Chapter 20 6. Waking of Insects

Tintin, responsibility, business opportunity, exploration In fact, only my stepmother and I are left in the family. To be honest, in this life, the person I fear most is my stepmother.She was a normal, ordinary woman who had been a widow for many years before marrying my father.According to my judgment, the main reason why she married her father was to send her son to study abroad so that he would be reliable when he grows old. His son, whose biological father's surname is Ma, is about four years older than me. He also moved into our home when I was in my junior year.Because he is studying physics, I happen to have some physics problems, so I often ask him for advice, and we get along very well.

He also likes classical music and has a good stereo.I told him my father forbade me to listen to music.On the other hand, he mustered up his eloquent tongue and instilled in his father the theory that music can cultivate one's temperament. He also found an article about Beethoven for his father to read. My father liked reading books the most. After coming to Taiwan, because of limited salary, he couldn't afford books, so he had to cut and paste newspapers and bind them into volumes (by the time of his death, more than 100 volumes had been completed).In my father's view, as long as it is published in the newspaper, it must be valuable.Even when I was sick, I checked newspaper clippings and treated myself.

After my father read the report about Beethoven, he no longer objected to our playing records.Sometimes, when we were listening intently to the music, he would come over and listen to it for a while, then nodded and said to Brother Ma: Is it Beethoven? Brother Ma's father was a soldier and unfortunately died during the Anti-Japanese War.His mother worked as a political worker and sent him to bereaved schools since he was a child, and rarely enjoyed family happiness.Brother Ma graduated from Chung Cheng Institute of Technology, and later went to Tsinghua Institute of Nuclear Research to study for a master's degree.He was limited by his military status, and although he had excellent grades, he was unable to go abroad for further studies.My father used a lot of connections and worked hard to get through the joints and let him go to Germany to specialize in laser.

Before I graduated, the official document allowing Brother Ma to go abroad was approved. He planned to go to Kaohsiung to bid farewell to several parents and seniors, and invited me to go with him.We went to play together for a few days and stayed at his friend's house.Inadvertently, I found a very special girl Ding Ding. She grew up with Big Brother Ma. She was about 17 or 18 years old and was studying in Pingtung Normal School. One gloomy afternoon, a group of about a dozen people went to Xiziwan for fun.On the way back, we were sitting on a crowded bus. Due to the sudden surge of wind and waves, a wave about Zhang Xu high suddenly rushed from the seawall into the window.Everyone in the car scrambled to avoid it, and there was a commotion. I was squeezed to the back of the car, under the crowd.

After finally struggling to stand up, I saw a lonely and thin figure beside the window where the big waves rushed in.Her whole body was soaked, and she still sat firmly, motionless, as if nothing had happened at all. I took a closer look and it was Tintin.Without time to think, she immediately took a large towel, straddled the stumbling crowd, and draped it over her shoulders.She was still silent, looking forward with her eyes, and muttering in her mouth. Brother Zhu, is my hair wet? I didn't know how to answer, but she looked so pitiful, and she was so brave that a mountain collapsed in front of her without changing her face, yet she uttered such ethereal Zen words.At that moment, in my impression, a fresh and extraordinary idol was immediately created.There was a period of time when I couldn't help but admire.

After this incident, I secretly observed her, and found that although she was young, she was stable and gentle, and she looked like a big sister at home.She also has two naughty younger brothers and a lively and beautiful younger sister who are always noisy, but as soon as she hears her gentle and majestic voice, the sky falls and immediately turns into peace. The first thought that entered my mind was the vague impression of the young Sister E.Putting aside the difference in time and space, I often hide in a warm illusion, a big sister who is like a mother, protecting me, it is Ding Ding and Sister E, I can hardly feel any difference.

It wasn't until I got back to Taipei that I found out that Brother Ma was going south this time to see Tintin, and he planned to get engaged to her.But after we met, I felt that she was too young, and I was hesitant. I admire Ding Ding very much, and I think they are compatible, and I really want to promote this good relationship to satisfy my selfishness.After some consideration, I wrote a letter to her, said a lot of good things about Brother Ma, and advised her to take the initiative to contact Brother Ma.From then on, we communicated frequently, and the topics all revolved around Brother Ma.

When I was serving in the military, they finally got engaged, and Brother Ma also went to Germany. I remember it was in 1963, when I resigned my teaching position in Hualien and returned to Taipei.One day, when I was about to go out, my stepmother stopped me, and she said happily: "Your Brother Ma is getting married, you know that?" Brother Ma is still in Germany. Could it be that Tintin has also gone?Usually, I try to avoid chatting with my stepmother. Firstly, I don't like to talk about housework, and I am most afraid of others complaining about this and criticizing that.Secondly, her thinking is very chaotic, various themes, time and space are mixed together, which makes people sound clueless.

But I was very concerned about their marriage, so I asked: Is Brother Ma coming back, or Ding Ding going to Germany? what dick?Brother Ma has a lot of girlfriends, so he doesn't like her at all. Too bad, how did it evolve to this point?Doesn't that mean I hurt Tintin?I asked again: Then who will Brother Ma marry? A German woman. Does Ding Ding know? Do you know how bad German women are?She forbade Brother Ma to come back.When she wants to express her opinion, she never cares what other people think, nor can she hear what others say.Angrily, she lit a cigarette, took a deep puff, and continued to vent.

How can this be?I worked so hard to raise him and get him to go abroad, but it turned out to be cheap for the Germans! No, Brother Ma is not that kind of person, he will come back. Yes, when he comes back, I will tell him to ask for another Chinese wife. I knew I couldn't reason with her, so in order to get away early, I couldn't go on like this, so I said: Has he got a doctorate? There are a lot of women in Taiwan, and Rong Rong is still waiting for him. When your brother Ma wanted to get engaged to Ding Ding, I objected.She just wants an audience, so she can vent her depression: Ding Ding has body odor, you know that?

