Chapter 15 fifteen

Just because Nansen was eager to create happiness for himself, the test followed.The test found that the bed was vacated after Lao Gao left, and the Discipline Office allocated that vacancy to a new intruder, a science geek from the physics department. The name of the imperial examination geek was given to him by Lao Su. Frankenstein is a gentlemanly guy. His short suit hair is brushed with high-grade hair oil, combed evenly, can slip flies, and his whole body is so clean that he can't smell a little human smell. It may have come down from Mars, not my race. He should play the role of a young fan.

Old Su didn't have a good first impression of that man, and that man didn't like the three people in this dormitory. As soon as he entered the room with his luggage, he began to criticize aggressively: Unlucky to be assigned to such a dirty place!It must be too close to the toilet, how can there be a stench of pickled fish? Old Su, who was pinching his feet on the lower bunk, felt harsh when he heard it, so he laughed with his usual optimistic attitude and said: This proves that your nose is overly sensitive. We commonly call it a hound-like nose, but don’t worry, brother, the ancients said that it’s like entering abalone, and you won’t smell it for a long time. Just get used to it.

Where do you get so many messy things here, piled up like a dormitory?Frankenstein frowned and said: In the neatness competition, it must be a black flag, which affects my conduct and performance, and may affect my application for a visa to go abroad in the future. This is too serious! Then you please.Old Su said: We didn't invite your brother to come here to be wronged, did we?Our dormitory has always been very Democracy, and we will not force you to live here. Dude, what's your last name? My surname is Su from Jiangsu Province. Then, Brother Su, you have to make it clear that the instructor at the Discipline Office asked me to come. Since I am here, I am a member of this dormitory and have the right to speak and express my opinions!I don't want to leave, it's also my right!

Yes, of course you have rights.Nansen said: We welcome new roommates very much. Our place is completely democratic and free, and the minority is truly subordinate to the majority. Any important reforms are put to a vote through a four-member meeting; you should be satisfied with this, right? Frankenstein kept a bit of doubt on his face, but he couldn't say anything to refute Nansen, so he stayed aggrieved.In the evening, when He was reading a book, he insisted on turning off the lights, saying that he had the habit of going to bed early, and Nansen put on the record player to listen to music. He made a serious protest, saying that the dormitory should be kept quiet and there should be no noise. Accusing, saying that this is the most uncivilized.

We might as well hold a meeting to discuss and make a resolution by voting!Nansen said: This is the most democratic form! I didn't go past lights out.He Wen said in a stunned manner. Even I have to say, my record player is playing at the lowest volume, and it doesn't deserve to be described as noise.Nansen said. If you are in your own bed, your movements will also be restricted.Old Su Jia said silently: Human beings may be in danger of extinction!Maybe I just hold one-sided reasons, I wait for the vote. The result of the vote was, of course, completely three-to-one, which made Frankenstein stunned, and the three felt a little uncomfortable.The evening has just passed, and the morning problem came again. He has the habit of getting up early to read aloud, Nansen is used to playing his morning music, and Frankenstein prefers to sleep late than Lao Su. This makes him even more unbearable. .

There are four people in a dormitory, and two of them are still sleeping. Isn't this a minority?Seeing that Lao Su was still hugging the quilt and closing his eyes, he said confidently: "Then you shouldn't be making noise so early in the morning!" You should kill the roosters and sparrows first, they will quarrel with you earlier!Nansen said: Is it still early in the morning? Work at sunrise, I have never heard of people who sleep at sunrise.He also followed suit. It's not just me, isn't he also sleeping? Don't force me on.Old Su said on the side: I am not sleeping late, I am closing the day to rest my mind and listen to music by the way, I am just a fake sleep.

Sleep is also divided into true and false?I never heard! why not?Lao Su said: Intersex people can be divided into real hermaphrodites and fake hermaphrodites, myopia can be divided into real myopia and fake myopia, and so on. Of course, sleep can also be divided into real sleep and fake sleep!Isn't your brother so rare and strange, making a fuss? You are bullying people.Frankenstein says: Your utterly barbaric attitude should be reformed. How to reform?Seeing that your brother looks like a social reformer, Lao Su is still laughing: use your Martian science?Or use your way of fighting on three sides?

Please don't forget that our dormitory is a small society with four people. Nansen said: We use the most democratic way, everything is passed through meetings, the minority obeys the majority, your brother is still too impatient, and wants to be Hitler, so let the three of us as your subjects? OK OK!I don't sleep anymore!Frankenstein exclaimed: I can't stand your grievances. Don't be serious, scientist.Nansen said: We are teaching you a social lesson.People from the School of Liberal Arts may seem a little sour to you, but it is undeniable that we have more contact with society than you, whether it is in life or in spirit, society is like this, and you are not patient enough, so don’t hope it can accept it. What are you.

