happy little Hans is. From now on, we will go to the seaside for vacation every summer and go skiing in winter.He Shaoxiang said with satisfaction.In his hand was a newly published journal of physics, which he had intended to read on the plane.Seeing little Hans so happy now, he is innocent and cute.Zhiyun, who was sitting there smiling quietly, was wearing a new-style travel outfit, a light pink short-sleeved top and trousers. She looked so gentle and beautiful, and she was so touched that she couldn't suppress it, so she didn't want to open the magazine. Come and see. Dad, I like you taking me on the plane, but I don't like you reading and writing articles in the study.Little Hansi was usually a little afraid of He Shaoxiang, and never dared to speak to him so loudly.Seeing him talking and laughing now, he no longer has that indifferent and expressionless face, and when he is bolder, he talks more.

If Dad doesn't read and write articles, where is the money to buy you such a fun electric train?He Shaoxiang said with infinite emotion, and leaned comfortably on the back of the chair after speaking.Years of writing, reading, and doing experiments made him really feel a little exhausted. Now sitting on the soft back of the chair, looking at his lovely wife and son, the only two people in this world who belonged to him, he almost felt that he was the world. The happiest in the world.After answering little Hansi's words, he turned to Zhiyun and said: Helena, are you happy now? Zhiyun turned to smile at him, and nodded.

Don't get emotional anymore?He Shaoxiang asked with a suppressed smile, as if Zhiyun was a child who had just made trouble for no reason. Zhiyun took a deep look at him and shook his head. He Shaoxiang grinned with satisfaction, and the eyeballs behind the glasses were shining with joy.Why are you nodding and shaking your head like you're performing pantomime, and don't speak?He has a great sense of humor today.Seeing that Zhiyun was still smiling and remained silent, he held her hand and said: Spanish leather goods are the best, you should buy some. They booked a big hotel called Paradise on the southern vacation coast, which belongs to the five-star level. There are bands, dance halls, and swimming pools in it. The decoration is luxurious. Candlelight is used for dinner. A tuxedo with a piece of cloth growing out of the back of the ass.The people who came to dinner were all holiday guests. The men were all in suits, and the women were all bare shoulders, with long skirts dragging the floor, and jewelry on their necks and hands.Zhiyun also brought a few long cheongsams, and put them on at dinner time, with her long hair tied up in a big bun, which attracted everyone's attention as soon as she entered the hall, and she was very prominent.He Shaoxiang was very proud of this, Zhiyun himself was not as interested in this kind of compliment as before, but found it boring and hypocritical.She has often felt this way lately.Whether a person's beauty is beautiful or not, whether or not someone compliments him, has much to do with the person's actual life value, the meaning of life, and even with happiness and happiness?Especially if there are so many worries and uneasiness hidden under the beautiful and luxurious surface.

The procedure of vacation is almost the same every day, and everyone is the same.They had breakfast on the balcony facing the sea, with colorful parasols covering their heads, and the waitresses in Spanish skirts ran in and out to serve them. They ate slowly while admiring the sea view with rolling waves. When the ship slides slowly across the sea, little Hans will shout excitedly. After breakfast, all three of them went back to their rooms to change into their bathing suits, and then went to the hotel's private beach. The colorful canvas tents that shade the sun are constantly trembling in the sea breeze, under which lies a man stripped to nothing but a pair of swimming trunks, or a woman in a bikini swimsuit, and those who are not afraid of the sun simply lie on the beach, mixing The body is smeared with bright oil and exposed to the scorching sun.Zhiyun can't swim, and his delicate skin is not used to basking in the sun, so he always wears black glasses and hides under the cloth shed.

He Shaoxiang has always been experienced in vacations. He put a thick layer of ointment on his snow-white body that has not been exposed to the sun for many years, lay down on the beach for a while, went for a swim in the sea, and took a nap under the umbrella when he came back. The waiter who served him brought some cold drinks to quench his thirst, and then instead of reading a book, he held a cardboard on his lap and wrote without thinking, exactly like when he was on vacation alone before his marriage.Occasionally, I raised my head and saw Zhiyun lazily leaning on the deck chair, looking intently at the sea, with such a peaceful and peaceful expression.Little Hans played so vigorously on the sandy ground with his small bucket and small shovel, he felt an indescribable satisfaction, and felt that there was a price to be paid for all the year-round toil.In addition to bringing him fame and status, it can also make his loved ones live so well and enjoy better than ordinary people.Thinking about it this way, he felt that he should not slacken his efforts, that he should strive for greater honors and achievements, and let his wife and children live a better life.So, he immediately lowered his head again and concentrated on reading, writing, and thinking.