Impossible, we played together for several days. She put on medicine!Her mother has it.Your elder brother Ma has a Ph. D. and is studying in Germany. What makes Tintin suitable? I didn't speak up, just looking for an opportunity to slip away.She took another puff of cigarette, and suddenly said: Yes!Ding Ding can marry you, your father likes her very much! No, no, it's not me that Ding Ding likes. In this way, you can help Brother Ma break off the engagement. After Ding Ding gets married, Brother Ma can come back. She said halfway, feeling that it was wrong, and stopped for a while, then said: Don’t worry, that German woman likes to be clean. I wouldn't live with them!I still live with you, I like Ding Ding the most, and I have treated her like my own daughter since I was a child.You have children, and I, an old woman, can still help and take care of them.You see, how well I took care of you brother Ma, received the best education, and became a scientist respected by everyone. Mom, I have something to do today, I need to go out early, let's talk about it when I come back.I was deeply moved, how did I get to this point?I couldn't bear to listen to it, so I had to explain it directly. Yes, your father shut me up at home and was not allowed to go anywhere. He is old and has no money.Marrying him, my pension was also sacrificed, and some of the money I worked so hard to save before was also used up by your father.He was still thinking about Ah Xiangli!One day I scolded him, hum!He is very fierce to others, but he is afraid of me.He just likes women, he likes your sister, not you.I often say to him, a good son like you is not much worse than Brother Ma, where can I find him? mom!I gotta go.Once this kind of chatterbox starts, it will never end. It's time for you to get married, and your father is getting old, what will you do in the future?By whom?Your brother Ma won't come back, and you don't want to teach, and you will settle down our house when you get married. Isn't it all yours in the future?I will not leave it to you, Brother Ma.A girl as good as Ding Ding is much prettier than the one from the Gong family, and she is one of her own. This time I lost my sight, she went around for a long time, and finally figured out.If Big Brother Ma really refuses to come back and I don't work properly, how can she not worry about her future life? Mom, don't worry, I will definitely take care of you and dad. I have known for a long time that you are much better than Brother Ma, if you don't like Tintin, Rongrong is also good, I will be in charge of matchmaking for you.Just don't go to that girl from the Gong family, she has too many family members, and she will depend on you to support her in the future! Don't worry before I get married, when will Brother Ma get married? Just next month, the mayor will witness their marriage, and there will be interviews with TV reporters. Because your brother Ma is well educated and has a good character, the German government will not let him go. Now that it has been decided, does Ding Ding know? Does she know it or not?Brother Ma doesn't like her at all. Think about it, she just graduated from a normal school.She is short and ugly, and she is not worthy of your brother Ma at all.Her judgments are forever swayed by emotions. Then why did Brother Ma get engaged in the first place?Although that was just her one-sided words, but she kept insisting that Big Brother Ma didn't like her, so I couldn't help but ask back. Because Brother Ma is going abroad, he is a soldier, and according to the regulations, he must have relatives in Taiwan.I'm remarried again, so at least get engaged to go out. I suddenly realized that, suddenly, Ding Ding's pitiful, but brave and strong demeanor jumped into my eyes.Why should I mind my own business?A pure and lovely girl, because of my ignorance and unrealistic selfishness, I actually sacrificed her!How embarrassing will her years be in the future? The fault has been made, and the fault lies with me.What's more, Ding Ding is very worthy of love. If you can marry her, you can indeed solve many difficult problems.As for whether she is willing to marry me, how can I know if I don't try?All I hope is that no more harm will be done to her. Mom, I would like to marry Ding Ding.I thought of this, and the words have blurted out. Alright, so you don't have to be afraid of people talking when you come back, Brother Ma, I'll propose to you right away. When I got home from work at night, my father was arguing with my stepmother in the living room.As soon as I came back, my father went back to the bedroom. The stepmother was upset, and turned her face and said to me: How can there be such a reason?You father and son came to bully me together?Ding Ding is obviously your brother Ma's fiancée, but you want to steal his wife while Brother Ma is away! mom!Didn't you want me to marry her?I was confused by what she said. How can there be such a thing in the world?You can marry her when Brother Ma comes back You clearly said that Brother Ma is going to marry a German woman and doesn't plan to come back.It was just this afternoon, only a few hours later, did I hear wrong? I'm just guessing, what if your brother Ma comes back?Ding Ding can