Chapter 44 four three

On the second day after returning home, Jinghui called. Hey, Yu Zhiyun, where have you been?I called you ten times at least, but no one was home. I went to the United States for three weeks, and I was too busy before I left, so I didn't have time to call and tell you.Zhiyun said sorry. When you go to the United States, you must see your good friends!What about Zeng Manlin and Chen Lingling, they must have played well!Jinghui was a little sour. I didn't play much, but Zhiyun gave a rough description of the trip to the United States, and finally asked: How are you doing?Yang Wenyan has fully recovered!

There is no way to recover completely. Will the amputated leg grow back?However, his prosthetic leg works well, and there is no difficulty in moving.Jinghui spoke in the same lively tone as before, obviously living a happy life again.Yu Zhiyun, let me tell you a happy thing: Yang Wenyan's paper was published by a journal. oh?What paper?What magazine was it published in?Zhiyun was very curious. Essay on law!Published in the German Jurisprudence Monthly.Jinghui's pride shines through every word. oh?Zhiyun found it even more unbelievable: Yang Wenyan said that Gou Quan lived his life in troubled times, he did not seek to be known to the princes, and he was busy running restaurants and making money all day long. How about a dissertation?Thinking about it, she couldn't help asking suspiciously: When did this happen?

It was published last month.Jinghui explained enthusiastically: During the few months he was in the hospital, he lay in bed and read every day.The most important thing was this car accident, which completely changed his thinking.He said that human life is too fragile and too short, and we should try our best to give it some meaning, and don't live up to being a human being.He felt that it should be a pity to throw away the law that he had studied for so long and put in so much hard work, so he resumed his old career and read a lot of books about law.In this way, I was so inspired that I wrote a paper, but I didn't expect that it would be published in the Law Monthly.

This is really worthy of congratulations, Jinghui, I am happy for you.Zhiyun was really happy.She has always been worried that Yang Wenyan lost a leg and would be depressed. Now he is not only not depressed, but is living a more active life. How can friends not be happy for him?Jinghui, Yang Wenyan is a strong person. he is.Jinghui admits without humility.I was still very sad at first, but I am not now.He was disabled but not disabled, but found his true self. I think I have nothing to regret.As she spoke, she began to make religious remarks: I am very grateful. I think it is God who wants to see our resistance and deliberately create some accidents to exercise us.If we get knocked down, we're the underdogs, aren't we?So I said to Yang Wenyan: We still have to live happily.

Jinghui, you are absolutely right. But Yu Zhiyun Jinghui hesitated, and made her voice very gentle.Yu Zhiyun, the main reason I called you is to tell you that both of our restaurants have been sold, and we, well, we are going back to China. Zhiyun could hear how Jinghui said these words cautiously, lest she would be irritated, but she was still greatly frightened and could not speak for a long time. You know, Yang Wenyan's outlook on life has completely changed. He said that he doesn't want to spend his whole life alone making money outside. He wants to contribute what he has learned over the years to his country and fulfill his duty as a citizen.At first, he doubted whether he had this ability, because he left behind what he had learned for several years, but when the paper was published, his confidence was completely restored.He said that he will never leave the law again, and he will continue to study and write papers.Jinghui still spoke so calmly and cautiously.

Zhiyun's heart sank rapidly, once Jinghui left, how lonely would she be?Who can I talk to when I have worries and troubles?She let out a long sigh, and asked sullenly: When are you leaving? Two weeks later.Yu Zhiyun, do you want to bring little Hansi to Munich again?Jinghui asked in a soothing voice. Zhiyun was really tempted, thinking of Jinghui going back, maybe we will see each other again that day, it would be good to go to get together, but I don't think I have the energy to take the train, and I don't want to mess with He Shaoxiang again because of this matter. unhappy. I don't want to go, I have been away from home for so long, and I have a lot of things to do.She said listlessly.Jinghui still didn't give up, and even said many things asking her to go, Zhiyun just said: No, no.Finally, Jinghui said angrily:

It's fine if you don't come, I won't come out for the time being when I go back this time, I don't know that we will have to wait until that day when we meet again. Zhiyun remained silent. After Jinghui finished speaking, she asked: Have you seen Xie Jinchang recently? Why didn't you see it?We sell the restaurant and we rely on him to run errands, and he was at our house last night!What do you ask him to do? me!Suddenly, Zhiyun had a whim and told him about introducing Zeng Manlin to him.He also said: I hate introductions the most in my life. Being a matchmaker is extremely vulgar, and I am even more reluctant to do it myself.But both Lao Xie and Zeng Manlin are good friends of mine, both are engaged in literature and history, and both are honest and kind. The most unbearable thing is that they are both lonely.I thought I could introduce them to each other.Tell Shao Xiang, he said that Zeng Manlin is a doctor and a professor, so she would never fall in love with Lao Xie.What do you think about this matter?

In my opinion, the ideas of any of you scholars may not be completely correct. People's feelings cannot be measured by realistic conditions, not to mention that everyone's views and ideas are different.I think we can try this matter. Jinghui agreed very much and asked Zhiyun to send Zeng Manlin's photo and resume address to her as soon as possible. He said that if Xie Jinchang agreed, he would call Zhiyun immediately and Zhiyun would write to Zeng Manlin. Let me first introduce Xie Jinchang's personality and all his experiences. Don't scare Zeng Manlin by Lao Xie writing a love poem rashly.she said with a smile.Claiming to get things done before leaving Europe.