Zhiyun leaned on the deck chair, coldly observing the crowd on the beach, and the endless golden sea water.Seeing those foreigners who were completely stripped and sunburned like boiled prawns, teasing and laughing so selflessly, playing ball and playing in the water, her always sensitive heart felt deeply moved. Touched.I feel that the essence of Eastern and Western people is so different, at least she herself is so different from them, she will never be as carefree and relaxed as they are, and she will not be so selfless in pleasure, when she is under the arbor, comfortable Leaning on the recliner and sipping a sweet and delicious cold drink, her heart was still heavy. What she thought of was the motherland separated by mountains and rivers, the pain and blows the motherland had suffered in recent years, and a Responsibilities of highly educated intellectuals.Even though I hid under the pergola and enjoyed the sea breeze and the fresh air at sea, I couldn't get rid of the heaviness.

At noon they went back to the restaurant for dinner. The tables were covered with magenta tablecloths and beautiful tropical flowers, and several waiters came to serve them on silver plates.After dinner they went back to the beach, Zhiyun leaned on the deck chair again, He Shaoxiang read and wrote, little Hansi played in the sand, swam, and rowed the rubber boat again, exactly the same as in the morning.The sun went down to take a shower, Zhiyun changed into an evening dress, He Shaoxiang put on a light-colored suit and tie, and even little Hansi wore a neat suit with a small tie around his neck. The family of three took the elevator to the lobby downstairs Going to have dinner, the candlelight in the hall is shining, there are small candlesticks of different styles on each table, and the exquisite porcelain shines in the dim light.Ladies and gentlemen walked in gracefully, and the skirts of the ladies' satin evening dresses rustled.Zhiyun heard someone lower his voice and say: What does this Chinese family do?It is possible to take a vacation to this place!Another person replied: The rich Chinese are all businessmen from Hong Kong, and the average Chinese are all poor.This remark made Zhiyun very harsh, and he wanted to tell them: Chinese people are not all poor, and most Chinese in Taiwan live affluent lives, and they are not businessmen from Hong Kong. He Shaoxiang's achievements and knowledge are ordinary Westerners. There is simply no way to hold back.Of course she didn't say it, she just added a melancholy.

The dishes for dinner are elegant, either baked prawns or roasted leg of lamb, steak, and some strange Spanish dishes that have never been seen before. At night, many people went to dance in the ballroom of the hotel. Zhiyun and He Shaoxiang also went to see it curiously. There were actually three different bands playing in turn.He Shaoxiang Xiang is not good at dancing, Zhiyun is good at dancing but his lack of interest in this Tao is completely influenced by Jiang Xiaofeng.Before going abroad, she often participated in the balls among her classmates, and she also went to the Air Force Freshman Hall with Chen Lingling to dance a few times. She was not only the most beautiful girl in the whole ball, but also one of the best dancers, so she naturally became the attention of everyone. and the goal of admiration.In the past, whenever she recalled those golden days, she couldn't help feeling complacent and nostalgic. Once when she told Jiang Xiaofeng, he said:

That kind of glory is fake and worthless.Moreover, in today's day and age, I don't think that the life of young people is reading, dancing, roasting meat, whining or whatever.Why have we not learned the enterprising and hard-working spirit of Western youths, but we have learned these superficial and boring things so well!At that time, she was displeased by Jiang Xiaofeng's cold water, but after thinking about it later, his words were indeed very reasonable. Among other things, some of the classmates she was close to, such as Chen Lingling, Zeng Manlin, Jian Yuying, and even herself, It’s not just reading, dancing, camping, and barbecue. They are satisfied with life and can’t even complain. If they complain occasionally, it’s just that they have a better chance than others. They had no time or mood to think about issues such as fashion, fashion, and trends. She really noticed some big problems after she met Jiang Xiaofeng.Jiang Xiaofeng doesn't dance, not only does he not dance, but he also thinks that the two of them twisted and trembled to the beat of the drum, jumped and danced, which is ugly, like an electrified robot, a fake civilization of Western society.Let him put it this way, her appetite for dancing has also dropped to zero, so since she came to a foreign country, she can count the number of times she has danced, and they are all in social situations where dancing is necessary jump.