still marry him!What's wrong with asking for two wives?Your father also asked for four miles! I couldn't bear it anymore and said: Didn't you say that Brother Ma has a lot of girlfriends?Rongrong is still waiting for him!Ding Ding is ugly, short, and has body odor. You have always opposed their marriage, why did you change it so soon? What have I changed?It's you, Big Brother Ma, who has grown up. If you don't listen to my mother, what can I do?I just found out that Rongrong is getting married too, which made me hurt her for nothing.Today’s children don’t have any good ones, unlike me in those days, when I was obedient to my parents, where in the world can I still make my own decisions when I get married? So what does this have to do with Dad? As soon as your father heard that your elder brother Ma wanted a German wife, he wanted to make Tintin your wife!snort!Good idea!Your brother Ma hasn't come back yet!Ding Ding is clearly your brother Ma's fiancée. Both of you father and son have no good intentions. The more she thinks about it, the more she gets angry. I have long been used to her ups and downs, so I immediately hung up: Mom!I misheard, what I said in the afternoon doesn't count, you didn't tell Ding Ding, did you? How could I be so stupid?I know you're a good person, don't worry, I'll write to Germany right now, and if Brother Ma really doesn't come back, I'll tell you about it. A few days later, my stepmother came to chat with me again, and she immediately said: Ding Ding's younger sister is so beautiful now, do you want to marry her? I know that she is using the tactics of political workers to hold me back, but how can marriage be used as a permutation and combination game?Besides Ding Ding, it was her sister, it seemed that there were only these two women in the world. I don't have a career yet, it's too early to think about marriage. You don't know, your father actually cares about you very much. He told me that as long as you get married, he can introduce you to work at the Taipei Post Office. I need to find a job by myself. Don't be stupid, the post office is a golden job, as long as your father says something, what a blessing! But what does this have to do with Ding Ding's sister? So I often say to your father, you are too kind, your father always scolds you, saying you are not good Mom, let's talk about it later, I still have something to do.I know that once I pull it off, there will be no end. I know you like Big Brother Ma the most. I taught him well, which is why he is here today.Listen to me, go get her sister, and we will become in-laws.If we become in-laws, I can ask Ding Ding to wait for you, Brother Ma, and when Brother Ma comes back, as long as you are willing, you can marry her. It turned out that it was inconvenient for me to refute, so I had to leave with an excuse. Not long after, one day, when I came home, I saw Ding Ding's parents sitting in the living room, the atmosphere was very dignified.I felt ashamed in my heart, I only asked Ann, and then found an excuse to slip away.As for what they talked about, you can guess, let alone ask.I also have a selfish intention, no matter what the stepmother does, as long as the father is satisfied with her, the son will be less stressed.As for what outsiders think, I can't control it, and it's inconvenient to control it too much. After all, we have seen enough tragedies in the world. In a country without a social welfare system, raising children is the only old-age insurance. Otherwise, you will have neither the ability to earn a living nor life security when you get old, and you can imagine the tragedy.I don't blame her at all. If it was someone else, maybe the method was different, but the result might still be the same. After I decided to go abroad, because this incident disturbed my conscience, I made a special trip to Pingtung Teachers College to clarify this case with her.In addition, the deeper I get to know her, the more I like her, so I hope to see her again. That night, I slept in the park and experienced a prelude to wandering.When I arrived at school the next morning, I had very contradictory and desolate feelings in my heart.Looking at Ding Ding's thin figure, he came slowly and left slowly.I can't remember the content of our conversation at all, only her snow-white blouse, black long skirt, and the image of her sad face are still lingering in my mind. Now that my father is gone, the responsibility of supporting the family suddenly falls on me, but I am very afraid of getting along with my stepmother.Besides, I still don't know where my goal is, and I am never willing to give up years of hard work easily.Brother Ma hasn't come back, how long can I support her?Three to five years is barely enough, if it continues, I will definitely go crazy. After thinking about it for a long time, I decided to earn some money first and leave it all for her retirement, so as to buy back my freedom. Soon, Brother Ma married a German woman and decided not to come back, while Ding Ding's family moved to Taipei.The stepmother brought up the marriage again, and repeatedly blamed me for wanting to go abroad and being irresponsible. After a period of experience, I should be mature.In order to repay the mistakes