Jinghui's words greatly boosted Zhiyun's confidence, and he tried his best to facilitate this matter.Immediately sent seven or eight photos of Zeng Manlin taken in the United States, full body and half body, together with all materials. On the third day, Jinghui's call came, and she laughed before she could speak. Hello!Yu Zhiyun, Lao Xie just left our house, I showed him all the information on Zeng Manlin, and asked him if he would like to communicate with her and be friends? How did he say? He looked at the photo carefully.Said that Zeng Manlin looked like a dignified, thrifty and chaste woman

Zhiyun burst out laughing, and then listened to Jinghui's words. He said that he admired Zeng Manlin very much, but he was a little ashamed. He felt that Zeng Manlin was a doctor and a professor, and he was nothing, and he didn't even have the courage to take the exam again.Afraid that Zeng Manlin would look down on him, she was quite scared. So he doesn't want to date Zeng Manlin?Zhiyun felt that he had been poured cold water. There, I was scolded later, and he agreed again.Jinghui said with a smile. How did you train him? I said: You don't have the courage to take the exam again, it was your Hua Sujian who made you up.You were originally a high-achieving student who graduated from the history department, so you shouldn't have changed your career to study mathematics.Now that he has studied mathematics, that gorgeous, simple, and healthy person not only discourages you, but also always writes to stimulate you, announcing that he will break up with you during the exam, otherwise he might pass the exam.I said that if he didn't pass the test, it didn't prove that he didn't learn well. He was really stimulated.

In fact, it is true!Zhiyun echoed. yes!Let me say this, his mind became active, and after thinking for a long time, he blushed like Guan Gong, and said: Okay, then I will try to write her a letter!So yeah!Yu Zhiyun, you need to write an express letter to Zeng Manlin immediately.But don't let Lao Xie's letter arrive, she can't figure it out, and the original letter is returned, it will be lively.Jinghui laughed for a while.Do you have a photo of Lao Xie? There are two.There are also photos at the back of his two poetry collections! Yes, send Lao Xie's poems to Zeng Manlin to read.Jinghui said. Zhiyun put down the phone, wrote a letter to Zeng Manlin, and sent it to New York together with Xie Jinchang's two poetry collections. After returning from the United States, He Shaoxiang was so busy that he hardly had time to eat, sleep or even write a thesis.The reason was that Director Clement suddenly fell ill and was hospitalized. The affairs were handled by He Shaoxiang and Dr. Hao Li. He Shaoxiang was in charge of technical matters, and Dr. Hao Li was in charge of administration and personnel. Director Clement is nearly sixty-five years old and is due to retire next spring.In private, he has told He Shaoxiang many times that the person who takes up the position of director is none other than He Shaoxiang.In fact, if it weren't for this hope ahead, He Shaoxiang might not have followed him to Switzerland in the first place. Clement fell ill due to heart failure, and it is said that he may need a long period of recuperation, and he might not come to work in the institute again before officially retiring.He Shaoxiang has always shared a lot of work for him, and he is the most promising candidate to succeed the director in the future. At this time, it is very logical to be appointed by Director Clement to act as an agent.But why should Dr. Hao Li be appointed to share with him?Is it distrust of his administrative ability?Or is there another reason?This incident caused He Shaoxiang to brood, and his mood was extremely difficult, especially: Dr. Hao Li was very self-righteous, although everyone knew that S. C．He's academic prestige is many times higher than his, but he is still unconvinced, he wants to be top-notch in every way, he wants to be strong, and he wants to show his power.He Shaoxiang, who shared the work with him, felt extremely depressed and painful. He Shaoxiang was very dissatisfied with Clement for this, but it was inconvenient to say anything?I had no choice but to bear the burden of hard work, endure Dr. Hao Li's arrogance, and work like a bull or horse.He once carefully and calmly analyzed why Dr. Hao Li was assigned to act as an agent with him.The results of the analysis made his uneasiness disappear.He thought that Director Clement was his teacher, and he always cared and cared for him. He must be afraid that he would suddenly take over the whole office, and he would not be able to take care of some things, so he specially asked Dr. Hao Li to assist him.There should be no other reasons.In the entire laboratory, He Shaoxiang is the most prominent, outstanding, and truly internationally