Frankenstein pouted and said after a while: I'm moving!I'm most afraid of hearing your words!I'm not a sociologist, so I don't need to listen to your lecture. Frankenstein is here to blame, and he really left if he said he would leave!Because of this matter, Nansen was depressed for several days. He didn't have any prejudice against his classmates who study science and engineering, but just wanted to make fun of him and have fun, but he actually annoyed him.When Frankenstein left, Nansen and Lao Su explained to him that the other party was on fire and couldn't listen at all. Later, Lao Su said with a wry smile:

It’s all because of my old habits in the agricultural society. My habit of pinching my feet is learned from my old man. He works in the paddy fields all day long. He has been suffering from humidity and feet for many years. He scalds them with hot water at night. , Stretch your feet on the stool and ask our child to pinch it for him, and I will pinch it afterward. I am also a three-and-a-half-pound duck with a two-and-a-half-pound mouth. Nansen said: I am the worst at handling my own life.When I was at home, there were books and records everywhere in my house, and they were never cleaned up. I think things are a little messy, and there is an artistic atmosphere.

Of course we have flaws, He said: That guy is a little too picky.His attitude, not to mention facing the society, even facing us will not work. But he always had a little stimulating effect on us.Nansen said. Yes, the kid made us eat paprika. A few days after Frankenstein left, the school authorities held a dormitory tidiness competition for the first time, which made Nansen's face long all day long. The instructor posted the rules of the competition on the bulletin board, stipulating that the last place In the dormitory, a black flag should be hung at the door. He met Lao Gao and said to him: Old boy, this time is miserable, if the black flag hangs at the door of our dormitory, it will be unlucky for me and old Su Laohe, but you escaped! Why don't you divide the spirit of the work camp and use it on yourselves? God, this is not the same thing as doing tidy work. I can't do this and that like a woman.I think you are quite relaxed. Of course it was easy, Lao Gao said: It should be done, all three hardworking roommates did it for me, and I couldn't even intervene to help.I have to tell you first, this time the instructor came up with an idea, and hired girls to judge the boys' dormitories, and boys to judge the girls' dormitories. Boy, this disaster is even worse! What's the use of complaining?Go worry yourselves. Nansen returned to the dormitory and held an emergency meeting of the three slobs.Old Su found out from somewhere that the dormitory cleanliness competition was suggested to the school by Frankenstein's tens of thousands of words. Hey, his dude is generous, waiting to see our jokes. Show him or not?Nansen said. Still joking, He pointed and said: To be honest, our dormitory is really like a junkyard. How can you not let others see the joke?Unless you do it yourself! I remembered a story I heard two years ago!Nansen said: In a university in the north, there was once a dormitory cleanliness competition. One of the dormitories was full of unkempt slobs. One day they decided to stick a note on the door, and everyone slipped away. Look, the above is: This room withdraws from the competition.In the end, the cell still opened the door and included them in the inspection! Must be last.He said. No, Nansen said: just like that, they still won the fourth place. What does this story matter to us? It gives us confidence.Nansen said: Most of the young people in modern times are dying in one room, and they are partial to the country. Don’t think that we are not clean enough, and there are many worse ones. Let’s clean it up now. Maybe the champion is expected. At that time , Frankenstein has nothing to say! In this competition, the three people were so busy that their waists ached and their backs ached. The black flag did not fall on the door, which was paid for by several days of sweat.From this incident, Nansen warned himself that this is a problem of habit, not just a simple trivial matter, doing anything by himself, with a lot of fantasies and enthusiasm, but lacks a real plan, and a long-term, comprehensive plan Intend.After a few days of hard work, there is still a price. He decided to take it easy and think about it. It was dusk after class, and he walked to the building of the College of Humanities with his books in his arms. Standing on the trapezoidal road with green grass in the middle and small cement strips, he looked at the smoke scene of the city at the foot of the mountain far away.The sun set quietly behind him, and the distant sky was gray-blue, and the light and shadow on his face were distinct, like a living stone statue. He