of ignorance in the past, I must face the reality and at least learn about her recent situation. I found Ding Ding at the door of her house and talked for only a few minutes.She said calmly that she would go to the United States to get married soon, and the other party was the son of a legislator.No one talked about the past, it was too far away and too cruel.She looked very haggard. She was less than twenty years old, and her youth was abandoned in that distant memory. I can no longer evoke the past that should have been buried. In the sound of blessings from each other, I left with guilt.I really can't forgive myself for this matter, and I will use my actions to make the most clear repentance in the future. His father retired after the death of Vice President Chen Cheng, and stayed at home after retirement.It is said that when my father was the secretary-general of the Guangfu Continental Design Committee, his stepmother tried to get all the special monthly office expenses.Everyone knew about this, only my father was kept in the dark.The stepmother took the money and lent usury outside, and often needed turnover, so she encouraged her father to use various relationships to do business every day. The stepmother found a group of people, and the father came forward to open a Huaiyuan Enterprise Co., Ltd.The general manager's surname is Xiang, he can speak well, and somehow got a lease of the factory, and wanted to use it to start a business without capital. At that time, a major case that caused a sensation in Taiwan occurred. It was Lin Juyuan, the director of a credit union in Taipei, who poured hundreds of millions of Taiwan dollars, so all his property was seized by the court.Mr. Xiang was so powerful that he actually rented the Lin Juyuan Plastic Factory in Nangang on the eve of the seizure.So much so that he was able to escape the law and continue to operate uninterrupted. Unfortunately, no one in the Huaiyuan company was able to operate it, so that although the plastic factory was still in operation, no one knew who was behind the scenes.Business continued as usual, and money came and went, but Huaiyuan Company had no income and was sitting on nothing. Not long after my father passed away, the shareholders came to quarrel. One of them was Mr. Li. I will never forget his face.He was originally a political worker, and I heard that his stepmother was introduced to his father by him.I remember when I was in junior high school, he wanted to be a representative of the National Assembly, so he asked a friend to introduce him, brought a lot of gifts, and asked his father for recommendation. At the beginning of the move of the government to Taiwan, about half of the National Assembly deputies and legislators either stayed in the mainland or traveled overseas.In order for a democracy to function, a quorum must be assembled.At that time, all those who had the qualifications for the replacement had been rectified, and the number was still not enough.Therefore, the government stipulated that as long as they had participated in the election in the year and had proof, they could be regarded as qualified for the post-election. However, after years of civil war in China, the soldiers panicked and horses were chaotic, and all documents were lost when they fled. Where can I find evidence at this time?If there is no physical evidence, the next best thing is to appoint officials in charge of the government affairs of the provinces at that time as witnesses.His father was the acting provincial chairman, so he became a qualification review committee member of Hubei Province.Therefore, someone in the family often came to intercede, hoping to fill up a half-job.My father has always been business-like, without sufficient circumstantial evidence, he would never recommend it, and offended many people. At that time, I knew that the chance of my father accepting the gift was very small, but I coveted those fruits, and I really hoped that my father could make an exception so that I could steal them to satisfy my greed.Unfortunately, my father sternly refused, which shattered my hopes.At that time, I was hiding behind the door of the garage, but when I saw Mr. Li leave, he said to his friend fiercely: Oh shit!What's there to be proud of?Old man Zhu will collapse one day, and on that day, you see, my surname Li will beat him to death as a dog in the water! Since I don't know many people, and he was a political worker, I have since believed that political workers have that kind of virtue, so I have never liked him. Since the shareholders were clamoring for a meeting, my stepmother dragged me to attend and asked me to offer some ideas. From the very beginning, Mr. Li put on a face, was defiant, slapped the table and cursed. Now that Zhu Huaibing is dead, how can I pay back the money owed to me? I was already displeased when I saw him, but after his trouble, I couldn't help getting angry, and immediately slapped the table, stood up, and shouted: "Old man Zhu is dead, yes, but old man Zhu still has descendants." , you want to come and beat the dog in the water, don't you? Everyone was amazed, of course, only I knew the inside story, I glared at him without showing any weakness. what are you?We're