Instead of dancing, they wandered the streets of the town. This is a small town for tourists to take a vacation. There are only two or three streets in total. The streets are not very wide. Both sides are lined with shops selling souvenirs or vacation items, such as straw hats, swimming suits, rubber boats, diving equipment, and several large shops. In the window of the store, there are the latest fashions for women, leather shoes and bags, and every few steps is a barber salon. The exquisite ladies swim in the daytime and wet their hair, and go to the barber shop to tidy it up at night, and then get it wet again the next day. , and then reorganize it, quoting a sentence from Jiang Xiaofeng: I am so stupid that I don’t know how to use time and money. The streets in the evening are already crowded with people, topless and backless, with long hair and beard, not afraid of the crushed stones on the ground, the liberator of mind and body with bare feet, a curvy half-naked girl, wearing Red and green, the old American lady wearing bright lipstick, the handsome British gentleman, hugging each other, talking non-stop, forgetting the outside world of young couples.All kinds of people, all kinds of people, etc., plus the antique carriage pulled by two big horses, swaggered through the city from time to time amidst the tinkling of bells, making the already crowded street even more crowded.Although there are so many people and so many people, the three members of the He family are still the most noticeable, because they are the only three Chinese. When pedestrians pass by, they will turn their heads to look at them up and down, and will lower their voices and chatter.Are they Chinese or Japanese? It must be Japanese, the Japanese have been rich in recent years!Many people who come to Europe for vacation, just take a plane. No, they are not like Japanese, they are like Chinese. No matter who they are from, they don’t belong to Europe anyway, so they will probably go back after their vacation. Zhiyun heard all these words in her ears, and she believed that He Shaoxiang could hear them as clearly as she did, but he didn't show any special expressions or reactions, he still smiled so easily, and walked forward contentedly.But she was deeply touched, a kind of sadness of being a guest in a foreign country penetrated her heart.At this time, she truly realized that the physical loneliness is not necessarily the real loneliness, but the spiritual loneliness among the bustling crowd is the real loneliness. They also used to ride a carriage out of the urban area of ​​the small town, through the ancient and secluded groves, and then circle back.In the evening, there is always a sea breeze, the carriage is driving against the wind, and Zhiyun's long hair and long skirt are blown up by the wind, making her feel like she wants to ride the wind.He Shaoxiang sat on the other side of the seat, casting joyful glances from time to time, and seemed to appreciate the 18th-century sentiment created by the people of the 20th century. Imitating the tone of the coachman, yelling, yelling. Yes, He Shaoxiang gave a long hum, showing how intoxicated he is in this happiness at the moment.It's also my first time riding a carriage!How fun!Do you like it?He first looked at Zhiyun inquiringly, then bowed his head to look at little Hansi. I like it, Daddy, and you'll take me in the carriage often.Little Hans said loudly happily. Why didn't you try it before?What do you do when you are alone on vacation?Zhiyun turned his face to look at He Shaoxiang. I just stay in the room to read or write. It’s boring to go shopping alone, and it’s even more boring to ride a carriage.He Shaoxiang shook his head. Since it's boring, I still go out for vacation every year. To rest the brain!My brain is like a machine. After a long time of use, it needs to be refueled and refreshed. I haven't had a good rest in the past few years, so I am very tired.At that time, for two whole weeks, I spent every day sunbathing and swimming on the beach, eating a few good meals in the hotel, reading and writing, and doing nothing else.He Shaoxiang recalled.After thinking about it, I added another sentence: My vacation is pure rest. He Shaoxiang's swimming demeanor immediately appeared in Zhiyun's mind, so rigid, pious and focused, as if he was doing an important job, without any enjoyment or relaxation.No wonder, it turned out that he was concentrating on resting! well!Our generation has lived a difficult life, it seems that we are desperately trying to relax.He Shaoxiang felt deeply, and patted little Hansi on the shoulder.I made my debut too late, I only came out after graduating from university, and I wasted a lot of time.Little Hans grew up here, the chances are much better, and he won't live so hard like me. In fact, in your current situation, it is enough, you don’t need to make yourself so miserable.Zhiyun seems to be