walked slowly down the stairway, dominated by a sudden tranquility, clutching the book in slightly sweaty palms, full of serious feelings, which he could not understand himself.Whenever the excitement and joy are over, this feeling will come quietly from behind him, covering his body and mind tightly.At this time, I feel very lonely again, like a boat, floating on the vast sea, serious but empty. Groups of classmates were walking around not far from him. He felt that they were fish swimming in the sea. They swam close and then moved away. There were many lively fish.His black hair, like weeds, became even more disheveled in the wind. Only when you walk alone, can you fully see every corner of the East China Sea. This vast space seems to have many, many spirits, which are only waiting for those with a heart to absorb them in a lonely and quiet time; a tree has the grace of a tree, and a flower Flowers have a dream of a flower. The number of students here should be the smallest among the universities, but unfortunately they are not good at using the space. That is to say, everyone is unwilling to keep quiet and is afraid of loneliness. Spit a burst of colorful foam to entertain yourself.Some people are too diligent in their studies, and some are lost in the crazy pursuit of men and women, but they just regard this thought-provoking campus as the backdrop of youth and joy. Whenever he was in such a state of mind, he would naturally think of Meiqian. Busy with tidying up the dormitory, he hadn't been alone with Meiqian for almost another week, and he was sensitive to her melancholy, just like a blooming tulip.There are no tulips on campus, but he has seen them elsewhere. Such fragrant and plump flowers have a golden base, but the edge of the petals is covered with a layer of foggy brown, so there is such a word "Yu". Is Meiqian itself a tulip? Both of them are in a mild depression, maybe it's appropriate to talk about something.He didn't meet Meiqian in the Faculty of Arts. He looked at the girls' dormitory hidden in the woods, and walked over there involuntarily.There was nothing necessary, he just wanted to talk to her, even if it was irrelevant questions, he was already used to it. The scar from that time in Hualien has generally healed, but the roots still exist, which often makes him feel a kind of contradictory distress.If there is no such pain, it seems to lose another meaning of life.In the recent semester, Meiqian relied more and more on him for help in some matters, which gave him a sense of responsibility and a feeling of being full of life. In this way, the pain itself is a kind of gain. He walked down to the second floor where Meiqian lived, hesitated for a while, and first whistled a few times to the high window. The window was closed quietly, as if there was no movement at all, so he put his hand around his mouth, cried: Meiqian, Meiqian! After calling three or four times, the window opened, and a vaguely familiar face poked out. Seeing Nansen, he said with a smile: she went out. Thank you.He said with some regret. The girl looked at him twice more, and said eagerly: If you have something to do, you might as well leave a note and type it with a small stone, and I will press it on her desk for you. This is a very fresh method. Yeah?We call it space communication. I'm fine.Nansen smiled and said: Come see her some other day!I am leaving. Goodbye, brother Ha, you may meet her on the road. He walked slowly with his head down, thinking that Meiqian might go to Professor Chen's place, and he had nothing to do, so he didn't have to bump into Professor Chen's house again. After dinner at the Welfare Club, he remembered that there was a classical record appreciation session at the Art Center tonight. Although it was still early, it was better to go there for a while, Meiqian might go there to listen to records. In the twilight, the white building of the art center shone like a crystal ball, and the acacia trees shook their thin arms, caressing around it, and the cool wind blowing in the face was so refreshing. Nansen walked into the round door, and there was a courtyard in the middle of the square building. In the corner of the courtyard, there was a single green tree, silently held up against the evening sky that was stained with haze.He came too early, walked around, but saw no one, and the whole courtyard seemed empty, so he sat down on the steps beside the small tree. A few sparse stars. People came in one after another, but Nansen still sat there without moving. The record played Bach's music first, and the neat and balanced melody made him close his eyes.More students flocked here. Some sat on the concrete floor with the increasingly dense cluster of stars on their heads, and some sat on the stone steps with their backs leaning against the pillars and walls. Nansen closed his eyes, in the quiet and