in a meeting, get the hell out of here! I am nothing!My father is dead, you come to pay the debt, don't you?As the saying goes: "Father's debt is repaid, how much does my father owe you personally?"Show me the evidence, and I'll give it back to you!I was confident and confident, and my voice was louder than his: In addition, when I left Taiwan, my father was in very good health, whoever made him mad, I have to pay for this blood debt! Mr. Li didn't expect me to be so majestic as a newborn calf, and half of my arrogance disappeared, so I had to say: This is a business, and we do it as a business. OK!If you want to talk about business, you should follow the company law.As far as I know, this is a joint stock company. The company makes money and loses money. What does it have to do with my father's life and death? We're here for your father! Yes, you want to make money without losing money, don’t you?If you earn it, it is yours, if you lose it, it will be credited to your late father!Come beat the dog in the water!I have repeatedly emphasized the dog in the water, hoping that he can recall that period of the past. Who doesn't want to make money?You just need to hand over the management rights and let us earn money.Apparently it's been so long that he can't remember it at all. Great, all uncles and uncles are here, and the re-election of the chairman is just that.I know some of you here, such as Uncle Cao, and Uncle Liu, a NUS representative.I have also met Mr. Xiang, and it is the first time I have met the others.No one spoke, but from Uncle Cao's eyes, I saw some expectations, and I was very courageous. Only then did Mr. Xiang say: Zhu Bangfu has the right to attend the meeting on behalf of Mr. Zhu. Who has any objections? Mr. Li sat down angrily, and no one expressed his opinion. Mr. Xiang said again: Director Liu, you and Mr. Li are in charge of running Lin Juyuan Plastic Factory.What's your opinion? I don't know the factory manager Liu, he looks very smart and capable. He said: "The workers won't let us in. What can we do?" Mr. Li also said: That lease is useless, why mention it? Why didn't it work?The plastic factory is still producing and doing business. If it weren't for this lease, the court would have taken back the auction.Also, only our company is legal, why not us in business? Then go and run it, as long as you have the ability!Mr. Li has a domineering face, extremely domineering. I saw that Mr. Xiang gave me a wink, and I knew there was a reason for what I said. The wicked person has already done it, so what are you afraid of? Mr. Li, I know that you are a political worker. Unfortunately, the younger generation also received training at the Political Work Cadre School.I know that to be ruthless, one must use authority: obedience is the bounden duty of a soldier, and I believe there are regulations in the political work manual. If the tasks assigned by the above are not capable of being completed, who is responsible? what do you mean? What I mean is that if the company does not make money, it must first be held accountable.The other juniors don't understand, but they have collected some information.If someone in the company colludes with outsiders and seeks profit without permission, we can go to the court to sue to see who is producing illegally?Although I don't know the inside story, I suspect that Liu and Li must be related. Fuck, suckling!I don't like your tricks!Mr. Li became furious and patted the table again. Surnamed Li!Don't think about running wild here!You are not qualified!I yelled loudly and took out the dantian energy of singing opera. Even though I didn't break the glass, it still made everyone in the venue lose their color. Director Liu immediately stood up and pulled Mr. Li away. Mr. Li had no face to stay any longer and left angrily. The result of the meeting was that if Mr. Liu could take over the factory, I would be responsible for raising funds, otherwise the company would declare bankruptcy. Of course I don't have any money, but I know that freezing three feet doesn't happen overnight.Regardless of whether someone is playing tricks or not, the time has dragged on for so long, and the acceptance of the factory is by no means such a simple matter.If there is a factory, it will not be difficult to find money again. Facts have proved that my judgment was correct. The factory failed to receive it successfully, and no one from the company asked further questions, so it ended without a problem.Mr. Xiang saw that I seemed to have made a lot of achievements, so he tried his best to persuade me to cooperate with him and start anew.When I first heard his plan, it seemed that tall buildings could be raised from flat ground immediately, which really moved my heart. However, after I verified them one by one, I found that although he spoke beautifully, he didn't fulfill any of them.What especially made me suspicious was that he often played double-faced tactics. Every time he said that he would introduce some important people to meet me, in the end there would always be some reasons why he could not officially come forward, and his cronies represented him.Why keep looking for famous people?Are these people the only ones who can do things, and