renowned scientist. This is an undeniable and undeniable fact, and he already has German nationality, so they can no longer exclude him on the grounds that he is Chinese. , can Dr. Hao Li still pose a threat to him?This kind of conclusion made He Shaoxiang feel at ease again, and for Dr. Hao Li's arrogance and deliberate aggressive style, he understood and forgave him. The problem is, although he forgave Dr. Hao Li, the depression of swallowing his anger accumulated in his heart, so when he came home these days, he always had a gloomy face like a cloudy sky. Jinghui's family really went back to China, which was a great blow to Zhiyun, and He Shaoxiang spent less time at home than before, and often didn't even eat at home. With a full stomach, he went to work in the study, and took out stacks of papers from his rock-heavy bag until late at night. It's not that Zhiyun doesn't know He Shaoxiang's hard work, she sees everything in her eyes, and wants to be more considerate of him, sympathize with him, and even love him more.But He Shaoxiang's incompatible arguments and his indifferent attitude of not caring about anything but work made her unwilling to do that.Sometimes, she will feel helpless to herself, and admit that she is a loser: she loves musicians, but has no courage to enter the world of musicians, marries a scientist, but cannot enter his scientific world, as if she is always wandering outside the door. People who go around in circles and cannot enter the house.No wonder then Ling Yun said she was contradictory, then Jiang Xiaofeng also said she was contradictory, and now He Shaoxiang said she was contradictory! She blames He Shaoxiang, but she also blames herself. She looks noble and gorgeous, but the gloom inside is getting thicker and thicker. The days are like a pendulum, swinging without change.Swinging, autumn is here again. Autumn is a season of daydreaming, Zhiyun with many emotions, can't help thinking about home and country, and fearing the rapid passing of days.And the increasing sense of loss, often like a woodpecker's hard pecking, pecked at her heart so loudly. On sunny afternoons, Zhiyun would often take little Hans for a stroll, either visiting companies or looking at shop windows, as if deliberately killing time.That day on Chezhan Street, I ran into Chen Jiahe again. It seems that our Yonghua will not return to Europe, he is too satisfied with his stay in China, and he wants to get a doctorate in Chinese studies! Chen Jiahe couldn't hide a smug smile and said.He said again: This is all thanks to your help, otherwise we would not be able to find a way out, where would he be today? There, it is nothing to do such a small favor, and they are all Chinese outside, so it is right to help each other.Zhiyun said modestly. Mrs. He Chen Jiahe seemed to have something to hide, hesitated for a while, and finally said it.Mrs. He's son is also older, maybe you have a little more free time?He said with an embarrassed smile.Still that thing, those few friends of mine, they really miss learning Chinese.It would be great if Mrs. He didn't think we were stupid and would teach us some Chinese literature.but hey Zhiyun knew that he wanted to say that he was afraid that He Shaoxiang would disagree, but he was too embarrassed to say so. Do they really miss Chinese?She was really touched.I thought to myself: Don't look at these little people as simple, they really love the culture of the motherland!I really want to agree, but I also worry that He Shaoxiang will object.Not knowing how to answer, Chen Jiahe said again: If Mrs. He is willing to teach, we can find a place, for example, in Lao Lin's restaurant. The restaurant is always closed on Mondays, which happens to be used as a classroom. Well, let me think about it and give you an answer!Zhiyun said vaguely. Well, the smiles on Hao Chen's and Thin's faces were very forced, obviously disappointed. He Shaoxiang came back very late that day, but Zhiyun still told him that he wanted to teach the Chen family and his group about Chinese literature.He Shaoxiang was already tired and not in a good mood, when he heard Zhiyun's absurd idea, he said helplessly: Helena, what's the matter with you?Please think about our status, our social circle, what is your relationship with these dubious little people?What does it matter to you whether they want to study Chinese literature?And living in Europe, studying that kind of Chinese literature?These people are really strange.He Shaoxiang frowned impatiently. Zhiyun's face turned pale with anger, and was about to say something when He Shaoxiang continued: Helanna, it would be great if you hang out with your group of girlfriends more!What are these people doing? I can’t drink afternoon tea every day, talk about cats, dogs, and fashion. I have different backgrounds, moods, races, cultures, and