serious and also seems to be joking. How about that?Researching science is like iron thrown into a furnace, it won't come out until it turns into steel.There is no limit to learning, and I am still far from being enough, not to mention there will never be enough time for learning.He Shaoxiang's face turned serious, and his tone of voice showed his determination that he would not come out unless he turned into steel. The days of vacation, the first two or three days seem very novel, and then become dull and less varied.Every day I get up early in the morning and go to the balcony to have breakfast, while enjoying the sea view, then change into my swimsuit, wear black glasses and rest on the deck chair on the beach, eat lunch after rest, rest after lunch, and then take a shower , make up, put on smart clothes, go to dinner in a candlelit restaurant, and then go shopping He Shaoxiang rested with a rosy face, and his spirit was getting better every day. Little Hansi met a new friend on the beach, a Dutch boy named Stephen. The two of them looked for shells, played with sand, and built castles with sand. They had a good time and called him Three or four sounds were not heard.Only for Zhiyun, instead of getting much rest in spirit and mood, it seemed to be heavier. Little Hans and the yellow-haired and yellow-browed Stephen played speculatively, and the parents of the two families naturally greeted each other.Stephen's father was a businessman in the construction industry. He was a big fat man of super tonnage with a bulging belly. He always had a cigar in his mouth. He would take the cigar out of his mouth when he saw anyone and say hello. His wife was thin Dry and slender, the two just became an interesting contrast.Of their three children, Stephen is the youngest.One day on the beach, Stephen's mother specially came to Zhiyun's pergola to chat with her in order to show her friendliness. I like Stephen playing with your little Hans.There was a kind smile on her thin face, and her tone was sincere.I have no racial concept, nor does my husband. His company uses two Indonesian overseas Chinese, and we treat them the same as the Dutch.We are not like those narrow Dutch people who still have colonial ideas. Um, yes, yes Zhiyun didn't know what to say, so he had to answer vaguely. Yeah, that's why I like Stephen playing with you little Hans, and I don't have an iota of race.I think whites, blacks, and yellows are all the same people.Stephen's mother seemed to be afraid that Zhiyun would not believe her sincerity, and repeatedly expressed it. Yes, it was the same!Zhiyun perfunctorily agrees.But in my heart, I wonder why this lady is so stupid and boring, why is she always talking about this topic?The topics that Chinese people who have been abroad for a long time avoid talking about are race, religion and politics, but she just talked about it endlessly.Did you Stephen go to primary school?she asked deliberately. It's about to start, and I'll start the first grade when I get back from vacation, how about you Hansi? He is not yet four years old and cannot go to kindergarten according to Swiss regulations. Now he goes to the kindergarten run by the Mommy Club twice a week.Zhiyun explained the nature of the mother club.Glad Stephen's mother changed the subject. Um, haven't you been to kindergarten yet?He is tall, articulate, and speaks in such an orderly manner that I thought he had gone to school!Stephen's mother pretended to be amazed.Zhiyun felt very comfortable when she heard her child praising her. Just as she was about to say a few words of modesty, the lady sighed again and again: I hope that God blesses him and he goes to kindergarten smoothly.Mrs. Ho, as you may not know, children of color are often discriminated against in school.Among our classmates in Stephen's Kindergarten, there was a black kid, and no one would play with him, saying he was dirty.That child is so pitiful. She said that she washed her face with soap at home, trying to wash off the blackness, and the skin was washed and torn. She just wanted to discuss this topic, chattering and talking endlessly.Zhiyun tried to interrupt her several times but failed to change the topic, so he finally had to give up and listen to her babble with a feeling of suffering and embarrassment.The holiday fun, which was not strong at first, was made even weaker by this thin monkey-like wife. Do you think this kind of vacation is very interesting?One day Zhiyun asked He Shaoxiang. Of course it was fun, my mind and body were completely rested, and I was more productive when I got back to work.Don't you like how comfortable the hotel is and how nice the weather is?He Shaoxiang asked back with a smile. Mom, I like to go on vacation. I can play in the sand and water, and my father doesn’t hide in the study and ignore me, telling me not to make noise. It’s a good vacation.Little Hans also expressed his opinion. yes!Vacations