why can't they come forward?Is there any wrongdoing involved? I never ask too much, just observe with my heart.Those so-called cronies are indeed in the same office as their backstage bosses, but they can't decide anything.No matter how big or small, you have to ask for advice, and even a little sesame will take ten days and a half a month, which is not the attitude of investing in business at all. What puzzles me is that many people say that he is a big liar. It is possible to deceive my father, so what is the value of me?Seeing that he was very busy, he took me around.He rented an office, found a female secretary, took out a thick plan, and planned to implement it step by step.I watched from the sidelines, wondering what part I was playing.However, from the beginning to the end, apart from emboldening him, I still didn't know what his purpose was for pulling me. However, I did another absurd thing, suggesting to my husband that I find a few classmates, so that we can gather strength to make things happen.I think this is a good idea, because I am too subjective, and some students may see it more clearly.So, I found a few students who were engaged in club activities at the university, including Zhuang Ling, the squad leader, A Qun, A Kun, Xiao Duan, and a student surnamed Zhuo who was the mayor of Xindian at that time. There were seven or eight people in total. . Unexpectedly, these classmates are younger than me, and after a while, they will trust Lao Xiang even more than I do.Everyone thinks that he is an underappreciated genius think tank, and they almost obey him. As a result, my confidence was shaken. Could it be that I was biased?Just because he didn't succeed today doesn't mean he's incapable.His plan is indeed well-founded, as long as we can follow the steps, what is wrong with it? I have a principle that I will never do anything that violates laws and disciplines. As long as I don't understand anything else, it falls within the scope of what I should know. Lao Xiang gave me another idea, asking everyone to sworn brothers as a token of sharing weal and woe.I was stunned by profit for a while, coupled with the pride that I have always yearned for the world, I agreed without thinking deeply. We were sworn brothers in a land temple in Yonghe. The eldest is of course Mr. Xiang, and the second and third are friends introduced by Mr. Xiang, claiming to work in the China Information Bureau.The others, in order of descending order, are all young, self-righteous young men like us.It's a promise, blood is an alliance, and I don't feel any chemical changes in our relationship. After Mr. Xiang found out that Aqun's family was engaged in a distant-water fishing industry, he actually wanted to match us, a brother and sister.I firmly oppose it, not for anything else. I respect A Qun a lot, but I never regard her as a woman.When she was in the agricultural college, her classmates thought that she must be an entrepreneur in the future, smart, calm, and rich in family.I consider myself an artist, full of romantic fantasies, unrealistic, we are not fellow travelers! A scene appeared in my mind, if I combined with Ah Qun, I would ask her about everything: what's the point?And she would ask me: what's the plan? This time I came to her not to do some business.My selfishness is that after we succeed, I can hand over the responsibilities of my family, fly far away, and go back to Brazil to pursue my dream! However, the brothers all said in unison that I must agree.I remember that Aqun once introduced a girlfriend to me. Since he was willing to introduce it to me, he obviously has no interest in me. There was no such thing in the past, and of course it is even more impossible to have one now.So, I agreed, but there was one condition, that is, I had to see Ah Qun's attitude first, and we had to date him for a period of time. Everyone laughed at me for not having common sense. What kind of condition is this?But I have other plans in my heart. I believe that after Ah Qun understands my real intention, she will be a down-to-earth person and never want to fish for moons in the water. So Mr. Xiang came forward to talk to A Qun.He brought back a piece of good news. According to A Qun, her father had passed away, and her elder brother was completely in charge of the family affairs. Therefore, her marriage had to go through her elder brother's hurdle first. All the coincidences that have happened to me in my life are related to my peculiar personality.I react very quickly, see very far, and have deep opinions. Unfortunately, my luck is extremely bad.As a result, everything does not conform to the world situation, and coincidences are added to coincidences, and strange things are strange. It turns out that her elder brother is also a master. He graduated from National Taiwan University, and he is also a front-runner in school. Let's call him Brother Zhang here.Brother Zhang asked me to invite me to a restaurant for a drink.His motto is: If a man cannot play with others, he is not manly; if he cannot drink, he is not bold enough;Because the so-called big event is to gamble every day and all the time! Mr. Xiang is very worried, he, Zhuge Liang, will have a day when he will be helpless!He judged