educations from them. It’s difficult to become true bosom friends. I prefer to do my best and do something for China.Zhiyun also said angrily. What does it matter if it is different?If you keep in touch with them often, you will naturally be the same.He Shaoxiang pushed the spectacle frame, touched his smooth forehead, and said, "Look at other Chinese wives, who cares about these affairs?"We can't make people look funny.You like Chinese friends, why don't you go to Mrs. Cui and Mrs. Xu to have fun? Zhiyun looked at He Shaoxiang, knowing that he would not approve of her embarrassing her face anyway, and would have to quarrel if he talked too much, so he gave up and turned away.However, the resentment in my heart and dissatisfaction with He Shaoxiang increased a lot. One month after Xie Jinchang and Zeng Manlin communicated, Zeng Manlin wrote a letter to Zhiyun.Said: I read his collection of poems, and also communicated with each other a few letters.Zhiyun, I really appreciate you introducing us to each other.Xie Jinchang is a kind-hearted, affectionate, justice-loving person who loves the country and the nation, and his literary talent is by no means comparable to that of ordinary literati in the world.We communicate very well, and I encourage him not to give up his efforts in writing and studying history. Given time, he will definitely achieve great things.His failure is not really a failure, it's just a small tragedy of the times. I don't care if he's not a Ph.D. Zeng Manlin's words made Zhiyun very happy, and hurriedly wrote a letter to Taipei to report to Jinghui.Jinghui only sent a letter after returning home, saying that she was busy, and relatives and friends welcomed them. A nostalgia. The weather is not bad today, the morning fog dissipated, and the sun showed its face majesticly. The row of glass doors on the terrace was brightly reflected, as if it might be broken by the sun at any time. Zhiyun was writing letters, and little Hansi was beside him recognizing Chinese characters. Although He Shaoxiang thought it was unnecessary, she still taught him every day. Mom, take me to the playground, okay?Xiaohan missed a few words, then ran over and leaned against Zhiyun, feeling tired of her. Zhiyun stopped writing, looked down at Little Hansi's photo in the sun, like a fresh apple, with a red-white face, big black eyes, innocent demeanor, couldn't help but kissed him on the forehead , smiled and said: If you memorize the lesson you just taught, mother will take you to the playground in the afternoon. OK, Mom, I'll know it right away.Little Hansi went to study after he finished speaking, and he would memorize it after reading it twice.So the mother and son decided to go to the playground after lunch. In fact, every residential area or park in Switzerland has a playground for children.But what little Han wanted to go to was the farther one, and he could only get there through the pine forest on the hillside behind.The reason is that the game field is large in scale. In addition to slides, see-saws, swings, sand pits, and steel ropes, there are also barracks, Indian tents, fast horses, and watchtowers.Every time little Hans went, he was reluctant to leave. Zhiyun first rolled out a few stamps from the stamp machine on the corner of the street, threw the letter for Jinghui in the mailbox, and then led little Hansi up the hillside, through the woods, and towards the playground. Like every time, little Hansi took the slide and the tightrope, walked from the red tent to the soldier's barracks, as happy as a bird out of its cage.Every time Zhiyun came, he either brought a book to read, or like a European woman, he brought wool to play.Today she brought the half-worn vest for He Shaoxiang, and sat on a long wooden chair, basking in the sun while slowly weaving.From time to time, he turned his eyes to the distant sky and the nearby trees, the little Hansi who was jumping around, and the piles of children playing vigorously.Little Hans's black hair and black eyes are so lively and eye-catching among a group of children with yellow hair and blue eyes.As she weaves, thinks, and watches, an indescribable melancholy, like a ghost, entangles vaguely.Does she know what this is?This is the wandering feeling of a wanderer in another country. She hates this feeling, but she can't get rid of it. Excuse me, can I have a chat with you?A middle-aged woman who was sitting on the chair next to her suddenly came to sit beside her. Of course it is possible.Zhiyun said with a smile.I secretly thanked this unknown woman for helping her drive away those nasty bad emotions. I think your husband is also Chinese, right?Just watch your kids.said the woman.He quickly tied a red sweater in his hand. Yes, we are all Chinese. Since you are all Chinese, why do you live here?The woman made a puzzled smile.Because my husband works