quiet air, he only felt the starlight in the sky kissing his eyelids, the melody was spinning in his heart, all his thoughts had disappeared, the music distilled him thoroughly, he Indulging in this pure state, the limbs and bones are very relaxed and comfortable. The whispering of human voices made him wake up like a dream. It was dark early, and the lights in the rooms on all sides were on. When the record was changed, the human voice immediately fell silent again.Nansen turned his head and looked sideways. On the right side of the small tree, there was a girl in green clothes lying there. He sniffed the muddy smell of the tree trunk, and wanted to see who it was from the gap. During the break, he sat up to look, it turned out to be Xiaocui, and Xiaocui also sat up to look at him, both of them were startled for a moment, then they burst out laughing. Who am I to dare to fall asleep listening to music? If you can lie down, I can sleep.Xiaocui said: This is called equality between men and women, isn't it? The concrete floor is cold and you will get arthritis if you sleep on it. snort!Nothing like that.Xiaocui said. When Xiaocui became mischievous, people thought she was even more cute, her nasal voice whispering, coquettish, wild, and mischievous.Every time Nansen saw her like this, he would think of Lao Gao. Lao Gao's talent is too high, and his personality is too restrained. After graduation, he is not suitable to mix in the real world. The script didn't get the chance to be published or performed at all. He couldn't afford Xiaocui, a golden bird, and he fell in love with her bitterly. This is really a tragedy.However, if Xiao Cui is like Bo Le, who falls in love with Lao Gao, a great horse, and is willing to sacrifice for him, Lao Gao will always have the opportunity to display his special talents in the future.Thinking of this, he deliberately winked at Xiao Cui, and asked: Xiaocui, your significant other is not here? Brother Ha, what nonsense are you talking about!You said you didn't bring your Meiqian, didn't you? Nansen was most afraid of others mentioning Meiqian in public, but he had no choice but to pretend to be relaxed, shrugged one shoulder and said: Meiqian has Meiqian's business, and I have my business, so I didn't invite her. lie!Xiao Cui squinted at him and said: When it was not dark just now, who was whistling outside the wall of the girls' dormitory?Could it be that Zhang Junrui, who is used to jumping off the wall, has come back to life from The Story of the West Chamber? All right, all right, I'm losing to you.How come you have no one to accompany you? never.Xiaocui said: Brother Ha is with me! When Xiao Cui asked whoever wanted to accompany her, she dragged her to accompany him.While listening to the music with her, he always thought that Meiqian would come.The art center is her favorite place to come. Meiqian said that its pure white gives people a sense of sublimation.He and she came several times to listen to the famous songs broadcast at the weekly music appreciation meeting, and they also sat next to Xiaoshu.I didn't want to run into Xiao Cui tonight, and was dragged to take her back to the dormitory at ten o'clock. Along the way, Xiao Cui laughed and laughed and said many witty words from nowhere, shaking his depression away. Look, who's coming over there?Xiaocui pointed to the figure on the fork in the road and said. Nansen followed her fingers to look over, and it was Meiqian who came, guessing that she had really gone to Professor Chen's house, holding a lot of books, big and small, always classical poems or something. You must be listening to music!Meiqian rushed over, greeted with a smile and said: Are the two bickering again? Of course we fought, Brother Ha lost a lot today. Nansen didn't speak, just looked at Meiqian. I thought your dormitory would hang a black flag during the tidying competition, Meiqian turned to Nansen and said: No one on the list, it's not bad. This is what we have gained after working hard all night.Nansen said: This was the first day I felt relaxed. I ran into Xiaocui in the art center and pestered someone to take her back. When he said this, he meant to explain to Meiqian, lest she misunderstand that he and Xiaocui were close. Although he controlled himself and maintained a friendship with Meiqian, if he saw Meiqian talking to other boys Walking together with a smile will also make my heart feel sour. Only after pushing it to others, he has such an explanation.Unexpectedly, Meiqian was not jealous at all, instead she laughed and said: Shouldn't it be sent?Xiaocui is the least courageous. One day, bro, will you whistle at my window too?Xiaocui said: You failed to accompany Meiqian to listen to music, and went for a walk on the boulevard with her to watch the stars.Meiqian, I will carry the books back for you, he has always only whistled at your