that Elder Brother Zhang was testing me, so it was best to hang up the card of avoiding the battle.But he also believed that those words were famous words of Napoleon, so it cannot be said that they were completely unreasonable.In case Brother Zhang really believes in this idea, but I don't want to fight, wouldn't I be defeated in the first battle? I think it's very interesting. If it weren't for Ah Qun, I would really like to make friends with this elder brother.It's a pity that I haven't been in touch with classmate A Qun for four years, otherwise the two monsters will be together, and I don't know what new things will happen in the world. I decided to go to the appointment, and the squad leader and Zhuang Ling knew that I never drank alcohol and could not drink alcohol.Several people discussed it and decided to make a sacrifice hit at that time. I can't let me strike out as soon as I hit the base. It was the first time in my life that I entered a restaurant, and Yingying and Yanyan were completely out of my sight. I wanted to see what Aqun's attitude was.Unexpectedly, she couldn't avoid her face, Brother Zhang had already arrived, and he had already fought with Mr. Xiang. Seeing me, Brother Zhang really looked like the big brother in the movie, without raising his eyes, he waved his hand: Ah, you are Zhu Bangfu! I sat down unceremoniously, and then, the brothers took turns toasting Brother Zhang one by one.Elder brother Zhang didn't hesitate until the wine was dry, he didn't even raise his eyebrows. After being busy for a while, my protagonist hadn't even had a drop, Mr. Xiang poured out first, and Zhuang Ling and Akun also disappeared.Only the squad leader and Elder Brother Zhang were left at the table, two out-of-the-ordinary people, talking nonsense. It was almost twelve o'clock, the time when the carriage turned back into a pumpkin.Brother Zhang couldn't keep his eyes open, the class leader was talking incoherently, and Mr. Xiang, who didn't know anything about personnel, was on the table.Only me, an outsider, watched the scene full of excitement, and I couldn't figure out who is the protagonist?Who is the supporting cast? Apparently Brother Zhang stood up suddenly and said: No way, after thinking for a long time, he pointed at me and said: I still want to watch you play with women! The little squad leader also woke up, hurriedly pulled Mr. Xiang up, and smoothed things over and said: It's too late, next time Mr. Xiang was woken up, managed to pull himself together, and said: Yes!right!Let's talk about it next time! Brother Zhang ignored it at all, called the foreman to come, signed the signature and went downstairs. A few people staggered out of the gate, the driver was still waiting, Brother Zhang said: Go to Beitou. At this time, Mr. Xiang and the squad leader panicked and said to me in unison: Don't go! I thought it was funny and said aloud: Why don't you go?I'm about to try my hand at it! In the end, only Brother Zhang and I got in the car, and everyone else felt that something was wrong and went home. We didn't talk along the way, and when we arrived in Beitou, I actually called a lady.When I went upstairs, I told her privately that I came here for a bet, so nothing happened overnight.Because I was still on my guard, I didn't dare to really hire prostitutes, and besides, in that case, it was indeed difficult for me to meet the high standards set by Napoleon. Early the next morning, the people in the brothel told me that the gentleman who came with me paid the bill last night and left without stopping for a moment.Afterwards, Aqun never participated in our activities again, and Mr. Xiang never mentioned this case again. I have been fooling around with him for more than a month, only to find out that he specializes in using the dark side of society to collude with corrupt officials.I have already seen through these, and there are few exceptions in ancient and modern China and foreign countries.He has a first-class manner of speaking, quick-witted and shrewd, and knows all kinds of tricks in society like the back of his hand.In all fairness, as long as he is lucky, he can indeed make a big career out of it.But we are on the same path, I want to earn some money to support my stepmother, if I use his method, I will die for myself. I just hope that the contract of the Linjuyuan factory will be settled. We found a scalper in the court and negotiated that Huaiyuan Company would give up the lease, and then the court would officially auction off the real estate of the factory (actually only the land was valuable).Since we own the lease, outsiders don't know the inside story, so they must not dare to bid rashly.We can buy it at the lowest price when no one bids.The scalper promised that we could earn at least 10 million Taiwan dollars if he changed hands. The announced land value of that piece of land is about 10 million yuan, and the court will auction it off at a 20% discount.In terms of market price, it can be sold for at least 30 million yuan.It's just that when bidding, you have to pay 10% of the bid deposit, which is 800,000 NT dollars. The whole problem is how to raise the 800,000 NT dollars. After a few discussions with the brothers, Xian thought it would