here.Zhiyun has experience, whenever people ask this kind of question, she is often asked this kind of question, and she always answers like this. Has he nothing to do if he goes back to your own country? A difficult question came, and she couldn't reveal all the facts to a stranger, so she had no choice but to avoid the important ones and said: My husband used to study here, but he stayed after finishing his studies. oh.The woman nodded, but there was still an incomprehensible expression on her face with thick pores.Is that so?You Chinese are really adaptable. There are Chinese everywhere in the world, and no matter which country you go to, you will stay there forever.She said, carefully looking at the knitting yarn in her hand, and said: I have been to the United States to see my sister, and her husband is American.oh!God!There are so many Chinese in the United States. My sister's old house is rented to the Chinese. Oh Zhiyun didn't have much interest in this topic. yes!It is leased to the Chinese, who came from Taiwan.They are so interesting. Parents, brothers, sisters, daughters-in-law and children, a dozen or so people, are all crowded in that small house. The whole family, men and women, all go out to work. Seeing that life is so hard, but my sister said that they are people of great status in Taiwan. Woolen cloth!Alas!How incomprehensible!She stopped the knitting needle in her hand and smiled confusedly.China is really a mysterious nation. For us, the woman who is difficult to understand talked for a long time. Her attitude and tone of speech were very sincere and friendly, and she did not mean to be sarcastic or teasing, but Zhiyun I still feel like sitting on pins and needles, full of unease. In the end, the wife seemed to want to make friends with Zhiyun, and wanted to invite her to drink coffee. Zhiyun didn't want to hear her discuss this topic in depth, and said that he had something to do at home in the afternoon, so he didn't have time to go to the coffee shop.And as he spoke, he stood up and went to call little Hansi. Little Hansi was arguing with two children who were much taller than him, his face was red, when he saw Zhiyun approaching, he said loudly: Mom, they scolded me.Zhiyun approached and said: We had fun together, why are we arguing? I didn't argue with them, they scolded me.Little Hans pursed his lips, as if he was about to cry.Call me a dirty, smelly and nasty Chinese. Don't scold people!How good it is to play peacefully.Zhiyun patted the two children with a smile, and was about to say something, the older one immediately dodged like lightning. You don't touch me, I don't want the Chinese to touch me.The boy pointed to little Hans.We don't play with him.He, a Chinese, has hanging eyes and a snub nose. Last time I bought a Chinese made of chocolate at a candy store. That's what he looks like.He hung his eyes up with both hands, pressed his nose again, closed his eyes into slits, and smiled stupidly and mischievously. Zhiyun's snow-white face was immediately covered with a red cloud of shyness and anger. She took little Hansi's hand and said in German deliberately: Little Hansi, go with mother, this child is not well-bred, we don't care about him, but she didn't finish her sentence, a tall, well-dressed woman with a rude and arrogant attitude came over, she pointed at Zhiyun, Very bluntly said: If you don't like us, feel free to leave.We don't welcome foreigners here at all.Switzerland was originally the best place in the world, but it was ruined by foreigners. Italians, Spaniards, and Chinese, it’s best to go away. I hope to vote next time to create a bill to make these hateful It would be better to drive away all the foreigners.snort!A Chinese actually taught my child a lesson.The woman spoke loudly, Zhiyun blushed with embarrassment, wishing she could get in through a crack in the ground.He wanted to teach that woman a few words, but felt that it would be shameful to waste his time talking with such a vulgar and ignorant woman, and it would be unseemly to quarrel with such a vulgar and ignorant woman.What's more, no matter how you say it, it's my own fault, it was originally someone else's place!Why stay here if you don't want to be second class?In recent years, Switzerland has held three referendums because some people want to expel all foreigners living in Switzerland.Fortunately, most people in Switzerland are still rational and have a sense of justice, so they failed to pass three times.This has caused some people who oppose foreigners to complain, especially the arrogant people with low level of knowledge and extreme thinking, and vent all their anger on foreigners.In the eyes of such people, Italian sweepers, Spanish road builders, and Turkish coolies are no different from scientists like He Shaoxiang. I think it has nothing to do with them.They are