are fun.She followed them, not wanting to spoil the scenery. It's just that the loneliness lurking in my heart is more obvious and worse. There are many tricks on the beach, not only there are programs such as lottery guessing, swimming and boating competitions, but also the election of Miss Beach, who is said to be the first one can not only get a gift equivalent to several hundred dollars, but also can be selected in the celebration of the coronation ball. Any male as a dance partner.In fact, there are quite a few young girls on the beach, but they can really make people judge by their face. There are only a dozen or so who are running for election.In the end, a girl of eighteen or nineteen years old with a flamboyant manner and a very sexy figure was chosen.The beach lady immediately became a celebrity on the beach, always followed by a few men who accompanied her, and she was quite intimate with one or two of them.Zhiyun originally thought that the beach lady had fallen in love, but it was only from Stephen's mother that she learned that it was called holiday love. Don't look at how close they are now, once the vacation is over, love will also end, and they will go back to their respective countries, and they will never see each other again for the rest of their lives.Stephen's mother said contemptuously and decisively with her thin lips crooked. real?Zhiyun was surprised. True.Look at that French woman sitting under the shed in front of you.Stephen's mother pointed forward with her pointed chin.I noticed that she was alone, without a man, and without a wedding ring, but she had two girls. yes!I also saw that she has two beautiful little girls.I thought maybe her husband didn't have time to come along No, she must have no husband, otherwise she would not have no wedding ring.Stephen's mother interrupted Zhiyun's words, then smiled and said: Didn't you pay attention?She often hangs out with the waiter in the hotel restaurant, and they go out to play together at night, sending the two children to play with electric toys.The purpose of this kind of person is to find excitement. Have you heard the word of vacation adventure?It's called vacation adventure. Vacation adventure?Zhiyun suddenly realized.She had seen the term in a magazine before, and now she understood what it was all about.Pay close attention to the French lady. Seeing that she is gentle and beautiful, her manners are noble, and she is well-dressed every time she appears in the restaurant. I can't believe that she is such a person.However, a few days later, she saw with her own eyes that the French beauty and the waiter head with curly black hair and the elegant demeanor walked past each other in the street of the small town, and the two six or seven-year-old girls fell in love with each other. In the video game store, play among a group of little hooligans.She couldn't tell how much she felt in her heart, not only despised that beautiful mother, but also pitied the two innocent children.What surprised her even more was that this was not the only case, there were several similar cases.She couldn't help sighing greatly. She felt that the western society appeared to be noble and prosperous on the surface, but in fact there was a lot of filth hidden in it, and most people seemed to be accustomed to this, so they would not be surprised at all. The moral concepts of Westerners have changed with the times , seems to be getting worse and worse.Later, she discovered more. She saw a young man with many needle scars on his arm who was playing marijuana, and met a street dealer who was peddling sex business. From the small world of vacation, she seemed to see the whole world. In microcosm, I smell the madness of the end of the century in people's hearts, and also see clearly how lost a society without moral traditions and ancient cultures is.Only then did she deeply understand that Jiang Xiaofeng once said that I miss home under the Chinese Tower.At that time, she didn't understand, so she thought: there is no one in his family, so what kind of family can he think of?Only now do I know that his home is the 5,000-year traditional culture of the Chinese nation and the true Chinese spirit.He once said: The anguish and loss expressed in general literature, art and music, such as dissecting the soul, are not the feelings of the Chinese, but the ailments brought by Western philosophy to Western society, which has happened to our Chinese society. It has nothing to do with it, because we are a nation with an ancient culture and a complete ethical system, strong and profound, and have our own path. We will not and do not need to be affected by such degenerate trends of thought. Those arguments that she had heard before were not pleasant to her ears, but today they have all become truths that she admires.While others are enjoying the holidays, she sits under the awning and ponders these questions.