window. When Xiaocui said this under the street lamp, Meiqian's face was very red, and Nansen was also very unnatural.But he peeked out that Meiqian's black eyes were shining brightly, and her face had never been so red as tonight. No matter how solemn and reserved she was, she couldn't hide the tide of hot love, and there would be no more Well hidden. Xiaocui forcibly snatched her book and ran away quickly. The two stood silently facing each other, each of them knew clearly, but neither of them could say a word.Before this, there was still a layer of tulle between the two of them, which Nansen had never expressed in words, but was revealed by a few words that Xiaocui, a naughty ghost, said lightly.His thoughts surged rapidly, how should I put it?Let's just love each other like this!For Chen's sake, you only need to remember this moment!Let's control ourselves as much as possible to dissolve this tragedy, let's separate and find our own home!But none of them were the most appropriate words, he would rather keep silent. Meiqian wiped her eyes with a small handkerchief, he gave her his hand, and she held him tightly, the silence was really like gold. After a while, Meiqian choked up slightly, and exhorted in a low voice: You'd better go back as soon as possible, as if nothing happened, will it work? Yes.He said: "Nothing is going to happen between us, I hope so. Really nothing will happen again, once Xiaocui pointed out inadvertently, in a short moment, both Nansen and Meiqian have fully enjoyed the spiritual love that many people cannot enjoy in their lifetime.No talking, no hugs, kisses, or intimacy, this love is completely divorced from their worldliness and melts into their more intimate friendship.There is nothing that can hurt them anymore, and the two are relaxed and happy when they are together. On Fridays, Meiqian and Nansen have no classes. At dusk, Nansen invites Meiqian to take a walk together. Meiqian always happily runs downstairs, walks side by side with him, and walks through every tree-lined path , and spent a lot of quiet time talking like a family member, kind, straightforward, and unobtrusive. He often asked about Chen's illness, and he would like to see that she and Chen will be happy in the future.She also advised Nansen to choose a suitable partner as soon as possible. If Meizhen still had hope, he should express his clear attitude to her as soon as possible. Gradually, both of them got used to dating every Friday, cherishing this moment of walking and chatting.They would go to the woods to listen to the chirping of the birds and the conversation of the leaves; they would also go to the deserted cemetery to identify the steles; Extra speculative.She naturally transferred part of her religious emotions to Nansen, and she had a place to pour out her inner depression. The smile she often hung on her lips became brighter, and her temperament became more peaceful. When the final exam was approaching, the two of them walked to the north of the water tower. The sunset glow that day was very bright, and brocade-like broken clouds hung on the western half of the sky. Charcoal red. Look, the shadows of these trees underground are so beautiful.Nansen said: It's a pity that I'm not a painter, so I can't paint this moving scene. Meiqian stopped her footsteps, as if she couldn't bear to step on the painting that was printed on the ground.At dusk, the shadow of the thin-leaved tree looks hazy, but when it is printed on the ground, it is very clear, swaying slightly, like countless little elves dancing in the forest. The air is quiet and sweet, and in the distance there are the noises of homecoming birds and sparrows, which are also finely broken, turning into some water droplets that condense on people's hearts. The small flowers of the acacia tree are quite yellow.Have you read Wang Wei's poems recently? Wang Wei's realm is too ordinary and peaceful, and it is very cold to read. In comparison, I like Li Bai with three thousand feet of white hair, which is wild and enthusiastic. Everyone has a different attitude towards life, and there are differences in appreciation angles.Meiqian said: I prefer Wang Youcheng. I am very surprised, my interest in modern poetry has never been as enthusiastic as that of classical poetry. I always feel that some modern works are full of beautiful flowers and weeds, not as delicate and round as ancient poetry. Of course, most of the treasures that have been mentioned in history are perfect.Meiqian said: After several years, how many of today's poems will be recited by later generations?There are, of course, all treasures. You are very modern.Nansen said. Meiqian smiled and said nothing more.After a while, she looked up at the dusk sky behind a row of acacia trees, raised her eyebrows lightly, and silently raised her hand to make a sign of the cross on her chest. What happened