rich but narrow-minded, and they only care about the land they live on, and they are afraid that foreigners will take advantage of them, but they don't think about how much labor they bought from foreigners at a low price. Seeing the woman's ferocious expression and hearing her vulgarity, Zhiyun knew that he had met a xenophobic faction. Although he was so angry that he was about to bleed, he didn't want to say anything, but looked at the woman's red and fat face contemptuously. After glancing at it, he led little Hansi away.The child who scolded little Hansi just now shouted from behind: Chinese, Chinese!The smaller child next to him also called. Stop yelling, Chinese people are human too, so what's the point of yelling!Someone stopped the two children, and later heard the two adults arguing about something, thinking that the wicked woman was arguing with the person who spoke the truth again. Zhiyun led little Hansi's hand, stepped on the withered yellow turf, and the fallen leaves turned into dark brown, and walked down the hillside.The sun was so good, shining on their heads, it was so hot that it was hardly like autumn, and it was usually very cold at this time of year.If you are unlucky, it might snow, but today it will be so warm, as warm as a bright spring.On some mahogany benches nearby, sat more than a dozen women basking in the sun, some reading, some weaving, some chatting, and some teasing their children.A bunch of children were chasing and playing on the slope.The whole picture is full of tranquility and serenity. Looking at the expressions of those people, it seems that they don't know that there has been war, death and aging in this world. Their faces are filled with carefree and peaceful smiles.Every time I come here, little Hansi always says: Mom, I want to run down the slope.Zhiyun always encouraged him and said: Run, run, I want to see how fast this little athlete's legs are.Little Hans would run down like a runaway pony in one breath. Today, his little heart was also covered with a shadow, and he didn't say anything about running away.The mother and son held hands tightly, and walked through the vast forest without saying a word under the curious eyes of everyone.The clear sky far away and the boundless land make people see the endless years and the long road of life.Zhiyun's heart skipped a beat, wondering if her only beloved son would spend his future life as bewildered and lonely as she did?She knew where she came from, and she had her own country and home in her memories, and she had a hometown to cherish and a homeland to love, but her little Hansi, her child who was more precious than life, didn't even have this nostalgia and homeland. Without the happiness of memories, he has no country to cherish.This thought made her nerves spasm.She clenched little Hans tightly, and the pain flowed from her heart to her palm.The child's little heart immediately felt the mother's sorrow. He held Zhiyun back and kept calling softly: Mom, mom! At the dinner table, He Shaoxiang ate silently like every day, his eyes behind his glasses were thoughtful, and he was only thinking about his work. Zhiyun had been angry for so many times because of his stiff look like no one else, but now she had already resigned herself to her fate, got used to it, didn't care and was not angry anymore.But at this moment, she felt unbearable anger and disappointment because He Shaoxiang didn't notice the seriousness of her and little Hansi's expressions and the abnormal atmosphere at the table. Can you see me and little Hans?She couldn't help but have a challenging tone. What did you say?He Shaoxiang looked at Zhiyun, but couldn't see anything.Then he said in a sleepy tone: Don't interrupt me, I'm thinking about a question, it's very important.He was afraid that Zhiyun would not understand, so he added: I am doing a new experiment these days, and it is not going very well. There is a phenomenon that I can't find a reasonable explanation for, and I need to think about it.After he finished speaking, he continued to think. If it was normal, Zhiyun would definitely not say anything, but today she feels too deeply and her emotions are too low.He couldn't help but said coldly: In addition to thinking about your experiments, papers, and work, can you also think about our problems? In fact, He Shaoxiang's trouble was not only that the experiment did not go well, but also that he was angry with Dr. Hao Li again.He is introverted and always keeps things in his heart. He only talks about the glorious and proud things, and swallows all the cowardly and discouraged things silently, and enjoys it all by himself.Normally, he would not confront Zhiyun tit-for-tat for this sentence, but now he was full of grievances and had nowhere to vent, so he said impatiently: You wait for everything ready-made, neither suffering