not be difficult to collect 800,000 yuan, but I was afraid that the bid would not be available, or if it was available, it would not be sold.Since I have no money, it is inconvenient to participate in their discussions, so I have to avoid and hide away by myself, completely ignorant of how they distribute it. On the day of the bid opening, only Zhuang Ling carried a bag of 100,000 yuan borrowed from a friend.The rest of the people, including the squad leader, all handed in blank papers, and the second, third and Lao Zhuo didn't even see their shadows at all.As a result, everyone in the court thought we were safe, but we didn't even fill in the bid form, so the bid was lost. I know very well that I am not suitable for doing business. If I have no capital, how can I get huge profits?我也認為向先生言過其實，勸小班長及時回頭，但是他們認為我有心病，於是我決定離開。透過父親以往的關係，一位父執輩朋友介紹我到台灣電視公司，找了一個電影導播的工作，先有了正常的收入與穩定的職業，解決生活問題再說。 後來，同學們告訴我，第二次開標時，一位知道內情的人以底價七十萬得了標，轉手賣給台灣汽水公司，淨賺了一千多萬元。 當時在台灣只有一家電視公司，自製節目也很少，多半是租放美國影片，發聲仍用英語，只是加上中文字幕，配合播出。這種由翻譯到臨片播出的工作，就由電影導播擔任。以我的英語程度，連聽懂普通對話都還有問題，怎麼夠資格做翻譯？可是，找工作不容易，說不得，只好盡人事聽天命了。 剛開始，我每週只翻譯一部半小時的片子，如果有劇本，可以拿到五百多元，否則翻譯費加倍。這樣算來，每個月有三千元的收入。好在我住在家中，無需房租，只有母子二人，所以生活差堪維持。 一進入情況後，我就發覺翻譯影片非常容易，先看上一遍，即使連一句英語都不懂，也可以編出一套對白來。事實上，我做了兩年的翻譯工作，都是譯、編參半。這種做法有個很大的優點，就是頗能符合國情，觀眾很容易就瞭解劇情，接受內容。 不久，我的工作量日漸增加，每週平均有兩個小時的節目。有一個綜藝節目蘇利文劇場，其中很多美國式的笑話，不僅難懂，就算文句聽懂了，也莫名其妙。我一概翻成中國式笑話，結果各方反應極佳。此外，節目中有很多優美的歌曲，別的導播為了省事，一概不理。我則花了很大的功夫，字字斟酌，譯成既可欣賞又易於歌唱的詞句。一時觀眾紛紛來信索取，電視週刊也闢專欄登載。 有一次，節目部裡一位很熟的編審來找我，說我編譯的曲子一概由他來審查。我沒想到別的，只感到又是安慰，又是惶恐，便說：你別礙於情面，如果不能通過，千萬不要客氣。 how could be?你的曲子非常受歡迎，到處有人要。 別人要並不見得就好，你該怎麼辦就怎麼辦。 我這一關通過後，就可以正式公佈，你可以賺大錢呢！ 這種曲子又不是通俗的流行歌曲，哪裡能賺錢？ 只要一經公佈，電視台、歌廳就可以唱了呀！一唱就有版稅，否則是違法的。 可是曲子不好，又有誰會唱呢？ 你是真傻？還是裝傻？ 我被他搞糊塗了，說：裝什麼傻？ 他把眉毛一抬，氣呼呼地說：你又不是新來的，難道連這個規矩都不懂！ What rules?我真的是不懂，但他不再解釋，逕自走了。後來我去打聽，才知道他是來要紅包。此後，我所有的譯曲全被他審定為灰色、不健康而被禁唱。 這時我的外務很多，每天要應付各種頭疼的問題，反正只是為了興趣，所以並不介意。後來又有好幾次機會，有人委托我製作電視節目，偏偏每次都是這位編審負責。一遇到他，我就自動地撤消原議，免得再自找沒趣。 由於我翻譯的影片節目頗受歡迎，慕名的筆友很多，每天的信件應付不完。其中有兩位女孩子，當時都還在讀書，常常向我討教一些人生的問題。這才是我所樂意討論的，往往為了回一封信，絞盡腦汁，遠比翻譯影片還要困難。 其中一位筆名叫做程瀛，她對人生的艱辛很有概念，問的問題遠比她的年齡要深刻得多。我們保持了兩年多的信件來往，本來我也希望見見她，與她進一步地深交。再一想，我認為自己不應該結婚，為了避免無謂的麻煩，因此始終與她保持距離。 當中國電視公司開播後，台視決定將下午的節目時間延長，全由電影補充。突然間我們的工作量增加了兩倍，而我又不知利害，一口氣接下四、五個小時的節目。 那一陣子，除了一些與工作無關的雜務外，我每天平均要翻一部片子。此外又要剪接影片的廣告、送檢、對稿、臨場播出，忙得天昏地暗，亂七八糟。可是鈔票賺得痛快，最高峰時，月入台幣三、四萬塊（當時尚無所得稅），比我們部門的經理賺得還多。 人不能有錢，來得容易，去得也快。我根本忘了自己是誰，數數鈔票，不消幾年，我豈不成了百萬富翁？工作既然如此辛苦，怎能不輕鬆一下？同事們笑我是守財奴，強邀我去打牌，想贏我的錢？人狂起來，真的相信自己無所不能，當然我也毫不例外。 一個多月下來，我輸了近萬元，越輸越氣，越氣越輸。白天已經忙得不可開交，有時累得眼皮都睜不開，但是一聽到打牌，滿以為根據或然率，也該我贏上一次了，而且要贏就得贏多一點。結果不僅贏不了，反而輸得更慘。精神不濟之餘，播放節目時失誤累累，甚至於還開過天窗！最後，翻譯的片子被取消了幾部，收入也減少了，頭腦才漸漸清醒過來。 除了打牌，還要應酬，我也學會上舞廳，舞廳裡鶯鶯燕燕，沒有一個不灌迷湯。同去的公司同仁，多多少少都還有點名氣，我也恭逢其盛。既然在台視電影組，理所當然被捧為電影導演。 我一直忍受著生理的折磨，也一直期望有一個知心伴侶。在舞廳昏暗的燈光下，身邊的舞小姐們，看來看去，無不搖曳生姿。難道煙花巷裡就無芳草？她們也是人，只因生活所迫，走上末路，為什麼我不給她們一點機會呢？ 當我把要求的水準一放鬆，判斷能力也就喪失了，心理不再設防，生理需求就像燎原的野火，一發不可收拾。在同事的慫恿下，我開始帶她們出場，最初還有些扭捏。不要多久，我就像老手一般，真把自己當作電影導演了。 然而，在多年自我訓練之下，潛意識的控制力仍在，每次荒唐之後，不僅沒有一絲快慰，反而更增心底的厭惡。 性是什麼？有人嗜之若命，最忌別人笑他無能。尤以當今西方大力推廣性文化之際，包括學者專家在內，無不鼓吹性對人心理的重要。是以原本一種屬於飲食分類之生理行為，一躍而成時髦的主流，不論男女，皆以追求性感為傲。 當人將性感視作推銷的訴求時，也就是說，其人之性徵已經公開，任人選購玩弄。人能無知至此，我還有什麼話說？人之所以穿衣著褲，保暖是目的之一，遮羞實為主因。連亞馬遜河的原始印地安人，都要加上一條丁字褲呢！ 我認為，性是一種私密性的代表，人總有一些行為，僅能與自己最親密的對象共享。有人願意放棄他的隱私，我不反對，別人說我落伍，我也不在意。我堅持自己的理想，絕不承認人應該是生理的奴隸，既然如此，我就不能再墮落下去。 我設法改弦易轍，透過朋友的介紹，結識了不下十多位各式各樣的女孩。嫻淑端莊的，只能坐著扮塑像，一開口就俗不可耐；那妖冶浪漫的，比諸流燕毫不遜色，我又覺得難以長處。再想想，這又是何苦？交女朋友的目的何在？解決性的問題？還是打算結婚？ 後來，為了保持心理平靜，我找到一位還談得來的舞女。彼此談好條件，每週一次，請她到我家來，做著金錢與生理的交易。可是，沒有多久，她就向我哭訴，希望能夠和我結婚。我終於清醒了，性與婚姻始終是一體的兩面。如果我不願意傷害別人，又不想結婚的話，就把性驅離我的身邊吧！ 由於電視台自製節目日漸增加，影片相對的減少了，我知道不能永遠靠翻譯影片維生。在我剛回台灣時，還沒見到照相業採用閃光燈，我便把諾曼的產品加以改進，權將車房當作工廠，雇了位技師，先做了外殼。別的不說，當時在台灣很難買到電子零件，僅僅自行進口一百個閘流控制器，就花了我幾萬塊。 為了避免無謂的損失，我特別去申請新型專利。按照規定專利未核淮前，產品不得上市。因此，我把工廠暫停，技師薪水照發。等了一年多，專利還是沒有消息，這時市面上已有好幾家在生產銷售閃光燈了，其線路設計竟與我所申請的一模一樣。 我無意與他人爭訟，放棄了閃光燈。又與朋友合夥做塑膠像，但因凝固過程不能控制，最後也告失敗。 我一直醉心於電影，回國不久，宮家的老八宮天美，剛從藝專編導科畢業。我們臭味相投，組織了一個小型的影劇社，參加的都是他的同學。活動還未開場，由於有的要當兵，有的要出國，人數始終湊不全。只辦了幾次戲劇講習，這些科班新秀們就狀似泥菩薩，最後不了了之。 天美有位叫孟加的同學，正要主持一個熱門音樂會，請我負責舞台設計。由於經費的限制，我放棄了舞台裝潢，集中精力在燈光的彩色上，要以流動的色彩，來襯托音樂的氣氛。 我找遍了台北，除了聚光燈、頂燈及腳燈外，其他的旋轉燈、排燈、特殊效果燈等一應皆無，更別提光效控制、聲光同步以及各種特殊效果了。國內條件之差，令我大吃一驚，連彩色玻璃紙的色號都不齊全。不得已，我只好自己動手裝配，做了一套只有五百瓦的靈魂燈，加上拚湊出來的手動色調分光控制閘。 儘管簡陋不堪，那次在台北中山堂舉辦的幾場普普演唱會，竟然場場爆滿，好評如潮，黃牛票賣到十倍以上。 第二次再辦，經費較多，我請中視記者張照堂用電影背景作為活動舞台，租了噴霧器、吹泡機，又設計了音響控音器等。演出時，只忙得我焦頭爛額，由於是臨時湊和，事先未排練，協調不夠。而且花樣太多，缺乏主題，反不及把燈全部關掉，用靈魂燈配著孟加熱舞一場來得討好。 這種嘗試何嘗不是藝術？有了經驗，我打算精心設計一種夠水準的電子操控器，以避免人為的各種失誤。想不到因為我們的成功，無論是什麼人，都搶著要辦演唱會了。中山堂租不到，樂隊身價也水漲船高，連我們幾個合夥人也意見不同了。 我不願湊熱鬧，立刻打了退堂鼓。在這段時間前後，曾有人請我去規劃碧潭樂園。沒做多久，園主又計劃要在半山建一座大佛像，如此一來，景觀將完全被破壞。我堅決反對，最後又是掛冠而去。也曾因為一段感情因素，參與改善今日百貨公司頂樓的今日樂園。但由於他們內部權利鬥爭不止，加以那段感情迅速的凋萎，一切又都成了昨日黃花。 親友都說我不務正業，見異思遷，做事沒有常性。照當時的情形，的確如此，我沒有什麼好解釋的。但是，我有我的看法，在富足的社會上，人們需要娛樂以打發日益充裕的時間。我們有責任提供大眾高水準、變化多端且具有教育意義的娛樂節目。在美國時，我去過狄斯奈樂園，除了園內的各種設備令我嘆為觀止外，那些主題卻使我失望不已。去一次尚可增加見識，多去幾次，簡直味同嚼臘。 中國有中國的特色，為什麼一定要抄襲外人呢？開演唱會時，我想利用機會推廣中文熱門歌曲，歌者卻不願意，他們以會唱英文歌曲為榮。規劃碧潭樂園，我又打算把中國的古代文物風光，依山傍水，配合歷史的興衰，建成一座座古意盎然的建築。任何遊客來到其中，必須租用道具，換上衣裝。猶如時光倒流，雖生在今日，依然可以體驗當年之風土人情。 從另一面說來，觀光事業號稱無煙囪工業，外國人不遠千里迢迢而來，他們希望看些什麼呢？當然是我們的特色，而且是屬於過去，不可能再復返的那些風俗景物。除了外國人，對我們年輕一代，甚至上一輩，能目睹已逝的文物衣冠，何嘗又不是一種寓娛樂於文化教育的活動呢？這種工程雖然需要大量的投資，但回收極快，只要有完善的計劃，有適合的環境，我相信不難找到資金。 可是，機會就在眼前，有遠見者卻如鳳毛鱗角，我一向是寧願信其有，盡力而為。如果只為了找個工作，混碗飯吃，還不如老老實實的在電視公司待下去。 總之，事後冷靜地自我檢討，這是我一生之中最混亂的兩年。想做點事，但與別人的觀念無法配合；想賺點錢，卻沒有賺錢的手段，又不願意利用機會，最後一切成空。這且不說，金錢的周遭都是一些陷阱，任何人一沾上邊，便被一層又一層的誘惑套得牢牢的，一陷下去，就難以脫身。幸而我有錢的時間並不長，所涉及的事務也不多，故所陷不深，回頭尚早，否則後果很難想像。