to Chen these times?he said sensitively. He had already returned to his own home in Kaohsiung to recuperate, but this time he fell ill again and was hospitalized in Taipei.My mother wrote to me, asking me to ask for leave to see him. If it wasn't for the final exam, I would have rushed there. It is more difficult to cure the lung disease if it has been delayed for a long time.Nansen said: Which hospital in Taipei did he live in? Central Clinic.Meiqian said with a touch of sadness: I have been praying for him almost day and night, hoping that God will bless him to recover one day soon.I remember when I was young, he treated me so well. One time, when I was cooking a house, I cut my finger carelessly. It was him who cried, not me. He dragged me to his house and asked his father to apply medicine for me. , Wrapped gauze, afraid of my pain, brought a lot of delicious and interesting things to me like moving house, saying that he is a servant and I am the queen. Until now, he still calls me the queen in private. Don't worry too much, I will accompany you to Taipei to see him after church on Sunday. Can you not worry?Meiqian said: Every time I see his pale face, I feel a heavy burden in my heart. Haven't you always been full of confidence?Nansen said: Chen's illness may be delayed for a while, but he will recover in the end. I know, it's just that it's hard to calm down sometimes, but when I think about it, there's nothing wrong with it. The days passed so quickly, Nansen seemed to remember something: the sophomore year is coming to an end soon.I heard that your grades are very good, but I am very poor, just on the passing level. You are too busy, but you have absorbed a lot of knowledge other than textbooks. Meiqian said: Those living knowledge are very useful. As for the exam, how much can a thin piece of paper express? The two of them walked back around the forest, the twilight spread silently around them like smoke, the last ray of dark purple sky reflected Meiqian's face, and against the dark background, it turned into a tender flower. white flowers.When there was nothing to say, Nansen whistled in various tones, and walked in step with that rhythm. Meiqian was intoxicated by Nansen's brisk demeanor, and listened gently to his whistle.They walked through the shade of the eucalyptus tree, the street lights that just woke up penetrated the gaps in the leaves, the large and dark green leaf palms were shaking on the top of the head, and many fantastic leaf shadows made the face and the whole body of the person into pieces The beauty of black and white. Meiqian, guess what these tree shadows have done to our faces? Don't know, but we would think it's beautiful. really do not know?This should be regarded as the elder brother's face, just like the mesh of those elder brother's stockings on the market. Your associative power is really high. It can also be said that it has been impacted by the times. Nansen said: Especially in recent years, there has been one wave after another. Meiqian smiled at him and said meaningfully: This is caused by designers and advertisements. They are not sociologists, but they understand the psychology of the masses best. To be honest, I am very concerned about this subject. Want to be a designer? That's not it.Nansen said solemnly: In sociology, there are too many places closely related to designers. Design is not an empty theory, but it has more persuasive power than all theories. I used it to defeat Lao Wang last time. This time I used it to make the big doll buy a pair of glasses. No wonder I said why the big baby spends money on glasses!She has suffered from myopia for many days, and many classmates persuaded her to get glasses, but she refused. I would like to hear how you persuaded her? I didn't convince her at all, but she tried to convince me.Nansen said: I asked her to go to Taichung on purpose, since I wanted to get glasses with me, she said: Oh my!Don't wear it if you can, how ugly the four-eyed frog is!I said: Big baby, you don’t know, wearing glasses has become a very fashionable thing recently, if you don’t wear glasses, you are just like a seamstress, how can you look like a college student?Now how many educated youths have entered the age of glasses, don't you know?have no idea.She said: I really don't know at all.Then you are ignorant.I said.When we arrived at the optician's shop, she rushed to get the optometry and prescription glasses, and asked me if I would look ugly in them?I said: Oh, big baby, you wear this kind of glasses, you are young and have a special demeanor, you are so beautiful!In the end, she spent two hundred and eight obediently. We were almost at the girls' dormitory, and there was a winding path across the slopes and valleys. Nansen graciously gave way to Meiqian, stepping on the desolate grass all the way. If you ask Xiaocui to listen, she will