nor burden, what is there to think about? By the way, this is your point of view. If we have food and drink, and we are not suffering or burdening, then there will be no problems, and we should be content and happy.You see us as machines that eat and sleep, but unfortunately we are not, we are sentient beings, so there are still some problems sometimes.Zhiyun said sarcastically. Do you have questions?What's the problem?He Shaoxiang sighed. Today, little Hansi was bullied by other children and Zhiyun's voice became calm again, and he talked about the matter a little bit. When it came to the older child scolding little Hansi, He Shaoxiang made a subtle smile and interjected: Children quarreling are nothing but bullying. Little Hans did not quarrel with anyone. Daddy, I didn't argue with anyone, I was playing with sand and they came and called me little Hans was trying to tell the whole thing. He Shaoxiang interrupted him impatiently: How could people scold you for no reason? You must have provoked them first. I don't.Little Han thought of pleading, his little face flushed with excitement.I was playing alone and didn't care about anyone else. Why are you ignoring others?Why do you want to play alone?He Shaoxiang was upset.None of them play with me.Little Hans bowed his head, and was about to cry. It's not strange, they don't play with you, but they still scold you, which really makes me understand more and more.He Shaoxiang had finished his meal and was about to stand up to leave when Zhiyun couldn't bear it anymore and said: What do you not understand?Don't you know that Chinese people are ostracized everywhere, and Chinese children are also angry?What's the matter with you as a father?The child was bullied outside, and you didn't even have a word of comfort, why did you send him. Strange, how could such a thing happen!Why has no one regarded me as a Chinese when I have been abroad for many years?No one bullied me?Hylana, it’s your education method that hurt him. You told him to speak Chinese at home, and you kept telling him that he was Chinese, which made him mentally unhealthy, and he developed a sense of inferiority, and his temperament became out of gregarious. Everyone can't play together. According to you, how should I educate him?Zhiyun held his breath and asked. We should also speak German at home, to give him the concept and habits of this place, and make him feel like anyone here.Only in this way will he get into the circle, get along with the group, and other children will be willing to play with him. Do you think that if he can't speak Chinese and doesn't have Chinese concepts, others won't regard him as Chinese?A sneer of sarcasm flashed on Zhiyun's mouth. certainly.He Shaoxiang looked at Zhiyun without a smile: Today's world is no longer the ancient and closed world of the past. Now that science has advanced to this level and transportation is so convenient, it only takes a few hours or ten hours to go from one country to another. There is no clear boundary between countries, let alone academic boundaries.A person who is capable, ambitious, and good enough will be won by any country. It can also be said that he is qualified to go beyond the boundaries of the country and be a citizen of the whole world. Helana, let me say a word, don’t be angry, your many thoughts It's all too narrow, too archaic, and out of touch with reality.You really shouldn't indoctrinate little Hans with those narrow and outdated ideas, you should educate him to become a figure beyond the boundaries of the country.There is no problem with little Hans' aptitude, but your education method blocks his way and creates all kinds of difficulties for him.He Shaoxiang said all the words that had been accumulated in his heart for a long time when he was in a bad mood.He has always disapproved of Zhiyun's painstaking efforts to educate little Hansi into a Chinese child with Chinese ideas, thinking that it will hinder little Hansi's future. Now, as he expected, he has encountered difficulties. How can he not Take advantage of the situation to point out the truth, so that she can realize her mistakes! Shaoxiang, what's the matter with you?After all, it is always inseparable from personal heroism!In your opinion, anyone with high qualifications should be a citizen of the world, and there is no need to have national concepts, nor do they need to fulfill any obligations for the country?Zhiyun was still suppressing the rising anger. Your so-called obligatory goals are too small.A person who is qualified to transcend the boundaries of a country, he has to fulfill his obligations to all mankind, which is many times higher than his obligations to a certain country, and the scope of benefit is wider.He Shaoxiang said proudly, raising his bare forehead a little higher.More people benefited. Then you don't care about being a native of that country at all!Zhiyun let out a sigh of relief. Being from that country has nothing to do with my accomplishments or my worth.He Shaoxiang sneered confidently. Zhiyun was so angry that he couldn't speak for a long time, he stared at He Shaoxiang for a while before saying: Although you don't care about being from that country, I still want to tell little Hansi that he is Chinese.Because I am Chinese, I think you are too. Both parents are Chinese, how can the child not?Besides, I think being a Chinese is the luckiest and most honorable thing.Besides, my parents had made me a Chinese with black hair and black eyes, and it was too late for me not to.Since I love being Chinese, of course I have to call my son a Chinese.Zhiyun deliberately mocked with a smile, and said sarcastically: We are different from you, you are too great, you are not Chinese for a long time. Mom, you are wrong.Dad is Chinese, Lisa said: whoever has slanted eyes and slit eyes, well, it is like Dad, he is Chinese.Little Hansi took Zhiyun's words seriously, and quickly corrected her. Enough is enough.一天到晚就甚麼中國人不中國人的，連這麼小的孩子都會說這樣的話了。我就不懂，如果覺得非做中國人不可的話，為甚麼要到國外來，要想盡方法留在這裏！何紹祥激動的大聲說。由於他向來像池不會起波濤的死水，從不會大發脾氣，也不會忘形的歡笑，總是含含蓄蓄、溫溫吞吞，現在發了這麼大的雷霆，就使織雲和小漢思都吃了一驚。 小漢思趕快溜回房裏去了。織雲卻被他最後那句話傷得透了骨，她定定神，道： 我雖然想盡方法留在這裏，幸而還沒有數典忘祖，比起有些人，還算好的呢！現在我想想，真的有點慚愧，國家把我培植到大學畢業，我甚麼義務也沒為她盡一點，天天就在這裏怨天怨地的鬧情緒。可是，紹祥，在你想給全人類盡義務的時候，就一點優先權也不給自己的祖國嗎？你完全忘了受過國家多少好處嗎？ 何紹祥怔了一下，就理直氣壯的道： 我沒受誰的好處，我有今天完全憑自己，如果我留在中國，就不會有今天。 可是沒有中國就沒有你，別忘了你是用中國人的錢公費保送出來的，如果你不是在國內底子打得好，也不會有今天。 公費保送我出來，是因為我的成績夠資格。我沒靠任何人，我是自己辛辛苦苦闖出來的天下。何紹祥固執的說。 All right!Say what you want.織雲的激動漸漸轉成冷靜，放棄的道：紹祥，我們兩個人的想法差得太遠，在一起過這些年已經很不容易了。老實告訴你一句話，跟你在一起我覺得恥辱 What?What did you say?何紹祥幾乎不能相信自己的耳朵，惱怒的打斷了織雲的話。 我說，我跟你在一起覺得恥辱。織雲清清楚楚的又說一遍。她面色蒼白，聲音有些微微的顫抖。你忘本忘得太離譜了。你以為你比別的中國人高了好幾等，你看不起自己的國家和自己的人，你不是嗎？以前在慕尼黑凡是中國人的集會你全不參加，因為怕沾辱了你，是罷？你這個人，冷酷、自私、對誰都沒有熱情，你除了愛你的工作，你的論文，你的名，你的就要到手的所長地位，別的甚麼也不愛。你就是學問打兩百分，人性也只好打不及格。紹祥，我不能忍受跟你繼續生活下去了。織雲在痛心之餘，把數年來的積鬱，一古腦兒全吐了出來。 何紹祥驚愕得像一個石頭人似的僵站在地上，剎那間彷彿所有的思想和意念全脫了軀殼。織雲的話使他太傷心也太意想不到了。跟她生活在一起幾年，他一直努力工作，為她爭得榮譽和金錢，讓她過得富裕稱心，自己辛苦得像架永不停歇的機器。他沒有任何嗜好和享受，除了偶爾喝半小杯白蘭地之外，可說是只有吃飯睡覺和工作。 而她，全看不到這一切，居然把他看成這樣一文不值的一個人，在別人的眼睛裏，何紹祥是甚麼等級的人物？自己的妻子竟然說得他這樣不堪。而且她提到慕尼黑，她為甚麼要提慕尼黑？一定是因為懷念江嘯風，對了，一定是，他早就覺察到她沒忘記他。 何紹祥推推眼鏡框，鏡片後面的眼珠變得特別明亮，似有泫然欲淚之勢。 是了，我這樣的人對你是不適合的，只有江嘯風那種在國外混不下去的笨中國人，才適合你的胃口，你怎麼不去找他呢？他狠狠的說。 你不必拖上別人，我是要帶小漢思回臺灣，我早就想回去了，只是下不了決心。謝謝你到底給了我勇氣。織雲的臉色由白轉紅，黑幽幽的眸子盛著沉痛，真好像下了很大的決心。沒有甚麼痛苦，比一個人看到自己卑怯更痛苦。我不但痛苦，我早就看不起自己了。她強忍住奪眶欲出的淚。 snort!何紹祥從鼻孔裏哼出一聲冷氣，回到書房去了。他雙手抱著頭，坐在書桌前，情緒久久不能平靜下來。想起明早就得到日內瓦的高能物理研究所出公差，而要提出討論的實驗報告還差了一些沒寫完，他的心裏就更焦躁，後來他換上了家常穿的衣服，喝了小半杯白蘭地酒，假寐十多分鐘，精神才又恢復了。 何紹祥就是何紹祥，一工作起來，就能忘記身外的世界，包括快樂的與不快樂的。跟織雲爭執的事，已不在他的意念之中。自然也就沒有料到，織雲這次並不是只說氣話，而是真的下了決心，要帶小漢思回臺灣去了。 織雲第二天一早就給瑞士航空公司打電話訂了票，六天之後飛曼谷，然後轉泰航經過香港直飛臺北。 票既訂好，她就趕忙給家裏寫信，叫他們到機場去接。但寫了一半，又覺得不妥，這麼突然的回去，是不是會使家人懷疑她此行的原因？如果父母知道她與何紹祥之間發生了裂痕，將會如何的失望、傷心、受打擊！她想了想，決心扯個謊，就說何紹祥要到美國出差兩個月，她帶著小漢思在瑞士太寂寞，正好趁這機會回家去看看。 信是用快郵掛號寄的，她想像著家人收到後的興奮和驚奇。 決定回去後，她的心反而定了，接著就忙著打理行裝。出國八九年，總不能空著兩隻手回去，回國探親的人沒有不帶些禮物送親友的。可是她的心情如此壞，在這種情況之下回去，那裏有心情去上街採辦？如果甚麼都不帶的話，又怕家人親友失望。正在為難之際，她忽然想起家裏還有許多沒有動用的新東西何不帶回去送人？於是便翻箱倒櫃的大找特找，到底給她發掘出來一些寶藏，甚麼紗質衣料、絲圍巾、皮手套、化粧品、男人領帶、袖扣、小記事本、瑞士特產的小刀，還有其它零零碎碎的小玩藝，堆得像座小山。 在一隻舊衣箱的底層，她發現了一隻牛皮紙信封，面上沒寫字，裏面像裝著東西，看來似曾相識，卻又說不出是甚麼？拿著信封往外一倒，竟是一本過時的機票和一隻小小的白金戒指。這兩樣東西使她觸目驚心，久久不能移動眼光，而許許多多的往事，在剎那間都湧到眼前來。 她想起和江嘯風一同創作我們的歌時候的日子，想起他們一同去買戒指，以及後來江嘯風決定回國，硬把機票塞在她的皮包裏，說：回去找我，我等你、永遠等你時候的情景。 如今她真要回去了？難道他還在等她嗎？難道她真會去投奔他麼？江嘯風曾說：不管甚麼時候，只要你願意跟我完成我們共同的理想，我都張開雙手來歡迎你。她曾賭氣的說：大江，那只是你一個人的理想，並不是我的。這幾年來她就為這句話在慚愧，因為現在才深深的覺悟到，那也是她的理想。她曾有那麼長的一段時期，活在迷亂與茫然之中，如今，她終算看清了真正的自己。但，過去的一切還會回頭嗎？她會真的去找他，站在他的面前，說：大江，我終回來了麼？不，過去的永遠過去了，愛情沒有回頭的路，受傷的愛情更無修補的可能，而她，怎麼樣也不會厚顏的真去找他。 織雲拿起那本機票和戒指，裝回信封裏，又丟在箱子底層。 何紹祥到日內瓦出了兩天差，回來帶了一打深紅色的玫瑰，一盒包裝講究的巧克力糖，向織雲表示謝罪。在他以為，架吵完了就算雨過天青，雖說織雲曾用那麼不堪的話挖苦他，他也不想再計較。那家夫妻沒有鬪嘴的時候呢？鬪起嘴來還會有動聽的話？太太年輕漂亮，當丈夫的還能不忍讓幾分嗎？ 當何紹祥把玫瑰花交給織雲的時候，她垂著兩隻手不去接。何紹祥知道她的氣還沒消，就好脾氣的自己動手把花插在瓶裏，放在織雲面前的桌子上。然後坐在織雲旁邊，陪著笑道：海蘭娜，不要再生氣了。我想過了，我們之間甚麼問題也沒有，都是因為你太小孩子脾氣，總愛說甚麼中國人不中國人的。其實夫妻之間總說那個做甚麼？是那國人有甚麼關係？像我，整個的精神和時間都用在做學問上，那裏注意得到這些沒關緊要的小節，我想的是怎麼樣更努力，更進步，達到研究科學的最高峰，如果達到那一步，無論是那國人，都會得到同樣的尊敬，所以說，這類問題實在是不值得討論，更犯不上為它吵嘴生氣的。人生追求的：輝煌的事業、高尚的生活、名譽、地位、金錢，我們少了那一樣？海蘭娜，你應該沒有不滿足的理由。何紹祥把他在火車上就想好的一番開導詞，平心靜氣的說出來。 織雲抬起眼光，注視了何紹祥一刻，冷淡而平靜的道： 不，紹祥，我並不是對你給我的生活不滿足，名譽、地位、金錢、學問，也不是一切。我尊重你是個出類拔萃的科學家，可是我們兩個人的基本做人態度相差得太遠了。這幾年我過得一點都不愉快，這樣的日子我也不能再過下去了。紹祥，我後天就要帶小漢思回臺灣去了。 you?Back to Taiwan?你買了票？何紹祥驚愕的站起。 織雲點點頭。 我出來太久了，要回去看看。再就是她垂著眼光沉吟了一會，又抬起來望著何紹祥，困難的道：紹祥，我們在一起彼此不快樂，最好分開一段時期，兩個人都好好的想一想，看以後該怎麼辦？這麼拖著不是辦法。 何紹祥推推眼鏡框，眼光怔怔的垂著，滿面茫然，人彷彿一下子老了許多。你不要回去。他近乎祈求的。我們可以全家到外國玩玩。 不，我一定要回去，這次你怎麼都改變不了我。我也不要去休甚麼假。Zhiyun said with certainty.何紹祥從織雲的表情，看出了她不容動搖的決心。 你想念父母，就回去看看也好，不過何必帶著小漢思？我可以找人帶他。你一個人快去快回，來去三個星期，不是很好嗎？何紹祥勉強的笑著。 我一定要帶著小漢思回去，而且既然回去就不會只去三個星期。織雲明白何紹祥是想用小漢思來拉住她，便悻悻的道：紹祥，我真不瞭解你，你明明並不需要我，可是又不許我離開這個家。那時候廖靜慧邀我去慕尼黑玩，你反對，好幾次我想回臺灣去看看，你也反對。紹祥，你太自私了，你想來想去只想你自己，從來不設身處地的替我想想。這一次，我不會再聽你的。 這時在房裏玩電動火車的小漢思，像一陣風似的，氣急敗壞的奔出來，抱住織雲一條腿，叫著道： 我要跟媽媽一同去外婆家，我不要留在這裏，也不要跟別人。 何紹祥看看這對母子的表情，明白了自己在他們心中的地位。他苦澀的咬咬牙，又推推眼鏡框，默默的到書房裏去了。