immediately encourage the big baby to pick your ears.Meiqian said. Why are you picking my ears?Nansen said: The big baby has gained weight recently, and her eyes are narrower. Wearing glasses can fully cover up her ugliness. I don't exaggerate, but she will know it by herself in the mirror. Even more outrageous, Meiqian gasped with laughter and said: Is this your explanation?You know nothing about girls' psychology, and you are still talking about design! This is a kind of intimidation of the method.Nansen said: Don't worry, Meiqian, you have the most beautiful black eyes in the world, and you will never need to wear glasses. With the round door of the girls' dormitory behind her back, Meiqian's eyes were wide open. When she was talking to Nansen, she had never heard the other party's praise, especially this kind of praise.Looking at Meiqian in a daze, Nansen himself was a little at a loss. Goodbye, Brother Ha! Meiqian smiled and walked into the boy's forbidden area.The mist at the beginning of the night was a gray net, which made the campus in a state of confusion. Until Nansen’s back disappeared behind the purple flower tree, Meiqian was still standing alone on the corridor on the second floor, holding on to the railing, Gazing into the hazy distance. The camp held its last activity of the term before the summer vacation, painting the walls of a leprosy hospital.This work was first proposed by Meiqian, and Nansen responded first and agreed to mobilize his classmates.Nansen went to see her when he was writing the bulletin, but he heard from her roommate that Meiqian had gone to Taipei, and he knew that she had asked for leave to visit a doctor. The poster for service in the leprosy hospital was put up, and the response was surprisingly lukewarm.Some students regard the work camp service as another way to adjust their lives, and they are reluctant to go to the leprosy hospital, which sounds scary.On the other hand, Big Baby was very enthusiastic and helped Nansen invite his classmates. Are you not afraid?Big doll. What are you afraid of?Leprosy is not directly contagious, it's just that the sick people are frightening to look at.However, none of the girls I invite know how to paint walls, at best they can only do odd jobs and do small jobs. It doesn't matter, I'm the foreman. Having said that, even Nansen himself was a little trembling when he entered the leprosy hospital.Of course, the situation in the leprosy hospital is not as exaggerated as shown in some films, but even today, leprosy is still a terrible and cruel disease.The hands and feet of those who are sick are twisted, and the faces are swollen with leprosy bumps, which has a kind of inhuman meaning, which makes people's hearts tremble abnormally. The big baby led a group of female soldiers, and his attitude was very natural, but there was a black-eyed freshman named Xiaomei, who looked timid while curiously tugging on the big baby to ask questions.The big doll puts on her newly bought glasses, and she looks like a bachelor, she is in the third grade after all, and she has to show a more mature taste in front of the freshmen. The environment of the leprosy hospital was really poor, the walls everywhere were pale and moldy, and there were many rain marks and large mold spots, hanging like a map.Nansen led several male students to carry the ladder, adjust the plastic paint, and clean the dust and cobwebs on the walls first. The girls carried water to wipe the doors and windows, busy like ants carrying food.The big baby saw Nansen and asked: Meiqian hasn't come back yet? I'm afraid I'll have to wait a few more days.He said: "She has to take care of the sick. While mixing the paint, he raised his head and smiled at the big doll and said: Meiqian didn't come, so you are doubly busy. It's not that he's afraid of being busy, the big baby pushed the lens and said: I'm graduating in one year, and I'm afraid I won't have the chance to do anything at that time. You look really good with glasses on. well!I am going abroad, and I have no love to talk about, so I can only talk about it after studying hard.I often feel sorry for you and Meiqian. The situation like you two should be more difficult than mine, right? Nansen didn't answer, just lowered his head and adjusted the paint. Actually, you can have another girlfriend.The big baby said: I thought you wouldn't get too deep, but you seem crazy. Talking nonsense, are you more idiotic than Jia Baoyu? If you want me to make a comparison, it's probably about the same. However, Meiqian and I are not in love. I have to ask you, what exactly is love? Nansen was at a loss for words when asked by the big baby.He couldn't hide his true feelings. He was really in love with Meiqian. On the surface, it was calm, but in fact, it was turbulent in the dark. He forgot who said: The true feelings in the heart are always difficult to hide.It's like it's hard for a person to hide their heartbeat from themselves.The big baby is not like the guys in the same dormitory. When talking about emotional matters, they are all joking and careless. Treating himself with gentleness and love, he couldn't lie to her. I'm just trying to be her friend.He said. I know.She whispered: Meiqian will understand sooner or later, if this continues, it will not be good for you, her, or even Chen. I have thought about it for you, but I haven't thought of a better way. Nansen was in a bad mood today, but after Meiqian left, his heart was always in vain, and he didn't know what happened to Chen's condition?When the big baby said this, he was even more confused, and he didn't know what to say. Take good care of yourself and don't feel too bad about it.The big baby said: Many girls like you. Their conversation was interrupted by a classmate coming over.He climbed up the station ladder with the adjusted paint bucket, and painted the wall one by one; love is really mysterious, and he couldn't paint another color on his own hands.Similarly, he found it difficult to listen to the big baby's advice, and deliberately tried to fall in love with another girl except Meizhen, who was gradually fading away, but he was already sensitively aware that it was too late, now, he It's inconvenient to express anything to Meizhen clearly! The strenuous physical labor temporarily relieved the pressure on his heart.The boys who painted walls in the work camp were inexperienced hands, and they all had to follow his orders, so he heard calls like this from time to time: Hey, Brother Ha, is this okay? The bucket here was taken away! Brother Ha, come here, the ladder here is too short! I'll be right there, you young masters who know how to eat.When he twisted his body to speak, the ladder shook tremblingly, causing the little girl who was holding the ladder below to shout: Be careful, you are standing so high, falling is not for fun. Never mind, I'm much safer than an astronaut. Do you want me to pick up the paint again? Just hold on to the ladder, you won't be able to carry it. Nansen remembered that Meiqian participated in all the activities of the work camp earlier. No matter what he was doing, he would always sneak away to find Meiqian's shadow. He was very busy at that time, but now he is too busy confused.美倩不在這裏也有一種好處，使他能夠拚命的工作，不用花多久的時間，他就把一面牆壁給刷完了。白得發青的牆壁，白得發青的光陰，就這麼塗著刷著的過去了，這並非是空洞的聯想，二年來在東海，他究竟做了些什麼呢？他爬下梯子時，有一份莫名其妙的沮喪。 哈老哥，你做事好認真咧！小妹仰起她天真的笑臉，誇讚他說：他們哪是刷牆，站在梯子上聊天，卻叫女生在下面扶著，老蘇說這叫眾星捧月，大娃娃姐姐要大家不扶他的梯子，他就在上面大叫：妳們不扶我，馬上要表演空中飛人了。假如他們都像你這樣賣力，不早就做完了？ 老蘇是最喜歡開玩笑的，南森說：別理他。我們做完了，有時間，大家到市區去看電影。 因為有電影做號召，老蘇他們來了個大趕工，半下午就把工作做完了。一群男同學渾身都是漆斑，就逛到市區去擠電影，南森和大娃娃小妹三個去看梵谷傳，老蘇他們去看日正當中。 小妹確很可愛，看電影很專心，兩眼注視著銀幕，從開場到終場，連一句話都沒講過。散場時，她只管朝著南森傻笑。 What are you laughing at?He said. 你的頭髮很藝術，小妹說：蓬蓬亂亂的，跟電影上的梵谷一個樣子，你應該選讀藝術系的。 在這兒，藝術家有餓肚子的危險。南森說：我的頭髮不怕挨餓，所以才沾上一點兒藝術，但肚子最是現實主義，它是不肯從事藝術的。 小妹很直爽，找到南森這樣談得來的人，就把心裏積存的話，滔滔不絕的吐出來。她說她很喜歡大度山上的這所學校，說她喜歡這裏每一個人，每一棵樹，每一塊在人感覺裏都具有靈性的石頭。 我永遠喜歡它。她在走路時也閉上眼。 但它祇喜歡妳四年。大娃娃說：然後就送妳一頂方帽子，一腳把妳踢走。 大學生，也祇有在大學的校門裏最神氣，南森說：出了校門，任什麼全沒有了。 他們一路談回學校去，小妹有許多很天真的話，使得南森的思潮激盪，久久不能平復。他想到每一年每一年，從各座敞開的校門裏魚貫而出的行列，黑色的學士服那麼莊嚴，牽風的帽角的穗帶閃著光采，這些年輕的、朝氣蓬勃的人群，像若干單位的抗生素，注射入這古老的社會病體，但效驗在哪兒呢？出國風無日無夜的吹著，不甘於小職位以打卡終其生的有志之士，搶著湧上飛機去洗盤子弄學位去了，連老高也發過空頭怪論：地球上，人是一個平等的大家族，到處都可為人類服務，何必要有狹隘的地域觀念存在呢？現在世界上的交通、傳播事業發達了，各處都息息相關，為這一處服務，同樣可以影響那一處人原是地球上赤裸裸的生物，在哪兒能夠生存發展，就可以往哪兒去。 這其實是窮炒冷飯，也許老高被退稿退傷了心，才借它來牢騷一頓。可是自己跟老高不同，一股極濃烈的國族情感把自己牢牢牽繫著，他不能丟這種和生命共同生長的情感去飄泊著生存。 也不知怎麼的，一到自己心裏憂煩時，就很自然的要去找美倩，不能因為大娃娃的勸告，就這樣的和美倩疏淡下去。 為了歡送畢業生，除了聖樂團有盛大的合唱會外，最令同學們注意並且談論著的，該是一位陳少聰的女高音獨唱會，她是詩人葉珊的女友。老蘇感慨的說： 這一雙星字號的人物，被時間踢下大度山，這兒應該多添幾盞路燈了。 葉珊要去前線，戴著鴨舌帽，去找晉代的古井和唐代的燈籠，陳少聰飛美，他們至少要做兩三年的牛郎織女呢！南森說：該去聽聽織女怨了！ 他先到女生宿舍去找美倩，一起去藝術中心聽演唱。陳少聰的歌喉在東海很知名，她今晚演唱的每一支曲子都很精彩，老高形容她的聲音說： 就好像一杯葡萄美酒，在透明的高腳杯裏晃盪。 應該說是在酒鬼的鼻尖上晃盪，才更富有吸引力。葉珊才氣縱橫，該為今夜寫一首詩的。 而南森聽著陳少聰的演唱，不禁想起美倩的歌聲來，認真話，美倩的音樂素養和歌喉，決不下於對方，祇不過缺乏嚴格的聲樂訓練和深入的造就罷了！環境的因素對於人是有著重要影響的，一個貧困人家的女孩，哪有培養她的音樂環境？ 而美倩很醉心於陳少聰的歌聲，常稱讚她音量和自然的音色，尤其欽服她對於音調控制裕如的功夫，能使她充分把歌曲的情感表現出來。 那天晚上，銀色的月光覆蓋著校園，他和她在草原上坐著。南森把心裏很多言語，都嘈嘈亂亂的吐給她聽；從眼看著一個個穿起黑色學士服的離校同學談起，談到可怕的放洋風，談到社會每個小齒輪的轉動和銹蝕，。 南森，你的煩惱太偉大了，過後她說：別人連自己的事都無暇顧及，那像你飛得那麼高遠。 我知道，我也許太好高騖遠，可是我有什麼辦法？天生成的這樣性格。 我也曾有過這樣一段稱得上偉大的憂愁。她說：先天下之憂而憂，那還是我讀高中的時候，現在，我比較重視現實了。 在情緒上，我總想跳越某一些惱人的現實。 你太熱情了，美倩理一理她鋪展在草尖上的裙裾說：我總覺得要了解現實，洞察它，透視它，你的理想才有根基，徒然的吶喊是毫無效果的。從微小的地方做起，是最聰明的辦法，你大概很久沒跟亨德教授通信了罷？忘記他屢次交代我們，要一點一滴的做嗎？ 南森的臉頰有些發熱，自從亨德教授離開後，他根本沒為他寫過一封信。 風在飄著他的亂髮，他的眼睛望著草原；在月光下安睡的草原，校園的群樹的影廓，和一兩盞柔黯的燈。 如果妳不提起，我真的有很久沒想到過亨德了。他歉然的說：教授他是我最尊敬的人。妳知道，我一向懶寫信的。 I know.美倩望著他說：一個人，在某種抑壓的情緒下，會引起一種突發的焦急的，苦悶的傾吐，我很願意也很高興聽，我雖然不能幫助你什麼，但卻是個訴苦的好對象，不是嗎？ 美倩用輕輕的聲音說著，南森覺得她的聲音，比月光更為溫柔。他幾番這樣想：就和美倩在這兒坐著，談著，一直到月亮西沉多好。他看看錶，是她該回宿舍的時刻了，時間有時顯得很殘酷，現在就是。 一學期跟著很快就結束了。最後一次土風舞會的海報張貼出來時，南森很希望和美倩一道兒參加，經過兩年的練習，如今他再不是平腳板的唐老鴨了。 他邀美倩去參加土風舞會，美倩很爽快的答應了，她說陳曾懇求她不要參加交際舞會，只有土風舞是例外。可是就在舞會舉行的前一天，他意外的接到校方的通知，告訴他，本年基督教舉辦世界性的夏令會，已決定在日本京田大學開辦，一共有十三個國家選派代表參加，夏令會和工作營的性質相同，我國選派三位同學參加，其中東海分配一個，指定由他出席，要他立刻去台北。 舞會舉行時，他已經整裝待發了。